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I was wrong & so was Mike King – WE NEED AN OCCUPATIONAL THERAPIST

I was thinking last night that in fact I don’t agree with Mike King saying the promises in the Suicide Prevention Strategy aren’t quantifiable.  All that needs to happen is a good Occupational Therapist – like my old one Glenda, to make up a plan.  I’ll have a go in next few days.

That’s really what an occupation therapist does, looks first at the outcomes the person and government want, then work backwards from their to ensure it happens using professional rehabilitation models.  I studied them at university, I know they exist.

I also know by not using a professional rehabilitation model they are experimenting on people – and that is illegal under Human Rights Act and International law.  I’ve written to ACC telling them this and saying I do not agree with being experimented on and to provide me professional rehabilitation immediately.  Was ignored of course.

 

Begging for Care, Mike King is right, its all bullshit when comes to suicide

My lawyer asked for this as evidence in my upcoming court case for misuse of telephone for begging for help and legally protesting - its more proof what Mike King is saying is true and that our government are corrupt and not doing what any of their mental health documents promise.  People at the top say one thing, people at the cliff face do exactly the opposite!

Restoration of  Care – JR

 Any services I receive must follow professional treatment and rehabilitation models which are based on the Whare Tapa Wha and Te Whariki cultural models.  Along with the Fence At The Top Of The Cliff rehabilitation model (Appendix A).

 The refusal to follow these models in my case is the cause of my most severe dysfunctional behaviours and why I have been unable to work or participate in my community as I did before my mental injury.

 My other requirement of any treatment or rehabilitation is they be ‘medication free’, which I have said for the past 15 years.  This is a fundamental religious and ethical belief of mine and I will not compromise on it, nor do I have to according to human rights law.  My rehabilitation plan in 2009 was based on this and I had the full support of Dr Doris. 

 My top priority is to get my own psychiatrist, in 15 years I have never had any long term access to one – considering how many police welfare visits I have had, and visits from the CATT team – along with how suicidal I have been at multiple times I should have.  Complex PTSD is what I have (not what Dr Doris has said) it is a very dangerous disorder and the majority of people do commit suicide according to American reports I have read.  (I am on social media doing research regularly and keep myself well informed in the area of treatment for PTSD.)

 I thought Dr Doris was my psychiatrist after care was given to me in 2009, but when I tried to see him 5 months into my rehabilitation to discuss residential care for six weeks as PART of my rehabilitation I wasn’t allowed to.  Apparently he had only been employed to do a one off report.  He was not consulted when ACC withdrew all my care – saying my mental health issues were a consequence of a personality disorder and not a disorder as a result of the rape.  This was overturned following two ACC reviews in 2010/2011– but still ACC refuse to reinstate my care and its 2017.

 Dr Doris was not consulted when ACC withdrew my care and none of my health professionals or others in the community I worked with agreed with what they were doing.  My Occupational Therapist Glenda van der ven Long even phoned the Minister of Health about the situation – knowing how suicidal and dysfunctional I would be as a result of the sudden and complete withdrawal of such an extensive multi-disciplinary rehabilitation team.

 When I met Dr Doris again at another assessment in Wellington ACC demanded I do after winning the first review, he said he thought he was my psychiatrist and wondered why he had not heard what was going on.  I was very distraught when he told me this because I had also thought the same and had tried to contact him but ACC wouldn’t let me.

 In ANY treatment or rehabilitation model – with a person who has a life-threatening condition – there would be a specialist – why have I never had one of those?  Other assessments have either lead to rejection and misdiagnosis, ie DHB mental health services psychiatrist and nurses.  Or been done for the court to establish my ability to understand proceedings during a criminal case (of me protesting) – an insult.

 I will only accept a psychiatrist recommended by Dr Alan Doris (who now works in Australia) or Dr Mason Drury as these men follow the cultural health models I have referred to above.  While studying rehabilitation and health at Massey University several years ago I came across Dr Drury’s work (I didn’t finish my studies as I became very unwell due to my disorder – something I intend to rectify as part of my rehabilitation).

 The Te Whariki model I studied when doing education papers as a Playcentre mother.  I completely identified with its principles and could see how these would easily adapt to all areas of education, including tertiary.  Under the Principles of ACC legislation the objective is to return the person as close as possible to their pre-injury state – in 15 years ACC have never adhered to this basic principle of the law.  I have tried on many occasions – they have not been supported and my file will show my repeated requests for education support to return to university.

 There is much more to my education story that I will not go into here, it upsets me too much.  I love university, love being there, learning, sharing, love being around intelligent people.

 I want to see Jenny Kirby Counsellor and arrange for her to go with me to the new psychiatrist – as I trust her (trust is extremely important in any relationship I have). 

 Due to the way ACC cut my care in 2009 I want a legal agreement signed that they will NOT withdraw any of my care without the agreement of my psychiatrist and Occupational Therapist.  I cannot participate fully in the rehabilitation process if I believe they are going to illegally withdraw care at any time as they did before – that was cruel and was like being thrown out of a six story building, causing me considerable harm, distress, suicidal ideology, police contact and so much suffering and dysfunction (when I still had my kids at home).

 Once these three things happen I am extremely concerned for my welfare as I don’t know how my psychy is going to respond to getting care I have so desperately needed and begged for for so long.  Contingency plans need to be sorted during our first meeting IF I become extremely unwell at this time.  I have been told so many times my care would be reinstated or provided and it has not, it is an extreme trigger for me – anything to do with hope of getting help I need to get back to work and a safe stable home is.

 NEXT PHASE

 Reinstate a suitable local mental health Occupational Therapist as should have been done for years but ACC said there was nobody available – or who would do it.

 From there I need a full medical as I have several physical health issues that have not been dealt with for several years because my mental health had become so severe.  My ability to communicate with doctors and other health providers was significantly impaired – especially if I had lost trust in the person, or had been degraded by them.  Recently I was forced to go for a test at a free clinic in Wellington because my Carterton doctor refused to allow me to see the nurse?  More than three years ago I was told I have to have tests regarding my kidney/bladder issues, when I said I couldn’t go because my mental health was too bad and needed a mental health worker (like what I am supposed to have under ACC) to go with me – as I don’t have any friends of family who can go or understand my disorder – I was ignored by nurse and multiple doctors.  So my kidney issues have got much worse, I am in pain all the time, often have bladder infections, feel sick a lot, told the doctor but she just ignores the fact I can’t go because of my disability.  she has been told by local mental health services that I’m a time-waster and liar and not to listen to anything I say.

 My weight has become another burden and my OT (or mental health worker) supported attendance at a gym would be reinstated (this is community care I had in 2009, which was very important to me & many aspects of my social rehabilitation).  I have been told other people in the community get mental health worker supported gym attendance but not me as an ACC claimant – which I find extremely distressing.  I believe I am now so fat I am getting diabetes, I often feel sick and thirsty all the time, I can’t see doctor about it because of how badly she has treated me in the past.  I would rather die than go to another doctor as it would have to be outside the region and I just can’t afford it.

