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NZ Govt drive people to SUICIDE on purpose

I want to say so much on this page, I want to scream and yell that 99% of the garbage you read about suicide is just that – garbage.  Neo-liberal garbage, when all over the world one of the first things neo-liberals do when they take over a country is shut down mental health services and make sure these disabled people are homeless.  This of course causes all sorts of harm in society, which in turn creates jobs in the security and justice industries.

If people were getting health care they are entitled to then why am I terrorised by police – under authority from #suicideprevention ‘EXPERTS’ advice??????  Why am I being denied mental health care I am entitled to – why have media censored and refused to publish what is happening to me all these years???????

Why am I in court for Misuse of a Telephone – which ACC demanded – for screaming for help when I was really unwell.  They then dropped the charges but six weeks later did a new set of charges?  Which I was really upset about, responded by using chalk pen on police station window and was consequently violently assaulted for it.

Why have I been fighting for 15 years since I was raped to get the health care I am entitled to under ACC and multiple other laws?  Why are so  many laws that protect vulnerable disabled powerless people against abuses of power being violated and the agencies supposed to protect us are NOT DOING IT.  Which is why I protest a lot at Human Rights Commission, etc.  Both who had police sent to my home yet again to terrorise me and serve me a trespass notice for putting up art in their offices.

The reason suicide prevention is so bad is its suggestions are mostly from family members – family members who obviously DON’T KNOW how to help someone who is suicidal – so why do they get all the say in suicide prevention.  AND I KNOW THERE ARE GOOD FAMILIES WHO REALLY CARE BUT FROM MY EXPERT ANALYSIS I WOULD SUGGEST 80% of families are shit – are the cause of the person being suicidal, are going through shit – are overworking and under-living due to necessity, or overworking and ignoring their family members due to greed and so many nice things to buy or overseas trips to go on.

Listening to Labour and National spouting rhetoric about  mental health triggers me badly after years of the same lies – lies – lies and more lies.

Now we’ve got some other tossers running a suicide-prevention charity – this is run by UNIONS and workers in mental health – the majority of whom are abusers & covering up abuse by colleagues and management.

I have done EVERYTHING legally possible to make formal complaints about abusive and unprofessional mental health care – I am ignored – all of it ignored.  The people ensuring this nightmare of hell for me and soooooo many others are from two camps.  Those who hate disabled poor people and think they are a waste of oxygen – lots of suicidal people get told that – especially by health workers (doctors are great at it).  The other camp are the do-gooders, they just don’t believe living environments, poverty, discrimination and health care is that bad in New Zealand that it drives people to suicide.  They still believe we should bring in refugees from other countries – when we have 10,000s terrorised refugees in this country – just because they don’t see the war in the darklands – means it doesn’t exist.  NZ media play a huge part in cover up just how bad mental health services and our country has become.

Still reading MAx Harris’ book The New Zealand Project – meet him recently & we talk on twitter.  He’s right with most of what he is saying, the thing he gets wrong is neo-liberalism was actually illegal. – its the basis of our most basic laws.  Like I keep saying, Westminister Statute the First and Magna Carta – they also violate multiple criminal laws – when you don’t carry out a contractual or legal contract and that results in harm to someone then you are a criminal.  That’s what ACC do, that’s why our government do, they know what they do because I write to lots of them.

I hate elections, its when all the really revolting haters in our media come out and get even more abusive towards poor people.  Whenever I watch international media talking about neo-liberalism in other countries I can’t believe it – what’s happening in NZ is happening everywhere these terrorist scum go.  And what makes me most upset is New Zealand has been the country LEADING the neo-liberal and globalist charge more than any other.  We are the most stupid, we are the most corrupt, we hate our disabled and poor the most, we have least compassion, we have the most corrupt/ignorant/naïve justice agencies, we drive children to suicide and then govt blame communities.  We have communities saying they care about suicide and yet terrorise people like me who are suicidal and speaking out before we die.

I know this doesn’t sound good, but I’m feeling really bad today and have yet been disappointed by Ministry of Health and legal system.  Apparently when they exposed that I wasn’t in fact getting services as police had been told, that I would have access to care – but that was weeks ago and nothing has happened – nothing will happen I am sure.

The thoughts of self harm are really bad, I was doing so well until a week before the court case, then everything got much worse.  I feel OK but my behaviour is bad, smoking continuously which I hate, the thoughts of self-harm are really vivid, knives slicing up my arm – I have to contend with randomly all day.  Little control over my eating, every minute of the day I try not to eat, my weight has skyrocketed.  I know I’ve got diabetes I feel sick all the time now – I can’t see a doctor – because I don’t have one.  The one I did have was abusive and believed what mental health and ACC had said – the same people who told police I didn’t want care and lots of people had tried to help me.
Bulimia is bad, my incontinence is bad (was supposed to have tests 3 years ago but no mental health worker to go with me – so no tests – just humiliation and degradation of pissing myself regularly.

I get some good health professional supporting everything I am saying and asking for, then I get local health workers doing exactly the opposite and getting police to terrorise me on top of that.  Turn up in the middle of the night for a welfare check – knowing you are unwell.  Violently arresting you 8.30pm Xmas Eve for phoning health line because I was sick with flu and distraught that I had to move again and was getting no services.  I was so traumatised by that arrest I have nightmares about it – the degrading behaviour of officers and mental health services – well – like I said there should be criminal charges laid.

then of course you could talk about years of police telling their wives and families I was a nutter and not to let their kids at my house.  I have two well adjusted daughters 22 & 23, EVERYBODY says what a credit they are to me, they both work – they didn’t turn out like that by accident – no matter what people say.  Because I had studied enough to know my disorder (Complex PTSD) and the damage it can do to future generations I protected them from my dysfunction and best I could.

So many people I meet agree with what I say about mental health, ACC & justice services – so many are abused women who then get their children taken off them because they ask for help.

I can’t go on, what’s the point, I’ve said what I have for years, nobody listens, the wrong people get the power and they do even worse to terrorise suicidal people.  Every one of those people responsible for the abusive suicide prevention terror refuses to meet with me, refuses to listen to anything I say about what ACTUALLY happens in the real world with their ignorant bigoted policies.

For years I have protested around Parliament, sung, recited poetry and begged for help – I was ignored – because apparently you are not allowed to get angry.  If you are being persecuted to get a voice you have to be passive and quiet – not allowed to be angry, not allowed to expose the most vile govt corruption and abuse.

NEW ZEALAND IS THE NEO-LIBERAL SHIT HOLE OF THE SOUTH PACIFIC.  Neo-liberals drove 10,000s of people overseas to find work, ripped families apart, for what?  So they could make rich people rich and make money out of the disabled and poor they terrorised for their religious beliefs – because neo-liberalism is now being called a religion – and if you think about the hatred that spews out of the mouths of the richest and those who hate poor – then you know its true.

Those haters of poor – like Bill English – who called everybody on long-term welfare, addicted to it are the cause of the suffering and suicide in NZ.

 

 

New Zealand No 1 for homelessness in OECD

Its weird in New Zealand how it takes international organisations to highlight some of the worst social problems – while our government, media and National party voting leaders throughout our communities DENY what is going on with everything they have.

Actually its quite deranged – its why I get the abuse, insults and being discredited that I do from those in authority here.  Why no local mayor will respond to my requests for a meeting about mental health, poverty homelessness etc – yet they are often on the front page of local newspapers welcoming new people here.  In complete denial these new rich people are driving out disabled poor locals.

I never thought of Wairarapa as some sort of red-neck cauldron of hatred against poor and love of rich – but it truly is.  The kids used to call it death valley when they were teenagers – they knew – it was for them of course, after neo-liberals drove all the manufacturing jobs overseas in the 80s and 90s, they also drove most of the young out of the region and to Australia.  I know a few people who ended up in Aussie and are so much happier – mostly with how they are treated by their bosses.

Been doing a lot on twitter at the moment, conversations from all over the world, lately the UK – people can’t believe how bad it is here – they have been brainwashed into believing New Zealand is this amazing beautiful place with pristine environment, lovely people and little crime – LOL.  NZ is great at marketing of course – that’s it – after years of exploiting our environment and degrading the poorest and most vulnerable we have some of the most polluted waterways in the world, we have the highest rate of suicide and homelessness in the OECD, highest rates of family violence (due to people being terrified, stressed and forced to live in dangerous situations).

All my years of protesting in Wellington – our capital city – telling people in power (especially in our judiciary) just how bad things are for me and so many others.  I certainly don’t get the abuse from people in suits I used to get when I started 7 years ago – don’t have any health care or a safe home ot live in either – go figure.

