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Trust House Terrorists – Heart of the Darklands

This poem that could see me / homeless in the street
For standing up to neo-liberals / crushing poor beneath their feet

They wrap themselves in charity / to cover what they do
Take from the poor, give to the rich / persecute us, not you

Rich and powerful love to build / monuments to their greed
Extravagant sports and arts supporters / and crumbs for those in need

When there’s a housing crisis / they buy a pub or two
Give more to corporate welfare / help fund a giant screw

A hockey turf, a rugby ground / a running track and more
Build a home for businesses / while people knock at their door

Trust House terrorists surround themselves / with the luxuries of life
They’ve never lived for years on end / under the neo-liberal knife

My heart bleeds for the things I see / that nobody will admit
Those that say we should trust / leaders who are not fit

You’ve been radicalised, you’re ignorant / propaganda tells you what to think
While after 30 yrs of this hell / those suffering are on the brink

Disabled poor and abused / cry themselves to sleep
Hoping they will die soon / knowing God their soul will keep

There is no hope in this tragic place / no safety net, not here
Death Valley, Wairarapa / heart of the darklands and of fear

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Health & Disability Commission – Terrorists of NZs disabled poor

Am currently formally retrieving information from multiple agencies for my upcoming court case, those who have refused to resolve or do anything about government health agencies refusing me professional treatment and rehabilitation or ensuring necessaries of life – ie a safe stable home to live in.

Thought I’d post the email I sent them today – HDC have already tried once to not provide the information by saying I hadn’t explained myself clearly – which I had.  Its one of the techniques they use to stop disabled people from progressing serious complaints – so watch out if you do use HDC, they will do anything they can to stop the process and make you feel stupid.

Sent: Sunday, 5 February 2017 9:53 a.m.
To: Margee Do
Subject: Re: OIA Request

Dear Ms Do,

Due to impairments related to my disorder I cannot go over the years of rejections Health & Disability Commission subjected me to, when I knew my rights, was being persecuted and denied professional health and rehabilitation models/services by multiple agencies.  However can I please have a letter from the Commissioner stating which organisations I complained about on what dates and that NONE of my complaints were ever resolved.

My HDC advocate from Nationwide HDS is sending me everything she did over the past decade to try and get me professional services without success and it will advance my legal case to have Health and Disability Commission confirm they refused to believe any of my valid and serious complaints even when Nationwide were unable to resolve them and was fully supportive of how badly I was being treated – but could do nothing without your backup.

I am also getting complaints I made to Human Right Commission, Tribunal, ACC, Salvation Army, Oasis Network, King Street Artworks, Wairarapa DHB, Ombudsman and Auditor-General that failed to uphold my rights or accept what was happening to me was a criminal violation of my human rights to professional health care.

It makes me unwell when I think those health care agencies supposed to help me persecute me instead and deny me care I am entitled to under law – but it makes me even more unwell when I know how corrupt cruel immoral and criminally negligent those who supposed to protect me from this are.  All those poor disabled abuse victims and mentally ill people in this country you are torturing (as defined by the Torture Suppression Act), who are living in misery, draining or harming those around them who also can’t cope, killing themselves or killing others – that is your fault, you people are murderers, cruel violent murderers.

My latest formal complaint is to the Privacy Commissioner, a second one about a mental health advocacy worker from Oasis.  Who told a woman I have just got to know that she couldn’t help me I was too unwell - I only wanted two things, for her to talk to police and get them to backoff (this was when things were bad and I was having nightmares they were coming to get me), she told me I should stop protesting/exercising my rights if I wanted this.  I also asked her to find and arrange for me to learn Maori weaving and Tukutuku and it ended up with her abusing me saying I was demanding too much of her.  The first complaint I made about her last year for violating my privacy and going to DHB mental health services when she said she wouldn’t and knew how I felt about them – she did and responded to me with an abusive text – was discredited and unresolved by Oasis etc.

You must know how many people like me you are rejecting (cause I hear horror story after horror story about dealings with your agency – everybody I know has given up and stopped making complaints of harm) how can you sleep at night knowing the suffering and death you cause in our society?

Sincerely

JR

Civil Society Actor

HUMAN SEWAGE


From: Margee Do <Margee.Do@hdc.org.nz>
Sent: Monday, 30 January 2017 11:38 a.m.
Subject: Re: OIA Request

Dear Ms Routhan

Thank you for your clarification. We will respond to your request in due course.

Sincerely

Margee Do ‐Legal Team Administrator
Office of the Health and Disability CommissionerPO Box 11934, Wellington 6142Level 11, TechnologyOne House, Wellington 6011
Ph: (04) 494 7900
Email: Margee.Do@hdc.org.nz


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(HAVE YOU NOTICED HOW HDC ARE TRYING TO USE THE LAW TO STOP PEOPLE MAKING PUBLIC WHAT THEY DO – OUR CORRUPT GOVT MADE THEM DO THAT – THEY WILL NEVER EVER SILENCE ME – AND IF THEY WANT TO TAKE ME TO COURT FOR MAKING THIS PUBLIC – BRING IT ON!)

To:        Margee Do <Margee.Do@hdc.org.nz>
Date:        30/01/2017 10:52 a.m.
Subject:        Re: OIA Request


Dear Ms Do,

Don’t know how I could be clearer on this matter, are you trying to avoid sending it – do you hope, due to my disability, that I won’t pursue this because that is the usual behaviour I get from agencies trying to hide something horrendous they have done to disabled people.

I want every piece of information and every complaint I have sent to your organisation since 2002, since I was raped and discovered ACC and the NZ government were persecuting and discriminating against mentally injured abused men women and children disabled by their abuse – along with every mentally ill person in New Zealand.  Denying them professional care, professional health and rehabilitation models, ensuring they became more unwell so drug companies could make more money and driving many to crime so they filled up the justice system.

One day the world is going to know what you people have done condoning this violent, torture, persecution of NZs most vulnerable people on the order of radicalised neo-liberal terrorists.

Jayne 


From: Margee Do <Margee.Do@hdc.org.nz>
Sent:
Monday, 30 January 2017 8:53 a.m.
To:
 
Subject:
OIA Request

 
Dear Ms Routhan

I am dealing with the request for information you have sent to this office on 9 January 2017, please can you kindly clarify the scope of your request. You have your requested for:


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      copy of my information
-        all the formal complaints

Did you just want a copy of the complaints you have sent to this Office?

We would appreciate your clarification on this matter on or before 1 Feb 2017.

