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Email to John Key – I am an Activist NOT a Terrorist

Good day chalking in Wellington, John Key was out on a walk so I vented and bollocked the fk out of him – called him a fkn murderer stopping people getting mental health services, stopping people from having safe houses to live in, etc – was really hard for me as I was assaulted by his security officers last time.  Was threatened with arrest again by one of them but stood up to him, told me to leave the area, told him NO WAY, PUBLIC STREET AND I WASN’T MOVING AND I HAD EVERY RIGHT TO SWEAR AT HIM!   When I went into question time about an hour later, same officer escorted me and sat directly behind me – its quite amusing now cause I know I’m never going to do anything while in the house, CAUSE I’M AN ACTIVIST NOT A TERRORIST – never have been violent and never will.

Below is the email I sent to John Key in response to today, I like to reassure him, as I know he’s a frightened bully and a coward.


From:
Sent: Tuesday, 29 November 2016 8:58 p.m.
To: John Key
Subject: I am an activist not a terrorist

Hi John,

I swore at you again on the street today and got threatened with arrest by one of your security staff.  If you can’t handle the language of New Zealanders who are being persecuted by your violent, immoral, criminally negligent policies then you shouldn’t be in Parliament.  I’m a NON-VIOLENT activist, doesn’t stop me venting at you verbally and I never threaten harm, unlike your bullies threaten me – I just tell you what you are doing and that I don’t like it.

Reason I ‘lose it’ when I see you, is you have not been listening to me and 100,000s of other struggling New Zealanders – especially those of us who are disabled by abuse, trauma and neglect.  Not having a safe home to live in is abuse/trauma/neglect; not getting the health care I am legally entitled to from ACC etc so I can heal from the rape and return to work is abuse/trauma/neglect; not listening to what I know about the science behind violence, addiction, suicide and stress disorders is abuse/trauma/neglect; being told I am abusive when I politely tell my MP Alastair Schott how bad ‘the system’ is, is abuse/trauma/neglect; not listening to what I know people are entitled to under law & science is abuse/trauma/neglect; having me dragged through court repeatedly for legally protesting in a non-violent way is abuse/trauma/neglect – I could go on…………..

You were the one who stopped my ACC care illegally in 2009, you ordered ACC to dump 10,000s of claimants and you didn’t care how they did it either.  Of course I am angry with you A LOT of people are, but they don’t tell you and your supporters to their face, like I do.  I despise all people who vote National and if I get the opportunity I tell them that they are the ones who vote for the ongoing cruelty – although from watching the house today I’m not sure if your party are even mentally stable any longer.  Only time I cried today was when Nick Smith was going on about how great government have done with housing?  NOT ONE THING he said would help me get a safe house to live in in Wairarapa – as we don’t have state houses here and proceeds from Trust House (sick sick name) all go to extravagant sports and arts projects and business.  How do you expect a person with CPTSD to heal if they aren’t in a safe place – it is impossible?

This email gives John Key the authority to view my ACC, police, justice and medical file – I have nothing to hide, as I’m sure your security team will already know.  Speaking of them, they didn’t like it when I called them aholes as I was leaving the Parliament today, I realised later that was retaliation for the officer who threatened me when I swore at you in the street – which you deserved – please tell them that.

Lots of people don’t like you, but you’re not the worst in Parliament, Bill English, Nick Smith, Christopher Finlayson, Judith Collins, Anne Tolley, Paula Bennett, Simon Bridges and Amy Adams are.

Have you worked it out yet, 30 yrs of neo-liberal terrorists advancing rich, disadvantaging middle class, persecuting disabled poor, driving decent jobs overseas, cutting state housing, selling off public infrastructure, privatising everything possible and putting in hands of greedy immoral people, cutting health care and making welfare SO SO SO degrading has bought us to now and the seething angry resentful ignorant bigoted country we have become.  Trumped again.

Now if I could get the ACC care I am entitled to, or any other of those mental health services you go on about – that don’t actually work and aren’t actually there for disabled people like myself, then maybe I wouldn’t be so angry and ‘lose it’ when I see you.  Before I was raped and treated like human sewage by those agencies who were legally supposed to help me, I seldom swore and definitely not in public – you and your ignorant supporters have driven me to this.

I chalked some things on the footpath outside Supreme court and across from Parliament for you.  A poem called You’re Cruel I’m Blamed (Google it, check out my website jrmurphypoet.com) was very apt after what your security officer said to me.  Plus I made comments about neo-liberals being terrorists and how the judiciary was participating in this cruelty and criminal negligence – that there were laws in this country that say you cannot advance rich at the same time as disadvantaging poor, you are not allowed to destroy people (like you have destroyed me) and everybody must have access to justice, which of course I don’t – unless I get charged with legally protesting, which I will get off AGAIN.  I can only imagine the amount of money I have cost since I was raped by a badly abused child who didn’t get help he was entitled to, would have been lots cheaper to provide me the treatment care and rehabilitation I am entitled to under ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws.  As you know from my website me and 1000s of others already know the solutions, YOU CHOOSE not to do them, sad when I know this could be an international business that could bring peace to so many countries.

I find it EXTREMELY offensive when you (and Nick Smith today) wear the white ribbon when you know you create 80% of this violence by traumatising and degrading people.  You refuse to provide professional and adequate mental health services and facilities, you refuse to provide safe housing (mentally ill have had housing issues for years – and majority of people in state houses were from troubled homes.)  You and your neo-liberal terrorist friends created this, then you make money out of it – ahhh THE VIOLENCE INDUSTRY.

One day you will realise just how much suffering and harm you caused so many people in this country, who did not deserve it.  When history looks back at your time as Prime Minister it will be in disgust at what you and your supporters/controllers did.  Karma

Sincerely

JR

Civil Society Actor

PERSECUTED WHISTLEBLOWER

HUMAN SEWAGE LIVING IN THE DARKLANDS

New Zealand Police vs JR Murphy

After phoning Police Headquarters Complaint Investigation Unit about huge delay in dealing with police assault in August, I received a phone call from Insp Donna Howard who took over Wairarapa District earlier this year.  What Insp Howard said to me yesterday (18/11/2016) is really pissing me off so I need to write about it, I will send the link to her as well.  Towards the end of our conversation about police phoning me if they have someone phone them ‘concerned for my welfare’, she started saying I should be respectful of HER staff, that I shouldn’t swear at them.  Told her since I was assaulted by one of HER officers I had little respect for them and how dare she expect me to after what they have put me through.  I hung up or I would have started swearing and sent her an email, explaining briefly why I got angry.

Felt I needed to explain the backstory to my rage and disgust in police, especially in the Wairarapa where I live.  Also my disability is Compounding CPTSD, so all the unresolved trauma police have caused builds up, which is why I was having nightmares and was so frightened by noises of cars in my street that police were coming to get me.

It was always a rule of mine not to swear at the police and I didn’t for years, even if several times I wanted to.  My brother in law a Snr Sgt, he told me what to do, not to swear or say the P word.  It wasn’t until they started being vindictive and mean, stripping me naked in the cells and demanding I remove my underwear even when I had my period; charging me with bogus minor crimes then dropping the charges at the last minute or losing the case (around 10 times since illegally ACC withdrew all my care in 2009 and I started protesting).

