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I was wrong & so was Mike King – WE NEED AN OCCUPATIONAL THERAPIST

I was thinking last night that in fact I don’t agree with Mike King saying the promises in the Suicide Prevention Strategy aren’t quantifiable.  All that needs to happen is a good Occupational Therapist – like my old one Glenda, to make up a plan.  I’ll have a go in next few days.

That’s really what an occupation therapist does, looks first at the outcomes the person and government want, then work backwards from their to ensure it happens using professional rehabilitation models.  I studied them at university, I know they exist.

I also know by not using a professional rehabilitation model they are experimenting on people – and that is illegal under Human Rights Act and International law.  I’ve written to ACC telling them this and saying I do not agree with being experimented on and to provide me professional rehabilitation immediately.  Was ignored of course.

 

Open Letter to New Zealand Media – Corrupt govt purposely driving people to suicide

I will be emailing a copy of this to every editor I know, especially those I challenge on twitter – who have known for years what is happening to me and continue to censor what I know, say, do and how I am persecuted for it.  When I get no response (as I have been ignored for years) I will then make a complaint to the Press Council about censorship.

Mike King is right they just write nice things but they never ever do anything about making sure these things happen – how could they, there are no professional services and most suicidal living in inhuman living situations, terrorised by govt and community – of course they suicide, its the only hope of getting out of this neo-liberal nightmare.

John Crawshaw phoned me about 5 yrs ago – 6pm one night after months of me begging him for help and telling him local mental health services and ACC were refusing me all care.  He assured me I would get professional care I so desperately needed – stupid me had hope – that help never came and a suicidal person who has their hopes dashed is going to suffer some of the worst suicidal hell thoughts on earth.  Of course in this shit hole if you’re suicidal and don’t kill yourself you’re  a time wasting attention seeker – if you do kill yourself its a tragedy.

If there are mental health services then why am I up on 7 police charges, after ACC illegally withdrew all my care/rehab in 2009 (after National got in).  Why have I had six charges for legally protesting dropped at the last minute by police since 2009, why have I been acquitted of another 7 legal protests about mental health?  I was dragged through court by Wairarapa DHB for legally protesting outside DHB offices at Masterton Hospital – I was forced to represent myself and won.  I’m entitled to compensation for what they did but told I need a lawyer to get it and I can’t afford one, letter from DHB about it was insulting and vicious.

You should read the transcript – judge Tuohy asked security guard what I was doing when he arrived – he replied singing.  Judge said singing, really, mmmm.  I didn’t handle things very well because I have a very debilitating stress disorder called Complex PTSD (look it up its extremely dangerous, most people suicide).  Judge was nice though, he helped a bit – I won.  One question I did ask was had security guard ever trespassed a protester before – he hadn’t – but was told to by this revolting woman from DHB office who demanded I was.

Why is my only criminal conviction in 52 years wilful trespass of the Law Society when I went there and refused to leave until I got a lawyer.  Police arrived told me I was arrested, to pick up my things and we left – first time no handcuffs.  Now I have to tell people who ask if I have a criminal conviction, its humiliating.

Current police charges involve misuse of a Telephone for phoning ACC screaming for my care to be reinstated after winning two reviews in 2010 and 2011 – I had waited six years and was becoming more and more unwell.  I didn’t threaten anybody with harm but said I hoped and prayed God would hurt them as much as they were hurting me and all those other abuse victims I knew were being denied entitlements – women and children.  I also have developed a tourettes type disorder so can’t help the swearing when I’m flipping out – my current case will have Dr Alan Doris as a witness on my behalf – he had already done a report for ACC saying I was like this and they should ignore it and give me care I needed.  All ACC do is reports, they never give me the care, but mostly they refuse to accommodate communication impairments I now have when interacting with them.

ACC also only called police after I made a formal Privacy Act request for copies of the recordings I was making to ACC remote claims answerphone, I wanted to have proof of how unwell I was and how I was begging for help.  I was told they didn’t keep recordings so I couldn’t have a copy, yet within 2 months they were using a copy of one of those recordings to demand police prosecute me for misuse of a telephone.  The first lot of charges they dropped, then six weeks later they did it again – I had had them at my home so often for WELFARE CHECKS (all calls made by agencies I was begging for help from) about 18 months ago I started having nightmares and every car I heard in the street I panicked and had to look out the window to see if they were coming to get me.

One time they arrived at 11pm, I had been really unwell, was terrified being woken up, though some previous violent flatmates were coming to get me, when they said it was police I thought one of my children had died – I never slept rest of the night, what happened is on my facebook page.

I have been making submissions to committees and making formal complaints for years about how incompetent, unprofessional and abusive ACC and mental health are.  Petitioned United Nations, spoke to their delegates, all ignored.  They violate multiple laws as other pages on this website show.  They deny people PROFESSIONAL HEALTH PROCESSES/MODELS – they’re illegally experimenting on people – and the only reason is neo-liberal terrorists don’t believe in helping terrorised abuse and trauma victims.  All they like doing is making money out of them through justice/prison system and compulsory treatment orders.

Ever go into a home of someone with mental health issues and they’ll be taking boxes of drugs – as well as being really dysfunctional.  Ask people who are into meds – they can rattle off all the drugs like professionals – which ones to take, which you never touch.  Mark Unsworth is a top government advisor, runs a government Public Relations (spin doctor) business in Wellington, gloats about arriving in 1993 when MMP came in to set up his business.  The man ‘was’ a very highly paid drug company executive, sent here to make sure drug companies took over mental health, instead of people getting the professional health models they were entitled to – not to mention the safe homes they are also entitled to under NZ law.

We still have forced ECT on people in New Zealand – ELECTRIC SHOCK TREATMENT has been stopped in most countries as its seen as inhumane – still doing it in New Zealand – and it doesn’t work, a short fix maybe but for the most seriously unwell nothing more than abuse/persecution.

Then of course there are all the abused women who not getting help, then have children, still not getting help when they are entitled to it under ACC law (please can media reading this read the IPRCA – ACC law – especially social rehabilitation and Schedule 1).  They’re illegally having their children taken, I know several of them, it hurts my heart watching these poor women suffer like no mother should ever have to.

Ignorant bigoted self-righteous people in suicide prevention have created a system that strips suicidal people naked – to terrorise them more.  Saw on working dog programme recently a police officer standing beside a suicidal woman curled up near a fence with dog in front of him barking at her – terrorising her.  I’ve had the dog, completely freaked me out – I did some art about it next day, was terrifying, lead to a series of events I can’t even talk about or I’ll go to the knife drawer right now.)  Next shot on the programme was them handcuffing her and stuffing her in back of a police car.  Why are disabled suicidal people being treated like criminals?  Something to do with Christian believing suicide is a sin – driving people to suicide is the sin!