Many thanks


Margee Do ‐
Legal Team Administrator
Office of the Health and Disability Commissioner

PO Box 11934, Wellington 6142Level 11, TechnologyOne House, Wellington 6011
Ph: (04) 494 7900
Email: Margee.Do@hdc.org.nz


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From:        
Jayne Routhan <jrouthan@hotmail.co.nz>
To:        
Health & Disability Commission <hdc@hdc.org.nz>
Date:        
19/01/2017 10:18 a.m.
Subject:        
Privacy Act request for a copy of my file


Dear Sir/Madam,

Under the Privacy Act can you please send me a copy of my information and all the formal complaints I have made to the Health and Disability Commission since approximately 2002 – they are required for a criminal case.  Can you please advise if I will receive this information in the next 20 working days as required by law.

Thank you

JR
Civil Society Activist
HUMAN SEWAGE
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New Zealand Police Assault Day 2 & 3 Emails

 Mike (Masterton Police),

I have never done anything but be raped, hurt and beg for the care I needed and know I am entitled to.  I have never done a protest that wasn’t justified in a way that I know was reasonable in a civilised and just society.  I have never physically hurt anybody and never been hurt by a man until the rape & then police started hurting me for my protests.  I don’t understand, I know what the law says, I know ACC, mental health and the government aren’t following them, I know that is hurting disabled abuse victims like me and I don’t understand?  I don’t want to live this revolting life – if I can’t work I don’t want to live and yet your officers are saying this is my fault.

I’ve told you before my OT in 2009 and I had just started working on doing some role playing around going for a job interview – that’s the reason I can’t get a job.  After the abused child/man who raped me was found not guilty even when he admitted I was asleep when he started the assault my psychy couldn’t deal with it – its called overwhelming trauma.  So I became phobic of going for job interviews – I did try and do some things myself but everything failed because I got too stressed and couldn’t cope.

OH LORD I WISH I WAS DEAD – SHOT WITH A BULLET RIGHT THROUGH THE HEAD – Google it and you’ll see the rest of the lyrics – which according to your police officers are all lies and I’m offered heaps of care but refuse it. WTF.

Please don’t send them here again, I’m not going to kill myself but I know the next few days are going to be bad – really really bad.  My mother text me yesterday angry about me not going to my uncle’s funeral when everybody else was there.  Do you know how many family events I have not be able to go to since I was raped, the person found not guilty and ACC etc refused to provide me the treatment care and rehabilitation I am entitled to under law?  Did you know my family would never let me look after my nieces and nephews, yet they keep telling me how great my own children are.

Crying – wish I was dead, looking at the bruises and swelling on my hands from yesterday for chalking a swastika on the Carterton police station.  I would suggest you do some research into WWII and the creation of UN and human, civil and political rights – I have. :-( (((((

Sincerely

HUMAN SEWAGE

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From: JR
Sent: Sunday, 7 August 2016 10:55 a.m.
To: SUTTON, Michael
Subject: Don’t want to get officers into trouble & more pissed off with me – just want this hatred & resentment to stop :-(

Just want you and them to promise they won’t hurt me like that again – to realise what I do is just chalk and words – its non-violent and its real.  I don’t insult the police in my protests I beg them for help and challenge them for not upholding the law for everybody rich and poor.

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From: JR
Sent: Monday, 8 August 2016 7:21 a.m.
To: SUTTON, Michael
Subject: Further to what happened on Friday

Mike,

Lost the plot yesterday about what happened on Friday, couldn’t stop crying, ended up at Emergency at the hospital because I didn’t have the money for the after hours doctor.

Went there to get all the bruises recorded, especially the ones on tops of my hands, recounting what happened caused a severe trauma reaction.  While waiting for the doctor alone ended up curled up in a ball (foetal position) in the corner of the assessment room, eyes closed and fingers in my ears as I couldn’t handle all the stimulation and it was only way I could calm myself.  Rocking sitting on the side of the bed wouldn’t do it.  Have to have a wall behind me – same position I ended up in at the police station in Masterton, after Alan had finished threatening me and giving me a hard time.

Doctor was a really nice Middle Eastern man – he knew exactly what was happening and was very nice to me – he was also upset when he realised it was the police that had caused this.  I’m sure when he came to New Zealand he thought he had left behind this sort of violent behaviour by those in authority over powerless citizens.

I am still in shock about what happened  – those two officers completely lost it, the Maori officer is a bully and I can’t imagine the damage he is doing in the community.  He was the one I made the complaint to about High Court Security – can you please ensure he is taken off that case immediately.

Also who instructed those other two officers to come to my house and try the Misuse of a Telephone charge again?  Those officers were not aware of Dr Alan Doris’ report about my behaviour – why not – you have a copy?  ACC and police cannot use the law to persecute a disabled person fighting for their rights to health care and justice.  Especially when they have been driven ‘mad’ with medical neglect and illegally denied health care they are entitled to.  The ticking I suffer from is related to the tourettes type disorder I have developed due to what ACC have done (or not done).  ACC have been told this by Dr Doris, they followed his advice and ignored all the swearing until I asked for a recording of ‘how unwell I had become’ under the Privacy Act.   When they thought I was going to take them to court they USED police and an insignificant minor charge to further persecute me by dragging me through court.   I have the email if you want to see it, my lawyer certainly will be.

I am also still in shock at all the things officers said about being offered care and refusing it – that’s not how it is at all.  If I had been given the professional care I am entitled to under ACC, health, disability, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws then I wouldn’t be in this situation would I.  If I had had my rehabilitation from 2009 reinstated as required by two ACC reviews then I wouldn’t have ZERO services, be highly suicidal/unwell and protesting with such passion – would I, this is my life we are talking about – this is what I am fighting for.  Pretty sure one thing you and others realise is I’M NOT STUPID – I have NO services, not even a counsellor because ACC refuse to accommodate impairments related to my disorder.  They create barriers to accessing anything, ask Jenny Kirby why I can’t see her at the moment.  They refuse to apply a professional rehabilitation model in relation to my care just choosing random disconnected ideas that I am unable (because of a deterioration of my mental injury) to act on, they know this, because I email them regularly, and they do nothing.  ACC are corrupt and criminals under Sections 150A 151 155 and 157 of the Crimes Act, plus Crimes of Torture Act – I know it and I’m sure you know it too.

Today is the last day for submissions on New Zealand’s adoption of the United Nations Optional Protocol on Rights of People with Disabilities.  ACClaim Otago are fighting to get this in place as it will mean disabled people like myself can make complaints to the United Nations when our government violate the Declaration on Disabled Rights.  Why do you think an organisation set up to fight ACC is doing this?  Because they know as well as I do ACC are corrupt and criminally negligent in their dealings with mentally injured people and others.