Taking me up to the cells when they didn’t need to, being violent and degrading (violently arresting me Xmas Eve 2014, refusing me shoes & a jersey when I was sick with flu).  Basher insulting me at home, telling me if I was broke (and I was) that I should sell my furniture -  furniture my friends had given me.  Sykes gossiping about me around town telling people not to let their children come to my house because I was a nutter, another officer hiding a formal complaint over the Xmas Eve event.  Then of course there were the repeated welfare visits (more than 50) which were embarrassing and my neighbours saw.  Most officers were nice but ignored when I said about ACC or mental health refusing me services.

Then there was the late night welfare visit at 11pm earlier this year which was very traumatic for me.  The welfare visit I was taken to Masterton and charged with Misuse of a Telephone for phoning ACC screaming to have my care reinstated (as I had done many times with no response).

  • My case manager had phoned April 2014 telling me my care would be reinstated as it was in 2009, I spent 15 minutes confirming this.  All that happened was I had to do another traumatic assessment with Dr Doris in Auckland, had to catch plane up and back in 1 day, lots of things I had to pay for.  I was very unwell and needed my care back it was psychological torture to be told it would be, telling all my family and friends it would be, then nothing happened.  I still have absolutely no services and my doctor is hopeless - although she wrote to them weeks ago asking why  my care was withdrawn and why it hasn’t been reinstated, just like other doctors have done, and had no response.

Years ago I discovered Sections 150A 151 155 and 157 of the Crimes Act, I know ACC are violating these laws and police have continuously refused to prosecute them.  One officer did look into it but after several months of hope, told me police ‘didn’t know who to prosecute’ so refused to go any further (ACC are a limited liability company, my case manager, the CEO and Chair Paula Rebstock should have been charged – of course there needed to be a thorough investigation to identify others persecuting me but it was never done).  So when ACC phoned and wanted me prosecuted for an extremely minor charge of course I was extremely upset with police – and why should I have any respect for them – they are supposed to uphold the law for me, protect people like me, not just rich and powerful at ACC (who are illegally refusing me and so many others disabled by abuse care and leaving me in harmful situations).

Then of course there are all my protests and the charges I have got off there, that should never have been taken and I told them that over and over again, that I was within my rights, under Bill of Rights laws.

Another vindictive mean thing they did was keep me in the cells overnight twice, where I broke down in the morning both times.  First time was for breaching trespass notice for parliament – I was outside the building – after being told by police they wouldnt’ arrest me the week before, this day they did.  I overhead one of the officers tell another that the order had come down from upstairs (because they wanted to let me go).  My girls were 14 and 15 then and were left home alone.  Also there was already case law that said people can protest on Parliament grounds even if trespassed previously.

Next time was week before Xmas 2014 I violated bail conditions and did a protest at Justice House, I was very unwell, singing, reciting poetry and had my naked torso painting.  I didn’t know I would have to stay and was really upset, was told by police a lawyer couldn’t get me out – found out that was wrong.  Because I have mental health issues they are not allowed to hold you in the cells for longer than six hours – I’m sure the cop didn’t know BUT I should have seen a lawyer.

Also was arrested for not appearing in court – because I couldn’t afford to get there and was traumatised by what had happened in 2013.  Police waited two weeks then picked me up 8am 2 January, a public holiday and my birthday, which they knew.  Initially was angry and traumatised by this, then couldn’t stop laughing on way to court – the shear stupidity and vindictiveness of police was laughable.  Had my kids home for a visit, had a day of things planned I had to delay for three hours.  Other person seeing judge that day was a man who had beaten up his partner and wanted to get out of the cells.  I had done nothing but a non-violent protest begging for my health care to be reinstated by ACC so I could get back to work.

Then of course there was the violent arrest during the Rugby World Cup where I had been protesting outside ACC building and police were called.  I had vented and was really angry but ready to leave when police arrived (I never threatened anybody with harm but called them maggots and swore at them several times).  One officer went inside to talk to staff and one stayed with me and refused to let me leave – other officer came out without speaking and slammed a handcuff on my right wrist.  I freaked out – my stress disorder – pulled away from him like I was being attacked onto the ground screaming in fear, my wrist still attached to his arm.  Have been scared of handcuffs since and always ask, then beg, for them not to be used (nice police officers don’t use them).  You are not allowed to arrest a person like that, you are supposed to warn them they are under arrest etc.  I blame the Sgt who sent two young men to deal with a disabled female protester, as they were having to deal with violent rugby fans every night and just used same tactics on me – inappropriately.

Then of course there were the insults and discrimination that prompted me to chalk pen a swastika onto the Carterton police station.  Telling me I was a liar, that lots of people had tried to help me – I just didn’t want it.  Telling me I was protesting all the time and made it my job because I was mentally ill, again that I was a liar and nobody was being discriminated against or refused care they entitled to.  That my protesting was a joke, that they weren’t scared of me like the others – which showed they were being vindictive.  Threatened in very menacing way if I didn’t stop protesting my innocence and rights under law, saying I had just been assaulted and talking about ACC etc that I would find out just how mean and nasty the officer could become if he wanted.

Why would anybody be scared of me, I’m a single woman with a disability, no partner so no protection from a man, isolated from my family and most of my community - police have an entire force to back them up and they do rightly or wrongly.  Not all police are mean, but those who aren’t are allowing others to do it and not saying anything -which makes them almost as bad.

Then the assault :-( then 3 hours of being held at Masterton Police Station, went into shock after the assault (had only just got over a bad flu week before) refused a blanket.  Tried to make me catch bus home, ended up curled up in a ball in the corner of station banging my back on wall repeating over and over I can’t catch the bus.  left for an hour in even colder part of police station at the front desk.  Cowering from people who walked past, head down, rocking and whimpering that I was cold and wanted to go home.  Go home to a flatmate who didn’t speak and not able to tell any of my friends or family what had happened.  Having no counsellor, social worker, psychologist etc I could tell either.  I did tell my doctor but she ignored it.

Also police have not acted on my complaint of assault by High Court Security in July 2016 when violently detained for wanting to attend court case of Tony Ellis taking government to court over Torture and Inhuman Treatment, which I tried to do and failed previous year, couldn’t get a lawyer and so wanted to see how to do it myself.

Just remembered another police thing where I was arrested at Police HQ earlier this year for getting angry and swearing during a marketing promotion about Its Not OK – went there and started yelling how it wasn’t OK to withhold health care, not have safe homes for people, leaving them with dangerous flatmates, make things worse for them, etc etc.  Usually I would have been 30 mins in police station, given a warning and let go – this time I was held in the cells for five hours to see mental health, who they know I am petrified of and just swear at, then let go.

My complaints to IPCA are also being ignored – apparently I make too many of them – I have made 6 complaints over 8 years (3 in past six months), as soon as I started making complaints things deteriorated with police in Wairarapa.  Police in Wellington nowhere near as bad, especially with the insults, degradation and way I am treated.

