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Seamus Boyer Blow Fly Editor Wairarapa News condoning violence against women

I’m really upset about my situation at the moment, WINZ threatening to cut my disability benefit because I can’t see a doctor because I can’t get any mental health services to help me.  I’ve been on invalids for years and still I am forced to go through this nightmare year after year – at the same time as ACC and MH refusing me professional health care I am entitled to by law.  As well as being unable to get a lawyer to force them to do what the law says and get the police to stop terrorising me for legally protesting about this gross injustice.

So I went chalking today on windows of empty shops around Masterton – I then phoned Wairarapa News to tell them what I had done.  I got Seamus Boyer and his behaviour was really really strange, really derogatory, patronising and really strange.  A classic example of this GASLIGHTING behaviour of people in abusive power relationships.

So I called, said who I was, said I had been chalking about police violence and suicide – just so he knew and could report it.  So he launched into speaking over me, saying we’ve talked about this Jayne, (which we havn’t – he’s talked about it but he wouldn’t listen to anything I said or what was happening to me).  I don’t intend to say anything about what you are doing, you’re not listening Jayne, I don’t intend to change my mind.

When I said but we havn’t talked about anything, he repeats we’ve talked about this, I’m ending this call, I’m not interested in anything you have to say Jayne.  Really really creepy.  HE doesn’t know anything about me, he has never talked to me about any of this, except to disagree with anything I have told him about what is happening in Wairarapa.  He is a classic example of a radicalised person, just like Germans were like prior to WWII, listening to everything those in power were saying and in complete denial about the suffering and harm they were inflicting against vulnerable minority groups.

Sadly I lost it & swore at him before he hung up – I am devastated and distraught because it is yet more confirmation of how red-neck and right-wing extremist Wairarapa news media are.  That is why we are No 1 for suicide in this region, no 1 for compulstory treatment orders, No 1 for use of psychotropic drugs on disabled people, No 1 for homelessness (most disabled poor been driven from this region already).  It is a mass psychosis with these people in power – exactly what happens in abusive power relationships – classic GASLIGHTING of women.

Seamus Boyer IS RESPONSIBLE for the suffering and suicides of dozens of Wairarapa people, because he covers up the gross miscarriage of justice happening to me and so many disabled poor people in this region.  It is deeply disturbing just how creepy these people are.  So don’t believe anything you see in Wairarapa News – or Times Age, they are even more OLD BOYS NETWORK.

He doesn’t want to know what has happened to me at the hands of police, ACC, mental health and my community because he can’t live in denial if he hears what is going on.  He doesn’t want to know what I do as a Civil Society actor, making submissions to Select Committees and United Nations Human Rights committees.

Some serious KARMA coming to that man and all those he protects. ewwwwww

NZ Human Rights Universal Periodic Review Consultation Wellington

Arrived at Victoria University for the event, people from Ministry of Foreign Affairs and Trade organising it.  Was desperate to find someone I could talk to about getting protection from police as a Civil Society Actor.   Started talkng to this woman Sally, was upset, she told me she had been involved in human rights sector for years.  I challenged her that it was people like her who had caused the human rights issues we now had, that I now had.

She became very passive aggressive to the point of creepy, they bought me a young woman from Human Rights Commission & I immediately moved away from her like I was frightened – I can’t help it, its a reaction to all the times they have not helped me & hurt me – after all those years begging for their help and being discredited, ignored and having police etc attack me for it.

I wasn’t in a good place so I couldn’t talk to them – there’s no point – I know there is no point after 15 years.  Only place I am ever going to get help is the United Nations, HRC are set up to protect the government and New Zealand’s reputation – they even say that in their promotion of the event.  They say they trying to protect NZs reputation BLATANTLY – groan.

Sally & another woman couldn’t/woudn’t believe what has been happening with police, mental health, ACC and the justice system.  When I said about throwing the paint on White Ribbon banner in police station and chalking swastika on building Sally became really weird.  Apparently NOBODY is allowed to use that symbol etc etc, (she also called me Sweetie one part of it).  I asked her if she knew how the HUman Rights Act came about, she said she did.  When I my use of that symbol was to represent gross violations of my rights and I had every right to use it, she kept saying I wasn’t – so did the young HRC woman.   I tried to explain about people being driven to self-harm, violence, addiction suicide etc due to human rights violations by our government – she didn’t want to know.  NAZIs did it to people, in 21st century govt has worked out how to drive people to doing it themselves.  NZ has highest rate of woman self-harming in the world.

