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Psychological abuse – GASLIGHTING – by Wairarapa police New Zealand

9 February 2018


Peter Jackson &

David Rutherford

Human Rights Commission

PO Box 12411




(NOTE: this letter was also emailed to Secretary for Justice Andrew Bridgman, Jacinda Ardern PM, Andrew Little Minister for Justice, Stuart Nash Minister for Police, Kieran McNaulty MP, Ron Mark MP, Jan Logie, Mojo Mathes, Carterton Mayor John Booth & Lynn Patterson Masterton Mayor, Wairarapa Times Age and Wairarapa News)

Dear Sirs

This letter is to multiple people, not just those on the address above, I can only write this once. I beg for help so often and am completely discredited, degraded & criminally neglected for telling the truth about what is happening to me (and many other people I am sure).

I refer to the letter 12013 and the absolutely insulting patronising response about Disabled people purposely left to rot on welfare because of gross miscarriage of justice currently perpetrated by our cruel immoral and corruption neo-liberal controlled government and justice agencies. The three arms of government all being grossly corrupted by this economic movement now being called a terrorist religion.

You are talking about improving employment outcomes for disabled people like myself, when I am being illegally denied professional treatment care rehabilitation and a safe home to live in by ACC. If I received the assistance I am entitled to I would be able to return to work.  Along with being terrorised by police and others for asking for the health care and justice I know I am entitled to under law – especially Human Rights laws that you are supposed to uphold.

The treatment of disabled people being denied the right to work has nothing to do with societal attitudes it is purely economic and relates to the attitude of our corrupt immoral cruel leaders – it is nothing to do with society – they don’t even know what is going on. They teach discrimination of less than 100% productive workers at university – any person who does an economics paper as part of their degree will be taught to get the maximum productivity out of staff. The ideas of running an advertising campaign to ‘brainwash’ (which is illegal under Bill of Rights & Human Rights) society to be nice to disabled people is deeply flawed & deeply disturbing.

The discrimination I face almost daily for not working has been ingrained in people for 30 years since neo-liberals drove jobs overseas & impoverished 100,000s New Zealanders purposely – then blamed them for their situation – especially disabled people. I face this discrimination, not only in my community but mostly from mental health services, politicians, police, lawyers, justice services and your organisation. You know that because you know who I am and why I protest against you – why I put up pieces of art with swastika’s on in your office – because you are leading the persecution of disabled people by refusing to protect them and uphold the law.

Currently I am being terrorised by police yet again for my LEGAL and completely justified protests about not receiving the PROFESSIONAL mental health care I am entitled to from ACC (after winning two reviews in 2010 & 2011). ACC review decisions are legally binding, it is illegal to not reinstate my care from 2009 and yet they do it and use impairments related to my disorder to continue the psychological abuse. They do this and I beg you to help and protect me from this gross violation of my rights and you do absolutely nothing – you bring out propaganda saying they should treat me better.

Police violently assault me and threaten me with worse violence if I continue to protest – I am assuming worse violence means what happened to Louise Nicholas and I know for a fact includes psychological abuse using the justice system. I stopped sending you my complaints of serious violations of my rights, which puts my life at risk on a regular basis – you have done absolutely nothing to help me – in fact you participate in using police to terrorise me further – as does the Ombudsman.

Today I sit here writing this terrified at what lengths, neo-liberal elements in police are prepared to go to in order to drive me to suicide, self-harm and more.

I don’t know how to begin because of the extremely life-threatening disorder I now have after years of medical & criminal neglect I have COMPOUNDING Complex PTSD. So bringing up all the traumas causes me significant suffering and torment, makes me highly suicidal and there is nowhere I can turn for help. I was denied professional health care in December after an assessment by a CCDHB psychologist and psychiatrist. I was dumped onto a social worker who caused me significant harm after only a few weeks because he had no concept of seriousness of my impairments (even though I told him).

I currently have no doctor, I am in constant physical pain with my kidneys, hips & ankle, I have another skin cancer but I won’t be able to have this one addressed because I am too terrified to interact with health providers now, after years of discrimination. The very people who supposed to help me are instrumental in discriminating against and persecuting me.

PLEASE NOTE: I am in intelligent person and writer I have an Oxford Dictionary I bought when studying law at Victoria immediately prior to the rape, I know the meaning of persecution and I am using it correctly in this instance. I DO NOT HAVE A MENTAL HEALTH ISSUE that involves paranoia and delusions of persecution, which is how I am treated by your agency and every other I beg for health care and justice from.

So 2 years ago I attempted to attend the court case by Tony Ellis of 3 mentally ill men for torture. I had already tried to take a case of torture myself against ACC and failed at court – I have proof of this. I had already begged your office and attorney-general to allow me to take a case and you both refused to acknowledge what was happening to me. I have been unable to get a lawyer to protect me and my rights in 15 years. I have a letter from my previous criminal lawyer that advises I have serious unmet legal needs. I can provide that if required – as I know you don’t believe anything I say.

Before attending the Tony Ellis trial I phoned High Court security and told them I would be protesting outside and attending court but would not be doing anything but watching – so I could learn how Mr Ellis presented the case so I could do one myself – as I couldn’t get a lawyer, was desperate to return to work and didn’t want to die of my disorder (which is highly dangerous according to all international evidence).

As I went into the court I was confronted by security and told I was not allowed to go, I became very upset as I had done everything required of me, I needed to know this information or I couldn’t get justice I desperately needed. I continued to walk into the court and was violently assaulted by security, I was crying and deeply upset. I had never been assaulted by security before in all my years of being arrested and protesting – I have video footage of some of what happened. When police arrived I was curled up in a ball on the floor against the wall, with a sign in front of me, distraught and traumatised, I have photos of the sign & me looking up at 6 men towering over me. Police arrested me and were very nice, I never resist arrest. I made a formal complaint of assault against High Court security, a complaint that was handled by Sgt Q Hoera, he interviewed me but did nothing about what happened. Even though I know the law, I know what security are allowed to do and they overstepped their authority and the law.

Around this time I was extremely unwell, still begging ACC to reinstate my care from 2009, still being ignored and impairments related to my disability being used against me. I had made multiple complaints to police under Sections 150A 151 155 157 of the Crimes Act, but was ignored. I was phoning ACC remote claims unit – which I had been dumped on because I was angry at being denied professional health care I am legally entitled to after winning 2 reviews – in an extremely unwell and psychotic state screaming at them to return my care.

When I asked for a copy of the recorded phone calls on their answerphone (remote claims NEVER answer the phone it is only an answerphone) under the Privacy Act I was told they did not keep copies of them and my request was denied. Around six weeks later police came to my home and told me they were going to charge me with misuse of a telephone for making the calls, I was overwhelmed with grief and distraught at this gross injustice.   I spent 3 months being dragged through court only to have charges dropped at the last minute.  ACC could only do this by providing a record of the answerphone messages.

Six weeks after the charges were dropped I had police come to my home again (I am terrified of police at my home after years of visits, many of which were extremely traumatising – I have nightmares about police coming to my home now). They told me they were charging me with misuse of a telephone yet again, for phoning ACC really unwell and screaming for help. I was horrified, I have serious RECOGNISED BY A PSYCHIATRIST communication issues when triggered and I couldn’t communicate with police at the time.

I composed myself and went to Carterton police station to find out what was going on -why where they doing this to me again? I was met with insults, degradation and appalling discrimination by the two officers Sgt Q Hoera and Constable Alan French. For 10 mins I was treated like this, trying to defend myself and tell them they were wrong, mental health and ACC were liars I was begging for care – they were saying lots of people had tried to help me and I didn’t want it – that is not true.

I became so angry, I didn’t swear (go tourettes) like I can do (which is a recognised impairment related to my disability) I went back to my car, got out a chalk pen, went back to the police station and drew a swastika & words corrupt on the window in front of them. That was to represent the appalling violation of my human rights – human rights I had as a result of the United Nations recognising how the NAZIs rose to power and putting laws in place to stop this happening again.

I was violently assaulted by these two officers – for my NON-VIOLENT PROTEST. I was subjected to hours of insults and discrimination, when I tried to defend myself verbally they became more abusive and threatened I WOULD SEE HOW BAD POLICE COULD BE IF I KEPT IT UP.   Threats I take extremely seriously considering what happened to Louise Nicholas for many years. I have also realised police are using psychological abuse – which is referred to as Gaslighting – to intimidate and drive my suicidal behaviour even more – they want me to commit suicide.

I want to be sick and tears are rolling down my face as I write this, I will have to self-harm to cope once it is finished.

After I was released I went home to NO SUPPORT and couldn’t tell friends and family either I was so traumatised. I emailed Mike Sutton of Masterton police and told him what had happened, I made a formal complaint to him and the IPCA, I was ignored. A few days later I woke up very very unwell and highly suicidal, covered in bruises, I went to local hospital A & E. When I got there I was very distraught the nurse asked me who had hurt me, I didn’t want to tell her, she had been nice up to that point. Once I said it was police her entire demeanour changed, she left me alone – which was extremely inappropriate in the circumstances. She then put me in another cubicle, left me on my own so terrorised I was rocking backwards and forwards on the bed. By the time a doctor came to see me I was curled up in a ball in the corner of the room rocking, banging my back against the wall to try and calm myself.

The doctor was very nice, he seemed to understand where the nurse was horrible. They recorded the bruising on my hands, my arm and down left side of my leg. I left and went home to no support.

That medical account was given as evidence during the court case for graffiti and wilful trespass I was being charged under – that the violent assault by police was being decided under.  Q Hoera and Alan French told the judge I was pushed up against the wall, when I was thrown onto the ground, which is why I had bruises on side of my left leg.

Nobody told me until the case went to court almost 18 months since the protests and assault that it would be dealt with during court proceedings for my protesting – about police being used by ACC to charge me with misuse of a telephone for screaming for help I am entitled to and desperately needed. I had received the CCTV footage of me being processed by police after the assault – it proves what they had done to me – it was never used in court. Neither was extensive other evidence as to why I was protesting. My lawyer at the time was a public defender with no experience in human rights, bill of rights or what was happening to me.

The lawyer demanded I take out my statement about what was happening to me.