All of this I have experienced at the hands of police and I have done my upmost best to stay civil to those who are nice to me – even when I see the uniform and am overwhelmed by all the bad things people in that uniform have done.  So when Inspector Howard says I should not swear or be disrespectful of her officers anybody would understand why I find it extremely difficult and have ever right to talk to them the way I do when they are mean and disrespectful.

Sorry this post is a bit confusing, so many things have happened and I get triggered easily by having to recount what has happened.  Hopefully it shows Inspector Donna Howard and others what I have been subjected to for screaming for the professional health care I am entitled to from ACC (I have won two reviews and still get nothing) and protesting about mental health and justice services in New Zealand being abusive and violating people’s rights.

I find it extremely sad and soul destroying that Human Rights Commission and a multitude of justice and health agencies etc refuse to uphold my rights and protect me from this ongoing persecution – cause persecution is what it is according to definition in my Oxford Dictionary.  All this just so I can get the health care I am entitled to as a mentally injured abuse victim – if an intelligent 51 year old women who knows her rights can’t get professional care then NO MAN WOMAN OR CHILD will get what they entitled to either.  Of course our government, media and disgusting corrupt liberals in the VIOLENCE & ABUSE INDUSTRY will keep telling you it is OK to ask for help and there are heaps of care for people!

I live in sick sick country, in a sick sick world, that ignorant rich violent neo-liberal terrorists run.

Kia kaha to us all.

JR

 

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New Zealand Police Assault Day 2 & 3 Emails

 Mike (Masterton Police),

I have never done anything but be raped, hurt and beg for the care I needed and know I am entitled to.  I have never done a protest that wasn’t justified in a way that I know was reasonable in a civilised and just society.  I have never physically hurt anybody and never been hurt by a man until the rape & then police started hurting me for my protests.  I don’t understand, I know what the law says, I know ACC, mental health and the government aren’t following them, I know that is hurting disabled abuse victims like me and I don’t understand?  I don’t want to live this revolting life – if I can’t work I don’t want to live and yet your officers are saying this is my fault.

I’ve told you before my OT in 2009 and I had just started working on doing some role playing around going for a job interview – that’s the reason I can’t get a job.  After the abused child/man who raped me was found not guilty even when he admitted I was asleep when he started the assault my psychy couldn’t deal with it – its called overwhelming trauma.  So I became phobic of going for job interviews – I did try and do some things myself but everything failed because I got too stressed and couldn’t cope.

OH LORD I WISH I WAS DEAD – SHOT WITH A BULLET RIGHT THROUGH THE HEAD – Google it and you’ll see the rest of the lyrics – which according to your police officers are all lies and I’m offered heaps of care but refuse it. WTF.

Please don’t send them here again, I’m not going to kill myself but I know the next few days are going to be bad – really really bad.  My mother text me yesterday angry about me not going to my uncle’s funeral when everybody else was there.  Do you know how many family events I have not be able to go to since I was raped, the person found not guilty and ACC etc refused to provide me the treatment care and rehabilitation I am entitled to under law?  Did you know my family would never let me look after my nieces and nephews, yet they keep telling me how great my own children are.

Crying – wish I was dead, looking at the bruises and swelling on my hands from yesterday for chalking a swastika on the Carterton police station.  I would suggest you do some research into WWII and the creation of UN and human, civil and political rights – I have. :-( (((((

Sincerely

HUMAN SEWAGE

______________________________________________

From: JR
Sent: Sunday, 7 August 2016 10:55 a.m.
To: SUTTON, Michael
Subject: Don’t want to get officers into trouble & more pissed off with me – just want this hatred & resentment to stop :-(

Just want you and them to promise they won’t hurt me like that again – to realise what I do is just chalk and words – its non-violent and its real.  I don’t insult the police in my protests I beg them for help and challenge them for not upholding the law for everybody rich and poor.

_____________________________________________________

From: JR
Sent: Monday, 8 August 2016 7:21 a.m.
To: SUTTON, Michael
Subject: Further to what happened on Friday

Mike,

Lost the plot yesterday about what happened on Friday, couldn’t stop crying, ended up at Emergency at the hospital because I didn’t have the money for the after hours doctor.

Went there to get all the bruises recorded, especially the ones on tops of my hands, recounting what happened caused a severe trauma reaction.  While waiting for the doctor alone ended up curled up in a ball (foetal position) in the corner of the assessment room, eyes closed and fingers in my ears as I couldn’t handle all the stimulation and it was only way I could calm myself.  Rocking sitting on the side of the bed wouldn’t do it.  Have to have a wall behind me – same position I ended up in at the police station in Masterton, after Alan had finished threatening me and giving me a hard time.

Doctor was a really nice Middle Eastern man – he knew exactly what was happening and was very nice to me – he was also upset when he realised it was the police that had caused this.  I’m sure when he came to New Zealand he thought he had left behind this sort of violent behaviour by those in authority over powerless citizens.

I am still in shock about what happened  – those two officers completely lost it, the Maori officer is a bully and I can’t imagine the damage he is doing in the community.  He was the one I made the complaint to about High Court Security – can you please ensure he is taken off that case immediately.

Also who instructed those other two officers to come to my house and try the Misuse of a Telephone charge again?  Those officers were not aware of Dr Alan Doris’ report about my behaviour – why not – you have a copy?  ACC and police cannot use the law to persecute a disabled person fighting for their rights to health care and justice.  Especially when they have been driven ‘mad’ with medical neglect and illegally denied health care they are entitled to.  The ticking I suffer from is related to the tourettes type disorder I have developed due to what ACC have done (or not done).  ACC have been told this by Dr Doris, they followed his advice and ignored all the swearing until I asked for a recording of ‘how unwell I had become’ under the Privacy Act.   When they thought I was going to take them to court they USED police and an insignificant minor charge to further persecute me by dragging me through court.   I have the email if you want to see it, my lawyer certainly will be.

I am also still in shock at all the things officers said about being offered care and refusing it – that’s not how it is at all.  If I had been given the professional care I am entitled to under ACC, health, disability, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws then I wouldn’t be in this situation would I.  If I had had my rehabilitation from 2009 reinstated as required by two ACC reviews then I wouldn’t have ZERO services, be highly suicidal/unwell and protesting with such passion – would I, this is my life we are talking about – this is what I am fighting for.  Pretty sure one thing you and others realise is I’M NOT STUPID – I have NO services, not even a counsellor because ACC refuse to accommodate impairments related to my disorder.  They create barriers to accessing anything, ask Jenny Kirby why I can’t see her at the moment.  They refuse to apply a professional rehabilitation model in relation to my care just choosing random disconnected ideas that I am unable (because of a deterioration of my mental injury) to act on, they know this, because I email them regularly, and they do nothing.  ACC are corrupt and criminals under Sections 150A 151 155 and 157 of the Crimes Act, plus Crimes of Torture Act – I know it and I’m sure you know it too.

