So much news I don’t know what to call this post – in New Zealand

Was arrested on Tuesday, transported to Masterton Wednesday & have next court date, but still no lawyer.  Was doing a protest at Health & Disability Commission, knowing there was a warrant out for my arrest, which is what I was picked up on.  I tried to get a lawyer to get me out of staying but it became to traumatic and my behaviour and mental health was really bad.  Lots of self-harming and freaking out.

 

So much to tell you about what happened during my time in custody, the good and the bad.

First, I also heard from my contact at Ministry of Health, high up in the Director of Health’s office.  ACC are reinstating my care, the have an OT organised who will be contacting me and a social worker/mental health worker to help me get a doctor and decent psychiatrist.  Also organise going back to gym, swimming and doing more with my music and art.

You wait until all that care and support kicks in and I can do protests and get arrested without self-harming and having these horrendous events.  Oh yeah and I”m terrified – EIGHT years since I won the ACC review – eight fucking years – those evil cruel scum.  I will continue to pursue human rights complaints against them at the United Nations.  They ruined my life – for what?

Getting a decent lawyer going to be biggest challenge, I’m still not stopping my human rights complaints about what has been happening and all the bigotry I encounter.  Just now I won’t be freaking out so badly with being so unsupported.  Also I should be able to present at select committees etc without freaking out – which would be good.

 

 

 

United Nations Application for intervention under special circumstances in New Zealand

Scouring UN documents I found a less formal, more urgent mechanism to get urgent action from the United Nations Commissioner on Human Rights.  Hopefully I have provided enough information to get the police off my back, plus the health care and lawyer I need to continue my fight for justice and professional care for me and other mentally injured abuse victims.

13 April 2018

 

 

Office of the United Nations High Commissioner for Human Rights

United Nations Office at Geneva

8-14 Avenue de la Paix

CH-1211 Geneva 10

SWITZERLAND

 

 

Dear Sir/Madam,

 

Special Circumstances of Urgency and Sensitivity

 

I have been pouring over United Nations documents again as I attempt to put together yet another report/submission on human rights and other abuses I am experiencing and see around me. There is nobody I can tell about what is happening that will help me, you are my only hope to get health care, protection and justice I am entitled to.

 

This dispute between myself a govt health provider (ACC) and justice organisations has gone on for 15 years in total. More earnestly in the past 9 years since ACC illegally withdrew all my care and severely aggravated my stress disorder, tried to drive me to suicide – they were supposed to be helping me overcome.

 

They have ignored health professionals and myself in regards to my care, when they have no legal mandate to do so – they are a funder of health services so they proclaim therefore exempt from Health & Disability scrutiny. They have violated criminal laws which say no disabled person is allowed to be left in a position of harm – which ACC and New Zealand government have done many times, while I was screaming for help. (Crimes Act Sections 150A 151 155 157).

 

I am very unwell and have recurring bouts of chronic suicidal ideation – which is a living nightmare of torment. My stress disorder worsens as I continue to be denied professional rehabilitation and a safe home to live in that is required by law. ACC manipulate the police and have me dragged through court repeatedly. They refuse to name my ACC case manager (she has a false name of Sarah Jones) so she could be subpoenaed for a criminal/constitutional case I was involved in, for protesting about what was happening. They had their lawyer, who belongs to a top law firm in Wellington with a large staff, threaten my lawyer (a mum, with a part-time secretary & no permanent office) if they tried to subpoena the head of ACC Scott Pickering instead of the case manager they would start judiciary review proceedings and delay my case for months. I was very unwell and not coping at all with this court process, I could not get any services, I could not participate – I did not turn up to the second part of the court proceedings. I also had nine pages of statement withdrawn by my lawyer at the last minute, which was devastating and a miscarriage of justice. I went ahead and was acquitted of wilful trespass charges but charged with graffiti with chalk pen – after being insulted and discriminated against by two police officers – who then assaulted me and lied in court.

 

There was no point in delaying proceedings until I was well, because that was never going to happen until ACC reinstated my care and I was in a safe stable home, and they had been denying me care for years after winning the two ACC reviews. The latest round of protests were done because ACC started using the police to terrorise me using Misuse of a Telephone charge, for phoning them and leaving a message when I was very unwell and screaming to have my care reinstated. More than once they did this, then dropped the charges during the court hearings so the judge wasn’t aware of what my motivation was.