I told her she was trivialising and discrediting what was happening to me and 10,000s of other mentally injured abuse victims with her ‘extreme’ reaction to me using the swastika.  She said she wasn’t -but she was.  She was incredibly patronising and behaving really oddly, other people came around.  I knew it was time to end the conversation when people start reacting like that.  So I headed into the lecture theatre to sit down, a very dark skinned woman with braids had been listening and tried to stop me, she asked the man standing near the door to stop me from entering.  I wasn’t having any of that so just went around him, while he was trying to work out why I would be stopped.  Lots of practice & a complete lack of respect for govt officials gives you the strength to ignore them.

I also told Sally I was human sewage and she kept telling me I wasn’t, over and over again.  I said I wasn’t asking her opinion on it, I knew how I was being treated, I was a poet and song-writer and had written a song about it, I knew I was human sewage.  Her reaction was very strange.

I got in the meeting – about 50 people – mostly from agencies WHO HAVE BEEN CAUSING THESE HUMAN RIGHTS ISSUES – groan.  I had begged for help from EVERY ONE OF THEM and been told they don’t deal with individual cases – question is how do they represent human rights violations if they refuse to talk to the people having their rights violated.  Some of them loved the sound of their own voices.  The people running it were middle class ignorant people, obviously doing very well pretending we have human rights in New Zealand and staying ignorant to what is really happening.

By this stage the organisers were in a flap, outside, Sally came in and proceeded to tell me I had to leave – I looked at her and said NO.  Yes apparently I had to leave by order of Victoria University Security because I was trespassed.  WTF – I was shocked, don’t remember being given a trespass order by them, even though did have an altercation with security during a chalk protest outside couple of years ago.  Police were called, but nothing came of it.

So spoke up in front of everybody and told them what was happening, started crying, told the room of people they were trying to have me removed, that I just wanted to stay – it was related to my LEGAL non-violent protests and I needed to stay to find out what to do to get protection and justice.  I asked them to back me up, only 2 people did, the organiser up the front went out and had a talk to security, came back in and whispered I could stay.  They don’t realise there would have been NO WAY they would have got me out of there without police arresting me – NO WAY.

What a way to start the consultation meeting – with such a blatant violation of my human and civil rights.  Sally came back in the room and tried to sit beside me – I asked her to go away several times, she refused.  She moved a few seats away from me, but came closer at one point – she was making me feel really uncomfortable and was even turned towards me.  I just tried to ignore her.  Why would someone sit beside you, when you obviously didn’t like them or want them there – it was really really creepy & I will be making a complaint about her inappropriate behaviour.  An ex-social worker – groan, some of those people are very mentally disturbed – passive aggressive & DO NOT like being challenged – they just want people saying nice things about them.

We went around the room with microphone, most people were talking about violations of human rights against mentally ill people – but from an advocacy perspective.  Got to me and I did it from my perspective.

Took some notes, supported people when they said things I know to be true – groaned, closed my eyes and shook my head when I heard BULLSHIT from people who had no idea what they were talking about.

Talked to a couple of people afterwards about what going on with police, everything they suggested I had tried.  They were shocked at what was going on – because obviously they don’t come into contact with people like me – but I had phoned every one of those organisations (eg Amnesty & UN NZ group and been told to go away, they didn’t want to know about individual cases.  Not the exact person I was speaking to, but others.)

Left & went to Parliament was upset about what had happened – they had actually tried to have me removed from that very important meeting on how to approach United Nations about human rights abuses I was being subjected to. WTF.  And that woman Sally had acted really strangely – I’m sure a psychitarist would be able to explain her disturbing behaviour, especially about sitting next to me when I asked her not to – what was that?

At parliament I sat there mostly just crying & upset in front of my signs, my biggest sign was WORTHELESS SUICIDAL ABUSE VICTIM, PLEASE KILL ME – that’s how I felt.  A nice couple of tourists came up to me and asked why there was so much suicide in New Zealand.  So I told them why, was thinking later how I should do a VLOG about it.  They completely understood about how NZers were so looked after by their government but after neo-liberalism they were terrorised by them.

I asked their nationality as I couldn’t pick it – the were Isralie – there was another person their listening as well – an American, she agreed with everything I was saying about neo-liberalism government etc – was ashamed of Trump.  I said how I didn’t really understand the conflicts in their region and was focused on my own country, didn’t believe it was anything really to do with me on the other side of the world.  I did say I knew they had serious issues of allocation of resources like water and places to grow food, which I am sure was fuelling their problems.

