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2nd night in Wellington police cells in New Zealand

Been avoiding writing this, don’t want to recall what happened it hurts too much, but I know I have to, then I won’t have to look at it again if I don’t want to – better out than in.

My arrest and night in Wellington police cells was going fine until the last three hours, then it all turned to shit because I was transported in a very cold NEW van into cold court cell, further delays and an arsehole guard looking after me.  People with stress disorders (in stressful situations) must be treated the same as people in shock, first thing you do is keep them warm, being cold adds to trauma/stress.  That is what should be on my court transfer papers not that I make vague threats of self-harm – WTF.  The design of that NEW transport staff were gloating about is absolute crap and harmful to those inside the boxes.

Start from the beginning

As I didn’t turn up for court on Monday, as I had been turned down by the OT for health services and still didn’t have a lawyer I knew there would be a warrant out for my arrest.  Chickened out doing a protest in Masterton so I would get arrested, too scared of police here.  Went over to Wellington chalking and then started on my mission.

Headed for Supreme Court to do some chalking about justice and how I completely blamed the judiciary for discrimination against mentally ill people and allowing government to criminalise and persecute them, deny them professional health care.  Then headed up to Treasury building and left a message for Treasury wankers – photos on my facebook page.  Held them to account for the appalling mental health stats as well – did a few swastikas and called them murderers as well – I know they hate it.  Then headed for Human Rights Commission, from which I am trespassed.

Nutted off at this old guy in reception and a group of people having a meeting about some bullshit.  I was in total fire breathing dragon mode, told them exactly what I thought of them and their responsibility for mental health crisis, suicide, NZ being No 1 for child suicide, self-harm in women and family violence.  Left before police arrived heading for my next target – didn’t make it 🙂

Have photos on my facebook page /jrmurphypoetmusician did a couple of videos of the chalking a few photos at the Human Rights Commission.  Its like lala land up there, those people are completely out of touch with reality and refusing to accept the seriousness of what has gone on in mental health due to an economic theory taking over from constitutional, health and justice rights.

Was arrested on Lambton Quay with my large naked torso painting a couple of cardboard signs and my big over shoulder satchel with chalk pens paper etc in it.  Was funny knowing they were coming, saw them to my left, I was heading towards Willis Street across from Midland Park.  They put on their lights, quickly did a u turn and jumped out of their car to aprehend me lol.  Told them to calm down I knew I was going to be arrested, that’s why I had come to Wellington – strange to them of course.  I was picked up on warrant for breach of bail for not attending court.  Not for nutting off at the dick head at the HRC and breaching a trespass order.  WAs prepared for it to happen though.

Tried to talk them out of handcuffs but couldn’t, managed to get them put on in front of me which is so much less oppressive/scary/vulnerable than behind your back.  She also did it really loosely on my right wrist cause told her I get arthritis in it.

Male officer told me handcuffs were for theirs and my safety – lol – brainwashed.  Not in my situation they’re not – its one thing I hope the UN can look at having a restriction on police using handcuffs, particularly in a public place.  They were OK, just following the book and treating me like any criminal who had a warrant out for their arrest.

Got back to the station and got processed, almost everybody was nice, were surprised to see me back.  The woman I had a run in with last time came and talked to me a few times, said she was pretty stressed with work etc last time I was there and sort of apologised, we made peace – that’s the main thing.

Didn’t sleep all night but was able to read a book, which I couldn’t last time because my stress levels were too high.  I can’t hold the story in my head when very stressed, even this time there were a few times I had to re-read paragraphs because I hadn’t absorbed what I just read.  Its a horrible part of Complex PTSD and a lot of people don’t understand it, can make you feel really stupid and like you going mad.  I worked out over years, it comes and goes depending on my stress levels.

I was OK with going through the police process I had gone over it in my head many times.  Had all the same guards as last time just in a different order, they were really cheerful and nice.  Told them I was in a much better state than last time and just wanted to get through the process and get things sorted out.  Last time I was self-harming and really distressed, this time I was really chilled out.

Had a guy come into the cells about 6pm who banged and yelled most of the night, then started up again in the morning – when I get stressed too, cause you don’t know what time is and all the guards disappear to organise transfers etc.  Handover is at around 7am.  So in the morning he sets off sprinkler in his cell and flooded something else by the sounds of it, lol, all the male prisoners were put in the female section – was weird seeing the guys – cause you never do.  They have it set up so people can’t see each other – I’m all good with that, few of them looked dodgy as.  They handcuffed him and put him in the Female Day cell that I can see from my special window/mental health cell.  Gave him the thumbs up for what he’d done, I was bored too.

As 11pm shift came on I asked if I could go in the bigger cell to prepare myself for going in the van in the morning, like I had spoken to Stuart about – when I made a comment about my first visit and how they could improve it.  He was a pommy guy with a bald head, manipulative power tripper.  So a group of them are outside my cell and he makes a comment about me being a Human Rights activist in a mocking tone then tells me he will think about the change of cell and tell me in the morning – he didn’t.  I worried about it all night, because had a bad feeling I would have a meltdown in the morning – which I did and are really horrible.  He purposely denied my request and kept me guessing to exert his authority and disempower me – and it would have had even more impact if I didn’t understand psychology of abusive power relationships.  so I’ll be making a complaint to police about it.  That is the sort of person who SHOULD NEVER BE in a position of power over others.

Got to have a shower at around 4.30am and had an early breakfast, 3 weetbix milk sugar & a milo.  Should have asked for something to take with me, didn’t realise how long it would be until I had food again – and I have diabetes issues if I don’t eat reguarly – especially having been up all night, when your body needs extra food.  I learnt that years ago, if you want to stay up all night at a party you have to keep eating throughout the night, its your body running out of fuel that makes you tired.

Reluctant to get in the van in the morning, they just turn up to take you, it freaks you out, I need to know what is going to happen to mentally prepare – fuck them!!!!

Van to Lower Hutt was really cold, 2 metal boxes in back of a van, 4 men sitting close together in one side and 2 women in the other.  First time I’ve had someone to talk to during transport, she was a regular visitor, knew the system well, but we avoided why we there.

We change to the NEW truck for trip over Rimutakas, it has about 10 metal boxes with individual windows – the staff were gloating that it belonged to Wairarapa and Hutt were jealous they didn’t have anything that flash.  Obviously they  have never spent any time in the back – I have got to get something done about the design or they going to have lots more people flipping out like me.

I refused to get in this van, he had to take my arm, but I did’nt resist past that, these metal boxes are only as big as your body and solid except for small windows.  Killer on your back, when you get jolted over bumps, there no padding its just a stainless steel bench about 1m square – FREEZING COLD AGAIN.  Not only cold thick metal there was a blast of cool air blowing down from directly above that you couldn’t get away from, it either went on top of your head or if you sat hard up against back it went onto your body and legs, which felt even colder.

Someone yelled out to guards to turn the fans off at about Upper Hutt, guards told him they were for ventilation, I chimed in that I wanted them off too, I was fkn freezing.

I got colder and colder – sooooo bad for my stress disorder – people under extreme stress are supposed to be kept warm.  Got angrier and angrier too.  When I got to Masterton refused to move – couldn’t move – I don’t know, but didn’t get out of van for about 5mins – they didn’t know what to do.  When I finally did because I thought they were going to get more physical two women were standing at end of truck.  I angrily asked WHAT ARE YOU – they were detectives, one of them said how she had heard about me in a nice enough voice –  I have got lots of supporters in the police – my response as I went past was a vicious GET FUCKED.  Was angry at the police for putting me through this shit, through all of this shit letting ACC manipulate them and refusing to investigate my complaints about them.