I was acquitted of several other charges for protesting (as I have been multiple times before) but was charged with graffiti for the chalk pen swastika. The judge also made a judgement about the assault saying the officers were justified and not believing anything about the threats or the extent of violence – which I know was illegal. I have been arrested many times, police in Wellington HAVE NEVER treated me so violently. There is a culture of police violence against women in Wairarapa that is not being addressed and is getting worse – I have spoken to several other people now who have witnessed or experienced unnecessary violence towards women here.

I was extremely upset about yet another gross violation of my rights and justice. I became even more unwell and a series of events related to my currently UNSAFE UNSTABLE living situation caused me even further distress (these included a terrifying situation with a mentally ill man on a bracelet in community who had just got out of prison and wanted to live with me because I desperately needed a flatmate.) Which is another story and violation of my human and disability rights that you are currently ignoring.

To cope with what police had done, as I was becoming even more unwell, if that is possible – I went to Masterton police station two weeks ago (30 Jan) and threw red paint over the large white ribbon banner in the foyer. I left, chalked a swastika on the building then headed for Lower Hutt court where I chalked a comment about the very old judge who made the decision and a swastika. I then went to Wellington police station and handed myself in to police there, as I trusted them. They were very nice but made me talk about the police assault which was very upsetting, it was obvious they were uncomfortable with what Wairarapa police had done and the entire situation I was in.

I was given a bail notice to appear on 6th February and conditions that I wasn’t to go within 1 metre of a Wairarapa police station and was to stay every night at my current address. On 1 February a police officer came to my home (which police know I am terrified of), he was very nice and respectful, he told me the 6 Feb date was done in error and could I sign a new Notice of Police Bail that required me to attend court on Monday 5 February. I was told failure to appear would result in my arrest and the notice advises I may be punished by imprisonment of up to 3 months if I did not attend.

I was nervous about the court, as I have spent the past 18 months being dragged through court, I have to get mentally prepared to go, I get dressed up. I am very poor at the moment because I havn’t had a flatmate for past 3 months and had to drive to Masterton with my petrol light flashing – and stressing about that.

When I got there I went inside to tell security to call me when my name came up as I was going to wait outside – and had my guitar so I could sing my songs, which helps me feel less stressed.   I have been escorted from court several times for singing and getting upset inside the court. Court staff know it is better for me to be outside waiting, I don’t feel so trapped (the need to be outside is related to the rape and heightened fight flight and freeze response/impairment I now have). While I was outside singing at around 9am – I was at court at 8.30am as required by the notice.

I also chalked “STOP police violence towards disabled women” on the court fence, I have chalked in this way many times before and not been arrested for it, I know it is within my rights to do this considering the extent of persecution and human rights violations I have been subjected to over several years.

NOTE: I have made a formal complaint to about Judge PJ Butler over his decision and I am attempting to appeal the conviction for graffiti – or more accurately the POLICE ASSAULT decision. But I have been very unwell and still cannot get a lawyer so trying to do it myself.

Police came along outside court and handed me a summons to appear in court on 5 March. Told me I wouldn’t be going to court today. I was very confused, I needed to see the judge to plead and ask for a psych assessment regarding my mental health and motivation behind the blood protest. The WHITE RIBBON sign I threw red poster pain on said to SPEAK OUT ABOUT VIOLENCE TOWARDS WOMEN. I had spoken out and been victimised even more. I know how long court takes, I wanted to make sure things were done as quickly as possible and getting the judge to order an assessment with Justin Barry-Walsh (who I trust and has assessed me for court proceedings previously) would speed things up. Also I had to get a lawyer.

Police left and I went into the court to see the judge. The security guard was very odd, he told me I wasn’t on the court list and I wasn’t allowed in the court, to see a judge or the registrar. I became upset and was then told I was trespassed. I know every person has a right under Magna Carta to see a judge if they need to. I was told there was only a registrar and no judge that day – even though the police officer who came to my home said I would be see a judge. I was prepared to see the registrar but they refused to let me. A woman who works at the court came out from a room looking frightened, she said there was only a registrar, she knew something bad was happening to me I am sure.

I left the court and headed back to my car not far away, as I was three police officers came around the corner, the two who had given me the summons and another. There was one shorter police officer and two very tall ones – it was very intimidating. I have NEVER resisted arrest police know that, I have had situations in Wellington where one officer was sent to arrest me. Once I am told I am under arrest I comply with everything police say, unless it violates my rights.

I was very distressed at being required to be in court or I could spend time in jail, but told I didn’t need to be there and to come back in a month. I went home with my light still flashing, I was very upset, mostly because the behaviour by police was so blatantly part of the GASLIGHTING form of psychological abuse vulnerable people can be subjected to by people in positions of power over them, either abusive partners or abusive organisations like police. This is a well documented and accepted form of abuse in power relationships. This is why we have a Human Rights Act and supposed to be protected from this form of violence by those in positions of power.

As Tuesday was a holiday on Wednesday I headed for Wellington early to see a judge or the registrar so I could have my court case moved to Wellington as it was obvious to me I was never going to get justice at the Masterton Court and the police station is behind the court house. I am terrified of Wairarapa police after years of discrimination and harm that you and other organisations suppose to protect me ignore.

I knew I had to see a judge but there were none available at Wellington District Court which I found strange, given it was a city court. I asked to see the registrar to explain what had happened and get the court proceedings moved. I talked to a Chinese man who was difficult to understand because of his accent, he was horrible, when I started to cry recounting what was going on he became insulting and patronising, when I told him it was police who were harming me he got worse. Because I was upset security were called to stand behind me and intimidate me – I was sodomised by the rapist from behind I get nervous when men stand behind me.

I then spoke to another person in the registrar’s office at Wellington District Court, all the woman said was for me to calm down – ie not cry and be completely distraught. She didn’t help me get to see the registrar to get court changed and arrange a psych report (as has been done before when I have gone through court for protesting about not receiving mental health care I am entitled to by law). Then she told security to remove me without helping me. A large woman with blond hair was by this stage standing behind her with a look of complete contempt on her face – a manager perhaps.

I left with security, but asked to see a lawyer on the 2nd floor, which I was allowed to do. This lawyer – who I will get the name of soon – listened to what was happening for just a short time, took my two Bail notices and summons off me, told me they were police documents and nothing to do with the court and I should leave. I was shocked, this wasn’t right advice and I knew that, I left with security. The lawyer told me if I wanted the court venue changed it was police I had to ask. I was scared to go to them but I had no choice.

I then went to Wellington police station as the lawyer told me and explained the situation. They told me I could not get court venue changed unless I changed my plea to guilty. But I hadn’t been able to plead because they wouldn’t let me in the court (even if I was going to plead not guilty I still hadn’t told the court that). The police officer was very nice, I was very very upset, he knew what was happening to me was wrong. He ended up agreeing it was a judge or registrar that would need to change the court venue – as I was now terrified of being in Masterton knowing what they were capable of. I kept saying I was sorry to him, for being so upset and that I had to complain about what police in Wairarapa were doing to me.

I left the police station and headed for the Community Law Centre where I sat waiting for 2 hours, crying mostly. I saw two women and told them my story, they said I really needed a lawyer and listed three on the form they gave me – I was distraught, begged them to find me a lawyer as when I ever tried I was rejected – they refused saying they weren’t allowed. I have since phoned those three lawyers one of them was not a criminal lawyer and couldn’t do it – the other two weren’t taking on new clients. I then remembered why I stopped going to Community Law Centre (I had been there about 5 times in past 14 years) because they always told me I needed a lawyer, referred me to people who were too busy or refused to help me because it wasn’t their area of expertise. This is a violation of my Magna Carta rights, and I know it.

Because I am now terrified of Wairarapa police and security at Masterton Court house I know I won’t be able to attend the summons on 5 March – I have no mental health support and impairments related to my disorder will stop me from going – I become phobic and unable to move when I am very unwell. I would then break the law and then police will come to my home and violently arrest me – I don’t want that, but I can’t go to Masterton court, I know I can’t. This is an impairment related to my disability and must be accommodated if possible under Human Rights and Bill of Rights laws.

When I spoke to Community Law lawyers they told me I was right in applying to the registrar in Wellington, they suggested the reason court staff were so insulting is they don’t like dealing with lay-people. If a lawyer was representing me they would have treated them with respect at the request to shift venues and most likely agreed, considering the proof of years of victimisation and police violence.

I desperately need a lawyer but there are none, I can’t appear in court in Masterton because of impairments related to my disorder, God please help me – what do I do? I have phoned dozens of lawyers, every rejection causes me to self-harm and is extremely harmful and degrading.

I contact politicians and senior police who supposed to take complaints of harm seriously – they refuse to do anything. I am a Civil Society Actor as defined by the United Nations it is illegal to use processes in a punitive way, which is exactly what is happening to me. I have contacted the United Nations, they told me you would help me and protect me, but you never have.


Yours sincerely


Civil Society Actor




Budget Policy Statement 2018 – New Zealand



Yet another submission to government that I know will not be considered because it does not fit the neo-liberal agenda and demands immediate action on the terrorism of an entire sector of society after 30years of this illegal, immoral and irrational economic model.


It has been my contention for many years it is government PRIORITES that had become illegal/immoral by violating our most basic laws of Westminister Statute 1st – Common right be done to all rich as poor, and Magna Carta – no person shall be destroyed and every person shall have access to right and justice. They also violate Commonwealth Charter, NZ Bill of Rights, ACC legislation, disability, human & civil rights laws and multiple SIGNED United Nations declarations. Then of course there is the violation of Christianity -which our laws are based on and every sociology and psychology rule about causes of violence & social dysfunction.


Government kindness was

Never an OPTION


Cruelty was always



It is obvious people in power have started to realise those of us impoverished and persecuted by this economic terrorism aren’t going to take any more of it and our appalling statistics in child suicide, homelessness, addiction, violence, corporate greed, inequality etc is proof. I am sure there will be many others like me demanding to get gross injustices we have experienced addressed and compensated in a Court of New Zealand. I am sure this is why you are so focused on CHILD POVERTY and not dealing with the damage the past 30 yrs of adult poverty has caused – which our mental health stats reflect (and international drug companies profit from/along with justice system). You don’t want to deal with all those abuse victims who driven mad due to lack of services they entitled to – which included safe homes to live in and decent jobs if they older. You don’t want to deal with those of us demanding compensation for the torture and suffering we have been through – demanding justice.

