Scouring UN documents I found a less formal, more urgent mechanism to get urgent action from the United Nations Commissioner on Human Rights. Hopefully I have provided enough information to get the police off my back, plus the health care and lawyer I need to continue my fight for justice and professional care for me and other mentally injured abuse victims.
13 April 2018
Office of the United Nations High Commissioner for Human Rights
United Nations Office at Geneva
8-14 Avenue de la Paix
CH-1211 Geneva 10
Special Circumstances of Urgency and Sensitivity
I have been pouring over United Nations documents again as I attempt to put together yet another report/submission on human rights and other abuses I am experiencing and see around me. There is nobody I can tell about what is happening that will help me, you are my only hope to get health care, protection and justice I am entitled to.
This dispute between myself a govt health provider (ACC) and justice organisations has gone on for 15 years in total. More earnestly in the past 9 years since ACC illegally withdrew all my care and severely aggravated my stress disorder, tried to drive me to suicide – they were supposed to be helping me overcome.
They have ignored health professionals and myself in regards to my care, when they have no legal mandate to do so – they are a funder of health services so they proclaim therefore exempt from Health & Disability scrutiny. They have violated criminal laws which say no disabled person is allowed to be left in a position of harm – which ACC and New Zealand government have done many times, while I was screaming for help. (Crimes Act Sections 150A 151 155 157).
I am very unwell and have recurring bouts of chronic suicidal ideation – which is a living nightmare of torment. My stress disorder worsens as I continue to be denied professional rehabilitation and a safe home to live in that is required by law. ACC manipulate the police and have me dragged through court repeatedly. They refuse to name my ACC case manager (she has a false name of Sarah Jones) so she could be subpoenaed for a criminal/constitutional case I was involved in, for protesting about what was happening. They had their lawyer, who belongs to a top law firm in Wellington with a large staff, threaten my lawyer (a mum, with a part-time secretary & no permanent office) if they tried to subpoena the head of ACC Scott Pickering instead of the case manager they would start judiciary review proceedings and delay my case for months. I was very unwell and not coping at all with this court process, I could not get any services, I could not participate – I did not turn up to the second part of the court proceedings. I also had nine pages of statement withdrawn by my lawyer at the last minute, which was devastating and a miscarriage of justice. I went ahead and was acquitted of wilful trespass charges but charged with graffiti with chalk pen – after being insulted and discriminated against by two police officers – who then assaulted me and lied in court.
There was no point in delaying proceedings until I was well, because that was never going to happen until ACC reinstated my care and I was in a safe stable home, and they had been denying me care for years after winning the two ACC reviews. The latest round of protests were done because ACC started using the police to terrorise me using Misuse of a Telephone charge, for phoning them and leaving a message when I was very unwell and screaming to have my care reinstated. More than once they did this, then dropped the charges during the court hearings so the judge wasn’t aware of what my motivation was.
I desperately need a lawyer I have been unable to find one myself in 15 years & have several disasters, with a couple of successes.
I have never been able to get a lawyer to force ACC to do what the law says, I have a letter from my last criminal lawyer that I have serious unmet legal need. I have Wellington Community Law trying to find me a specialist Constitutional lawyer which I am entitled. Also the Wellington Law Society looking as well. My case is too complicated for majority of lawyers. Experts in constitutional laws are at all the large law firms that contract to the government. I have asked several of them to represent me and they tell me it would be a conflict of interest, plus of course they don’t do legal aid.
I can get legal aid, I just can’t get a lawyer. Legal Services Agency try and tell me I don’t have a case, which is incorrect and what qualifications and information do these people have to make such a statement. The justice system has been eroded for years under neo-liberal terrorism in order to harm the poor and deny them justice. The majority of who were disabled people with mental health issues – not being addressed and put under extreme economic strain and suffering criminal neglect.
Can you please tell ACC and the New Zealand government to provide me the professional treatment care rehabilitation and safe home I am entitled to under ACC and other laws & after winning two reviews in 2010/2011. Perhaps Zeid could phone our Prime Minister Jacinda Ardern and ask her directly to intervein in my case, please I would be very grateful, I am very unwell. So many around me are suffering and dying, please help us we are the human sewage of our neo-liberal controlled society.
Can you please acknowledge me as a Civil Society Actor so I can get the protection of the United Nations. I adhere to the handbook on Civil Society. This is my work and my story www.jrmurphypoet.com twitter @jrmurphypoetry – Youtube JR Murphy Poet – facebook /jrmurphypoetmusician . I don’t deny being challenging and controversial, especially in the area of suicide, inequality, mental health, human rights etc. Our society refuses to address the underlying issues to these damaging social problems. How I am being treated by the health and justice system and human rights organisations in New Zealand is proof of how corrupt it truly is. I am discredited, discriminated against, rejected and marginalised by those in authority. I have a lot of support in the community from others in the targeted minority group I belong to and other activists who understand the issues. They do not protest the way I do mostly out of fear. If the UN can protect me, they can protect other disabled Civil Society Actors and people who being persecuted can finally be heard and rescued.
Can you please arrange for me to see a lawyer that can be trusted perhaps a lawyer from outside New Zealand, I have lost faith in those here – they have profited hugely from government economic cruelty and lack of mental health services.
Can you please arrange an international human rights expert to look over my case. So the justice sector cannot discredit what I am saying because I am a lay-person with a mental health issue. Not a mental health issue that makes me a liar or unaware when my rights are being violated and I’m being discriminated against and terrorised purposely.
Can you please arrange for someone to keep checks on police visits to my home and legality of court proceedings following any non-violent political protest. I have tried to trespass police, they ignore me, I am especially terrified by ‘welfare visits’ regarding my mental health. I could give you several police officers names who support what I do and not what is happening to me and others.
Please protect me, Andrew Little gloated New Zealand and his government was a defender of Human Rights – he lied – he knows about my case and refuses to do anything. All I want is my health care back so I can heal from my mental injury and return to work so I can live with dignity and in safety. Flatting with strangers when you are disabled vulnerable and 53 yrs old is terrifying, flatting with people you know can be even more so our society is so dysfunctional in the ‘darklands’.
Please I don’t want to die, I don’t know how many more suicidal episodes I can go through without professional help. That I was turned down for only four months ago – the psychiatrist refused to work with me because I didn’t believe in psychotropic drugs. That was yet another violation of my rights. I don’t take those drugs for ethical and religious regions, ethical because I have done enough study and talked to enough people with CPTSD to know how sick they can make you. Religious because spirit told me not to touch them, I am a rescuer and it would damage my ability to protect myself spiritually when I was under attack from dark spirits – who I help pass over to the light – there are many people who do it.
I have so many other complaints of violations of my civil, political, economic, social, cultural, human, women and disabled rights. I desperately need my special circumstances taken into consideration, so help now will lead to justice being done in the future for me and other disabled mentally injured abused women.
When I try to bring together all my evidence I become severely overwhelmed and can’t deal with it, I become highly suicidal, self-harm and more. I need help, impairments related to my disability prevent me from making complaints to the United Nations under human, civil and disabled rights – I need those urgent things I have asked for above so I can participate fully in the human rights process.
I hope and pray you hear me, as leaders of my own country do not. The support I am asking for is a way for the United Nations to do something practical in the life of a disabled CSA with a life-threatening disorder. Someone from the very group of people with mental health issues who are making vast majority of complaints to the United Nations about human rights violations.
I have written many poems and songs about what my country is putting me and others through. Is it at all possible to facilitate an exhibition of my work, art, poems, music – I wrote all these things for the people who were harming me and didn’t want to see – those in positions of power over us. Can the United Nations stand by me, what I’m singing about, share my work and support me through their social media and extensive networks.
I noted at the first consultation meeting on the UPR of Human Rights in New Zealand the United Nations Association of NZ had a lawyer speaking for them – can I have access to these legal specialists perhaps? I have tried to get help from them before but they turned me away very rudely saying they didn’t deal with individual cases. That was several years ago. How can they speak on my behalf if they don’t want the details of what is happening to me, that only gets worse and more violent.
I have deeply held concerns about violations of what disputes can be put under a Tribunal and was shocked to realise such an important area of law as human rights was being adjudicated in such a manner. Tribunal members chosen by the same government violating human rights, which is a serious violation of separation of powers. Members that denied me a fair hearing of my human rights complaints.
In the next few months I will be participating in the UPR on Human Rights in New Zealand, also disability rights and economic social & cultural rights. I will discuss the issues as I see them and the solutions. But first I need to feel safe in my own home, if I am to do the work needed to participate in the justice process and have my human and other rights defended. This is why I have made this special request and hope with all my heart the United Nations agrees with me and can protect me, particularly under CSA rules.