 I would have a mental health worker for a determined number of hours every week, this person should act as a social worker as well to sort out my living arrangements – which are not condusive to a safe place to heal from my mental injury.  If you don’t feel safe in your home and are in constant fear of being forced to move you cannot rehabilitate.  Provision of safe stable housing for disabled people is also a part of the ACC, welfare, disability and human rights laws.  I have had to move 9 times since I was raped, because of unsafe situations or poverty, 4 x in a 12 month period, it is now an extreme trigger for me and makes me very unwell (eg highly suicidal & bulimic).

 Due to the impacts of my stress disorder there is one thing that happens to you that is a positive – you become highly creative.  Medically what happens is you have far greater blood flow to your right (creative) brain and out of your left.  As I was trespassed from King Street Artworks for doing political art and being upset about being censored I have been unable to get help to realise many of my creative projects.  I am considered a talented poet, I write songs and plays but communication and organisational impairments related to my disorder prevent me from realising my full potential.  It is a cause of great distress that I cannot do this myself but I have tried and failed so many times I cannot do it any longer without considerable distress and becoming highly suicidal when I fail yet again.

 I am also a graffiti artist, painter, sculptor and crafts person.

 Due to all my study over the past 15 years I also consider myself a lay-expert in the area of traumatic stress disorders, related law and human rights.  Being able to work in this area as well would be an important goal in my rehabilitation – no point wasting all that valuable knowledge.  This is important when the government are going to be putting more money into SOCIAL INVESTMENT – which is what my rehabilitation/care is all about.  And my greatest concern is it will mean more people being putting under Mental Health Act and forcibly drugged to keep them quiet, rather than healing them.

 Before I was hurt I was very involved in my community, part of several clubs, eg Toastmasters, holding many positions including President.  This must be a part of my rehabilitation that I can participate in these things again.  I have become more and more reclusive following situations where I have been put in danger, traumatised or discriminated against.

 Until I can get back to work I am never going to be accepted by majority of my community or my family.

 The care I am describing above should have been provided 15 years ago according to ACC law and it would have been able to be much less, but so long without it has damaged me so much more it will take a long time to recover.  This of course is illegal under the Crimes Act, you are not allowed to omit care and the person be harmed because of it.  But maybe when I am well I can address the hell I have been subjected to by those who were supposed to help me.

 

 

 

Open Letter to New Zealand Media – Corrupt govt purposely driving people to suicide

I will be emailing a copy of this to every editor I know, especially those I challenge on twitter – who have known for years what is happening to me and continue to censor what I know, say, do and how I am persecuted for it.  When I get no response (as I have been ignored for years) I will then make a complaint to the Press Council about censorship.

Mike King is right they just write nice things but they never ever do anything about making sure these things happen – how could they, there are no professional services and most suicidal living in inhuman living situations, terrorised by govt and community – of course they suicide, its the only hope of getting out of this neo-liberal nightmare.

John Crawshaw phoned me about 5 yrs ago – 6pm one night after months of me begging him for help and telling him local mental health services and ACC were refusing me all care.  He assured me I would get professional care I so desperately needed – stupid me had hope – that help never came and a suicidal person who has their hopes dashed is going to suffer some of the worst suicidal hell thoughts on earth.  Of course in this shit hole if you’re suicidal and don’t kill yourself you’re  a time wasting attention seeker – if you do kill yourself its a tragedy.

If there are mental health services then why am I up on 7 police charges, after ACC illegally withdrew all my care/rehab in 2009 (after National got in).  Why have I had six charges for legally protesting dropped at the last minute by police since 2009, why have I been acquitted of another 7 legal protests about mental health?  I was dragged through court by Wairarapa DHB for legally protesting outside DHB offices at Masterton Hospital – I was forced to represent myself and won.  I’m entitled to compensation for what they did but told I need a lawyer to get it and I can’t afford one, letter from DHB about it was insulting and vicious.

You should read the transcript – judge Tuohy asked security guard what I was doing when he arrived – he replied singing.  Judge said singing, really, mmmm.  I didn’t handle things very well because I have a very debilitating stress disorder called Complex PTSD (look it up its extremely dangerous, most people suicide).  Judge was nice though, he helped a bit – I won.  One question I did ask was had security guard ever trespassed a protester before – he hadn’t – but was told to by this revolting woman from DHB office who demanded I was.

Why is my only criminal conviction in 52 years wilful trespass of the Law Society when I went there and refused to leave until I got a lawyer.  Police arrived told me I was arrested, to pick up my things and we left – first time no handcuffs.  Now I have to tell people who ask if I have a criminal conviction, its humiliating.

Current police charges involve misuse of a Telephone for phoning ACC screaming for my care to be reinstated after winning two reviews in 2010 and 2011 – I had waited six years and was becoming more and more unwell.  I didn’t threaten anybody with harm but said I hoped and prayed God would hurt them as much as they were hurting me and all those other abuse victims I knew were being denied entitlements – women and children.  I also have developed a tourettes type disorder so can’t help the swearing when I’m flipping out – my current case will have Dr Alan Doris as a witness on my behalf – he had already done a report for ACC saying I was like this and they should ignore it and give me care I needed.  All ACC do is reports, they never give me the care, but mostly they refuse to accommodate communication impairments I now have when interacting with them.

ACC also only called police after I made a formal Privacy Act request for copies of the recordings I was making to ACC remote claims answerphone, I wanted to have proof of how unwell I was and how I was begging for help.  I was told they didn’t keep recordings so I couldn’t have a copy, yet within 2 months they were using a copy of one of those recordings to demand police prosecute me for misuse of a telephone.  The first lot of charges they dropped, then six weeks later they did it again – I had had them at my home so often for WELFARE CHECKS (all calls made by agencies I was begging for help from) about 18 months ago I started having nightmares and every car I heard in the street I panicked and had to look out the window to see if they were coming to get me.

One time they arrived at 11pm, I had been really unwell, was terrified being woken up, though some previous violent flatmates were coming to get me, when they said it was police I thought one of my children had died – I never slept rest of the night, what happened is on my facebook page.

I have been making submissions to committees and making formal complaints for years about how incompetent, unprofessional and abusive ACC and mental health are.  Petitioned United Nations, spoke to their delegates, all ignored.  They violate multiple laws as other pages on this website show.  They deny people PROFESSIONAL HEALTH PROCESSES/MODELS – they’re illegally experimenting on people – and the only reason is neo-liberal terrorists don’t believe in helping terrorised abuse and trauma victims.  All they like doing is making money out of them through justice/prison system and compulsory treatment orders.

Ever go into a home of someone with mental health issues and they’ll be taking boxes of drugs – as well as being really dysfunctional.  Ask people who are into meds – they can rattle off all the drugs like professionals – which ones to take, which you never touch.  Mark Unsworth is a top government advisor, runs a government Public Relations (spin doctor) business in Wellington, gloats about arriving in 1993 when MMP came in to set up his business.  The man ‘was’ a very highly paid drug company executive, sent here to make sure drug companies took over mental health, instead of people getting the professional health models they were entitled to – not to mention the safe homes they are also entitled to under NZ law.