 

I desperately need a lawyer I have been unable to find one myself in 15 years & have several disasters, with a couple of successes.

 

I have never been able to get a lawyer to force ACC to do what the law says, I have a letter from my last criminal lawyer that I have serious unmet legal need. I have Wellington Community Law trying to find me a specialist Constitutional lawyer which I am entitled. Also the Wellington Law Society looking as well. My case is too complicated for majority of lawyers. Experts in constitutional laws are at all the large law firms that contract to the government. I have asked several of them to represent me and they tell me it would be a conflict of interest, plus of course they don’t do legal aid.

 

I can get legal aid, I just can’t get a lawyer. Legal Services Agency try and tell me I don’t have a case, which is incorrect and what qualifications and information do these people have to make such a statement. The justice system has been eroded for years under neo-liberal terrorism in order to harm the poor and deny them justice. The majority of who were disabled people with mental health issues – not being addressed and put under extreme economic strain and suffering criminal neglect.

 

Can you please tell ACC and the New Zealand government to provide me the professional treatment care rehabilitation and safe home I am entitled to under ACC and other laws & after winning two reviews in 2010/2011. Perhaps Zeid could phone our Prime Minister Jacinda Ardern and ask her directly to intervein in my case, please I would be very grateful, I am very unwell. So many around me are suffering and dying, please help us we are the human sewage of our neo-liberal controlled society.

 

Can you please acknowledge me as a Civil Society Actor so I can get the protection of the United Nations. I adhere to the handbook on Civil Society. This is my work and my story www.jrmurphypoet.com twitter @jrmurphypoetry – Youtube JR Murphy Poet – facebook /jrmurphypoetmusician . I don’t deny being challenging and controversial, especially in the area of suicide, inequality, mental health, human rights etc. Our society refuses to address the underlying issues to these damaging social problems. How I am being treated by the health and justice system and human rights organisations in New Zealand is proof of how corrupt it truly is. I am discredited, discriminated against, rejected and marginalised by those in authority. I have a lot of support in the community from others in the targeted minority group I belong to and other activists who understand the issues. They do not protest the way I do mostly out of fear. If the UN can protect me, they can protect other disabled Civil Society Actors and people who being persecuted can finally be heard and rescued.

 

Can you please arrange for me to see a lawyer that can be trusted perhaps a lawyer from outside New Zealand, I have lost faith in those here – they have profited hugely from government economic cruelty and lack of mental health services.

 

Can you please arrange an international human rights expert to look over my case. So the justice sector cannot discredit what I am saying because I am a lay-person with a mental health issue. Not a mental health issue that makes me a liar or unaware when my rights are being violated and I’m being discriminated against and terrorised purposely.

 

Can you please arrange for someone to keep checks on police visits to my home and legality of court proceedings following any non-violent political protest. I have tried to trespass police, they ignore me, I am especially terrified by ‘welfare visits’ regarding my mental health. I could give you several police officers names who support what I do and not what is happening to me and others.

 

Please protect me, Andrew Little gloated New Zealand and his government was a defender of Human Rights – he lied – he knows about my case and refuses to do anything. All I want is my health care back so I can heal from my mental injury and return to work so I can live with dignity and in safety. Flatting with strangers when you are disabled vulnerable and 53 yrs old is terrifying, flatting with people you know can be even more so our society is so dysfunctional in the ‘darklands’.

 

Please I don’t want to die, I don’t know how many more suicidal episodes I can go through without professional help. That I was turned down for only four months ago – the psychiatrist refused to work with me because I didn’t believe in psychotropic drugs. That was yet another violation of my rights. I don’t take those drugs for ethical and religious regions, ethical because I have done enough study and talked to enough people with CPTSD to know how sick they can make you. Religious because spirit told me not to touch them, I am a rescuer and it would damage my ability to protect myself spiritually when I was under attack from dark spirits – who I help pass over to the light – there are many people who do it.

 

I have so many other complaints of violations of my civil, political, economic, social, cultural, human, women and disabled rights. I desperately need my special circumstances taken into consideration, so help now will lead to justice being done in the future for me and other disabled mentally injured abused women.