Today is the last day for submissions on New Zealand’s adoption of the United Nations Optional Protocol on Rights of People with Disabilities.  ACClaim Otago are fighting to get this in place as it will mean disabled people like myself can make complaints to the United Nations when our government violate the Declaration on Disabled Rights.  Why do you think an organisation set up to fight ACC is doing this?  Because they know as well as I do ACC are corrupt and criminally negligent in their dealings with mentally injured people and others.

I would suggest to save me the trauma and you the embarrassment we have a meeting and sort this stuff out before greedy lawyers get dragged into it and we take up court time and taxpayers money trying to protect ACC when everybody knows how corrupt, negligent and cruel they are.  Police are there to uphold the law, not be used by corrupt, criminally negligent, abusive government agencies to BEAT ME BLACK WITH BLUE.

The power Bill of Rights and Human Rights laws give me seems to be extremely difficult for some of your officers to handle.  I am a disabled non-violent Civil Society Actor as defined by the United Nations – please read the UN documents that give me this status and understand the role people like me play in society.  Please also note the rights I have to be challenging and cause offence if the situation warrants it – which also justifies my behaviour towards ACC – even when I can’t stop myself from doing it.  I am sure the people who established these guidelines were well aware of human behaviour in the face of injustice, discrimination and tyranny.

Along with the above as defence I will be providing ‘religious/ethical/cultural’ evidence that people born in the Year of the Dragon (Taniwha) are prone to not handle stress well and the need to ‘breath fire’ when suffering or seeing injustice around them or they develop psychoses.  We are here to hold a mirror to society and have strong ethical and moral beliefs that drive us.

Not sure if I have told you but have been in contact with the OHCHR (Office of the High Commissioner for Human Rights – pacific region) in Fiji who protect NZers rights – what has just happened with police is just more proof International human, disabled, civil and political rights are NOT being upheld in New Zealand.  Chalking a swastika on a police station in chalk that is easily removed is hardly cause for physical assault, especially after the person has just experienced the type of discrimination, degradation and insults I had.

Will send the complaint to IPCA, just for their records, it is them refusing to follow up the other cruelty and intimidation of officers and use of the law against me that has caused this situation.  I AM NOT THE ENEMY, I AM NOT A CRIMINAL, I CARE PASSIONATELY ABOUT PEOPLE DISABLED BY MENTAL INJURY AND THE FACT THEY ARE NOT GETTING THE PROFESSIONAL CARE THEY ARE ENTITLED TO AND HURTING THEMSELVES AND OTHERS.

Kia kaha to us all.

JR

Civil Society Actor

HUMAN SEWAGE

 

New Zealand Police Assault Complaint Not Dealt With

Been protesting outside Masterton Police Station again today :-( Two officers came out after about an hour to check on my sign, which was directed at the Inspector leading Wairarapa police which said “DONNA COWARD STOP ignoring police assault of disabled abuse victim”.  One who spoke to me was a nicer one I know but I couldn’t even reply, just froze, tried not to cry, shake or cower from them, had my head hanging down and focused on my breathing until they left.

Also had several people come up to me and supported what I was doing, told me a few stories as well about those officers who are arseholes – who give all of them a bad name.  Couldn’t talk much as didn’t want to cry.

I realise people don’t believe the police would assault a woman so I decided to post the emails I sent following the assault begging for it to be sorted out because I had become very frightened of all police and the thought of coming to my home again was giving me nightmares.  I am not an unreasonable person, all I want is an apology and promise from the two who assaulted me that they would never hurt me like that again.

Police Complaints Authority (IPCA) are involved and have contacted me recently and said they refuse to deal with the assault until April 2017, after my charges of Misuse of A Telephone and Graffiti are heard.  Legally the assault has nothing to do with the charges, IPCA are extremely vindictive people just like police they investigate, they are delaying this because they know it causes me significant distress and hoping I will commit suicide.

This is the first email I sent – to one of the head people at Masterton Police who was supposed to be looking out for me after I was violently arrested and humiliated Xmas Eve 2 years ago – when police hid the complaint I made and had to apologise about the violent arrest & humiliation.

EMAIL TO MASTERTON POLICE
New Complaint of Unnecessarily Violent Arrest yesterday 5 August 2016 – Plus Privacy Act Request

Mike,

I want to throw up writing this to you, but I know that’s what I have to do – I will contact Complaints in Wellington on Monday so I can get another email to send this too as not sure if I can trust you to do anything.

What happened yesterday is as much a result of the two previous complaints I have made about inappropriate cruel behaviour of police officers not being dealt with – as it is with discrimination on the basis of my disability and trying to stand up for my rights.

Firstly, under the Privacy Act and as part of this complaint can I please request a copy of the CCTV footage from inside & outside Carterton Police Station between 1.45pm and 2.45 pm, when I went there to make a complaint about two police threatening me at my home over Misuse of a Telephone complaints ACC was making.

I arrived to make a complaint about police turning up at my house yet again threatening me with misuse of a telephone, when only a matter of weeks ago charges were dropped, my lawyer gave me a list of reasons – one being the Alan Doris report detailing my tourettes/insulting/swearing stuff.  According to your staff it was because the person died.  For at least 10 mins I got every cliché in the book, including the lie that people had tried to help me but me but I refuse care.  Comments about me being mentally ill which is why I protest all the time and make this my job.  Derogatory comments about how I take police to court when I know my rights have been violated.

I was so upset that Alan, who I thought understood as he had been so nice to me in the past, actually thought the same as ALL the other officers about me being a time waster, liar, etc etc.  It is getting difficult to remember what they said as my brain rejects discrimination and that sort of hatred and ignorance – its just too painful and causes me to become highly suicidal – why would anybody want to live in this hell hole country with a stress disorder and reliant on abusive unprofessional mental health services.

I left the station very upset at many of the things that had been said – but at least I know what is being said – I just never understood why you refused to protect me under the Crimes Act, now I do.  The only way peaceful way I could react to what I had just been subjected to was go back to my car, get my chalk pen, go back to the station and chalk a swastika and CORRUPT on the front window.  I didn’t think oh this is going to get me arrested, or oh I’m going to be violently hurt by those police, I just do it – I know it is not against the law to protest in this way.  Bill of Rights law and the right to protest has a measure of reasonableness and what is justified in a civil society.  What happened next was out of all proportion to what I did.

The Maori policeman – same one who reluctantly took my complaint against High Court Security last week – came out grabbed me and proceeded to assault me and throw me on the ground.  I was freaking out, I never resist arrest and yet this man was really hurting me, he was digging his fingers into the tops of my hands so I was screaming, my hands are all bruised and sore.  He also grabbed my ear and twisted it, along with my left arm being twisted and thrown to the ground.  I have a bad bruise up the inside of my right arm, I think caused by the chalk pen somehow – when I showed them the bruise they kept saying it wasn’t them it had been there for ages – it was really strange.  I can appreciate they didn’t realise what they had done but to vehemently deny it was.  Alan was also part of assaulting me, I remember him with his knee on me on the ground.  I’m sure the CCTV footage will show you what happened.

I was tightly handcuffed, which cut into my wrist really badly so by the time I got to Masterton station my hand was blue and tingling – its now 4am and I havn’t been able to sleep and the bruise on my right wrist and hand are really sore.