Being charged for Misuse of a Telephone for screaming for my ACC care to be reinstated after winning two reviews, and for graffiti with a chalk pen and wilful trespass must be getting under the skin of the police by now.  Those in power in the police are so corrupt and so much part of this radicalised neo-liberal terrorism by rich of poor, I do wonder if they truly realise what they are doing.  I reakon this election is certainly hitting home to those in justice, just how they have failed New Zealands poor – who they no know are being persecuted by rich – the oldest hatred in developed world – the reason we have laws was to stop rich and powerful persecuting poor and powerless.

Still praying my health care will be restored as my physical health is deteriorating, especially with my huge increase in weight – makes me feel like shit – I try not to let it.  My mental health swings from hope to complete despair, I can see how people are driven to bi-polar, along with living in a world that says it cares for you but really it HATES you.

In New Zealand our government and leaders HATE disabled and poor people so much they deny them somewhere safe to live – where we were once heralded as the most progressive and egalitarian country in the world – now we are EXACTLY THE OPPOSITE.  The rich here have got so much richer and the hatred they continue to inflict on those THEY MADE UNEMPLOYED AND THEY DENY HEALTH CARE, WELFARE AND HUMAN RIGHTS entitlements to is so disturbing.

That’s why I get terrorised by police and many others like I do, that’s why I am denied health care I am entitled to and yet those denying it tell police and community I JUST DON’T WANT HELP.

After my protest at Min of Health couple of weeks ago I am in discussions with a senior medical officer, a nice man, A NORMAL PERSON with manners and who acts like a professional, so hopefully that will get me some care – he’s working on it.  I’m trying not to get my hopes up as when they are dashed – like they always have been in the past – the suicidal nightmare in my head is BAD, REALLY BAD – dont’ think I’ll survive it if this fails.

Am still thinking about documentary I saw by Naomi Klein called The Shock Doctorine, the truth of how completely vile the super rich and our governments truly are is comforting for me.  All these years me and so many other New Zealanders – including my dad (who is dead now) have known something was very very wrong with our government and how they were controlling our economy/lives – all of us placated and told it wasn’t true, that government weren’t doing that to us at all.  That government had to do this to us, had to sell off all our public owned assets, had to privatise everything, had to exploit our environment until it was polluted and our kids got sick swimming in the rivers.  We were all so naive and so brainwashed, especially by those we knew who were doing OK and those in our news media.  Watching TV 1 adverts for how great their news is, how honest and local it is, how it tells the truth and covers all the angles – when I’m sitting here knowing they censor everything I know say and do and what is happening to me for legally protesting.

Watching the deceit and marketing coming from our media about suicide is the hardest thing to watch – knowing they are pushing suicidal people into services that are going to degrade, abuse and persecute them even more.  On Wednesday last week, stupid me, yet again phoned media begging them to tell my story and everything that was happening in Wairarapa – why we were NO 1 in NZ for suicide.  Had this woman from Newshub (Radio Live, TV 3 etc) (sure I’ve spoken to the revolting bitch before) on the phone encouraging me to talk, to start with I said I wouldn’t because she would call the police.  She assured me several times she wouldn’t and she would tell my story, but of course she didn’t, she phoned police who then spent the next 3 hours terrorising and threatening me.  This is how corrupt New Zealand media are – especially when it comes to the suffering of abuse victims who can’t get care they entitled to and become suicidal.  These media people love it, love terrorising people, love driving people to suicide and creating more news for themselves – its truly sick, but that’s what radicalised neo-liberals do.

I ended up taking a new friend of mine with me to the police station because after two stupid phone calls from police I knew they would end up at my house and it wouldn’t go well.  Lucky she was with me, cause they revolting cow (who has hidden complaints in the past) on the desk got one of the policemen who assaulted me to come out.  I said I didn’t want to see or speak to him, he came out anyway, it didn’t go well, I challenged him on his threatening violence against me for legally protesting and lying about Hoera assaulting me – he just stood there.  Then I started swearing, so time to leave.  You have to go and see them if someone has phoned you about mental health because that is what the government do in order to terrorise you.  The government don’t like people who suicide, it makes them look bad and their horrendous neo-liberal ideologies they inflict on us are proven to be the persecution of poor they truly are.

All the phone numbers at the end of every news item about suicide or self-harm that I know goes absolutely nowhere – yes there is someone there telling you they’re listening but they don’t do anything.  If your situation is too much for them those poor young people with psychology degrees who can’t get jobs anywhere else just hang up on you.  Wonder how many people they hang up on every day, how many times they phone police to come round and terrorise the person.

It is terrifying when police first start being involved when your mental health gets to the extreme after years of medical neglect and ongoing trauma.  You can’t understand why you would be treated like a criminal for asking for help – especially for me, when I had read ACC law and many documents on health care I was supposed to get BUT IT WASN’T AVAILABLE.

I WISH …………………………………………..  I think everybody who reads this blog will know what I wish for.

Kia kaha to us all

Wairarapa No 1 for Suicide in NZ and I know why

I been thinking about the biggest reason for Wairarapa driving so many to suicide and its the HEALTH AND DISABILITY COMMISSION.  Me and many other people I know have made complaints to them but you are never believed – because the discrimination and persecution of suicidal people is across all PLAYERS in their sick game, they just back each other up.

It is a fact Health and Disability Commission DO NOT get involved in any ‘ACCESS’ to services issues.  Phone and ask them if you want proof.  Tell them you or someone you know can’t get access to mental health services and they will tell you they can’t get involved.

In the Wairarapa I have been blacklisted by all those PLAYERS, as they are closely aligned and have regular meetings where they gossip about people challenging their incompetence, negligence and discrimination.  Over the past week protesting in Masterton I have met several people who are in the same situation – so although some people might get care – there are groups of people purposely denied services.

The head of the DHB and CEO tell board members that all complaints are dealt with by the Health and Disability Commission so they need not worry – but of course this is a lie.

I have made so many complaints to the DHB they blocked me from emailing years ago, I was telling the truth of course, but because Andrew Curtis-Cody is an intelligent psychopath who is an expert in manipulating people I was never believed.

I spent four years with a Health & Disability Advocate Louise Grant trying to get services, sending letters back and forth to Andrew Curtis-Cody, everything failed, I was refused care.  Louise agreed with me that I was being treated very badly and not professionally but under the government rules she is not allowed to take matters any further.  If the health professional refuses to admit what they have done then she can do nothing.  She is also NOT ALLOWED to forward the complaint to the Health and Disability Commission – so I had my HDC advocate completely supporting how badly I was being treated but the Commission refusing to get involved or find in my favour in any of the disputes (about 5 I think).

On one of my many police incarcerations for MY OWN WELFARE (all of which I was taken home distraught with no services) I had mental health staff around the ankles in the police station begging them for services, I was told to get up and not embarrass myself – that I knew there was no services and I shouldn’t go on like that.  So when I see that disgusting PR person Anna Cardno saying people should contact suicide services I am extremely angry – because I know there are no services – not for the likes of me anyway – and a group of other people who know their rights and ask for help.

The hatred of suicidal people is across the entire spectrum of PLAYERS in this region (it is an industry here).  Many police are the first line of vitriol, insults and discrimination – they love stripping you naked just to degrade you even further – mental health services love it too.  Most Police are violent and treat you like a violent criminal, you are handcuffed which really hurts – I suggest people on the Board ask to try some handcuffs to prove how much they hurt – especially when officers put them on really tight to punish you.

THE OTHER VERY IMPORTANT REASON IS THE HIGHEST RATE IN NZ FOR COMPULSORY TREATMENT ORDERS AND FORCED MEDICATING.

The vast majority of mental health workers in this region (that includes all those working in violence, addiction, suicide and mental health and especially Wairarapa doctors) are lazy incompetent unprofessional bigots.  They load people up on medication so they will sleep all day, they load people up on medication so they don’t have to ensure they have a safe place to live, enough food to eat and the basic necessities of life.  This medicating of people who become suicidal is of course directly related to the take-over of mental health care by corrupt immoral super rich drug companies.  Companies who people like Paul Collins and Isbister have shares in, more drugged up people more profit for them.

A counsellor once told me 20% of families are awesome with suicidal and abused people and will help them overcome their suffering.  80% are not – and many of this group will be the reason the person is suicidal – not that anybody wants to admit that and I am usually extremely abused for saying it – but I will anyway.  Then there are the families who just don’t know what to do, they rely on health professionals for information and yet are expected to heal the suicidal person themselves.  I compare it to a family being expected to perform an extensive operation on someone they love when they are not surgeons.

The government dumping of social problems like suicide, addiction and violence back on the communities who are victims of their horrendous abusive neo-liberal terrorist policies makes me sick to my stomach.  That so many people aren’t aware what is happening makes me very sad, I try and tell people, have for years but nobody will listen – nobody who votes National or Act or leads our communities wants to admit what is really going on.