I protest a lot – would have done 200 protests over the years since ACC illegally withdrew all my care and tried to kill me.  Every interaction I have with police, they agree mentally ill people are not getting help they need and entitled to, which is why they end up dealing with them.  Times I’ve been in the cells, so many mentally ill, some beating themselves against doors for hours, while officers try to calm them and say help is coming.  I get CATT team called occasionally, just as punishment by those I am protesting in front of – I speak truth to power.  Takes 5 hours before they get there, I start swearing at them, because I have been denied care so many times over the years I reject them before they reject me.  They always leave and now most of them who come are foreigners – I can’t even get someone who is a New Zealander and I’m Pakeha.

One time I was watching court prior to my case coming up in 1 1/4 hours of the 12 cases I saw, 4 of them were mental health – so one third of people going through court are mentally injured abuse victims or mentally ill (note there is a difference).

Then of course there is me trying to get a lawyer to make ACC and mental health provide the professional services I know I am entitled to under ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws.  Like making a complaint to the courts about torture by the NZ government – was rejected by Judge Davidson, saying I was abusing the process.  I have documents to show what I wrote – I did my best and begged for a lawyer to do it properly.

Months later I went into High Court where Legal Aid are based telling them I could not get a lawyer – I can get legal aid I just can’t get a lawyer, they’re all too busy or don’t have any experience in human rights law or don’t do legal aid.  Was insulted and told I was a liar, that I obviously didn’t have a case if I couldn’t find a lawyer.  Had my guitar on at the time and went stood in the corner singing, Why Am I Arrested For Being Disabled, playing guitar, when guard held my guitar so I couldn’t play I started reciting Wasps in the Beehive.  A woman behind the counter was cheering for me, she knew what I was saying was true.

Police were called and I was illegally trespassed, next time I went back months later for Tony Ellis case against Attorney General and DHBs re torture of mentally ill men, I organised it night before with security because I didn’t want any hassles or anything happening that would set my disorder off.  I went in the building multiple times before to go to the toilet etc but when I went to attend court so I could watch how Tony Ellis presented the case (I had intended going every day) I was assaulted and denied access.  I was severely traumatised because I knew I couldn’t do it without this information, couldn’t get a lawyer and would continue to be persecuted and denied health care, continue to be left rotting on welfare and despised by most of my community/family, continue to live with suicidal nightmare of hell.

I have been making formal complaints of harm to police for around five years, saying ACC and mental heatlh violating Sections 150A 151 155 157 of Crimes Act – which they are.  Police refuse to act and several have taken to terrorising and discrediting me, to the point of physical assault.  At one point Mike Sutton of Masterton police said he would investigate – I just about fell off my chair.  He came back two weeks later saying he didn’t know who to prosecute.  I know he had been warned not to do it by the government and I pointed out ACC are a limited liability company and should be investigated and prosecuted just like any business.

My living situation has been the worst, all these years forced to move repeatedly due to landlords selling houses or poverty or being discriminated against.  I always tidy up places I live and leave them better than I found them – and I ALWAYS get ripped off.

My living situation has been dire since my children left home, past 9 people I have lived with all ripped me off, taken advantage, stolen from me, victimised me and two have attempted suicide.  One stalked me for months, was terrifying.  You are not allowed to leave disabled people where they will be harmed its against criminal law.

I can’t go on – my stress disorder is compounding (complex PTSD) and every time I talk about things above I get flashbacks to being highly suicidal or severely traumatised by people or situations.  I’m crying now, getting visions of knives slicing up my forearms and bleeding out, the knife drawer is only 30 steps away.  How many times I’ve walked there – only reason I don’t end it is that’s what these neo-liberal filth want, they trying to drive people to suicide purposely, its the neo-liberal way.

I have reports saying I am intelligent, do not have a personality disorder and not delusional – until I see a report on people like Bill English, Jonathan Coleman, John Crawshaw and Alastair Scott that they dont’ have serious mental health issues with what they are doing and ignoring, then I know they are mentally disturbed.  Years of neo-liberal propaganda advancing rich, disadvantaging middle class and persecuting poor, radicalised rich pigs who believe all poor people are that way because of their choices.

All I want is to get better and go back to work so I don’t have to live with mentally ill people who take advantage of me and hopefully one day get somewhere to live that I dont’ have to move from and can grow a garden and not be terrified of the next move.  Landlords are a nightmare to deal with as I get really angry when I ask more than three times for dangerous things to be fixed and they ignore me.

There is so much more to my story, what is happening to me is illegal and Human Rights agencies just ridicule discredit and insult me when I beg for professional health care I am entitled to.

MMMM – still typing – how can media not know when neo-liberal Annette King drove 1000s of disabled people out of mental health facilities into a cruel callous hateful community – without the professional heatlh care and rehabilitation they were entitled to.  We all know the community suffered because these people were too unwell and not getting help they needed – that’s when they started having beggars on the street.  Mentally ill people have been in a housing crisis for 30 years – its only now its hit middle class media are saying anything.

We all know when these disabled people were driven out of facilities the prisons filled up – an officer arresting me once had been a prison guard in the 1980s, he said he watched it happen.  According to NZ and international law you are not allowed to persecute people based on the type of disability they have………………………..

OH LORD I WISH I WAS DEAD, SHOT WITH A BULLET RIGHT THROUGH THE HEAD……………………….

LASTLY – please can a journalist with some compassion, intelligence and integrity interview me, I can’t do this by writing it all the time – I need to look in someones face – because I’m never allowed to look in the faces of those oppressing me and getting police, justice and mental health agencies to do it.

Also Andrew Curtis-Cody who runs adult mental health in Wairarapa is a psychopath and extremely mentally disturbed – everybody knows it, everybody tells me he’s a nut job and I know it.  You should see him when he’s part of CATT team, no emotion whatsoever – psychopaths are attracted to mental health because they can have power over people, persecute them and get paid for it.  He has been acting head for over a decade, because he is not appropriate qualified.  My complaints to local DHB I get abused for, I am blocked from making complaints by email, I spent 4 years with a HDC advocate trying to get help to no avail.  When I went to HDC and begged for help I was ignored – even though advocate said Code of Rights was being violated.

……………  why do so many people allow this to happen to me – even my current lawyer?

I know what’s happening to me is related to neo-liberal terrorism by rich against poor, its all about the violence industry, its sick and it must stop.

Going to Chelsea Brunton’s funeral tomorrow :-( it makes me really sad that I can’t get health care people like her and me entitled to by law, makes me beat myself up for not doing enough, not protesting enough, not being able to take my own case to court to prove what government are illegally doing to people.

……………………….. :-(

 

Email to Alfred Ngaro – Is he delusional or corrupt???

Sent: Monday, 15 May 2017 10:17 a.m.
To: Alfred Ngaro MP
Subject: No housing crisis – are you completely mad?