As we talked it was apparent in New Zealand the poorest are denied a safe place to live and access to land required to grow food.  They have welfare & homes for disabled in Israel – so does New Zealand, but I said how they had taken many away and even though they gave you just enough to live, rents were skyrocketing and payments weren’t.  I also commented that even though there was welfare you were degraded & hated in teh community when you had to rely on it.  Even your own family were ashamed of you.

An Indian man from MSD (sounded like a senior executive the way he was talking) came along, he was nice and wanted to get me help.  First thing he asked me is if it was MSD who were not helping me.  I assured him my WINZ case manager was one of my biggest support people, she was an amazing person and was often upset she couldn’t get me ACC care and mental health services I was entitled to.  He was relieved – he checked about three more times, he was nice & went into Parliament to try and get me to see an MP – once he heard how serious my situation was.  He never came back, I told him they wouldnt’ see me, they were all scared of me but he could try if he wanted to.  I told them I was in contact with them and nothing had changed.

Then DAVE came over – Dave is one of the older security guards I DO NOT LIKE after a couple of incidents which were grossly unfair.   Apparently people had been in to complain to security about me and several had called police – WTF – what he said came across as a threat – hell it is a threat, but that’s the abusive process at the moment – that’s what all those people in suicide prevention have done – turned suicidal people into CRIINALS.  I know how to get out of having police or mental health called, there no way they going to commit me in a million years.

Had a long talk with Dave, so we sort of reconciled our differences, although I cried several times and said how traumatised I was by the things he had done.  He never apologised of course.  He agreed with most of what I was saying, he also said staff had been pretty traumatised by the man who set himself alight on the lawn.

At one point there was a cameraman setting up for someone I didn’t recognised, obviously to do with a news programme of some sort.  Maybe it was about the court case of woman helping her mum suicide and my sign sort of related to that.  I know he set up so I was in teh background, but I couldn’t bare to watch TV news tonight after they went on and on about National party leadership.

Left about 3.30pm and headed home.  I have protested 100s of times now, EVERY time I go out always learn something & always meet some really interesting people.  Usually learn something about how bad the system is as well – but today was the weirdest.  Those MFAT people are completely radicalised, they truly believe people are getting what the government and laws say they are.  Thank God all our submissions will go to the United Nations, I’ll make one to MFAT by 21st June 2018, but I know they will ignore it – as they ignore all my submissions on human rights etc.

What a day – I want to encourage people with human rights and other injustice issues TO BE IDLE NO MORE – GET OUT IN THE WORLD, OUT IN THE STREET, it is essential if we want things to change.

Kia kaha & Aroha to us all.




Psychological abuse – GASLIGHTING – by Wairarapa police New Zealand

9 February 2018


Peter Jackson &

David Rutherford

Human Rights Commission

PO Box 12411




(NOTE: this letter was also emailed to Secretary for Justice Andrew Bridgman, Jacinda Ardern PM, Andrew Little Minister for Justice, Stuart Nash Minister for Police, Kieran McNaulty MP, Ron Mark MP, Jan Logie, Mojo Mathes, Carterton Mayor John Booth & Lynn Patterson Masterton Mayor, Wairarapa Times Age and Wairarapa News)

Dear Sirs

This letter is to multiple people, not just those on the address above, I can only write this once. I beg for help so often and am completely discredited, degraded & criminally neglected for telling the truth about what is happening to me (and many other people I am sure).

I refer to the letter 12013 and the absolutely insulting patronising response about Disabled people purposely left to rot on welfare because of gross miscarriage of justice currently perpetrated by our cruel immoral and corruption neo-liberal controlled government and justice agencies. The three arms of government all being grossly corrupted by this economic movement now being called a terrorist religion.

You are talking about improving employment outcomes for disabled people like myself, when I am being illegally denied professional treatment care rehabilitation and a safe home to live in by ACC. If I received the assistance I am entitled to I would be able to return to work.  Along with being terrorised by police and others for asking for the health care and justice I know I am entitled to under law – especially Human Rights laws that you are supposed to uphold.