CIVIL SOCIETY ACTOR
My life’s in boxes little pieces
A wreckage on these hostile beaches
On TV paper radio
No-one says the things I know
The gods of war fight kiwi poor
PR stands guard at every door
They numb the masses to the harm they cause
Tell me and others ‘the fault’s all yours’
Someone made a big mistake
Gave power and glory to those who take
Its social problems they created
Loved the rich & poor they hated
Our leaders ears are painted on
Responsibility they run from
Focus on what’s bright and new
Degrade, despise, reject the few
And those who call the good to action
Are considered some sort of loony faction
Where have this country’s morals gone
Protect the weak, curtail the strong
Arrived at Victoria University for the event, people from Ministry of Foreign Affairs and Trade organising it. Was desperate to find someone I could talk to about getting protection from police as a Civil Society Actor. Started talkng to this woman Sally, was upset, she told me she had been involved in human rights sector for years. I challenged her that it was people like her who had caused the human rights issues we now had, that I now had.
She became very passive aggressive to the point of creepy, they bought me a young woman from Human Rights Commission & I immediately moved away from her like I was frightened – I can’t help it, its a reaction to all the times they have not helped me & hurt me – after all those years begging for their help and being discredited, ignored and having police etc attack me for it.
I wasn’t in a good place so I couldn’t talk to them – there’s no point – I know there is no point after 15 years. Only place I am ever going to get help is the United Nations, HRC are set up to protect the government and New Zealand’s reputation – they even say that in their promotion of the event. They say they trying to protect NZs reputation BLATANTLY – groan.
Sally & another woman couldn’t/woudn’t believe what has been happening with police, mental health, ACC and the justice system. When I said about throwing the paint on White Ribbon banner in police station and chalking swastika on building Sally became really weird. Apparently NOBODY is allowed to use that symbol etc etc, (she also called me Sweetie one part of it). I asked her if she knew how the HUman Rights Act came about, she said she did. When I my use of that symbol was to represent gross violations of my rights and I had every right to use it, she kept saying I wasn’t – so did the young HRC woman. I tried to explain about people being driven to self-harm, violence, addiction suicide etc due to human rights violations by our government – she didn’t want to know. NAZIs did it to people, in 21st century govt has worked out how to drive people to doing it themselves. NZ has highest rate of woman self-harming in the world.
I told her she was trivialising and discrediting what was happening to me and 10,000s of other mentally injured abuse victims with her ‘extreme’ reaction to me using the swastika. She said she wasn’t -but she was. She was incredibly patronising and behaving really oddly, other people came around. I knew it was time to end the conversation when people start reacting like that. So I headed into the lecture theatre to sit down, a very dark skinned woman with braids had been listening and tried to stop me, she asked the man standing near the door to stop me from entering. I wasn’t having any of that so just went around him, while he was trying to work out why I would be stopped. Lots of practice & a complete lack of respect for govt officials gives you the strength to ignore them.
I also told Sally I was human sewage and she kept telling me I wasn’t, over and over again. I said I wasn’t asking her opinion on it, I knew how I was being treated, I was a poet and song-writer and had written a song about it, I knew I was human sewage. Her reaction was very strange.
I got in the meeting – about 50 people – mostly from agencies WHO HAVE BEEN CAUSING THESE HUMAN RIGHTS ISSUES – groan. I had begged for help from EVERY ONE OF THEM and been told they don’t deal with individual cases – question is how do they represent human rights violations if they refuse to talk to the people having their rights violated. Some of them loved the sound of their own voices. The people running it were middle class ignorant people, obviously doing very well pretending we have human rights in New Zealand and staying ignorant to what is really happening.
By this stage the organisers were in a flap, outside, Sally came in and proceeded to tell me I had to leave – I looked at her and said NO. Yes apparently I had to leave by order of Victoria University Security because I was trespassed. WTF – I was shocked, don’t remember being given a trespass order by them, even though did have an altercation with security during a chalk protest outside couple of years ago. Police were called, but nothing came of it.
So spoke up in front of everybody and told them what was happening, started crying, told the room of people they were trying to have me removed, that I just wanted to stay – it was related to my LEGAL non-violent protests and I needed to stay to find out what to do to get protection and justice. I asked them to back me up, only 2 people did, the organiser up the front went out and had a talk to security, came back in and whispered I could stay. They don’t realise there would have been NO WAY they would have got me out of there without police arresting me – NO WAY.
What a way to start the consultation meeting – with such a blatant violation of my human and civil rights. Sally came back in the room and tried to sit beside me – I asked her to go away several times, she refused. She moved a few seats away from me, but came closer at one point – she was making me feel really uncomfortable and was even turned towards me. I just tried to ignore her. Why would someone sit beside you, when you obviously didn’t like them or want them there – it was really really creepy & I will be making a complaint about her inappropriate behaviour. An ex-social worker – groan, some of those people are very mentally disturbed – passive aggressive & DO NOT like being challenged – they just want people saying nice things about them.
We went around the room with microphone, most people were talking about violations of human rights against mentally ill people – but from an advocacy perspective. Got to me and I did it from my perspective.
Took some notes, supported people when they said things I know to be true – groaned, closed my eyes and shook my head when I heard BULLSHIT from people who had no idea what they were talking about.
Talked to a couple of people afterwards about what going on with police, everything they suggested I had tried. They were shocked at what was going on – because obviously they don’t come into contact with people like me – but I had phoned every one of those organisations (eg Amnesty & UN NZ group and been told to go away, they didn’t want to know about individual cases. Not the exact person I was speaking to, but others.)
Left & went to Parliament was upset about what had happened – they had actually tried to have me removed from that very important meeting on how to approach United Nations about human rights abuses I was being subjected to. WTF. And that woman Sally had acted really strangely – I’m sure a psychitarist would be able to explain her disturbing behaviour, especially about sitting next to me when I asked her not to – what was that?
At parliament I sat there mostly just crying & upset in front of my signs, my biggest sign was WORTHELESS SUICIDAL ABUSE VICTIM, PLEASE KILL ME – that’s how I felt. A nice couple of tourists came up to me and asked why there was so much suicide in New Zealand. So I told them why, was thinking later how I should do a VLOG about it. They completely understood about how NZers were so looked after by their government but after neo-liberalism they were terrorised by them.
I asked their nationality as I couldn’t pick it – the were Isralie – there was another person their listening as well – an American, she agreed with everything I was saying about neo-liberalism government etc – was ashamed of Trump. I said how I didn’t really understand the conflicts in their region and was focused on my own country, didn’t believe it was anything really to do with me on the other side of the world. I did say I knew they had serious issues of allocation of resources like water and places to grow food, which I am sure was fuelling their problems.
As we talked it was apparent in New Zealand the poorest are denied a safe place to live and access to land required to grow food. They have welfare & homes for disabled in Israel – so does New Zealand, but I said how they had taken many away and even though they gave you just enough to live, rents were skyrocketing and payments weren’t. I also commented that even though there was welfare you were degraded & hated in teh community when you had to rely on it. Even your own family were ashamed of you.
An Indian man from MSD (sounded like a senior executive the way he was talking) came along, he was nice and wanted to get me help. First thing he asked me is if it was MSD who were not helping me. I assured him my WINZ case manager was one of my biggest support people, she was an amazing person and was often upset she couldn’t get me ACC care and mental health services I was entitled to. He was relieved – he checked about three more times, he was nice & went into Parliament to try and get me to see an MP – once he heard how serious my situation was. He never came back, I told him they wouldnt’ see me, they were all scared of me but he could try if he wanted to. I told them I was in contact with them and nothing had changed.
Then DAVE came over – Dave is one of the older security guards I DO NOT LIKE after a couple of incidents which were grossly unfair. Apparently people had been in to complain to security about me and several had called police – WTF – what he said came across as a threat – hell it is a threat, but that’s the abusive process at the moment – that’s what all those people in suicide prevention have done – turned suicidal people into CRIINALS. I know how to get out of having police or mental health called, there no way they going to commit me in a million years.
Had a long talk with Dave, so we sort of reconciled our differences, although I cried several times and said how traumatised I was by the things he had done. He never apologised of course. He agreed with most of what I was saying, he also said staff had been pretty traumatised by the man who set himself alight on the lawn.
At one point there was a cameraman setting up for someone I didn’t recognised, obviously to do with a news programme of some sort. Maybe it was about the court case of woman helping her mum suicide and my sign sort of related to that. I know he set up so I was in teh background, but I couldn’t bare to watch TV news tonight after they went on and on about National party leadership.
Left about 3.30pm and headed home. I have protested 100s of times now, EVERY time I go out always learn something & always meet some really interesting people. Usually learn something about how bad the system is as well – but today was the weirdest. Those MFAT people are completely radicalised, they truly believe people are getting what the government and laws say they are. Thank God all our submissions will go to the United Nations, I’ll make one to MFAT by 21st June 2018, but I know they will ignore it – as they ignore all my submissions on human rights etc.