You have mentioned child poverty 14 times in this one document, every one of those was an insult to the parents of these children who are obviously living in poverty as well. Of course elites like to pretend these parents are all losers, drink and drug and don’t care about their kids – which is NOT TRUE. Although many of the parents that are dysfunctional in this way are abuse victims themselves and never got the help they are entitled to and needed under ACC/disability laws/disability strategy/professional rehabilitation models to heal from their trauma and STOP the cycle. I know this for a fact because I live this grossly unjust nightmare – where media and government continuously say they don’t know what to do yet allow ACC to deny disabled mentally injured abuse victims our entitlements. I have spent the past 15 years since I was raped understanding the violence industry, law, human rights etc – I’ve been rotting on welfare, I have the time and I work very long hours and weeks without a break.


You refer to the Governments Budget Responsibility Rules, which I am sure National party have been violating for the past eight years, that makes me nervous, cause it indicates you are going to continue to give BUDGET constraints, as an excuse to deny disabled people safe stable homes to live in NOW! (People in Carterton who know how bad housing crisis is here was asking why aren’t govt bringing in the army, prefab homes like they had in Christchurch?)


Addressing housing and infrastructure crisis over years, while continuing with extreme levels of immigration is grossly irresponsible and illegal under Imperial Laws. Immigrants are driving New Zealanders out of their homes, businesses and jobs – you have made that legal and any sociologist will tell you it creates racism and violence. Humans have been fighting off invaders that take their most basic resources since BEGINNING OF HUMANS. Having this sort of environment will be triggering the basic instincts of all those affected – another reason people are becoming violent, cruel, addicted and committing suicide.


I’m not a social deficit and mental health infrastructure was purposely destroyed by Annette King and the Labour party, people thrown into the community without professional care & safe stable homes to live in. Everybody knows this, it is common knowledge, it is also common knowledge many mentally ill people caused significant harm and ended up in our justice system instead. I know for a fact as psych hospitals emptied, prisons filled and our judiciary were completely complicit with this gross miscarriage of justice against an entire sector of society. I have seen it myself watching court for just over an hour, 12 cases, four of them identified as mental health, four more I identified as mental health (ie violence as a result of Complex PTSD and severe stress) and four more deserved to be there.


I find it extremely threatening that government would want to invest more in police, when they are the ones who currently leading the way in persecution of mentally injured abuse victims and mentally ill. Why would you need more investment in police if you are going to help poorest people get safe stable homes and jobs? Or are you in complete denial at the inhuman environment people are being forced to live in – a living and social environment that satisfies Maslows Heirachy of Needs model (a model I satisfy on no levels – which is why I have been unable to recover from the sexual abuse and neglect trauma) which is why I am highly suicidal, self-harm, bulimic, attachment disorder, tick, have Complex PTSD and live rotting on welfare when I am an intelligent person treated like human sewage.


I have seen a new department start about evidence based policing, you managed to get something like this going in the first 100 days but you can’t address the 1000s of us who make complaints about police that are ignored. I have written to several Ministers telling them about ongoing police intimidation and violence – my own MP Kieran McNaulty emailed me recently and told me there was nothing he would or could do about it. Many of my activist friends in area of ABUSE have heard the same thing from those in the government they were relying on for justice and compensation. (NOTE: compensation that would see them at the same economic level of their peers, which they were unable to realise due to impacts of their abuse and criminal neglect.)




The admission in such an important and formal document that some New Zealanders have not received the benefits of economic growth using neo-liberal theories is an admission previous govts have violated the Westminister Statute 1st and Magna Carta. I am sure many in the legal profession would be aware that when a poor peasant has these rights to protection and safety illegally removed by rich powerful people THEY NO LONGER HAVE TO FOLLOW ANY LAW – the contract between rich and poor that created our justice system has been violated. Our ancestors were quite aware of human behaviour and knew allowing rich unbridled power over poor only ever resulted in suffering and violence, hence the increase in violence in our society, people with nothing to lose. Who now get more of their basic needs met in jail than in the community – although I do think this was designed like this purposely to support a corrupted cruel immoral and criminal penal system & create jobs (where many had been driven out of the country to China and poorer countries with few human rights).


It terrifies me with the focus on FAMILIES as it purposely limits any support for some of the most terrorised and persecuted members of society after 30yrs of neo-liberal terrorist policies, disabled people without children or whose children have left home. (NOTE, neo-liberal policies are terrorist acts as I have read the Terrorism Suppression Act and you are not allowed to impoverish large sectors of society for a belief system.)


Government acceptance and happiness with a 4% unemployment rate is grossly unjust neo-liberalism at its worst. In one breath you are saying you want to increase trade and employment, while in the next you are saying you’re happy with 4% unemployment. It is obvious if free trade was going to FIX unemployment in New Zealand it would have happened after the Chinese FTA. I find it interesting the number of unemployed is about the same number as disabled people and it is true from my experience, those who can’t get work most often have disabilities.


In recent OPINIONATED news from NZ Initiative (ie Business Round Table terrorists) the appalling statistics of people with injuries/illness/disabilities who now don’t work compared to pre-neoliberalism was offset by comment by AAAP members, a group of social activists. There was no discussion with disability advocacy groups, Workbridge or WINZ employment consultants as to the facts of what happening.   NZ Initiative implied these disabled people worked through their impairments but now they are too lazy too. I have attended many meetings by many different organisations and the fact is employers refuse to employ disabled people due to cost and OSH requirements.


It makes me very sad to think the massive increase in productivity in New Zealand was mostly due to disabled people being dumped from the workforce. I have never met a disabled person that isn’t desperate to work – at something they are capable of doing without suffering and being bored into suicide (like they do in China). I have studied health disability and rehabilitation at Massey University, the book Person to Person outlined the plight of disabled people over decades – we are the ones last to be employed and first to be fired.


Any employer will hire something who can work faster than another – that is why orchardists prefer to hire healthy strong Fijians on their orchards rather than less able New Zealand workers. With the mass immigration government are continuing (at their peril) it is quite obvious disabled people will continue to be denied work, safe stable homes and a dignified standard of living.


The obsession with education in neo-liberal countries has got to stop, we cannot all be what we want and trying to perpetrate that illusion is one of the reasons we have such a high rate of youth suicide. Someone has to clean toilets and make 100s latte’s every day for years. If we were all lifted out of poverty by education then who would do this type of work.


That the government are going to stop bringing in low skilled workers and continue to import highly skilled wealthy people is a NEO-LIBERAL ABOMINATION. So what you are saying are New Zealanders, especially our young are going to be doing the menial, low paid, low skilled, boring work, while foreigners are going to get the good, interesting, well paid jobs. This appalling aspect of neo-liberalism HAS destroyed the entire fabric of our society and violated so many cultural and criminal laws it still astounds me it is allowed to continue. Of course I am resentful when a foreigner moves to Carterton with a good job I could have done if given the opportunity – if my kids had been given the opportunity. Of course I am prone to Xenophobia – ie hating all immigrants and seeing them as a threat to my survival – because they are – its not their fault of course, its our corrupt, cruel and incompetent governments fault. Same people who hold themselves up as knights and dames with high moral fibre. Watching the hypocrisy and these gross injustices every day is the main reason I want to die every day as well – as I have no hope while this is not acknowledged and rectified IMMEDIATELY – not in four years!


Treasury are corrupt – I know that for a fact and their forecasts that migration will drop from 72,400 to a long-run average of 15,000 by 2021 is absolutely ridiculous and not based on any FACT whatsoever. The world’s population is growing at an alarming rate, millions of people displaced by war, lack of water/resources etc requires those places like New Zealand that can sustain humans are going to fill up faster. Also many people are trying to escape the violence of other neo-liberal controlled countries more progressed than ours, like USA – Americans are high on immigration list. Sadly they are bringing with them their vindictive, self-righteous and cruel cultural beliefs about advancing rich, profiting from everything possible, including those they put in jail – the American prison system is the most corrupt, cruel and grossly unjust in the world today according to multiple documentaries coming out about it.


I did not see one mention of the appalling state of justice system for disabled/mentally ill and poor people who are now having their Magna Carta rights violated – as I am – I have been unable to get a lawyer to protect me from civil rights violations, ACC illegally withholding my entitlements and harm by police etc FOR YEARS. Apparently civil legal aid lawyers are almost impossible to find, human rights is considered civil law, which I find extremely disturbing considering the level of violence and suffering people like me are subjected to. Only those in the legal system would understand just how bad it is – because our bias media mostly refuse to address or report on it. While Justice Winkleman makes speeches about how poor citizens up against powerful government institutions are having their rights to justice violated. She writes about it and speaks about it – but this gross miscarriage of justice goes on unchecked. I have written to her several times – I am not even given the respect of a reply and the Secretary for Justice just trivialises or discredits anything I say about gross violations of law.


When considering what priorities the government should have over the next term I would suggest beginning at those points where people’s rights are being violated are the most important. I know for a fact disabled people must have access to social housing in a society like New Zealand. All resources currently devoted to infrastructure or commercial construction should be moved to urban development IMMEDIATELY. (Personally I think a percentage of private construction resources should be diverted as well.) If the government did this then the immigration issue would not be as socially damaging as it is now. It is people losing resources to rich foreigners that is causing the hatred and racism. No person should be allowed in this country unless they have somewhere to live AND NO NEW ZEALANDER SHOULD BE KICKED OUT OF THEIR HOME by an immigrant.


Imagine the social repair to our society that would happen if we were allowed to help each other. With all disabled people in state provided housing (that could be with state loans) it would free up property for others who need it, it would bring down rental costs dramatically (which I know rich people, neo-liberals and National party right DO NOT WANT). It would take the profit out of property and stabilise the accommodation market. Of course it would cause a huge financial crash which would have to be managed by banking regulation – but then it is banking deregulation behind so much suffering, waste, greed and pollution of our entire planet. Money that was created from thin air in the form of a loan to someone who did not work for any of it. (This is why ANZ bank now funds so much elitist sport, cause they have most of the money – it overwhelmes me to think how much money banks take out of our economy in the form of interest – how much suffering they create.)


For 30 years taxes to the rich have been reduced while taxes to the poor continually increase. When the government said they weren’t going to reinstate higher taxes to the rich I was horrified.   They have all the money, they have taken all the money, they are the ones using to harm people as well, they gloat about their wealth everywhere in our media, they are grossly wasteful while others are forced to be frugal to the point they can’t participate in society or fulfil cultural beliefs (eg can’t go home for Xmas, can’t go on holiday cause can’t afford it).