Was put in women’s holding cell at Masterton Court – it was fkn freezing as well, blasting cool air and a vent that went directly outside I could see through.  We had arrived about 10.30am from what I can gather, I wasn’t feeling very well coming over but was so fkn angry ignored it.  Got there was so cold put x2 on my ReFuSe tag I left two weeks ago.  They wouldn’t give me my shoes, eventually they gave me a museli bar at around 12pm – I had breakfast at 5am – they were told I had diabetes issues, it should be on my transfer notes I have to be offered food at regular intervals, they know the time I don’t – WTF.  Grrrr  That’s what those notes are fucking for – not a pile of disgusting offensive bigotry.

I sang Why Am I Arrested, Human Sewage and I wish I was dead with all loud drumming required on the walls – which went through the whole building I now know tehehehehe.  Some young people in other cells made comment about me ‘that protester’, also came to look at me through the window when one of them was wandering around.  Said something about me being Crazy – not me the crazy one dumarse – sometimes young people grrrrrrrr.

After singing revolting old white guy guard came to tell me I was embarrassing myself – trying to degrade me – oppressive and wanting to make me feel even more marginalised.  Again, lucky I know these sorts of tactics and can shake off most of their shit – but always a bit that sticks and makes you feel like shit.  Those are the comments that go on a loop in your head when you sink down into the well/darkness and consider all the good reasons you should kill youself.  I’m sure I’ll have to deal with that in the next few weeks – I’m sure there will be fallout from Thursday’s meltdown.

Then the arsehole said I was up next, ie first after lunch,  They called out 4 names before I STARTED LOOPING OUT – I was so distressed and so cold started losing it, started ticking by banging my whole body back against the door making a really loud noise, felt sooo good, calms me, its like a heartbeat and because its so violent on your whole body you can’t think of the anything else and it calms down the ‘panic attack’ you about to have – that happened later when outside.  Telling someone something is going to happen and then it not happening is another psychological torture method and what the guard in Wellington did.  An abuse and perversion of power – it is very common but should not be tolerated in people working in police etc. (Have found out since guards were pissed off with delays too, it was court staff who delayed my appearance – same court staff I gave shit to recently for not providing CCTV footage.)

Guard came along trying to get me to stop, turned the fan on full blast so I was even colder, turned the light on and off several times.  I was freaking out because of what had been happening and him lying to me, then he didn’t know what to do when I started freaking out more than he expected and the judge knows about it, cause the whole building can hear me.  If I’m causing that much fuss, then he has failed his job and EVERYBODY knows it.

I knew bus back to Carterton was at 1pm and it was 12, I got out at 1pm, with no time to walk to the bus stop 10 mins away.

My old public defence lawyer Susie turned up, which was a welcome sight as I was in full freak out mode pacing around the cell.  She spoke to the judge when i was up, told judge not-guilty and case now set down for 25 June.  They kept saying the police don’t oppose bail – because this is the third time I havn’t turned up for court and violated my bail conditions.  Of course police don’t oppose bail – that might be a bit much considering they put me here – they wouldn’t want to be reminded of what they have done grrrrrrr.  Police prosecutor in court looked ashamed, wouldn’t look at me.

After Susie spoke I made sure I had my say, without following any rules – except trying not to swear, it was pretty obvious I was really pissed off and really freaked out.  Not many people get to address the judge like I do but there was NO WAY I was leaving that courtroom without her knowing about Geneva Healthcare refusing me OT services and still not having a lawyer – which Susie told her anyway.  It was Judge Morris, I Know her and she knows my situation quite well, was still all I could do not to swear at her for allowing this to go on for years.  Like I said, I have never hurt anyone, they hurt me.

I reakon they left me until last so there weren’t many people in the gallery, they don’t like the public seeing me go through the system because I have no respect for the judge or the process and give them shit – using their own laws.  Quoted Magna Carta several times and reminded her I said two weeks ago when I saw here I wasn’t voluntarily participating in teh justice process until I had health care I need and lawyer I need.

They know at court making me wait stresses me out – they’ve accommodated this aspect of my disability before – why not now, when I’m in an even more stressful situation do they now ignore it?  They could have changed the order, they knew I was going to arrive the night before. grrrr, will be bringing this all up in my complaints to police AGAIN – that they will never listen to but I have to do because nobody else does grrrrrrrrr.

Told court staff to go get my painting and bag etc because I would not be going to the police station to pick them up like last time – I don’t want to see those motherfuckers at the moment – especially that dark headed bitch on reception.

Waited in the bail room, at least slightly warmer, but I was chilled to the bone.  NEK MINIT started crying uncontrollably, that heartbroken cry where you can’t even close your mouth and you dribble onto the ground in front of you as you sit there rocking, wailing, in such emotional pain.  Your heart smashed to pieces by what you are being put through for asking for health care and justice you entitled to, for throwing paint on a white ribbon banner after being assaulted and threatened by police  – plus knowing just how cruel and corrupt your government and so many others are.

Was let out, almost ran out of the court, got outside took two steps, stood there shaking, thinking – I had missed the bus, I was now extremely upset and would have to go to the park, find something sharp and spend the next few hours self-harming until next bus to Carterton.  Didn’t have anyone I could call to pick me up.

I became completely overwhelmed, my arms gave way & I dropped my paintings signs & bag just as my legs gave way from under me and I ended up on the footpath curled up in a ball on my side.  I managed to sit up and started rocking and wailing/crying loudly – in a way that would make my broken heart feel some sort of relief from what had just happened to me.  I wasn’t there long and a woman came along and one of the guards from court came out.  They were both very nice, the woman was from Te Hauora, I been screwed over by them several times, so I was scared of her, but when she offered me a ride home I had to ignore that and say yes – I had to get home – my homing beacon was on full strength and causes me huge stress if I don’t listen to it.  I wanted to be where nobody could see me melting down, it is so humiliating when it happens – it has only been this bad four other times in 15 years.

I couldn’t keep my mouth shut with the woman, I tried, I didn’t want to tell her anything, but all my biggest fears and worries were just tumbling out of my mouth, just like the anger does when I go ‘tourettes’.  I kept saying sorry, it was OK, it didn’t matter, I just wanted to go home etc.  She asked all the usual questions about a doctor etc, told her I don’t have a doctor and why – that I havnt’ seen one for over 2 years (1 for WINZ form last year doesn’t count).  Think she was pretty horrified at how unwell and unsupported I was, told her a little about not trusting Te Hauora.  I didn’t’ have any bread or milk at home, was crying about how poor I was and how tired I was of being poor and there of course was not point in living in this shit hole country. etc etc.  She gave me $20 I refused – I HATE CHARITY – she demanded I take it, I HATE PEOPLE WHO DEMAND I TAKE CHARITY, and from an organisation that has ensured I was taken advantage of and traumatised by a flatmate under their care, denied me care themselves and let me down when I was really unwell.  A friend in the community who worked for Te Hauora for a short time told me what they thought of me, that lots of people had tried to help me, I just didn’t want help.  FUCKING SCUMBAG FUCKING LYING PIECES OF FUCKING GARBAGE.  Same people I have made complaints about that were covered up and not dealt with you mean.  They a big part of the bigoted rumour mill round here.