The treatment of disabled people being denied the right to work has nothing to do with societal attitudes it is purely economic and relates to the attitude of our corrupt immoral cruel leaders – it is nothing to do with society – they don’t even know what is going on. They teach discrimination of less than 100% productive workers at university – any person who does an economics paper as part of their degree will be taught to get the maximum productivity out of staff. The ideas of running an advertising campaign to ‘brainwash’ (which is illegal under Bill of Rights & Human Rights) society to be nice to disabled people is deeply flawed & deeply disturbing.

The discrimination I face almost daily for not working has been ingrained in people for 30 years since neo-liberals drove jobs overseas & impoverished 100,000s New Zealanders purposely – then blamed them for their situation – especially disabled people. I face this discrimination, not only in my community but mostly from mental health services, politicians, police, lawyers, justice services and your organisation. You know that because you know who I am and why I protest against you – why I put up pieces of art with swastika’s on in your office – because you are leading the persecution of disabled people by refusing to protect them and uphold the law.

Currently I am being terrorised by police yet again for my LEGAL and completely justified protests about not receiving the PROFESSIONAL mental health care I am entitled to from ACC (after winning two reviews in 2010 & 2011). ACC review decisions are legally binding, it is illegal to not reinstate my care from 2009 and yet they do it and use impairments related to my disorder to continue the psychological abuse. They do this and I beg you to help and protect me from this gross violation of my rights and you do absolutely nothing – you bring out propaganda saying they should treat me better.

Police violently assault me and threaten me with worse violence if I continue to protest – I am assuming worse violence means what happened to Louise Nicholas and I know for a fact includes psychological abuse using the justice system. I stopped sending you my complaints of serious violations of my rights, which puts my life at risk on a regular basis – you have done absolutely nothing to help me – in fact you participate in using police to terrorise me further – as does the Ombudsman.

Today I sit here writing this terrified at what lengths, neo-liberal elements in police are prepared to go to in order to drive me to suicide, self-harm and more.

I don’t know how to begin because of the extremely life-threatening disorder I now have after years of medical & criminal neglect I have COMPOUNDING Complex PTSD. So bringing up all the traumas causes me significant suffering and torment, makes me highly suicidal and there is nowhere I can turn for help. I was denied professional health care in December after an assessment by a CCDHB psychologist and psychiatrist. I was dumped onto a social worker who caused me significant harm after only a few weeks because he had no concept of seriousness of my impairments (even though I told him).

I currently have no doctor, I am in constant physical pain with my kidneys, hips & ankle, I have another skin cancer but I won’t be able to have this one addressed because I am too terrified to interact with health providers now, after years of discrimination. The very people who supposed to help me are instrumental in discriminating against and persecuting me.

PLEASE NOTE: I am in intelligent person and writer I have an Oxford Dictionary I bought when studying law at Victoria immediately prior to the rape, I know the meaning of persecution and I am using it correctly in this instance. I DO NOT HAVE A MENTAL HEALTH ISSUE that involves paranoia and delusions of persecution, which is how I am treated by your agency and every other I beg for health care and justice from.

So 2 years ago I attempted to attend the court case by Tony Ellis of 3 mentally ill men for torture. I had already tried to take a case of torture myself against ACC and failed at court – I have proof of this. I had already begged your office and attorney-general to allow me to take a case and you both refused to acknowledge what was happening to me. I have been unable to get a lawyer to protect me and my rights in 15 years. I have a letter from my previous criminal lawyer that advises I have serious unmet legal needs. I can provide that if required – as I know you don’t believe anything I say.

Before attending the Tony Ellis trial I phoned High Court security and told them I would be protesting outside and attending court but would not be doing anything but watching – so I could learn how Mr Ellis presented the case so I could do one myself – as I couldn’t get a lawyer, was desperate to return to work and didn’t want to die of my disorder (which is highly dangerous according to all international evidence).

As I went into the court I was confronted by security and told I was not allowed to go, I became very upset as I had done everything required of me, I needed to know this information or I couldn’t get justice I desperately needed. I continued to walk into the court and was violently assaulted by security, I was crying and deeply upset. I had never been assaulted by security before in all my years of being arrested and protesting – I have video footage of some of what happened. When police arrived I was curled up in a ball on the floor against the wall, with a sign in front of me, distraught and traumatised, I have photos of the sign & me looking up at 6 men towering over me. Police arrested me and were very nice, I never resist arrest. I made a formal complaint of assault against High Court security, a complaint that was handled by Sgt Q Hoera, he interviewed me but did nothing about what happened. Even though I know the law, I know what security are allowed to do and they overstepped their authority and the law.