Every time you go on about child poverty and delivering more money to families with children I cry. Every impoverished and disabled parent is humiliated and denigrated with this patronising insulting elitist ‘propaganda’ – it is the parents who are poor, not the children. The propaganda about poor people is rife and based on no scientific understanding of what causes poverty and family violence. New Zealand has extreme rates of family violence in New Zealand because of the radical application of neo-liberal theories – academics have spoken about NZ going from one of the most protected and controlled countries in the world to THE MOST unprotected and free economies. A fact that saw 100,000s families broken forever as people were forced to move to Australia and other countries to find work – while the rich got richer and the disabled poor who couldn’t leave were persecuted (yes I have a dictionary and know what the word means and it is appropriate to use).


When I was a disabled single mum with children, after being hurt in a violent sexual crime, I was much better off than a disabled single woman with nowhere safe and stable to live, forced to go flatting with people who exploited, victimised and terrorised me (as well as attempting suicide and them and me getting no help). As my children came of the age to leave home it was horrendous for me and them – I had lost my own home after I was raped and couldn’t return to work or my law studies – as ACC refused to provide entitlements.


Knowing I am a destitute disabled woman living on welfare in this hell hole of a country, is why I continuously battle suicide, as I have absolutely no hope for the future. The government even put out advertising saying if people didn’t save for their retirement they wouldn’t have enough food to eat – did anybody think they were showing these advertisements to disabled people who had no way of saving for the future – they don’t get enough to live with dignity now.


Also families being better off by $66 a week – is completely insignificant in the scheme of raises in rent and other costs that can’t be avoided, including the extreme cost of food – $5.50 for 500g butter, $25/kilo for fish – cause we have to compete with rest of world & what they will pay. Then of course there are the costs we now face of education, health and justice – all introduced by neo-liberals to cut taxes to the rich and impoverish the poor.


I know about disability, I know about laws related to disabled people and their rights, I have read the disability strategy I know for a fact disabled people’s rights to participate in society are not upheld, neither are their rights to housing and WORK. Please refer to my website SOLUTIONS page about what should be happening in the area of rehabilitation for mentally injured abuse victims. www.jrmurphypoet.com


Please refer to my regional rehabilitation centres idea and regional mental health facilities – we must heal those who have been damaged by the past 30years of neo-liberal terrorism because WE ARE NOT going to be ignored. Germany recognised their human rights violations and what they had done to Disabled, gypsies and Jews, they gave compensation – what has happened in New Zealand is very similar (except many were driven to suicide & profited from in jails) and those who been harmed will demand this injustice is addressed and rectified – I demand it.


Government should have NO DEBT WHATSOEVER they should be in credit and loaning it others. The idea that any group could run up debt by cutting taxes to the rich then forcing poor top pay massive amounts of interest to foreign banks is extremely corrupt, incompetent, negligent and immoral. No council should have private debt either, user pays is part of neo-liberalism and DOES NOT WORK. Places like Masterton spent $millions of rates on doing up sports grounds, parks, business centres etc – while illegally not doing anything about things like sewerage infrastructure (eg Masterton mayor Bob Francis).


HOME OWNERSHIP IS A CULTURAL RIGHT that is currently being violated. This began during Gov Grey era 1900s, as I have done history research on Grey and Small Farms Settlement at Greytown. Grey knew then what landlords were capable of, after seeing what had happened to tenant farmers in Ireland during potato famin. He wanted peasants to have opportunity to own/work land. Personally I prefer the Maori model of land ownership, as caretaker of land and I do not believe any corporation of foreigner should EVER own land in this country. Making peasants tenants is a neo-liberal terrorist ideology that, like I said, is a violation of our cultural rights. The current level of foreign takeover of our resources HAS GOT TO STOP – and the lies that this is imperative for New Zealand to survive HAS GOT TO STOP AS WELL.


I disagree with the priorities in the 100 day plan, as a mentally injured/ill suicidal abuse victim, rotting on welfare in unsafe unstable private housing with no health care and having my human and civil rights violated NOTHING in that package has helped me IN ANY WAY.


The idea of yet another inquiry into mental health, when we all know what the problems are is insulting to my intelligence and 15 years of fighting for the treatment care rehabilitation and justice I am entitled to under the law – both under National and Labour governments. We don’t need to restart the Mental Health Commission we need to provide professional care using professional health and rehabilitation models – we need to follow the law and science, not the experimental and harmful system we currently have.


We do need an inquiry into corruption by drug companies in the area of mental health and the forced drugging of mentally injured abuse victims (who being refused professional care) and mentally ill. The drugging of people terrorised by poverty, housing and food insecurity. I know Mark Unsworth is an ex-drug company executive and I believe was sent here and set up his PR business in 1993 just to ensure drug companies made profit from those the government was about to impoverish and terrorise PURPOSELY.


I’m sorry I can’t go on, I have become really unwell and can’t stop crying, the injustices me and so many other neglected disabled mentally injured abuse victims are being subjected to by government and our communities overwhelms me.


I am unable to proof read what I have written either, so I hope it is OK, please ignore spelling and grammar mistakes. I am sure I have not covered everything I want to say but I do always hope I will one day get a voice with those who have power in government to change the gross injustice happening to me and many other women children and men.


Kia kaha and Aroha to us all



Civil Society Actor


19 January 2018

I DEMAND Donna Howard NZ POLICE deal with police assault – TODAY – #16DAYSOFACTION2017

I will take the focus off NZ police violence against me and others during my current protests if Insp Donna Howard DEALS WITH what happened, I get justice & to meet with the two officers.


The officer who assaulted me gets counselling, a written warning and a record of it on his file.

The officer who threatened me with future increased  violence, gets a written warning and has it recorded on his file.

They have to meet with me in a safe place so I can tell them what they did to me and how it affected my life.

I demand an apology and assurance there will be no future violence towards me if I have any future dealings with police in my Civil Society activism work.

I wish I could slap their faces for what they did – BUT I DON’T HIT MEN AS A RULE!

A sczophrenic man once told me DON’T TRUST VIOLENCE – and I don’t – shame the police and New Zealand government don’t hold the same high standards – like those ones in the bible they swear an oath to as an agent of The Queen.

I will put my focus about violence towards women back on the shoulders of New Zealands leaders – exactly where it belongs.

I have a traumatic stress disorder that is compounding if I DON’T or can’t deal with stressful situations in my life it makes my  mental health much worse.  Getting an apology and assurance of no future violence from those two officers IS DEALING WITH IT – while it remains un-dealt with it causes me significant stress and harm – that fuels my suicidality, self-harm, bulimia etc.

Please make it stop – that’s all I’m asking, please take at least one serious stress and worry out of my life.  Please make me stop thinking every time I hear a car in my street it is police coming to get me.  Please stop me from being too scared to protest about abusive mental health services, poverty and injustice.

As a woman I am deeply disappointed in the conduct of Insp Donna Howard, IPCA and New Zealand’s most senior police officers who have allowed this to continue – while promoting White Ribbon propaganda.  It breaks my heart every time I see a piece of marketing about violence towards women & then it makes me really really angry!

Then I can stuff down all the fear I feel and go out in the community and tie a whole lot of white ribbons outside the police station, or chalk a fence or the footpath, or put up a sign I have painted, or put a poem on youtube……

Took OIA request to find out all trespasses

All the places I am ILLEGALLY TRESPASSED FROM – those people and organisations who are terrified at seeing the face of those they terrorise in the darklands of this neo-liberal hell hole of a country.  Had to do a Official Information Act request just to get them

Email to John Key – I am an Activist NOT a Terrorist

Good day chalking in Wellington, John Key was out on a walk so I vented and bollocked the fk out of him – called him a fkn murderer stopping people getting mental health services, stopping people from having safe houses to live in, etc – was really hard for me as I was assaulted by his security officers last time.  Was threatened with arrest again by one of them but stood up to him, told me to leave the area, told him NO WAY, PUBLIC STREET AND I WASN’T MOVING AND I HAD EVERY RIGHT TO SWEAR AT HIM!   When I went into question time about an hour later, same officer escorted me and sat directly behind me – its quite amusing now cause I know I’m never going to do anything while in the house, CAUSE I’M AN ACTIVIST NOT A TERRORIST – never have been violent and never will.

Below is the email I sent to John Key in response to today, I like to reassure him, as I know he’s a frightened bully and a coward.

Sent: Tuesday, 29 November 2016 8:58 p.m.
To: John Key
Subject: I am an activist not a terrorist

Hi John,

I swore at you again on the street today and got threatened with arrest by one of your security staff.  If you can’t handle the language of New Zealanders who are being persecuted by your violent, immoral, criminally negligent policies then you shouldn’t be in Parliament.  I’m a NON-VIOLENT activist, doesn’t stop me venting at you verbally and I never threaten harm, unlike your bullies threaten me – I just tell you what you are doing and that I don’t like it.

Reason I ‘lose it’ when I see you, is you have not been listening to me and 100,000s of other struggling New Zealanders – especially those of us who are disabled by abuse, trauma and neglect.  Not having a safe home to live in is abuse/trauma/neglect; not getting the health care I am legally entitled to from ACC etc so I can heal from the rape and return to work is abuse/trauma/neglect; not listening to what I know about the science behind violence, addiction, suicide and stress disorders is abuse/trauma/neglect; being told I am abusive when I politely tell my MP Alastair Schott how bad ‘the system’ is, is abuse/trauma/neglect; not listening to what I know people are entitled to under law & science is abuse/trauma/neglect; having me dragged through court repeatedly for legally protesting in a non-violent way is abuse/trauma/neglect – I could go on…………..

You were the one who stopped my ACC care illegally in 2009, you ordered ACC to dump 10,000s of claimants and you didn’t care how they did it either.  Of course I am angry with you A LOT of people are, but they don’t tell you and your supporters to their face, like I do.  I despise all people who vote National and if I get the opportunity I tell them that they are the ones who vote for the ongoing cruelty – although from watching the house today I’m not sure if your party are even mentally stable any longer.  Only time I cried today was when Nick Smith was going on about how great government have done with housing?  NOT ONE THING he said would help me get a safe house to live in in Wairarapa – as we don’t have state houses here and proceeds from Trust House (sick sick name) all go to extravagant sports and arts projects and business.  How do you expect a person with CPTSD to heal if they aren’t in a safe place – it is impossible?