Mr Ngaro,

 I am absolutely horrified by your comments about housing when me and those around me (disabled poor people in Wairarapa) are living in constant terror of having to move yet again – and local newspapers are saying there are hardly any rentals for people moving to the area.  YOu need to read up on the impacts of housing and food insecurity in humans and be assured the situation we are in is inhuman – that’s what happens after 30yrs of neo-liberal terrorism of rich by poor.

20 yrs ago Trust House (insulting name) took over state housing and never built another house, they charged market rents and for years drove ‘undesirable’ poor people out of the district.  They built commercial buildings, funded extravagant sports events and protects, art and business.

I can’t go on I am so distraught about what is happening around me and watching people like you on TV saying everything is great when it definitely is not.  Please meet with me, you need to see the distress human sewage like me are in.  Disabled abused men women and children and mentally ill all suffering – you talk about social investment but we had that  with housing, health care and welfare – our govt has taken away most of it because rich elitist people want all the money and enjoy the persecution and suffering of people they have made poor.

Also if there was any sort of social investment then ACC would have provided the professional treatment care rehabilitation housing and justice I am entitled to under ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws – but they continue to refuse even after I have won two reviews.  I won those reviews in 2010/11 – its now 2017 and I still have absolutely no care and am very unwell, most days are a living nightmare – if they won’t help me get back to work then I don’t want to live – if I can’t work and am forced to live in poverty with no hope for future – only a life of suffering and homelessness then I don’t want to be alive.

I’m going to a funeral for a young mum you drove to suicide last week – I knew her growing up, your party killed her, because you make people hate single mums and children.  Devastating when Paula Bennett had all those perks and took so many off me and others.  My kids have left home now – the continuous threats to have them removed from my care because ACC refused to provide professional parenting support or the social rehab etc I am entitled to can’t be used to intimidate and stop me telling the truth about what life is like in the neo-liberal terrorist darklands of hell in New Zealand.

I still can’t believe what you have said about housing when exactly the opposite is happening in the Wairarapa.  How proud you must be at being the token brown man who hates poor and renters – bet you they pay you lots, stroke your ego lots and brainwash you with their neo-liberal terrorist beliefs.  And you profess to be a Christian – more proof it is end of days for me.  Of course you could repent and stand against your government about what elites are doing to bulk of NZers and especially disabled poor.  That’s what Jesus would tell you to do – you would be surprised how he walks amongst the poor in the darklands – keeps people like me alive to fight this immorality and hatred.

Please meet with me, please you must know what is really going on – people are terrified which leads to even more violence, addiction and suicide.

Please God help me and so many others.

Sincerely

Jayne Routhan

PERSECUTED WHISTLEBLOWER

HUMAN SEWAGE LIVING IN THE DARKLANDS

We Are – Carterton, Wairarapa

We’re sick and can’t see a doctor
We’re sad and no help they send
We’re suicidal and wish we were dead
Cause this nightmare never ends

We’re refugees in our own country
We’re drugged when we can’t cope
We’re abused for being traumatised
Neo-liberals leave poor no hope

We’re marginalised and terrorised
We’re blamed for social ills
We’re persecuted and prosecuted
As the morgue and prison fills

enD

 

New Zealand Police vs JR Murphy

After phoning Police Headquarters Complaint Investigation Unit about huge delay in dealing with police assault in August, I received a phone call from Insp Donna Howard who took over Wairarapa District earlier this year.  What Insp Howard said to me yesterday (18/11/2016) is really pissing me off so I need to write about it, I will send the link to her as well.  Towards the end of our conversation about police phoning me if they have someone phone them ‘concerned for my welfare’, she started saying I should be respectful of HER staff, that I shouldn’t swear at them.  Told her since I was assaulted by one of HER officers I had little respect for them and how dare she expect me to after what they have put me through.  I hung up or I would have started swearing and sent her an email, explaining briefly why I got angry.

Felt I needed to explain the backstory to my rage and disgust in police, especially in the Wairarapa where I live.  Also my disability is Compounding CPTSD, so all the unresolved trauma police have caused builds up, which is why I was having nightmares and was so frightened by noises of cars in my street that police were coming to get me.

It was always a rule of mine not to swear at the police and I didn’t for years, even if several times I wanted to.  My brother in law a Snr Sgt, he told me what to do, not to swear or say the P word.  It wasn’t until they started being vindictive and mean, stripping me naked in the cells and demanding I remove my underwear even when I had my period; charging me with bogus minor crimes then dropping the charges at the last minute or losing the case (around 10 times since illegally ACC withdrew all my care in 2009 and I started protesting).

Taking me up to the cells when they didn’t need to, being violent and degrading (violently arresting me Xmas Eve 2014, refusing me shoes & a jersey when I was sick with flu).  Basher insulting me at home, telling me if I was broke (and I was) that I should sell my furniture -  furniture my friends had given me.  Sykes gossiping about me around town telling people not to let their children come to my house because I was a nutter, another officer hiding a formal complaint over the Xmas Eve event.  Then of course there were the repeated welfare visits (more than 50) which were embarrassing and my neighbours saw.  Most officers were nice but ignored when I said about ACC or mental health refusing me services.

Then there was the late night welfare visit at 11pm earlier this year which was very traumatic for me.  The welfare visit I was taken to Masterton and charged with Misuse of a Telephone for phoning ACC screaming to have my care reinstated (as I had done many times with no response).

  • My case manager had phoned April 2014 telling me my care would be reinstated as it was in 2009, I spent 15 minutes confirming this.  All that happened was I had to do another traumatic assessment with Dr Doris in Auckland, had to catch plane up and back in 1 day, lots of things I had to pay for.  I was very unwell and needed my care back it was psychological torture to be told it would be, telling all my family and friends it would be, then nothing happened.  I still have absolutely no services and my doctor is hopeless - although she wrote to them weeks ago asking why  my care was withdrawn and why it hasn’t been reinstated, just like other doctors have done, and had no response.

Years ago I discovered Sections 150A 151 155 and 157 of the Crimes Act, I know ACC are violating these laws and police have continuously refused to prosecute them.  One officer did look into it but after several months of hope, told me police ‘didn’t know who to prosecute’ so refused to go any further (ACC are a limited liability company, my case manager, the CEO and Chair Paula Rebstock should have been charged – of course there needed to be a thorough investigation to identify others persecuting me but it was never done).  So when ACC phoned and wanted me prosecuted for an extremely minor charge of course I was extremely upset with police – and why should I have any respect for them – they are supposed to uphold the law for me, protect people like me, not just rich and powerful at ACC (who are illegally refusing me and so many others disabled by abuse care and leaving me in harmful situations).

Then of course there are all my protests and the charges I have got off there, that should never have been taken and I told them that over and over again, that I was within my rights, under Bill of Rights laws.