Around this time I was extremely unwell, still begging ACC to reinstate my care from 2009, still being ignored and impairments related to my disability being used against me. I had made multiple complaints to police under Sections 150A 151 155 157 of the Crimes Act, but was ignored. I was phoning ACC remote claims unit – which I had been dumped on because I was angry at being denied professional health care I am legally entitled to after winning 2 reviews – in an extremely unwell and psychotic state screaming at them to return my care.

When I asked for a copy of the recorded phone calls on their answerphone (remote claims NEVER answer the phone it is only an answerphone) under the Privacy Act I was told they did not keep copies of them and my request was denied. Around six weeks later police came to my home and told me they were going to charge me with misuse of a telephone for making the calls, I was overwhelmed with grief and distraught at this gross injustice.   I spent 3 months being dragged through court only to have charges dropped at the last minute.  ACC could only do this by providing a record of the answerphone messages.

Six weeks after the charges were dropped I had police come to my home again (I am terrified of police at my home after years of visits, many of which were extremely traumatising – I have nightmares about police coming to my home now). They told me they were charging me with misuse of a telephone yet again, for phoning ACC really unwell and screaming for help. I was horrified, I have serious RECOGNISED BY A PSYCHIATRIST communication issues when triggered and I couldn’t communicate with police at the time.

I composed myself and went to Carterton police station to find out what was going on -why where they doing this to me again? I was met with insults, degradation and appalling discrimination by the two officers Sgt Q Hoera and Constable Alan French. For 10 mins I was treated like this, trying to defend myself and tell them they were wrong, mental health and ACC were liars I was begging for care – they were saying lots of people had tried to help me and I didn’t want it – that is not true.

I became so angry, I didn’t swear (go tourettes) like I can do (which is a recognised impairment related to my disability) I went back to my car, got out a chalk pen, went back to the police station and drew a swastika & words corrupt on the window in front of them. That was to represent the appalling violation of my human rights – human rights I had as a result of the United Nations recognising how the NAZIs rose to power and putting laws in place to stop this happening again.

I was violently assaulted by these two officers – for my NON-VIOLENT PROTEST. I was subjected to hours of insults and discrimination, when I tried to defend myself verbally they became more abusive and threatened I WOULD SEE HOW BAD POLICE COULD BE IF I KEPT IT UP.   Threats I take extremely seriously considering what happened to Louise Nicholas for many years. I have also realised police are using psychological abuse – which is referred to as Gaslighting – to intimidate and drive my suicidal behaviour even more – they want me to commit suicide.

I want to be sick and tears are rolling down my face as I write this, I will have to self-harm to cope once it is finished.

After I was released I went home to NO SUPPORT and couldn’t tell friends and family either I was so traumatised. I emailed Mike Sutton of Masterton police and told him what had happened, I made a formal complaint to him and the IPCA, I was ignored. A few days later I woke up very very unwell and highly suicidal, covered in bruises, I went to local hospital A & E. When I got there I was very distraught the nurse asked me who had hurt me, I didn’t want to tell her, she had been nice up to that point. Once I said it was police her entire demeanour changed, she left me alone – which was extremely inappropriate in the circumstances. She then put me in another cubicle, left me on my own so terrorised I was rocking backwards and forwards on the bed. By the time a doctor came to see me I was curled up in a ball in the corner of the room rocking, banging my back against the wall to try and calm myself.

The doctor was very nice, he seemed to understand where the nurse was horrible. They recorded the bruising on my hands, my arm and down left side of my leg. I left and went home to no support.

That medical account was given as evidence during the court case for graffiti and wilful trespass I was being charged under – that the violent assault by police was being decided under.  Q Hoera and Alan French told the judge I was pushed up against the wall, when I was thrown onto the ground, which is why I had bruises on side of my left leg.

Nobody told me until the case went to court almost 18 months since the protests and assault that it would be dealt with during court proceedings for my protesting – about police being used by ACC to charge me with misuse of a telephone for screaming for help I am entitled to and desperately needed. I had received the CCTV footage of me being processed by police after the assault – it proves what they had done to me – it was never used in court. Neither was extensive other evidence as to why I was protesting. My lawyer at the time was a public defender with no experience in human rights, bill of rights or what was happening to me.

The lawyer demanded I take out my statement about what was happening to me.