We still have forced ECT on people in New Zealand – ELECTRIC SHOCK TREATMENT has been stopped in most countries as its seen as inhumane – still doing it in New Zealand – and it doesn’t work, a short fix maybe but for the most seriously unwell nothing more than abuse/persecution.

Then of course there are all the abused women who not getting help, then have children, still not getting help when they are entitled to it under ACC law (please can media reading this read the IPRCA – ACC law – especially social rehabilitation and Schedule 1).  They’re illegally having their children taken, I know several of them, it hurts my heart watching these poor women suffer like no mother should ever have to.

Ignorant bigoted self-righteous people in suicide prevention have created a system that strips suicidal people naked – to terrorise them more.  Saw on working dog programme recently a police officer standing beside a suicidal woman curled up near a fence with dog in front of him barking at her – terrorising her.  I’ve had the dog, completely freaked me out – I did some art about it next day, was terrifying, lead to a series of events I can’t even talk about or I’ll go to the knife drawer right now.)  Next shot on the programme was them handcuffing her and stuffing her in back of a police car.  Why are disabled suicidal people being treated like criminals?  Something to do with Christian believing suicide is a sin – driving people to suicide is the sin!

I protest a lot – would have done 200 protests over the years since ACC illegally withdrew all my care and tried to kill me.  Every interaction I have with police, they agree mentally ill people are not getting help they need and entitled to, which is why they end up dealing with them.  Times I’ve been in the cells, so many mentally ill, some beating themselves against doors for hours, while officers try to calm them and say help is coming.  I get CATT team called occasionally, just as punishment by those I am protesting in front of – I speak truth to power.  Takes 5 hours before they get there, I start swearing at them, because I have been denied care so many times over the years I reject them before they reject me.  They always leave and now most of them who come are foreigners – I can’t even get someone who is a New Zealander and I’m Pakeha.

One time I was watching court prior to my case coming up in 1 1/4 hours of the 12 cases I saw, 4 of them were mental health – so one third of people going through court are mentally injured abuse victims or mentally ill (note there is a difference).

Then of course there is me trying to get a lawyer to make ACC and mental health provide the professional services I know I am entitled to under ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws.  Like making a complaint to the courts about torture by the NZ government – was rejected by Judge Davidson, saying I was abusing the process.  I have documents to show what I wrote – I did my best and begged for a lawyer to do it properly.

Months later I went into High Court where Legal Aid are based telling them I could not get a lawyer – I can get legal aid I just can’t get a lawyer, they’re all too busy or don’t have any experience in human rights law or don’t do legal aid.  Was insulted and told I was a liar, that I obviously didn’t have a case if I couldn’t find a lawyer.  Had my guitar on at the time and went stood in the corner singing, Why Am I Arrested For Being Disabled, playing guitar, when guard held my guitar so I couldn’t play I started reciting Wasps in the Beehive.  A woman behind the counter was cheering for me, she knew what I was saying was true.

Police were called and I was illegally trespassed, next time I went back months later for Tony Ellis case against Attorney General and DHBs re torture of mentally ill men, I organised it night before with security because I didn’t want any hassles or anything happening that would set my disorder off.  I went in the building multiple times before to go to the toilet etc but when I went to attend court so I could watch how Tony Ellis presented the case (I had intended going every day) I was assaulted and denied access.  I was severely traumatised because I knew I couldn’t do it without this information, couldn’t get a lawyer and would continue to be persecuted and denied health care, continue to be left rotting on welfare and despised by most of my community/family, continue to live with suicidal nightmare of hell.

I have been making formal complaints of harm to police for around five years, saying ACC and mental heatlh violating Sections 150A 151 155 157 of Crimes Act – which they are.  Police refuse to act and several have taken to terrorising and discrediting me, to the point of physical assault.  At one point Mike Sutton of Masterton police said he would investigate – I just about fell off my chair.  He came back two weeks later saying he didn’t know who to prosecute.  I know he had been warned not to do it by the government and I pointed out ACC are a limited liability company and should be investigated and prosecuted just like any business.

My living situation has been the worst, all these years forced to move repeatedly due to landlords selling houses or poverty or being discriminated against.  I always tidy up places I live and leave them better than I found them – and I ALWAYS get ripped off.

My living situation has been dire since my children left home, past 9 people I have lived with all ripped me off, taken advantage, stolen from me, victimised me and two have attempted suicide.  One stalked me for months, was terrifying.  You are not allowed to leave disabled people where they will be harmed its against criminal law.

I can’t go on – my stress disorder is compounding (complex PTSD) and every time I talk about things above I get flashbacks to being highly suicidal or severely traumatised by people or situations.  I’m crying now, getting visions of knives slicing up my forearms and bleeding out, the knife drawer is only 30 steps away.  How many times I’ve walked there – only reason I don’t end it is that’s what these neo-liberal filth want, they trying to drive people to suicide purposely, its the neo-liberal way.

I have reports saying I am intelligent, do not have a personality disorder and not delusional – until I see a report on people like Bill English, Jonathan Coleman, John Crawshaw and Alastair Scott that they dont’ have serious mental health issues with what they are doing and ignoring, then I know they are mentally disturbed.  Years of neo-liberal propaganda advancing rich, disadvantaging middle class and persecuting poor, radicalised rich pigs who believe all poor people are that way because of their choices.

All I want is to get better and go back to work so I don’t have to live with mentally ill people who take advantage of me and hopefully one day get somewhere to live that I dont’ have to move from and can grow a garden and not be terrified of the next move.  Landlords are a nightmare to deal with as I get really angry when I ask more than three times for dangerous things to be fixed and they ignore me.

There is so much more to my story, what is happening to me is illegal and Human Rights agencies just ridicule discredit and insult me when I beg for professional health care I am entitled to.

MMMM – still typing – how can media not know when neo-liberal Annette King drove 1000s of disabled people out of mental health facilities into a cruel callous hateful community – without the professional heatlh care and rehabilitation they were entitled to.  We all know the community suffered because these people were too unwell and not getting help they needed – that’s when they started having beggars on the street.  Mentally ill people have been in a housing crisis for 30 years – its only now its hit middle class media are saying anything.

We all know when these disabled people were driven out of facilities the prisons filled up – an officer arresting me once had been a prison guard in the 1980s, he said he watched it happen.  According to NZ and international law you are not allowed to persecute people based on the type of disability they have………………………..

OH LORD I WISH I WAS DEAD, SHOT WITH A BULLET RIGHT THROUGH THE HEAD……………………….

LASTLY – please can a journalist with some compassion, intelligence and integrity interview me, I can’t do this by writing it all the time – I need to look in someones face – because I’m never allowed to look in the faces of those oppressing me and getting police, justice and mental health agencies to do it.

