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More Propaganda from the Suicide Show – The Project

The following news item might be good advice for middle class and wealthy people who don’t really have many problems compared with the poorest in our society.  Particularly the 20% of the people that experience 80% of the crime according to police statistics – I’m in that ‘cultural’ group.  A string of mentally unwell flatmates has seen to that.  I have a song called Human Sewage, check out my Youtube Channel its on there.

I’m also contributing to crime according to police – through my non-violent challenging activism.  I am challenging unjust authority within my rights to freedom of expression under International and NZ Constitutional laws.  I follow the guidelines of the UN Charter for a Civil Society and a Civil Society Actor/Activist.

I would be out on the streets with my signs, guitar and chalk much more, but I am getting over a recent violent assault with handcuffs and have a lot of fear.  They permanently damaged my right wrist and it would be extremely painful to be in handcuffs again – although I still have my wrist brace and will wear that on any future protest.

Below is the news item that set this post off, I am tired of this, when the most unwell people don’t even have safe places to live or necessities of life.

http://www.msn.com/en-nz/entertainment/tv/the-project-host-kanoas-inspiring-mental-health-plea/ar-BBOxFdy?ocid=ientp

#metoo lawyers from New Zealand, this is my legal situation

I am currently up on charges of wilful damage for throwing red paint on the white ribbon banner inside Masterton police station and leaving a piece of art on the counter.  I also went outside and did a chalk spray swastika on the wall.

I then drove to Lower Hutt and chalked on Lower Hutt Court house Judge PJ Butler and a swastika.  I left there unchallenged and went to Wellington Central police station and handed myself in at the counter.

I was protesting about the miscarriage and perversion of justice for the recent graffiti charges I had been facing – other charges had been removed.  ACC demanded their misuse of a telephone charges be removed, so the judge didn’t know my motivation behind other non-violent protests with chalk, I have done.  All in regard to my health care and access to a suitably qualified lawyer.

Police in Wellington are way nicer and more respectful, I have made multiple complaints about  unnecessary violence and threats of worse violence by some Wairarapa police, all have been ignored.  This was at the end of January 2018, I have been unable to get a lawyer and been manipluated and discriminated against by Legal Aid Services.  I was in court last week and the judge ordered I be given a Amacus Curiea lawyer, or some shit, they going to get back to me about it.

Far as I can see its a lawyer that won’t listen to what you have to say and will just get the case through the courts as fast as possible.  So far I’ve been told they don’t want to deal with my other legal issues, but my protesting is part of all that.

I need to get with some decent legal brains and work out how I am going to get my case moved out of the District Court, into the High Court.   (NOTE:  My case last year for graffiti has grounds to be appealed, and that would reinvestigate the violent assault by police and other threats.) And I demand a JURY TRIAL due to the constitutional nature of my case.

There is no jury in New Zealand would find me guilty of wilful damage when they consider why I did it.  They have the power to give the Bill of Rights more power.   I DO NOT WANT A JUDGE ALONE TRIAL!!!!!  Our judiciary are grossly corrupt with regards to people with mental health issues, especially as a result/or aggrivated by degrading soul destroying poverty.

Is there any lawyer out there or law student that would be interested in talking this through with me?   I know they will say my wilfil damage charge is too minor to warrant a jury trial – how do I use the law to refute that.  What is the law that says I have to have a judge alone trial.

Come on, there must be someone out there that’s interested in the constitutional issues I am grappling with here.  I do not believe our Bill of Rights to be as impotent as they are saying, I want to take a case to court where these laws are given the constitutional status they should have.

I belive the fact I am a poor person, with the issues around health care, disability, non-violent activism and legal representation, gives me the right to take this case.  And brings up legal issues that really need to be sorted out, or we cannot call our country a democracy, free, or one that adheres to Rule of Law – which was of course designed to keep the peace.

I also have other legal issues I wish to challenge in the ILLEGAL gentrification of Carterton.  The driving out of the poor and disabled by wealthy foreigners and city people.  With a Libertarian and conservative elitist agenda in power throughout our local and central government representatives – who I believe only represent business interests.

I want to use Imperial Laws Application Act 1988 – Westminister STatute the 1st – common right be done to all rich as poor.

It is not right that rich people get to live in a town and poor people do not.  Carterton once had at least 35 state houses, mostly three bedroom with decent yards to grow food etc.  They were all sold off and an Official Information Act request revealed the details and numbers of these homes were removed from public record – which I thought was illegal.  I have been around Carterton and counted them, given state houses were of a distinctive style.

It is not right disabled people who have chosen Carterton as their home do not have the opportunity to live here.  Many to be around family and friends for support.

These are also our cultural rights, no matter anybody says – we have a culture.  New Zealand has ratified the UN treaty on economic social and cultural rights, which should be used in this legal issue of ‘gentrification’.  I know it is happening in America and UK, however I believe our 200 year old European history proves we prefer a more egalitarian society and we do not like injustice.  As a society we care for the less fortunate, when we do that we have peace, now we don’t do that we have suffering, violence, addiction and suicide.  Note I do not consider charity as care, it is a degrading nightmare and there are many highly corrupt institutions – Trust House in Wairarapa is one of the worst examples.

I also have legal issues under Magna Carta as to be destroyed, by being denied health care a court ordered to be provided eight years ago.  Along with not having a suitably qualified lawyer for the past 15 years, being denied legal representation for 16 years, just for asking for the health care and justice I was legally entitled to under multiple laws.

I have multiple legal issues with Indepedent Police Conduct Authority, Wairarapa and CCDHBs, Health and Disability Commissioner, Human Rights Commission etc.  Privacy issues the Commissioner refuses to address because of my disability, apparently police are allowed to say anything derogatory about you to other police and security staff who transport you between courts.

I have Magna Carta issues with police coming to my home so many times, I was terrorised.  They came once very late at night for a welfare check, I started having nightmares after that.  Now I just get scared whenever someone knocks at my door or I hear noises outside after dark – that police are coming to get me.

Several officers have said they don’t like what is happening to me.  One of them is my neighbour.

I have $10,000 Independence Allowance sitting with ACC because I can’t fill out the forms and they want me to go to yet another assessment, which are now so traumatic, I become extremely unwell.  I am so broke, I can barely afford food and am so unwell cannot go to the food bank.  Or the doctor, I havn’t had a doctor for over two years and not spoken to one about health issues other than my mental health for many years.

There must be people in our country or the western world who can help me with this, make this happen to stop the divisions in society we are seeing and the damage that is doing to peace on this planet.

Kia kaha and aroha to us all, leave a comment, lets work out how to do this.

 

The evil of PASSIVE INACTION in New Zealand mental health – Abuses of Power

This email is to people I have been begging for help from for years (some more recent) the passive aggressives I call them (except my last lawyer Susie Barnes) and have had it confirmed they are evil and their passive inaction is too – the inaction of cowards and people who have blind faith in authority – which I do not and I’m no coward either.