I was acquitted of several other charges for protesting (as I have been multiple times before) but was charged with graffiti for the chalk pen swastika. The judge also made a judgement about the assault saying the officers were justified and not believing anything about the threats or the extent of violence – which I know was illegal. I have been arrested many times, police in Wellington HAVE NEVER treated me so violently. There is a culture of police violence against women in Wairarapa that is not being addressed and is getting worse – I have spoken to several other people now who have witnessed or experienced unnecessary violence towards women here.

I was extremely upset about yet another gross violation of my rights and justice. I became even more unwell and a series of events related to my currently UNSAFE UNSTABLE living situation caused me even further distress (these included a terrifying situation with a mentally ill man on a bracelet in community who had just got out of prison and wanted to live with me because I desperately needed a flatmate.) Which is another story and violation of my human and disability rights that you are currently ignoring.

To cope with what police had done, as I was becoming even more unwell, if that is possible – I went to Masterton police station two weeks ago (30 Jan) and threw red paint over the large white ribbon banner in the foyer. I left, chalked a swastika on the building then headed for Lower Hutt court where I chalked a comment about the very old judge who made the decision and a swastika. I then went to Wellington police station and handed myself in to police there, as I trusted them. They were very nice but made me talk about the police assault which was very upsetting, it was obvious they were uncomfortable with what Wairarapa police had done and the entire situation I was in.

I was given a bail notice to appear on 6th February and conditions that I wasn’t to go within 1 metre of a Wairarapa police station and was to stay every night at my current address. On 1 February a police officer came to my home (which police know I am terrified of), he was very nice and respectful, he told me the 6 Feb date was done in error and could I sign a new Notice of Police Bail that required me to attend court on Monday 5 February. I was told failure to appear would result in my arrest and the notice advises I may be punished by imprisonment of up to 3 months if I did not attend.

I was nervous about the court, as I have spent the past 18 months being dragged through court, I have to get mentally prepared to go, I get dressed up. I am very poor at the moment because I havn’t had a flatmate for past 3 months and had to drive to Masterton with my petrol light flashing – and stressing about that.

When I got there I went inside to tell security to call me when my name came up as I was going to wait outside – and had my guitar so I could sing my songs, which helps me feel less stressed.   I have been escorted from court several times for singing and getting upset inside the court. Court staff know it is better for me to be outside waiting, I don’t feel so trapped (the need to be outside is related to the rape and heightened fight flight and freeze response/impairment I now have). While I was outside singing at around 9am – I was at court at 8.30am as required by the notice.

I also chalked “STOP police violence towards disabled women” on the court fence, I have chalked in this way many times before and not been arrested for it, I know it is within my rights to do this considering the extent of persecution and human rights violations I have been subjected to over several years.

NOTE: I have made a formal complaint to about Judge PJ Butler over his decision and I am attempting to appeal the conviction for graffiti – or more accurately the POLICE ASSAULT decision. But I have been very unwell and still cannot get a lawyer so trying to do it myself.

Police came along outside court and handed me a summons to appear in court on 5 March. Told me I wouldn’t be going to court today. I was very confused, I needed to see the judge to plead and ask for a psych assessment regarding my mental health and motivation behind the blood protest. The WHITE RIBBON sign I threw red poster pain on said to SPEAK OUT ABOUT VIOLENCE TOWARDS WOMEN. I had spoken out and been victimised even more. I know how long court takes, I wanted to make sure things were done as quickly as possible and getting the judge to order an assessment with Justin Barry-Walsh (who I trust and has assessed me for court proceedings previously) would speed things up. Also I had to get a lawyer.

Police left and I went into the court to see the judge. The security guard was very odd, he told me I wasn’t on the court list and I wasn’t allowed in the court, to see a judge or the registrar. I became upset and was then told I was trespassed. I know every person has a right under Magna Carta to see a judge if they need to. I was told there was only a registrar and no judge that day – even though the police officer who came to my home said I would be see a judge. I was prepared to see the registrar but they refused to let me. A woman who works at the court came out from a room looking frightened, she said there was only a registrar, she knew something bad was happening to me I am sure.

I left the court and headed back to my car not far away, as I was three police officers came around the corner, the two who had given me the summons and another. There was one shorter police officer and two very tall ones – it was very intimidating. I have NEVER resisted arrest police know that, I have had situations in Wellington where one officer was sent to arrest me. Once I am told I am under arrest I comply with everything police say, unless it violates my rights.