I was put in the police car and taken to Masterton, Alan talked the whole way, his words dripping with sarcasm and obvious hatred, it was very distressing.  Every question about why I couldn’t get care I answered or explained but he refused to believe anything I said – I’m mentally ill after all – he just got nastier and more insulting.  Threatened me with finding out just how nasty he could be if I didn’t co-operate fully or said anything to defend myself.  Said something about pulling the victim card.

I mentioned there are several other things happening in my life at the moment that are causing me huge stress, particularly my flatmate who has a dog and been breaking things but not repairing or replacing him – he is very strange and I need him to leave but as usual I can’t say anything because my disorder kicks in and my mouth just won’t say the words.  Alan just became angry with me about it.  I also mentioned my uncle had died and all my family were in Nelson for the funeral but I couldn’t go mostly because I couldn’t trust my flatmate, plus the cost and the fact I am so fragile at the moment and it is not safe to be around my family – they insuilt me for not working.  I find being away from home very difficult – I find being at home very difficult when I get continuous visits from police for whatever reason.

When at Masterton police station I started to go into survival mode and curl up in a ball rocking backwards and forwards – I asked for a woman officer and was refused.  After what happened in Wellington last week I’m starting to freak out about being around men bullying and standing over me.  I ended up curled up in a ball in the cell or rocking backwards and forwards to try and calm myself.  I was so cold as I had gone into shock.  I asked for a doctor as my arm was really hurting and I thought it might have been some clot as a result of the handcuffs, the pain was shooting all the way up my am to my chest.  The ambulance was called and it was another man who said the bruising was from a blunt instrument and offered me pain relief, which I refused.

He left and CATT team turned up, I started swearing at them – as I do – and they left, why anybody would expect me to deal with the man who has rejected me from mental health services for over a decade is beyond my comprehension.  The stories people have told me about that man and he still has credibility and a job – even though it is only ACTING head of mental health for the past decade.

While I was waiting I became very cold, I had only just got over the flu and shock had set in, I asked for a blanket repeatedly but was refused.

I asked for a lawyer because Alan said he was going to keep me in the cells for as long as he chose and I was really frightened – I know you can’t hold someone with mental health issues longer than six hours, which is why I asked for a lawyer.  He bought me in a laminated piece of paper with the names on it – I knew my last lawyer Susie  was away and I don’t know any of the others so I said he could choose anybody.  I also told him I only wanted a lawyer because he was going to make me stay in the cells.   I thought Alan went away to call a lawyer but he didn’t.

He came back and said I would have to sign for my things and then leave the building.  I completely freaked out, apparently I was to catch a bus back to Carterton in the pouring rain – it wasn’t the rain that freaked me out – I can’t catch buses when I’m a mess like I was.  That’s the reason I havn’t been able to see the counsellor because ACC refuse to pay for a taxi, I can’t drive myself because I become too upset when going to counselling and I can’t catch a bus either.  People would see me crying, I would be completely humiliated, I wouldn’t even know how or where to catch it from as I become quite disoriented when that traumatised.  I ended up curled up in a ball in the corner under the counter with my hands over my ears mostly, rocking, repeating over and over I can’t catch a bus, I can’t catch a bus.  He just got angrier with me, threatened me with being forcibly removed from HIS station and went away to get others to help him.  I was so scared I just curled up in an even tighter ball in the corner.

At one point I said something about how scared I was after they assaulted me – he got really angry at that and told me he had not done anything of the sort and there was no way he was going to give me a ride anywhere after accusing him of it.  I explained that I thought it was mostly the other officer that did it, caused the bruising, but I didn’t really know, because he was involved in what happened outside Carterton Police station but I don’t remember what part he played.  I just remember being hurt for no reason and trying to do everything to make them both stop - ie being completely passive and silent and defending myself by curling up in a ball.

I’m going to be sick.

All those horrible things they said come back to me in flashbacks which make me really unwell.  Like their comments about me making a career out of protesting etc – if I had the care I am entitled to I wouldn’t be protesting.  I make it my job because I am so unwell and I don’t want to die, I want my care back so I can heal and return to work.  What person would choose to live in poverty with no job and a future of homelessness and dysfunction.  I have a report saying I’m intelligent, without the care I need I will die and suffer for the rest of my life – I’m only 51 of course I fight for what I am entitled to.  Also it keeps my mind occupied – I’m not the sort of person that reads fiction all day, watches movies and spends there days asleep, wandering around, drugged or drunk – like most mentally ill people rotting on welfare that I know.

I also have a skin cancer that has returned and am worried about it because last time I had the money to have it removed, this time I have to rely on health system and it will take months – it has already taken four weeks just to get on the waiting list.

Alan eventually offered me the option of going to get my car across from police station in Carterton, which I agreed to – my car is my safe place when I am away from home and I thought I would be OK to drive home.  While waiting for him in the reception of the police station, I was so so cold, I was frightened of all the people around me and cowered when someone came out from inside the building.  I sat there mostly rocking backwards and forwards with my hands over my ears.  I remember becoming really distressed, sobbing and crying, whimpering that I wanted to go home, please I just want to go home, please I just want to go home.

I was arrested around 2pm and got home around 6.30pm.  I’m exhausted and tried to sleep but it only lasted 2 hours and I woke up crying because my hand/wrist was aching and I can’t believe what happened – all this for begging for the care I am entitled to under ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws.   Last week I couldn’t sleep on my right side because of the bruising from High Court Security and this week its my left.  I have won two ACC reviews and still they refuse to reinstate my care – they offer me things knowing I can’t act on them because I am now so unwell.  I have the support of Dr Doris and Jenny Kirby, plus I am sure all those people who worked with me in 2009 when I did have the beginnings of a professional rehabilitation plan.

If you think like those two officers think about me being offered heaps of professional care etc and refusing – then you are very very wrong.  I can explain everything and I am sure these two would back up what I am saying about the ‘phobias’ after everything that has happened.

I am tired now, its 5am and I think my flu is returning after being so cold yesterday and so traumatised, I’ll see if I can sleep.

Please make this stop I am begging you, please uphold the law, I just want to get better and go back to work so I don’t have to live with people who take advantage of me and steal from me – or attempt suicide.

Please make this stop – I am begging you – I’m going to be contacting the United Nations about what is going on.  There are rules and laws, you just can’t treat a disabled woman like this – especially one who knows her rights and is non-violent.

Please note also my screaming at ACC is not a threat of harm, it is more a warning about what spirit is going to do to them if they don’t provide the treatment care and rehabilitation for people mentally injured by abuse and trauma.  When I am so unwell because of being denied care I am entitled to all I can do is hope and pray what happened to me, at the hands of a badly abused child that never got the ACC care he was entitled to, happens to them – as they are the ones causing this nightmare.  As you know I go tourettes on it I am so angry and frustrated – I never used to swear   I also know the science of trauma and I know the more we dont’ help people, the more people traumatised around them and it just gets bigger and bigger – which is why our prison population is exploding.

I just want me and others to get the care I know we are entitled to – and the safe homes to live in, which we are also entitled to.