I’m sure the only reason I had that horrendous meltdown is the cold, it was like being tortured.  It has left me feeling tearful and very very fragile, I don’t want to go out anywhere –  I can’t anyway I”m so broke.  I’m hoping I don’t get a backlash in a few days, sometimes that can happen and I get highly suicidal and all the oppressive degrading things staff did/said will come back to haunt me.

At least Susie and even Judge Morris acknowleged that I had been punished and suffered in custody – which is why of course I wasn’t prosecuted for breaching bail ($2,000 fine & 1 yr in prison is what they threaten on bail form for violations).  Given I had sent them an email Thursday last week saying I was both mentally incapable due to my disorder and refused to attend, asking them not to make me into a criminal – they did anyway.

One thing pissed me off about Te Hauora lady, she spent at least 5mins telling me to take medication for my anxiety – WTF.  Terrorised women are being put on medications to deal with teh inhuman and unsafe living situations they are being forced to endure by the government.  Its sick, deeply deeply disturbing, immoral, unethical, unprofessional and ILLEGAL.  I also explained I was a rescuer and helped lost souls pass over to the light, I was told by spirit not to take medication or it would affect my ability to protect myself spiritually.  She didn’t say anything after that – Maori understand spirituality a lot better than Pakeha thank God.  They have a lot more respect for spiritual people as well – most Pakeha ridicule us – sad considering our entire legal system is based on christian principles of fairness justice and us being all the same before God irrelevant of our wealth and status on earth.

I’m having a chill out day today, my daughter is taking me out for brunch for mother’s day which will be nice.  Will try and stay in the present and not feel bad about the fact I can’t afford to take myself out for brunch or anybody else.  I will barely be able to afford to buy my daughter a present, its her birthday soon – my life would have been so different if I had health care and help I needed to return to work after I was raped.  Fkn scumbag government, fkn terrorist murderers 🙁

My back is hurting, so trying to not do anything more to strain that after the trip over Rimutakas in truck, feels like a lower disc wants to move and I know what that means – not being able to sit down at all, only being able to walk around slowly or lay down and in agony for days.  Its happened before.  Obviously justice transport not designed for older people with aches pains & injuries.

People ask me why do I do this to myself, I can assure you it is actually helping me, it is very hard being really unwell at home on my own, its far more stressful than protesting and getting arrested.  I get food I don’t have to pay for, hot drinks, to talk to interesting different people who understand more about failings of mental health system than anybody else – police.

Some police are OK & actually respect what I am trying to do with my mental health advocacy work –  trying to get a better journey through teh system for people who have traumatic stress disorders.  I can assure everybody I DO NOT TRUST THE POLICE and nobody reading this should either – their are some real nasty pieces of work amongst them & most/all of the others will cover it up.  As nice as some are there are others who are fkn aresholes and they all sit back and allow shit to happen. Wouldn’t even be surprised if the cold transport was for my benefit – I would assume the new truck would have had heating.  Police trying all those psychological torture tactics perhaps – when constable French said you’ll see how bad police can be, is this what he meant?

 

Law Society Complaint – ACC lawyers Meredith Connell

JR>
Sent: Friday, 22 September 2017 12:46 p.m.
To: complaints@lawsociety.org.nz
Subject: Complaint about legal firm Meredith Connell & Sean Kinsler

Dear Sir/Madam,

I wish to make a formal complaint about the conduct of Sean Kinsler as agent of ACC in perverting the course of justice with regard to criminal charges I am currently facing regarding my protesting, which I am defending under NZ Bill of Rights.

Mr Kinsler firstly advised ACC to not release the real name of my case manager so she could be subpoenaed as a witness in my current court case – to prove she phoned me in 2015 and told me my care would be reinstated as it had been in 2009 and then didn’t do this.  I don’t care about the woman’s name, I have never hurt anybody, although I do wish harm to people who are terrorising and persecuting me by refusing care when I am very unwell and suffer suicidal ideology.  The also refused the police request for the true identity of the ACC case manager.

In order to argue the case for Misuse of a Telephone (for phoning ACC screaming at them to have my care reinstated when I was very unwell) my lawyer had to have a witness.  When ACC refused to provide the case manager she asked for Scott Pickering – CEO of ACC to be a witness.  With that Police and my lawyer were phoned by Sean Kinsler and threatened that if they tried to do that he would file for a judicial review immediately and my case would be delayed for a very long time.

I have already been waiting over 14 months and my case has been delayed multiple times due to our appallingly busy court system.  I have a life-threatening stress disorder, these delays and the court proceedings cause me extreme distress and significantly aggravate my disorder.  My bulimia is worse, I have started smoking again – which I find very distressing, I am not throwing up enough and eating way to much to cope so I have put on a lot of weight and believe I have developed diabetes (but I don’t have a doctor currently, so I just feel sick most days and my eyes deteriorate- I am working on trying to get a doctor).  Random ticks have returned and so have violent images of knives slicing up my forearms and bleeding out (I just love having to deal with them 10-12 times a day).  Then of course there is the suicidal nightmare of hell.  All the time with NO MENTAL HEALTH SERVICES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Unable to tell my family or friends how bad things are some times and just trying to keep up appearances and stay alive through it.

Mr Kinsler knows my case, he knows how unwell I am, he knows what ACC have done to me, he has seen the disclosure documents, he is not allowed to be an agent for an extremely rich and powerful government corporation to terrorise a poor disabled person.  The very essence of our law is based on protecting poor and powerless from rich and powerful persecution – and Meredith Connell are participating in it and encouraging it.  That is not the behaviour of an ethical or professional lawyer or legal firm at any time in a democracy or in the Commonwealth.

As a result of this appalling criminal perversion of justice by Mr Kinsler my lawyer was changed the approach to my case significantly and the Misuse of Telephone Charge was dropped – because ACC had been wanting to for months and I had refused, as it was the catalyst for the protests/graffiti and wilful trespass charges I was now facing.  Now the judge won’t get to hear evidence I still believe is essential to my case, although my lawyer Susie Barnes believes we have enough evidence with other charges.

I was enraged by the Misuse of Telephone Charges that started all this when police have refused to act on my multiple complaints of harm by ACC under Sections 150A 151 155 157 of the Crimes Act.  Which if proven could result in criminal charges for ACC staff.  My current lawyer believes she has uncovered appalling behaviour and actions by senior ACC staff in my case – when they knew how unwell I was.

I am also extremely annoyed my case has been delayed so many times and the complete mess the first part hearing of my case was on 29 August – that has  to come back on 31 October 2017 and even then I am told it is going to be extremely rushed.  Although my lawyer is confident I will win on the basis of reasonableness/proportionality and even police prosecutor is appalled at what ACC have done.

My lawyer and police know these proceedings are traumatic for me, they know delays like those threatened by Sean Kinsler would cause me harm, they know how desperate I am to get these things over with.  I shouldn’t even be in court I’ve already won multiple cases of wilful trespass using NZ Bill of Rights.  I shouldn’t even be in court when the process is being used to terrorise me in a punitive way – when I am a recognised disabled Civil Society Actor in the area of mental health and neo-liberalism.