From: Jayne Routhan <jrouthan@hotmail.co.nz>
Sent: Monday, 11 June 2018 4:30 PM
To: Ann Rice; Health & Disability Commission; Complaints ACC; HRRT; hrg@mfat.govt.nz; Human Rights Commission; info@cdc.govt.nz; SUTTON, Michael; Susie Barnes; Auditor General; Independent Police Conduct Authority; lawtalk@lawsociety.org.nz; Andrew Little; stuart.nashmp@parliament.govt.nz; carmel.sepuloni@parliament.govt.nz; Iain Lees-Galloway MP; Trevor Mallard MP; Tracy Adamson; Tracey Martin MP; ron.mark@parliament.govt.nz; kieran.mcanulty@parliament.govt.nz; alastair.scott@parliament.govt.nz; United Nations Association of New Zealand; Petitions OHCHR
Subject: The evil of passive inaction – Philip Zimbado

You people are evil and your systems are too, I do what I do because I am a hero until I die.  I became a hero the first time I was arrested for chalking a poem on a building in Masterton.  When the police officer told me to take my clothes & period soaked underwear & sanitary pad off so I could sit and wait in a short padded suit for mental health team with blood running down my leg for an hour.  I stood their speechless, something snapped and I said “I’ll fight you for them.”  Cop went away to talk to her boss and I didn’t have to remove them and I have NEVER REMOVED MY CLOTHES EVER AGAIN, EVEN WHEN DETAINED UNDER MENTAL HEALTH & NEVER WILL BE EITHER.  I have had it threatened a few times and I end up curled up in corner of the room screaming at them, they are sexual perverts  etc – they usually back off very quickly after that (I don’t do it purposely, its my extreme response when they suggest it, I am so terrified/degraded by what happened.)

After waiting for hours in a cell terrified and stripped of all dignity  (where I had never been in my life) the CATT team turned up .  Andrew Curtis-Cody came, he had been refusing me care for years and that day was no different so he went, said I’m not dealing with her, police looked at each other in disbelief because I was so suicidal and unwell.  After he left they told me to get my clothes back on and let me leave to go back to my car and home with no services to my two school age children – cruelty and evil.  (They pursued a charge of wilful damage for the chalk poetry for next three months before dropping them at the last minute, they have done that many times.)

I looked into this gross violation of my rights, demanding I am stripped naked, I was told it was only a policy and had not been put under Bill of Rights scrutiny – it was also done FOR MY OWN GOOD.  When you watch Philip Zimbardo talking about how evil is done in the name of good you can see how I (all people with mental health issues) ended up having my most basic rights  violated.  That’s what police always said when they came to my home for WELFARE VISITS (dozens of them) DUTY OF CARE required it- even when I wrote multiple letters begging them not to, telling them it terrified me more.  I even had a psychiatrist support what I was saying, police ignored it.  Those people sending them were in health, justice, media & welfare agencies, all the people supposed to help me were sending police to terrorise me.  I made criminal complaints to police under Sections 150A and 151 of Crimes Act, I was ignored – a crime is being committed and police are part of it – that sounds very similar to the abusive power systems in TED talk.

This ‘abuses of power’ information is over nine years old and other studies are much older than this – there are people in power in New Zealand who know mental health systems are abusive and do nothing.   I have known this information for more than a decade because once you understand human instinct – social psychology – it never changes, just like the physiology of a body doesn’t.  I have told 1000s of people what is happening and they have done nothing.  I cried watching this TED talk (which I hadn’t actually seen before surprisingly) I’m the hero and you are evil, I was right and you are wrong.  That can change if you listen to what I have been telling you and start doing something about serious abuses of power in mental health/justice system perpetrated against me and many other vulnerable mentally injured abuse victims.

I am sending this to many of those people who are legally charged with WATCHING THE STORE to stop abuses of power.  It is interesting what Philip says about Iraqui prison and how those in authority put NORMAL/POORLY TRAINED/PEERS into these positions knowing they had created an environment for abuse.  I truly believe from my 15 years of study and experience, there are people within New Zealand government/business community who DESTROYED (not reformed) the mental health system in 1980s to cause harm to both the community and those disabled by mental health issues.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OsFEV35tWsg

 

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http://www.ted.com Philip Zimbardo knows how easy it is for nice people to turn bad. In this talk, he shares insights and graphic unseen photos from the Abu Ghraib …

Watching this, absorbing it and trying my best to stop HATING and LOATHING all of you.  One thing Philip doesn’t understand, is how those staff in the mental health system are hired for the personality trait of PASSIVE INACTION and complete subservience to authority – no matter how many people are harmed.  SOOOO many people I have told my story, they have shown concern, then said they couldn’t do anything – they participated in this evil.  So many mental health prisoners who have turned on me and really hurt me.  The worst people have always been case managers at ACC and senior staff at mental health services – I truly believe Andrew Curtis-Cody is  a psychopath and I know many other people in our community do as well.

The way mentally ill people have/are being treated is evil and those who supposed to keep checks on those in power have completely failed, I believe to the point of criminal negligence.  That is why the idea that Ron Paterson – being a leader in charge of WATCHING THE STORE in relation to health care of mentally ill people is grossly inappropriate and should be removed immediately from the mental health inquiry.  In his position he violates the principles of Natural Law as he is definitely not unbias, especially when receiving $1400 a day on top of his history of failing to WATCH THE STORE.  He allowed the torture suffering and deaths of so many with MENTAL HEALTH ISSUES and often those around them.

It will all be in my report to the government on human rights for the UPR. The solutions will be in the report I do to the United Nations only – as I know how grossly corrupt ‘you people are’. I do not trust you, when I think of the suffering and harm you have caused and how you have all blamed us, the victims, the suicidal, the violent, the child abusers.  There is extensive evidence to prove women put in toxic inhuman environments without support and in the care of children will violently abuse them.  OUr government created that environment on purpose, refuses to provide support these vulnerable powerless women need, then looks mortified when we have high rates of child abuse.  And the stress men are under to provide when they can’t.  Due to requirements of neo-liberalism to have high unemployment and a terrified working class.

PLEASE  STOP IGNORING ME – THIS IS A CRIME – I AM SCREAMING FOR HEALTH CARE AND JUSTICE I AM ENTITLED TO UNDER NZ LAW.  I AM BEING HARMED BY NOT GETTING HEALTH CARE I AM ENTITLED TO – I AM BEING HARMED FOR BEING FORCED THROUGH JUSTICE SYSTEM REPEATEDLY – I AM BEING HARMED – you are persecuting and subjecting me to criminal/medical negligence.  I desperately need it to stop because I don’t want to die, I don’t want to be tortured and tormented until I’m driven mad,  I want to have somewhere safe to live, I want to return to work and not be treated like worthless human sewage just for asking for things I am entitled to by law – God’s and man’s.

Sincerely

Jayne Routhan
Civil Society Activist

HUMAN SEWAGE

PERSECUTED WHISTLEBLOWER

2nd night in Wellington police cells in New Zealand

Been avoiding writing this, don’t want to recall what happened it hurts too much, but I know I have to, then I won’t have to look at it again if I don’t want to – better out than in.

My arrest and night in Wellington police cells was going fine until the last three hours, then it all turned to shit because I was transported in a very cold NEW van into cold court cell, further delays and an arsehole guard looking after me.  People with stress disorders (in stressful situations) must be treated the same as people in shock, first thing you do is keep them warm, being cold adds to trauma/stress.  That is what should be on my court transfer papers not that I make vague threats of self-harm – WTF.  The design of that NEW transport staff were gloating about is absolute crap and harmful to those inside the boxes.

Start from the beginning

As I didn’t turn up for court on Monday, as I had been turned down by the OT for health services and still didn’t have a lawyer I knew there would be a warrant out for my arrest.  Chickened out doing a protest in Masterton so I would get arrested, too scared of police here.  Went over to Wellington chalking and then started on my mission.