WHAT NEEDS TO HAPPEN

WE NEED A POLICE INVESTIGATION AND PUBLIC INQUIRY INTO MENTAL HEALTH AND RELATED SERVICES IN THE WAIRARAPA.  We need an anonymous 0800 number set up so people who have been terrorised, degraded and abused by mental health PLAYERS can phone and be heard, have their complaints taken seriously.  Once the Wairarapa DHB and NZ find out what how bad the co-ordinated systemic abuse and discrimination is here I know people will be found criminally negligent under law.

So many appalling doctors, so many nasty police, so many mentally deranged people working in powerful positions in mental health services inflicting serious harm instead of helping those who beg for help.

Following this investigation professional rehabilitation services and facilities should be set up to provide professional care to suicidal, mentally injured and ill people.  This must address the serious housing issues and lack of APPROPRIATE residential care in the Wairarapa.  Neo-liberals always go on about jobs, we could be a centre for care of traumatised people, instead we drive these people out of the region because Wairarapa don’t like dealing with any RUBBISH they have.

THERE MUST NOT BE ANY MORE CONSULTATION WITH THE WIDER COMMUNITY

The government is using these consultations to pick out those suggestions they know will degrade and persecute suicidal people even more – not help them.  I had an excellent counsellor in Masterton who told me the situation here is appalling for so many people – especially women.  Why aren’t these health professionals being listened to?  Why are they trying to keep people alive when they know their situation is completely hopeless and NOBODY could deal with what some people in our society deal with – especially those with histories of abuse.

When will the Whare Tapa Wha model be implemented, when will professional rehabilitation models be implemented and funded so they actually work?  When will all the promises government talks about actually transfer into professional health care and welfare?

NO 1 FOR SUICIDE

Because I am currently up on seven police charges (having been acquitted of 7 last year and had charges dropped on six others), misuse of a telephone for begging for help I am entitled to and not getting, 3 for graffiti for using a chalk pen to protest about discrimination on Carterton police station window, High Court and Appeal Court in Wellington, plus 3 of wilful trespass for speaking truth to power and protesting in/outside buildings who directly responsible for my situation.

I know I have repeated some things here, sorry about that, I just need to get these things out of my head because I can’t believe this is what is happening to me and so many others.  I just want the abuse, discrimination and blatant unprofessional incompetent treatment of suicidal people to stop.

 

Wairarapa Now No 1 in NZ for SUICIDE thanks to the following people


From: Jayne
Sent: Monday, 19 June 2017 4:48 a.m.
To: donna.howard@police.govt.nz
Subject: Wairarapa now No. 1 In New Zealand thanks to your efforts

Donna,

How proud you must be that Wairarapa is now No. 1 in New Zealand FOR SUICIDE.

Makes me highly suicidal reading this in the newspaper and knowing just what I have done over the past decade to fight for professional health care I am entitled to from ACC and mental health services.  To know the entire mental health system from doctors, NGOs, community leaders, police to head of mental health are all part of this nightmare of hell I protest about.

How proud you and your staff must be for the part you play in taking Wairarapa to No. 1.  For being part of persecuting me for begging for help I am entitled to, by prosecuting me for Misuse of a Telephone and graffiti and wilful trespass for legally protesting in a non-violent way because I’m not getting it and neither are hundreds of other people in this region.  For the worst of your officers, who have done their best to terrorise, discredit and degrade me and so  many others – the ones you refuse to let me confront about it.

How proud you must be that everything I am saying is true about not being able to get mental health services and yet you refuse to protect me by using your power under Crimes Act to stop it.

How many more funerals will I have to attend and sad people will I have to comfort who have had people they love suicide?  All the time knowing how I become so suicidal at times I sit on the side of my bed rocking backwards and forwards stopping myself from walking to the knife draw and ending it because I KNOW THERE IS NO HOPE OF HEALTH CARE OR JUSTICE I AM ENTITLED TO UNDER NZ LAW.

I will be sending a similar email to the multiple people and agencies I have told about abusive mental health care in Wairarapa (mostly due to psychopath Andrew Curtis-Cody) who have done absolutely nothing.  It will include:

Carterton Medical Centre, Dr Hunefelt

Masterton Medical, Dr Rob & the Dr Helman

Greytown Medical Centre

Health & Disability Commission

Nationwide Advocacy Services for HDC

Human Rights Commission

Human Rights Tribunal

Auditor-General

MP Alastair Scott & the previous National MP

MP Ron Marks

MP Georgina Beyer

MP Marama Fox

Wairarapa Labour party

Wariarapa National party

Wairarapa Green party

NZ First party

Multiple lawyers

Te Hauora

Pathways

Wairarapa DHB – who had me prosecuted for wilful trespass for legally protesting

Wairarapa DHB members for past decade, who have phoned and abused me for telling the truth, cause they refused to accept it

SF Wairarapa

Ombudsman’s office

Wairarapa Times Age

Wairarapa News

Wairarapa radio stations

Gary McPhee – Carterton mayor

John Booth – Carterton mayor

Adrienne Staples – Sth Wairarapa mayor

Lyn Patterson – Masterton Mayor

Bob Francis – Masterton mayor

Previous Inspector of Masterton Police

Police Headquarters – Mike Bush

Ministry of Health – John Crawshaw & Mr Enfield

All Ministers of Health for past 14 years

All Ministers of mental health for past 14 years

Gillian Moulton, DHB complaints

King Street Artworks – for trespassing me for writing poetry about how bad mental health services are

etc etc etc

I can’t name any more I’m starting to get triggered as I recall all the revolting rejections and abuse I have received for telling the truth about what is going on in this revolting region.  So much of this caused by the attempted gentrification and driving out of disabled poor abuse victims and mentally ill by removing so much housing by rich powerful elites (eg Trust House).

I am human sewage the DHB decided so, Bob Francis said do nothing, pretend we do not know.  Google my song Human Sewage – I can’t sing it now without breaking down since Sgt Hoera assaulted me – but that is of no consequence to you or those who control you is it!

I will be posting this email to my website as well – just so you know and please read other postings www.jrmurphypoet.com.  Did you watch Sunday programme last night – police painted as good guys of course – unlike the nasty element in Wairarapa police.

I hate you!

Jayne Routhan

Civil Society Actor

PERSECUTED WHISTLEBLOWER

HUMAN SEWAGE LIVING IN THE DARKLANDS

 

Wairarapa Suicide Prevention Campaign – LIES and MARKETING

Abuse, discrimination, psychological torture is just a phone call away at Wairarapa DHBs SUICIDE SHOW.

Anybody reading this DO NOT BELIEVE anything you see in our news media about how great mental health services are and how much help there is that is written by anybody within our DHB or current mental health providers – THEY LIE.  They’ve been saying the same thing for years and things only get worse because what I am saying is TRUE and what they are saying is A LIE.  (There is a small group of people who do get services, the least mentally ill/suicidal 50% and the top 3% while those of us in the 50-97% group GET SHAFTED, DISCRIMINATED AGAINST, HARMED, ABUSED, DISCREDITED AND TREATED LIKE HUMAN SEWAGE.

Someone has just shown me the Wairarapa News and my suicidality is off the scale after reading that pile of lies – after all the years I have begged for help and been refused.  Even police are told by mental health services that “lots of people have tried to help you Jayne, you just don’t want help.”  THAT IS NOT TRUE!!!!  But then that lie was started by Salvation Army staff ……… and that’s another story 🙁  Wish I could show you my police file, they stopped putting all the times they were called out for welfare visits in it because it would embarrass the government.  My only criminal conviction is Wilful Trespass of Law Society for going there and refusing to leave until I got a lawyer to make them provide me professional health care I’m entitled to and stop the persecution for legally protesting.

Those phone numbers go nowhere, except to the drug abuse, discrimination and torture I describe above.  I’ve never been committed thank God, I know what awaits me after 15 years of begging for help after I was raped, the person was found not guilty and ACC started their psychological torture rather than providing the EXTENSIVE treatment and rehabilitation I was entitled to under the LAW – THAT I CAN READ. 10 years of protesting all over social media & getting story after story of the horrendous things that happen in the BIN.  Was told long time ago to NEVER EVER let them commit you Jayne, people who have will and intellect are the biggest target for mental health workers and professionals – only thing they want to do is BREAK YOU.  Nothing I have ever seen since being on this HIGHWAY OF HELL has suggested anything else than mental health services are abusive – especially to those who know the help they are entitled to and desperately need.  Then of course there was the NINE forced moves from homes due to landlords selling up to make a buck, or the violence of a flatmate, or poverty, or an abusive landlord.