 

When I try to bring together all my evidence I become severely overwhelmed and can’t deal with it, I become highly suicidal, self-harm and more. I need help, impairments related to my disability prevent me from making complaints to the United Nations under human, civil and disabled rights – I need those urgent things I have asked for above so I can participate fully in the human rights process.

 

I hope and pray you hear me, as leaders of my own country do not. The support I am asking for is a way for the United Nations to do something practical in the life of a disabled CSA with a life-threatening disorder. Someone from the very group of people with mental health issues who are making vast majority of complaints to the United Nations about human rights violations.

 

I have written many poems and songs about what my country is putting me and others through. Is it at all possible to facilitate an exhibition of my work, art, poems, music – I wrote all these things for the people who were harming me and didn’t want to see – those in positions of power over us. Can the United Nations stand by me, what I’m singing about, share my work and support me through their social media and extensive networks.

 

I noted at the first consultation meeting on the UPR of Human Rights in New Zealand the United Nations Association of NZ had a lawyer speaking for them – can I have access to these legal specialists perhaps? I have tried to get help from them before but they turned me away very rudely saying they didn’t deal with individual cases. That was several years ago. How can they speak on my behalf if they don’t want the details of what is happening to me, that only gets worse and more violent.

 

I have deeply held concerns about violations of what disputes can be put under a Tribunal and was shocked to realise such an important area of law as human rights was being adjudicated in such a manner. Tribunal members chosen by the same government violating human rights, which is a serious violation of separation of powers. Members that denied me a fair hearing of my human rights complaints.

 

In the next few months I will be participating in the UPR on Human Rights in New Zealand, also disability rights and economic social & cultural rights. I will discuss the issues as I see them and the solutions. But first I need to feel safe in my own home, if I am to do the work needed to participate in the justice process and have my human and other rights defended. This is why I have made this special request and hope with all my heart the United Nations agrees with me and can protect me, particularly under CSA rules.

 

Yours sincerely

 

 

 

 

JR

CIVIL SOCIETY ACTOR

 

 

Carterton

NEW ZEALAND

 

 

 

 

 

Snow Kissed Air

A southerly roars through the trees
Snow has dusted the Tararua peaks
Tui’s song so crisp and full in the snow kissed air
The roar heralding change of season

Winter has arrived leaves are mostly upon the earth, the lawn the street
Most beautiful duvets laid out beneath each tree
Who has sacrified its leaf for winger in a blaze of autumn glory
Leaving naked bodies, limbs, hair

While conifer and native stand strong against winter’s embrace
Dressed in fullest green, safe haven for the indigenous souls of this ground

Beneath snow kissed air pathway ponds reflect the long blule sky
Most perfect reflection of Wairarapa heavens

Beneath snow kissed air fungus boldly disply their magical beauty
Like creatures from another space, another times
Dying mystical expression of wood, of trees

Aoteroapururangi kihia ai e te
Land of the long blue sky and snow kissed air

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Government Corruption in New Zealand Justice System

I have been doing some investigation into human rights justice instruments supposed to protect human rights in New Zealand which quite obviously DO NOT in area of mental health.  A review of the Tribunals unit which is supposed to cover only issues that are not serious shows constitutional and life-death decisions of the government are being adjudicated there.  By people chosen by the government, this is a gross violation of separation of powers and is quite obviously where most corruption and human rights violations are happening.

 

Currently there is a review of the Tribunals law and new proposed law which will see even more civil & human rights violations along with persecution of people with psycho social/psychological disabilities, especially through our court/justice system.

 

This is a list of those justice issues in the Tribunal – note, govt chooses to set up Tribunals and not put them in a court:

 

Occupations Tribunal – for professionals from other countries to be registered

Disputes Tribunal – for monetary disputes up to $15,000 – soon to be $30,000

Motor Vehicle Dealer – registration, complaints etc

Real Estate Tribunal – complaints

Copyright – complaints

Abortion – registration of surgeons etc

Customs – complaints

Land and Title – complaints

Licenses and Certificates

Weathertight homes

Waitangi tribunal

IMMIGRATION – disputes

TAX – disputes

TENANCY – disputes

HUMAN RIGHTS – disputes

ACC – disputes

LAWYERS & CONVEYANCING – disputes

LEGAL AID – disputes

SOCIAL SECURITY – disputes

STUDENTS – disputes about entitlements

 

There is NO WAY disputes against the crown/government should be adjudicated in a Tribunal where the government chooses the members who make decisions.  Those above in capitals are part of our constitutional laws, the most blatant of those is Human Rights.