Headed for Supreme Court to do some chalking about justice and how I completely blamed the judiciary for discrimination against mentally ill people and allowing government to criminalise and persecute them, deny them professional health care.  Then headed up to Treasury building and left a message for Treasury wankers – photos on my facebook page.  Held them to account for the appalling mental health stats as well – did a few swastikas and called them murderers as well – I know they hate it.  Then headed for Human Rights Commission, from which I am trespassed.

Nutted off at this old guy in reception and a group of people having a meeting about some bullshit.  I was in total fire breathing dragon mode, told them exactly what I thought of them and their responsibility for mental health crisis, suicide, NZ being No 1 for child suicide, self-harm in women and family violence.  Left before police arrived heading for my next target – didn’t make it 🙂

Have photos on my facebook page /jrmurphypoetmusician did a couple of videos of the chalking a few photos at the Human Rights Commission.  Its like lala land up there, those people are completely out of touch with reality and refusing to accept the seriousness of what has gone on in mental health due to an economic theory taking over from constitutional, health and justice rights.

Was arrested on Lambton Quay with my large naked torso painting a couple of cardboard signs and my big over shoulder satchel with chalk pens paper etc in it.  Was funny knowing they were coming, saw them to my left, I was heading towards Willis Street across from Midland Park.  They put on their lights, quickly did a u turn and jumped out of their car to aprehend me lol.  Told them to calm down I knew I was going to be arrested, that’s why I had come to Wellington – strange to them of course.  I was picked up on warrant for breach of bail for not attending court.  Not for nutting off at the dick head at the HRC and breaching a trespass order.  WAs prepared for it to happen though.

Tried to talk them out of handcuffs but couldn’t, managed to get them put on in front of me which is so much less oppressive/scary/vulnerable than behind your back.  She also did it really loosely on my right wrist cause told her I get arthritis in it.

Male officer told me handcuffs were for theirs and my safety – lol – brainwashed.  Not in my situation they’re not – its one thing I hope the UN can look at having a restriction on police using handcuffs, particularly in a public place.  They were OK, just following the book and treating me like any criminal who had a warrant out for their arrest.

Got back to the station and got processed, almost everybody was nice, were surprised to see me back.  The woman I had a run in with last time came and talked to me a few times, said she was pretty stressed with work etc last time I was there and sort of apologised, we made peace – that’s the main thing.

Didn’t sleep all night but was able to read a book, which I couldn’t last time because my stress levels were too high.  I can’t hold the story in my head when very stressed, even this time there were a few times I had to re-read paragraphs because I hadn’t absorbed what I just read.  Its a horrible part of Complex PTSD and a lot of people don’t understand it, can make you feel really stupid and like you going mad.  I worked out over years, it comes and goes depending on my stress levels.

I was OK with going through the police process I had gone over it in my head many times.  Had all the same guards as last time just in a different order, they were really cheerful and nice.  Told them I was in a much better state than last time and just wanted to get through the process and get things sorted out.  Last time I was self-harming and really distressed, this time I was really chilled out.

Had a guy come into the cells about 6pm who banged and yelled most of the night, then started up again in the morning – when I get stressed too, cause you don’t know what time is and all the guards disappear to organise transfers etc.  Handover is at around 7am.  So in the morning he sets off sprinkler in his cell and flooded something else by the sounds of it, lol, all the male prisoners were put in the female section – was weird seeing the guys – cause you never do.  They have it set up so people can’t see each other – I’m all good with that, few of them looked dodgy as.  They handcuffed him and put him in the Female Day cell that I can see from my special window/mental health cell.  Gave him the thumbs up for what he’d done, I was bored too.

As 11pm shift came on I asked if I could go in the bigger cell to prepare myself for going in the van in the morning, like I had spoken to Stuart about – when I made a comment about my first visit and how they could improve it.  He was a pommy guy with a bald head, manipulative power tripper.  So a group of them are outside my cell and he makes a comment about me being a Human Rights activist in a mocking tone then tells me he will think about the change of cell and tell me in the morning – he didn’t.  I worried about it all night, because had a bad feeling I would have a meltdown in the morning – which I did and are really horrible.  He purposely denied my request and kept me guessing to exert his authority and disempower me – and it would have had even more impact if I didn’t understand psychology of abusive power relationships.  so I’ll be making a complaint to police about it.  That is the sort of person who SHOULD NEVER BE in a position of power over others.

Got to have a shower at around 4.30am and had an early breakfast, 3 weetbix milk sugar & a milo.  Should have asked for something to take with me, didn’t realise how long it would be until I had food again – and I have diabetes issues if I don’t eat reguarly – especially having been up all night, when your body needs extra food.  I learnt that years ago, if you want to stay up all night at a party you have to keep eating throughout the night, its your body running out of fuel that makes you tired.

Reluctant to get in the van in the morning, they just turn up to take you, it freaks you out, I need to know what is going to happen to mentally prepare – fuck them!!!!

Van to Lower Hutt was really cold, 2 metal boxes in back of a van, 4 men sitting close together in one side and 2 women in the other.  First time I’ve had someone to talk to during transport, she was a regular visitor, knew the system well, but we avoided why we there.

We change to the NEW truck for trip over Rimutakas, it has about 10 metal boxes with individual windows – the staff were gloating that it belonged to Wairarapa and Hutt were jealous they didn’t have anything that flash.  Obviously they  have never spent any time in the back – I have got to get something done about the design or they going to have lots more people flipping out like me.

I refused to get in this van, he had to take my arm, but I did’nt resist past that, these metal boxes are only as big as your body and solid except for small windows.  Killer on your back, when you get jolted over bumps, there no padding its just a stainless steel bench about 1m square – FREEZING COLD AGAIN.  Not only cold thick metal there was a blast of cool air blowing down from directly above that you couldn’t get away from, it either went on top of your head or if you sat hard up against back it went onto your body and legs, which felt even colder.

Someone yelled out to guards to turn the fans off at about Upper Hutt, guards told him they were for ventilation, I chimed in that I wanted them off too, I was fkn freezing.

I got colder and colder – sooooo bad for my stress disorder – people under extreme stress are supposed to be kept warm.  Got angrier and angrier too.  When I got to Masterton refused to move – couldn’t move – I don’t know, but didn’t get out of van for about 5mins – they didn’t know what to do.  When I finally did because I thought they were going to get more physical two women were standing at end of truck.  I angrily asked WHAT ARE YOU – they were detectives, one of them said how she had heard about me in a nice enough voice –  I have got lots of supporters in the police – my response as I went past was a vicious GET FUCKED.  Was angry at the police for putting me through this shit, through all of this shit letting ACC manipulate them and refusing to investigate my complaints about them.

Was put in women’s holding cell at Masterton Court – it was fkn freezing as well, blasting cool air and a vent that went directly outside I could see through.  We had arrived about 10.30am from what I can gather, I wasn’t feeling very well coming over but was so fkn angry ignored it.  Got there was so cold put x2 on my ReFuSe tag I left two weeks ago.  They wouldn’t give me my shoes, eventually they gave me a museli bar at around 12pm – I had breakfast at 5am – they were told I had diabetes issues, it should be on my transfer notes I have to be offered food at regular intervals, they know the time I don’t – WTF.  Grrrr  That’s what those notes are fucking for – not a pile of disgusting offensive bigotry.

I sang Why Am I Arrested, Human Sewage and I wish I was dead with all loud drumming required on the walls – which went through the whole building I now know tehehehehe.  Some young people in other cells made comment about me ‘that protester’, also came to look at me through the window when one of them was wandering around.  Said something about me being Crazy – not me the crazy one dumarse – sometimes young people grrrrrrrr.