A woman I know was put in Arohata for three months last year for being suicidal – I tried to help her but had to be very careful as suicidal people can drain me and make me even more suicidal – not to mention the ongoing untreated bulimia, inability to see a doctor to deal with my kidney problems, diabetes, etc, ticking, phobias, suicidality due to medical neglect and unsafe unstable housing, etc.

Andrew Curtis-Cody head of mental health, as I have said many times before is a mentally disturbed psychopath who is not appropriately qualified and the DHB love him because he abuses, degrades and rejects people to save money for them.

DHB had me dragged through court for months on wilful trespass charges  for legally protesting at Masterton hospital.  At the time my doctor was at Masterton Medical and I couldn’t even see her – though what was the point, when I couldn’t get ACC or mental health services I was entitled to BECAUSE MY MENTAL HEALTH she abused me and dumped me.  i DON’T WANT TO GO ON, I CAN’T STOP CRYING ——————  I almost threw myself in front of a car crossing the road to go to court – I was forced to represent myself and won – it was an horrendous experience.  Ask anybody at Masterton court about me – they are ashamed at way I’m being treated.

I was told by Michael Bott, Human Rights Lawyer,  I was entitled to compensation from DHB for what they did dragging me through court – the letter I received from the CEO was insulting, vicious and took absolutely no responsibility for what they did to me.  I couldn’t follow it up because I didn’t have any money, but Michael did get me off 7 other charges for legally protesting and then there were the six other times police dragged me through court and dropped charges just before trial.  Was arrested with a broken leg in a wheelchair outside Bowen House/Parliament in Wellington for protesting about that.

If you could see the CONTRACT Dr Hunefelt at Carterton Medical forced me to sign, you would understand – it says I am not allowed to say I’m suicidal – THAT IS MY DOCTOR!!!!!!!!!  I can’t even see her any more, I’m terrified of her, when I talked about mental health care she just ignored what I was saying and changed the subject – mental health and ACC had told her I was a time waster, attention seeker and they were never going to give me the services I was entitled to and had in 2009.  I can’t see another doctor either, I’ve had so many bad ones, who just reject and abuse you when they know there is no help for you – they turn on you.

I have won two ACC reviews in 2010 to have my rehabilitation reinstated from 2009, ACC tell me it will be reinstated then REFUSE TO DO IT AND THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO.  I can’t get a lawyer – ………………………………………………..

That article on suicide prevention will drive even more people to suicide because like me they all know how abusive services are.  After years of research and assessment of the situation I can assure you it is our cruel immoral government who are doing this – they sold out our mental health system to INTERNATIONAL DRUG COMPANIES – PLEASE READ MY SUICIDE PREVENTION SUBMISSION.

As for local media, I wrote Journalists are Maggots years ago to show my disgust in the lies they tell about mental health services and how services have been degraded to the point of marketing and those things they do provide are grossly inadequate, or abusive, AND DEFINITELY DON’T FOLLOW PROFESSIONAL REHABILTATION MODELS.

I have been blocked from emailing complaints to Wairarapa and Hutt Valley DHB for years – I asked Ron Mark to forward a complaint last year but he refused.  I could write a letter I suppose but I would self-harm and begging for help from these abusive, criminally negligent people, as I have done for over a decade.

They dragged me through court for protesting and local police were only too happy to oblige.

NOW I’M UP ON SEVEN CHARGES for screaming for health care I am entitled to – BECAUSE THE MEDICAL NEGLECT HAS MADE ME SUICIDAL – Misuse of a Telephone, 3 for graffiti on court buildings (USING A CHALK PEN) and police station for not being able to get police to prosecute ACC and mental health for illegally denying me care and a safe place to live – for harming me under Sections 150A 151 155 157 of Crimes Act.  Then listening to ACC and prosecuting me for misuse of a telephone, phoning them in the middle fo the night, I only allowed to phone their answerphone.  Two years ago my ACC case manager phoned and promised me my care would be reinstated – SHE LIED.  Been promised so many times – psychological torture is illegal in New Zealand.

……………………………….  Read my blog, that will tell you what is really going on.  Me and so many others know who bad it is but our media and leaders continue to deny what is going on.

Wairarapa community is of course reaping what it sows after 20 years of driving disabled, suicidal and poor out with no social housing and abusive mental health services.  While at the same time spending gross amounts of money on extravagant sports, arts and business promotion projects.  Trust House is full of National party voters & neo-liberal Labour people who completely agree with government not providing housing to disabled poor.

I have written many times and am in continuous contact with Wairarapa News and Wairarapa Times-Age through TWITTER, referring them to this website and telling them the truth of how bad it is for me and so many others – I AM DISCREDITED, DEGRADED AND IGNORED.

How many more people have to die before they listen to the FACTS I present – only reason I don’t act on the horrendous suicidal thoughts in my head that have me often rocking backwards and forwards on the side of my bed telling myself not to go to the knife draw and kill myself – is because I know that is what our cruel neo-liberal government want, that is what mental health and ACC want, that is what the leaders of our community want.  All this propaganda in the paper about how they care is just that propaganda!!!!!!!!!!!!  One day I hope all of you who never been suicidal get to experience the absolutely torture and terror of being suicidal of years on end is.  Along with all the you’ll be right, time waster, nutter, attention seeker, bludger comments you’ll get from your family, ‘friends’, journalists, politicians, & community leaders you’ll get.

I’m trespassed from King Street Artworks for writing poetry and doing art about how bad mental health services are.  I was trespassed for being upset about having my ‘political’ works censored from their annual exhibition because THEY WOULD LOSE THEIR FUNDING IF I WAS ALLOWED TO EXHIBIT IT.  You know a community is in serious decline when they persecute and censor their artists.  Please read through my books of poetry, that will show you what is truly happening in this neo-liberal nightmare of a country.

I make complaints to Health and Disability Commission, Human Rights, HDC Advocacy Services etc etc etc – all ignored.  Apparently you can’t believe anything a ‘MENTALLY ILL’ person says.  I actually have a traumatic stress disorders called Compounding Complex PTSD.  ACC call this a mental injury and have extensive rehabilitation and services they ILLEGALLY DENY people.  My mental injury does not make me stupid or a liar – in fact I have several reports saying I am intelligent, do not have a personality disorder and am not delusional.  That I had to get a report done for the courts saying I wasn’t delusional about the horrendous suffering and neglect I was being subjected to by ACC and mental health has to tell you something about how cruel immoral and corrupt our government are (National and Labour no different but the way).

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Trust House Terrorists – Heart of the Darklands

This poem that could see me / homeless in the street
For standing up to neo-liberals / crushing poor beneath their feet

They wrap themselves in charity / to cover what they do
Take from the poor, give to the rich / persecute us, not you

Rich and powerful love to build / monuments to their greed
Extravagant sports and arts supporters / and crumbs for those in need

When there’s a housing crisis / they buy a pub or two
Give more to corporate welfare / help fund a giant screw

A hockey turf, a rugby ground / a running track and more
Build a home for businesses / while people knock at their door

Trust House terrorists surround themselves / with the luxuries of life
They’ve never lived for years on end / under the neo-liberal knife

My heart bleeds for the things I see / that nobody will admit
Those that say we should trust / leaders who are not fit

You’ve been radicalised, you’re ignorant / propaganda tells you what to think
While after 30 yrs of this hell / those suffering are on the brink

Disabled poor and abused / cry themselves to sleep
Hoping they will die soon / knowing God their soul will keep

There is no hope in this tragic place / no safety net, not here
Death Valley, Wairarapa / heart of the darklands and of fear

enD

Health & Disability Commission – Terrorists of NZs disabled poor

Am currently formally retrieving information from multiple agencies for my upcoming court case, those who have refused to resolve or do anything about government health agencies refusing me professional treatment and rehabilitation or ensuring necessaries of life – ie a safe stable home to live in.

Thought I’d post the email I sent them today – HDC have already tried once to not provide the information by saying I hadn’t explained myself clearly – which I had.  Its one of the techniques they use to stop disabled people from progressing serious complaints – so watch out if you do use HDC, they will do anything they can to stop the process and make you feel stupid.

Sent: Sunday, 5 February 2017 9:53 a.m.
To: Margee Do
Subject: Re: OIA Request

Dear Ms Do,

Due to impairments related to my disorder I cannot go over the years of rejections Health & Disability Commission subjected me to, when I knew my rights, was being persecuted and denied professional health and rehabilitation models/services by multiple agencies.  However can I please have a letter from the Commissioner stating which organisations I complained about on what dates and that NONE of my complaints were ever resolved.

My HDC advocate from Nationwide HDS is sending me everything she did over the past decade to try and get me professional services without success and it will advance my legal case to have Health and Disability Commission confirm they refused to believe any of my valid and serious complaints even when Nationwide were unable to resolve them and was fully supportive of how badly I was being treated – but could do nothing without your backup.