 

In my case I won two ACC reviews at the Tribunal and have been waiting 8 years for them to reinstate my care.

 

Constitutional law MUST BE PUT UNDER HIGH COURT OR SUPREME COURT SYSTEM – if New Zealanders value it like they say they do it should not be in a lowly Tribunal where government has complete control over it.

 

Government are using huge law firms to defend cases against some of the poorest and most victimized members of society – the playing field must be levelled.  As I have said before there must be a constitutional law service paid for by taxes – that matches all need in society, as required under law.  Constitutional law must be given its proper status in our commonwealth democracy that adheres to Rule of Law.

 

There must be a jury of our peers presiding over constitutional law decisions – Tribunal members and judges have failed us.

 

Disputes about torture must be taken from the Attorney-General, I have asked the Attorney-General for many years to allow me to take a case of Torture against ACC and others – I am refused.  I tried to do it myself and was told by Judge Davidson I was being malicious and I didn’t have consent of Attorney-General.  He also referred to Imperial Laws Application Act 1988

New Zealand Human Rights law cases should be heard in Supreme Court

It has become quite obvious to me over the past few days that having human rights cases heard in a Tribunal is grossly inapproriate & causing serious violations of United Nations declarations and Constitutional Law.  Our entire society is suffering and people are dying.

Human Rights violations of people with mental health are rampant and what 90% of citizens are complaining to United Nations about.   This is a constitutional law and yet it languishes in a Tribunal with members who aren’t even lawyers and are chosen by the government of the day – a gross violation of separation of powers expected in a democracy (a democracy YEAH RIGHT).

The oher tribunals involve material and financial matters – having tribunals dealing with the lives and deaths of 100,000s of people is grossly inappropriate and I believe a purposeful act of harm against an entire sector of society.  It denigrates constitutional and human rights laws.  Then there is the ACC tribunal which should not even exist, the conduct of this organisation in my case has been nothing less than psychological torture and persecution – gross violations of my rights and massive cause of harm – not just for me but many others.  They should be under health system, they have corrupted their current system and have no right to have it continue with the abomination they have created for many citizens (who own ACC).

WE DO NOT NEED A NEW CONSTITUTION – we need to empower the current one, moving cases to our expensive & beautiful Supreme court, which is only used 55 days a year at the moment,  is essential to ensuring the integrity of our constitutional laws. It must be free, the power of money imbalance must be addressed, this is why we have Rule Of Law.

There must also be legal representation for people who take cases of human & constitutional rights violations to court – I’m sure most would be like me and incapable of representing themselves.  Currently the government employs multiple expensive law firms to oppose people claiming human rights abuses, poor and sick people.  For my protesting criminal charges I get an overworked country lawyer out on her own and our opposition is law firm Meredith Connell with a team of over a dozen lawyers and support staff.  The scales of justice need to be evened up.

I can imagine there would be hundreds of good people, good lawyers who would jump at the chance to work in the area of human rights and constitutional law, especially for disabled and mentally injured abuse victims like me.  Who the government and society been screwing over for years.

You could run it through Public Defence Service across the road – cause very few of their lawyers know constitutional and human rights laws, its a specialist area, that does intersect with criminal law.  Also they can be complicated and time consuming, govt has run down the justice system just same as education and health (I believe to purposely harm society & profit from it).

Imagine walking into the Supreme Court and having our countries most senior judges sitting before you to hear your case against our own government that sits just across the road.  If I ever see that day – well – there will be tears.  What a dream though.

Why is there graffiti about police violence against women in Wairarapa

Someone I don’t know that well told me about some chalking in Masterton about police violence towards women and I told her it was me.  Then I told her what happened and why I had done it, so even though I have mentioned it before on this website I will tell you again.  I also want those who are interested in what happened to me to know local media have REFUSED to say anything about it and have censored what has happened for years.

I did that graffiti in CHALK PEN on vacant shops in Masterton because a police officer violently assaulted me for a non-violent protest about discrimination and injustices I am being subjected to for asking for the professional health care i am entitled to under ACC and mental health services.