What a day – I want to encourage people with human rights and other injustice issues TO BE IDLE NO MORE – GET OUT IN THE WORLD, OUT IN THE STREET, it is essential if we want things to change.
Kia kaha & Aroha to us all.
9 February 2018
Peter Jackson &
Human Rights Commission
PO Box 12411
(NOTE: this letter was also emailed to Secretary for Justice Andrew Bridgman, Jacinda Ardern PM, Andrew Little Minister for Justice, Stuart Nash Minister for Police, Kieran McNaulty MP, Ron Mark MP, Jan Logie, Mojo Mathes, Carterton Mayor John Booth & Lynn Patterson Masterton Mayor, Wairarapa Times Age and Wairarapa News)
This letter is to multiple people, not just those on the address above, I can only write this once. I beg for help so often and am completely discredited, degraded & criminally neglected for telling the truth about what is happening to me (and many other people I am sure).
I refer to the letter 12013 and the absolutely insulting patronising response about Disabled people purposely left to rot on welfare because of gross miscarriage of justice currently perpetrated by our cruel immoral and corruption neo-liberal controlled government and justice agencies. The three arms of government all being grossly corrupted by this economic movement now being called a terrorist religion.
You are talking about improving employment outcomes for disabled people like myself, when I am being illegally denied professional treatment care rehabilitation and a safe home to live in by ACC. If I received the assistance I am entitled to I would be able to return to work. Along with being terrorised by police and others for asking for the health care and justice I know I am entitled to under law – especially Human Rights laws that you are supposed to uphold.
The treatment of disabled people being denied the right to work has nothing to do with societal attitudes it is purely economic and relates to the attitude of our corrupt immoral cruel leaders – it is nothing to do with society – they don’t even know what is going on. They teach discrimination of less than 100% productive workers at university – any person who does an economics paper as part of their degree will be taught to get the maximum productivity out of staff. The ideas of running an advertising campaign to ‘brainwash’ (which is illegal under Bill of Rights & Human Rights) society to be nice to disabled people is deeply flawed & deeply disturbing.
The discrimination I face almost daily for not working has been ingrained in people for 30 years since neo-liberals drove jobs overseas & impoverished 100,000s New Zealanders purposely – then blamed them for their situation – especially disabled people. I face this discrimination, not only in my community but mostly from mental health services, politicians, police, lawyers, justice services and your organisation. You know that because you know who I am and why I protest against you – why I put up pieces of art with swastika’s on in your office – because you are leading the persecution of disabled people by refusing to protect them and uphold the law.
Currently I am being terrorised by police yet again for my LEGAL and completely justified protests about not receiving the PROFESSIONAL mental health care I am entitled to from ACC (after winning two reviews in 2010 & 2011). ACC review decisions are legally binding, it is illegal to not reinstate my care from 2009 and yet they do it and use impairments related to my disorder to continue the psychological abuse. They do this and I beg you to help and protect me from this gross violation of my rights and you do absolutely nothing – you bring out propaganda saying they should treat me better.
Police violently assault me and threaten me with worse violence if I continue to protest – I am assuming worse violence means what happened to Louise Nicholas and I know for a fact includes psychological abuse using the justice system. I stopped sending you my complaints of serious violations of my rights, which puts my life at risk on a regular basis – you have done absolutely nothing to help me – in fact you participate in using police to terrorise me further – as does the Ombudsman.
Today I sit here writing this terrified at what lengths, neo-liberal elements in police are prepared to go to in order to drive me to suicide, self-harm and more.
I don’t know how to begin because of the extremely life-threatening disorder I now have after years of medical & criminal neglect I have COMPOUNDING Complex PTSD. So bringing up all the traumas causes me significant suffering and torment, makes me highly suicidal and there is nowhere I can turn for help. I was denied professional health care in December after an assessment by a CCDHB psychologist and psychiatrist. I was dumped onto a social worker who caused me significant harm after only a few weeks because he had no concept of seriousness of my impairments (even though I told him).
I currently have no doctor, I am in constant physical pain with my kidneys, hips & ankle, I have another skin cancer but I won’t be able to have this one addressed because I am too terrified to interact with health providers now, after years of discrimination. The very people who supposed to help me are instrumental in discriminating against and persecuting me.
PLEASE NOTE: I am in intelligent person and writer I have an Oxford Dictionary I bought when studying law at Victoria immediately prior to the rape, I know the meaning of persecution and I am using it correctly in this instance. I DO NOT HAVE A MENTAL HEALTH ISSUE that involves paranoia and delusions of persecution, which is how I am treated by your agency and every other I beg for health care and justice from.
So 2 years ago I attempted to attend the court case by Tony Ellis of 3 mentally ill men for torture. I had already tried to take a case of torture myself against ACC and failed at court – I have proof of this. I had already begged your office and attorney-general to allow me to take a case and you both refused to acknowledge what was happening to me. I have been unable to get a lawyer to protect me and my rights in 15 years. I have a letter from my previous criminal lawyer that advises I have serious unmet legal needs. I can provide that if required – as I know you don’t believe anything I say.
Before attending the Tony Ellis trial I phoned High Court security and told them I would be protesting outside and attending court but would not be doing anything but watching – so I could learn how Mr Ellis presented the case so I could do one myself – as I couldn’t get a lawyer, was desperate to return to work and didn’t want to die of my disorder (which is highly dangerous according to all international evidence).
As I went into the court I was confronted by security and told I was not allowed to go, I became very upset as I had done everything required of me, I needed to know this information or I couldn’t get justice I desperately needed. I continued to walk into the court and was violently assaulted by security, I was crying and deeply upset. I had never been assaulted by security before in all my years of being arrested and protesting – I have video footage of some of what happened. When police arrived I was curled up in a ball on the floor against the wall, with a sign in front of me, distraught and traumatised, I have photos of the sign & me looking up at 6 men towering over me. Police arrested me and were very nice, I never resist arrest. I made a formal complaint of assault against High Court security, a complaint that was handled by Sgt Q Hoera, he interviewed me but did nothing about what happened. Even though I know the law, I know what security are allowed to do and they overstepped their authority and the law.
Around this time I was extremely unwell, still begging ACC to reinstate my care from 2009, still being ignored and impairments related to my disability being used against me. I had made multiple complaints to police under Sections 150A 151 155 157 of the Crimes Act, but was ignored. I was phoning ACC remote claims unit – which I had been dumped on because I was angry at being denied professional health care I am legally entitled to after winning 2 reviews – in an extremely unwell and psychotic state screaming at them to return my care.
When I asked for a copy of the recorded phone calls on their answerphone (remote claims NEVER answer the phone it is only an answerphone) under the Privacy Act I was told they did not keep copies of them and my request was denied. Around six weeks later police came to my home and told me they were going to charge me with misuse of a telephone for making the calls, I was overwhelmed with grief and distraught at this gross injustice. I spent 3 months being dragged through court only to have charges dropped at the last minute. ACC could only do this by providing a record of the answerphone messages.
Six weeks after the charges were dropped I had police come to my home again (I am terrified of police at my home after years of visits, many of which were extremely traumatising – I have nightmares about police coming to my home now). They told me they were charging me with misuse of a telephone yet again, for phoning ACC really unwell and screaming for help. I was horrified, I have serious RECOGNISED BY A PSYCHIATRIST communication issues when triggered and I couldn’t communicate with police at the time.
I composed myself and went to Carterton police station to find out what was going on -why where they doing this to me again? I was met with insults, degradation and appalling discrimination by the two officers Sgt Q Hoera and Constable Alan French. For 10 mins I was treated like this, trying to defend myself and tell them they were wrong, mental health and ACC were liars I was begging for care – they were saying lots of people had tried to help me and I didn’t want it – that is not true.
I became so angry, I didn’t swear (go tourettes) like I can do (which is a recognised impairment related to my disability) I went back to my car, got out a chalk pen, went back to the police station and drew a swastika & words corrupt on the window in front of them. That was to represent the appalling violation of my human rights – human rights I had as a result of the United Nations recognising how the NAZIs rose to power and putting laws in place to stop this happening again.
I was violently assaulted by these two officers – for my NON-VIOLENT PROTEST. I was subjected to hours of insults and discrimination, when I tried to defend myself verbally they became more abusive and threatened I WOULD SEE HOW BAD POLICE COULD BE IF I KEPT IT UP. Threats I take extremely seriously considering what happened to Louise Nicholas for many years. I have also realised police are using psychological abuse – which is referred to as Gaslighting – to intimidate and drive my suicidal behaviour even more – they want me to commit suicide.
I want to be sick and tears are rolling down my face as I write this, I will have to self-harm to cope once it is finished.