Another vindictive mean thing they did was keep me in the cells overnight twice, where I broke down in the morning both times.  First time was for breaching trespass notice for parliament – I was outside the building – after being told by police they wouldnt’ arrest me the week before, this day they did.  I overhead one of the officers tell another that the order had come down from upstairs (because they wanted to let me go).  My girls were 14 and 15 then and were left home alone.  Also there was already case law that said people can protest on Parliament grounds even if trespassed previously.

Next time was week before Xmas 2014 I violated bail conditions and did a protest at Justice House, I was very unwell, singing, reciting poetry and had my naked torso painting.  I didn’t know I would have to stay and was really upset, was told by police a lawyer couldn’t get me out – found out that was wrong.  Because I have mental health issues they are not allowed to hold you in the cells for longer than six hours – I’m sure the cop didn’t know BUT I should have seen a lawyer.

Also was arrested for not appearing in court – because I couldn’t afford to get there and was traumatised by what had happened in 2013.  Police waited two weeks then picked me up 8am 2 January, a public holiday and my birthday, which they knew.  Initially was angry and traumatised by this, then couldn’t stop laughing on way to court – the shear stupidity and vindictiveness of police was laughable.  Had my kids home for a visit, had a day of things planned I had to delay for three hours.  Other person seeing judge that day was a man who had beaten up his partner and wanted to get out of the cells.  I had done nothing but a non-violent protest begging for my health care to be reinstated by ACC so I could get back to work.

Then of course there was the violent arrest during the Rugby World Cup where I had been protesting outside ACC building and police were called.  I had vented and was really angry but ready to leave when police arrived (I never threatened anybody with harm but called them maggots and swore at them several times).  One officer went inside to talk to staff and one stayed with me and refused to let me leave – other officer came out without speaking and slammed a handcuff on my right wrist.  I freaked out – my stress disorder – pulled away from him like I was being attacked onto the ground screaming in fear, my wrist still attached to his arm.  Have been scared of handcuffs since and always ask, then beg, for them not to be used (nice police officers don’t use them).  You are not allowed to arrest a person like that, you are supposed to warn them they are under arrest etc.  I blame the Sgt who sent two young men to deal with a disabled female protester, as they were having to deal with violent rugby fans every night and just used same tactics on me – inappropriately.

Then of course there were the insults and discrimination that prompted me to chalk pen a swastika onto the Carterton police station.  Telling me I was a liar, that lots of people had tried to help me – I just didn’t want it.  Telling me I was protesting all the time and made it my job because I was mentally ill, again that I was a liar and nobody was being discriminated against or refused care they entitled to.  That my protesting was a joke, that they weren’t scared of me like the others – which showed they were being vindictive.  Threatened in very menacing way if I didn’t stop protesting my innocence and rights under law, saying I had just been assaulted and talking about ACC etc that I would find out just how mean and nasty the officer could become if he wanted.

Why would anybody be scared of me, I’m a single woman with a disability, no partner so no protection from a man, isolated from my family and most of my community - police have an entire force to back them up and they do rightly or wrongly.  Not all police are mean, but those who aren’t are allowing others to do it and not saying anything -which makes them almost as bad.

Then the assault :-( then 3 hours of being held at Masterton Police Station, went into shock after the assault (had only just got over a bad flu week before) refused a blanket.  Tried to make me catch bus home, ended up curled up in a ball in the corner of station banging my back on wall repeating over and over I can’t catch the bus.  left for an hour in even colder part of police station at the front desk.  Cowering from people who walked past, head down, rocking and whimpering that I was cold and wanted to go home.  Go home to a flatmate who didn’t speak and not able to tell any of my friends or family what had happened.  Having no counsellor, social worker, psychologist etc I could tell either.  I did tell my doctor but she ignored it.

Also police have not acted on my complaint of assault by High Court Security in July 2016 when violently detained for wanting to attend court case of Tony Ellis taking government to court over Torture and Inhuman Treatment, which I tried to do and failed previous year, couldn’t get a lawyer and so wanted to see how to do it myself.

Just remembered another police thing where I was arrested at Police HQ earlier this year for getting angry and swearing during a marketing promotion about Its Not OK – went there and started yelling how it wasn’t OK to withhold health care, not have safe homes for people, leaving them with dangerous flatmates, make things worse for them, etc etc.  Usually I would have been 30 mins in police station, given a warning and let go – this time I was held in the cells for five hours to see mental health, who they know I am petrified of and just swear at, then let go.

My complaints to IPCA are also being ignored – apparently I make too many of them – I have made 6 complaints over 8 years (3 in past six months), as soon as I started making complaints things deteriorated with police in Wairarapa.  Police in Wellington nowhere near as bad, especially with the insults, degradation and way I am treated.

All of this I have experienced at the hands of police and I have done my upmost best to stay civil to those who are nice to me – even when I see the uniform and am overwhelmed by all the bad things people in that uniform have done.  So when Inspector Howard says I should not swear or be disrespectful of her officers anybody would understand why I find it extremely difficult and have ever right to talk to them the way I do when they are mean and disrespectful.

Sorry this post is a bit confusing, so many things have happened and I get triggered easily by having to recount what has happened.  Hopefully it shows Inspector Donna Howard and others what I have been subjected to for screaming for the professional health care I am entitled to from ACC (I have won two reviews and still get nothing) and protesting about mental health and justice services in New Zealand being abusive and violating people’s rights.

I find it extremely sad and soul destroying that Human Rights Commission and a multitude of justice and health agencies etc refuse to uphold my rights and protect me from this ongoing persecution – cause persecution is what it is according to definition in my Oxford Dictionary.  All this just so I can get the health care I am entitled to as a mentally injured abuse victim – if an intelligent 51 year old women who knows her rights can’t get professional care then NO MAN WOMAN OR CHILD will get what they entitled to either.  Of course our government, media and disgusting corrupt liberals in the VIOLENCE & ABUSE INDUSTRY will keep telling you it is OK to ask for help and there are heaps of care for people!

I live in sick sick country, in a sick sick world, that ignorant rich violent neo-liberal terrorists run.

Kia kaha to us all.

JR

 

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You’ve Driven Me To Swear

You’ve driven me to swear
Driven me and others to despair
You allowed the govt to not care
Torture degrade, create hate and fear

You’ve driven me to hate
Left me writhing at hell’s gate
Told me there I must wait
Want heaven’s door to be my fate

You’ve driven me insane
In your class war fucking game
They do the wrong, I take the blame
Your heads you should hang in shame

You’ve driven me to drink
To numb the pain so I don’t think
About Keys policies that truly stink
And their increasing NAZI link

You’ve driven me to yell
Denied the facts, why I’m not well
Burn here in the fires of hell
Fuelled by corruption of what I tell

You’ve driven me to scream
Give up my lifelong hopes and dreams
I want to die John Key’s so mean
Keep asking where my health care been

enD

A new era in mental health care – Regional Rehabilitation Facilities – New Zealand

Another idea to submit for funding for the Innovation Fund – we desperately need this – we are entitled to it.  Could also work in with the Regional Rehabilitation Centres.