I have protested about the issues of professional health care for mentally injured abuse victims for many years.  Since I was raped, couldn’t get the help I knew I desperately needed and read the ACC legislation and other health, disability and human rights laws.

In all the times I have been arrested up until July 2016 I HAD NEVER BEEN ASSAULTED AND THREATENED – yes police might have been a bit rough with me and nasty ones could be mean – but NOTHING LIKE WHAT HAPPENED OUTSIDE CARTERTON POLICE STATION.  That was a full on violent assault and the next 3 hours with police was horrendous, I am still traumatised thinking about it.

So police assaulted me, I have medical evidence and CCTV footage to prove it that never made it to court because it was bought up during my charges for wilful trespass (which I won) and graffiti (which I was convicted of).  I am appealing this conviction.

I complained about the assault to police the next day and to IPCA soon afer, I was told they would deal with it after my case went to court for the graffiti protest and other wilful trespass charges for other NON-VIOLENT protests.  I was using art I had done in retaliation for police working for ACC in charging me with MISUSE OF A TELEPHONE FOR PHONING THEM SCREAMING TO HAVE MY CARE REINSTATED from 2009 – I had won two reviews and was very unwell.

I was never told until the court case came up – which took 18 mths & three times in court to even hear, our court system is sooooooooo bad – that the assault complaint would be dealt with there.  How could they do this, I had assaumed a case of assault would be done separately and investigated thoughly – IT IS NOT!  So the officers lied in court, the judge believed them and not my lawyer or me – he crust old judge and one of those judges who had been dragged in to try and cope with our GROSSLY OVERSTRETCHED, TO THE POINT OF ILLEGAL, court system our govt had created.

So the judge found the two officers justified in their assault – their version of the assault and what happened – not the truth.

I was so angry and so upset – if they could get away with assaulting me like that, then it would only get worse if I kept protesting.  ONe of the officers told me that, he said if I kept doing it I WOULD SEE HOW BAD POLICE COULD BE – I am passionate about my activism over abusive mental health care, I know what I do is important and if I could get professional care applied to me and other abuse victims I could save so much unnecessary suffering, violence, addiction and suicide.  It is illegal to terrorise an Civil Society Activists like me in New Zealand – in any commonwealth country – in any country that belongs to the United Nations.  I know my rights very well.

I stewed on it for a couple of months then knew I had to do something as my mental health was getting even worse.  When all the news came out about Harvey Weinstein sexually abusing women and the latest thing with Russell McVeagh lawyers I felt empowered enough to carry out my plan – terrified as I was of being assaulted even worse by Wairarapa police.

My plan was to destroy or make police take down the White Ribbon banner encouraging women to speak out about violence by men in their foyer – the foyer I had sat in extremely traumatised rocking backwards and forwards begging to go home – where every person who came past I recoiled from, especially the officer who had threatened me – after they had violently assaulted degraded and discriminated against me.

So I came up with throwning red paint over it as the easiest way – and it was.  So I went there, threw red paint on the banner, left a piece of my art on the counter and left the building, nobody had come out so used my can of white chalk spray and did a swastika on end of it.  Left there and headed for Lower Hutt where I chalked Judge JP Butler and swastika on teh building and then went to Wellington police station where I handed myself in.

The Wellington police were so nice, they were not very impressed with what I was telling them about the assault and what had happened through the courts etc.  I told them Wellington police had NEVER hurt me like that and I knew what those two officers had done was illegal.  They made me talk about it though and I hadn’t realised they would do that – it still makes me really unwell upset and traumatised and I’ve never been able to talk to a mental health professional about it – because ACC and mental health are still refusing me services.

i do the chalking on the buildings in my community to be heard – because local and national media refuse to tell my story, refuse to say what is happening to me and why.  I don’t understand why they are covering up what is happening to a person who is a NON- VIOLENT and challenging protester – protesting about mental health services for abuse victims etc.

So that is most of the story from the person who chalked about police violence – that is the truth, there is more to it after years of protesting and being harmed, refer to rest of my website if you want to know and of course my poetry – that says it in an even more real and feeling way.

Leaders of New Zealand and those who uphold law and justice are a huge disappointment.  They say one thing and do exactly the opposite then use media to cover it up or trivialise what is going on.