I truly believe the way I am being treated by ACC and Meredith Connell is also related to my political and ethical opinions and terrorising me using police and the justice system as a form of intimidation.  It is illegal to harm someone asserting their civil and political rights, why is this happening to me and has happened multiple times before?

Westminster Statute the First – Common right be done to all rich as poor.  Magna Carta – No-one shall be destroyed and everyone shall have access to right and justice.  YEAH RIGHT!  This is a gross violation of the law and my rights!  What these people have done is illegal!

PLEASE CONTACT ME URGENTLY about this situation so I know what is going on, please advise time frames this complaint will be dealt with and please assure me this complaint isn’t going to derail my current case.  In fact it would be my assertion this needs to be sorted out immediately so my lawyer can question my ACC case manager and Scott Pickering on 31 October and get some more time allocated if required.  Why should I be denied justice because of some mercenary lawyer prepared to do anything his high paying rich violent criminal client says.

Sincerely

JR

Civil Society Actor

NZ Govt drive people to SUICIDE on purpose

I want to say so much on this page, I want to scream and yell that 99% of the garbage you read about suicide is just that – garbage.  Neo-liberal garbage, when all over the world one of the first things neo-liberals do when they take over a country is shut down mental health services and make sure these disabled people are homeless.  This of course causes all sorts of harm in society, which in turn creates jobs in the security and justice industries.

If people were getting health care they are entitled to then why am I terrorised by police – under authority from #suicideprevention ‘EXPERTS’ advice??????  Why am I being denied mental health care I am entitled to – why have media censored and refused to publish what is happening to me all these years???????

Why am I in court for Misuse of a Telephone – which ACC demanded – for screaming for help when I was really unwell.  They then dropped the charges but six weeks later did a new set of charges?  Which I was really upset about, responded by using chalk pen on police station window and was consequently violently assaulted for it.

Why have I been fighting for 15 years since I was raped to get the health care I am entitled to under ACC and multiple other laws?  Why are so  many laws that protect vulnerable disabled powerless people against abuses of power being violated and the agencies supposed to protect us are NOT DOING IT.  Which is why I protest a lot at Human Rights Commission, etc.  Both who had police sent to my home yet again to terrorise me and serve me a trespass notice for putting up art in their offices.

The reason suicide prevention is so bad is its suggestions are mostly from family members – family members who obviously DON’T KNOW how to help someone who is suicidal – so why do they get all the say in suicide prevention.  AND I KNOW THERE ARE GOOD FAMILIES WHO REALLY CARE BUT FROM MY EXPERT ANALYSIS I WOULD SUGGEST 80% of families are shit – are the cause of the person being suicidal, are going through shit – are overworking and under-living due to necessity, or overworking and ignoring their family members due to greed and so many nice things to buy or overseas trips to go on.

Listening to Labour and National spouting rhetoric about  mental health triggers me badly after years of the same lies – lies – lies and more lies.

Now we’ve got some other tossers running a suicide-prevention charity – this is run by UNIONS and workers in mental health – the majority of whom are abusers & covering up abuse by colleagues and management.

I have done EVERYTHING legally possible to make formal complaints about abusive and unprofessional mental health care – I am ignored – all of it ignored.  The people ensuring this nightmare of hell for me and soooooo many others are from two camps.  Those who hate disabled poor people and think they are a waste of oxygen – lots of suicidal people get told that – especially by health workers (doctors are great at it).  The other camp are the do-gooders, they just don’t believe living environments, poverty, discrimination and health care is that bad in New Zealand that it drives people to suicide.  They still believe we should bring in refugees from other countries – when we have 10,000s terrorised refugees in this country – just because they don’t see the war in the darklands – means it doesn’t exist.  NZ media play a huge part in cover up just how bad mental health services and our country has become.

Still reading MAx Harris’ book The New Zealand Project – meet him recently & we talk on twitter.  He’s right with most of what he is saying, the thing he gets wrong is neo-liberalism was actually illegal. – its the basis of our most basic laws.  Like I keep saying, Westminister Statute the First and Magna Carta – they also violate multiple criminal laws – when you don’t carry out a contractual or legal contract and that results in harm to someone then you are a criminal.  That’s what ACC do, that’s why our government do, they know what they do because I write to lots of them.

I hate elections, its when all the really revolting haters in our media come out and get even more abusive towards poor people.  Whenever I watch international media talking about neo-liberalism in other countries I can’t believe it – what’s happening in NZ is happening everywhere these terrorist scum go.  And what makes me most upset is New Zealand has been the country LEADING the neo-liberal and globalist charge more than any other.  We are the most stupid, we are the most corrupt, we hate our disabled and poor the most, we have least compassion, we have the most corrupt/ignorant/naïve justice agencies, we drive children to suicide and then govt blame communities.  We have communities saying they care about suicide and yet terrorise people like me who are suicidal and speaking out before we die.

I know this doesn’t sound good, but I’m feeling really bad today and have yet been disappointed by Ministry of Health and legal system.  Apparently when they exposed that I wasn’t in fact getting services as police had been told, that I would have access to care – but that was weeks ago and nothing has happened – nothing will happen I am sure.

The thoughts of self harm are really bad, I was doing so well until a week before the court case, then everything got much worse.  I feel OK but my behaviour is bad, smoking continuously which I hate, the thoughts of self-harm are really vivid, knives slicing up my arm – I have to contend with randomly all day.  Little control over my eating, every minute of the day I try not to eat, my weight has skyrocketed.  I know I’ve got diabetes I feel sick all the time now – I can’t see a doctor – because I don’t have one.  The one I did have was abusive and believed what mental health and ACC had said – the same people who told police I didn’t want care and lots of people had tried to help me.
Bulimia is bad, my incontinence is bad (was supposed to have tests 3 years ago but no mental health worker to go with me – so no tests – just humiliation and degradation of pissing myself regularly.

I get some good health professional supporting everything I am saying and asking for, then I get local health workers doing exactly the opposite and getting police to terrorise me on top of that.  Turn up in the middle of the night for a welfare check – knowing you are unwell.  Violently arresting you 8.30pm Xmas Eve for phoning health line because I was sick with flu and distraught that I had to move again and was getting no services.  I was so traumatised by that arrest I have nightmares about it – the degrading behaviour of officers and mental health services – well – like I said there should be criminal charges laid.

then of course you could talk about years of police telling their wives and families I was a nutter and not to let their kids at my house.  I have two well adjusted daughters 22 & 23, EVERYBODY says what a credit they are to me, they both work – they didn’t turn out like that by accident – no matter what people say.  Because I had studied enough to know my disorder (Complex PTSD) and the damage it can do to future generations I protected them from my dysfunction and best I could.

So many people I meet agree with what I say about mental health, ACC & justice services – so many are abused women who then get their children taken off them because they ask for help.

I can’t go on, what’s the point, I’ve said what I have for years, nobody listens, the wrong people get the power and they do even worse to terrorise suicidal people.  Every one of those people responsible for the abusive suicide prevention terror refuses to meet with me, refuses to listen to anything I say about what ACTUALLY happens in the real world with their ignorant bigoted policies.

For years I have protested around Parliament, sung, recited poetry and begged for help – I was ignored – because apparently you are not allowed to get angry.  If you are being persecuted to get a voice you have to be passive and quiet – not allowed to be angry, not allowed to expose the most vile govt corruption and abuse.