This email gives John Key the authority to view my ACC, police, justice and medical file – I have nothing to hide, as I’m sure your security team will already know.  Speaking of them, they didn’t like it when I called them aholes as I was leaving the Parliament today, I realised later that was retaliation for the officer who threatened me when I swore at you in the street – which you deserved – please tell them that.

Lots of people don’t like you, but you’re not the worst in Parliament, Bill English, Nick Smith, Christopher Finlayson, Judith Collins, Anne Tolley, Paula Bennett, Simon Bridges and Amy Adams are.

Have you worked it out yet, 30 yrs of neo-liberal terrorists advancing rich, disadvantaging middle class, persecuting disabled poor, driving decent jobs overseas, cutting state housing, selling off public infrastructure, privatising everything possible and putting in hands of greedy immoral people, cutting health care and making welfare SO SO SO degrading has bought us to now and the seething angry resentful ignorant bigoted country we have become.  Trumped again.

Now if I could get the ACC care I am entitled to, or any other of those mental health services you go on about – that don’t actually work and aren’t actually there for disabled people like myself, then maybe I wouldn’t be so angry and ‘lose it’ when I see you.  Before I was raped and treated like human sewage by those agencies who were legally supposed to help me, I seldom swore and definitely not in public – you and your ignorant supporters have driven me to this.

I chalked some things on the footpath outside Supreme court and across from Parliament for you.  A poem called You’re Cruel I’m Blamed (Google it, check out my website jrmurphypoet.com) was very apt after what your security officer said to me.  Plus I made comments about neo-liberals being terrorists and how the judiciary was participating in this cruelty and criminal negligence – that there were laws in this country that say you cannot advance rich at the same time as disadvantaging poor, you are not allowed to destroy people (like you have destroyed me) and everybody must have access to justice, which of course I don’t – unless I get charged with legally protesting, which I will get off AGAIN.  I can only imagine the amount of money I have cost since I was raped by a badly abused child who didn’t get help he was entitled to, would have been lots cheaper to provide me the treatment care and rehabilitation I am entitled to under ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws.  As you know from my website me and 1000s of others already know the solutions, YOU CHOOSE not to do them, sad when I know this could be an international business that could bring peace to so many countries.

I find it EXTREMELY offensive when you (and Nick Smith today) wear the white ribbon when you know you create 80% of this violence by traumatising and degrading people.  You refuse to provide professional and adequate mental health services and facilities, you refuse to provide safe housing (mentally ill have had housing issues for years – and majority of people in state houses were from troubled homes.)  You and your neo-liberal terrorist friends created this, then you make money out of it – ahhh THE VIOLENCE INDUSTRY.

One day you will realise just how much suffering and harm you caused so many people in this country, who did not deserve it.  When history looks back at your time as Prime Minister it will be in disgust at what you and your supporters/controllers did.  Karma



Civil Society Actor



New Zealand Police vs JR Murphy

After phoning Police Headquarters Complaint Investigation Unit about huge delay in dealing with police assault in August, I received a phone call from Insp Donna Howard who took over Wairarapa District earlier this year.  What Insp Howard said to me yesterday (18/11/2016) is really pissing me off so I need to write about it, I will send the link to her as well.  Towards the end of our conversation about police phoning me if they have someone phone them ‘concerned for my welfare’, she started saying I should be respectful of HER staff, that I shouldn’t swear at them.  Told her since I was assaulted by one of HER officers I had little respect for them and how dare she expect me to after what they have put me through.  I hung up or I would have started swearing and sent her an email, explaining briefly why I got angry.

Felt I needed to explain the backstory to my rage and disgust in police, especially in the Wairarapa where I live.  Also my disability is Compounding CPTSD, so all the unresolved trauma police have caused builds up, which is why I was having nightmares and was so frightened by noises of cars in my street that police were coming to get me.

It was always a rule of mine not to swear at the police and I didn’t for years, even if several times I wanted to.  My brother in law a Snr Sgt, he told me what to do, not to swear or say the P word.  It wasn’t until they started being vindictive and mean, stripping me naked in the cells and demanding I remove my underwear even when I had my period; charging me with bogus minor crimes then dropping the charges at the last minute or losing the case (around 10 times since illegally ACC withdrew all my care in 2009 and I started protesting).

Taking me up to the cells when they didn’t need to, being violent and degrading (violently arresting me Xmas Eve 2014, refusing me shoes & a jersey when I was sick with flu).  Basher insulting me at home, telling me if I was broke (and I was) that I should sell my furniture –  furniture my friends had given me.  Sykes gossiping about me around town telling people not to let their children come to my house because I was a nutter, another officer hiding a formal complaint over the Xmas Eve event.  Then of course there were the repeated welfare visits (more than 50) which were embarrassing and my neighbours saw.  Most officers were nice but ignored when I said about ACC or mental health refusing me services.

Then there was the late night welfare visit at 11pm earlier this year which was very traumatic for me.  The welfare visit I was taken to Masterton and charged with Misuse of a Telephone for phoning ACC screaming to have my care reinstated (as I had done many times with no response).

  • My case manager had phoned April 2014 telling me my care would be reinstated as it was in 2009, I spent 15 minutes confirming this.  All that happened was I had to do another traumatic assessment with Dr Doris in Auckland, had to catch plane up and back in 1 day, lots of things I had to pay for.  I was very unwell and needed my care back it was psychological torture to be told it would be, telling all my family and friends it would be, then nothing happened.  I still have absolutely no services and my doctor is hopeless – although she wrote to them weeks ago asking why  my care was withdrawn and why it hasn’t been reinstated, just like other doctors have done, and had no response.

Years ago I discovered Sections 150A 151 155 and 157 of the Crimes Act, I know ACC are violating these laws and police have continuously refused to prosecute them.  One officer did look into it but after several months of hope, told me police ‘didn’t know who to prosecute’ so refused to go any further (ACC are a limited liability company, my case manager, the CEO and Chair Paula Rebstock should have been charged – of course there needed to be a thorough investigation to identify others persecuting me but it was never done).  So when ACC phoned and wanted me prosecuted for an extremely minor charge of course I was extremely upset with police – and why should I have any respect for them – they are supposed to uphold the law for me, protect people like me, not just rich and powerful at ACC (who are illegally refusing me and so many others disabled by abuse care and leaving me in harmful situations).

Then of course there are all my protests and the charges I have got off there, that should never have been taken and I told them that over and over again, that I was within my rights, under Bill of Rights laws.

Another vindictive mean thing they did was keep me in the cells overnight twice, where I broke down in the morning both times.  First time was for breaching trespass notice for parliament – I was outside the building – after being told by police they wouldnt’ arrest me the week before, this day they did.  I overhead one of the officers tell another that the order had come down from upstairs (because they wanted to let me go).  My girls were 14 and 15 then and were left home alone.  Also there was already case law that said people can protest on Parliament grounds even if trespassed previously.

Next time was week before Xmas 2014 I violated bail conditions and did a protest at Justice House, I was very unwell, singing, reciting poetry and had my naked torso painting.  I didn’t know I would have to stay and was really upset, was told by police a lawyer couldn’t get me out – found out that was wrong.  Because I have mental health issues they are not allowed to hold you in the cells for longer than six hours – I’m sure the cop didn’t know BUT I should have seen a lawyer.

Also was arrested for not appearing in court – because I couldn’t afford to get there and was traumatised by what had happened in 2013.  Police waited two weeks then picked me up 8am 2 January, a public holiday and my birthday, which they knew.  Initially was angry and traumatised by this, then couldn’t stop laughing on way to court – the shear stupidity and vindictiveness of police was laughable.  Had my kids home for a visit, had a day of things planned I had to delay for three hours.  Other person seeing judge that day was a man who had beaten up his partner and wanted to get out of the cells.  I had done nothing but a non-violent protest begging for my health care to be reinstated by ACC so I could get back to work.

Then of course there was the violent arrest during the Rugby World Cup where I had been protesting outside ACC building and police were called.  I had vented and was really angry but ready to leave when police arrived (I never threatened anybody with harm but called them maggots and swore at them several times).  One officer went inside to talk to staff and one stayed with me and refused to let me leave – other officer came out without speaking and slammed a handcuff on my right wrist.  I freaked out – my stress disorder – pulled away from him like I was being attacked onto the ground screaming in fear, my wrist still attached to his arm.  Have been scared of handcuffs since and always ask, then beg, for them not to be used (nice police officers don’t use them).  You are not allowed to arrest a person like that, you are supposed to warn them they are under arrest etc.  I blame the Sgt who sent two young men to deal with a disabled female protester, as they were having to deal with violent rugby fans every night and just used same tactics on me – inappropriately.

Then of course there were the insults and discrimination that prompted me to chalk pen a swastika onto the Carterton police station.  Telling me I was a liar, that lots of people had tried to help me – I just didn’t want it.  Telling me I was protesting all the time and made it my job because I was mentally ill, again that I was a liar and nobody was being discriminated against or refused care they entitled to.  That my protesting was a joke, that they weren’t scared of me like the others – which showed they were being vindictive.  Threatened in very menacing way if I didn’t stop protesting my innocence and rights under law, saying I had just been assaulted and talking about ACC etc that I would find out just how mean and nasty the officer could become if he wanted.

Why would anybody be scared of me, I’m a single woman with a disability, no partner so no protection from a man, isolated from my family and most of my community – police have an entire force to back them up and they do rightly or wrongly.  Not all police are mean, but those who aren’t are allowing others to do it and not saying anything -which makes them almost as bad.

Then the assault 🙁 then 3 hours of being held at Masterton Police Station, went into shock after the assault (had only just got over a bad flu week before) refused a blanket.  Tried to make me catch bus home, ended up curled up in a ball in the corner of station banging my back on wall repeating over and over I can’t catch the bus.  left for an hour in even colder part of police station at the front desk.  Cowering from people who walked past, head down, rocking and whimpering that I was cold and wanted to go home.  Go home to a flatmate who didn’t speak and not able to tell any of my friends or family what had happened.  Having no counsellor, social worker, psychologist etc I could tell either.  I did tell my doctor but she ignored it.

Also police have not acted on my complaint of assault by High Court Security in July 2016 when violently detained for wanting to attend court case of Tony Ellis taking government to court over Torture and Inhuman Treatment, which I tried to do and failed previous year, couldn’t get a lawyer and so wanted to see how to do it myself.