After I was released I went home to NO SUPPORT and couldn’t tell friends and family either I was so traumatised. I emailed Mike Sutton of Masterton police and told him what had happened, I made a formal complaint to him and the IPCA, I was ignored. A few days later I woke up very very unwell and highly suicidal, covered in bruises, I went to local hospital A & E. When I got there I was very distraught the nurse asked me who had hurt me, I didn’t want to tell her, she had been nice up to that point. Once I said it was police her entire demeanour changed, she left me alone – which was extremely inappropriate in the circumstances. She then put me in another cubicle, left me on my own so terrorised I was rocking backwards and forwards on the bed. By the time a doctor came to see me I was curled up in a ball in the corner of the room rocking, banging my back against the wall to try and calm myself.
The doctor was very nice, he seemed to understand where the nurse was horrible. They recorded the bruising on my hands, my arm and down left side of my leg. I left and went home to no support.
That medical account was given as evidence during the court case for graffiti and wilful trespass I was being charged under – that the violent assault by police was being decided under. Q Hoera and Alan French told the judge I was pushed up against the wall, when I was thrown onto the ground, which is why I had bruises on side of my left leg.
Nobody told me until the case went to court almost 18 months since the protests and assault that it would be dealt with during court proceedings for my protesting – about police being used by ACC to charge me with misuse of a telephone for screaming for help I am entitled to and desperately needed. I had received the CCTV footage of me being processed by police after the assault – it proves what they had done to me – it was never used in court. Neither was extensive other evidence as to why I was protesting. My lawyer at the time was a public defender with no experience in human rights, bill of rights or what was happening to me.
The lawyer demanded I take out my statement about what was happening to me.
I was acquitted of several other charges for protesting (as I have been multiple times before) but was charged with graffiti for the chalk pen swastika. The judge also made a judgement about the assault saying the officers were justified and not believing anything about the threats or the extent of violence – which I know was illegal. I have been arrested many times, police in Wellington HAVE NEVER treated me so violently. There is a culture of police violence against women in Wairarapa that is not being addressed and is getting worse – I have spoken to several other people now who have witnessed or experienced unnecessary violence towards women here.
I was extremely upset about yet another gross violation of my rights and justice. I became even more unwell and a series of events related to my currently UNSAFE UNSTABLE living situation caused me even further distress (these included a terrifying situation with a mentally ill man on a bracelet in community who had just got out of prison and wanted to live with me because I desperately needed a flatmate.) Which is another story and violation of my human and disability rights that you are currently ignoring.
To cope with what police had done, as I was becoming even more unwell, if that is possible – I went to Masterton police station two weeks ago (30 Jan) and threw red paint over the large white ribbon banner in the foyer. I left, chalked a swastika on the building then headed for Lower Hutt court where I chalked a comment about the very old judge who made the decision and a swastika. I then went to Wellington police station and handed myself in to police there, as I trusted them. They were very nice but made me talk about the police assault which was very upsetting, it was obvious they were uncomfortable with what Wairarapa police had done and the entire situation I was in.
I was given a bail notice to appear on 6th February and conditions that I wasn’t to go within 1 metre of a Wairarapa police station and was to stay every night at my current address. On 1 February a police officer came to my home (which police know I am terrified of), he was very nice and respectful, he told me the 6 Feb date was done in error and could I sign a new Notice of Police Bail that required me to attend court on Monday 5 February. I was told failure to appear would result in my arrest and the notice advises I may be punished by imprisonment of up to 3 months if I did not attend.
I was nervous about the court, as I have spent the past 18 months being dragged through court, I have to get mentally prepared to go, I get dressed up. I am very poor at the moment because I havn’t had a flatmate for past 3 months and had to drive to Masterton with my petrol light flashing – and stressing about that.
When I got there I went inside to tell security to call me when my name came up as I was going to wait outside – and had my guitar so I could sing my songs, which helps me feel less stressed. I have been escorted from court several times for singing and getting upset inside the court. Court staff know it is better for me to be outside waiting, I don’t feel so trapped (the need to be outside is related to the rape and heightened fight flight and freeze response/impairment I now have). While I was outside singing at around 9am – I was at court at 8.30am as required by the notice.
I also chalked “STOP police violence towards disabled women” on the court fence, I have chalked in this way many times before and not been arrested for it, I know it is within my rights to do this considering the extent of persecution and human rights violations I have been subjected to over several years.
NOTE: I have made a formal complaint to about Judge PJ Butler over his decision and I am attempting to appeal the conviction for graffiti – or more accurately the POLICE ASSAULT decision. But I have been very unwell and still cannot get a lawyer so trying to do it myself.
Police came along outside court and handed me a summons to appear in court on 5 March. Told me I wouldn’t be going to court today. I was very confused, I needed to see the judge to plead and ask for a psych assessment regarding my mental health and motivation behind the blood protest. The WHITE RIBBON sign I threw red poster pain on said to SPEAK OUT ABOUT VIOLENCE TOWARDS WOMEN. I had spoken out and been victimised even more. I know how long court takes, I wanted to make sure things were done as quickly as possible and getting the judge to order an assessment with Justin Barry-Walsh (who I trust and has assessed me for court proceedings previously) would speed things up. Also I had to get a lawyer.
Police left and I went into the court to see the judge. The security guard was very odd, he told me I wasn’t on the court list and I wasn’t allowed in the court, to see a judge or the registrar. I became upset and was then told I was trespassed. I know every person has a right under Magna Carta to see a judge if they need to. I was told there was only a registrar and no judge that day – even though the police officer who came to my home said I would be see a judge. I was prepared to see the registrar but they refused to let me. A woman who works at the court came out from a room looking frightened, she said there was only a registrar, she knew something bad was happening to me I am sure.
I left the court and headed back to my car not far away, as I was three police officers came around the corner, the two who had given me the summons and another. There was one shorter police officer and two very tall ones – it was very intimidating. I have NEVER resisted arrest police know that, I have had situations in Wellington where one officer was sent to arrest me. Once I am told I am under arrest I comply with everything police say, unless it violates my rights.
I was very distressed at being required to be in court or I could spend time in jail, but told I didn’t need to be there and to come back in a month. I went home with my light still flashing, I was very upset, mostly because the behaviour by police was so blatantly part of the GASLIGHTING form of psychological abuse vulnerable people can be subjected to by people in positions of power over them, either abusive partners or abusive organisations like police. This is a well documented and accepted form of abuse in power relationships. This is why we have a Human Rights Act and supposed to be protected from this form of violence by those in positions of power.
As Tuesday was a holiday on Wednesday I headed for Wellington early to see a judge or the registrar so I could have my court case moved to Wellington as it was obvious to me I was never going to get justice at the Masterton Court and the police station is behind the court house. I am terrified of Wairarapa police after years of discrimination and harm that you and other organisations suppose to protect me ignore.
I knew I had to see a judge but there were none available at Wellington District Court which I found strange, given it was a city court. I asked to see the registrar to explain what had happened and get the court proceedings moved. I talked to a Chinese man who was difficult to understand because of his accent, he was horrible, when I started to cry recounting what was going on he became insulting and patronising, when I told him it was police who were harming me he got worse. Because I was upset security were called to stand behind me and intimidate me – I was sodomised by the rapist from behind I get nervous when men stand behind me.
I then spoke to another person in the registrar’s office at Wellington District Court, all the woman said was for me to calm down – ie not cry and be completely distraught. She didn’t help me get to see the registrar to get court changed and arrange a psych report (as has been done before when I have gone through court for protesting about not receiving mental health care I am entitled to by law). Then she told security to remove me without helping me. A large woman with blond hair was by this stage standing behind her with a look of complete contempt on her face – a manager perhaps.
I left with security, but asked to see a lawyer on the 2nd floor, which I was allowed to do. This lawyer – who I will get the name of soon – listened to what was happening for just a short time, took my two Bail notices and summons off me, told me they were police documents and nothing to do with the court and I should leave. I was shocked, this wasn’t right advice and I knew that, I left with security. The lawyer told me if I wanted the court venue changed it was police I had to ask. I was scared to go to them but I had no choice.
I then went to Wellington police station as the lawyer told me and explained the situation. They told me I could not get court venue changed unless I changed my plea to guilty. But I hadn’t been able to plead because they wouldn’t let me in the court (even if I was going to plead not guilty I still hadn’t told the court that). The police officer was very nice, I was very very upset, he knew what was happening to me was wrong. He ended up agreeing it was a judge or registrar that would need to change the court venue – as I was now terrified of being in Masterton knowing what they were capable of. I kept saying I was sorry to him, for being so upset and that I had to complain about what police in Wairarapa were doing to me.