NEW ZEALAND IS THE NEO-LIBERAL SHIT HOLE OF THE SOUTH PACIFIC.  Neo-liberals drove 10,000s of people overseas to find work, ripped families apart, for what?  So they could make rich people rich and make money out of the disabled and poor they terrorised for their religious beliefs – because neo-liberalism is now being called a religion – and if you think about the hatred that spews out of the mouths of the richest and those who hate poor – then you know its true.

Those haters of poor – like Bill English – who called everybody on long-term welfare, addicted to it are the cause of the suffering and suicide in NZ.

 

 

Read This Websites other Pages

On other pages on this website you will find multiple laws being violated against disabled people – mostly mentally injured abuse victims & tramatised as well as mentally ill.  It is this vulnerable group, who are never believed & the target of neo-liberal terrorist bigotry – with the object of course being to create an industry from their victims.

You will find the solutions and professional treatment people with stress disorders & trauma are entitled to under New Zealand law.  This includes a business plan for Mental Injury Services and a Fence At The Top Of The Cliff rehabilitation model – all based around ACC law and professional rehabilitation models.

You will find dozens of poems about the trauma me and many others have been through, that accurately describe how our leaders treat vulnerable people.

My blog posts are targeted at something in the media or happening currently, my website has all the information you need to educate yourself, like I have done over past decade.

Also check out my facebook page facebook.com/jrmurphypoetmusician or twitter @jrmurphypoetry and my youtube channel, here’s a link for one of my posts  https://youtu.be/WOeUxrOwJZ4

Youth Suicide caused by NZ govt / Gluckman & TVNZ etc

Peter Gluckman lied on TV and in his report and I don’t know what to do – how do you stop this government/neo-liberal corruption of our society, that is CAUSING NZs world leading rates of suicide and homelessness.

Think about it, Gluckman (who I know to be an idiot & one of the weakest most compliant public servants in New Zealand – according to people I know who have worked for him) says the main reasons our children are killing themselves is modern society, internet, that they are weak (he calls it not resilient), broken families etc.  New Zealand isn’t any different to other OECD countries in the way children have internet etc in their lives – mixed families and modern things – SO THERE IS NO WAY THE THINGS HE SUGGESTS ARE CAUSING OUR EXTREME YOUTH SUICIDE RATE.

It makes me so sad and so despondent when I hear garbage like this on our news media, because I know they are participating in this attack on terrorised New Zealanders, motivated by their radicalised beliefs in neo-liberal terrorism of poor by rich.  The New Zealand media are part of the neo-liberal brainwashing of our society – those of us who educate ourselves, stay informed and see what is going on around us (as we live in the darklands of this nightmare) aren’t taken in by manipulation and brainwashing.  We are instead angry and at the same time terrified because it gets more obvious every day just how biased and corrupt our media are as well as our government, academics and politicians.

I am 52 years old, I have spent the past 15 years trying to get the health care & welfare I am entitled to by law in order to heal from my injury and be able to return to work – instead I get more unwell and more dysfunctional.  You can’t build resilience to persecution when the people you are persecuting are surrounded by media gloating about what rich people have, media telling you how great things are WHEN THEY ARE NOT, etc etc.  If an intelligent 52 year old expert in politics, human rights and traumatic stress disorders can’t get the safe stable home, health care & justice they are entitled to under NZ law – then no child is going to get it.

What I believe is causing such extreme rates of youth suicide compared with the rest of the OECD is the extremist neo-liberal policies of National and Labour over the past 30 years.  The only thing that makes us different is we embraced neo-liberalism more than any other country, we took out country from one that cared for its disabled and poor people – ensured everybody had a decent job, regulated the rich and protected workers more than any other country in the world – TO A COUNTRY that deregulated everything, drove decent jobs overseas, created unemployment to keep wages down, encouraged debt to keep workers from striking, made welfare so degrading any normal human being would kill themselves, plus a media and government that constantly trashes its own citizens – especially youth.

I believe the young who suicide are in 3 categories, the abused, the neglected & the extremely pressured to perform.  Even though I say this, I don’t want to blame the parents and family members as I know they are just part of a radicalised neo-liberal society THAT HURTS PEOPLE AND HELPS MAKE MORE MONEY FOR BUSINESS.  Youth suicide is not complicated because children aren’t complicated, our government and health providers know why these kids are doing it – they’re just hiding the truth because they know it is neo-liberalism and the extreme stress that puts on society.  In New Zealand at the moment media refuse to even the words neo-liberalism.

Suicide is a social problem, New Zealand is recognised internationally for the massive increase in social problems since we dumped keysian economics (socialism) and our corrupt government infected us with neo-liberalism – DEAD END CAPITALISM.

Our children aren’t weak, they are a litmas test for the extreme dysfunction, hypocrisy, corruption and criminal negligence currently being perpetrated against the vast majority of New Zealand society – by the super rich and their very expensive brainwashing experts IN PUBLIC RELATIONS, MEDIA & MARKETING.

Our extremely high rates of homelessness causes extreme stress in families, even if a parent isn’t saying it or acting dysfunctionally because of it, kids know and they overhear things.

Many of these kids would have suffered abuse, lots of them sexual abuse they never say anything about.  Many would be in terrorised and stressed families not coping with poverty, unstable unreliable work, debt and being terrified by what is happening to their parents.  Many are in families where children are neglected because both parents (or one parent) are forced to work – for some this is essential to their being able to live – for some it is pure greed.  I have met many parents of children who are extremely selfish and materialistic, their idea of parenting is shoving their child in front of a screen to shut them up.  They don’t want to change their lifestyle because of their child so they farm them out as much as they can – how can a child have a relationship with a parent who they barely see.

I would be very interested to see when this rise in youth suicide started and how it progressed.  I’m sure Nigel Latta’s extremely offensive comment about all teenagers being insane would have seen a sharp jump in youth suicide.  Once we were told all teenagers were insane, and that was why they were lazy and going off the rails, then society could completely ignore what the young were saying.

Neo-liberalism brings with it extreme competition for jobs, extreme competition for education and IF YOU FAIL AT EDUCATION then you are a complete failure, will never have anything and will live the rest of your life in degrading poverty HATED by everybody around you.  That isn’t the reality of course, but the pressure put on people to be the best and get the best education is HUGE.

Please watch Chris Hedges On Contact and others on the internet talking about how corrupt and what a failure neo-liberalism is.  He talks about America but you realise very quickly he is describing New Zealand – following along a few years later – when we know it hurts communities, we still do it.  That actually makes our leaders murderers, terrorists and traitors and they should be subject to police investigation and prosecution for crimes they have knowingly committed.  That is legally what should happen, but it won’t, because the rich running this nightmare are very powerful and very clever (the people they employ to manipulate us are very clever) and they own the media.

Our children are killing themselves because our government and society is now extremely cruel to the less fortunate.  I was talking with someone today who said the poorest New Zealanders are attacking each other due to poverty and dysfunction – there is no community.  Saw another example in a post recently where a woman had shifted to the middle east and said she preferred it there than New Zealand – because people cared about each other there.

We don’t care about each other – we say we do, but we don’t really – it seems that the more a public person or organisation says they care about community, justice etc – the more harm they actually cause.  Charity organisations are some of the worst, they not only want money out of you, also your time and your soul – their payment is participation in their belief system.