GOVERNMENT REGIONAL MENTAL HEALTH FACILITIES

 

Attached please find a rehabilitation model and business plan for Mental Injury Services which outlines where I believe mental health care for mentally injured abuse victims and traumatised people should be going (also for some mentally ill people).  Mental injury being different in nature to mental illness because mental injury is a ‘normal’ person that has been subjected to overwhelming trauma and needs help to recover.  Mental illness is more permanent and requires ongoing care and support.

 

To provide the professional treatment care habilitation and rehabilitation people with mental injury or illness require there needs to be regional mental health facilities.  Shutting down the extensive mental health facilities in the 1990s (based on improving someone’s human rights – when it actually adversely affected these disabled people more)  is incomprehensible and allowing it to continue is reprehensible.  On the news tonight yet another mentally ill man living in the community has killed, this time his mother, an elderly couple and badly injured his father.  There should be better secure facilities for dangerously mentally ill people, the mental health facilities I am advocating for here do not include these people – this is a Fence At the Top of the Cliff – not ambulance at the bottom.  Until people could prove they are safe they would not have access to these facilities.

 

It is too distressing for me to go into the extensive reasons New Zealand (and many other countries) desperately need facilities and safe housing for people with mental health issues.  Facilities to help them heal and those to help them keep busy and feel valued. 

 

The extensive use of pharmaceuticals to try and control people, who more importantly need the basic needs met (please refer Maslow’s Heirachy of Needs), is part of the failure of mental health services and a gross miscarriage of justice.  The use of pharmaceuticals was a result of neo-liberal theories that it was cheaper to give a person a drug and put them in the community than actually providing professional treatment care and rehabilitation.  News reports have stated the government undertook to make the mental health services drug based to save money – it hasn’t.  Many of these drugs are highly experimental and have been linked to increases in psychopathy, suicide, mass murders and psychosis.  All the things they are supposed stop, they actually create.

 

I envisage these mental health centres be based on professional rehabilitation practices with client based approach and practical therapies like gardening – opportunities to participate in growing food etc.  Working in the earth is very good therapy and can be used to reduce stress if the person goes back in the community.  Group therapy is important as people will need to be able to communicate and support each other in the community, learning skills here will help in society.  It will help people who have been mentally injured pass on what they learn and experience to others. 

 

Art is another huge part of healing and therapy in the area of mental health with traumatised people having highly active right brains.  People should be able to explore their creativity and see it come to fruition if possible.  The cultural value for society is extensive and could lead to further work and recognition outside the mental health facility.  Talent could be identified and advanced with advocacy.  I envisage cultural events like plays, exhibitions etc that would entertain international visitors along with making souvenirs perhaps. 

 

I envisage six week ‘retreats’ for mentally injured people with rehabilitation in the community prior to the retreats and following them, until the person is well enough to live independently, if that is possible.

 

ACC to build regional mental health facilities to cater to the people I have described above.  Put the $billions they have invested in foreign markets, businesses that destroy the planet, security providers, into building these facilities.  Make them of a very high quality using sustainable building practices, similar to the Regional Rehabilitation Centres.  The mental health facilities will have accommodation for clients and support staff – mental health challenges happen 24 hours a day seven days a week.

Murray Jack GOTCHA!

Murray Jack you piece of crap
Controlling this, controlling that
Me and others know what you do
Advance the rich, degrade the few

Murray Jack you piece of crap
On the board of this and that
Neo-liberalism’s wrong
You harm the weak, protect the strong

Murray Jack you piece of crap
How could you choose this and that
Just another one percentre
Greed and fear’s what you engender

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Yesterday went out with some pieces of art which had a swastika on them and placed them at three differently places I thought were violating human rights.  NZ Initiative (aka Business Round Table), IPCA Police Conduct Authority and Ministry of Justice.

Left a poem, videod it on phone and put it on my youtube channel JR Murphy Poet.  This is one I had found in my visual diary, written a couple of months ago after seeing Murray Jack at court hearing about unsafe workplace at WINZ where John Tully shot the two workers.  Know he was part of the inquiry into these killings and ignored me when I spoke to him about how desperate things had become for long term disabled.  He one who suggested all the security guards, which have made things worse.

When I saw him at court case, before I was escorted out by security for wanting to put up a sign about the case.  I told him I was going to get him, told him he was neo-liberal scum and his lot had caused this tragedy.  Gave him a bollocking.

Writing this poem about him and sticking it up at NZ Initiative – where he is a board member – was what I meant.  I couldn’t find out where his office was and I hate this neo-liberal think tank.  I wrote GOTCHA at bottom of poem.  Putting it on youtube is also another GOTCHA (if you are reading this Murray, or any of your neo-liberal mates that created this hell for me and others).

Quite an honour to get a poem written about you – John Millar, Ruth Dyson, Tony Ellis, John Key are the others.

Now I want to meet with you for an hour at least and tell you my story and how I know the government are corrupt and experimenting on mentally injured abuse victims, traumatised and mentally ill – also persecuting many of them and denying them professional health care and rehabilitation.

Come on you coward, front up – contact me through my email, facebook or twitter.  I don’t check comments on my website because of trolls.

 

Submission on Disability Strategy – New Zealand

Below is my submission, it is not comprehensive as writing it was extremely traumatising for me – along with everything else going on in my life, but it covers a few things that the people who run the Disability sector obviously have no idea is happening – or are corrupt and covering them up.

So many things I havn’t said :-( Oh well I did my best at the time, they are never going to listen to anything I said anyway.

Submission on the Draft Disability Strategy August 2016, by Jayne Routhan, Civil Society Actor.

 

  1. Overall what do you think of the draft Disability Strategy? What overall changes or improvements would you like to be made?  Is there anything missing?

     

    It is a great piece of marketing, in the area of mental injury (eg traumatic stress disorders) and mental health I have 14 years experience in exactly the opposite is happening.  DPOs have not represented people with my type of disability because it often has violence aspects to it, and people can also be highly challenging and have extensive needs – like a safe house to live in.

     

    From personal experience I would like to see mentally injured and ill disabled people’s rights protected not just promoted. Justice Winkelman pointed out many disabled people had no access to justice in ever increasing numbers and often up against powerful government and private organisations.  I have had experience with Health & Disability Commission and I found them insulting, degrading and they discriminated against me.  Their advocate worked for four years and could get no services in the Wairarapa – the HDC refused to get involved.