I left the police station and headed for the Community Law Centre where I sat waiting for 2 hours, crying mostly. I saw two women and told them my story, they said I really needed a lawyer and listed three on the form they gave me – I was distraught, begged them to find me a lawyer as when I ever tried I was rejected – they refused saying they weren’t allowed. I have since phoned those three lawyers one of them was not a criminal lawyer and couldn’t do it – the other two weren’t taking on new clients. I then remembered why I stopped going to Community Law Centre (I had been there about 5 times in past 14 years) because they always told me I needed a lawyer, referred me to people who were too busy or refused to help me because it wasn’t their area of expertise. This is a violation of my Magna Carta rights, and I know it.
Because I am now terrified of Wairarapa police and security at Masterton Court house I know I won’t be able to attend the summons on 5 March – I have no mental health support and impairments related to my disorder will stop me from going – I become phobic and unable to move when I am very unwell. I would then break the law and then police will come to my home and violently arrest me – I don’t want that, but I can’t go to Masterton court, I know I can’t. This is an impairment related to my disability and must be accommodated if possible under Human Rights and Bill of Rights laws.
When I spoke to Community Law lawyers they told me I was right in applying to the registrar in Wellington, they suggested the reason court staff were so insulting is they don’t like dealing with lay-people. If a lawyer was representing me they would have treated them with respect at the request to shift venues and most likely agreed, considering the proof of years of victimisation and police violence.
I desperately need a lawyer but there are none, I can’t appear in court in Masterton because of impairments related to my disorder, God please help me – what do I do? I have phoned dozens of lawyers, every rejection causes me to self-harm and is extremely harmful and degrading.
I contact politicians and senior police who supposed to take complaints of harm seriously – they refuse to do anything. I am a Civil Society Actor as defined by the United Nations it is illegal to use processes in a punitive way, which is exactly what is happening to me. I have contacted the United Nations, they told me you would help me and protect me, but you never have.
GOD PLEASE HELP ME.
Civil Society Actor
Good day chalking in Wellington, John Key was out on a walk so I vented and bollocked the fk out of him – called him a fkn murderer stopping people getting mental health services, stopping people from having safe houses to live in, etc – was really hard for me as I was assaulted by his security officers last time. Was threatened with arrest again by one of them but stood up to him, told me to leave the area, told him NO WAY, PUBLIC STREET AND I WASN’T MOVING AND I HAD EVERY RIGHT TO SWEAR AT HIM! When I went into question time about an hour later, same officer escorted me and sat directly behind me – its quite amusing now cause I know I’m never going to do anything while in the house, CAUSE I’M AN ACTIVIST NOT A TERRORIST – never have been violent and never will.
Below is the email I sent to John Key in response to today, I like to reassure him, as I know he’s a frightened bully and a coward.
Sent: Tuesday, 29 November 2016 8:58 p.m.
To: John Key
Subject: I am an activist not a terrorist
I swore at you again on the street today and got threatened with arrest by one of your security staff. If you can’t handle the language of New Zealanders who are being persecuted by your violent, immoral, criminally negligent policies then you shouldn’t be in Parliament. I’m a NON-VIOLENT activist, doesn’t stop me venting at you verbally and I never threaten harm, unlike your bullies threaten me – I just tell you what you are doing and that I don’t like it.
Reason I ‘lose it’ when I see you, is you have not been listening to me and 100,000s of other struggling New Zealanders – especially those of us who are disabled by abuse, trauma and neglect. Not having a safe home to live in is abuse/trauma/neglect; not getting the health care I am legally entitled to from ACC etc so I can heal from the rape and return to work is abuse/trauma/neglect; not listening to what I know about the science behind violence, addiction, suicide and stress disorders is abuse/trauma/neglect; being told I am abusive when I politely tell my MP Alastair Schott how bad ‘the system’ is, is abuse/trauma/neglect; not listening to what I know people are entitled to under law & science is abuse/trauma/neglect; having me dragged through court repeatedly for legally protesting in a non-violent way is abuse/trauma/neglect – I could go on…………..
You were the one who stopped my ACC care illegally in 2009, you ordered ACC to dump 10,000s of claimants and you didn’t care how they did it either. Of course I am angry with you A LOT of people are, but they don’t tell you and your supporters to their face, like I do. I despise all people who vote National and if I get the opportunity I tell them that they are the ones who vote for the ongoing cruelty – although from watching the house today I’m not sure if your party are even mentally stable any longer. Only time I cried today was when Nick Smith was going on about how great government have done with housing? NOT ONE THING he said would help me get a safe house to live in in Wairarapa – as we don’t have state houses here and proceeds from Trust House (sick sick name) all go to extravagant sports and arts projects and business. How do you expect a person with CPTSD to heal if they aren’t in a safe place – it is impossible?
This email gives John Key the authority to view my ACC, police, justice and medical file – I have nothing to hide, as I’m sure your security team will already know. Speaking of them, they didn’t like it when I called them aholes as I was leaving the Parliament today, I realised later that was retaliation for the officer who threatened me when I swore at you in the street – which you deserved – please tell them that.
Lots of people don’t like you, but you’re not the worst in Parliament, Bill English, Nick Smith, Christopher Finlayson, Judith Collins, Anne Tolley, Paula Bennett, Simon Bridges and Amy Adams are.
Have you worked it out yet, 30 yrs of neo-liberal terrorists advancing rich, disadvantaging middle class, persecuting disabled poor, driving decent jobs overseas, cutting state housing, selling off public infrastructure, privatising everything possible and putting in hands of greedy immoral people, cutting health care and making welfare SO SO SO degrading has bought us to now and the seething angry resentful ignorant bigoted country we have become. Trumped again.
Now if I could get the ACC care I am entitled to, or any other of those mental health services you go on about – that don’t actually work and aren’t actually there for disabled people like myself, then maybe I wouldn’t be so angry and ‘lose it’ when I see you. Before I was raped and treated like human sewage by those agencies who were legally supposed to help me, I seldom swore and definitely not in public – you and your ignorant supporters have driven me to this.
I chalked some things on the footpath outside Supreme court and across from Parliament for you. A poem called You’re Cruel I’m Blamed (Google it, check out my website jrmurphypoet.com) was very apt after what your security officer said to me. Plus I made comments about neo-liberals being terrorists and how the judiciary was participating in this cruelty and criminal negligence – that there were laws in this country that say you cannot advance rich at the same time as disadvantaging poor, you are not allowed to destroy people (like you have destroyed me) and everybody must have access to justice, which of course I don’t – unless I get charged with legally protesting, which I will get off AGAIN. I can only imagine the amount of money I have cost since I was raped by a badly abused child who didn’t get help he was entitled to, would have been lots cheaper to provide me the treatment care and rehabilitation I am entitled to under ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws. As you know from my website me and 1000s of others already know the solutions, YOU CHOOSE not to do them, sad when I know this could be an international business that could bring peace to so many countries.
I find it EXTREMELY offensive when you (and Nick Smith today) wear the white ribbon when you know you create 80% of this violence by traumatising and degrading people. You refuse to provide professional and adequate mental health services and facilities, you refuse to provide safe housing (mentally ill have had housing issues for years – and majority of people in state houses were from troubled homes.) You and your neo-liberal terrorist friends created this, then you make money out of it – ahhh THE VIOLENCE INDUSTRY.
One day you will realise just how much suffering and harm you caused so many people in this country, who did not deserve it. When history looks back at your time as Prime Minister it will be in disgust at what you and your supporters/controllers did. Karma
Civil Society Actor
HUMAN SEWAGE LIVING IN THE DARKLANDS
Below yet another email begging to have my care reinstated and professional care/rehabilitation provided – I saw on social media a meeting called #integratedcare held in Wellington today, which is really Occupational Therapy (a method of rehabilitation that has been around for decades) and like I have repeatedly called Multi-disciplinary Approach to Rehabilitation which I studied at Massey University 7 years ago.
People are trying to say this is new – its not new – its what should have been happening – and mental health care (especially trauma care after abuse) should never have been excluded like it has been – thanks to corruption ignorance bigotry and general hatred of abuse victims. If you read over ACC laws you will see good intelligent educated compassionate NORMAL people developed those rehabilitation requirements (based on Occupational Therapy), they are extensive (especially in the area of social rehabilitation) and detailed. Just ACC doesn’t do it and nobody seems to give a shit that they are violating laws and harming people – which is a crime under NZ Crimes Act.
If you read over disability documents put out by the government you will see they promised integrated care, if you read over human rights, disabled rights, mental health documents they all say this is happening WHEN I KNOW IT IS NOT! Because I have known what these people were talking about for 15 years and told thousands of people about it I am currently blocked from Ministry of Social Development, White Ribbon campaign, Human Rights Commission, Health and Disability Commission and so many others. I am denied any care that even resembles an integrated care plan and police bully and threaten me for speaking out about this gross miscarriage of justice against me and 10,000s of others.
I feel disgusting at the moment, have put on so much weight on top of everything else. Anyway the email.