I was very distressed at being required to be in court or I could spend time in jail, but told I didn’t need to be there and to come back in a month. I went home with my light still flashing, I was very upset, mostly because the behaviour by police was so blatantly part of the GASLIGHTING form of psychological abuse vulnerable people can be subjected to by people in positions of power over them, either abusive partners or abusive organisations like police. This is a well documented and accepted form of abuse in power relationships. This is why we have a Human Rights Act and supposed to be protected from this form of violence by those in positions of power.

As Tuesday was a holiday on Wednesday I headed for Wellington early to see a judge or the registrar so I could have my court case moved to Wellington as it was obvious to me I was never going to get justice at the Masterton Court and the police station is behind the court house. I am terrified of Wairarapa police after years of discrimination and harm that you and other organisations suppose to protect me ignore.

I knew I had to see a judge but there were none available at Wellington District Court which I found strange, given it was a city court. I asked to see the registrar to explain what had happened and get the court proceedings moved. I talked to a Chinese man who was difficult to understand because of his accent, he was horrible, when I started to cry recounting what was going on he became insulting and patronising, when I told him it was police who were harming me he got worse. Because I was upset security were called to stand behind me and intimidate me – I was sodomised by the rapist from behind I get nervous when men stand behind me.

I then spoke to another person in the registrar’s office at Wellington District Court, all the woman said was for me to calm down – ie not cry and be completely distraught. She didn’t help me get to see the registrar to get court changed and arrange a psych report (as has been done before when I have gone through court for protesting about not receiving mental health care I am entitled to by law). Then she told security to remove me without helping me. A large woman with blond hair was by this stage standing behind her with a look of complete contempt on her face – a manager perhaps.

I left with security, but asked to see a lawyer on the 2nd floor, which I was allowed to do. This lawyer – who I will get the name of soon – listened to what was happening for just a short time, took my two Bail notices and summons off me, told me they were police documents and nothing to do with the court and I should leave. I was shocked, this wasn’t right advice and I knew that, I left with security. The lawyer told me if I wanted the court venue changed it was police I had to ask. I was scared to go to them but I had no choice.

I then went to Wellington police station as the lawyer told me and explained the situation. They told me I could not get court venue changed unless I changed my plea to guilty. But I hadn’t been able to plead because they wouldn’t let me in the court (even if I was going to plead not guilty I still hadn’t told the court that). The police officer was very nice, I was very very upset, he knew what was happening to me was wrong. He ended up agreeing it was a judge or registrar that would need to change the court venue – as I was now terrified of being in Masterton knowing what they were capable of. I kept saying I was sorry to him, for being so upset and that I had to complain about what police in Wairarapa were doing to me.

I left the police station and headed for the Community Law Centre where I sat waiting for 2 hours, crying mostly. I saw two women and told them my story, they said I really needed a lawyer and listed three on the form they gave me – I was distraught, begged them to find me a lawyer as when I ever tried I was rejected – they refused saying they weren’t allowed. I have since phoned those three lawyers one of them was not a criminal lawyer and couldn’t do it – the other two weren’t taking on new clients. I then remembered why I stopped going to Community Law Centre (I had been there about 5 times in past 14 years) because they always told me I needed a lawyer, referred me to people who were too busy or refused to help me because it wasn’t their area of expertise. This is a violation of my Magna Carta rights, and I know it.

Because I am now terrified of Wairarapa police and security at Masterton Court house I know I won’t be able to attend the summons on 5 March – I have no mental health support and impairments related to my disorder will stop me from going – I become phobic and unable to move when I am very unwell. I would then break the law and then police will come to my home and violently arrest me – I don’t want that, but I can’t go to Masterton court, I know I can’t. This is an impairment related to my disability and must be accommodated if possible under Human Rights and Bill of Rights laws.

When I spoke to Community Law lawyers they told me I was right in applying to the registrar in Wellington, they suggested the reason court staff were so insulting is they don’t like dealing with lay-people. If a lawyer was representing me they would have treated them with respect at the request to shift venues and most likely agreed, considering the proof of years of victimisation and police violence.

I desperately need a lawyer but there are none, I can’t appear in court in Masterton because of impairments related to my disorder, God please help me – what do I do? I have phoned dozens of lawyers, every rejection causes me to self-harm and is extremely harmful and degrading.

I contact politicians and senior police who supposed to take complaints of harm seriously – they refuse to do anything. I am a Civil Society Actor as defined by the United Nations it is illegal to use processes in a punitive way, which is exactly what is happening to me. I have contacted the United Nations, they told me you would help me and protect me, but you never have.