There are so many lies on TV and radio at the moment, so so so many lies, many of us know how bad it is and do everything we can to expose it.  I am vicious against news media when I see them do something particularly bad that I know will kill and terrorise 100,000s of people.

At the moment the continuous HATE SPEECH from media, the rich and neo-liberals in Labour about Metiria Turei and her benefit fraud admission is really hurting me.  I’ve already been abused when I was out about being unemployed – when I said I had a disability and was on invalids benefit the person just insulted me more – didn’t believe me.  What am I supposed to do show him the medical reports by some of New Zealands leading psychiatrists?  I’m sure even then he wouldn’t believe them, because he votes National and no National party minister I have begged for help to get my ACC care back believes these reports either.

Please share my posts all over the world, tell others New Zealand is not the great place they try and portray, that we are now a country of HATERS of our own disabled and poor.  Mostly they love foreigners here, because better and easier to be friends with a rich immigrant than a poor disabled local.  Neo-liberal terrorism is tearing us apart, violating and destroying our culture.

Kia kaha and Aroha to us all.  To the suicidal and educated who know what I know – hold your ground, karma is coming for those people who hurt so many.

JR

 

Aaron D Huston – farmer – radicalised neo-liberal fascist abuser

This guy has been hassling me for years, I won’t put up the disgusting shit he says but time for me to out this National party fascist pig – a farmer, go figure.  Here’s the email I sent him.

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Got yet another vitriolic pile of abuse from you off my website – it doesn’t hurt me any longer – because I know you’re a deranged radical fascist who gets some sort of disgusting pleasure out of insulting disabled poor abused women.

I do keep all your bigotry and hatred though, plus I have police record of them phoning you, one day I will get you in front of a judge for what you have done – over years.  Do you sit at home trolling through social media of disabled women or don’t you like sexually abused women?  Are you are rapist that drove your victim to suicide and you’re feeling a bit guilty about it – so attack me.

Do you tell your friends and family what you do, is it some sort of sick middle of the night thing, when your psychopathy overwhelms you – wait, I think they call it sociopathy for your particular disorder.  You need to do some research, latest thing coming through the internet is medical experts describing neo-liberalism as a religion and those who believe in it part of a cult – you certainly prove that with what you do to me.  You’re obsessed radicalised and deranged, just like all those terrorists we see on TV – what is it about terrorists that they love persecuting and oppressing women – you hate women don’t you Aaron, or is it just disabled people?

Do you attack me when more news items come out about appalling mental health services, or NZ having highest rate of homelessness in OECD because of our extremist neo-liberal government advancing rich like yourself and persecuting poor.  I’ve met people like you Aaron, everything that comes out their mouths are the same phrases National and Act use in their marketing.  I feel so sorry for you and your family, the hate and blame directed at disabled poor while you refuse to admit it is your leaders who have created your nightmare.

You must be really unwell to be so obsessed with me the way you are, I feel so sorry for you, so much hatred, so wrongly placed – you need to look at the leaders of your cult, they’re the ones lying to you Aaron, they’re the ones ruining your life and causing so much harm in New Zealand.

Sincerely

JR

New Zealand No 1 for homelessness in OECD

Its weird in New Zealand how it takes international organisations to highlight some of the worst social problems – while our government, media and National party voting leaders throughout our communities DENY what is going on with everything they have.

Actually its quite deranged – its why I get the abuse, insults and being discredited that I do from those in authority here.  Why no local mayor will respond to my requests for a meeting about mental health, poverty homelessness etc – yet they are often on the front page of local newspapers welcoming new people here.  In complete denial these new rich people are driving out disabled poor locals.

I never thought of Wairarapa as some sort of red-neck cauldron of hatred against poor and love of rich – but it truly is.  The kids used to call it death valley when they were teenagers – they knew – it was for them of course, after neo-liberals drove all the manufacturing jobs overseas in the 80s and 90s, they also drove most of the young out of the region and to Australia.  I know a few people who ended up in Aussie and are so much happier – mostly with how they are treated by their bosses.

Been doing a lot on twitter at the moment, conversations from all over the world, lately the UK – people can’t believe how bad it is here – they have been brainwashed into believing New Zealand is this amazing beautiful place with pristine environment, lovely people and little crime – LOL.  NZ is great at marketing of course – that’s it – after years of exploiting our environment and degrading the poorest and most vulnerable we have some of the most polluted waterways in the world, we have the highest rate of suicide and homelessness in the OECD, highest rates of family violence (due to people being terrified, stressed and forced to live in dangerous situations).

All my years of protesting in Wellington – our capital city – telling people in power (especially in our judiciary) just how bad things are for me and so many others.  I certainly don’t get the abuse from people in suits I used to get when I started 7 years ago – don’t have any health care or a safe home ot live in either – go figure.

Being charged for Misuse of a Telephone for screaming for my ACC care to be reinstated after winning two reviews, and for graffiti with a chalk pen and wilful trespass must be getting under the skin of the police by now.  Those in power in the police are so corrupt and so much part of this radicalised neo-liberal terrorism by rich of poor, I do wonder if they truly realise what they are doing.  I reakon this election is certainly hitting home to those in justice, just how they have failed New Zealands poor – who they no know are being persecuted by rich – the oldest hatred in developed world – the reason we have laws was to stop rich and powerful persecuting poor and powerless.

Still praying my health care will be restored as my physical health is deteriorating, especially with my huge increase in weight – makes me feel like shit – I try not to let it.  My mental health swings from hope to complete despair, I can see how people are driven to bi-polar, along with living in a world that says it cares for you but really it HATES you.

In New Zealand our government and leaders HATE disabled and poor people so much they deny them somewhere safe to live – where we were once heralded as the most progressive and egalitarian country in the world – now we are EXACTLY THE OPPOSITE.  The rich here have got so much richer and the hatred they continue to inflict on those THEY MADE UNEMPLOYED AND THEY DENY HEALTH CARE, WELFARE AND HUMAN RIGHTS entitlements to is so disturbing.

That’s why I get terrorised by police and many others like I do, that’s why I am denied health care I am entitled to and yet those denying it tell police and community I JUST DON’T WANT HELP.

After my protest at Min of Health couple of weeks ago I am in discussions with a senior medical officer, a nice man, A NORMAL PERSON with manners and who acts like a professional, so hopefully that will get me some care – he’s working on it.  I’m trying not to get my hopes up as when they are dashed – like they always have been in the past – the suicidal nightmare in my head is BAD, REALLY BAD – dont’ think I’ll survive it if this fails.

Am still thinking about documentary I saw by Naomi Klein called The Shock Doctorine, the truth of how completely vile the super rich and our governments truly are is comforting for me.  All these years me and so many other New Zealanders – including my dad (who is dead now) have known something was very very wrong with our government and how they were controlling our economy/lives – all of us placated and told it wasn’t true, that government weren’t doing that to us at all.  That government had to do this to us, had to sell off all our public owned assets, had to privatise everything, had to exploit our environment until it was polluted and our kids got sick swimming in the rivers.  We were all so naive and so brainwashed, especially by those we knew who were doing OK and those in our news media.  Watching TV 1 adverts for how great their news is, how honest and local it is, how it tells the truth and covers all the angles – when I’m sitting here knowing they censor everything I know say and do and what is happening to me for legally protesting.