Also Andrew Curtis-Cody who runs adult mental health in Wairarapa is a psychopath and extremely mentally disturbed – everybody knows it, everybody tells me he’s a nut job and I know it.  You should see him when he’s part of CATT team, no emotion whatsoever – psychopaths are attracted to mental health because they can have power over people, persecute them and get paid for it.  He has been acting head for over a decade, because he is not appropriate qualified.  My complaints to local DHB I get abused for, I am blocked from making complaints by email, I spent 4 years with a HDC advocate trying to get help to no avail.  When I went to HDC and begged for help I was ignored – even though advocate said Code of Rights was being violated.

……………  why do so many people allow this to happen to me – even my current lawyer?

I know what’s happening to me is related to neo-liberal terrorism by rich against poor, its all about the violence industry, its sick and it must stop.

Going to Chelsea Brunton’s funeral tomorrow :-( it makes me really sad that I can’t get health care people like her and me entitled to by law, makes me beat myself up for not doing enough, not protesting enough, not being able to take my own case to court to prove what government are illegally doing to people.

……………………….. :-(

 

New Zealand Govt Driving People to Suicide

A young woman I know committed suicide after walking out of a mental health unit a few days ago.  I knew her as a child, friends with my daughter.  These sad events always hurt me, when I know they are so unnecessary and a result of unprofessional inadequate treatment care rehabilitation and adequate welfare that government are supposed to provide but don’t.

Instead we get the global drug company neo-liberal experimental version that follows no health or rehabilitation model I have ever studied.

I go through a period after feeling hurt where I am so angry at mental health and the government, because I know they are the cause of this after 15 years studying the industry and neo-liberal politics, human rights etc.  I am angry at being dragged through court repeatedly for protesting about mental health services and being assaulted by police for doing it – not me whose the criminal its them.

Then ideas for art, poetry and guerrilla protest missions start popping into my head, so I am off to Wellington soon to put up paintings in several organisations I hold responsible for what happened to Chelsea and the levels of suicide in our communities.  Will post photos on www.facebook.com/jrmurphypoetmusician and twitter @jrmurphypoetry

I am 52, nobody committed suicide that I knew when I was young – my children have been through multiple suicides.  My daughter phoned me distraught when she found out Chelsea had died.  Wonder what was happening in her life to make her do that.

Another thing that always happens is I am angry with myself for not doing enough, not protesting enough, not doing the legal paperwork I should, not begging enough of the right people for help to stop this.  Even though I know so much more than anybody else in New Zealand – I’m in court the most for it.

I know what the government are doing is illegal – I set up this site to expose it.  I know there are corrupt and criminally negligent people purposely stopping people getting professional care in order to make more money for dug companies and keep people sick – keep justice system and police busy as well.

This is New Zealand this is not my culture, these rich and powerful terrorists of poor must be stopped.  When the fuck are our news media going to expose this INDUSTRY and what is causing people to become suicidal.  I know, most people around me know, so why are those who work in the industry not doing anything, why are the government making things worse.  They want you in jail, they want you in mental health services, it creates jobs to replace all the manufacturing jobs that were driven overseas by neo-liberal terrorists in the 80s and 90s.

I want to know what Labour, Greens and New Zealand First will do in their first 100 days to reverse degrading harmful welfare reforms National imposed, get suicidal people into safe stable homes with professional health care, based on professional health and rehabilitation models.

I read something recently that said when the unresolved trauma is too much and hope for the future is too little a person becomes suicidal in the present.  I completely agree with that – we need to provide people with the place and space to resolve trauma and we must give them hope for the future.  Hope of a safe home to live in, a valued and worthwhile job and part of a supportive and safe community.  None of us living in the darklands have that, we have exactly the opposite to that thanks to greedy immoral neo-liberal terrorists.

 

Suicide Prevention in New Zealand = PERSECUTION

Yes Suicide Prevention day yesterday and the media said a few things about what was happening around New Zealand and what the Minister of Health said about it.  A few people had events with the same bullshit I have been watching for years about everybody being valuable and loved and there are services out there to help you – DOUBLE BULLSHIT!

What suicide prevention actually means is how can we get police to bully and intimidate you further so you are too scared and humiliated to approach anybody for help – especially mental health services.  How can we get police to keep coming to your home so your neighbours despise you and are scared of you as well – while we refuse you the professional treatment care and rehabilitation you are entitled to under ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws.

What suicide prevention means is how many psychotropic drugs can we get into you, when we refuse you professional care/rehabilitation, the necessaries of life (like a safe home) and experiment on you using radicalised neo-liberal economic theories of personal responsibility.

What suicide prevention means is how can we get complete control over you, so we can commit you, pump you fill of any drugs we like to shut you up and forever onwards have you labelled as mentally disturbed and therefore a liar and your knowledge and opinions are of no value whatsoever – because you’re a nutter.

What suicide prevention means is all those families and friends that contributed to the death of someone (and there are 20% who don’t) can come out, be sad in public and get sympathy.

What suicide prevention means is the government and radicalised neo-liberal terrorists can take absolutely no responsibility whatsoever for their illegal degrading immoral vicious attacks on the poorest people, while advancing the rich.  They can also disadvantage and screw over middle classes and put out propaganda through mainstream media to ensure most working people blame disabled poor for there being little money.

What suicide prevention means is the government don’t have to use professional rehabilitation models or follow the law.

What suicide prevention means is police and justice agencies (including Human Rights Commission) can ignore the gross miscarriage of justice being perpetrated against mentally injured abused men women and children and mentally ill.

What suicide prevention means is a whole lot of ignorant NICE (passive aggressive) people can pretend that suicide prevention has to do with talking to someone on a phone, or telling people they care and love them (not that they want them as a neighbour or friend of course, that would be far too dangerous), telling people there is a reason to live when for some there is not.

What suicide prevention means is ‘the community’ are doing everything they possibly can to stop people from committing suicide but nothing about ensuring these people have the treatment care rehabilitation and living environments that ensure they are safe and cared for that they are entitled to under New Zealand laws.

What suicide prevention means is the New Zealand government can continue to use police to intimidate and persecute people who are driven to suicide by inhuman living situations and medical neglect.

What suicide prevention means is police are soon not going to attend all people who are suicidal a mental health team will go and tell those people there are no services, no safe places to live and no point moaning about it because we live in a society where individuals are responsible for themselves if traumatised by violence and neglect.  Of course police mostly follow Bill of Rights, where mental health services wouldn’t have a clue what that is and will persecute people as they want.

What suicide prevention means is the New Zealand government don’t want to be responsible for anybody who has been driven to suicide, they want the community to discredit, insult, degrade and persecute them until they actually do it.

What suicide prevention means is how many ways can we reject you when you beg for professional care you are entitled to by law.

What suicide prevention means is our country is refusing to accept the extreme harm neo-liberal terrorists are causing in such a beautiful country, where everybody could easily have their needs met as required in Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs.

What suicide prevention means is some very overpaid mental health professionals and Public Relations experts can get paid for ignoring the fact people are not receiving professional mental health care and come up with a marketing plan to try and stop people committing suicide by brainwashing them.