New Zealand used to be such a cool place – I know it was never perfect – but what is happening now is grossly immoral, corrupt and violates even our own terrorism laws, it violates laws against psychological torture as well and of course human rights and other laws. And the most disturbing thing is those organisations like Health & Disability commission, Human Rights Commission and Ombudsman ARE THE WORST OFFENDERS!!!!!!!!

🙁  And I said I didn’t want to cry but how can I not – every National party voter wanted this, and every Labour party voter condoned it in their party as well.  They created this environment of dog eat dog and created proverty then hurt the poor until we can make money out of them through psychotropic drugs, justice industry and even social services/psychology industry.  They did all this to replace the jobs in manufacturing OUR OWN GOVERNMENT drove out of New Zealand since the 1980s.

Kia kaha and aroha to us all.

My Lifes in Boxes

My life’s in boxes little pieces
A wreckage on these hostile beaches
On TV paper radio
No-one says the things I know

The gods of war fight sick & poor
PR stands guard at every door
They numb the masses to the harm they cause
Tell me and others ‘the fault’s all yours’

Someone made a big mistake
Gave power and glory to those who take
Its social problems they created
Loved the rich & poor they hated

Our leaders ears are painted on
Responsibility they run from
Focus on what’s bright and new
Degrade, despise, reject the few

And those who call the good to action
Are considered some sort of loony faction
Where have this country’s morals gone
Protect the weak, curtail the strong

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Seamus Boyer Blow Fly Editor Wairarapa News condoning violence against women

I’m really upset about my situation at the moment, WINZ threatening to cut my disability benefit because I can’t see a doctor because I can’t get any mental health services to help me.  I’ve been on invalids for years and still I am forced to go through this nightmare year after year – at the same time as ACC and MH refusing me professional health care I am entitled to by law.  As well as being unable to get a lawyer to force them to do what the law says and get the police to stop terrorising me for legally protesting about this gross injustice.

So I went chalking today on windows of empty shops around Masterton – I then phoned Wairarapa News to tell them what I had done.  I got Seamus Boyer and his behaviour was really really strange, really derogatory, patronising and really strange.  A classic example of this GASLIGHTING behaviour of people in abusive power relationships.

So I called, said who I was, said I had been chalking about police violence and suicide – just so he knew and could report it.  So he launched into speaking over me, saying we’ve talked about this Jayne, (which we havn’t – he’s talked about it but he wouldn’t listen to anything I said or what was happening to me).  I don’t intend to say anything about what you are doing, you’re not listening Jayne, I don’t intend to change my mind.

When I said but we havn’t talked about anything, he repeats we’ve talked about this, I’m ending this call, I’m not interested in anything you have to say Jayne.  Really really creepy.  HE doesn’t know anything about me, he has never talked to me about any of this, except to disagree with anything I have told him about what is happening in Wairarapa.  He is a classic example of a radicalised person, just like Germans were like prior to WWII, listening to everything those in power were saying and in complete denial about the suffering and harm they were inflicting against vulnerable minority groups.

Sadly I lost it & swore at him before he hung up – I am devastated and distraught because it is yet more confirmation of how red-neck and right-wing extremist Wairarapa news media are.  That is why we are No 1 for suicide in this region, no 1 for compulstory treatment orders, No 1 for use of psychotropic drugs on disabled people, No 1 for homelessness (most disabled poor been driven from this region already).  It is a mass psychosis with these people in power – exactly what happens in abusive power relationships – classic GASLIGHTING of women.

Seamus Boyer IS RESPONSIBLE for the suffering and suicides of dozens of Wairarapa people, because he covers up the gross miscarriage of justice happening to me and so many disabled poor people in this region.  It is deeply disturbing just how creepy these people are.  So don’t believe anything you see in Wairarapa News – or Times Age, they are even more OLD BOYS NETWORK.

He doesn’t want to know what has happened to me at the hands of police, ACC, mental health and my community because he can’t live in denial if he hears what is going on.  He doesn’t want to know what I do as a Civil Society actor, making submissions to Select Committees and United Nations Human Rights committees.

Some serious KARMA coming to that man and all those he protects. ewwwwww

NZ Human Rights Universal Periodic Review Consultation Wellington

Arrived at Victoria University for the event, people from Ministry of Foreign Affairs and Trade organising it.  Was desperate to find someone I could talk to about getting protection from police as a Civil Society Actor.   Started talkng to this woman Sally, was upset, she told me she had been involved in human rights sector for years.  I challenged her that it was people like her who had caused the human rights issues we now had, that I now had.