I would suggest to save me the trauma and you the embarrassment we have a meeting and sort this stuff out before greedy lawyers get dragged into it and we take up court time and taxpayers money trying to protect ACC when everybody knows how corrupt, negligent and cruel they are.  Police are there to uphold the law, not be used by corrupt, criminally negligent, abusive government agencies to BEAT ME BLACK WITH BLUE.

The power Bill of Rights and Human Rights laws give me seems to be extremely difficult for some of your officers to handle.  I am a disabled non-violent Civil Society Actor as defined by the United Nations – please read the UN documents that give me this status and understand the role people like me play in society.  Please also note the rights I have to be challenging and cause offence if the situation warrants it – which also justifies my behaviour towards ACC – even when I can’t stop myself from doing it.  I am sure the people who established these guidelines were well aware of human behaviour in the face of injustice, discrimination and tyranny.

Along with the above as defence I will be providing ‘religious/ethical/cultural’ evidence that people born in the Year of the Dragon (Taniwha) are prone to not handle stress well and the need to ‘breath fire’ when suffering or seeing injustice around them or they develop psychoses.  We are here to hold a mirror to society and have strong ethical and moral beliefs that drive us.

Not sure if I have told you but have been in contact with the OHCHR (Office of the High Commissioner for Human Rights – pacific region) in Fiji who protect NZers rights – what has just happened with police is just more proof International human, disabled, civil and political rights are NOT being upheld in New Zealand.  Chalking a swastika on a police station in chalk that is easily removed is hardly cause for physical assault, especially after the person has just experienced the type of discrimination, degradation and insults I had.

Will send the complaint to IPCA, just for their records, it is them refusing to follow up the other cruelty and intimidation of officers and use of the law against me that has caused this situation.  I AM NOT THE ENEMY, I AM NOT A CRIMINAL, I CARE PASSIONATELY ABOUT PEOPLE DISABLED BY MENTAL INJURY AND THE FACT THEY ARE NOT GETTING THE PROFESSIONAL CARE THEY ARE ENTITLED TO AND HURTING THEMSELVES AND OTHERS.

Kia kaha to us all.

JR

Civil Society Actor

HUMAN SEWAGE

 

Submission on Disability Strategy – New Zealand

Below is my submission, it is not comprehensive as writing it was extremely traumatising for me – along with everything else going on in my life, but it covers a few things that the people who run the Disability sector obviously have no idea is happening – or are corrupt and covering them up.

So many things I havn’t said :-( Oh well I did my best at the time, they are never going to listen to anything I said anyway.

Submission on the Draft Disability Strategy August 2016, by Jayne Routhan, Civil Society Actor.

 

  1. Overall what do you think of the draft Disability Strategy? What overall changes or improvements would you like to be made?  Is there anything missing?

     

    It is a great piece of marketing, in the area of mental injury (eg traumatic stress disorders) and mental health I have 14 years experience in exactly the opposite is happening.  DPOs have not represented people with my type of disability because it often has violence aspects to it, and people can also be highly challenging and have extensive needs – like a safe house to live in.

     

    From personal experience I would like to see mentally injured and ill disabled people’s rights protected not just promoted. Justice Winkelman pointed out many disabled people had no access to justice in ever increasing numbers and often up against powerful government and private organisations.  I have had experience with Health & Disability Commission and I found them insulting, degrading and they discriminated against me.  Their advocate worked for four years and could get no services in the Wairarapa – the HDC refused to get involved.

     

    There are Sections of the Crimes Act 1961 – 150A 151 155 and 157 that make it a criminal offence to not follow the law and a disabled/vulnerable person be harmed as a result – these are being ignored.  I have made multiple complaints  to police about ACC health professionals, doctors, Occupational Therapists, Psychologists etc and not been protected from their unprofessional and criminally negligent behaviour.  I know what these people are supposed to do, I have studied rehabilitation and health at Massey University, along with Disability, ACC, human rights, bill of rights, imperial and welfare laws (including United Nations declarations).  Not only that I am intimidated,and hounded by police for asking for help and legally protesting at the gross miscarriage of justice happening to me, the systems in place they say are helping me are being used in a punitive way – which is illegal.

     

    I think it is imperative recognised lay-expert Civil Society Actors like myself are included in the consultation process not just DPOs.  Especially if we cover an area no DPO is – like in my case violence and crime.  Other DPOs, even those focused on mentally ill reject violent disabled people and want to distance themselves from them – this is not helpful.  This is another reason services for these people are so abusive, inadequate and do not follow professional rehabilitation models.

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

 

 

  1. Please let us know what you think about the following sections.  Would you like anything changed or improved.

     

    Firstly I have changed the order and a few of the words:

     

  • My vision – and where to from here
  • What’s important to me and many other mentally injured abuse victims
  • Outcome 1:                  Attitudes
  • Outcome 2:                  Justice
  • Outcome 3:                  Choice and Control
  • Outcome 4:                  Health and Wellbeing
  • Outcome 5:                  Accessibility
  • Outcome 6:                  Leadership
  • Outcome 7:                  Education
  • Outcome 8:                  Employment

     

    I have changed the order because I do not believe our society will be well served (and resources well spent) by people disabled by mental injury and illness if 1-6 are not fulfilled before the person becomes involved in education and employment.

     

    Also comments within the introduction of the Strategy appear to not cover mentally injured abuse victims and discount people with mental injury as a result of abuse and overwhelming trauma as disabled.

     

    I find it interesting that the people writing this document think there has been real progress, when I have only seen worsening statistics in suicide, self-harm, violence and sexual offences.  More people living on the streets, in unsafe unstable environments, more dysfunction and badly serviced, if in fact getting any services at all.

     

    The convention was ratified in 2008 – that is eight years ago and things have deteriorated for those with stress disorders.  It is a condition of the convention that things continually improve for disabled people – they are not.

     

    Children disabled by abuse and overwhelming trauma (which causes a mental injury) are poorly served, living dysfunctional lives of unresolved trauma that impacts on them and those around them every day – it can lead to years of unnecessary suffering, poverty, alienation, suicidal ideology, addiction, phobias, eating disorders, aggressive behaviour, etc.  Many only coming into contact with services through welfare, police and justice agencies.  For some prison fulfils many of the psychosocial needs they don’t have met in a hostile and uncaring community.

     

    Overwhelming unresolved trauma as a child (eg sexual, physical and psychological abuse) and neglect affect brain development.  It has to be accepted some of these children will need life-long support to be well functioning parents and valued members of society.