What suicide prevention means is people can say they care – when really they do not – but exchanging a day shopping to go to a suicide prevention event shows you care.

What suicide prevention means is police can strip you naked, make you put on silly suit, humiliate degrade and insult you for begging for help and protesting about it.  They can demand you remove your underwear even when you have your period, they would prefer blood all over the place than protecting your dignity in any way.  (NOTE: They’ve only done this once, never again, even though they’ve threatened it – I curled up in a ball in the corner screaming at them they were perverts and no way they would get my clothes off me – if you tell them you will fight them to keep your clothes on, USUALLY they won’t do it.)

What suicide prevention means is police can hold you in the cells for six hours while mental health take their time to turn up – then do nothing and leave.

 

Murray Jack GOTCHA!

Murray Jack you piece of crap
Controlling this, controlling that
Me and others know what you do
Advance the rich, degrade the few

Murray Jack you piece of crap
On the board of this and that
Neo-liberalism’s wrong
You harm the weak, protect the strong

Murray Jack you piece of crap
How could you choose this and that
Just another one percentre
Greed and fear’s what you engender

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Yesterday went out with some pieces of art which had a swastika on them and placed them at three differently places I thought were violating human rights.  NZ Initiative (aka Business Round Table), IPCA Police Conduct Authority and Ministry of Justice.

Left a poem, videod it on phone and put it on my youtube channel JR Murphy Poet.  This is one I had found in my visual diary, written a couple of months ago after seeing Murray Jack at court hearing about unsafe workplace at WINZ where John Tully shot the two workers.  Know he was part of the inquiry into these killings and ignored me when I spoke to him about how desperate things had become for long term disabled.  He one who suggested all the security guards, which have made things worse.

When I saw him at court case, before I was escorted out by security for wanting to put up a sign about the case.  I told him I was going to get him, told him he was neo-liberal scum and his lot had caused this tragedy.  Gave him a bollocking.

Writing this poem about him and sticking it up at NZ Initiative – where he is a board member – was what I meant.  I couldn’t find out where his office was and I hate this neo-liberal think tank.  I wrote GOTCHA at bottom of poem.  Putting it on youtube is also another GOTCHA (if you are reading this Murray, or any of your neo-liberal mates that created this hell for me and others).

Quite an honour to get a poem written about you – John Millar, Ruth Dyson, Tony Ellis, John Key are the others.

Now I want to meet with you for an hour at least and tell you my story and how I know the government are corrupt and experimenting on mentally injured abuse victims, traumatised and mentally ill – also persecuting many of them and denying them professional health care and rehabilitation.

Come on you coward, front up – contact me through my email, facebook or twitter.  I don’t check comments on my website because of trolls.

 

Submission on Disability Strategy – New Zealand

Below is my submission, it is not comprehensive as writing it was extremely traumatising for me – along with everything else going on in my life, but it covers a few things that the people who run the Disability sector obviously have no idea is happening – or are corrupt and covering them up.

So many things I havn’t said :-( Oh well I did my best at the time, they are never going to listen to anything I said anyway.

Submission on the Draft Disability Strategy August 2016, by Jayne Routhan, Civil Society Actor.

 

  1. Overall what do you think of the draft Disability Strategy? What overall changes or improvements would you like to be made?  Is there anything missing?

     

    It is a great piece of marketing, in the area of mental injury (eg traumatic stress disorders) and mental health I have 14 years experience in exactly the opposite is happening.  DPOs have not represented people with my type of disability because it often has violence aspects to it, and people can also be highly challenging and have extensive needs – like a safe house to live in.

     

    From personal experience I would like to see mentally injured and ill disabled people’s rights protected not just promoted. Justice Winkelman pointed out many disabled people had no access to justice in ever increasing numbers and often up against powerful government and private organisations.  I have had experience with Health & Disability Commission and I found them insulting, degrading and they discriminated against me.  Their advocate worked for four years and could get no services in the Wairarapa – the HDC refused to get involved.

     

    There are Sections of the Crimes Act 1961 – 150A 151 155 and 157 that make it a criminal offence to not follow the law and a disabled/vulnerable person be harmed as a result – these are being ignored.  I have made multiple complaints  to police about ACC health professionals, doctors, Occupational Therapists, Psychologists etc and not been protected from their unprofessional and criminally negligent behaviour.  I know what these people are supposed to do, I have studied rehabilitation and health at Massey University, along with Disability, ACC, human rights, bill of rights, imperial and welfare laws (including United Nations declarations).  Not only that I am intimidated,and hounded by police for asking for help and legally protesting at the gross miscarriage of justice happening to me, the systems in place they say are helping me are being used in a punitive way – which is illegal.

     

    I think it is imperative recognised lay-expert Civil Society Actors like myself are included in the consultation process not just DPOs.  Especially if we cover an area no DPO is – like in my case violence and crime.  Other DPOs, even those focused on mentally ill reject violent disabled people and want to distance themselves from them – this is not helpful.  This is another reason services for these people are so abusive, inadequate and do not follow professional rehabilitation models.

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

 

 

  1. Please let us know what you think about the following sections.  Would you like anything changed or improved.

     

    Firstly I have changed the order and a few of the words:

     

  • My vision – and where to from here
  • What’s important to me and many other mentally injured abuse victims
  • Outcome 1:                  Attitudes
  • Outcome 2:                  Justice
  • Outcome 3:                  Choice and Control
  • Outcome 4:                  Health and Wellbeing
  • Outcome 5:                  Accessibility
  • Outcome 6:                  Leadership
  • Outcome 7:                  Education
  • Outcome 8:                  Employment

     

    I have changed the order because I do not believe our society will be well served (and resources well spent) by people disabled by mental injury and illness if 1-6 are not fulfilled before the person becomes involved in education and employment.

     

    Also comments within the introduction of the Strategy appear to not cover mentally injured abuse victims and discount people with mental injury as a result of abuse and overwhelming trauma as disabled.

     

    I find it interesting that the people writing this document think there has been real progress, when I have only seen worsening statistics in suicide, self-harm, violence and sexual offences.  More people living on the streets, in unsafe unstable environments, more dysfunction and badly serviced, if in fact getting any services at all.

     

    The convention was ratified in 2008 – that is eight years ago and things have deteriorated for those with stress disorders.  It is a condition of the convention that things continually improve for disabled people – they are not.

     

    Children disabled by abuse and overwhelming trauma (which causes a mental injury) are poorly served, living dysfunctional lives of unresolved trauma that impacts on them and those around them every day – it can lead to years of unnecessary suffering, poverty, alienation, suicidal ideology, addiction, phobias, eating disorders, aggressive behaviour, etc.  Many only coming into contact with services through welfare, police and justice agencies.  For some prison fulfils many of the psychosocial needs they don’t have met in a hostile and uncaring community.