     

    There are Sections of the Crimes Act 1961 – 150A 151 155 and 157 that make it a criminal offence to not follow the law and a disabled/vulnerable person be harmed as a result – these are being ignored.  I have made multiple complaints  to police about ACC health professionals, doctors, Occupational Therapists, Psychologists etc and not been protected from their unprofessional and criminally negligent behaviour.  I know what these people are supposed to do, I have studied rehabilitation and health at Massey University, along with Disability, ACC, human rights, bill of rights, imperial and welfare laws (including United Nations declarations).  Not only that I am intimidated,and hounded by police for asking for help and legally protesting at the gross miscarriage of justice happening to me, the systems in place they say are helping me are being used in a punitive way – which is illegal.

     

    I think it is imperative recognised lay-expert Civil Society Actors like myself are included in the consultation process not just DPOs.  Especially if we cover an area no DPO is – like in my case violence and crime.  Other DPOs, even those focused on mentally ill reject violent disabled people and want to distance themselves from them – this is not helpful.  This is another reason services for these people are so abusive, inadequate and do not follow professional rehabilitation models.

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

 

 

  1. Please let us know what you think about the following sections.  Would you like anything changed or improved.

     

    Firstly I have changed the order and a few of the words:

     

  • My vision – and where to from here
  • What’s important to me and many other mentally injured abuse victims
  • Outcome 1:                  Attitudes
  • Outcome 2:                  Justice
  • Outcome 3:                  Choice and Control
  • Outcome 4:                  Health and Wellbeing
  • Outcome 5:                  Accessibility
  • Outcome 6:                  Leadership
  • Outcome 7:                  Education
  • Outcome 8:                  Employment

     

    I have changed the order because I do not believe our society will be well served (and resources well spent) by people disabled by mental injury and illness if 1-6 are not fulfilled before the person becomes involved in education and employment.

     

    Also comments within the introduction of the Strategy appear to not cover mentally injured abuse victims and discount people with mental injury as a result of abuse and overwhelming trauma as disabled.

     

    I find it interesting that the people writing this document think there has been real progress, when I have only seen worsening statistics in suicide, self-harm, violence and sexual offences.  More people living on the streets, in unsafe unstable environments, more dysfunction and badly serviced, if in fact getting any services at all.

     

    The convention was ratified in 2008 – that is eight years ago and things have deteriorated for those with stress disorders.  It is a condition of the convention that things continually improve for disabled people – they are not.

     

    Children disabled by abuse and overwhelming trauma (which causes a mental injury) are poorly served, living dysfunctional lives of unresolved trauma that impacts on them and those around them every day – it can lead to years of unnecessary suffering, poverty, alienation, suicidal ideology, addiction, phobias, eating disorders, aggressive behaviour, etc.  Many only coming into contact with services through welfare, police and justice agencies.  For some prison fulfils many of the psychosocial needs they don’t have met in a hostile and uncaring community.

     

    Overwhelming unresolved trauma as a child (eg sexual, physical and psychological abuse) and neglect affect brain development.  It has to be accepted some of these children will need life-long support to be well functioning parents and valued members of society.

     

    A positive aspect to stress disorders is the heightened right brain activity, which includes creativity – which is why the arts are so fundamental in the expression, healing and resolving of trauma.  I find poetry, writing, music and other creative arts very therapeutic, but my expression of these is hampered by my disorder and no access to resources to develop and be valued for my talents.

     

    My Vision Statement for Mental Injury Services:

     

    To be a world leader in the

    treatment, rehabilitation

    and support of the mentally injured.

    to have a positive affect on

    the happiness and prosperity

    of all the community.

     

     

    I would also point out that the strategy has had very little input from families with histories or issues with abuse and trauma.  To me it is very focused on physical and sensory disabilities with little acknowledgement of psychological and emotional ones.  It was noted earlier this year that people with mental health issues are the least wanted as neighbours and most victimised.  It is well known that many of those with long term mental health issues are homeless or stuggling to provide themselves a safe home.

     

    Community is not changing it is getting worse, with good reason, so many dysfunctional and dangerous mentally injured and ill people are rotting with few or no services in the community – services they are entitled to under ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws.  The Community are scared as are those with mental health issues continually denied professional treatment care rehabilitation along with access to justice and safety – but nowhere near as scared as the disabled.

     

    One psychologically dysfunctional person can traumatise dozens if not hundreds of people – including children – I believe that is the main reason we see deteriorating family and sexual violence statistics.  The brain is the most complicated organ of the body, it controls EVERYTHING we do from breathing, to loving, hating and violence.  I believe in the area of mental health far too many unqualified/or poorly qualified people are currently making medical decisions for this disabled group.  Poor decisions and centred around the use/abuse of psychotropic drugs – which I believe in the area of mental injury, of an otherwise ‘normal’ person, is extremely detrimental to healing, resilience and overcoming past and current trauma.

     

    Our communities won’t change, history has shown us that – from research I have done, and stories like those of Janet Frame – I discovered NZ developed its extensive institutional mental health facilities mid 20th century because people with this form of disability were not coping in the community.  Although I agree in part with shutting down some of these institutions, they were not replaced with a professional support and health network – the lack of safe stable housing is at an extreme level currently.  For people disabled by mental injury there needs to be ‘retreats’ specialising in this form of rehabilitation – which in turn focus on different forms of trauma and some of the debilitating impairments people develop.  (Note: you cannot mix offenders with victims and expect people to feel safe to heal.)

     

    For example, I am easily enraged when triggered by being physically threatened, degraded and discriminated against.  This is an impairment related to my disability, I have learnt to manage it mostly, but have the police file to prove at times I become so frustrated and angry with how agencies like ACC, MSD, mental health and police treat me (along with politicians) I am often arrested.  Noting I am never violent towards others but I do retaliate verbally – I am however violent towards myself.

     

     

    WHAT’S IMPORTANT TO ME

     

    That I have somewhere safe to live where I can heal from my mental injury.  That I have access to models, laws and documents like the disability strategy.

     

    Along with all the items listed in the disability strategy.  Which are also mirrored in the Covenant on Economic, Social and Cultural Rights, human rights act, ACC legislation, Bill of Rights, Welfare agreements, etc.  So many documents saying so many good things while society deteriorates – time to do this the right way.

     

    That we have a multi-disciplinary approach to rehabilitation (as outlined in Shrawan Kumar’s book 2000 – Butterworth & Heinemann) in the area of mental health, particularly mental injury.  That I am able to have a Whare Tapa Wha approach to my rehabilitation and extensive professional Occupational Therapy services (I would envisage Social Workers, counsellors, mental health workers given OT training – these people are pivotal in a comprehensive well run, co-ordinated, efficient, rehabilitation plan).  Every one of this team needs to be educated in the area of traumatic stress disorders and the laws, expectations.

     

    I would have a psychiatrist of my choosing overseeing my rehabilitation and progress, an Occupational Therapist,  a counsellor, mental health support worker, lawyer, people in the community, trauma art therapist, education support and access to culturally appropriate residential ‘retreats’ when necessary.  That my GP would be kept informed and from time to time saw me to check on progress to independence and prosperity.