     

    A positive aspect to stress disorders is the heightened right brain activity, which includes creativity – which is why the arts are so fundamental in the expression, healing and resolving of trauma.  I find poetry, writing, music and other creative arts very therapeutic, but my expression of these is hampered by my disorder and no access to resources to develop and be valued for my talents.

     

    My Vision Statement for Mental Injury Services:

     

    To be a world leader in the

    treatment, rehabilitation

    and support of the mentally injured.

    to have a positive affect on

    the happiness and prosperity

    of all the community.

     

     

    I would also point out that the strategy has had very little input from families with histories or issues with abuse and trauma.  To me it is very focused on physical and sensory disabilities with little acknowledgement of psychological and emotional ones.  It was noted earlier this year that people with mental health issues are the least wanted as neighbours and most victimised.  It is well known that many of those with long term mental health issues are homeless or stuggling to provide themselves a safe home.

     

    Community is not changing it is getting worse, with good reason, so many dysfunctional and dangerous mentally injured and ill people are rotting with few or no services in the community – services they are entitled to under ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws.  The Community are scared as are those with mental health issues continually denied professional treatment care rehabilitation along with access to justice and safety – but nowhere near as scared as the disabled.

     

    One psychologically dysfunctional person can traumatise dozens if not hundreds of people – including children – I believe that is the main reason we see deteriorating family and sexual violence statistics.  The brain is the most complicated organ of the body, it controls EVERYTHING we do from breathing, to loving, hating and violence.  I believe in the area of mental health far too many unqualified/or poorly qualified people are currently making medical decisions for this disabled group.  Poor decisions and centred around the use/abuse of psychotropic drugs – which I believe in the area of mental injury, of an otherwise ‘normal’ person, is extremely detrimental to healing, resilience and overcoming past and current trauma.

     

    Our communities won’t change, history has shown us that – from research I have done, and stories like those of Janet Frame – I discovered NZ developed its extensive institutional mental health facilities mid 20th century because people with this form of disability were not coping in the community.  Although I agree in part with shutting down some of these institutions, they were not replaced with a professional support and health network – the lack of safe stable housing is at an extreme level currently.  For people disabled by mental injury there needs to be ‘retreats’ specialising in this form of rehabilitation – which in turn focus on different forms of trauma and some of the debilitating impairments people develop.  (Note: you cannot mix offenders with victims and expect people to feel safe to heal.)

     

    For example, I am easily enraged when triggered by being physically threatened, degraded and discriminated against.  This is an impairment related to my disability, I have learnt to manage it mostly, but have the police file to prove at times I become so frustrated and angry with how agencies like ACC, MSD, mental health and police treat me (along with politicians) I am often arrested.  Noting I am never violent towards others but I do retaliate verbally – I am however violent towards myself.

     

     

    WHAT’S IMPORTANT TO ME

     

    That I have somewhere safe to live where I can heal from my mental injury.  That I have access to models, laws and documents like the disability strategy.

     

    Along with all the items listed in the disability strategy.  Which are also mirrored in the Covenant on Economic, Social and Cultural Rights, human rights act, ACC legislation, Bill of Rights, Welfare agreements, etc.  So many documents saying so many good things while society deteriorates – time to do this the right way.

     

    That we have a multi-disciplinary approach to rehabilitation (as outlined in Shrawan Kumar’s book 2000 – Butterworth & Heinemann) in the area of mental health, particularly mental injury.  That I am able to have a Whare Tapa Wha approach to my rehabilitation and extensive professional Occupational Therapy services (I would envisage Social Workers, counsellors, mental health workers given OT training – these people are pivotal in a comprehensive well run, co-ordinated, efficient, rehabilitation plan).  Every one of this team needs to be educated in the area of traumatic stress disorders and the laws, expectations.

     

    I would have a psychiatrist of my choosing overseeing my rehabilitation and progress, an Occupational Therapist,  a counsellor, mental health support worker, lawyer, people in the community, trauma art therapist, education support and access to culturally appropriate residential ‘retreats’ when necessary.  That my GP would be kept informed and from time to time saw me to check on progress to independence and prosperity.

     

    I would have care in the community and help to reintegrate back into the community.  I would be able to go on a ‘retreat’ for six weeks of drug free healing and intensive care (which is actually a requirement in the ACC legislation).  Intensive care of traumatised people at the beginning is far more humane and cost effective than as the person deteriorates through medical neglect.

     

    Outcome 1:                            Attitudes

     

    I am valued by society just like everyone else

     

    Now I know why I was avoiding writing this submission, it is the attitudes of some people, especially those in authority, in health and justice services that are the worst.  Also those of my family and many in the community who don’t really know me and what I have been through.

     

    The attitudes of police I was recently subjected to who think I am refusing health care, am mentally ill and that’s why I make this my job, plus wasting their time.

     

    Government show over and over again through changes to welfare legislation that they think disabled people are of no value, except for making money for drug companies and creating lots of jobs for lawyers, welfare agencies, judges, police, justice system, etc.

     

    Reporting by media in the area of violent mental health cases is uninformed, discriminatory and biased.  I protest regularly and extensively, along with making submissions and writing to various people – media refuse to tell my story, what I know and what I do – what I’m fighting for.

     

    Outcome 2:                            Justice

     

    I am treated the same way as everyone else by the justice system.

     

    Hell no, this is not appropriate in the area of mental injury given the high levels of stress involved when forced by police to do anything – especially in a terrified or heightened state.  People with traumatic stress disorders need their phobias and triggers acknowledged and accommodated if at all possible.  Being near an exit, or being able to escape is a well recognised behaviour in abused people.

     

    Police sometimes accommodate my disorder and make arrests as stressless as possible – I am rarely held in the cells now and often out within 30 minutes.

     

    As Justice Winkelman has said disabled people are not getting access to justice and this needs to change.  The objective with mentally injured people would be to keep them out of the justice system, not have police and the justice system as the bottom of the cliff mental health services.  Although there has been a significant amount of resources go into people in prison, especially in the arts and being able to work, education and some health services.

     

    Then of course there are the mentally injured and ill people who are dangerous to society, pedophiles, paranoid, physically and sexually violent.  People we know are like this should not be allowed in the community, even with 24 hour supervision.  Ashley Peacock doesn’t have that priviledge and he hasn’t killed or sexually abused anyone.

     

    There are currently many dangerous mentally injured and ill in the community, these people need health and welfare services before they need justice services.  We all need to be kept safe, I have heard stories of dangerous mentally ill people begging judges for health care and being forcibly removed from court with nothing.