God please help me -

God please help you, I know those officers probably didn’t mean to hurt me like they did, something came over them, it was really scary – they just lost all reason.  Its weird, its like they are trying to cover up guilt, or attack something that they know is wrong but also they know is weak.  Its like they’re attacking all vulnerable people like me – yes vulnerable, or more correctly fragile, they’re attacking all poor people or disadvantaged people because they want to believe everything they see on TV and the media about how great NZ is – when it is not.

Please help me, there are so many angry people in the Wairarapa and around New Zealand I just know things are going to blow – even worse than they have so far this year – I can feel it all around me – people are so angry and tired of struggling while the very richest make life better for themselves and harder for everybody else.

Can you please advise you have received this complaint and the Privacy Act request and about how long it will take to be investigated and dealt with – please also tell me if you are going to do nothing, rather than me being ignored.

Sincerely

JR
Civil Society Actor
HUMAN SEWAGE

 

Judith Collins MP – I see….. a poverty of government responsibility in New Zealand

This is a my response to Judith Collins and I have also sent this to Eric Frykberg at Radio New Zealand.  I will keep you informed if I hear anything from Radio NZ or a response from Judith Collins.

Sent: Thursday, 13 October 2016 5:56 a.m.
To: judith.collins@parliament.govt.nz
Subject: Mentally injured abuse victims refused prof care & rehabilitation by ACC for 30 years

Dear Ms Collins,

I was horrified to read your news item about how you consider crime to be the fault of useless parents and I felt the need to point out that it is the past 30 years of neo-liberal governments that have caused 80% of this.

You were Minister of ACC, you know who I am because I wrote to you many times, I have protested many times about mentally injured abused men women and children not getting the professional treatment care and rehabilitation (safe homes and jobs) they are entitled to under ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws.

If these parents you say are irresponsible had received the professional health care I have described above, and required under law then they wouldn’t be as dysfunctional as they currently are.  If these people had not been forced to live in poverty for years, degraded and discriminated against by politicians, media and uninformed ignorant citizens then they wouldn’t be dysfunctional.

If mental health services had not been corrupted, shut down and moved to a drug based regime to advance drug companies then they would not be dysfunctional – they would get the child care and other extensive health, rehabilitation and social supports they are entitled to under New Zealand and United Nations laws.

That you would come out with such a statement I find extremely disturbing – blaming the very people you, those you work with and those who support you discriminate against and persecute to the point of violence addiction and suicide suggests you have some sort of mental health issue.   I call people like yourself radicalised for good reason – it is a fact that neo-liberals who imposed immoral degrading reforms since the 1980s created our current violent and dysfunctional society.  Please go to the internet and look up anything about the impacts of neo-liberalism and inequality on developed societies – its all there – there are some excellent TED Talks by world experts.

New Zealand is mentioned many times because of the significant increase in inequality over such a short time and the corresponding social issues that resulted, like crime, homelessness, family violence, sexual violence, addiction, mental illness and suicide.

You said in this article you were being un-PC, this isn’t true, you were being ignorant, bigoted and radical.  The media will only let NICE people respond to your vicious hatred and radical opinions, mostly because our media have been an integral part of the moral degradation of our society into this violent state.

You are immoral, you advance rich people and businesses, disadvantage middle classes and persecute disabled poor.  You terrorise vulnerable minorities of disabled (many abused) men women and children with laws you call reforms, you take their money and their dignity, then you make comments to the media that blame these people for your radical behaviour.

Now the damage National Party have done over the past nine years is causing so much damage in society people like yourself are in complete denial, still trying to pretend this isn’t your fault, when of course we all know it is.  I am just thankful the mainstream media have started to tell the truth about the true drivers of crime, which of course are corrupt, cruel, immoral, bigoted politicians and community leaders.

I would suggest you read my website (www.jrmurphypoet.com) and see all the laws your government violate in order to advance your violent radical ideas.  It also has all the health care and welfare provisions the government are legally supposed to provide but do not.  They would rather borrow money and spend $millions on interest to foreign banks – so they can buy rich people’s votes by cutting rich people’s taxes.  You are a seriously disturbed human being, and with your knowledge of the law I find what you do and what you say even more mentally deranged than other members of your party.

Did you realise Ms Collins that the first law is Westminster Statute the 1st, which says Common right be done to all rich as poor.  Why do you think they made that law?  You do realise moving from a country of equality to one of inequality that advances rich and persecutes poor violates this law.  Next law is Magna Carta, which says you cannot destroy anyone and everyone has access to right and justice.  I am sure you would know from recently Law Society reports and people like Justice Winkleman that thousands of disabled mentally injured and ill people are not getting access to justice (ie they cannot get lawyers – me included).  You would also know all the laws your party has made that stops poor people from having access to lawyers, legal aid and justice.

You would know that your party drove disabled people to look for work, when they are responsible under United Nations to provide jobs for disabled people.  Because of course you would understand in a radicalised capitalist/neo-liberal economic society no employer takes on people who are not 100% fit and able to produce at the maximum output.

Please also consider the information on my website (www.jrmurphypoet.com) as a plea for help to stop police persecuting and harming me for legally protesting about corruption, incompetence and abuse in mental health services – particularly in the Wairarapa where I live.  I have made multiple complaints of crimes under Sections 150A 151 155 157 of the Crimes Act and been told they would not act on these serious complaints of criminal negligence.  You are the minister, please do something about this gross miscarriage of justice.

If you require me to sign a privacy waiver, please advise me as soon as possible.  I am sure as a lawyer and politician you would not like to see a disabled citizen being persecuted, discriminated against and having their human, civil and political rights violated.  Word of law is vitally important to keep peace in a civilised society, without that we are seeing the dysfunction you are describing and blaming on the victims of prolonged terrorism rather than taking responsibility for what you and those like you have done.

Kia kaha to us all – time to admit your mistakes and rectify the terrible dysfunction you have caused in our society.

Sincerely

JR
Civil Society Actor

 

 

Letter to local police asking them to STOP WELFARE CHECKS

Thought I’d start posting some of the letters I write, might give people some ideas about what they can do if going through the same thing.

20 November 2015

 TO:      Wairarapa Police

 I really really need you to stop coming to my house when someone from a justice, health or political organisation phones you.  It is a waste of your time and it hurts me, makes me feel even more worthless and ashamed.  I am allowed to say I wish I was dead, just not allowed to say I am going to kill myself and I never ever have.

 

In the recent decision by Judge Tuhoy he says police were unreasonable in acting on the wilful trespass notice unreasonably given to me by Wairarapa DHB.  Please can we look at these phone calls in the same way – that these organisations phoning you are being unreasonable and you don’t have to act on it.  Part of what I do to stop the discrimination of thousands of disabled mentally injured and ill people is I am honest about how I feel and what is happening to me.  That includes self-harming and the continuous hell of being suicidal after years of discrimination, degradation and neglect by ACC, etc.

 

Suicidal thoughts I have never acted on over the past 10 years – it is a living nightmare but if someone like me doesn’t keep challenging what is going on for suicidal people then nothing is going to change and more people are going to needlessly suffer, hurt others and die. 