After singing revolting old white guy guard came to tell me I was embarrassing myself – trying to degrade me – oppressive and wanting to make me feel even more marginalised.  Again, lucky I know these sorts of tactics and can shake off most of their shit – but always a bit that sticks and makes you feel like shit.  Those are the comments that go on a loop in your head when you sink down into the well/darkness and consider all the good reasons you should kill youself.  I’m sure I’ll have to deal with that in the next few weeks – I’m sure there will be fallout from Thursday’s meltdown.

Then the arsehole said I was up next, ie first after lunch,  They called out 4 names before I STARTED LOOPING OUT – I was so distressed and so cold started losing it, started ticking by banging my whole body back against the door making a really loud noise, felt sooo good, calms me, its like a heartbeat and because its so violent on your whole body you can’t think of the anything else and it calms down the ‘panic attack’ you about to have – that happened later when outside.  Telling someone something is going to happen and then it not happening is another psychological torture method and what the guard in Wellington did.  An abuse and perversion of power – it is very common but should not be tolerated in people working in police etc. (Have found out since guards were pissed off with delays too, it was court staff who delayed my appearance – same court staff I gave shit to recently for not providing CCTV footage.)

Guard came along trying to get me to stop, turned the fan on full blast so I was even colder, turned the light on and off several times.  I was freaking out because of what had been happening and him lying to me, then he didn’t know what to do when I started freaking out more than he expected and the judge knows about it, cause the whole building can hear me.  If I’m causing that much fuss, then he has failed his job and EVERYBODY knows it.

I knew bus back to Carterton was at 1pm and it was 12, I got out at 1pm, with no time to walk to the bus stop 10 mins away.

My old public defence lawyer Susie turned up, which was a welcome sight as I was in full freak out mode pacing around the cell.  She spoke to the judge when i was up, told judge not-guilty and case now set down for 25 June.  They kept saying the police don’t oppose bail – because this is the third time I havn’t turned up for court and violated my bail conditions.  Of course police don’t oppose bail – that might be a bit much considering they put me here – they wouldn’t want to be reminded of what they have done grrrrrrr.  Police prosecutor in court looked ashamed, wouldn’t look at me.

After Susie spoke I made sure I had my say, without following any rules – except trying not to swear, it was pretty obvious I was really pissed off and really freaked out.  Not many people get to address the judge like I do but there was NO WAY I was leaving that courtroom without her knowing about Geneva Healthcare refusing me OT services and still not having a lawyer – which Susie told her anyway.  It was Judge Morris, I Know her and she knows my situation quite well, was still all I could do not to swear at her for allowing this to go on for years.  Like I said, I have never hurt anyone, they hurt me.

I reakon they left me until last so there weren’t many people in the gallery, they don’t like the public seeing me go through the system because I have no respect for the judge or the process and give them shit – using their own laws.  Quoted Magna Carta several times and reminded her I said two weeks ago when I saw here I wasn’t voluntarily participating in teh justice process until I had health care I need and lawyer I need.

They know at court making me wait stresses me out – they’ve accommodated this aspect of my disability before – why not now, when I’m in an even more stressful situation do they now ignore it?  They could have changed the order, they knew I was going to arrive the night before. grrrr, will be bringing this all up in my complaints to police AGAIN – that they will never listen to but I have to do because nobody else does grrrrrrrrr.

Told court staff to go get my painting and bag etc because I would not be going to the police station to pick them up like last time – I don’t want to see those motherfuckers at the moment – especially that dark headed bitch on reception.

Waited in the bail room, at least slightly warmer, but I was chilled to the bone.  NEK MINIT started crying uncontrollably, that heartbroken cry where you can’t even close your mouth and you dribble onto the ground in front of you as you sit there rocking, wailing, in such emotional pain.  Your heart smashed to pieces by what you are being put through for asking for health care and justice you entitled to, for throwing paint on a white ribbon banner after being assaulted and threatened by police  – plus knowing just how cruel and corrupt your government and so many others are.

Was let out, almost ran out of the court, got outside took two steps, stood there shaking, thinking – I had missed the bus, I was now extremely upset and would have to go to the park, find something sharp and spend the next few hours self-harming until next bus to Carterton.  Didn’t have anyone I could call to pick me up.

I became completely overwhelmed, my arms gave way & I dropped my paintings signs & bag just as my legs gave way from under me and I ended up on the footpath curled up in a ball on my side.  I managed to sit up and started rocking and wailing/crying loudly – in a way that would make my broken heart feel some sort of relief from what had just happened to me.  I wasn’t there long and a woman came along and one of the guards from court came out.  They were both very nice, the woman was from Te Hauora, I been screwed over by them several times, so I was scared of her, but when she offered me a ride home I had to ignore that and say yes – I had to get home – my homing beacon was on full strength and causes me huge stress if I don’t listen to it.  I wanted to be where nobody could see me melting down, it is so humiliating when it happens – it has only been this bad four other times in 15 years.

I couldn’t keep my mouth shut with the woman, I tried, I didn’t want to tell her anything, but all my biggest fears and worries were just tumbling out of my mouth, just like the anger does when I go ‘tourettes’.  I kept saying sorry, it was OK, it didn’t matter, I just wanted to go home etc.  She asked all the usual questions about a doctor etc, told her I don’t have a doctor and why – that I havnt’ seen one for over 2 years (1 for WINZ form last year doesn’t count).  Think she was pretty horrified at how unwell and unsupported I was, told her a little about not trusting Te Hauora.  I didn’t’ have any bread or milk at home, was crying about how poor I was and how tired I was of being poor and there of course was not point in living in this shit hole country. etc etc.  She gave me $20 I refused – I HATE CHARITY – she demanded I take it, I HATE PEOPLE WHO DEMAND I TAKE CHARITY, and from an organisation that has ensured I was taken advantage of and traumatised by a flatmate under their care, denied me care themselves and let me down when I was really unwell.  A friend in the community who worked for Te Hauora for a short time told me what they thought of me, that lots of people had tried to help me, I just didn’t want help.  FUCKING SCUMBAG FUCKING LYING PIECES OF FUCKING GARBAGE.  Same people I have made complaints about that were covered up and not dealt with you mean.  They a big part of the bigoted rumour mill round here.

I’m sure the only reason I had that horrendous meltdown is the cold, it was like being tortured.  It has left me feeling tearful and very very fragile, I don’t want to go out anywhere –  I can’t anyway I”m so broke.  I’m hoping I don’t get a backlash in a few days, sometimes that can happen and I get highly suicidal and all the oppressive degrading things staff did/said will come back to haunt me.

At least Susie and even Judge Morris acknowleged that I had been punished and suffered in custody – which is why of course I wasn’t prosecuted for breaching bail ($2,000 fine & 1 yr in prison is what they threaten on bail form for violations).  Given I had sent them an email Thursday last week saying I was both mentally incapable due to my disorder and refused to attend, asking them not to make me into a criminal – they did anyway.

One thing pissed me off about Te Hauora lady, she spent at least 5mins telling me to take medication for my anxiety – WTF.  Terrorised women are being put on medications to deal with teh inhuman and unsafe living situations they are being forced to endure by the government.  Its sick, deeply deeply disturbing, immoral, unethical, unprofessional and ILLEGAL.  I also explained I was a rescuer and helped lost souls pass over to the light, I was told by spirit not to take medication or it would affect my ability to protect myself spiritually.  She didn’t say anything after that – Maori understand spirituality a lot better than Pakeha thank God.  They have a lot more respect for spiritual people as well – most Pakeha ridicule us – sad considering our entire legal system is based on christian principles of fairness justice and us being all the same before God irrelevant of our wealth and status on earth.