     

    Overwhelming unresolved trauma as a child (eg sexual, physical and psychological abuse) and neglect affect brain development.  It has to be accepted some of these children will need life-long support to be well functioning parents and valued members of society.

     

    A positive aspect to stress disorders is the heightened right brain activity, which includes creativity – which is why the arts are so fundamental in the expression, healing and resolving of trauma.  I find poetry, writing, music and other creative arts very therapeutic, but my expression of these is hampered by my disorder and no access to resources to develop and be valued for my talents.

     

    My Vision Statement for Mental Injury Services:

     

    To be a world leader in the

    treatment, rehabilitation

    and support of the mentally injured.

    to have a positive affect on

    the happiness and prosperity

    of all the community.

     

     

    I would also point out that the strategy has had very little input from families with histories or issues with abuse and trauma.  To me it is very focused on physical and sensory disabilities with little acknowledgement of psychological and emotional ones.  It was noted earlier this year that people with mental health issues are the least wanted as neighbours and most victimised.  It is well known that many of those with long term mental health issues are homeless or stuggling to provide themselves a safe home.

     

    Community is not changing it is getting worse, with good reason, so many dysfunctional and dangerous mentally injured and ill people are rotting with few or no services in the community – services they are entitled to under ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws.  The Community are scared as are those with mental health issues continually denied professional treatment care rehabilitation along with access to justice and safety – but nowhere near as scared as the disabled.

     

    One psychologically dysfunctional person can traumatise dozens if not hundreds of people – including children – I believe that is the main reason we see deteriorating family and sexual violence statistics.  The brain is the most complicated organ of the body, it controls EVERYTHING we do from breathing, to loving, hating and violence.  I believe in the area of mental health far too many unqualified/or poorly qualified people are currently making medical decisions for this disabled group.  Poor decisions and centred around the use/abuse of psychotropic drugs – which I believe in the area of mental injury, of an otherwise ‘normal’ person, is extremely detrimental to healing, resilience and overcoming past and current trauma.

     

    Our communities won’t change, history has shown us that – from research I have done, and stories like those of Janet Frame – I discovered NZ developed its extensive institutional mental health facilities mid 20th century because people with this form of disability were not coping in the community.  Although I agree in part with shutting down some of these institutions, they were not replaced with a professional support and health network – the lack of safe stable housing is at an extreme level currently.  For people disabled by mental injury there needs to be ‘retreats’ specialising in this form of rehabilitation – which in turn focus on different forms of trauma and some of the debilitating impairments people develop.  (Note: you cannot mix offenders with victims and expect people to feel safe to heal.)

     

    For example, I am easily enraged when triggered by being physically threatened, degraded and discriminated against.  This is an impairment related to my disability, I have learnt to manage it mostly, but have the police file to prove at times I become so frustrated and angry with how agencies like ACC, MSD, mental health and police treat me (along with politicians) I am often arrested.  Noting I am never violent towards others but I do retaliate verbally – I am however violent towards myself.

     

     

    WHAT’S IMPORTANT TO ME

     

    That I have somewhere safe to live where I can heal from my mental injury.  That I have access to models, laws and documents like the disability strategy.

     

    Along with all the items listed in the disability strategy.  Which are also mirrored in the Covenant on Economic, Social and Cultural Rights, human rights act, ACC legislation, Bill of Rights, Welfare agreements, etc.  So many documents saying so many good things while society deteriorates – time to do this the right way.

     

    That we have a multi-disciplinary approach to rehabilitation (as outlined in Shrawan Kumar’s book 2000 – Butterworth & Heinemann) in the area of mental health, particularly mental injury.  That I am able to have a Whare Tapa Wha approach to my rehabilitation and extensive professional Occupational Therapy services (I would envisage Social Workers, counsellors, mental health workers given OT training – these people are pivotal in a comprehensive well run, co-ordinated, efficient, rehabilitation plan).  Every one of this team needs to be educated in the area of traumatic stress disorders and the laws, expectations.

     

    I would have a psychiatrist of my choosing overseeing my rehabilitation and progress, an Occupational Therapist,  a counsellor, mental health support worker, lawyer, people in the community, trauma art therapist, education support and access to culturally appropriate residential ‘retreats’ when necessary.  That my GP would be kept informed and from time to time saw me to check on progress to independence and prosperity.

     

    I would have care in the community and help to reintegrate back into the community.  I would be able to go on a ‘retreat’ for six weeks of drug free healing and intensive care (which is actually a requirement in the ACC legislation).  Intensive care of traumatised people at the beginning is far more humane and cost effective than as the person deteriorates through medical neglect.

     

    Outcome 1:                            Attitudes

     

    I am valued by society just like everyone else

     

    Now I know why I was avoiding writing this submission, it is the attitudes of some people, especially those in authority, in health and justice services that are the worst.  Also those of my family and many in the community who don’t really know me and what I have been through.

     

    The attitudes of police I was recently subjected to who think I am refusing health care, am mentally ill and that’s why I make this my job, plus wasting their time.

     

    Government show over and over again through changes to welfare legislation that they think disabled people are of no value, except for making money for drug companies and creating lots of jobs for lawyers, welfare agencies, judges, police, justice system, etc.

     

    Reporting by media in the area of violent mental health cases is uninformed, discriminatory and biased.  I protest regularly and extensively, along with making submissions and writing to various people – media refuse to tell my story, what I know and what I do – what I’m fighting for.

     

    Outcome 2:                            Justice

     

    I am treated the same way as everyone else by the justice system.

     

    Hell no, this is not appropriate in the area of mental injury given the high levels of stress involved when forced by police to do anything – especially in a terrified or heightened state.  People with traumatic stress disorders need their phobias and triggers acknowledged and accommodated if at all possible.  Being near an exit, or being able to escape is a well recognised behaviour in abused people.

     

    Police sometimes accommodate my disorder and make arrests as stressless as possible – I am rarely held in the cells now and often out within 30 minutes.

     

    As Justice Winkelman has said disabled people are not getting access to justice and this needs to change.  The objective with mentally injured people would be to keep them out of the justice system, not have police and the justice system as the bottom of the cliff mental health services.  Although there has been a significant amount of resources go into people in prison, especially in the arts and being able to work, education and some health services.

     

    Then of course there are the mentally injured and ill people who are dangerous to society, pedophiles, paranoid, physically and sexually violent.  People we know are like this should not be allowed in the community, even with 24 hour supervision.  Ashley Peacock doesn’t have that priviledge and he hasn’t killed or sexually abused anyone.

     

    There are currently many dangerous mentally injured and ill in the community, these people need health and welfare services before they need justice services.  We all need to be kept safe, I have heard stories of dangerous mentally ill people begging judges for health care and being forcibly removed from court with nothing.

     

    There are significant improvements in the care of mentally injured and ill people in police custody.  Several officers at Wellington Central have said they need mental health workers at the station at all times – men and women.  They need somewhere and someone to get those with mental health issues out of the cells and into care.  I heard one senior officer make three phone calls trying to get someone to come and get a teenager with mental health issues that had been dropped by adolescent mental health services.