Just remembered another police thing where I was arrested at Police HQ earlier this year for getting angry and swearing during a marketing promotion about Its Not OK – went there and started yelling how it wasn’t OK to withhold health care, not have safe homes for people, leaving them with dangerous flatmates, make things worse for them, etc etc.  Usually I would have been 30 mins in police station, given a warning and let go – this time I was held in the cells for five hours to see mental health, who they know I am petrified of and just swear at, then let go.

My complaints to IPCA are also being ignored – apparently I make too many of them – I have made 6 complaints over 8 years (3 in past six months), as soon as I started making complaints things deteriorated with police in Wairarapa.  Police in Wellington nowhere near as bad, especially with the insults, degradation and way I am treated.

All of this I have experienced at the hands of police and I have done my upmost best to stay civil to those who are nice to me – even when I see the uniform and am overwhelmed by all the bad things people in that uniform have done.  So when Inspector Howard says I should not swear or be disrespectful of her officers anybody would understand why I find it extremely difficult and have ever right to talk to them the way I do when they are mean and disrespectful.

Sorry this post is a bit confusing, so many things have happened and I get triggered easily by having to recount what has happened.  Hopefully it shows Inspector Donna Howard and others what I have been subjected to for screaming for the professional health care I am entitled to from ACC (I have won two reviews and still get nothing) and protesting about mental health and justice services in New Zealand being abusive and violating people’s rights.

I find it extremely sad and soul destroying that Human Rights Commission and a multitude of justice and health agencies etc refuse to uphold my rights and protect me from this ongoing persecution – cause persecution is what it is according to definition in my Oxford Dictionary.  All this just so I can get the health care I am entitled to as a mentally injured abuse victim – if an intelligent 51 year old women who knows her rights can’t get professional care then NO MAN WOMAN OR CHILD will get what they entitled to either.  Of course our government, media and disgusting corrupt liberals in the VIOLENCE & ABUSE INDUSTRY will keep telling you it is OK to ask for help and there are heaps of care for people!

I live in sick sick country, in a sick sick world, that ignorant rich violent neo-liberal terrorists run.

Kia kaha to us all.





New Zealand Police Assault Day 2 & 3 Emails

 Mike (Masterton Police),

I have never done anything but be raped, hurt and beg for the care I needed and know I am entitled to.  I have never done a protest that wasn’t justified in a way that I know was reasonable in a civilised and just society.  I have never physically hurt anybody and never been hurt by a man until the rape & then police started hurting me for my protests.  I don’t understand, I know what the law says, I know ACC, mental health and the government aren’t following them, I know that is hurting disabled abuse victims like me and I don’t understand?  I don’t want to live this revolting life – if I can’t work I don’t want to live and yet your officers are saying this is my fault.

I’ve told you before my OT in 2009 and I had just started working on doing some role playing around going for a job interview – that’s the reason I can’t get a job.  After the abused child/man who raped me was found not guilty even when he admitted I was asleep when he started the assault my psychy couldn’t deal with it – its called overwhelming trauma.  So I became phobic of going for job interviews – I did try and do some things myself but everything failed because I got too stressed and couldn’t cope.

OH LORD I WISH I WAS DEAD – SHOT WITH A BULLET RIGHT THROUGH THE HEAD – Google it and you’ll see the rest of the lyrics – which according to your police officers are all lies and I’m offered heaps of care but refuse it. WTF.

Please don’t send them here again, I’m not going to kill myself but I know the next few days are going to be bad – really really bad.  My mother text me yesterday angry about me not going to my uncle’s funeral when everybody else was there.  Do you know how many family events I have not be able to go to since I was raped, the person found not guilty and ACC etc refused to provide me the treatment care and rehabilitation I am entitled to under law?  Did you know my family would never let me look after my nieces and nephews, yet they keep telling me how great my own children are.

Crying – wish I was dead, looking at the bruises and swelling on my hands from yesterday for chalking a swastika on the Carterton police station.  I would suggest you do some research into WWII and the creation of UN and human, civil and political rights – I have. :-((((((




From: JR
Sent: Sunday, 7 August 2016 10:55 a.m.
To: SUTTON, Michael
Subject: Don’t want to get officers into trouble & more pissed off with me – just want this hatred & resentment to stop 🙁

Just want you and them to promise they won’t hurt me like that again – to realise what I do is just chalk and words – its non-violent and its real.  I don’t insult the police in my protests I beg them for help and challenge them for not upholding the law for everybody rich and poor.


From: JR
Sent: Monday, 8 August 2016 7:21 a.m.
To: SUTTON, Michael
Subject: Further to what happened on Friday


Lost the plot yesterday about what happened on Friday, couldn’t stop crying, ended up at Emergency at the hospital because I didn’t have the money for the after hours doctor.

Went there to get all the bruises recorded, especially the ones on tops of my hands, recounting what happened caused a severe trauma reaction.  While waiting for the doctor alone ended up curled up in a ball (foetal position) in the corner of the assessment room, eyes closed and fingers in my ears as I couldn’t handle all the stimulation and it was only way I could calm myself.  Rocking sitting on the side of the bed wouldn’t do it.  Have to have a wall behind me – same position I ended up in at the police station in Masterton, after Alan had finished threatening me and giving me a hard time.

Doctor was a really nice Middle Eastern man – he knew exactly what was happening and was very nice to me – he was also upset when he realised it was the police that had caused this.  I’m sure when he came to New Zealand he thought he had left behind this sort of violent behaviour by those in authority over powerless citizens.

I am still in shock about what happened  – those two officers completely lost it, the Maori officer is a bully and I can’t imagine the damage he is doing in the community.  He was the one I made the complaint to about High Court Security – can you please ensure he is taken off that case immediately.

Also who instructed those other two officers to come to my house and try the Misuse of a Telephone charge again?  Those officers were not aware of Dr Alan Doris’ report about my behaviour – why not – you have a copy?  ACC and police cannot use the law to persecute a disabled person fighting for their rights to health care and justice.  Especially when they have been driven ‘mad’ with medical neglect and illegally denied health care they are entitled to.  The ticking I suffer from is related to the tourettes type disorder I have developed due to what ACC have done (or not done).  ACC have been told this by Dr Doris, they followed his advice and ignored all the swearing until I asked for a recording of ‘how unwell I had become’ under the Privacy Act.   When they thought I was going to take them to court they USED police and an insignificant minor charge to further persecute me by dragging me through court.   I have the email if you want to see it, my lawyer certainly will be.

I am also still in shock at all the things officers said about being offered care and refusing it – that’s not how it is at all.  If I had been given the professional care I am entitled to under ACC, health, disability, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws then I wouldn’t be in this situation would I.  If I had had my rehabilitation from 2009 reinstated as required by two ACC reviews then I wouldn’t have ZERO services, be highly suicidal/unwell and protesting with such passion – would I, this is my life we are talking about – this is what I am fighting for.  Pretty sure one thing you and others realise is I’M NOT STUPID – I have NO services, not even a counsellor because ACC refuse to accommodate impairments related to my disorder.  They create barriers to accessing anything, ask Jenny Kirby why I can’t see her at the moment.  They refuse to apply a professional rehabilitation model in relation to my care just choosing random disconnected ideas that I am unable (because of a deterioration of my mental injury) to act on, they know this, because I email them regularly, and they do nothing.  ACC are corrupt and criminals under Sections 150A 151 155 and 157 of the Crimes Act, plus Crimes of Torture Act – I know it and I’m sure you know it too.

Today is the last day for submissions on New Zealand’s adoption of the United Nations Optional Protocol on Rights of People with Disabilities.  ACClaim Otago are fighting to get this in place as it will mean disabled people like myself can make complaints to the United Nations when our government violate the Declaration on Disabled Rights.  Why do you think an organisation set up to fight ACC is doing this?  Because they know as well as I do ACC are corrupt and criminally negligent in their dealings with mentally injured people and others.

I would suggest to save me the trauma and you the embarrassment we have a meeting and sort this stuff out before greedy lawyers get dragged into it and we take up court time and taxpayers money trying to protect ACC when everybody knows how corrupt, negligent and cruel they are.  Police are there to uphold the law, not be used by corrupt, criminally negligent, abusive government agencies to BEAT ME BLACK WITH BLUE.

The power Bill of Rights and Human Rights laws give me seems to be extremely difficult for some of your officers to handle.  I am a disabled non-violent Civil Society Actor as defined by the United Nations – please read the UN documents that give me this status and understand the role people like me play in society.  Please also note the rights I have to be challenging and cause offence if the situation warrants it – which also justifies my behaviour towards ACC – even when I can’t stop myself from doing it.  I am sure the people who established these guidelines were well aware of human behaviour in the face of injustice, discrimination and tyranny.

Along with the above as defence I will be providing ‘religious/ethical/cultural’ evidence that people born in the Year of the Dragon (Taniwha) are prone to not handle stress well and the need to ‘breath fire’ when suffering or seeing injustice around them or they develop psychoses.  We are here to hold a mirror to society and have strong ethical and moral beliefs that drive us.

Not sure if I have told you but have been in contact with the OHCHR (Office of the High Commissioner for Human Rights – pacific region) in Fiji who protect NZers rights – what has just happened with police is just more proof International human, disabled, civil and political rights are NOT being upheld in New Zealand.  Chalking a swastika on a police station in chalk that is easily removed is hardly cause for physical assault, especially after the person has just experienced the type of discrimination, degradation and insults I had.

Will send the complaint to IPCA, just for their records, it is them refusing to follow up the other cruelty and intimidation of officers and use of the law against me that has caused this situation.  I AM NOT THE ENEMY, I AM NOT A CRIMINAL, I CARE PASSIONATELY ABOUT PEOPLE DISABLED BY MENTAL INJURY AND THE FACT THEY ARE NOT GETTING THE PROFESSIONAL CARE THEY ARE ENTITLED TO AND HURTING THEMSELVES AND OTHERS.

Kia kaha to us all.


Civil Society Actor



New Zealand Police Assault Complaint Not Dealt With

Been protesting outside Masterton Police Station again today 🙁 Two officers came out after about an hour to check on my sign, which was directed at the Inspector leading Wairarapa police which said “DONNA COWARD STOP ignoring police assault of disabled abuse victim”.  One who spoke to me was a nicer one I know but I couldn’t even reply, just froze, tried not to cry, shake or cower from them, had my head hanging down and focused on my breathing until they left.