Sent: Wednesday, 23 November 2016 4:43 p.m.
To: Complaints ACC; ACC Complaints
Subject: I still havn’t heard from my counsellor about treatment & reinstatement of my rehabilitation
I am very unwell, suffering extreme psychological distress, bombarded with violent suicidal and self-harm thoughts over and over again. My bulimia is bad, ticking is bad, I am trying to hide it from everybody as much as I can as I don’t want to be threatened, insulted, degraded, abused, forcibly drugged and incarcerated. My living situation is unsafe and I am still very frightened. I am still putting on a large amount of weight, I have tried to get help to do some exercise but the person let me down. I have barely left my bed the past two days I am so unwell.
I have been waiting for many months to see the counsellor Jenny Kirby, she was supposed to phone me, you have not reinstated my rehabilitation similar to that I had in 2009, you have not done anything to ensure I am protected from harm and provided the health care I am entitled to. You have ignored impairments related to my disability and refuse to support me to even get to Jenny Kirby. You are violating ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws. You are causing me to be discriminated against, driving me to suicide and dysfunction, ensuring I am isolated and marginalised in my community – and frightened to participate. You have made me dependent instead of resilient and you think its a great joke because you saved that corrupt American Paula Rebstock money – but cost me my life and left no hope for my future. Now I don’t own a home and will never recover from the past 15 years of discrimination, persecution, abuse and psychological torture.
I have noted on social media a large meeting on #integratedcare being held in Wellington today – this is the same as what I studied at University years ago about Multi-disciplinary approach to rehabilitation – which is what my care in 2009 was the beginnings of (that you illegally withdrew against all professional (and my) advice) – I told you that I wanted this type of professional rehabilitation, instead corrupt cruel immoral and criminal negligent people in ACC stopped it from happening. Why?
Can you please advise Jenny Kirby when I will be receiving professional rehabilitation as required under law and this nightmare of hell will end, so I can get back to a normal life and work?
GOD PLEASE HELP ME.
HUMAN SEWAGE LIVING IN THE DARKLANDS
After phoning Police Headquarters Complaint Investigation Unit about huge delay in dealing with police assault in August, I received a phone call from Insp Donna Howard who took over Wairarapa District earlier this year. What Insp Howard said to me yesterday (18/11/2016) is really pissing me off so I need to write about it, I will send the link to her as well. Towards the end of our conversation about police phoning me if they have someone phone them ‘concerned for my welfare’, she started saying I should be respectful of HER staff, that I shouldn’t swear at them. Told her since I was assaulted by one of HER officers I had little respect for them and how dare she expect me to after what they have put me through. I hung up or I would have started swearing and sent her an email, explaining briefly why I got angry.
Felt I needed to explain the backstory to my rage and disgust in police, especially in the Wairarapa where I live. Also my disability is Compounding CPTSD, so all the unresolved trauma police have caused builds up, which is why I was having nightmares and was so frightened by noises of cars in my street that police were coming to get me.
It was always a rule of mine not to swear at the police and I didn’t for years, even if several times I wanted to. My brother in law a Snr Sgt, he told me what to do, not to swear or say the P word. It wasn’t until they started being vindictive and mean, stripping me naked in the cells and demanding I remove my underwear even when I had my period; charging me with bogus minor crimes then dropping the charges at the last minute or losing the case (around 10 times since illegally ACC withdrew all my care in 2009 and I started protesting).
Taking me up to the cells when they didn’t need to, being violent and degrading (violently arresting me Xmas Eve 2014, refusing me shoes & a jersey when I was sick with flu). Basher insulting me at home, telling me if I was broke (and I was) that I should sell my furniture – furniture my friends had given me. Sykes gossiping about me around town telling people not to let their children come to my house because I was a nutter, another officer hiding a formal complaint over the Xmas Eve event. Then of course there were the repeated welfare visits (more than 50) which were embarrassing and my neighbours saw. Most officers were nice but ignored when I said about ACC or mental health refusing me services.
Then there was the late night welfare visit at 11pm earlier this year which was very traumatic for me. The welfare visit I was taken to Masterton and charged with Misuse of a Telephone for phoning ACC screaming to have my care reinstated (as I had done many times with no response).
My case manager had phoned April 2014 telling me my care would be reinstated as it was in 2009, I spent 15 minutes confirming this. All that happened was I had to do another traumatic assessment with Dr Doris in Auckland, had to catch plane up and back in 1 day, lots of things I had to pay for. I was very unwell and needed my care back it was psychological torture to be told it would be, telling all my family and friends it would be, then nothing happened. I still have absolutely no services and my doctor is hopeless – although she wrote to them weeks ago asking why my care was withdrawn and why it hasn’t been reinstated, just like other doctors have done, and had no response.
Years ago I discovered Sections 150A 151 155 and 157 of the Crimes Act, I know ACC are violating these laws and police have continuously refused to prosecute them. One officer did look into it but after several months of hope, told me police ‘didn’t know who to prosecute’ so refused to go any further (ACC are a limited liability company, my case manager, the CEO and Chair Paula Rebstock should have been charged – of course there needed to be a thorough investigation to identify others persecuting me but it was never done). So when ACC phoned and wanted me prosecuted for an extremely minor charge of course I was extremely upset with police – and why should I have any respect for them – they are supposed to uphold the law for me, protect people like me, not just rich and powerful at ACC (who are illegally refusing me and so many others disabled by abuse care and leaving me in harmful situations).
Then of course there are all my protests and the charges I have got off there, that should never have been taken and I told them that over and over again, that I was within my rights, under Bill of Rights laws.
Another vindictive mean thing they did was keep me in the cells overnight twice, where I broke down in the morning both times. First time was for breaching trespass notice for parliament – I was outside the building – after being told by police they wouldnt’ arrest me the week before, this day they did. I overhead one of the officers tell another that the order had come down from upstairs (because they wanted to let me go). My girls were 14 and 15 then and were left home alone. Also there was already case law that said people can protest on Parliament grounds even if trespassed previously.
Next time was week before Xmas 2014 I violated bail conditions and did a protest at Justice House, I was very unwell, singing, reciting poetry and had my naked torso painting. I didn’t know I would have to stay and was really upset, was told by police a lawyer couldn’t get me out – found out that was wrong. Because I have mental health issues they are not allowed to hold you in the cells for longer than six hours – I’m sure the cop didn’t know BUT I should have seen a lawyer.
Also was arrested for not appearing in court – because I couldn’t afford to get there and was traumatised by what had happened in 2013. Police waited two weeks then picked me up 8am 2 January, a public holiday and my birthday, which they knew. Initially was angry and traumatised by this, then couldn’t stop laughing on way to court – the shear stupidity and vindictiveness of police was laughable. Had my kids home for a visit, had a day of things planned I had to delay for three hours. Other person seeing judge that day was a man who had beaten up his partner and wanted to get out of the cells. I had done nothing but a non-violent protest begging for my health care to be reinstated by ACC so I could get back to work.
Then of course there was the violent arrest during the Rugby World Cup where I had been protesting outside ACC building and police were called. I had vented and was really angry but ready to leave when police arrived (I never threatened anybody with harm but called them maggots and swore at them several times). One officer went inside to talk to staff and one stayed with me and refused to let me leave – other officer came out without speaking and slammed a handcuff on my right wrist. I freaked out – my stress disorder – pulled away from him like I was being attacked onto the ground screaming in fear, my wrist still attached to his arm. Have been scared of handcuffs since and always ask, then beg, for them not to be used (nice police officers don’t use them). You are not allowed to arrest a person like that, you are supposed to warn them they are under arrest etc. I blame the Sgt who sent two young men to deal with a disabled female protester, as they were having to deal with violent rugby fans every night and just used same tactics on me – inappropriately.
Then of course there were the insults and discrimination that prompted me to chalk pen a swastika onto the Carterton police station. Telling me I was a liar, that lots of people had tried to help me – I just didn’t want it. Telling me I was protesting all the time and made it my job because I was mentally ill, again that I was a liar and nobody was being discriminated against or refused care they entitled to. That my protesting was a joke, that they weren’t scared of me like the others – which showed they were being vindictive. Threatened in very menacing way if I didn’t stop protesting my innocence and rights under law, saying I had just been assaulted and talking about ACC etc that I would find out just how mean and nasty the officer could become if he wanted.
Why would anybody be scared of me, I’m a single woman with a disability, no partner so no protection from a man, isolated from my family and most of my community – police have an entire force to back them up and they do rightly or wrongly. Not all police are mean, but those who aren’t are allowing others to do it and not saying anything -which makes them almost as bad.