I am also getting complaints I made to Human Right Commission, Tribunal, ACC, Salvation Army, Oasis Network, King Street Artworks, Wairarapa DHB, Ombudsman and Auditor-General that failed to uphold my rights or accept what was happening to me was a criminal violation of my human rights to professional health care.

It makes me unwell when I think those health care agencies supposed to help me persecute me instead and deny me care I am entitled to under law – but it makes me even more unwell when I know how corrupt cruel immoral and criminally negligent those who supposed to protect me from this are.  All those poor disabled abuse victims and mentally ill people in this country you are torturing (as defined by the Torture Suppression Act), who are living in misery, draining or harming those around them who also can’t cope, killing themselves or killing others – that is your fault, you people are murderers, cruel violent murderers.

My latest formal complaint is to the Privacy Commissioner, a second one about a mental health advocacy worker from Oasis.  Who told a woman I have just got to know that she couldn’t help me I was too unwell – I only wanted two things, for her to talk to police and get them to backoff (this was when things were bad and I was having nightmares they were coming to get me), she told me I should stop protesting/exercising my rights if I wanted this.  I also asked her to find and arrange for me to learn Maori weaving and Tukutuku and it ended up with her abusing me saying I was demanding too much of her.  The first complaint I made about her last year for violating my privacy and going to DHB mental health services when she said she wouldn’t and knew how I felt about them – she did and responded to me with an abusive text – was discredited and unresolved by Oasis etc.

You must know how many people like me you are rejecting (cause I hear horror story after horror story about dealings with your agency – everybody I know has given up and stopped making complaints of harm) how can you sleep at night knowing the suffering and death you cause in our society?

Sincerely

JR

Civil Society Actor

HUMAN SEWAGE


From: Margee Do <Margee.Do@hdc.org.nz>
Sent: Monday, 30 January 2017 11:38 a.m.
Subject: Re: OIA Request

Dear Ms Routhan

Thank you for your clarification. We will respond to your request in due course.

Sincerely

Margee Do ‐Legal Team Administrator
Office of the Health and Disability CommissionerPO Box 11934, Wellington 6142Level 11, TechnologyOne House, Wellington 6011
Ph: (04) 494 7900
Email: Margee.Do@hdc.org.nz


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(HAVE YOU NOTICED HOW HDC ARE TRYING TO USE THE LAW TO STOP PEOPLE MAKING PUBLIC WHAT THEY DO – OUR CORRUPT GOVT MADE THEM DO THAT – THEY WILL NEVER EVER SILENCE ME – AND IF THEY WANT TO TAKE ME TO COURT FOR MAKING THIS PUBLIC – BRING IT ON!)

To:        Margee Do <Margee.Do@hdc.org.nz>
Date:        30/01/2017 10:52 a.m.
Subject:        Re: OIA Request


Dear Ms Do,

Don’t know how I could be clearer on this matter, are you trying to avoid sending it – do you hope, due to my disability, that I won’t pursue this because that is the usual behaviour I get from agencies trying to hide something horrendous they have done to disabled people.

I want every piece of information and every complaint I have sent to your organisation since 2002, since I was raped and discovered ACC and the NZ government were persecuting and discriminating against mentally injured abused men women and children disabled by their abuse – along with every mentally ill person in New Zealand.  Denying them professional care, professional health and rehabilitation models, ensuring they became more unwell so drug companies could make more money and driving many to crime so they filled up the justice system.

One day the world is going to know what you people have done condoning this violent, torture, persecution of NZs most vulnerable people on the order of radicalised neo-liberal terrorists.

Jayne 


From: Margee Do <Margee.Do@hdc.org.nz>
Sent:
Monday, 30 January 2017 8:53 a.m.
To:
 
Subject:
OIA Request

 
Dear Ms Routhan

I am dealing with the request for information you have sent to this office on 9 January 2017, please can you kindly clarify the scope of your request. You have your requested for:


      copy of my information
–        all the formal complaints

Did you just want a copy of the complaints you have sent to this Office?

We would appreciate your clarification on this matter on or before 1 Feb 2017.

Many thanks


Margee Do ‐
Legal Team Administrator
Office of the Health and Disability Commissioner

PO Box 11934, Wellington 6142Level 11, TechnologyOne House, Wellington 6011
Ph: (04) 494 7900
Email: Margee.Do@hdc.org.nz


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From:        
Jayne Routhan <jrouthan@hotmail.co.nz>
To:        
Health & Disability Commission <hdc@hdc.org.nz>
Date:        
19/01/2017 10:18 a.m.
Subject:        
Privacy Act request for a copy of my file


Dear Sir/Madam,

Under the Privacy Act can you please send me a copy of my information and all the formal complaints I have made to the Health and Disability Commission since approximately 2002 – they are required for a criminal case.  Can you please advise if I will receive this information in the next 20 working days as required by law.

Thank you

JR
Civil Society Activist
HUMAN SEWAGE
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New Zealand Police Assault Day 2 & 3 Emails

 Mike (Masterton Police),

I have never done anything but be raped, hurt and beg for the care I needed and know I am entitled to.  I have never done a protest that wasn’t justified in a way that I know was reasonable in a civilised and just society.  I have never physically hurt anybody and never been hurt by a man until the rape & then police started hurting me for my protests.  I don’t understand, I know what the law says, I know ACC, mental health and the government aren’t following them, I know that is hurting disabled abuse victims like me and I don’t understand?  I don’t want to live this revolting life – if I can’t work I don’t want to live and yet your officers are saying this is my fault.

I’ve told you before my OT in 2009 and I had just started working on doing some role playing around going for a job interview – that’s the reason I can’t get a job.  After the abused child/man who raped me was found not guilty even when he admitted I was asleep when he started the assault my psychy couldn’t deal with it – its called overwhelming trauma.  So I became phobic of going for job interviews – I did try and do some things myself but everything failed because I got too stressed and couldn’t cope.

OH LORD I WISH I WAS DEAD – SHOT WITH A BULLET RIGHT THROUGH THE HEAD – Google it and you’ll see the rest of the lyrics – which according to your police officers are all lies and I’m offered heaps of care but refuse it. WTF.

Please don’t send them here again, I’m not going to kill myself but I know the next few days are going to be bad – really really bad.  My mother text me yesterday angry about me not going to my uncle’s funeral when everybody else was there.  Do you know how many family events I have not be able to go to since I was raped, the person found not guilty and ACC etc refused to provide me the treatment care and rehabilitation I am entitled to under law?  Did you know my family would never let me look after my nieces and nephews, yet they keep telling me how great my own children are.

Crying – wish I was dead, looking at the bruises and swelling on my hands from yesterday for chalking a swastika on the Carterton police station.  I would suggest you do some research into WWII and the creation of UN and human, civil and political rights – I have. :-((((((

Sincerely

HUMAN SEWAGE

______________________________________________

From: JR
Sent: Sunday, 7 August 2016 10:55 a.m.
To: SUTTON, Michael
Subject: Don’t want to get officers into trouble & more pissed off with me – just want this hatred & resentment to stop 🙁

Just want you and them to promise they won’t hurt me like that again – to realise what I do is just chalk and words – its non-violent and its real.  I don’t insult the police in my protests I beg them for help and challenge them for not upholding the law for everybody rich and poor.

_____________________________________________________

From: JR
Sent: Monday, 8 August 2016 7:21 a.m.
To: SUTTON, Michael
Subject: Further to what happened on Friday

Mike,

Lost the plot yesterday about what happened on Friday, couldn’t stop crying, ended up at Emergency at the hospital because I didn’t have the money for the after hours doctor.

Went there to get all the bruises recorded, especially the ones on tops of my hands, recounting what happened caused a severe trauma reaction.  While waiting for the doctor alone ended up curled up in a ball (foetal position) in the corner of the assessment room, eyes closed and fingers in my ears as I couldn’t handle all the stimulation and it was only way I could calm myself.  Rocking sitting on the side of the bed wouldn’t do it.  Have to have a wall behind me – same position I ended up in at the police station in Masterton, after Alan had finished threatening me and giving me a hard time.

Doctor was a really nice Middle Eastern man – he knew exactly what was happening and was very nice to me – he was also upset when he realised it was the police that had caused this.  I’m sure when he came to New Zealand he thought he had left behind this sort of violent behaviour by those in authority over powerless citizens.

I am still in shock about what happened  – those two officers completely lost it, the Maori officer is a bully and I can’t imagine the damage he is doing in the community.  He was the one I made the complaint to about High Court Security – can you please ensure he is taken off that case immediately.