Also had several people come up to me and supported what I was doing, told me a few stories as well about those officers who are arseholes – who give all of them a bad name.  Couldn’t talk much as didn’t want to cry.

I realise people don’t believe the police would assault a woman so I decided to post the emails I sent following the assault begging for it to be sorted out because I had become very frightened of all police and the thought of coming to my home again was giving me nightmares.  I am not an unreasonable person, all I want is an apology and promise from the two who assaulted me that they would never hurt me like that again.

Police Complaints Authority (IPCA) are involved and have contacted me recently and said they refuse to deal with the assault until April 2017, after my charges of Misuse of A Telephone and Graffiti are heard.  Legally the assault has nothing to do with the charges, IPCA are extremely vindictive people just like police they investigate, they are delaying this because they know it causes me significant distress and hoping I will commit suicide.

This is the first email I sent – to one of the head people at Masterton Police who was supposed to be looking out for me after I was violently arrested and humiliated Xmas Eve 2 years ago – when police hid the complaint I made and had to apologise about the violent arrest & humiliation.

New Complaint of Unnecessarily Violent Arrest yesterday 5 August 2016 – Plus Privacy Act Request


I want to throw up writing this to you, but I know that’s what I have to do – I will contact Complaints in Wellington on Monday so I can get another email to send this too as not sure if I can trust you to do anything.

What happened yesterday is as much a result of the two previous complaints I have made about inappropriate cruel behaviour of police officers not being dealt with – as it is with discrimination on the basis of my disability and trying to stand up for my rights.

Firstly, under the Privacy Act and as part of this complaint can I please request a copy of the CCTV footage from inside & outside Carterton Police Station between 1.45pm and 2.45 pm, when I went there to make a complaint about two police threatening me at my home over Misuse of a Telephone complaints ACC was making.

I arrived to make a complaint about police turning up at my house yet again threatening me with misuse of a telephone, when only a matter of weeks ago charges were dropped, my lawyer gave me a list of reasons – one being the Alan Doris report detailing my tourettes/insulting/swearing stuff.  According to your staff it was because the person died.  For at least 10 mins I got every cliché in the book, including the lie that people had tried to help me but me but I refuse care.  Comments about me being mentally ill which is why I protest all the time and make this my job.  Derogatory comments about how I take police to court when I know my rights have been violated.

I was so upset that Alan, who I thought understood as he had been so nice to me in the past, actually thought the same as ALL the other officers about me being a time waster, liar, etc etc.  It is getting difficult to remember what they said as my brain rejects discrimination and that sort of hatred and ignorance – its just too painful and causes me to become highly suicidal – why would anybody want to live in this hell hole country with a stress disorder and reliant on abusive unprofessional mental health services.

I left the station very upset at many of the things that had been said – but at least I know what is being said – I just never understood why you refused to protect me under the Crimes Act, now I do.  The only way peaceful way I could react to what I had just been subjected to was go back to my car, get my chalk pen, go back to the station and chalk a swastika and CORRUPT on the front window.  I didn’t think oh this is going to get me arrested, or oh I’m going to be violently hurt by those police, I just do it – I know it is not against the law to protest in this way.  Bill of Rights law and the right to protest has a measure of reasonableness and what is justified in a civil society.  What happened next was out of all proportion to what I did.

The Maori policeman – same one who reluctantly took my complaint against High Court Security last week – came out grabbed me and proceeded to assault me and throw me on the ground.  I was freaking out, I never resist arrest and yet this man was really hurting me, he was digging his fingers into the tops of my hands so I was screaming, my hands are all bruised and sore.  He also grabbed my ear and twisted it, along with my left arm being twisted and thrown to the ground.  I have a bad bruise up the inside of my right arm, I think caused by the chalk pen somehow – when I showed them the bruise they kept saying it wasn’t them it had been there for ages – it was really strange.  I can appreciate they didn’t realise what they had done but to vehemently deny it was.  Alan was also part of assaulting me, I remember him with his knee on me on the ground.  I’m sure the CCTV footage will show you what happened.

I was tightly handcuffed, which cut into my wrist really badly so by the time I got to Masterton station my hand was blue and tingling – its now 4am and I havn’t been able to sleep and the bruise on my right wrist and hand are really sore.

I was put in the police car and taken to Masterton, Alan talked the whole way, his words dripping with sarcasm and obvious hatred, it was very distressing.  Every question about why I couldn’t get care I answered or explained but he refused to believe anything I said – I’m mentally ill after all – he just got nastier and more insulting.  Threatened me with finding out just how nasty he could be if I didn’t co-operate fully or said anything to defend myself.  Said something about pulling the victim card.

I mentioned there are several other things happening in my life at the moment that are causing me huge stress, particularly my flatmate who has a dog and been breaking things but not repairing or replacing him – he is very strange and I need him to leave but as usual I can’t say anything because my disorder kicks in and my mouth just won’t say the words.  Alan just became angry with me about it.  I also mentioned my uncle had died and all my family were in Nelson for the funeral but I couldn’t go mostly because I couldn’t trust my flatmate, plus the cost and the fact I am so fragile at the moment and it is not safe to be around my family – they insuilt me for not working.  I find being away from home very difficult – I find being at home very difficult when I get continuous visits from police for whatever reason.

When at Masterton police station I started to go into survival mode and curl up in a ball rocking backwards and forwards – I asked for a woman officer and was refused.  After what happened in Wellington last week I’m starting to freak out about being around men bullying and standing over me.  I ended up curled up in a ball in the cell or rocking backwards and forwards to try and calm myself.  I was so cold as I had gone into shock.  I asked for a doctor as my arm was really hurting and I thought it might have been some clot as a result of the handcuffs, the pain was shooting all the way up my am to my chest.  The ambulance was called and it was another man who said the bruising was from a blunt instrument and offered me pain relief, which I refused.

He left and CATT team turned up, I started swearing at them – as I do – and they left, why anybody would expect me to deal with the man who has rejected me from mental health services for over a decade is beyond my comprehension.  The stories people have told me about that man and he still has credibility and a job – even though it is only ACTING head of mental health for the past decade.

While I was waiting I became very cold, I had only just got over the flu and shock had set in, I asked for a blanket repeatedly but was refused.

I asked for a lawyer because Alan said he was going to keep me in the cells for as long as he chose and I was really frightened – I know you can’t hold someone with mental health issues longer than six hours, which is why I asked for a lawyer.  He bought me in a laminated piece of paper with the names on it – I knew my last lawyer Susie  was away and I don’t know any of the others so I said he could choose anybody.  I also told him I only wanted a lawyer because he was going to make me stay in the cells.   I thought Alan went away to call a lawyer but he didn’t.

He came back and said I would have to sign for my things and then leave the building.  I completely freaked out, apparently I was to catch a bus back to Carterton in the pouring rain – it wasn’t the rain that freaked me out – I can’t catch buses when I’m a mess like I was.  That’s the reason I havn’t been able to see the counsellor because ACC refuse to pay for a taxi, I can’t drive myself because I become too upset when going to counselling and I can’t catch a bus either.  People would see me crying, I would be completely humiliated, I wouldn’t even know how or where to catch it from as I become quite disoriented when that traumatised.  I ended up curled up in a ball in the corner under the counter with my hands over my ears mostly, rocking, repeating over and over I can’t catch a bus, I can’t catch a bus.  He just got angrier with me, threatened me with being forcibly removed from HIS station and went away to get others to help him.  I was so scared I just curled up in an even tighter ball in the corner.

At one point I said something about how scared I was after they assaulted me – he got really angry at that and told me he had not done anything of the sort and there was no way he was going to give me a ride anywhere after accusing him of it.  I explained that I thought it was mostly the other officer that did it, caused the bruising, but I didn’t really know, because he was involved in what happened outside Carterton Police station but I don’t remember what part he played.  I just remember being hurt for no reason and trying to do everything to make them both stop – ie being completely passive and silent and defending myself by curling up in a ball.

I’m going to be sick.

All those horrible things they said come back to me in flashbacks which make me really unwell.  Like their comments about me making a career out of protesting etc – if I had the care I am entitled to I wouldn’t be protesting.  I make it my job because I am so unwell and I don’t want to die, I want my care back so I can heal and return to work.  What person would choose to live in poverty with no job and a future of homelessness and dysfunction.  I have a report saying I’m intelligent, without the care I need I will die and suffer for the rest of my life – I’m only 51 of course I fight for what I am entitled to.  Also it keeps my mind occupied – I’m not the sort of person that reads fiction all day, watches movies and spends there days asleep, wandering around, drugged or drunk – like most mentally ill people rotting on welfare that I know.

I also have a skin cancer that has returned and am worried about it because last time I had the money to have it removed, this time I have to rely on health system and it will take months – it has already taken four weeks just to get on the waiting list.

Alan eventually offered me the option of going to get my car across from police station in Carterton, which I agreed to – my car is my safe place when I am away from home and I thought I would be OK to drive home.  While waiting for him in the reception of the police station, I was so so cold, I was frightened of all the people around me and cowered when someone came out from inside the building.  I sat there mostly rocking backwards and forwards with my hands over my ears.  I remember becoming really distressed, sobbing and crying, whimpering that I wanted to go home, please I just want to go home, please I just want to go home.

I was arrested around 2pm and got home around 6.30pm.  I’m exhausted and tried to sleep but it only lasted 2 hours and I woke up crying because my hand/wrist was aching and I can’t believe what happened – all this for begging for the care I am entitled to under ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws.   Last week I couldn’t sleep on my right side because of the bruising from High Court Security and this week its my left.  I have won two ACC reviews and still they refuse to reinstate my care – they offer me things knowing I can’t act on them because I am now so unwell.  I have the support of Dr Doris and Jenny Kirby, plus I am sure all those people who worked with me in 2009 when I did have the beginnings of a professional rehabilitation plan.

If you think like those two officers think about me being offered heaps of professional care etc and refusing – then you are very very wrong.  I can explain everything and I am sure these two would back up what I am saying about the ‘phobias’ after everything that has happened.

I am tired now, its 5am and I think my flu is returning after being so cold yesterday and so traumatised, I’ll see if I can sleep.

Please make this stop I am begging you, please uphold the law, I just want to get better and go back to work so I don’t have to live with people who take advantage of me and steal from me – or attempt suicide.

Please make this stop – I am begging you – I’m going to be contacting the United Nations about what is going on.  There are rules and laws, you just can’t treat a disabled woman like this – especially one who knows her rights and is non-violent.