     

    The fact is many mentally injured and ill people cannot get protection and representation of a lawyer.  They are either too busy, not skilled in this area of law or cannot afford to do legal aid work – this is against the law – (the Magna Carta).  You can’t just say this is happening without something being done to rectify it (upskilling of lawyers in dealing with mentally injured and traumatised people is vitally important).

     

    Currently police are being used in a punitive way – which is against the law.  I have had the police called 15 times for welfare visits in four months, called by health justice and media organisations and never once did I say I was going to kill myself.  Though I do suffer from suicidal ideology which is a living nightmare when it is bad.  Police are supposed to help but they intimidate and humiliate – often just by being there, I have had several bad experiences with bigoted officers.  I wrote to police and begged them not to come to my house, they ignored me.  They have also turned up 11pm at night and frightened me badly.

     

    Currently I am up on five charges 1 of Misuse of a Telephone for phoning ACC and screaming for care (after being told for past 5 years my care would be reinstated), 3 counts of using chalk pen on windows at Carterton Police station (after 2 officers insulted me for 10 mins I did a swastika), Wgtn High Court after I was assaulted by security, refused a lawyer and refused access to watch Tony Ellis and the case of torture with 3 mentally ill men.  Also the Appeal Court in Wellington for a swastika and writing lies all over the words on that building about justice and law.  Also for Wilful Trespass of High Court for refusing to leave re Tony Ellis case.

     

    I have been taken to court by police multiple times, many times the charges have been dropped just before the case (I would have gone twice before however).  I have won four cases in court for wilful trespass, one I had to appeal a conviction of wilful trespass of ACC for a legal protest.  One for legally protesting outside the DHB offices at Masterton Hospital, which I had to defend myself – thankfully judge Tuohy was very accommodating of my stress disorder and helped me through the process.  This is a gross waste of money for me and the government, as well as stressful for me and challenging for court staff – as I no longer handle things well.  My last appearance – alone – was two weeks ago and I ended up curled up in a ball on the floor in a corner with a large painting of mine in front of me, with my eyes closed and fingers in my ears, crying, frightened of everything and everybody.  I have been in this position several times since I was assaulted and bullied by Wairarapa police, I have made a formal complaint about what happened being unjustifiably violent.

     

    I am sometimes kept in the cells too long and have broken down several times, there should have been people available to sit with me, or I should have been taken to a room with a window and if no risk taken for a walk outside – especially if I am there a long time.  A couple of months ago I was arrested for protesting and kept under mental health for five hours in the cells as punishment for swearing and yelling at staff at police headquarters about Its Not OK propaganda.  Mental health came and went – I am petrified of mental health services there is no way I would tell those people anything, mostly I am triggered and swear at them about how bad their services are.

     

    I have spoken to dozens of policemen and women who all agree with what I protest about mental health services being inadequate and not what they say.

     

    Outcome 3:                            Choice and Control

     

    I can make my own choices and have control over my life just like everyone else.

     

    This does not happen currently, especially with people like me who refuse psychotropic drugs on religious and ethical grounds.  The part about care and services being client centred are not true in regard to mental injury and mental health services.  Most do not get a say, once people have a psychotic episode or attempt suicide and are put under mental health act the majority of public mental health services heavily medicate.  Especially the lazy ones and most bigoted, like the head of mental health in Wairarapa who dislikes women.  We also have the highest rate of compulsory treatment orders and use of psychotropic drugs.

     

    I live in Carterton, I would like to continue living in my own community, however there are no available and suitable homes.  Even though it is a requirement that disabled people have access to social housing.  I would prefer to be able to buy my own home which I believe is a cultural right and I should be offered a government loan to do this.  Under the Crimes Act people must have the necessaries of life and a safe stable home is one of them – especially for a traumatised person.

     

    I should be able to ask for the help I read about in laws and brochures, not be rejected, not be further traumatised by the system, my human rights must be protected not just promoted.

     

     

    Outcome 4:                            Health and Wellbeing

     

    I have the same level of health and wellbeing as everyone else.

     

    I am supported to be the best person I can be, to self-actualise and have a life worth living.  I will manage my health and be grateful for the support I am given by participating to the best of my ability.

     

    I will have the necessaries of life as outlined in Maslows Hierachy of Needs, I will not feel life is to frightening and not worth living.  I will not feel worthless, like human sewage and on a torture wheel of hell from services supposed to help and protect me.

     

    I will have access to other health care needs besides my mental health – which I am currently not having in several areas as I am too afraid to see the doctor.  When you don’t want to live it is difficult to get yourself to beg for help about less significant medical conditions – I have issues with my bladder and kidneys but have been unable to have tests required done for past two years.  Because I need my ACC care back and mental health support worker to go with me – I have no-one else I feel safe taking.

     

    I will have the gym membership and support I had as part of my ACC rehabilitation plan in 2009, to help deal with my increasing weight and eating disorder.  I will be able to see a professional about my eating disorder, which I havn’t been about to do for over 10 years.

     

    Wellbeing include psychosocial support to reintegrate successfully into the community – from which I have become isolated due to poor mental health, poverty and unemployment.  I will reconnect with my whanau, as I have become distant from them as well, they dislike that I don’t work and do the activism I do.

     

     

    Outcome 5:                            Accessibility

     

    I can access places, services and information just like everyone else.

     

    I need help with this as I have tried for years to access the treatment care rehabilitation justice etc I am entitled to under law without success.  This is something my lawyer could assist with to start with as I am currently turned away repeatedly.

     

    I have a home that enables me to participate in my community.  In the current housing crisis this is a serious issue for me and many others.  I live in private rental accommodation with a flatmate who takes advantage of me and I need him to leave but I can’t say anything.  I could be asked to leave with six weeks notice if family wanted to move in.  The thought terrifies me as I have had so many bad experiences moving, I moved 4 x in 12 months a couple of years ago – sent my stress disorder off the scale.  I have lost many things, had many broken and many stolen in all my moves.

     

    I can regain the confidence to perform my poetry and plays, learn more about creative writing for profit and to share history and fantasy with my community.

     

    That as I heal and no longer need intensive services that at any time in the future when I am overwhelmed with trauma I can return to services without question.

     

    That I am not assessed to death, and have this processed used as a form of denying services rather than providing appropriate professional services depending on physical, psychological and psychosocial needs.

     

    Outcome 6:                            Leadership

     

    I have the same opportunities for leadership as everyone else and there are leaders who can represent me.

     

    This is definitely not happening in mental health and I do not feel there are any leaders or organisations representing me in any meaningful way.  In fact I feel our leaders are ignorant, arrogant and disrespectful of my expertise, experience and talents.

     

    Outcome 7:                            Education

     

    I have the same education outcomes just like everyone else.

     

    I was studying law at Victoria before I was mentally injured in 2002, I had passed five out of six papers – one I had dropped, I was very busy as a single parent and owner manager in my franchise business.  After I was hurt I tried but could not go back to university, I have since done papers in rehabilitation, health, journalism, creative scriptwriting, but none were successful due to my disability and inadequate support.