I’m having a chill out day today, my daughter is taking me out for brunch for mother’s day which will be nice.  Will try and stay in the present and not feel bad about the fact I can’t afford to take myself out for brunch or anybody else.  I will barely be able to afford to buy my daughter a present, its her birthday soon – my life would have been so different if I had health care and help I needed to return to work after I was raped.  Fkn scumbag government, fkn terrorist murderers 🙁

My back is hurting, so trying to not do anything more to strain that after the trip over Rimutakas in truck, feels like a lower disc wants to move and I know what that means – not being able to sit down at all, only being able to walk around slowly or lay down and in agony for days.  Its happened before.  Obviously justice transport not designed for older people with aches pains & injuries.

People ask me why do I do this to myself, I can assure you it is actually helping me, it is very hard being really unwell at home on my own, its far more stressful than protesting and getting arrested.  I get food I don’t have to pay for, hot drinks, to talk to interesting different people who understand more about failings of mental health system than anybody else – police.

Some police are OK & actually respect what I am trying to do with my mental health advocacy work –  trying to get a better journey through teh system for people who have traumatic stress disorders.  I can assure everybody I DO NOT TRUST THE POLICE and nobody reading this should either – their are some real nasty pieces of work amongst them & most/all of the others will cover it up.  As nice as some are there are others who are fkn aresholes and they all sit back and allow shit to happen. Wouldn’t even be surprised if the cold transport was for my benefit – I would assume the new truck would have had heating.  Police trying all those psychological torture tactics perhaps – when constable French said you’ll see how bad police can be, is this what he meant?

 

Law Society Complaint – ACC lawyers Meredith Connell

JR>
Sent: Friday, 22 September 2017 12:46 p.m.
To: complaints@lawsociety.org.nz
Subject: Complaint about legal firm Meredith Connell & Sean Kinsler

Dear Sir/Madam,

I wish to make a formal complaint about the conduct of Sean Kinsler as agent of ACC in perverting the course of justice with regard to criminal charges I am currently facing regarding my protesting, which I am defending under NZ Bill of Rights.

Mr Kinsler firstly advised ACC to not release the real name of my case manager so she could be subpoenaed as a witness in my current court case – to prove she phoned me in 2015 and told me my care would be reinstated as it had been in 2009 and then didn’t do this.  I don’t care about the woman’s name, I have never hurt anybody, although I do wish harm to people who are terrorising and persecuting me by refusing care when I am very unwell and suffer suicidal ideology.  The also refused the police request for the true identity of the ACC case manager.

In order to argue the case for Misuse of a Telephone (for phoning ACC screaming at them to have my care reinstated when I was very unwell) my lawyer had to have a witness.  When ACC refused to provide the case manager she asked for Scott Pickering – CEO of ACC to be a witness.  With that Police and my lawyer were phoned by Sean Kinsler and threatened that if they tried to do that he would file for a judicial review immediately and my case would be delayed for a very long time.

I have already been waiting over 14 months and my case has been delayed multiple times due to our appallingly busy court system.  I have a life-threatening stress disorder, these delays and the court proceedings cause me extreme distress and significantly aggravate my disorder.  My bulimia is worse, I have started smoking again – which I find very distressing, I am not throwing up enough and eating way to much to cope so I have put on a lot of weight and believe I have developed diabetes (but I don’t have a doctor currently, so I just feel sick most days and my eyes deteriorate- I am working on trying to get a doctor).  Random ticks have returned and so have violent images of knives slicing up my forearms and bleeding out (I just love having to deal with them 10-12 times a day).  Then of course there is the suicidal nightmare of hell.  All the time with NO MENTAL HEALTH SERVICES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Unable to tell my family or friends how bad things are some times and just trying to keep up appearances and stay alive through it.

Mr Kinsler knows my case, he knows how unwell I am, he knows what ACC have done to me, he has seen the disclosure documents, he is not allowed to be an agent for an extremely rich and powerful government corporation to terrorise a poor disabled person.  The very essence of our law is based on protecting poor and powerless from rich and powerful persecution – and Meredith Connell are participating in it and encouraging it.  That is not the behaviour of an ethical or professional lawyer or legal firm at any time in a democracy or in the Commonwealth.

As a result of this appalling criminal perversion of justice by Mr Kinsler my lawyer was changed the approach to my case significantly and the Misuse of Telephone Charge was dropped – because ACC had been wanting to for months and I had refused, as it was the catalyst for the protests/graffiti and wilful trespass charges I was now facing.  Now the judge won’t get to hear evidence I still believe is essential to my case, although my lawyer Susie Barnes believes we have enough evidence with other charges.

I was enraged by the Misuse of Telephone Charges that started all this when police have refused to act on my multiple complaints of harm by ACC under Sections 150A 151 155 157 of the Crimes Act.  Which if proven could result in criminal charges for ACC staff.  My current lawyer believes she has uncovered appalling behaviour and actions by senior ACC staff in my case – when they knew how unwell I was.

I am also extremely annoyed my case has been delayed so many times and the complete mess the first part hearing of my case was on 29 August – that has  to come back on 31 October 2017 and even then I am told it is going to be extremely rushed.  Although my lawyer is confident I will win on the basis of reasonableness/proportionality and even police prosecutor is appalled at what ACC have done.

My lawyer and police know these proceedings are traumatic for me, they know delays like those threatened by Sean Kinsler would cause me harm, they know how desperate I am to get these things over with.  I shouldn’t even be in court I’ve already won multiple cases of wilful trespass using NZ Bill of Rights.  I shouldn’t even be in court when the process is being used to terrorise me in a punitive way – when I am a recognised disabled Civil Society Actor in the area of mental health and neo-liberalism.

I truly believe the way I am being treated by ACC and Meredith Connell is also related to my political and ethical opinions and terrorising me using police and the justice system as a form of intimidation.  It is illegal to harm someone asserting their civil and political rights, why is this happening to me and has happened multiple times before?

Westminster Statute the First – Common right be done to all rich as poor.  Magna Carta – No-one shall be destroyed and everyone shall have access to right and justice.  YEAH RIGHT!  This is a gross violation of the law and my rights!  What these people have done is illegal!

PLEASE CONTACT ME URGENTLY about this situation so I know what is going on, please advise time frames this complaint will be dealt with and please assure me this complaint isn’t going to derail my current case.  In fact it would be my assertion this needs to be sorted out immediately so my lawyer can question my ACC case manager and Scott Pickering on 31 October and get some more time allocated if required.  Why should I be denied justice because of some mercenary lawyer prepared to do anything his high paying rich violent criminal client says.

Sincerely

JR

Civil Society Actor

NZ Govt drive people to SUICIDE on purpose

I want to say so much on this page, I want to scream and yell that 99% of the garbage you read about suicide is just that – garbage.  Neo-liberal garbage, when all over the world one of the first things neo-liberals do when they take over a country is shut down mental health services and make sure these disabled people are homeless.  This of course causes all sorts of harm in society, which in turn creates jobs in the security and justice industries.

If people were getting health care they are entitled to then why am I terrorised by police – under authority from #suicideprevention ‘EXPERTS’ advice??????  Why am I being denied mental health care I am entitled to – why have media censored and refused to publish what is happening to me all these years???????

Why am I in court for Misuse of a Telephone – which ACC demanded – for screaming for help when I was really unwell.  They then dropped the charges but six weeks later did a new set of charges?  Which I was really upset about, responded by using chalk pen on police station window and was consequently violently assaulted for it.