Please note also my screaming at ACC is not a threat of harm, it is more a warning about what spirit is going to do to them if they don’t provide the treatment care and rehabilitation for people mentally injured by abuse and trauma.  When I am so unwell because of being denied care I am entitled to all I can do is hope and pray what happened to me, at the hands of a badly abused child that never got the ACC care he was entitled to, happens to them – as they are the ones causing this nightmare.  As you know I go tourettes on it I am so angry and frustrated – I never used to swear   I also know the science of trauma and I know the more we dont’ help people, the more people traumatised around them and it just gets bigger and bigger – which is why our prison population is exploding.

I just want me and others to get the care I know we are entitled to – and the safe homes to live in, which we are also entitled to.

God please help me –

God please help you, I know those officers probably didn’t mean to hurt me like they did, something came over them, it was really scary – they just lost all reason.  Its weird, its like they are trying to cover up guilt, or attack something that they know is wrong but also they know is weak.  Its like they’re attacking all vulnerable people like me – yes vulnerable, or more correctly fragile, they’re attacking all poor people or disadvantaged people because they want to believe everything they see on TV and the media about how great NZ is – when it is not.

Please help me, there are so many angry people in the Wairarapa and around New Zealand I just know things are going to blow – even worse than they have so far this year – I can feel it all around me – people are so angry and tired of struggling while the very richest make life better for themselves and harder for everybody else.

Can you please advise you have received this complaint and the Privacy Act request and about how long it will take to be investigated and dealt with – please also tell me if you are going to do nothing, rather than me being ignored.


Civil Society Actor


Judith Collins MP – I see….. a poverty of government responsibility in New Zealand

This is a my response to Judith Collins and I have also sent this to Eric Frykberg at Radio New Zealand.  I will keep you informed if I hear anything from Radio NZ or a response from Judith Collins.

Sent: Thursday, 13 October 2016 5:56 a.m.
To: judith.collins@parliament.govt.nz
Subject: Mentally injured abuse victims refused prof care & rehabilitation by ACC for 30 years

Dear Ms Collins,

I was horrified to read your news item about how you consider crime to be the fault of useless parents and I felt the need to point out that it is the past 30 years of neo-liberal governments that have caused 80% of this.

You were Minister of ACC, you know who I am because I wrote to you many times, I have protested many times about mentally injured abused men women and children not getting the professional treatment care and rehabilitation (safe homes and jobs) they are entitled to under ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws.

If these parents you say are irresponsible had received the professional health care I have described above, and required under law then they wouldn’t be as dysfunctional as they currently are.  If these people had not been forced to live in poverty for years, degraded and discriminated against by politicians, media and uninformed ignorant citizens then they wouldn’t be dysfunctional.

If mental health services had not been corrupted, shut down and moved to a drug based regime to advance drug companies then they would not be dysfunctional – they would get the child care and other extensive health, rehabilitation and social supports they are entitled to under New Zealand and United Nations laws.

That you would come out with such a statement I find extremely disturbing – blaming the very people you, those you work with and those who support you discriminate against and persecute to the point of violence addiction and suicide suggests you have some sort of mental health issue.   I call people like yourself radicalised for good reason – it is a fact that neo-liberals who imposed immoral degrading reforms since the 1980s created our current violent and dysfunctional society.  Please go to the internet and look up anything about the impacts of neo-liberalism and inequality on developed societies – its all there – there are some excellent TED Talks by world experts.

New Zealand is mentioned many times because of the significant increase in inequality over such a short time and the corresponding social issues that resulted, like crime, homelessness, family violence, sexual violence, addiction, mental illness and suicide.

You said in this article you were being un-PC, this isn’t true, you were being ignorant, bigoted and radical.  The media will only let NICE people respond to your vicious hatred and radical opinions, mostly because our media have been an integral part of the moral degradation of our society into this violent state.

You are immoral, you advance rich people and businesses, disadvantage middle classes and persecute disabled poor.  You terrorise vulnerable minorities of disabled (many abused) men women and children with laws you call reforms, you take their money and their dignity, then you make comments to the media that blame these people for your radical behaviour.

Now the damage National Party have done over the past nine years is causing so much damage in society people like yourself are in complete denial, still trying to pretend this isn’t your fault, when of course we all know it is.  I am just thankful the mainstream media have started to tell the truth about the true drivers of crime, which of course are corrupt, cruel, immoral, bigoted politicians and community leaders.

I would suggest you read my website (www.jrmurphypoet.com) and see all the laws your government violate in order to advance your violent radical ideas.  It also has all the health care and welfare provisions the government are legally supposed to provide but do not.  They would rather borrow money and spend $millions on interest to foreign banks – so they can buy rich people’s votes by cutting rich people’s taxes.  You are a seriously disturbed human being, and with your knowledge of the law I find what you do and what you say even more mentally deranged than other members of your party.

Did you realise Ms Collins that the first law is Westminster Statute the 1st, which says Common right be done to all rich as poor.  Why do you think they made that law?  You do realise moving from a country of equality to one of inequality that advances rich and persecutes poor violates this law.  Next law is Magna Carta, which says you cannot destroy anyone and everyone has access to right and justice.  I am sure you would know from recently Law Society reports and people like Justice Winkleman that thousands of disabled mentally injured and ill people are not getting access to justice (ie they cannot get lawyers – me included).  You would also know all the laws your party has made that stops poor people from having access to lawyers, legal aid and justice.

You would know that your party drove disabled people to look for work, when they are responsible under United Nations to provide jobs for disabled people.  Because of course you would understand in a radicalised capitalist/neo-liberal economic society no employer takes on people who are not 100% fit and able to produce at the maximum output.

Please also consider the information on my website (www.jrmurphypoet.com) as a plea for help to stop police persecuting and harming me for legally protesting about corruption, incompetence and abuse in mental health services – particularly in the Wairarapa where I live.  I have made multiple complaints of crimes under Sections 150A 151 155 157 of the Crimes Act and been told they would not act on these serious complaints of criminal negligence.  You are the minister, please do something about this gross miscarriage of justice.

If you require me to sign a privacy waiver, please advise me as soon as possible.  I am sure as a lawyer and politician you would not like to see a disabled citizen being persecuted, discriminated against and having their human, civil and political rights violated.  Word of law is vitally important to keep peace in a civilised society, without that we are seeing the dysfunction you are describing and blaming on the victims of prolonged terrorism rather than taking responsibility for what you and those like you have done.

Kia kaha to us all – time to admit your mistakes and rectify the terrible dysfunction you have caused in our society.


Civil Society Actor



Letter to local police asking them to STOP WELFARE CHECKS

Thought I’d start posting some of the letters I write, might give people some ideas about what they can do if going through the same thing.

20 November 2015

 TO:      Wairarapa Police

 I really really need you to stop coming to my house when someone from a justice, health or political organisation phones you.  It is a waste of your time and it hurts me, makes me feel even more worthless and ashamed.  I am allowed to say I wish I was dead, just not allowed to say I am going to kill myself and I never ever have.


In the recent decision by Judge Tuhoy he says police were unreasonable in acting on the wilful trespass notice unreasonably given to me by Wairarapa DHB.  Please can we look at these phone calls in the same way – that these organisations phoning you are being unreasonable and you don’t have to act on it.  Part of what I do to stop the discrimination of thousands of disabled mentally injured and ill people is I am honest about how I feel and what is happening to me.  That includes self-harming and the continuous hell of being suicidal after years of discrimination, degradation and neglect by ACC, etc.


Suicidal thoughts I have never acted on over the past 10 years – it is a living nightmare but if someone like me doesn’t keep challenging what is going on for suicidal people then nothing is going to change and more people are going to needlessly suffer, hurt others and die. 


The self-harm is relatively new, thank ACC, mental health, poverty and my living situation for that.  What I do won’t end my life, or cause me permanent damage, I hate telling you this – what I currently do is use rubber bands on my wrists which I flick, I stab myself with pens/pencils until it hurts, not so it draws blood and hit myself as hard as I can around my head where it can’t be seen under my hair and around my body.  By doing this I can let off enough emotional pain so the suicidal thoughts don’t become overwhelming and I act on them.  My psychiatrist, counsellor and doctor, as well as ACC, politicians and several mental health/justice organisations know this is happening, so do the many people I talk and write to (that phone you), doesn’t get me the care I need and am entitled to of course.  If they are not concerned then why are police?


While talking to several people yesterday the words Duty of Care came up and how would my family feel if police didn’t respond and I killed myself – I’m really unwell, how other people feel is completely IRRELEVANT when you have Compounding Complex PTSD.  Please note the compounding bit – so every trauma adds to the next because you have way more serious unresolved underlying traumas.  Also people who kill themselves are free and don’t have to suffer anymore, it is a relief to the person who has done it – its only those left behind that get angry, mostly out of guilt.  And of course it’s a recognised sign of a dysfunctional society, which we can thank the last 30 yrs of neo-liberal governments for.


This letter exonerates police from any responsibility if I do kill myself.  I know from years of research, study and experience that police are USED by government to ‘control and manipulate’ people with mental health issues.  This letter is to confirm it is neo-liberal politicians, ACC, mental health services and other justice and government agencies that have driven me mad with medical neglect, not the police (although you havn’t made things easy on occasion and I wish with all my heart you would take my complaints under Sections 150A 151 and 157 of the Crimes Act seriously).


This is NOT a suicide note, this is me just being frank and honest and trying to make things easier for ME – trying to manage impairments related to my disorder.  If you truly do care (which I know some of you do) then don’t come, my neighbours see you here and I am ostracized even more, it makes ME feel worse.  Also now you are being nice it is even harder, I do not want your pity – which is why its best that we don’t interact – there are bad people you should be dealing with – NOT ME.


Blaming police for people committing suicide due to unprofessional abusive inadequate mental health care is one of the most bizarre (immoral/cruel/corrupt) reactions to suicide I have witnessed. I hope this letter helps police understand and fingers crossed stops you from acting on these calls from people who say they are concerned for my welfare – when THEY ARE NOT.


Working on a report/complaint to the UN at the moment, will send you a copy when I’m finished, will be sending lots of people/organisations copies, especially those who phone police – I’m sure you will find it interesting.  Please put this letter on my file, thank you.


Kia kaha to us all



 Civil Society Actor

Persecuted Whistleblower

Human sewage living in the darklands