Then the assault 🙁 then 3 hours of being held at Masterton Police Station, went into shock after the assault (had only just got over a bad flu week before) refused a blanket. Tried to make me catch bus home, ended up curled up in a ball in the corner of station banging my back on wall repeating over and over I can’t catch the bus. left for an hour in even colder part of police station at the front desk. Cowering from people who walked past, head down, rocking and whimpering that I was cold and wanted to go home. Go home to a flatmate who didn’t speak and not able to tell any of my friends or family what had happened. Having no counsellor, social worker, psychologist etc I could tell either. I did tell my doctor but she ignored it.
Also police have not acted on my complaint of assault by High Court Security in July 2016 when violently detained for wanting to attend court case of Tony Ellis taking government to court over Torture and Inhuman Treatment, which I tried to do and failed previous year, couldn’t get a lawyer and so wanted to see how to do it myself.
Just remembered another police thing where I was arrested at Police HQ earlier this year for getting angry and swearing during a marketing promotion about Its Not OK – went there and started yelling how it wasn’t OK to withhold health care, not have safe homes for people, leaving them with dangerous flatmates, make things worse for them, etc etc. Usually I would have been 30 mins in police station, given a warning and let go – this time I was held in the cells for five hours to see mental health, who they know I am petrified of and just swear at, then let go.
My complaints to IPCA are also being ignored – apparently I make too many of them – I have made 6 complaints over 8 years (3 in past six months), as soon as I started making complaints things deteriorated with police in Wairarapa. Police in Wellington nowhere near as bad, especially with the insults, degradation and way I am treated.
All of this I have experienced at the hands of police and I have done my upmost best to stay civil to those who are nice to me – even when I see the uniform and am overwhelmed by all the bad things people in that uniform have done. So when Inspector Howard says I should not swear or be disrespectful of her officers anybody would understand why I find it extremely difficult and have ever right to talk to them the way I do when they are mean and disrespectful.
Sorry this post is a bit confusing, so many things have happened and I get triggered easily by having to recount what has happened. Hopefully it shows Inspector Donna Howard and others what I have been subjected to for screaming for the professional health care I am entitled to from ACC (I have won two reviews and still get nothing) and protesting about mental health and justice services in New Zealand being abusive and violating people’s rights.
I find it extremely sad and soul destroying that Human Rights Commission and a multitude of justice and health agencies etc refuse to uphold my rights and protect me from this ongoing persecution – cause persecution is what it is according to definition in my Oxford Dictionary. All this just so I can get the health care I am entitled to as a mentally injured abuse victim – if an intelligent 51 year old women who knows her rights can’t get professional care then NO MAN WOMAN OR CHILD will get what they entitled to either. Of course our government, media and disgusting corrupt liberals in the VIOLENCE & ABUSE INDUSTRY will keep telling you it is OK to ask for help and there are heaps of care for people!
I live in sick sick country, in a sick sick world, that ignorant rich violent neo-liberal terrorists run.
Kia kaha to us all.
Been protesting outside Masterton Police Station again today 🙁 Two officers came out after about an hour to check on my sign, which was directed at the Inspector leading Wairarapa police which said “DONNA COWARD STOP ignoring police assault of disabled abuse victim”. One who spoke to me was a nicer one I know but I couldn’t even reply, just froze, tried not to cry, shake or cower from them, had my head hanging down and focused on my breathing until they left.
Also had several people come up to me and supported what I was doing, told me a few stories as well about those officers who are arseholes – who give all of them a bad name. Couldn’t talk much as didn’t want to cry.
I realise people don’t believe the police would assault a woman so I decided to post the emails I sent following the assault begging for it to be sorted out because I had become very frightened of all police and the thought of coming to my home again was giving me nightmares. I am not an unreasonable person, all I want is an apology and promise from the two who assaulted me that they would never hurt me like that again.
Police Complaints Authority (IPCA) are involved and have contacted me recently and said they refuse to deal with the assault until April 2017, after my charges of Misuse of A Telephone and Graffiti are heard. Legally the assault has nothing to do with the charges, IPCA are extremely vindictive people just like police they investigate, they are delaying this because they know it causes me significant distress and hoping I will commit suicide.
This is the first email I sent – to one of the head people at Masterton Police who was supposed to be looking out for me after I was violently arrested and humiliated Xmas Eve 2 years ago – when police hid the complaint I made and had to apologise about the violent arrest & humiliation.
I want to throw up writing this to you, but I know that’s what I have to do – I will contact Complaints in Wellington on Monday so I can get another email to send this too as not sure if I can trust you to do anything.
What happened yesterday is as much a result of the two previous complaints I have made about inappropriate cruel behaviour of police officers not being dealt with – as it is with discrimination on the basis of my disability and trying to stand up for my rights.
Firstly, under the Privacy Act and as part of this complaint can I please request a copy of the CCTV footage from inside & outside Carterton Police Station between 1.45pm and 2.45 pm, when I went there to make a complaint about two police threatening me at my home over Misuse of a Telephone complaints ACC was making.
I arrived to make a complaint about police turning up at my house yet again threatening me with misuse of a telephone, when only a matter of weeks ago charges were dropped, my lawyer gave me a list of reasons – one being the Alan Doris report detailing my tourettes/insulting/swearing stuff. According to your staff it was because the person died. For at least 10 mins I got every cliché in the book, including the lie that people had tried to help me but me but I refuse care. Comments about me being mentally ill which is why I protest all the time and make this my job. Derogatory comments about how I take police to court when I know my rights have been violated.
I was so upset that Alan, who I thought understood as he had been so nice to me in the past, actually thought the same as ALL the other officers about me being a time waster, liar, etc etc. It is getting difficult to remember what they said as my brain rejects discrimination and that sort of hatred and ignorance – its just too painful and causes me to become highly suicidal – why would anybody want to live in this hell hole country with a stress disorder and reliant on abusive unprofessional mental health services.
I left the station very upset at many of the things that had been said – but at least I know what is being said – I just never understood why you refused to protect me under the Crimes Act, now I do. The only way peaceful way I could react to what I had just been subjected to was go back to my car, get my chalk pen, go back to the station and chalk a swastika and CORRUPT on the front window. I didn’t think oh this is going to get me arrested, or oh I’m going to be violently hurt by those police, I just do it – I know it is not against the law to protest in this way. Bill of Rights law and the right to protest has a measure of reasonableness and what is justified in a civil society. What happened next was out of all proportion to what I did.
The Maori policeman – same one who reluctantly took my complaint against High Court Security last week – came out grabbed me and proceeded to assault me and throw me on the ground. I was freaking out, I never resist arrest and yet this man was really hurting me, he was digging his fingers into the tops of my hands so I was screaming, my hands are all bruised and sore. He also grabbed my ear and twisted it, along with my left arm being twisted and thrown to the ground. I have a bad bruise up the inside of my right arm, I think caused by the chalk pen somehow – when I showed them the bruise they kept saying it wasn’t them it had been there for ages – it was really strange. I can appreciate they didn’t realise what they had done but to vehemently deny it was. Alan was also part of assaulting me, I remember him with his knee on me on the ground. I’m sure the CCTV footage will show you what happened.
I was tightly handcuffed, which cut into my wrist really badly so by the time I got to Masterton station my hand was blue and tingling – its now 4am and I havn’t been able to sleep and the bruise on my right wrist and hand are really sore.
I was put in the police car and taken to Masterton, Alan talked the whole way, his words dripping with sarcasm and obvious hatred, it was very distressing. Every question about why I couldn’t get care I answered or explained but he refused to believe anything I said – I’m mentally ill after all – he just got nastier and more insulting. Threatened me with finding out just how nasty he could be if I didn’t co-operate fully or said anything to defend myself. Said something about pulling the victim card.
I mentioned there are several other things happening in my life at the moment that are causing me huge stress, particularly my flatmate who has a dog and been breaking things but not repairing or replacing him – he is very strange and I need him to leave but as usual I can’t say anything because my disorder kicks in and my mouth just won’t say the words. Alan just became angry with me about it. I also mentioned my uncle had died and all my family were in Nelson for the funeral but I couldn’t go mostly because I couldn’t trust my flatmate, plus the cost and the fact I am so fragile at the moment and it is not safe to be around my family – they insuilt me for not working. I find being away from home very difficult – I find being at home very difficult when I get continuous visits from police for whatever reason.
When at Masterton police station I started to go into survival mode and curl up in a ball rocking backwards and forwards – I asked for a woman officer and was refused. After what happened in Wellington last week I’m starting to freak out about being around men bullying and standing over me. I ended up curled up in a ball in the cell or rocking backwards and forwards to try and calm myself. I was so cold as I had gone into shock. I asked for a doctor as my arm was really hurting and I thought it might have been some clot as a result of the handcuffs, the pain was shooting all the way up my am to my chest. The ambulance was called and it was another man who said the bruising was from a blunt instrument and offered me pain relief, which I refused.