Why have I been fighting for 15 years since I was raped to get the health care I am entitled to under ACC and multiple other laws?  Why are so  many laws that protect vulnerable disabled powerless people against abuses of power being violated and the agencies supposed to protect us are NOT DOING IT.  Which is why I protest a lot at Human Rights Commission, etc.  Both who had police sent to my home yet again to terrorise me and serve me a trespass notice for putting up art in their offices.

The reason suicide prevention is so bad is its suggestions are mostly from family members – family members who obviously DON’T KNOW how to help someone who is suicidal – so why do they get all the say in suicide prevention.  AND I KNOW THERE ARE GOOD FAMILIES WHO REALLY CARE BUT FROM MY EXPERT ANALYSIS I WOULD SUGGEST 80% of families are shit – are the cause of the person being suicidal, are going through shit – are overworking and under-living due to necessity, or overworking and ignoring their family members due to greed and so many nice things to buy or overseas trips to go on.

Listening to Labour and National spouting rhetoric about  mental health triggers me badly after years of the same lies – lies – lies and more lies.

Now we’ve got some other tossers running a suicide-prevention charity – this is run by UNIONS and workers in mental health – the majority of whom are abusers & covering up abuse by colleagues and management.

I have done EVERYTHING legally possible to make formal complaints about abusive and unprofessional mental health care – I am ignored – all of it ignored.  The people ensuring this nightmare of hell for me and soooooo many others are from two camps.  Those who hate disabled poor people and think they are a waste of oxygen – lots of suicidal people get told that – especially by health workers (doctors are great at it).  The other camp are the do-gooders, they just don’t believe living environments, poverty, discrimination and health care is that bad in New Zealand that it drives people to suicide.  They still believe we should bring in refugees from other countries – when we have 10,000s terrorised refugees in this country – just because they don’t see the war in the darklands – means it doesn’t exist.  NZ media play a huge part in cover up just how bad mental health services and our country has become.

Still reading MAx Harris’ book The New Zealand Project – meet him recently & we talk on twitter.  He’s right with most of what he is saying, the thing he gets wrong is neo-liberalism was actually illegal. – its the basis of our most basic laws.  Like I keep saying, Westminister Statute the First and Magna Carta – they also violate multiple criminal laws – when you don’t carry out a contractual or legal contract and that results in harm to someone then you are a criminal.  That’s what ACC do, that’s why our government do, they know what they do because I write to lots of them.

I hate elections, its when all the really revolting haters in our media come out and get even more abusive towards poor people.  Whenever I watch international media talking about neo-liberalism in other countries I can’t believe it – what’s happening in NZ is happening everywhere these terrorist scum go.  And what makes me most upset is New Zealand has been the country LEADING the neo-liberal and globalist charge more than any other.  We are the most stupid, we are the most corrupt, we hate our disabled and poor the most, we have least compassion, we have the most corrupt/ignorant/naïve justice agencies, we drive children to suicide and then govt blame communities.  We have communities saying they care about suicide and yet terrorise people like me who are suicidal and speaking out before we die.

I know this doesn’t sound good, but I’m feeling really bad today and have yet been disappointed by Ministry of Health and legal system.  Apparently when they exposed that I wasn’t in fact getting services as police had been told, that I would have access to care – but that was weeks ago and nothing has happened – nothing will happen I am sure.

The thoughts of self harm are really bad, I was doing so well until a week before the court case, then everything got much worse.  I feel OK but my behaviour is bad, smoking continuously which I hate, the thoughts of self-harm are really vivid, knives slicing up my arm – I have to contend with randomly all day.  Little control over my eating, every minute of the day I try not to eat, my weight has skyrocketed.  I know I’ve got diabetes I feel sick all the time now – I can’t see a doctor – because I don’t have one.  The one I did have was abusive and believed what mental health and ACC had said – the same people who told police I didn’t want care and lots of people had tried to help me.
Bulimia is bad, my incontinence is bad (was supposed to have tests 3 years ago but no mental health worker to go with me – so no tests – just humiliation and degradation of pissing myself regularly.

I get some good health professional supporting everything I am saying and asking for, then I get local health workers doing exactly the opposite and getting police to terrorise me on top of that.  Turn up in the middle of the night for a welfare check – knowing you are unwell.  Violently arresting you 8.30pm Xmas Eve for phoning health line because I was sick with flu and distraught that I had to move again and was getting no services.  I was so traumatised by that arrest I have nightmares about it – the degrading behaviour of officers and mental health services – well – like I said there should be criminal charges laid.

then of course you could talk about years of police telling their wives and families I was a nutter and not to let their kids at my house.  I have two well adjusted daughters 22 & 23, EVERYBODY says what a credit they are to me, they both work – they didn’t turn out like that by accident – no matter what people say.  Because I had studied enough to know my disorder (Complex PTSD) and the damage it can do to future generations I protected them from my dysfunction and best I could.

So many people I meet agree with what I say about mental health, ACC & justice services – so many are abused women who then get their children taken off them because they ask for help.

I can’t go on, what’s the point, I’ve said what I have for years, nobody listens, the wrong people get the power and they do even worse to terrorise suicidal people.  Every one of those people responsible for the abusive suicide prevention terror refuses to meet with me, refuses to listen to anything I say about what ACTUALLY happens in the real world with their ignorant bigoted policies.

For years I have protested around Parliament, sung, recited poetry and begged for help – I was ignored – because apparently you are not allowed to get angry.  If you are being persecuted to get a voice you have to be passive and quiet – not allowed to be angry, not allowed to expose the most vile govt corruption and abuse.

NEW ZEALAND IS THE NEO-LIBERAL SHIT HOLE OF THE SOUTH PACIFIC.  Neo-liberals drove 10,000s of people overseas to find work, ripped families apart, for what?  So they could make rich people rich and make money out of the disabled and poor they terrorised for their religious beliefs – because neo-liberalism is now being called a religion – and if you think about the hatred that spews out of the mouths of the richest and those who hate poor – then you know its true.

Those haters of poor – like Bill English – who called everybody on long-term welfare, addicted to it are the cause of the suffering and suicide in NZ.

 

 

Read This Websites other Pages

On other pages on this website you will find multiple laws being violated against disabled people – mostly mentally injured abuse victims & tramatised as well as mentally ill.  It is this vulnerable group, who are never believed & the target of neo-liberal terrorist bigotry – with the object of course being to create an industry from their victims.

You will find the solutions and professional treatment people with stress disorders & trauma are entitled to under New Zealand law.  This includes a business plan for Mental Injury Services and a Fence At The Top Of The Cliff rehabilitation model – all based around ACC law and professional rehabilitation models.

You will find dozens of poems about the trauma me and many others have been through, that accurately describe how our leaders treat vulnerable people.

My blog posts are targeted at something in the media or happening currently, my website has all the information you need to educate yourself, like I have done over past decade.

Also check out my facebook page facebook.com/jrmurphypoetmusician or twitter @jrmurphypoetry and my youtube channel, here’s a link for one of my posts  https://youtu.be/WOeUxrOwJZ4

Youth Suicide caused by NZ govt / Gluckman & TVNZ etc

Peter Gluckman lied on TV and in his report and I don’t know what to do – how do you stop this government/neo-liberal corruption of our society, that is CAUSING NZs world leading rates of suicide and homelessness.