     

    I would have care in the community and help to reintegrate back into the community.  I would be able to go on a ‘retreat’ for six weeks of drug free healing and intensive care (which is actually a requirement in the ACC legislation).  Intensive care of traumatised people at the beginning is far more humane and cost effective than as the person deteriorates through medical neglect.

     

    Outcome 1:                            Attitudes

     

    I am valued by society just like everyone else

     

    Now I know why I was avoiding writing this submission, it is the attitudes of some people, especially those in authority, in health and justice services that are the worst.  Also those of my family and many in the community who don’t really know me and what I have been through.

     

    The attitudes of police I was recently subjected to who think I am refusing health care, am mentally ill and that’s why I make this my job, plus wasting their time.

     

    Government show over and over again through changes to welfare legislation that they think disabled people are of no value, except for making money for drug companies and creating lots of jobs for lawyers, welfare agencies, judges, police, justice system, etc.

     

    Reporting by media in the area of violent mental health cases is uninformed, discriminatory and biased.  I protest regularly and extensively, along with making submissions and writing to various people – media refuse to tell my story, what I know and what I do – what I’m fighting for.

     

    Outcome 2:                            Justice

     

    I am treated the same way as everyone else by the justice system.

     

    Hell no, this is not appropriate in the area of mental injury given the high levels of stress involved when forced by police to do anything – especially in a terrified or heightened state.  People with traumatic stress disorders need their phobias and triggers acknowledged and accommodated if at all possible.  Being near an exit, or being able to escape is a well recognised behaviour in abused people.

     

    Police sometimes accommodate my disorder and make arrests as stressless as possible – I am rarely held in the cells now and often out within 30 minutes.

     

    As Justice Winkelman has said disabled people are not getting access to justice and this needs to change.  The objective with mentally injured people would be to keep them out of the justice system, not have police and the justice system as the bottom of the cliff mental health services.  Although there has been a significant amount of resources go into people in prison, especially in the arts and being able to work, education and some health services.

     

    Then of course there are the mentally injured and ill people who are dangerous to society, pedophiles, paranoid, physically and sexually violent.  People we know are like this should not be allowed in the community, even with 24 hour supervision.  Ashley Peacock doesn’t have that priviledge and he hasn’t killed or sexually abused anyone.

     

    There are currently many dangerous mentally injured and ill in the community, these people need health and welfare services before they need justice services.  We all need to be kept safe, I have heard stories of dangerous mentally ill people begging judges for health care and being forcibly removed from court with nothing.

     

    There are significant improvements in the care of mentally injured and ill people in police custody.  Several officers at Wellington Central have said they need mental health workers at the station at all times – men and women.  They need somewhere and someone to get those with mental health issues out of the cells and into care.  I heard one senior officer make three phone calls trying to get someone to come and get a teenager with mental health issues that had been dropped by adolescent mental health services.

     

    The fact is many mentally injured and ill people cannot get protection and representation of a lawyer.  They are either too busy, not skilled in this area of law or cannot afford to do legal aid work – this is against the law – (the Magna Carta).  You can’t just say this is happening without something being done to rectify it (upskilling of lawyers in dealing with mentally injured and traumatised people is vitally important).

     

    Currently police are being used in a punitive way – which is against the law.  I have had the police called 15 times for welfare visits in four months, called by health justice and media organisations and never once did I say I was going to kill myself.  Though I do suffer from suicidal ideology which is a living nightmare when it is bad.  Police are supposed to help but they intimidate and humiliate – often just by being there, I have had several bad experiences with bigoted officers.  I wrote to police and begged them not to come to my house, they ignored me.  They have also turned up 11pm at night and frightened me badly.

     

    Currently I am up on five charges 1 of Misuse of a Telephone for phoning ACC and screaming for care (after being told for past 5 years my care would be reinstated), 3 counts of using chalk pen on windows at Carterton Police station (after 2 officers insulted me for 10 mins I did a swastika), Wgtn High Court after I was assaulted by security, refused a lawyer and refused access to watch Tony Ellis and the case of torture with 3 mentally ill men.  Also the Appeal Court in Wellington for a swastika and writing lies all over the words on that building about justice and law.  Also for Wilful Trespass of High Court for refusing to leave re Tony Ellis case.

     

    I have been taken to court by police multiple times, many times the charges have been dropped just before the case (I would have gone twice before however).  I have won four cases in court for wilful trespass, one I had to appeal a conviction of wilful trespass of ACC for a legal protest.  One for legally protesting outside the DHB offices at Masterton Hospital, which I had to defend myself – thankfully judge Tuohy was very accommodating of my stress disorder and helped me through the process.  This is a gross waste of money for me and the government, as well as stressful for me and challenging for court staff – as I no longer handle things well.  My last appearance – alone – was two weeks ago and I ended up curled up in a ball on the floor in a corner with a large painting of mine in front of me, with my eyes closed and fingers in my ears, crying, frightened of everything and everybody.  I have been in this position several times since I was assaulted and bullied by Wairarapa police, I have made a formal complaint about what happened being unjustifiably violent.

     

    I am sometimes kept in the cells too long and have broken down several times, there should have been people available to sit with me, or I should have been taken to a room with a window and if no risk taken for a walk outside – especially if I am there a long time.  A couple of months ago I was arrested for protesting and kept under mental health for five hours in the cells as punishment for swearing and yelling at staff at police headquarters about Its Not OK propaganda.  Mental health came and went – I am petrified of mental health services there is no way I would tell those people anything, mostly I am triggered and swear at them about how bad their services are.

     

    I have spoken to dozens of policemen and women who all agree with what I protest about mental health services being inadequate and not what they say.

     

    Outcome 3:                            Choice and Control

     

    I can make my own choices and have control over my life just like everyone else.

     

    This does not happen currently, especially with people like me who refuse psychotropic drugs on religious and ethical grounds.  The part about care and services being client centred are not true in regard to mental injury and mental health services.  Most do not get a say, once people have a psychotic episode or attempt suicide and are put under mental health act the majority of public mental health services heavily medicate.  Especially the lazy ones and most bigoted, like the head of mental health in Wairarapa who dislikes women.  We also have the highest rate of compulsory treatment orders and use of psychotropic drugs.

     

    I live in Carterton, I would like to continue living in my own community, however there are no available and suitable homes.  Even though it is a requirement that disabled people have access to social housing.  I would prefer to be able to buy my own home which I believe is a cultural right and I should be offered a government loan to do this.  Under the Crimes Act people must have the necessaries of life and a safe stable home is one of them – especially for a traumatised person.

     

    I should be able to ask for the help I read about in laws and brochures, not be rejected, not be further traumatised by the system, my human rights must be protected not just promoted.