Watching the deceit and marketing coming from our media about suicide is the hardest thing to watch – knowing they are pushing suicidal people into services that are going to degrade, abuse and persecute them even more.  On Wednesday last week, stupid me, yet again phoned media begging them to tell my story and everything that was happening in Wairarapa – why we were NO 1 in NZ for suicide.  Had this woman from Newshub (Radio Live, TV 3 etc) (sure I’ve spoken to the revolting bitch before) on the phone encouraging me to talk, to start with I said I wouldn’t because she would call the police.  She assured me several times she wouldn’t and she would tell my story, but of course she didn’t, she phoned police who then spent the next 3 hours terrorising and threatening me.  This is how corrupt New Zealand media are – especially when it comes to the suffering of abuse victims who can’t get care they entitled to and become suicidal.  These media people love it, love terrorising people, love driving people to suicide and creating more news for themselves – its truly sick, but that’s what radicalised neo-liberals do.

I ended up taking a new friend of mine with me to the police station because after two stupid phone calls from police I knew they would end up at my house and it wouldn’t go well.  Lucky she was with me, cause they revolting cow (who has hidden complaints in the past) on the desk got one of the policemen who assaulted me to come out.  I said I didn’t want to see or speak to him, he came out anyway, it didn’t go well, I challenged him on his threatening violence against me for legally protesting and lying about Hoera assaulting me – he just stood there.  Then I started swearing, so time to leave.  You have to go and see them if someone has phoned you about mental health because that is what the government do in order to terrorise you.  The government don’t like people who suicide, it makes them look bad and their horrendous neo-liberal ideologies they inflict on us are proven to be the persecution of poor they truly are.

All the phone numbers at the end of every news item about suicide or self-harm that I know goes absolutely nowhere – yes there is someone there telling you they’re listening but they don’t do anything.  If your situation is too much for them those poor young people with psychology degrees who can’t get jobs anywhere else just hang up on you.  Wonder how many people they hang up on every day, how many times they phone police to come round and terrorise the person.

It is terrifying when police first start being involved when your mental health gets to the extreme after years of medical neglect and ongoing trauma.  You can’t understand why you would be treated like a criminal for asking for help – especially for me, when I had read ACC law and many documents on health care I was supposed to get BUT IT WASN’T AVAILABLE.

I WISH …………………………………………..  I think everybody who reads this blog will know what I wish for.

Kia kaha to us all

How do I challenge NEO-LIBERAL AGENDA & IGNORANCE of New Zealand media?

More and more I see print, radio and television media people talking ignorant BULLSHIT about poor people, housing crisis, causes of suicide, ‘criminals’ and addicts.  Currently I’m TRYING, through bouts of self-harm, to make a request of the courts to stop police coming to my home under DUTY OF CARE suicidal BS (cause I have NEVER EVER SAID I WAS GOING TO KILL MYSELF – EVER) or legally protesting.

I am also writing a desperate plea for help to a senior court Justice – I won’t say who because I believe my letter would be intercepted if I did – that is how corrupt our justice system truly is.

I follow media and see blatantly how they LIE and censor what is really happening in New Zealand – especially to those who are disabled for any reason, due to injury, illness or mental health (which is mostly related to abuse and ongoing terror of poverty and fear of homelessness).

Of course much of what I see is ignorance – people who have never set foot in the darklands of this neo-liberal nightmare country.  Peter Thiel was right when he said NZ is a Libertarian utopia – given John Key is the Chair of the global Libertarian (also sometimes referred to as neo-liberal) movement who call themselves the “International Democrat Union” based in Geneva and funded by the super rich and banks who are doing very well out of it.

I have to do something about the media, so going to try and start posting replies to these people on my website and sending them a copy.  I used to send emails to media regularly about what was happening to me and others but never received a response.  Wairarapa media told me directly that what I was doing in regards to protesting about mental health services, how the DHB had me arrested and trespassed for a legal protest and I won in court – had to represent myself.

Media are of course controlled by the elites currently in power, the council people, community leaders, government agencies and organisations like Trust House.  The media will never say anything that might upset their advertisers and boy do they love to advertise mental health services (that are only available to a select few) in the media.  Even though Wairarapa is now number 1 in New Zealand for suicide the media and DHB continue to refuse people the professional health care they are entitled to under law and pump out marketing that does not work.

Suicide Prevention marketing expert at Wairarapa DHB is spending money on a 1 hour TV programme on Wairarapa TV that shows American group therapy sessions.  No group therapy is available in New Zealand if you’re suicidal due to abuse, ongoing persecution and discrimination by the state and community.  These people in power know that, they put on these adverts so people think suicidal people are being helped, when they are not.

If you dont’ apply professional treatment and rehabilitation models then you are experimenting on people – FACT.  It is illegal to experiment on people – FACT.

All over the internet there is information about the rise of neo-liberalism in the world, its the same in New Zealand, with our own slightly different application of course.  In NZ the shock and fear required to destablise and throw the majority of people into fear was the closing of mental health facilities and refusal of government to provide professional care as required in the community.

The media did a great job insuring this fear, while never challenging the government about the legalities of what they were doing.

You only have to look at my case and why I don’t have any services after winning two ACC reviews to have 12 hours care reinstated.  How my previous counsellor (I am not allowed to see her now) supported everything I was saying, so did Dr Alan Doris psychiatrist and other people in the community I was working with in 2009 when my care was illegally removed (after National got in).

You only have to look at my case and the way I am treated by police, doctors, justice system to know how corrupt our government truly are and how New Zealand is not a democracy, because democracies are based on Word of Law – that is applicable to rich as well as poor.  Where no person is to be destroyed and every person is to have access to right and justice – YEAH RIGHT THEY DO.

I phoned Fairway Resolutions yesterday – I’d heard the government had privatised them and wondered if they knew the Bill of Rights still applied to them as agents of the government.  I asked if Fairway decisions were legal and apparently they are, I asked why I won two reviews and still had no services after waiting 7 years.  So ACC are legally obliged to reinstate my care according to the two reviews and yet they havn’t and there is absolutely nothing I can do about it.

Was watching more of Chris Hedges and some of his awesome guests, one of them said activists had to change the narrative.  They had to say something different to the middle class neo-liberal drivel we were being dished up by our disgusting media.  Even those who say they’re the good guys (like John Campell) refuse to deal with what is happening in ACC, mental health and tell my story.

I’m pretty sure NZers would like to know if a disabled artist and dissident was being terrorised by our justice system etc.  But they will never know, I have begged media for years to tell my story – they refused – they have to keep up the pretence that NZ is a great place for EVERYBODY and our government aren’t corrupt.

 

Ministry of Health Wellington arrest for protesting about suicide

Guerrilla protest  mission MOH re suicide, got arrested

Guerrilla protest mission MOH re suicide, got arrested

Big day protesting in Wellington yesterday had been chickening out for weeks about doing it – but mental health was getting worse and worse I just had to let of steam about what Ministry of Health staff were doing.

Their refitted building now includes a fancy new café and security system to keep out us citizens.  Had a good audience for my rage, around 40 people around the foyer, it was lunchtime, about 12.45.  A small group of around 5 women tried to calm me down and did all the usual bullshit about having a cup of coffee.  I was  having none of that shit, I only got 10 mins before police arrive, so I’m as loud as I can be.  Wanted the police arrive to me singing and they did – Human Sewage.