Think about it, Gluckman (who I know to be an idiot & one of the weakest most compliant public servants in New Zealand – according to people I know who have worked for him) says the main reasons our children are killing themselves is modern society, internet, that they are weak (he calls it not resilient), broken families etc.  New Zealand isn’t any different to other OECD countries in the way children have internet etc in their lives – mixed families and modern things – SO THERE IS NO WAY THE THINGS HE SUGGESTS ARE CAUSING OUR EXTREME YOUTH SUICIDE RATE.

It makes me so sad and so despondent when I hear garbage like this on our news media, because I know they are participating in this attack on terrorised New Zealanders, motivated by their radicalised beliefs in neo-liberal terrorism of poor by rich.  The New Zealand media are part of the neo-liberal brainwashing of our society – those of us who educate ourselves, stay informed and see what is going on around us (as we live in the darklands of this nightmare) aren’t taken in by manipulation and brainwashing.  We are instead angry and at the same time terrified because it gets more obvious every day just how biased and corrupt our media are as well as our government, academics and politicians.

I am 52 years old, I have spent the past 15 years trying to get the health care & welfare I am entitled to by law in order to heal from my injury and be able to return to work – instead I get more unwell and more dysfunctional.  You can’t build resilience to persecution when the people you are persecuting are surrounded by media gloating about what rich people have, media telling you how great things are WHEN THEY ARE NOT, etc etc.  If an intelligent 52 year old expert in politics, human rights and traumatic stress disorders can’t get the safe stable home, health care & justice they are entitled to under NZ law – then no child is going to get it.

What I believe is causing such extreme rates of youth suicide compared with the rest of the OECD is the extremist neo-liberal policies of National and Labour over the past 30 years.  The only thing that makes us different is we embraced neo-liberalism more than any other country, we took out country from one that cared for its disabled and poor people – ensured everybody had a decent job, regulated the rich and protected workers more than any other country in the world – TO A COUNTRY that deregulated everything, drove decent jobs overseas, created unemployment to keep wages down, encouraged debt to keep workers from striking, made welfare so degrading any normal human being would kill themselves, plus a media and government that constantly trashes its own citizens – especially youth.

I believe the young who suicide are in 3 categories, the abused, the neglected & the extremely pressured to perform.  Even though I say this, I don’t want to blame the parents and family members as I know they are just part of a radicalised neo-liberal society THAT HURTS PEOPLE AND HELPS MAKE MORE MONEY FOR BUSINESS.  Youth suicide is not complicated because children aren’t complicated, our government and health providers know why these kids are doing it – they’re just hiding the truth because they know it is neo-liberalism and the extreme stress that puts on society.  In New Zealand at the moment media refuse to even the words neo-liberalism.

Suicide is a social problem, New Zealand is recognised internationally for the massive increase in social problems since we dumped keysian economics (socialism) and our corrupt government infected us with neo-liberalism – DEAD END CAPITALISM.

Our children aren’t weak, they are a litmas test for the extreme dysfunction, hypocrisy, corruption and criminal negligence currently being perpetrated against the vast majority of New Zealand society – by the super rich and their very expensive brainwashing experts IN PUBLIC RELATIONS, MEDIA & MARKETING.

Our extremely high rates of homelessness causes extreme stress in families, even if a parent isn’t saying it or acting dysfunctionally because of it, kids know and they overhear things.

Many of these kids would have suffered abuse, lots of them sexual abuse they never say anything about.  Many would be in terrorised and stressed families not coping with poverty, unstable unreliable work, debt and being terrified by what is happening to their parents.  Many are in families where children are neglected because both parents (or one parent) are forced to work – for some this is essential to their being able to live – for some it is pure greed.  I have met many parents of children who are extremely selfish and materialistic, their idea of parenting is shoving their child in front of a screen to shut them up.  They don’t want to change their lifestyle because of their child so they farm them out as much as they can – how can a child have a relationship with a parent who they barely see.

I would be very interested to see when this rise in youth suicide started and how it progressed.  I’m sure Nigel Latta’s extremely offensive comment about all teenagers being insane would have seen a sharp jump in youth suicide.  Once we were told all teenagers were insane, and that was why they were lazy and going off the rails, then society could completely ignore what the young were saying.

Neo-liberalism brings with it extreme competition for jobs, extreme competition for education and IF YOU FAIL AT EDUCATION then you are a complete failure, will never have anything and will live the rest of your life in degrading poverty HATED by everybody around you.  That isn’t the reality of course, but the pressure put on people to be the best and get the best education is HUGE.

Please watch Chris Hedges On Contact and others on the internet talking about how corrupt and what a failure neo-liberalism is.  He talks about America but you realise very quickly he is describing New Zealand – following along a few years later – when we know it hurts communities, we still do it.  That actually makes our leaders murderers, terrorists and traitors and they should be subject to police investigation and prosecution for crimes they have knowingly committed.  That is legally what should happen, but it won’t, because the rich running this nightmare are very powerful and very clever (the people they employ to manipulate us are very clever) and they own the media.

Our children are killing themselves because our government and society is now extremely cruel to the less fortunate.  I was talking with someone today who said the poorest New Zealanders are attacking each other due to poverty and dysfunction – there is no community.  Saw another example in a post recently where a woman had shifted to the middle east and said she preferred it there than New Zealand – because people cared about each other there.

We don’t care about each other – we say we do, but we don’t really – it seems that the more a public person or organisation says they care about community, justice etc – the more harm they actually cause.  Charity organisations are some of the worst, they not only want money out of you, also your time and your soul – their payment is participation in their belief system.

There are so many lies on TV and radio at the moment, so so so many lies, many of us know how bad it is and do everything we can to expose it.  I am vicious against news media when I see them do something particularly bad that I know will kill and terrorise 100,000s of people.

At the moment the continuous HATE SPEECH from media, the rich and neo-liberals in Labour about Metiria Turei and her benefit fraud admission is really hurting me.  I’ve already been abused when I was out about being unemployed – when I said I had a disability and was on invalids benefit the person just insulted me more – didn’t believe me.  What am I supposed to do show him the medical reports by some of New Zealands leading psychiatrists?  I’m sure even then he wouldn’t believe them, because he votes National and no National party minister I have begged for help to get my ACC care back believes these reports either.

Please share my posts all over the world, tell others New Zealand is not the great place they try and portray, that we are now a country of HATERS of our own disabled and poor.  Mostly they love foreigners here, because better and easier to be friends with a rich immigrant than a poor disabled local.  Neo-liberal terrorism is tearing us apart, violating and destroying our culture.

Kia kaha and Aroha to us all.  To the suicidal and educated who know what I know – hold your ground, karma is coming for those people who hurt so many.

JR

 

Aaron D Huston – farmer – radicalised neo-liberal fascist abuser

This guy has been hassling me for years, I won’t put up the disgusting shit he says but time for me to out this National party fascist pig – a farmer, go figure.  Here’s the email I sent him.

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Got yet another vitriolic pile of abuse from you off my website – it doesn’t hurt me any longer – because I know you’re a deranged radical fascist who gets some sort of disgusting pleasure out of insulting disabled poor abused women.

I do keep all your bigotry and hatred though, plus I have police record of them phoning you, one day I will get you in front of a judge for what you have done – over years.  Do you sit at home trolling through social media of disabled women or don’t you like sexually abused women?  Are you are rapist that drove your victim to suicide and you’re feeling a bit guilty about it – so attack me.