Also who instructed those other two officers to come to my house and try the Misuse of a Telephone charge again?  Those officers were not aware of Dr Alan Doris’ report about my behaviour – why not – you have a copy?  ACC and police cannot use the law to persecute a disabled person fighting for their rights to health care and justice.  Especially when they have been driven ‘mad’ with medical neglect and illegally denied health care they are entitled to.  The ticking I suffer from is related to the tourettes type disorder I have developed due to what ACC have done (or not done).  ACC have been told this by Dr Doris, they followed his advice and ignored all the swearing until I asked for a recording of ‘how unwell I had become’ under the Privacy Act.   When they thought I was going to take them to court they USED police and an insignificant minor charge to further persecute me by dragging me through court.   I have the email if you want to see it, my lawyer certainly will be.

I am also still in shock at all the things officers said about being offered care and refusing it – that’s not how it is at all.  If I had been given the professional care I am entitled to under ACC, health, disability, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws then I wouldn’t be in this situation would I.  If I had had my rehabilitation from 2009 reinstated as required by two ACC reviews then I wouldn’t have ZERO services, be highly suicidal/unwell and protesting with such passion – would I, this is my life we are talking about – this is what I am fighting for.  Pretty sure one thing you and others realise is I’M NOT STUPID – I have NO services, not even a counsellor because ACC refuse to accommodate impairments related to my disorder.  They create barriers to accessing anything, ask Jenny Kirby why I can’t see her at the moment.  They refuse to apply a professional rehabilitation model in relation to my care just choosing random disconnected ideas that I am unable (because of a deterioration of my mental injury) to act on, they know this, because I email them regularly, and they do nothing.  ACC are corrupt and criminals under Sections 150A 151 155 and 157 of the Crimes Act, plus Crimes of Torture Act – I know it and I’m sure you know it too.

Today is the last day for submissions on New Zealand’s adoption of the United Nations Optional Protocol on Rights of People with Disabilities.  ACClaim Otago are fighting to get this in place as it will mean disabled people like myself can make complaints to the United Nations when our government violate the Declaration on Disabled Rights.  Why do you think an organisation set up to fight ACC is doing this?  Because they know as well as I do ACC are corrupt and criminally negligent in their dealings with mentally injured people and others.

I would suggest to save me the trauma and you the embarrassment we have a meeting and sort this stuff out before greedy lawyers get dragged into it and we take up court time and taxpayers money trying to protect ACC when everybody knows how corrupt, negligent and cruel they are.  Police are there to uphold the law, not be used by corrupt, criminally negligent, abusive government agencies to BEAT ME BLACK WITH BLUE.

The power Bill of Rights and Human Rights laws give me seems to be extremely difficult for some of your officers to handle.  I am a disabled non-violent Civil Society Actor as defined by the United Nations – please read the UN documents that give me this status and understand the role people like me play in society.  Please also note the rights I have to be challenging and cause offence if the situation warrants it – which also justifies my behaviour towards ACC – even when I can’t stop myself from doing it.  I am sure the people who established these guidelines were well aware of human behaviour in the face of injustice, discrimination and tyranny.

Along with the above as defence I will be providing ‘religious/ethical/cultural’ evidence that people born in the Year of the Dragon (Taniwha) are prone to not handle stress well and the need to ‘breath fire’ when suffering or seeing injustice around them or they develop psychoses.  We are here to hold a mirror to society and have strong ethical and moral beliefs that drive us.

Not sure if I have told you but have been in contact with the OHCHR (Office of the High Commissioner for Human Rights – pacific region) in Fiji who protect NZers rights – what has just happened with police is just more proof International human, disabled, civil and political rights are NOT being upheld in New Zealand.  Chalking a swastika on a police station in chalk that is easily removed is hardly cause for physical assault, especially after the person has just experienced the type of discrimination, degradation and insults I had.

Will send the complaint to IPCA, just for their records, it is them refusing to follow up the other cruelty and intimidation of officers and use of the law against me that has caused this situation.  I AM NOT THE ENEMY, I AM NOT A CRIMINAL, I CARE PASSIONATELY ABOUT PEOPLE DISABLED BY MENTAL INJURY AND THE FACT THEY ARE NOT GETTING THE PROFESSIONAL CARE THEY ARE ENTITLED TO AND HURTING THEMSELVES AND OTHERS.

Kia kaha to us all.

JR

Civil Society Actor

HUMAN SEWAGE

 

Submission on Disability Strategy – New Zealand

Below is my submission, it is not comprehensive as writing it was extremely traumatising for me – along with everything else going on in my life, but it covers a few things that the people who run the Disability sector obviously have no idea is happening – or are corrupt and covering them up.

So many things I havn’t said 🙁 Oh well I did my best at the time, they are never going to listen to anything I said anyway.

Submission on the Draft Disability Strategy August 2016, by Jayne Routhan, Civil Society Actor.

 

  1. Overall what do you think of the draft Disability Strategy? What overall changes or improvements would you like to be made?  Is there anything missing?

     

    It is a great piece of marketing, in the area of mental injury (eg traumatic stress disorders) and mental health I have 14 years experience in exactly the opposite is happening.  DPOs have not represented people with my type of disability because it often has violence aspects to it, and people can also be highly challenging and have extensive needs – like a safe house to live in.

     

    From personal experience I would like to see mentally injured and ill disabled people’s rights protected not just promoted. Justice Winkelman pointed out many disabled people had no access to justice in ever increasing numbers and often up against powerful government and private organisations.  I have had experience with Health & Disability Commission and I found them insulting, degrading and they discriminated against me.  Their advocate worked for four years and could get no services in the Wairarapa – the HDC refused to get involved.

     

    There are Sections of the Crimes Act 1961 – 150A 151 155 and 157 that make it a criminal offence to not follow the law and a disabled/vulnerable person be harmed as a result – these are being ignored.  I have made multiple complaints  to police about ACC health professionals, doctors, Occupational Therapists, Psychologists etc and not been protected from their unprofessional and criminally negligent behaviour.  I know what these people are supposed to do, I have studied rehabilitation and health at Massey University, along with Disability, ACC, human rights, bill of rights, imperial and welfare laws (including United Nations declarations).  Not only that I am intimidated,and hounded by police for asking for help and legally protesting at the gross miscarriage of justice happening to me, the systems in place they say are helping me are being used in a punitive way – which is illegal.

     

    I think it is imperative recognised lay-expert Civil Society Actors like myself are included in the consultation process not just DPOs.  Especially if we cover an area no DPO is – like in my case violence and crime.  Other DPOs, even those focused on mentally ill reject violent disabled people and want to distance themselves from them – this is not helpful.  This is another reason services for these people are so abusive, inadequate and do not follow professional rehabilitation models.

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

 

 

  1. Please let us know what you think about the following sections.  Would you like anything changed or improved.

     

    Firstly I have changed the order and a few of the words:

     

  • My vision – and where to from here
  • What’s important to me and many other mentally injured abuse victims
  • Outcome 1:                  Attitudes
  • Outcome 2:                  Justice
  • Outcome 3:                  Choice and Control
  • Outcome 4:                  Health and Wellbeing
  • Outcome 5:                  Accessibility
  • Outcome 6:                  Leadership
  • Outcome 7:                  Education
  • Outcome 8:                  Employment

     

    I have changed the order because I do not believe our society will be well served (and resources well spent) by people disabled by mental injury and illness if 1-6 are not fulfilled before the person becomes involved in education and employment.

     

    Also comments within the introduction of the Strategy appear to not cover mentally injured abuse victims and discount people with mental injury as a result of abuse and overwhelming trauma as disabled.

     

    I find it interesting that the people writing this document think there has been real progress, when I have only seen worsening statistics in suicide, self-harm, violence and sexual offences.  More people living on the streets, in unsafe unstable environments, more dysfunction and badly serviced, if in fact getting any services at all.

     

    The convention was ratified in 2008 – that is eight years ago and things have deteriorated for those with stress disorders.  It is a condition of the convention that things continually improve for disabled people – they are not.

     

    Children disabled by abuse and overwhelming trauma (which causes a mental injury) are poorly served, living dysfunctional lives of unresolved trauma that impacts on them and those around them every day – it can lead to years of unnecessary suffering, poverty, alienation, suicidal ideology, addiction, phobias, eating disorders, aggressive behaviour, etc.  Many only coming into contact with services through welfare, police and justice agencies.  For some prison fulfils many of the psychosocial needs they don’t have met in a hostile and uncaring community.

     

    Overwhelming unresolved trauma as a child (eg sexual, physical and psychological abuse) and neglect affect brain development.  It has to be accepted some of these children will need life-long support to be well functioning parents and valued members of society.

     

    A positive aspect to stress disorders is the heightened right brain activity, which includes creativity – which is why the arts are so fundamental in the expression, healing and resolving of trauma.  I find poetry, writing, music and other creative arts very therapeutic, but my expression of these is hampered by my disorder and no access to resources to develop and be valued for my talents.