     

    If I have received an ACC Independence Allowance of $18 per week, half of it has to go to my student loan – which is incredibly unjust – also I disagree with the level of this allowance but could not challenge it.

     

    I have reports saying I am intelligent, do not have a personality disorder and am not delusional, yet I do not work and am rotting on welfare.  I protest and participate in submissions like this because I know my disorder, I know what I need, know what I’m entitled to and know what a professional rehabilitation plan actually entails.

     

    According to ACC legislation they are required to return me as near as practicable to my previous life – they have never made any attempt to do this.  I have tried and failed because they refuse to support those things I believe are necessary, for years I tried to heal myself – I failed over and over again until I gave up and started being a Civil Society Actor in the area of mental health full time.  If I can’t work then I don’t want to live – simple as that.  And I want a job that uses my knowledge and talents.

     

    Disabled people, in fact no people, should have to pay for their education.  Disabled people are currently driven out of the neo-liberal capitalist working environment, which does not allow for people who are not 100% fit and efficient to do the job – they don’t want anybody that cannot earn a maximum – that’s what they call productivity.

     

    As the New Zealand government has signed the Economic Social and Cultural Rights covenant, as well as the disability rights declaration I believe they are responsible for ensuring disabled people have valued work.  That will require the government to create meaningful jobs, or support the disabled person to create a meaningful job for them and perhaps others.  I would like to develop my scriptwriting and write the multiple plays I have started to develop, including plays about NZ history.  I would like to record some of my songs and work with a band to see if they are valuable when professionally produced.

     

    I am an advocate for Te Whariki – an early childhood document that I believe could be extended to cover all education.

     

    Mentally injured and ill students must be given extra help they are entitled to in order to achieve their best.  Many have behavioural issues and need more intensive support, or learn through doing, many are creative but not very academic and avenues to develop creative talents need to be provided.

     

    An older student cannot learn efficiently or sometimes at all if they are extremely stressed due to housing issues or poverty.  People who are studying need to be provided safe accommodation and/or travel to education (eg travel from Carterton to Victoria , Massey or Whitiraia).

     

    Outcome 8:                            Employment

     

    I have the same employment outcomes and opportunities as everyone else.

     

    One of my most basic desires and requirements of any rehabilitation plan I participate in, is how it is going to facilitate my returning to work and value in the community, that improves my mental health, not makes it deteriorate.

     

    I have learnt a lot over the past 14 years, along with my artistic expression I want to use what I have learnt to help and protect other men women and children with mental injuries.  I want to see realised all the resources services and facilities required to provide the professional treatment care rehabilitation and justice people, with mental injures as a result of abuse, are entitled to under ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws.

     

    As referred to previously in our current economic climate people with disabilities (or those caring for them) are mostly unemployed – this needs to be addressed by government and not just left to the community.  They are not the ones who created this low wage, high unemployment, unequal society, government did and they have a responsibility to all disabled people to ensure their lives are worth living.

     

    Kia kaha to us all.

Letter to local police asking them to STOP WELFARE CHECKS

Thought I’d start posting some of the letters I write, might give people some ideas about what they can do if going through the same thing.

20 November 2015

 TO:      Wairarapa Police

 I really really need you to stop coming to my house when someone from a justice, health or political organisation phones you.  It is a waste of your time and it hurts me, makes me feel even more worthless and ashamed.  I am allowed to say I wish I was dead, just not allowed to say I am going to kill myself and I never ever have.

 

In the recent decision by Judge Tuhoy he says police were unreasonable in acting on the wilful trespass notice unreasonably given to me by Wairarapa DHB.  Please can we look at these phone calls in the same way – that these organisations phoning you are being unreasonable and you don’t have to act on it.  Part of what I do to stop the discrimination of thousands of disabled mentally injured and ill people is I am honest about how I feel and what is happening to me.  That includes self-harming and the continuous hell of being suicidal after years of discrimination, degradation and neglect by ACC, etc.

 

Suicidal thoughts I have never acted on over the past 10 years – it is a living nightmare but if someone like me doesn’t keep challenging what is going on for suicidal people then nothing is going to change and more people are going to needlessly suffer, hurt others and die. 

 

The self-harm is relatively new, thank ACC, mental health, poverty and my living situation for that.  What I do won’t end my life, or cause me permanent damage, I hate telling you this – what I currently do is use rubber bands on my wrists which I flick, I stab myself with pens/pencils until it hurts, not so it draws blood and hit myself as hard as I can around my head where it can’t be seen under my hair and around my body.  By doing this I can let off enough emotional pain so the suicidal thoughts don’t become overwhelming and I act on them.  My psychiatrist, counsellor and doctor, as well as ACC, politicians and several mental health/justice organisations know this is happening, so do the many people I talk and write to (that phone you), doesn’t get me the care I need and am entitled to of course.  If they are not concerned then why are police?

 

While talking to several people yesterday the words Duty of Care came up and how would my family feel if police didn’t respond and I killed myself – I’m really unwell, how other people feel is completely IRRELEVANT when you have Compounding Complex PTSD.  Please note the compounding bit – so every trauma adds to the next because you have way more serious unresolved underlying traumas.  Also people who kill themselves are free and don’t have to suffer anymore, it is a relief to the person who has done it – its only those left behind that get angry, mostly out of guilt.  And of course it’s a recognised sign of a dysfunctional society, which we can thank the last 30 yrs of neo-liberal governments for.

 

This letter exonerates police from any responsibility if I do kill myself.  I know from years of research, study and experience that police are USED by government to ‘control and manipulate’ people with mental health issues.  This letter is to confirm it is neo-liberal politicians, ACC, mental health services and other justice and government agencies that have driven me mad with medical neglect, not the police (although you havn’t made things easy on occasion and I wish with all my heart you would take my complaints under Sections 150A 151 and 157 of the Crimes Act seriously).

 

This is NOT a suicide note, this is me just being frank and honest and trying to make things easier for ME – trying to manage impairments related to my disorder.  If you truly do care (which I know some of you do) then don’t come, my neighbours see you here and I am ostracized even more, it makes ME feel worse.  Also now you are being nice it is even harder, I do not want your pity – which is why its best that we don’t interact – there are bad people you should be dealing with – NOT ME.

 

Blaming police for people committing suicide due to unprofessional abusive inadequate mental health care is one of the most bizarre (immoral/cruel/corrupt) reactions to suicide I have witnessed. I hope this letter helps police understand and fingers crossed stops you from acting on these calls from people who say they are concerned for my welfare – when THEY ARE NOT.

 

Working on a report/complaint to the UN at the moment, will send you a copy when I’m finished, will be sending lots of people/organisations copies, especially those who phone police – I’m sure you will find it interesting.  Please put this letter on my file, thank you.

 

Kia kaha to us all

  

JR

 Civil Society Actor

Persecuted Whistleblower

Human sewage living in the darklands