 

The self-harm is relatively new, thank ACC, mental health, poverty and my living situation for that.  What I do won’t end my life, or cause me permanent damage, I hate telling you this – what I currently do is use rubber bands on my wrists which I flick, I stab myself with pens/pencils until it hurts, not so it draws blood and hit myself as hard as I can around my head where it can’t be seen under my hair and around my body.  By doing this I can let off enough emotional pain so the suicidal thoughts don’t become overwhelming and I act on them.  My psychiatrist, counsellor and doctor, as well as ACC, politicians and several mental health/justice organisations know this is happening, so do the many people I talk and write to (that phone you), doesn’t get me the care I need and am entitled to of course.  If they are not concerned then why are police?

 

While talking to several people yesterday the words Duty of Care came up and how would my family feel if police didn’t respond and I killed myself – I’m really unwell, how other people feel is completely IRRELEVANT when you have Compounding Complex PTSD.  Please note the compounding bit – so every trauma adds to the next because you have way more serious unresolved underlying traumas.  Also people who kill themselves are free and don’t have to suffer anymore, it is a relief to the person who has done it – its only those left behind that get angry, mostly out of guilt.  And of course it’s a recognised sign of a dysfunctional society, which we can thank the last 30 yrs of neo-liberal governments for.

 

This letter exonerates police from any responsibility if I do kill myself.  I know from years of research, study and experience that police are USED by government to ‘control and manipulate’ people with mental health issues.  This letter is to confirm it is neo-liberal politicians, ACC, mental health services and other justice and government agencies that have driven me mad with medical neglect, not the police (although you havn’t made things easy on occasion and I wish with all my heart you would take my complaints under Sections 150A 151 and 157 of the Crimes Act seriously).

 

This is NOT a suicide note, this is me just being frank and honest and trying to make things easier for ME – trying to manage impairments related to my disorder.  If you truly do care (which I know some of you do) then don’t come, my neighbours see you here and I am ostracized even more, it makes ME feel worse.  Also now you are being nice it is even harder, I do not want your pity – which is why its best that we don’t interact – there are bad people you should be dealing with – NOT ME.

 

Blaming police for people committing suicide due to unprofessional abusive inadequate mental health care is one of the most bizarre (immoral/cruel/corrupt) reactions to suicide I have witnessed. I hope this letter helps police understand and fingers crossed stops you from acting on these calls from people who say they are concerned for my welfare – when THEY ARE NOT.

 

Working on a report/complaint to the UN at the moment, will send you a copy when I’m finished, will be sending lots of people/organisations copies, especially those who phone police – I’m sure you will find it interesting.  Please put this letter on my file, thank you.

 

Kia kaha to us all

  

JR

 Civil Society Actor

Persecuted Whistleblower

Human sewage living in the darklands

 

NO RESPECT – Poem dedicated to Ombudsman & NZ Police

Police have really got to stop all this shit
The visits, feigned concern, discrimination - ALL OF IT!

All reports I have read say they’re supposed to protect
But for my welfare, my dignity, my peace – NO RESPECT!

The Ombudsman doesn’t want to hear what I see
So sends round the police to SCARE THE HELL OUT OF ME!

enD

Grrrr

Wrote this in response to a visit from police at 11pm last night for a welfare check, thanks to the Ombudsman and a 7 hour delay by Police Communications to allocate the job – someone in Masterton doesn’t like me.  Not surprised, I’ve pissed a lot of them off, they don’t like people who stand up to them and their stupid degrading rules.

Have made a complaint to IPCA and contacted my psychiatrist to get some advice (so he’s on my side).  Spent all morning trying to sort things out, still freaking out about what happened.

 

Private Prosecution lodged 19/6/2015 against John Key – Under Section 39 of Magna Carta 1215

So been thinking about all this stuff I know and how the government are ignoring the Magna Carta, and then while I’m working out what pieces of law I can get John Key under I realise I can use the Magna Carta as a legislative reference and prosecute him under that.

It was only at the last minute I added Section 39, but pleased I did, cause having the police used to intimidate me when I was asking for the health care I knew I was entitled to was not right and not just.  Of course they will say there was a judgement of my peers or law that says suicidal people must have police sent to their homes to protect them.  But with all my art and poetry I’ll prove what they are doing is discrimination and they have purposely put in these measures to stop people getting the heatlh care they need.

39. No freemen shall be taken or imprisoned or disseised or exiled or in any way destroyed, nor will we go upon him nor send upon him, except by the lawful judgment of his peers or by the law of the land.

MY RESPONSE

Shit just realised I didn’t take a photocopy of the Charging Documents – will have to go in next week and see if they will get me one – you can’t remember everything.  As you can see what I have said is pretty amateur but I know judges give lots of leeway to people who are not lawyers, they are more interested in fairness and justice and that the person has given it their best shot.

19 June 2015

 

Statement by J.E.R, date of birth 00/00/1965, of street, Carterton

 

I am about to start this and the emotion is overwhelming me, how the police have been used to intimidate and bully me for demanding and needing the professional health care promised under ACC, health, disability, criminal, human rights and bill of rights laws is persecution and torture.

 

How I am treated by the police varies greatly depending on the person,  I would like to refer to my police file at this point to highlight all the times I have been seen by police, have been detained by police and been prosecuted by police. 

 

I am not able to look at my police file as it makes me very unwell, I got a copy of it a few years ago and on page 3 it said I was ‘mental’ and a danger to police safety.  I wasn’t able to read past that and have had a rocky relationship with police since ACC illegally cut all my care in 2009, after National became the government and installed neo-liberal Business Round Table advocate John Judge, then Paula Rebstock.

 

Can the judge please consider my police file as being evidence to what has been happening me as I fight for the care I know I am entitled to.  Please note that all complaints to police about me being suicidal are from people who are public servants and/or agents of the government.  I would tell these people I was begging for help or justice from, how bad I felt and they would phone police but never help me get care.  This is a gross miscarriage of justice and proof what is happening in the real world I live in is very different to what the government and these agencies promote.

 

It makes me want to be violently ill when I think that forcing suicidal people to take their clothes off and put on the crazy suit is police policy and when I tried to challenge it as being extremely degrading and against human rights laws I was ignored.  They only got my clothes off me once, during my first protest, chalking Journalists are Maggots on the Times Age building in Masterton.  When I got down to my underwear I was told to take them off as well, I had my period and said I couldn’t – I was told I had to.  That is when my respect for the police and the government ended.  I told the officer I would fight her for my underwear as there was no way I was going to let blood run down my leg in front of so many men.  This policy is not law and therefore was not subject to scrutiny under Bill of Rights and Human Rights laws.

 

Over the past 30 years as neo-liberalism has relentlessly destroyed our unique Kiwi culture these attacks and laws on suicidal people have steadily increased.  It are the policies that are driving people to suicide and then the government and authorities blame the victims for a completely human response to an inhuman living environment. 

 

New Zealand is a beautiful country, there is enough resources for everybody to have the necessaries of life.  Giving massive tax cuts to the wealthiest people and organisations in this country while at the same time stopping poor people (rich people can still get this care and justice) from getting the health care and justice they are entitled to is immoral and against the law.