     

    There are significant improvements in the care of mentally injured and ill people in police custody.  Several officers at Wellington Central have said they need mental health workers at the station at all times – men and women.  They need somewhere and someone to get those with mental health issues out of the cells and into care.  I heard one senior officer make three phone calls trying to get someone to come and get a teenager with mental health issues that had been dropped by adolescent mental health services.

     

    The fact is many mentally injured and ill people cannot get protection and representation of a lawyer.  They are either too busy, not skilled in this area of law or cannot afford to do legal aid work – this is against the law – (the Magna Carta).  You can’t just say this is happening without something being done to rectify it (upskilling of lawyers in dealing with mentally injured and traumatised people is vitally important).

     

    Currently police are being used in a punitive way – which is against the law.  I have had the police called 15 times for welfare visits in four months, called by health justice and media organisations and never once did I say I was going to kill myself.  Though I do suffer from suicidal ideology which is a living nightmare when it is bad.  Police are supposed to help but they intimidate and humiliate – often just by being there, I have had several bad experiences with bigoted officers.  I wrote to police and begged them not to come to my house, they ignored me.  They have also turned up 11pm at night and frightened me badly.

     

    Currently I am up on five charges 1 of Misuse of a Telephone for phoning ACC and screaming for care (after being told for past 5 years my care would be reinstated), 3 counts of using chalk pen on windows at Carterton Police station (after 2 officers insulted me for 10 mins I did a swastika), Wgtn High Court after I was assaulted by security, refused a lawyer and refused access to watch Tony Ellis and the case of torture with 3 mentally ill men.  Also the Appeal Court in Wellington for a swastika and writing lies all over the words on that building about justice and law.  Also for Wilful Trespass of High Court for refusing to leave re Tony Ellis case.

     

    I have been taken to court by police multiple times, many times the charges have been dropped just before the case (I would have gone twice before however).  I have won four cases in court for wilful trespass, one I had to appeal a conviction of wilful trespass of ACC for a legal protest.  One for legally protesting outside the DHB offices at Masterton Hospital, which I had to defend myself – thankfully judge Tuohy was very accommodating of my stress disorder and helped me through the process.  This is a gross waste of money for me and the government, as well as stressful for me and challenging for court staff – as I no longer handle things well.  My last appearance – alone – was two weeks ago and I ended up curled up in a ball on the floor in a corner with a large painting of mine in front of me, with my eyes closed and fingers in my ears, crying, frightened of everything and everybody.  I have been in this position several times since I was assaulted and bullied by Wairarapa police, I have made a formal complaint about what happened being unjustifiably violent.

     

    I am sometimes kept in the cells too long and have broken down several times, there should have been people available to sit with me, or I should have been taken to a room with a window and if no risk taken for a walk outside – especially if I am there a long time.  A couple of months ago I was arrested for protesting and kept under mental health for five hours in the cells as punishment for swearing and yelling at staff at police headquarters about Its Not OK propaganda.  Mental health came and went – I am petrified of mental health services there is no way I would tell those people anything, mostly I am triggered and swear at them about how bad their services are.

     

    I have spoken to dozens of policemen and women who all agree with what I protest about mental health services being inadequate and not what they say.

     

    Outcome 3:                            Choice and Control

     

    I can make my own choices and have control over my life just like everyone else.

     

    This does not happen currently, especially with people like me who refuse psychotropic drugs on religious and ethical grounds.  The part about care and services being client centred are not true in regard to mental injury and mental health services.  Most do not get a say, once people have a psychotic episode or attempt suicide and are put under mental health act the majority of public mental health services heavily medicate.  Especially the lazy ones and most bigoted, like the head of mental health in Wairarapa who dislikes women.  We also have the highest rate of compulsory treatment orders and use of psychotropic drugs.

     

    I live in Carterton, I would like to continue living in my own community, however there are no available and suitable homes.  Even though it is a requirement that disabled people have access to social housing.  I would prefer to be able to buy my own home which I believe is a cultural right and I should be offered a government loan to do this.  Under the Crimes Act people must have the necessaries of life and a safe stable home is one of them – especially for a traumatised person.

     

    I should be able to ask for the help I read about in laws and brochures, not be rejected, not be further traumatised by the system, my human rights must be protected not just promoted.

     

     

    Outcome 4:                            Health and Wellbeing

     

    I have the same level of health and wellbeing as everyone else.

     

    I am supported to be the best person I can be, to self-actualise and have a life worth living.  I will manage my health and be grateful for the support I am given by participating to the best of my ability.

     

    I will have the necessaries of life as outlined in Maslows Hierachy of Needs, I will not feel life is to frightening and not worth living.  I will not feel worthless, like human sewage and on a torture wheel of hell from services supposed to help and protect me.

     

    I will have access to other health care needs besides my mental health – which I am currently not having in several areas as I am too afraid to see the doctor.  When you don’t want to live it is difficult to get yourself to beg for help about less significant medical conditions – I have issues with my bladder and kidneys but have been unable to have tests required done for past two years.  Because I need my ACC care back and mental health support worker to go with me – I have no-one else I feel safe taking.

     

    I will have the gym membership and support I had as part of my ACC rehabilitation plan in 2009, to help deal with my increasing weight and eating disorder.  I will be able to see a professional about my eating disorder, which I havn’t been about to do for over 10 years.

     

    Wellbeing include psychosocial support to reintegrate successfully into the community – from which I have become isolated due to poor mental health, poverty and unemployment.  I will reconnect with my whanau, as I have become distant from them as well, they dislike that I don’t work and do the activism I do.

     

     

    Outcome 5:                            Accessibility

     

    I can access places, services and information just like everyone else.

     

    I need help with this as I have tried for years to access the treatment care rehabilitation justice etc I am entitled to under law without success.  This is something my lawyer could assist with to start with as I am currently turned away repeatedly.

     

    I have a home that enables me to participate in my community.  In the current housing crisis this is a serious issue for me and many others.  I live in private rental accommodation with a flatmate who takes advantage of me and I need him to leave but I can’t say anything.  I could be asked to leave with six weeks notice if family wanted to move in.  The thought terrifies me as I have had so many bad experiences moving, I moved 4 x in 12 months a couple of years ago – sent my stress disorder off the scale.  I have lost many things, had many broken and many stolen in all my moves.

     

    I can regain the confidence to perform my poetry and plays, learn more about creative writing for profit and to share history and fantasy with my community.

     

    That as I heal and no longer need intensive services that at any time in the future when I am overwhelmed with trauma I can return to services without question.

     

    That I am not assessed to death, and have this processed used as a form of denying services rather than providing appropriate professional services depending on physical, psychological and psychosocial needs.