     

     

    Outcome 4:                            Health and Wellbeing

     

    I have the same level of health and wellbeing as everyone else.

     

    I am supported to be the best person I can be, to self-actualise and have a life worth living.  I will manage my health and be grateful for the support I am given by participating to the best of my ability.

     

    I will have the necessaries of life as outlined in Maslows Hierachy of Needs, I will not feel life is to frightening and not worth living.  I will not feel worthless, like human sewage and on a torture wheel of hell from services supposed to help and protect me.

     

    I will have access to other health care needs besides my mental health – which I am currently not having in several areas as I am too afraid to see the doctor.  When you don’t want to live it is difficult to get yourself to beg for help about less significant medical conditions – I have issues with my bladder and kidneys but have been unable to have tests required done for past two years.  Because I need my ACC care back and mental health support worker to go with me – I have no-one else I feel safe taking.

     

    I will have the gym membership and support I had as part of my ACC rehabilitation plan in 2009, to help deal with my increasing weight and eating disorder.  I will be able to see a professional about my eating disorder, which I havn’t been about to do for over 10 years.

     

    Wellbeing include psychosocial support to reintegrate successfully into the community – from which I have become isolated due to poor mental health, poverty and unemployment.  I will reconnect with my whanau, as I have become distant from them as well, they dislike that I don’t work and do the activism I do.

     

     

    Outcome 5:                            Accessibility

     

    I can access places, services and information just like everyone else.

     

    I need help with this as I have tried for years to access the treatment care rehabilitation justice etc I am entitled to under law without success.  This is something my lawyer could assist with to start with as I am currently turned away repeatedly.

     

    I have a home that enables me to participate in my community.  In the current housing crisis this is a serious issue for me and many others.  I live in private rental accommodation with a flatmate who takes advantage of me and I need him to leave but I can’t say anything.  I could be asked to leave with six weeks notice if family wanted to move in.  The thought terrifies me as I have had so many bad experiences moving, I moved 4 x in 12 months a couple of years ago – sent my stress disorder off the scale.  I have lost many things, had many broken and many stolen in all my moves.

     

    I can regain the confidence to perform my poetry and plays, learn more about creative writing for profit and to share history and fantasy with my community.

     

    That as I heal and no longer need intensive services that at any time in the future when I am overwhelmed with trauma I can return to services without question.

     

    That I am not assessed to death, and have this processed used as a form of denying services rather than providing appropriate professional services depending on physical, psychological and psychosocial needs.

     

    Outcome 6:                            Leadership

     

    I have the same opportunities for leadership as everyone else and there are leaders who can represent me.

     

    This is definitely not happening in mental health and I do not feel there are any leaders or organisations representing me in any meaningful way.  In fact I feel our leaders are ignorant, arrogant and disrespectful of my expertise, experience and talents.

     

    Outcome 7:                            Education

     

    I have the same education outcomes just like everyone else.

     

    I was studying law at Victoria before I was mentally injured in 2002, I had passed five out of six papers – one I had dropped, I was very busy as a single parent and owner manager in my franchise business.  After I was hurt I tried but could not go back to university, I have since done papers in rehabilitation, health, journalism, creative scriptwriting, but none were successful due to my disability and inadequate support.

     

    If I have received an ACC Independence Allowance of $18 per week, half of it has to go to my student loan – which is incredibly unjust – also I disagree with the level of this allowance but could not challenge it.

     

    I have reports saying I am intelligent, do not have a personality disorder and am not delusional, yet I do not work and am rotting on welfare.  I protest and participate in submissions like this because I know my disorder, I know what I need, know what I’m entitled to and know what a professional rehabilitation plan actually entails.

     

    According to ACC legislation they are required to return me as near as practicable to my previous life – they have never made any attempt to do this.  I have tried and failed because they refuse to support those things I believe are necessary, for years I tried to heal myself – I failed over and over again until I gave up and started being a Civil Society Actor in the area of mental health full time.  If I can’t work then I don’t want to live – simple as that.  And I want a job that uses my knowledge and talents.

     

    Disabled people, in fact no people, should have to pay for their education.  Disabled people are currently driven out of the neo-liberal capitalist working environment, which does not allow for people who are not 100% fit and efficient to do the job – they don’t want anybody that cannot earn a maximum – that’s what they call productivity.

     

    As the New Zealand government has signed the Economic Social and Cultural Rights covenant, as well as the disability rights declaration I believe they are responsible for ensuring disabled people have valued work.  That will require the government to create meaningful jobs, or support the disabled person to create a meaningful job for them and perhaps others.  I would like to develop my scriptwriting and write the multiple plays I have started to develop, including plays about NZ history.  I would like to record some of my songs and work with a band to see if they are valuable when professionally produced.

     

    I am an advocate for Te Whariki – an early childhood document that I believe could be extended to cover all education.

     

    Mentally injured and ill students must be given extra help they are entitled to in order to achieve their best.  Many have behavioural issues and need more intensive support, or learn through doing, many are creative but not very academic and avenues to develop creative talents need to be provided.

     

    An older student cannot learn efficiently or sometimes at all if they are extremely stressed due to housing issues or poverty.  People who are studying need to be provided safe accommodation and/or travel to education (eg travel from Carterton to Victoria , Massey or Whitiraia).

     

    Outcome 8:                            Employment

     

    I have the same employment outcomes and opportunities as everyone else.

     

    One of my most basic desires and requirements of any rehabilitation plan I participate in, is how it is going to facilitate my returning to work and value in the community, that improves my mental health, not makes it deteriorate.

     

    I have learnt a lot over the past 14 years, along with my artistic expression I want to use what I have learnt to help and protect other men women and children with mental injuries.  I want to see realised all the resources services and facilities required to provide the professional treatment care rehabilitation and justice people, with mental injures as a result of abuse, are entitled to under ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws.

     

    As referred to previously in our current economic climate people with disabilities (or those caring for them) are mostly unemployed – this needs to be addressed by government and not just left to the community.  They are not the ones who created this low wage, high unemployment, unequal society, government did and they have a responsibility to all disabled people to ensure their lives are worth living.

     

    Kia kaha to us all.

Hurry Mr Ombudsman

Please hurry Mr Ombudsman
Rescue me from this red tape war

Please hurry Mr Ombudsman
I’m on my knees at heaven’s door

Please hurry Mr Ombudsman
This war is such cruel hell

Please hurry Mr Ombudsman
There is evil down in this well

Please hurry Mr Ombudsman
Get me off this torture wheel

Please hurry Mr Ombudsman
I just want to work and heal

Please hurry Mr Ombudsman
This situation is so NOT RIGHT!

Please hurry Mr Ombudsman
Before my disorder wins the fight

Please hurry

Jayne

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I had been begging the Ombudsman for help but they did nothing except call the police when I phoned on 1 March 2011.