     

    My Vision Statement for Mental Injury Services:

     

    To be a world leader in the

    treatment, rehabilitation

    and support of the mentally injured.

    to have a positive affect on

    the happiness and prosperity

    of all the community.

     

     

    I would also point out that the strategy has had very little input from families with histories or issues with abuse and trauma.  To me it is very focused on physical and sensory disabilities with little acknowledgement of psychological and emotional ones.  It was noted earlier this year that people with mental health issues are the least wanted as neighbours and most victimised.  It is well known that many of those with long term mental health issues are homeless or stuggling to provide themselves a safe home.

     

    Community is not changing it is getting worse, with good reason, so many dysfunctional and dangerous mentally injured and ill people are rotting with few or no services in the community – services they are entitled to under ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws.  The Community are scared as are those with mental health issues continually denied professional treatment care rehabilitation along with access to justice and safety – but nowhere near as scared as the disabled.

     

    One psychologically dysfunctional person can traumatise dozens if not hundreds of people – including children – I believe that is the main reason we see deteriorating family and sexual violence statistics.  The brain is the most complicated organ of the body, it controls EVERYTHING we do from breathing, to loving, hating and violence.  I believe in the area of mental health far too many unqualified/or poorly qualified people are currently making medical decisions for this disabled group.  Poor decisions and centred around the use/abuse of psychotropic drugs – which I believe in the area of mental injury, of an otherwise ‘normal’ person, is extremely detrimental to healing, resilience and overcoming past and current trauma.

     

    Our communities won’t change, history has shown us that – from research I have done, and stories like those of Janet Frame – I discovered NZ developed its extensive institutional mental health facilities mid 20th century because people with this form of disability were not coping in the community.  Although I agree in part with shutting down some of these institutions, they were not replaced with a professional support and health network – the lack of safe stable housing is at an extreme level currently.  For people disabled by mental injury there needs to be ‘retreats’ specialising in this form of rehabilitation – which in turn focus on different forms of trauma and some of the debilitating impairments people develop.  (Note: you cannot mix offenders with victims and expect people to feel safe to heal.)

     

    For example, I am easily enraged when triggered by being physically threatened, degraded and discriminated against.  This is an impairment related to my disability, I have learnt to manage it mostly, but have the police file to prove at times I become so frustrated and angry with how agencies like ACC, MSD, mental health and police treat me (along with politicians) I am often arrested.  Noting I am never violent towards others but I do retaliate verbally – I am however violent towards myself.

     

     

    WHAT’S IMPORTANT TO ME

     

    That I have somewhere safe to live where I can heal from my mental injury.  That I have access to models, laws and documents like the disability strategy.

     

    Along with all the items listed in the disability strategy.  Which are also mirrored in the Covenant on Economic, Social and Cultural Rights, human rights act, ACC legislation, Bill of Rights, Welfare agreements, etc.  So many documents saying so many good things while society deteriorates – time to do this the right way.

     

    That we have a multi-disciplinary approach to rehabilitation (as outlined in Shrawan Kumar’s book 2000 – Butterworth & Heinemann) in the area of mental health, particularly mental injury.  That I am able to have a Whare Tapa Wha approach to my rehabilitation and extensive professional Occupational Therapy services (I would envisage Social Workers, counsellors, mental health workers given OT training – these people are pivotal in a comprehensive well run, co-ordinated, efficient, rehabilitation plan).  Every one of this team needs to be educated in the area of traumatic stress disorders and the laws, expectations.

     

    I would have a psychiatrist of my choosing overseeing my rehabilitation and progress, an Occupational Therapist,  a counsellor, mental health support worker, lawyer, people in the community, trauma art therapist, education support and access to culturally appropriate residential ‘retreats’ when necessary.  That my GP would be kept informed and from time to time saw me to check on progress to independence and prosperity.

     

    I would have care in the community and help to reintegrate back into the community.  I would be able to go on a ‘retreat’ for six weeks of drug free healing and intensive care (which is actually a requirement in the ACC legislation).  Intensive care of traumatised people at the beginning is far more humane and cost effective than as the person deteriorates through medical neglect.

     

    Outcome 1:                            Attitudes

     

    I am valued by society just like everyone else

     

    Now I know why I was avoiding writing this submission, it is the attitudes of some people, especially those in authority, in health and justice services that are the worst.  Also those of my family and many in the community who don’t really know me and what I have been through.

     

    The attitudes of police I was recently subjected to who think I am refusing health care, am mentally ill and that’s why I make this my job, plus wasting their time.

     

    Government show over and over again through changes to welfare legislation that they think disabled people are of no value, except for making money for drug companies and creating lots of jobs for lawyers, welfare agencies, judges, police, justice system, etc.

     

    Reporting by media in the area of violent mental health cases is uninformed, discriminatory and biased.  I protest regularly and extensively, along with making submissions and writing to various people – media refuse to tell my story, what I know and what I do – what I’m fighting for.

     

    Outcome 2:                            Justice

     

    I am treated the same way as everyone else by the justice system.

     

    Hell no, this is not appropriate in the area of mental injury given the high levels of stress involved when forced by police to do anything – especially in a terrified or heightened state.  People with traumatic stress disorders need their phobias and triggers acknowledged and accommodated if at all possible.  Being near an exit, or being able to escape is a well recognised behaviour in abused people.

     

    Police sometimes accommodate my disorder and make arrests as stressless as possible – I am rarely held in the cells now and often out within 30 minutes.

     

    As Justice Winkelman has said disabled people are not getting access to justice and this needs to change.  The objective with mentally injured people would be to keep them out of the justice system, not have police and the justice system as the bottom of the cliff mental health services.  Although there has been a significant amount of resources go into people in prison, especially in the arts and being able to work, education and some health services.

     

    Then of course there are the mentally injured and ill people who are dangerous to society, pedophiles, paranoid, physically and sexually violent.  People we know are like this should not be allowed in the community, even with 24 hour supervision.  Ashley Peacock doesn’t have that priviledge and he hasn’t killed or sexually abused anyone.

     

    There are currently many dangerous mentally injured and ill in the community, these people need health and welfare services before they need justice services.  We all need to be kept safe, I have heard stories of dangerous mentally ill people begging judges for health care and being forcibly removed from court with nothing.

     

    There are significant improvements in the care of mentally injured and ill people in police custody.  Several officers at Wellington Central have said they need mental health workers at the station at all times – men and women.  They need somewhere and someone to get those with mental health issues out of the cells and into care.  I heard one senior officer make three phone calls trying to get someone to come and get a teenager with mental health issues that had been dropped by adolescent mental health services.

     

    The fact is many mentally injured and ill people cannot get protection and representation of a lawyer.  They are either too busy, not skilled in this area of law or cannot afford to do legal aid work – this is against the law – (the Magna Carta).  You can’t just say this is happening without something being done to rectify it (upskilling of lawyers in dealing with mentally injured and traumatised people is vitally important).

     

    Currently police are being used in a punitive way – which is against the law.  I have had the police called 15 times for welfare visits in four months, called by health justice and media organisations and never once did I say I was going to kill myself.  Though I do suffer from suicidal ideology which is a living nightmare when it is bad.  Police are supposed to help but they intimidate and humiliate – often just by being there, I have had several bad experiences with bigoted officers.  I wrote to police and begged them not to come to my house, they ignored me.  They have also turned up 11pm at night and frightened me badly.

     

    Currently I am up on five charges 1 of Misuse of a Telephone for phoning ACC and screaming for care (after being told for past 5 years my care would be reinstated), 3 counts of using chalk pen on windows at Carterton Police station (after 2 officers insulted me for 10 mins I did a swastika), Wgtn High Court after I was assaulted by security, refused a lawyer and refused access to watch Tony Ellis and the case of torture with 3 mentally ill men.  Also the Appeal Court in Wellington for a swastika and writing lies all over the words on that building about justice and law.  Also for Wilful Trespass of High Court for refusing to leave re Tony Ellis case.

     

    I have been taken to court by police multiple times, many times the charges have been dropped just before the case (I would have gone twice before however).  I have won four cases in court for wilful trespass, one I had to appeal a conviction of wilful trespass of ACC for a legal protest.  One for legally protesting outside the DHB offices at Masterton Hospital, which I had to defend myself – thankfully judge Tuohy was very accommodating of my stress disorder and helped me through the process.  This is a gross waste of money for me and the government, as well as stressful for me and challenging for court staff – as I no longer handle things well.  My last appearance – alone – was two weeks ago and I ended up curled up in a ball on the floor in a corner with a large painting of mine in front of me, with my eyes closed and fingers in my ears, crying, frightened of everything and everybody.  I have been in this position several times since I was assaulted and bullied by Wairarapa police, I have made a formal complaint about what happened being unjustifiably violent.