     

    Outcome 6:                            Leadership

     

    I have the same opportunities for leadership as everyone else and there are leaders who can represent me.

     

    This is definitely not happening in mental health and I do not feel there are any leaders or organisations representing me in any meaningful way.  In fact I feel our leaders are ignorant, arrogant and disrespectful of my expertise, experience and talents.

     

    Outcome 7:                            Education

     

    I have the same education outcomes just like everyone else.

     

    I was studying law at Victoria before I was mentally injured in 2002, I had passed five out of six papers – one I had dropped, I was very busy as a single parent and owner manager in my franchise business.  After I was hurt I tried but could not go back to university, I have since done papers in rehabilitation, health, journalism, creative scriptwriting, but none were successful due to my disability and inadequate support.

     

    If I have received an ACC Independence Allowance of $18 per week, half of it has to go to my student loan – which is incredibly unjust – also I disagree with the level of this allowance but could not challenge it.

     

    I have reports saying I am intelligent, do not have a personality disorder and am not delusional, yet I do not work and am rotting on welfare.  I protest and participate in submissions like this because I know my disorder, I know what I need, know what I’m entitled to and know what a professional rehabilitation plan actually entails.

     

    According to ACC legislation they are required to return me as near as practicable to my previous life – they have never made any attempt to do this.  I have tried and failed because they refuse to support those things I believe are necessary, for years I tried to heal myself – I failed over and over again until I gave up and started being a Civil Society Actor in the area of mental health full time.  If I can’t work then I don’t want to live – simple as that.  And I want a job that uses my knowledge and talents.

     

    Disabled people, in fact no people, should have to pay for their education.  Disabled people are currently driven out of the neo-liberal capitalist working environment, which does not allow for people who are not 100% fit and efficient to do the job – they don’t want anybody that cannot earn a maximum – that’s what they call productivity.

     

    As the New Zealand government has signed the Economic Social and Cultural Rights covenant, as well as the disability rights declaration I believe they are responsible for ensuring disabled people have valued work.  That will require the government to create meaningful jobs, or support the disabled person to create a meaningful job for them and perhaps others.  I would like to develop my scriptwriting and write the multiple plays I have started to develop, including plays about NZ history.  I would like to record some of my songs and work with a band to see if they are valuable when professionally produced.

     

    I am an advocate for Te Whariki – an early childhood document that I believe could be extended to cover all education.

     

    Mentally injured and ill students must be given extra help they are entitled to in order to achieve their best.  Many have behavioural issues and need more intensive support, or learn through doing, many are creative but not very academic and avenues to develop creative talents need to be provided.

     

    An older student cannot learn efficiently or sometimes at all if they are extremely stressed due to housing issues or poverty.  People who are studying need to be provided safe accommodation and/or travel to education (eg travel from Carterton to Victoria , Massey or Whitiraia).

     

    Outcome 8:                            Employment

     

    I have the same employment outcomes and opportunities as everyone else.

     

    One of my most basic desires and requirements of any rehabilitation plan I participate in, is how it is going to facilitate my returning to work and value in the community, that improves my mental health, not makes it deteriorate.

     

    I have learnt a lot over the past 14 years, along with my artistic expression I want to use what I have learnt to help and protect other men women and children with mental injuries.  I want to see realised all the resources services and facilities required to provide the professional treatment care rehabilitation and justice people, with mental injures as a result of abuse, are entitled to under ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws.

     

    As referred to previously in our current economic climate people with disabilities (or those caring for them) are mostly unemployed – this needs to be addressed by government and not just left to the community.  They are not the ones who created this low wage, high unemployment, unequal society, government did and they have a responsibility to all disabled people to ensure their lives are worth living.

     

    Kia kaha to us all.

NO RESPECT – Poem dedicated to Ombudsman & NZ Police

Police have really got to stop all this shit
The visits, feigned concern, discrimination - ALL OF IT!

All reports I have read say they’re supposed to protect
But for my welfare, my dignity, my peace – NO RESPECT!

The Ombudsman doesn’t want to hear what I see
So sends round the police to SCARE THE HELL OUT OF ME!

enD

Grrrr

Wrote this in response to a visit from police at 11pm last night for a welfare check, thanks to the Ombudsman and a 7 hour delay by Police Communications to allocate the job – someone in Masterton doesn’t like me.  Not surprised, I’ve pissed a lot of them off, they don’t like people who stand up to them and their stupid degrading rules.

Have made a complaint to IPCA and contacted my psychiatrist to get some advice (so he’s on my side).  Spent all morning trying to sort things out, still freaking out about what happened.

 

Private Prosecution lodged 19/6/2015 against John Key – Under Section 39 of Magna Carta 1215

So been thinking about all this stuff I know and how the government are ignoring the Magna Carta, and then while I’m working out what pieces of law I can get John Key under I realise I can use the Magna Carta as a legislative reference and prosecute him under that.

It was only at the last minute I added Section 39, but pleased I did, cause having the police used to intimidate me when I was asking for the health care I knew I was entitled to was not right and not just.  Of course they will say there was a judgement of my peers or law that says suicidal people must have police sent to their homes to protect them.  But with all my art and poetry I’ll prove what they are doing is discrimination and they have purposely put in these measures to stop people getting the heatlh care they need.

39. No freemen shall be taken or imprisoned or disseised or exiled or in any way destroyed, nor will we go upon him nor send upon him, except by the lawful judgment of his peers or by the law of the land.

MY RESPONSE

Shit just realised I didn’t take a photocopy of the Charging Documents – will have to go in next week and see if they will get me one – you can’t remember everything.  As you can see what I have said is pretty amateur but I know judges give lots of leeway to people who are not lawyers, they are more interested in fairness and justice and that the person has given it their best shot.

19 June 2015

 

Statement by J.E.R, date of birth 00/00/1965, of street, Carterton

 

I am about to start this and the emotion is overwhelming me, how the police have been used to intimidate and bully me for demanding and needing the professional health care promised under ACC, health, disability, criminal, human rights and bill of rights laws is persecution and torture.

 

How I am treated by the police varies greatly depending on the person,  I would like to refer to my police file at this point to highlight all the times I have been seen by police, have been detained by police and been prosecuted by police. 

 

I am not able to look at my police file as it makes me very unwell, I got a copy of it a few years ago and on page 3 it said I was ‘mental’ and a danger to police safety.  I wasn’t able to read past that and have had a rocky relationship with police since ACC illegally cut all my care in 2009, after National became the government and installed neo-liberal Business Round Table advocate John Judge, then Paula Rebstock.