Do you tell your friends and family what you do, is it some sort of sick middle of the night thing, when your psychopathy overwhelms you – wait, I think they call it sociopathy for your particular disorder.  You need to do some research, latest thing coming through the internet is medical experts describing neo-liberalism as a religion and those who believe in it part of a cult – you certainly prove that with what you do to me.  You’re obsessed radicalised and deranged, just like all those terrorists we see on TV – what is it about terrorists that they love persecuting and oppressing women – you hate women don’t you Aaron, or is it just disabled people?

Do you attack me when more news items come out about appalling mental health services, or NZ having highest rate of homelessness in OECD because of our extremist neo-liberal government advancing rich like yourself and persecuting poor.  I’ve met people like you Aaron, everything that comes out their mouths are the same phrases National and Act use in their marketing.  I feel so sorry for you and your family, the hate and blame directed at disabled poor while you refuse to admit it is your leaders who have created your nightmare.

You must be really unwell to be so obsessed with me the way you are, I feel so sorry for you, so much hatred, so wrongly placed – you need to look at the leaders of your cult, they’re the ones lying to you Aaron, they’re the ones ruining your life and causing so much harm in New Zealand.

Sincerely

JR

New Zealand No 1 for homelessness in OECD

Its weird in New Zealand how it takes international organisations to highlight some of the worst social problems – while our government, media and National party voting leaders throughout our communities DENY what is going on with everything they have.

Actually its quite deranged – its why I get the abuse, insults and being discredited that I do from those in authority here.  Why no local mayor will respond to my requests for a meeting about mental health, poverty homelessness etc – yet they are often on the front page of local newspapers welcoming new people here.  In complete denial these new rich people are driving out disabled poor locals.

I never thought of Wairarapa as some sort of red-neck cauldron of hatred against poor and love of rich – but it truly is.  The kids used to call it death valley when they were teenagers – they knew – it was for them of course, after neo-liberals drove all the manufacturing jobs overseas in the 80s and 90s, they also drove most of the young out of the region and to Australia.  I know a few people who ended up in Aussie and are so much happier – mostly with how they are treated by their bosses.

Been doing a lot on twitter at the moment, conversations from all over the world, lately the UK – people can’t believe how bad it is here – they have been brainwashed into believing New Zealand is this amazing beautiful place with pristine environment, lovely people and little crime – LOL.  NZ is great at marketing of course – that’s it – after years of exploiting our environment and degrading the poorest and most vulnerable we have some of the most polluted waterways in the world, we have the highest rate of suicide and homelessness in the OECD, highest rates of family violence (due to people being terrified, stressed and forced to live in dangerous situations).

All my years of protesting in Wellington – our capital city – telling people in power (especially in our judiciary) just how bad things are for me and so many others.  I certainly don’t get the abuse from people in suits I used to get when I started 7 years ago – don’t have any health care or a safe home ot live in either – go figure.

Being charged for Misuse of a Telephone for screaming for my ACC care to be reinstated after winning two reviews, and for graffiti with a chalk pen and wilful trespass must be getting under the skin of the police by now.  Those in power in the police are so corrupt and so much part of this radicalised neo-liberal terrorism by rich of poor, I do wonder if they truly realise what they are doing.  I reakon this election is certainly hitting home to those in justice, just how they have failed New Zealands poor – who they no know are being persecuted by rich – the oldest hatred in developed world – the reason we have laws was to stop rich and powerful persecuting poor and powerless.

Still praying my health care will be restored as my physical health is deteriorating, especially with my huge increase in weight – makes me feel like shit – I try not to let it.  My mental health swings from hope to complete despair, I can see how people are driven to bi-polar, along with living in a world that says it cares for you but really it HATES you.

In New Zealand our government and leaders HATE disabled and poor people so much they deny them somewhere safe to live – where we were once heralded as the most progressive and egalitarian country in the world – now we are EXACTLY THE OPPOSITE.  The rich here have got so much richer and the hatred they continue to inflict on those THEY MADE UNEMPLOYED AND THEY DENY HEALTH CARE, WELFARE AND HUMAN RIGHTS entitlements to is so disturbing.

That’s why I get terrorised by police and many others like I do, that’s why I am denied health care I am entitled to and yet those denying it tell police and community I JUST DON’T WANT HELP.

After my protest at Min of Health couple of weeks ago I am in discussions with a senior medical officer, a nice man, A NORMAL PERSON with manners and who acts like a professional, so hopefully that will get me some care – he’s working on it.  I’m trying not to get my hopes up as when they are dashed – like they always have been in the past – the suicidal nightmare in my head is BAD, REALLY BAD – dont’ think I’ll survive it if this fails.

Am still thinking about documentary I saw by Naomi Klein called The Shock Doctorine, the truth of how completely vile the super rich and our governments truly are is comforting for me.  All these years me and so many other New Zealanders – including my dad (who is dead now) have known something was very very wrong with our government and how they were controlling our economy/lives – all of us placated and told it wasn’t true, that government weren’t doing that to us at all.  That government had to do this to us, had to sell off all our public owned assets, had to privatise everything, had to exploit our environment until it was polluted and our kids got sick swimming in the rivers.  We were all so naive and so brainwashed, especially by those we knew who were doing OK and those in our news media.  Watching TV 1 adverts for how great their news is, how honest and local it is, how it tells the truth and covers all the angles – when I’m sitting here knowing they censor everything I know say and do and what is happening to me for legally protesting.

Watching the deceit and marketing coming from our media about suicide is the hardest thing to watch – knowing they are pushing suicidal people into services that are going to degrade, abuse and persecute them even more.  On Wednesday last week, stupid me, yet again phoned media begging them to tell my story and everything that was happening in Wairarapa – why we were NO 1 in NZ for suicide.  Had this woman from Newshub (Radio Live, TV 3 etc) (sure I’ve spoken to the revolting bitch before) on the phone encouraging me to talk, to start with I said I wouldn’t because she would call the police.  She assured me several times she wouldn’t and she would tell my story, but of course she didn’t, she phoned police who then spent the next 3 hours terrorising and threatening me.  This is how corrupt New Zealand media are – especially when it comes to the suffering of abuse victims who can’t get care they entitled to and become suicidal.  These media people love it, love terrorising people, love driving people to suicide and creating more news for themselves – its truly sick, but that’s what radicalised neo-liberals do.

I ended up taking a new friend of mine with me to the police station because after two stupid phone calls from police I knew they would end up at my house and it wouldn’t go well.  Lucky she was with me, cause they revolting cow (who has hidden complaints in the past) on the desk got one of the policemen who assaulted me to come out.  I said I didn’t want to see or speak to him, he came out anyway, it didn’t go well, I challenged him on his threatening violence against me for legally protesting and lying about Hoera assaulting me – he just stood there.  Then I started swearing, so time to leave.  You have to go and see them if someone has phoned you about mental health because that is what the government do in order to terrorise you.  The government don’t like people who suicide, it makes them look bad and their horrendous neo-liberal ideologies they inflict on us are proven to be the persecution of poor they truly are.

All the phone numbers at the end of every news item about suicide or self-harm that I know goes absolutely nowhere – yes there is someone there telling you they’re listening but they don’t do anything.  If your situation is too much for them those poor young people with psychology degrees who can’t get jobs anywhere else just hang up on you.  Wonder how many people they hang up on every day, how many times they phone police to come round and terrorise the person.

It is terrifying when police first start being involved when your mental health gets to the extreme after years of medical neglect and ongoing trauma.  You can’t understand why you would be treated like a criminal for asking for help – especially for me, when I had read ACC law and many documents on health care I was supposed to get BUT IT WASN’T AVAILABLE.

I WISH …………………………………………..  I think everybody who reads this blog will know what I wish for.

Kia kaha to us all