She became very passive aggressive to the point of creepy, they bought me a young woman from Human Rights Commission & I immediately moved away from her like I was frightened – I can’t help it, its a reaction to all the times they have not helped me & hurt me – after all those years begging for their help and being discredited, ignored and having police etc attack me for it.

I wasn’t in a good place so I couldn’t talk to them – there’s no point – I know there is no point after 15 years.  Only place I am ever going to get help is the United Nations, HRC are set up to protect the government and New Zealand’s reputation – they even say that in their promotion of the event.  They say they trying to protect NZs reputation BLATANTLY – groan.

Sally & another woman couldn’t/woudn’t believe what has been happening with police, mental health, ACC and the justice system.  When I said about throwing the paint on White Ribbon banner in police station and chalking swastika on building Sally became really weird.  Apparently NOBODY is allowed to use that symbol etc etc, (she also called me Sweetie one part of it).  I asked her if she knew how the HUman Rights Act came about, she said she did.  When I my use of that symbol was to represent gross violations of my rights and I had every right to use it, she kept saying I wasn’t – so did the young HRC woman.   I tried to explain about people being driven to self-harm, violence, addiction suicide etc due to human rights violations by our government – she didn’t want to know.  NAZIs did it to people, in 21st century govt has worked out how to drive people to doing it themselves.  NZ has highest rate of woman self-harming in the world.

I told her she was trivialising and discrediting what was happening to me and 10,000s of other mentally injured abuse victims with her ‘extreme’ reaction to me using the swastika.  She said she wasn’t -but she was.  She was incredibly patronising and behaving really oddly, other people came around.  I knew it was time to end the conversation when people start reacting like that.  So I headed into the lecture theatre to sit down, a very dark skinned woman with braids had been listening and tried to stop me, she asked the man standing near the door to stop me from entering.  I wasn’t having any of that so just went around him, while he was trying to work out why I would be stopped.  Lots of practice & a complete lack of respect for govt officials gives you the strength to ignore them.

I also told Sally I was human sewage and she kept telling me I wasn’t, over and over again.  I said I wasn’t asking her opinion on it, I knew how I was being treated, I was a poet and song-writer and had written a song about it, I knew I was human sewage.  Her reaction was very strange.

I got in the meeting – about 50 people – mostly from agencies WHO HAVE BEEN CAUSING THESE HUMAN RIGHTS ISSUES – groan.  I had begged for help from EVERY ONE OF THEM and been told they don’t deal with individual cases – question is how do they represent human rights violations if they refuse to talk to the people having their rights violated.  Some of them loved the sound of their own voices.  The people running it were middle class ignorant people, obviously doing very well pretending we have human rights in New Zealand and staying ignorant to what is really happening.

By this stage the organisers were in a flap, outside, Sally came in and proceeded to tell me I had to leave – I looked at her and said NO.  Yes apparently I had to leave by order of Victoria University Security because I was trespassed.  WTF – I was shocked, don’t remember being given a trespass order by them, even though did have an altercation with security during a chalk protest outside couple of years ago.  Police were called, but nothing came of it.

So spoke up in front of everybody and told them what was happening, started crying, told the room of people they were trying to have me removed, that I just wanted to stay – it was related to my LEGAL non-violent protests and I needed to stay to find out what to do to get protection and justice.  I asked them to back me up, only 2 people did, the organiser up the front went out and had a talk to security, came back in and whispered I could stay.  They don’t realise there would have been NO WAY they would have got me out of there without police arresting me – NO WAY.

What a way to start the consultation meeting – with such a blatant violation of my human and civil rights.  Sally came back in the room and tried to sit beside me – I asked her to go away several times, she refused.  She moved a few seats away from me, but came closer at one point – she was making me feel really uncomfortable and was even turned towards me.  I just tried to ignore her.  Why would someone sit beside you, when you obviously didn’t like them or want them there – it was really really creepy & I will be making a complaint about her inappropriate behaviour.  An ex-social worker – groan, some of those people are very mentally disturbed – passive aggressive & DO NOT like being challenged – they just want people saying nice things about them.

We went around the room with microphone, most people were talking about violations of human rights against mentally ill people – but from an advocacy perspective.  Got to me and I did it from my perspective.