He left and CATT team turned up, I started swearing at them – as I do – and they left, why anybody would expect me to deal with the man who has rejected me from mental health services for over a decade is beyond my comprehension. The stories people have told me about that man and he still has credibility and a job – even though it is only ACTING head of mental health for the past decade.
While I was waiting I became very cold, I had only just got over the flu and shock had set in, I asked for a blanket repeatedly but was refused.
I asked for a lawyer because Alan said he was going to keep me in the cells for as long as he chose and I was really frightened – I know you can’t hold someone with mental health issues longer than six hours, which is why I asked for a lawyer. He bought me in a laminated piece of paper with the names on it – I knew my last lawyer Susie was away and I don’t know any of the others so I said he could choose anybody. I also told him I only wanted a lawyer because he was going to make me stay in the cells. I thought Alan went away to call a lawyer but he didn’t.
He came back and said I would have to sign for my things and then leave the building. I completely freaked out, apparently I was to catch a bus back to Carterton in the pouring rain – it wasn’t the rain that freaked me out – I can’t catch buses when I’m a mess like I was. That’s the reason I havn’t been able to see the counsellor because ACC refuse to pay for a taxi, I can’t drive myself because I become too upset when going to counselling and I can’t catch a bus either. People would see me crying, I would be completely humiliated, I wouldn’t even know how or where to catch it from as I become quite disoriented when that traumatised. I ended up curled up in a ball in the corner under the counter with my hands over my ears mostly, rocking, repeating over and over I can’t catch a bus, I can’t catch a bus. He just got angrier with me, threatened me with being forcibly removed from HIS station and went away to get others to help him. I was so scared I just curled up in an even tighter ball in the corner.
At one point I said something about how scared I was after they assaulted me – he got really angry at that and told me he had not done anything of the sort and there was no way he was going to give me a ride anywhere after accusing him of it. I explained that I thought it was mostly the other officer that did it, caused the bruising, but I didn’t really know, because he was involved in what happened outside Carterton Police station but I don’t remember what part he played. I just remember being hurt for no reason and trying to do everything to make them both stop – ie being completely passive and silent and defending myself by curling up in a ball.
I’m going to be sick.
All those horrible things they said come back to me in flashbacks which make me really unwell. Like their comments about me making a career out of protesting etc – if I had the care I am entitled to I wouldn’t be protesting. I make it my job because I am so unwell and I don’t want to die, I want my care back so I can heal and return to work. What person would choose to live in poverty with no job and a future of homelessness and dysfunction. I have a report saying I’m intelligent, without the care I need I will die and suffer for the rest of my life – I’m only 51 of course I fight for what I am entitled to. Also it keeps my mind occupied – I’m not the sort of person that reads fiction all day, watches movies and spends there days asleep, wandering around, drugged or drunk – like most mentally ill people rotting on welfare that I know.
I also have a skin cancer that has returned and am worried about it because last time I had the money to have it removed, this time I have to rely on health system and it will take months – it has already taken four weeks just to get on the waiting list.
Alan eventually offered me the option of going to get my car across from police station in Carterton, which I agreed to – my car is my safe place when I am away from home and I thought I would be OK to drive home. While waiting for him in the reception of the police station, I was so so cold, I was frightened of all the people around me and cowered when someone came out from inside the building. I sat there mostly rocking backwards and forwards with my hands over my ears. I remember becoming really distressed, sobbing and crying, whimpering that I wanted to go home, please I just want to go home, please I just want to go home.
I was arrested around 2pm and got home around 6.30pm. I’m exhausted and tried to sleep but it only lasted 2 hours and I woke up crying because my hand/wrist was aching and I can’t believe what happened – all this for begging for the care I am entitled to under ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws. Last week I couldn’t sleep on my right side because of the bruising from High Court Security and this week its my left. I have won two ACC reviews and still they refuse to reinstate my care – they offer me things knowing I can’t act on them because I am now so unwell. I have the support of Dr Doris and Jenny Kirby, plus I am sure all those people who worked with me in 2009 when I did have the beginnings of a professional rehabilitation plan.
If you think like those two officers think about me being offered heaps of professional care etc and refusing – then you are very very wrong. I can explain everything and I am sure these two would back up what I am saying about the ‘phobias’ after everything that has happened.
I am tired now, its 5am and I think my flu is returning after being so cold yesterday and so traumatised, I’ll see if I can sleep.
Please make this stop I am begging you, please uphold the law, I just want to get better and go back to work so I don’t have to live with people who take advantage of me and steal from me – or attempt suicide.
Please make this stop – I am begging you – I’m going to be contacting the United Nations about what is going on. There are rules and laws, you just can’t treat a disabled woman like this – especially one who knows her rights and is non-violent.
Please note also my screaming at ACC is not a threat of harm, it is more a warning about what spirit is going to do to them if they don’t provide the treatment care and rehabilitation for people mentally injured by abuse and trauma. When I am so unwell because of being denied care I am entitled to all I can do is hope and pray what happened to me, at the hands of a badly abused child that never got the ACC care he was entitled to, happens to them – as they are the ones causing this nightmare. As you know I go tourettes on it I am so angry and frustrated – I never used to swear I also know the science of trauma and I know the more we dont’ help people, the more people traumatised around them and it just gets bigger and bigger – which is why our prison population is exploding.
I just want me and others to get the care I know we are entitled to – and the safe homes to live in, which we are also entitled to.
God please help me –
God please help you, I know those officers probably didn’t mean to hurt me like they did, something came over them, it was really scary – they just lost all reason. Its weird, its like they are trying to cover up guilt, or attack something that they know is wrong but also they know is weak. Its like they’re attacking all vulnerable people like me – yes vulnerable, or more correctly fragile, they’re attacking all poor people or disadvantaged people because they want to believe everything they see on TV and the media about how great NZ is – when it is not.
Please help me, there are so many angry people in the Wairarapa and around New Zealand I just know things are going to blow – even worse than they have so far this year – I can feel it all around me – people are so angry and tired of struggling while the very richest make life better for themselves and harder for everybody else.
Can you please advise you have received this complaint and the Privacy Act request and about how long it will take to be investigated and dealt with – please also tell me if you are going to do nothing, rather than me being ignored.
Civil Society Actor
Wanted to share this with news media in New Zealand – who keep censoring what is happening to me as a Civil Society Actor fighting for the rehabilitation and welfare me and 10,000s of other disabled mentally injured abused/traumatised people are entitled to under NZs ACC, health, welfare, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws.
New Zealand government are corrupt in this area, after 15 years of study I sure I know why, however it going to take media with integrity to expose this gross miscarriage of justice as it will take down the government and if justice prevails corrupt, criminally negligent politicians, public servants and paid outsiders will go to jail. I believe the intensity of attacks on me proves ‘the establishment’ is aware of what is going on and doing everything within its power to discredit & stop me EXPOSING THE TRUTH.
So pleased to talk to you last week, was breath of fresh air to discuss the issues of Violence and Trauma with someone who knows what I know. Here are the links to my website, I think you will be interested in the legal things I refer to. Was at a Workbridge seminar last week where we were told they shut down work places for disabled people in 1991- said they were institutions. This is of course untrue, they should be as much an institution as any medium size business is – a place where people can do meaningful work, within their capabilities, with appropriate support (physical or psychological) and using their talents.
Check out my posts on Regional Rehabilitation Centres and Regional Mental Health facilities. Also my Fence At The Top Of The Cliff rehabilitation model might interest you – it is based on ACC laws – should already be happening, which is why I protest A LOT.
If you find any of my poetry useful and would like to use it with your students please contact me. I am inspired by what Bessel said about the role artists played in healing and expressing the pain of trauma and its aftermath if not treated.
As I said on the phone I would be very keen to be involved in any study or group involved with improving mental health services for traumatised people – especially away from drug based care to professional rehabilitation models and drug free methods.
Now I know you exist I’ll do some research on what you’re doing, I’ve already been telling friends about you on facebook and that you’re running this course. Would appreciate you sending me any links you think I might be interested in.
Also check out my social media facebook /jrmurphypoetmusician twitter @jrmurphypoetry and youtube JR Murphy Poet. Got some interesting photos, some of the more recent protests where I used chalk pen to do swastikas and a guerrilla artwork of five paintings, also with a swastika on Appeal Court I am currently up on charges for. Quite proud, Have been acquitted of four wilful trespass charges so far for different protests – why they keep dragging me through court is another reason I so angry. After this latest lot I’m pretty sure they’ll stop, currently up on 7 charges, all I should get off under Bill of Rights. I think the way they treat me for protesting about violence and trauma care shows how much they don’t want to admit the truth and provide what they should be, grrrrr.
Kia kaha to us all.
Civil Society Activist
NOTE: I was being polite saying to Warwick he was breath of fresh air – talking to Warwick was like drinking a bucket of spring water after spending 15 years in the desert with only my and others urine to drink.