 

Can the judge please consider my police file as being evidence to what has been happening me as I fight for the care I know I am entitled to.  Please note that all complaints to police about me being suicidal are from people who are public servants and/or agents of the government.  I would tell these people I was begging for help or justice from, how bad I felt and they would phone police but never help me get care.  This is a gross miscarriage of justice and proof what is happening in the real world I live in is very different to what the government and these agencies promote.

 

It makes me want to be violently ill when I think that forcing suicidal people to take their clothes off and put on the crazy suit is police policy and when I tried to challenge it as being extremely degrading and against human rights laws I was ignored.  They only got my clothes off me once, during my first protest, chalking Journalists are Maggots on the Times Age building in Masterton.  When I got down to my underwear I was told to take them off as well, I had my period and said I couldn’t – I was told I had to.  That is when my respect for the police and the government ended.  I told the officer I would fight her for my underwear as there was no way I was going to let blood run down my leg in front of so many men.  This policy is not law and therefore was not subject to scrutiny under Bill of Rights and Human Rights laws.

 

Over the past 30 years as neo-liberalism has relentlessly destroyed our unique Kiwi culture these attacks and laws on suicidal people have steadily increased.  It are the policies that are driving people to suicide and then the government and authorities blame the victims for a completely human response to an inhuman living environment. 

 

New Zealand is a beautiful country, there is enough resources for everybody to have the necessaries of life.  Giving massive tax cuts to the wealthiest people and organisations in this country while at the same time stopping poor people (rich people can still get this care and justice) from getting the health care and justice they are entitled to is immoral and against the law.

 

Also the massive social issues that have arisen due to high unemployment and concentration of wealth into the richest 20% of society – are being somehow blamed on the victims of these social issues, like violence, mental illness, poverty, ill health etc.  It was very sad to see all the changes that have been made to the Social Welfare and Social Security Acts over the past decade, all aimed at blaming those who can’t get work.  When we all know deregulation, free trade and neo-liberalism was instrumental in hundreds of thousands of manufacturing jobs moving offshore to be done by people who are treated like slaves in poorer countries.

 

I will be addressing this issue in another private charge in the near future.

 

I told a judge recently, when going through the court system over my protests at Masterton Hospital that I will take no more – and I won’t.  No more are you going to treat disabled, abused, mentally injured and ill people like you are.  Everybody knows it is wrong – EVERYBODY.

 

I know other people who are degraded and persecuted by police for being suicidal and I have experiences of people who attempted suicide who were living with me that I would like to be able to present to the court.  I cannot talk about them now I am too unwell.

 

I would like all book of poetry The Black Book ISBN 978-0-473-31199-5 to form part of this case but I do not have the resources to do a copy for each of the five charges.  I would also like all my photographs to form part of this.

 

Please help me get a lawyer, there is so much you don’t know, so many things.  These people have driven me insane, they have turned my family and community against me, just because I couldn’t get the professional health care I was entitled to.

 

I can’t go on with this document.

 

Kia kaha to us all.

 

 JR

800 YEARS – a poem to commemorate the Magna Carta 2015

Lots of things wrong with justice and right
The disabled in a never ending fight

If you’ve got money you’ve got justice and calm
It’s greedy rich who created this harm

Haven for them and hell for the poor
Then send police to knock on your door

Meat in the sandwich is what I see
Keeping the peace is what police should be

Take those immoral neo-liberals to court
Keep the peace for what men fought

Build everybody a place to live
Stop fucking taking, now time to give

Collect more taxes from the rich pigs now
Pay off debt then saved interest we plough

Grow our country back to something great
Leave behind this neo-liberal mistake

800 Years since the Magna Carta was signed
Today’s injustices weighing on my mind

EnD

Just wrote this – feels good – going to a talk on the Magna Carta on Friday, hope I get to share it, will chalk it on the street if it is fine, taking a few signs as well.

If you like my poetry nominate me for poet laureate before 6 July 2015 – tell your friends – lets see what a poet can do in two years and imagine what the politicians and media are going to do – the looks on their faces would be …… priceless.

http://www.poetlaureate.org.nz/2015/05/call-for-nominations.html

God of National – song based on the NZ National Anthem

God of national at thy feet
In the bonds of fear we meet
Hear our voices we entreat
We must defend our free land

Guard our country’s loving state
From those who only want to take
Care for all show no-one hate
God defend New Zealand

All who sing this song are bound
A solumn oath to stand their ground
When there is injustice found
We must defend our free land

From dissension, envy, hate
And corruption guard our state
Make our country good and great
God defend New Zealand

Peace not war shall be our boast
But should those cruel asail our coast
Make us then a mighty host
We must defend our free land

Lord of battles in thy might
Give us strength, take up the fight
When our cause is just and right
God defend New Zealand

Let our love for all increase
Our quest for fairness never cease
Give all plenty, give all peace
We must defend our free land

From dishonour and from shame
Guard our country’s good deeds and name
Be guided by an eternal flame
God defend New Zealand

Never let democracy fall
Teach compassion, love and truth to all
Let the facts, not fear stand tall
God defend New Zealand

EnD

NZ Neo-liberals are corrupt, they purposely cause violence & addiction in society

I’ve had an epiphany after reading George Irvin’s book about the Super Rich and rise of inequality in developed countries, except the 5 Nordic countries.

I am so so angry, also after watching Campbell Live last night and those revolting parole board members, degrading and grilling that poor man.  Neo-liberals knew cutting taxes to the rich, making the poor pay more tax, driving manufacturing jobs overseas, then cutting large amounts of welfare and healthcare to the poorest people was going to cause crime, violence, addiction, stealing, deaths (suicides and murders) and serious dysfunction in society – they did it anyway.  The Nordic countries never did, they kept high taxes to the wealthy and good safety nets for the poor and disabled.  They kept their standards of living, they are some of the most peaceful countries on earth – while New Zealand’s has slipped more than any other country in the world.  We are a divided nation full of dissension envy, hatred, poverty, homelessness, broken families, broken people – where the educated and rich despise the uneducated and poor (I am currently doing papers at Victoria I can show you proof of this bigotry in power point slides).

Lately I keep thinking of the National Anthem and how those words are a promise and part of the Constitution of this country.  YEAH RIGHT!

I am definitely going to be writing to John Campbell and each one of those parole board members and voicing my disgust at the part they are playing in persecuting victims of a cruel immoral corrupt neo-liberal political agenda financed by the super rich.  That man on the television was the perfect example of a statistic – he would not have been in jail 30 years ago, he would have been working in the Railways, living in a railways house, raising his family and enjoying what our environment has to offer.  If New Zealand had continued with High Taxes and good welfare, health and justice provision where would we be now?  I GUARANTEE YOU WE WOULD HAVE THE SAME SOCIAL STATISTICS AND ECONOMIC STABILITY (GOVT WEALTH) as the Nordic countries are enjoying.