     

    I am sometimes kept in the cells too long and have broken down several times, there should have been people available to sit with me, or I should have been taken to a room with a window and if no risk taken for a walk outside – especially if I am there a long time.  A couple of months ago I was arrested for protesting and kept under mental health for five hours in the cells as punishment for swearing and yelling at staff at police headquarters about Its Not OK propaganda.  Mental health came and went – I am petrified of mental health services there is no way I would tell those people anything, mostly I am triggered and swear at them about how bad their services are.

     

    I have spoken to dozens of policemen and women who all agree with what I protest about mental health services being inadequate and not what they say.

     

    Outcome 3:                            Choice and Control

     

    I can make my own choices and have control over my life just like everyone else.

     

    This does not happen currently, especially with people like me who refuse psychotropic drugs on religious and ethical grounds.  The part about care and services being client centred are not true in regard to mental injury and mental health services.  Most do not get a say, once people have a psychotic episode or attempt suicide and are put under mental health act the majority of public mental health services heavily medicate.  Especially the lazy ones and most bigoted, like the head of mental health in Wairarapa who dislikes women.  We also have the highest rate of compulsory treatment orders and use of psychotropic drugs.

     

    I live in Carterton, I would like to continue living in my own community, however there are no available and suitable homes.  Even though it is a requirement that disabled people have access to social housing.  I would prefer to be able to buy my own home which I believe is a cultural right and I should be offered a government loan to do this.  Under the Crimes Act people must have the necessaries of life and a safe stable home is one of them – especially for a traumatised person.

     

    I should be able to ask for the help I read about in laws and brochures, not be rejected, not be further traumatised by the system, my human rights must be protected not just promoted.

     

     

    Outcome 4:                            Health and Wellbeing

     

    I have the same level of health and wellbeing as everyone else.

     

    I am supported to be the best person I can be, to self-actualise and have a life worth living.  I will manage my health and be grateful for the support I am given by participating to the best of my ability.

     

    I will have the necessaries of life as outlined in Maslows Hierachy of Needs, I will not feel life is to frightening and not worth living.  I will not feel worthless, like human sewage and on a torture wheel of hell from services supposed to help and protect me.

     

    I will have access to other health care needs besides my mental health – which I am currently not having in several areas as I am too afraid to see the doctor.  When you don’t want to live it is difficult to get yourself to beg for help about less significant medical conditions – I have issues with my bladder and kidneys but have been unable to have tests required done for past two years.  Because I need my ACC care back and mental health support worker to go with me – I have no-one else I feel safe taking.

     

    I will have the gym membership and support I had as part of my ACC rehabilitation plan in 2009, to help deal with my increasing weight and eating disorder.  I will be able to see a professional about my eating disorder, which I havn’t been about to do for over 10 years.

     

    Wellbeing include psychosocial support to reintegrate successfully into the community – from which I have become isolated due to poor mental health, poverty and unemployment.  I will reconnect with my whanau, as I have become distant from them as well, they dislike that I don’t work and do the activism I do.

     

     

    Outcome 5:                            Accessibility

     

    I can access places, services and information just like everyone else.

     

    I need help with this as I have tried for years to access the treatment care rehabilitation justice etc I am entitled to under law without success.  This is something my lawyer could assist with to start with as I am currently turned away repeatedly.

     

    I have a home that enables me to participate in my community.  In the current housing crisis this is a serious issue for me and many others.  I live in private rental accommodation with a flatmate who takes advantage of me and I need him to leave but I can’t say anything.  I could be asked to leave with six weeks notice if family wanted to move in.  The thought terrifies me as I have had so many bad experiences moving, I moved 4 x in 12 months a couple of years ago – sent my stress disorder off the scale.  I have lost many things, had many broken and many stolen in all my moves.

     

    I can regain the confidence to perform my poetry and plays, learn more about creative writing for profit and to share history and fantasy with my community.

     

    That as I heal and no longer need intensive services that at any time in the future when I am overwhelmed with trauma I can return to services without question.

     

    That I am not assessed to death, and have this processed used as a form of denying services rather than providing appropriate professional services depending on physical, psychological and psychosocial needs.

     

    Outcome 6:                            Leadership

     

    I have the same opportunities for leadership as everyone else and there are leaders who can represent me.

     

    This is definitely not happening in mental health and I do not feel there are any leaders or organisations representing me in any meaningful way.  In fact I feel our leaders are ignorant, arrogant and disrespectful of my expertise, experience and talents.

     

    Outcome 7:                            Education

     

    I have the same education outcomes just like everyone else.

     

    I was studying law at Victoria before I was mentally injured in 2002, I had passed five out of six papers – one I had dropped, I was very busy as a single parent and owner manager in my franchise business.  After I was hurt I tried but could not go back to university, I have since done papers in rehabilitation, health, journalism, creative scriptwriting, but none were successful due to my disability and inadequate support.

     

    If I have received an ACC Independence Allowance of $18 per week, half of it has to go to my student loan – which is incredibly unjust – also I disagree with the level of this allowance but could not challenge it.

     

    I have reports saying I am intelligent, do not have a personality disorder and am not delusional, yet I do not work and am rotting on welfare.  I protest and participate in submissions like this because I know my disorder, I know what I need, know what I’m entitled to and know what a professional rehabilitation plan actually entails.

     

    According to ACC legislation they are required to return me as near as practicable to my previous life – they have never made any attempt to do this.  I have tried and failed because they refuse to support those things I believe are necessary, for years I tried to heal myself – I failed over and over again until I gave up and started being a Civil Society Actor in the area of mental health full time.  If I can’t work then I don’t want to live – simple as that.  And I want a job that uses my knowledge and talents.

     

    Disabled people, in fact no people, should have to pay for their education.  Disabled people are currently driven out of the neo-liberal capitalist working environment, which does not allow for people who are not 100% fit and efficient to do the job – they don’t want anybody that cannot earn a maximum – that’s what they call productivity.

     

    As the New Zealand government has signed the Economic Social and Cultural Rights covenant, as well as the disability rights declaration I believe they are responsible for ensuring disabled people have valued work.  That will require the government to create meaningful jobs, or support the disabled person to create a meaningful job for them and perhaps others.  I would like to develop my scriptwriting and write the multiple plays I have started to develop, including plays about NZ history.  I would like to record some of my songs and work with a band to see if they are valuable when professionally produced.

     

    I am an advocate for Te Whariki – an early childhood document that I believe could be extended to cover all education.

     

    Mentally injured and ill students must be given extra help they are entitled to in order to achieve their best.  Many have behavioural issues and need more intensive support, or learn through doing, many are creative but not very academic and avenues to develop creative talents need to be provided.

     

    An older student cannot learn efficiently or sometimes at all if they are extremely stressed due to housing issues or poverty.  People who are studying need to be provided safe accommodation and/or travel to education (eg travel from Carterton to Victoria , Massey or Whitiraia).

     

    Outcome 8:                            Employment

     

    I have the same employment outcomes and opportunities as everyone else.

     

    One of my most basic desires and requirements of any rehabilitation plan I participate in, is how it is going to facilitate my returning to work and value in the community, that improves my mental health, not makes it deteriorate.

     

    I have learnt a lot over the past 14 years, along with my artistic expression I want to use what I have learnt to help and protect other men women and children with mental injuries.  I want to see realised all the resources services and facilities required to provide the professional treatment care rehabilitation and justice people, with mental injures as a result of abuse, are entitled to under ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws.

     

    As referred to previously in our current economic climate people with disabilities (or those caring for them) are mostly unemployed – this needs to be addressed by government and not just left to the community.  They are not the ones who created this low wage, high unemployment, unequal society, government did and they have a responsibility to all disabled people to ensure their lives are worth living.

     

    Kia kaha to us all.

NO RESPECT – Poem dedicated to Ombudsman & NZ Police

Police have really got to stop all this shit
The visits, feigned concern, discrimination – ALL OF IT!

All reports I have read say they’re supposed to protect
But for my welfare, my dignity, my peace – NO RESPECT!

The Ombudsman doesn’t want to hear what I see
So sends round the police to SCARE THE HELL OUT OF ME!

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Grrrr

Wrote this in response to a visit from police at 11pm last night for a welfare check, thanks to the Ombudsman and a 7 hour delay by Police Communications to allocate the job – someone in Masterton doesn’t like me.  Not surprised, I’ve pissed a lot of them off, they don’t like people who stand up to them and their stupid degrading rules.

Have made a complaint to IPCA and contacted my psychiatrist to get some advice (so he’s on my side).  Spent all morning trying to sort things out, still freaking out about what happened.