I bollocked the fuck out of everybody there, called them murderers, told them they were killing my kids friends – driving them to suicide.  Screaming at them, hysterical, but the volcano had to go off some time.  I’m just speaking for me and all those I know who are unnecessarily suffering in this neo-liberal shit hole.  I talked about all the people I know who have committed suicide.

The looks on their faces was one of either guilt or complete refusal to take any responsibility for suicide and abusive mental health services.

Refused to leave the building, refused to stop yelling at them about why I was there so was arrested for Disorderly Behaviour, appropriate considering I have a stress Disorder.  Was best out of there anyway, I wouldn’t have stopped and the swearing wouldn’t have either.  Police were nice – two of them I already knew – I have am definitely infamous in Wellington for protesting.

Didn’t’ have to spend any time in the cells, was out of police custody within an hour.  Cried from when I was put in the police car, snot everywhere, was revolting.  Officer told me it is now a requirement to have handcuffs – just like America (were his words, he was an old cop, he knew it was shit for someone like me and completely unnecessary.

Got really upset several times, started ticking and rocking, backed up into the corner, when they asked questions about my doctor – when I don’t have one and the last one I had didn’t believe a thing I said.  Told them I had Complex PTSD, Sgt was bit of a jerk, telling me not to go back there or do anything else that had police called or I would spend night in the cells – WHICH I HATE – and is an illegal threat – given I hadn’t broken the law under Bill of Rights.

Gotta have a laugh with them though, threw all the laws I know at him, not me who’s the criminal – they should be charging the people at Min of Health and ACC that were denying me care I was entitled to.  Told him to charge them under Sections 150A 151 155 157 of the Crimes Act.  He ignored me of course.  They know I’m right that’s why they’re nice to me and let me go.

Left, had a cup of tea at Library Café next door and went off chalking and to meet up with a friend.  Chalked my poem MOH at Maui’s Garden and a good quote about poverty being a crime.

Was interesting watch police dealing with me, obviously there has been a bit of a discussion about how to legally.  Only got the Pre Charge Warning and let go – under Disorderly Behaviour, Sgt repeated several times it was not to be under Wilful Trespass (which I am up on charges of).  Was also issued two more trespass notices from Ombudsman and Human Rights Commission – WTF – they’re not allowed to use Trespass law to stop me protesting.  I was reading the judgement by J Williams.

Apparently I’m trespassed from about 15 different places LOL – all places who are supposed to legally help me and don’t, or who have made public comments about poor people etc.  So much for freedom of speech in New Zealand – if artists are being arrested you know things are bad.

Big shout out to Wellington Police – no comparison to the several violent arseholes that work in the Wairarapa.  I mentioned that to the officers who arrested me, a woman and man (the woman had arrested me before, I remember her).  They were nice and agreed not all officers are good people, I told them Q Hoera was a violent arsehole.

Told the Sgt wouldn’t be long and there would be 100 people like me occupying and protesting in government and justice buildings.  He didn’t look happy, I said he should be cause I was a non-violent activist who respected police that respected me and my rights to be angry about what was happening to so many.

Going to be making a legal complaint about the number of trespass notices when its a violation of my civil and political rights.  Non-violent protest, even if it is offensive (eg swearing) is a right I have under Civil Society Activism.  If I can’t get my justice issues in front of a judge, as required under Magna Carta, then I HAVE EVERY RIGHT to speak truth to power of those hurting me – AS OFTEN AS I CHOOSE TO – without threat of intimidation.

 

Bob Jones sends police to intimidate disabled artist

Protest at Jones building, beggar in plastic bag

Protest at Jones building, beggar in plastic bag

So for sending the following letter and putting up this piece of art outside Bob Jones office I get a police visit with wilful trespass notice to my home to humiliate me.  Same Bob Jones who recently signed a public letter of NZ leaders demanding the right to freedom of speech – which appears he only wants applied to himself for saying hideously immoral and ignorant things about poorest disabled NZers – not to poor disabled artists and Civil Society Actors who challenge him.

http://www.stuff.co.nz/national/politics/91132233/prominent-kiwis-pen-open-letter-saying-free-speech-is-under-threat-in-nz-universities

Considering police are not allowed at my home according to Inspector Donna Coward as she knows all the visits last year had completely terrorised me and due to my stress disorder I shook for 2 hours after they were here.  Was disturbed by the fact he had more power than Inspector Coward on this occasion.  Will take great pleasure in doing several more of these artworks with his face on and putting them around other places in Wellington.  Sent him a photo of the picture, just so he knows what it looks like.  Will be sending a link to this website about what Jones did to all the other NZers who signed the letter – just so they know what he did.

He knows I’m poor so threatens me with a $2000 fine – as I had no intention of going to his office and would rather put another of these artworks at a different, much more public location, he hasn’t achieved the level of intimidation and oppression he had hoped for.  He has however proven he is weak, arrogant and an oppressor of freedom of speech of the most vulnerable he chooses to publicly denigrate.

Below is letter I hand delivered after reading this shitty news article   http://www.nzherald.co.nz/nz/news/article.cfm?c_id=1&objectid=11783845

25 January 2017

 Mr R Jones
Lambton Quay
WELLINGTON

 Dear Mr Jones,

 I was extremely shocked about your recent comments regarding beggars being criminalised.  You don’t appear to understand the situation for these people and an intelligent man should not cherish ignorance when dealing with such an important issue in such a public way.

 Did you realise that all of these people are disabled and cannot get reliable work because of their impairments – or safe/stable homes to live in?  In a radicalised capitalist society people who cannot work at maximum capacity are not employed or have intermittent employment which mostly pays minimum wage.  Many of these people are intelligent, unlike what you believe, meet me and you will find out, because I am one of them. 

 Do you accept there are disabled people in New Zealand?  Do you believe these people are receiving professional treatment care rehabilitation and welfare so they can live with dignity and do valuable work – I can assure you they are not. 

 I know too much about this subject to put it in this letter, what I do ask is an opportunity to discuss what I know – especially in the area of mental health – where extensive professional rehabilitation/care is not happening due to government corruption.  I haven’t met a street person yet who doesn’t have a history of abuse and I am yet to meet someone on long term unemployment that doesn’t have a disability or is caring for someone with one.  Also never met a disabled person who doesn’t want a decent job they capable of doing either. 

 I think you would find more interesting and challenging conversation if you interacted with some people outside your usual circles. In one of my politics lectures at Victoria 2002 (you were a guest speaker) you bemoaned the fact, that parties you attended with politicians and media had become very boring- I could never be accused of being boring, uninformed & not having a broad perspective. 

 I am assuming you believe in word of law and if people are entitled to care under ACC, mental health & welfare laws then they should be receiving it, especially if this care got them back to work & off the streets.

 You can see more about the laws being violated, solutions that should be in place (please refer to my rehabilitation model Fence At The Top Of The Cliff) and my own situation on my website www.jrmurphypoet.com – or twitter @jrmurphypoetry – I am also on facebook and youtube.  My phone number is 027 3040!!!.  I work full time as a Civil Society Activist in the area of mental health because of my desperation to return to work.  I don’t watch movies or read books all day and I don’t do drugs or drink to cope with the boredom, discrimination and persecution.

 I look forward to your reply and intend to start art installations outside your building about this issue if I don’t hear from you.

 Sincerely
 JR
Civil Society Activist