We would have $20/hr minimum wage, we would have 33 hour working week, we would be innovators in eco-science, sustainability and a leading example of social functioning to the world.  We were going that way until our government was corrupted and we were all brainwashed into believing neo-liberalism was the only way.  ACTUALLY WE WERE CONNED, and the people that did it are running our country still, they’re in parliament, in the public service and in our judiciary.

Yesterday Shane was going on and on about the Saudi sheep and how the government are paying this creep out for loss of profits when we stopped live sheep exports years ago.  If the government can pay out one man $millions then they can pay me out for cutting tariffs, cutting taxes to the rich and cutting services and professional health care to people in New Zealand.  They can pay me out for deregulation and free-trade on a scale seen nowhere else in the world.  ”Paul Ormerod in his book Death of Economics said  - NZ went from being one of the most highly regulated countries in the world to one of the most unregulated.  Something no other country would have dared for fear of political suicide….”

I am definitely going to find out how to take a case to the High Court as a lay-person, I am going to challenge the government on paying out to this man for being offended, but they won’t pay out to a suicidal sexual abuse victim they have been persecuting and denying entitlements to for the past 13 years.  I am going to test this in court, going to use the law to fuck up the judiciary if I possibly can and all the way through it make sure I have the UN watching how things unfold.  I know I have a legal and moral case for them to answer, this is going to be fun (in a twisted sort of way – keeps the brain occupied.  tehehehe (I’m a red tape whore and its a red tape war.)

I might do some research into what each citizen in New Zealand was worth in 1979 (taking into consideration we owned all the power companies, railways, telecommunications etc).  I know for a fact each citizen now OWES $15,000 that the government has borrowed against them to pay for running our country – BECAUSE OF COURSE THE GREEDY DISGUSTING SUPER FKN RICH DON’T WANT TO!

I believe Kiwis trusted the people leading, our country, they gave Roger Douglas a knighthood for Gods sake.  How could you give someone who has destroyed our culture, our peace and our Gods Own way of life a knighthood – these people in charge have gone mad.  We also trusted that our media would be honest and our politicians and their advisers would be honest, honourable and have integrity –  WE WERE WRONG.

After watching Campbell Live last night I then watched Poldark and the similarities in what the rich/powerful people looked like and the contempt they had for the poor was so similar to today I was horrified.  Also the recent WWI bullshit just reminded me the lesson from all of that unnecessary death and destruction was DON’T TRUST THE PEOPLE IN CHARGE – THEY’RE IN IT FOR THEMSELVES AND THEY DON’T CARE ABOUT YOUR WELFARE OR YOUR LIFE!

I am going to chalk this stuff and write poetry about this epiphany.

Woke up this morning crying, not a good sign, my heart was breaking – ACC are taking months to get this meeting with Alan Doris sorted, let alone getting all the care reinstated, am barely keeping it together – hope nothing bad happens.  I am sure they are doing this on purpose?  I told them on the first day it was urgent, that was almost two months ago now – my poor psyche is struggling to cope.  Bulimia back, trying to keep moving, keep focused on fighting back, stay alive.  I wonder how any of these revolting people could understand what it is like to try and function when you are suicidal, when on a bad day you can be assaulted with thoughts of suicide for hours on end.  Complex PTSD is a serious life-threatening disorder and I have to remember that, it is only my knowledge of psychology and how my disability operates that has kept me alive.

I have been harmed by those corrupt neo-liberals stopping all my care under ACC in 2009, I am going to sue those mother fkrs.  I can prove they purposely caused me harm, that is illegal in a civilized society (did you know there is a UN document that sets out what a civilized society is – I should post it here).

Kia kaha all my friends.

Time to stand up, time to shout, at the whole world – YOU’RE FKD

Time to stand up, time to shout at the whole world – GET FKD

Why Am I Arrested – poem dedicated to Times-Age, Masterton

Times Age Why Am I Arrested

WHY AM I ARRESTED

Why am I arrested for being disabled
Why am I ignored when my injury is clear
Why am I censored for fighting back with my art
Why am I cut off from life saving care

Who decided arrested was right
Who decided ignorance was fair
Who decided my art required censorship
Who decided this pain I could bear

What right do they have to discriminate
What truth do they have to fear
What right do they have to neglect
What truth do they not want to hear

When will I be normal again
When will mental health take due care
When will I be allowed to exhibit
When will my people hear

How has this become so twisted
How do I bring justice to bear
How do I hold those hypocrites to account
How do I cope through my fears
How do I cope through my tears
How do I cope through my fears

EnD

After not publishing anything about my appearance in court for being trespassed/arrested and protesting at the hospital about mental health services, I wanted to prove just how biased, ignorant and unprofessional the Wairarapa Times Age really is.  Was outside doing this chalking for over 30 minutes and nobody came out – had people talking to me, two council people gave me a hard time – and I gave it right back.  Told them I was allowed online casino to do this under the Bill of Rights in a free country and I had already talked to the council about not taking it off, the woman kept asking who I talked to.  I asked them what they were afraid of.

When I started talking about people dying, suffering, committing suicide, living in poverty, with unstable housing and not enough to eat, the woman told me this was nothing to do with that – I MADE SURE SHE KNEW IT DEFINITELY WAS.  I got upset, but never got off my knees to stop chalking.  The guy got it, he got the dreadful woman away before she got me even more upset and into the nitty gritty of why I was there.  Went past about an hour later and it was still there, so hopefully they”ve decided to leave it.

Had a friend supporting me, which was good for a change.  After I chalked it felt like I needed to do more so started singing it, full voice towards the Times Age.  Heaps of cars around the whole time, people seeing what was going on – bet you they will be looking to see if it is in the paper – bet you it won”t be.

This is not considered a news item in a town like Masterton – when a local activist chalks poetry on the footpath about being arrested and having her art censored, when she talks about appauling and abusive mental health services.  I might make a complaint to the Press Council, just cause I can – it won”t work, but it might make these bigots think about what they are doing.

I hope lots of Wairarapa people read this – people have got to stop ignoring this gross miscarriage of justice and censoring what I am doing and saying about it.

Times-Age is neo-liberal and relies on National party voting farmers and business people to keep going – there is no way they are going to upset them by telling them the truth.  I am ashamed and disgusted in the community I come from.