 

Also the massive social issues that have arisen due to high unemployment and concentration of wealth into the richest 20% of society – are being somehow blamed on the victims of these social issues, like violence, mental illness, poverty, ill health etc.  It was very sad to see all the changes that have been made to the Social Welfare and Social Security Acts over the past decade, all aimed at blaming those who can’t get work.  When we all know deregulation, free trade and neo-liberalism was instrumental in hundreds of thousands of manufacturing jobs moving offshore to be done by people who are treated like slaves in poorer countries.

 

I will be addressing this issue in another private charge in the near future.

 

I told a judge recently, when going through the court system over my protests at Masterton Hospital that I will take no more – and I won’t.  No more are you going to treat disabled, abused, mentally injured and ill people like you are.  Everybody knows it is wrong – EVERYBODY.

 

I know other people who are degraded and persecuted by police for being suicidal and I have experiences of people who attempted suicide who were living with me that I would like to be able to present to the court.  I cannot talk about them now I am too unwell.

 

I would like all book of poetry The Black Book ISBN 978-0-473-31199-5 to form part of this case but I do not have the resources to do a copy for each of the five charges.  I would also like all my photographs to form part of this.

 

Please help me get a lawyer, there is so much you don’t know, so many things.  These people have driven me insane, they have turned my family and community against me, just because I couldn’t get the professional health care I was entitled to.

 

I can’t go on with this document.

 

Kia kaha to us all.

 

 JR

Open Letter and OIA request to Anne Tolley MP

Dear Ms Tolley,

Firstly this email is an Official Information Act request asking for the government’s definition of ‘the most vulnerable’.

I was in the house on Tuesday for the first time in 2 1/2 years after being trespassed for standing in silence to pray during the opening prayer and singing in a casual voice as I walked up the stairs to the gallery.  It was emotional, the security guards welcomed me back and asked how I was, they have only seen me outside and seen over the years what has happened to me.  They also know what my issues are and why I rage at the injustices I am experiencing and witnessing around me.

I took notes about what I heard at question time and one thing that the government repeated over and over again was how they were helping and going to help ‘the most vulnerable’.  I cried, because I know for a fact me and all other vulnerable people like me are losing services, mental health services are abusive and a fence at the bottom of the cliff, our benefits are worth less and less, we don’t have safe and reliable housing and jobs are almost non-existent for people with psychological disabilities – no matter how many posters you put up that it is only to do with confidence.  Discrimination and bigotry in the community are rife and the hatred towards people on welfare – who look OK, makes you want to kill yourself.

Over the past six months I have been really studying government propaganda and noted that every time some bad news came out that you would post something that looked like good news.  Not only that you would say exactly the opposite to what the media or others were saying.  So when you kept going on and on about helping ‘the most vulnerable’ I realised this was to somehow counter the fact you were cutting services to thousands of disabled, abused, stress disordered, suicidal and mentally ill people.  Not only that you have found ways of further frightening these desperate disabled people by changing welfare entitlements yet again - one of the first things you did as Minister is go for disabled people.  While others in your cabinet sell off state housing and start a programme of housing disabled people in inhuman, culturally inappropriate housing, that is never going to make it to Wairarapa.

I am Pakeha, Third generation New Zealander and I do have a culture and cruel immoral neo-liberals like yourself are not going to destroy this country without a fight.  I have Complex PTSD, which you probably already know, as a result of rape sodomy, a not guilty verdict and 13 years of neglect, degradation and abuse by ACC, mental health and others.  Only people who are subjected to prolonged trauma and bullying develop this disorder – that is what you neo-liberal ‘cuts’ (NOT REFORMS) did to me.

Watching what your government are doing to people around me hurts me beyond words.  Watching you lie in the house made me cry.  Watching you all lie and be deceitful when you are supposed to be leading this country made me cry and get very angry when I was protesting outside afterwards.  I couldn’t even sing I was so upset.  All the pieces of the puzzle about why abuse victims, traumatised people and mentally ill people aren’t getting the professional health care and rehabilitation they are entitled to under the law have come together.  I will be putting these in a report to the UN and every political party or person I believe needs one.

You are driving people to suicide and violence with your degrading inhuman policies and political agendas, then you are covering up this fact by prosecuting the people becoming violent and bullying/threatening/drugging the people who are becoming suicidal.  No more, we all know what is going on and I am going to use everything in my power to get this gross miscarriage of justice exposed.

How can you sleep at night, how can you knowingly drive people mad – do you know the message you are sending to the community about people on welfare by having security guards posted outside offices.  You are inciting dissension and hatred towards them, also the idea they are there to protect clients is a manipulative lie – ask Nigel Latta if you don’t believe me.

The fact MSD took no responsibility for driving John Tully mad is grossly irresponsible, when you and I both know that you did.  If the man had had any of his basic human needs met he wouldn’t have lost it and killed those women (refer to Maslows Pyramid of needs).  Can you also please advise me the outcome of the suicide by a staff member three days later – what was she ashamed of?

I know a woman who had left the office not long before the shootings, she had been telling me it was a terrible place to work and she couldn’t wait to get out of there, it was killing her.  What was going on in that place – how come we don’t get to hear what John Tully says about it – he’s obviously told you what happened.

A girl I met recently, disabled looking after her disabled dad in State Housing that was going to be sold, said to me. “Why is it we are getting hammered again, the same people over and over again, people can’t take any more.”

This is what you do to people Anne Tolley, in our beautiful country where everybody is supposed to have a house, a job and be valued, you treat them worse than animals – because you degrade them over and over and turn people against them.  You have almost unlimited money at your disposal – refusing to take it from very wealthy people to pay for unemployment (you created) and basic necessities to live a dignified life for ‘vulnerable people’ is more than grossly irresponsible, it is corrupt and it is evil.

I am ashamed and disgusted in the 30 years of neo-liberal politicians that have turned this country from one of the most advanced to one of the most mean, callous, hateful, hypocritical, unequal and dysfunctional.  It creates lots of jobs to have an industry focused on poor people – you better hope there is no evidence out there to prove the government have purposely stopped abused and mentally ill people getting treatment to create jobs and further their disturbing political games.

Sincerely

Stay Stay Away – song dedicated to Wairarapa Police

Stay Stay Away

My voice shatters the silence
This shit I’m in is grave
If only you had listened
If only you’d stayed away

CHORUS
But you jumped in your car
And you sped it this way
If only you had listened
Wouldn’t be singing in the cells today

(stay, stay away)

As I sat there and I waited
Police could see the tears on my face
Of your time and my honour
It’s such as bloody waste

CHORUS
Cause you jumped in your car
And sped it my way
If only you had listened
Wouldn’t be singing this song today

My voice cuts through the silence
As you drove me home today
Wish you your tazer gone for good
With my life you would not play

You just jumped in your car
And sped it away
To me you’ll finally listen
And away you then will stay

(stay, stay away)

End

Awesome – love it - can’t wait to sing it outside the police station in next couple of days. They needn’t think I’m gunna sit back and just accept this treatment.