Took some notes, supported people when they said things I know to be true – groaned, closed my eyes and shook my head when I heard BULLSHIT from people who had no idea what they were talking about.

Talked to a couple of people afterwards about what going on with police, everything they suggested I had tried.  They were shocked at what was going on – because obviously they don’t come into contact with people like me – but I had phoned every one of those organisations (eg Amnesty & UN NZ group and been told to go away, they didn’t want to know about individual cases.  Not the exact person I was speaking to, but others.)

Left & went to Parliament was upset about what had happened – they had actually tried to have me removed from that very important meeting on how to approach United Nations about human rights abuses I was being subjected to. WTF.  And that woman Sally had acted really strangely – I’m sure a psychitarist would be able to explain her disturbing behaviour, especially about sitting next to me when I asked her not to – what was that?

At parliament I sat there mostly just crying & upset in front of my signs, my biggest sign was WORTHELESS SUICIDAL ABUSE VICTIM, PLEASE KILL ME – that’s how I felt.  A nice couple of tourists came up to me and asked why there was so much suicide in New Zealand.  So I told them why, was thinking later how I should do a VLOG about it.  They completely understood about how NZers were so looked after by their government but after neo-liberalism they were terrorised by them.

I asked their nationality as I couldn’t pick it – the were Isralie – there was another person their listening as well – an American, she agreed with everything I was saying about neo-liberalism government etc – was ashamed of Trump.  I said how I didn’t really understand the conflicts in their region and was focused on my own country, didn’t believe it was anything really to do with me on the other side of the world.  I did say I knew they had serious issues of allocation of resources like water and places to grow food, which I am sure was fuelling their problems.

As we talked it was apparent in New Zealand the poorest are denied a safe place to live and access to land required to grow food.  They have welfare & homes for disabled in Israel – so does New Zealand, but I said how they had taken many away and even though they gave you just enough to live, rents were skyrocketing and payments weren’t.  I also commented that even though there was welfare you were degraded & hated in teh community when you had to rely on it.  Even your own family were ashamed of you.

An Indian man from MSD (sounded like a senior executive the way he was talking) came along, he was nice and wanted to get me help.  First thing he asked me is if it was MSD who were not helping me.  I assured him my WINZ case manager was one of my biggest support people, she was an amazing person and was often upset she couldn’t get me ACC care and mental health services I was entitled to.  He was relieved – he checked about three more times, he was nice & went into Parliament to try and get me to see an MP – once he heard how serious my situation was.  He never came back, I told him they wouldnt’ see me, they were all scared of me but he could try if he wanted to.  I told them I was in contact with them and nothing had changed.

Then DAVE came over – Dave is one of the older security guards I DO NOT LIKE after a couple of incidents which were grossly unfair.   Apparently people had been in to complain to security about me and several had called police – WTF – what he said came across as a threat – hell it is a threat, but that’s the abusive process at the moment – that’s what all those people in suicide prevention have done – turned suicidal people into CRIINALS.  I know how to get out of having police or mental health called, there no way they going to commit me in a million years.

Had a long talk with Dave, so we sort of reconciled our differences, although I cried several times and said how traumatised I was by the things he had done.  He never apologised of course.  He agreed with most of what I was saying, he also said staff had been pretty traumatised by the man who set himself alight on the lawn.

At one point there was a cameraman setting up for someone I didn’t recognised, obviously to do with a news programme of some sort.  Maybe it was about the court case of woman helping her mum suicide and my sign sort of related to that.  I know he set up so I was in teh background, but I couldn’t bare to watch TV news tonight after they went on and on about National party leadership.

Left about 3.30pm and headed home.  I have protested 100s of times now, EVERY time I go out always learn something & always meet some really interesting people.  Usually learn something about how bad the system is as well – but today was the weirdest.  Those MFAT people are completely radicalised, they truly believe people are getting what the government and laws say they are.  Thank God all our submissions will go to the United Nations, I’ll make one to MFAT by 21st June 2018, but I know they will ignore it – as they ignore all my submissions on human rights etc.

What a day – I want to encourage people with human rights and other injustice issues TO BE IDLE NO MORE – GET OUT IN THE WORLD, OUT IN THE STREET, it is essential if we want things to change.

Kia kaha & Aroha to us all.