Yours sincerely


Civil Society Actor




Got convicted of GRAFFITI today – Listen to what happened

What a day after 18 months of waiting apparently I’m not guilty of Wilful Trespass but am guilty of Graffiti – but I won’t be punished or sentenced unless I commit another crime – WHICH I DEFINITELY WILL BE.

So got to Lower Hutt court – which is 1 hour drive from home (please note: I can’t find a flatmate so rent is $260 & invalids benefit is $410) petrol cost $20.  If I wanted to get the decision in Masterton I would have had to wait until March 2018 before the revolting corrupt fascist elitist VERY OLD judge was here again and I would have killed myself having to wait that long.

I was nervous of course, waiting outside court was a young man sitting on the low walls around the front area, with gardens full of cigarette butts.  He offered me a cigarette a couple of times to deal with the stress – so I did.  Big sign on the Lower Hutt court house said NO SMOKING – should have got a photo.

We talked about why I was there, he was 100% behind what I was doing and felt the same way about the government, inequality, justice, etc.  Was nervous and needed to do something.

I went and did some chalking in front of the court house that said:

NZ law No 1

Westminster Statute the 1st

  • common right be done to all rich as poor

NZ law No 2

Magna Carta

No-one shall be destroyed and everyone shall have access to right and justice



We’re not shares to be traded

We’re not pawns in a game

We’re not doing OK

And we’re not the ones to blame


Then a comment about how if wealthy govt violate Laws 1 & 2 then poor people don’t have to abide by any laws wealthy govt makes.


While I was doing it a young officer came along and started asking me questions, telling me I had been in trouble before for chalking and that I shouldn’t be doing it.  I told him it was all legal and I wasn’t going to stop, that I knew my rights, it was chalk.  He asked me what it was all about – my response was – can’t you read.  He kept annoying me and I got angry, I don’t have to answer his questions, told him politely several times to leave me alone, he didn’t so I started swearing at him.   Got very heated and he threatened me with being arrested and put in prison – I think the prison threat was pretty funny.  Came very close to being arrested BEFORE COURT.

Thankfully not far from us was the man I had just been talking to and a Dominion Post journalist.  So I started raising my voice so they knew what was going on – there was no way I wanted to get arrested BEFORE COURT and NO WAY I was backing down when he was the one annoying me.  The officer asked me why I was being loud, so I told him, to make sure that journalist over there hears what happens to disabled activists like me for writing statements and poetry about justice on the street (well actually it was on court property technically).  Photos are on my facebook page /jrmurphypoetmusician

I finished my chalking while police officer phoned his boss and talked for quite a long time before he came back – with a vastly different attitude – I was just finishing.  He asked me a really cool question about why I had said poor people dont have to follow the law if their Westminister & Magna Carta rights had been violated.  Told him the story about 1200s when they were feuding and some people decided the fighting needed to stop, so they decided on a set of rules (LAWS) But there was NO WAY the peasants would agree to the rules if the rich didn’t have to – or were treated better.

Magna Carta also guaranteed above all else that govt wouldn’t destroy you and everybody would have access to right and justice.  Which currently doesn’t happen and is why we have so much violence – previous intelligent humans knew some pretty cool and interesting things about human behaviour under persecution – go figure.  I think man has become more stupid as we have evolved – or maybe its just those who lead us – groan.

Police officer also said he didn’t agree with what was happening to mentally ill people in the system.  I said how good that was to hear and all peaceful revolutions succeeded when police refused to take up arms against CITIZENS.  (Isn’t it a shame we don’t have this sort of news or discussion on mainstream media?)

While I was chalking my poem a young man came past on a skateboard – loved what I was doing.  Said he was working homeless, things weren’t good, police had offered to lock him up in the cells for few nights if he needed somewhere to stay – they weren’t kidding, they actually were trying to help him.  He had mental health issues as well.

I went back to sit down and another man arrived, he had a cool music box with him in a bag, big Maori/Samoan man.  We started talking and I discovered he had Complex PTSD like me, he was up on charges of assaulting a police officer, resisting arrest etc.  He was really worried (was expecting bracelet or prison for 3 mths) – the things he was describing about his behaviour were TYPICAL PTSD symptoms.

It was 9am, he said he didn’t have to be there until 2.30pm – I said he should keep busy, perhaps go down the river or to some big trees, that might help – it helped me in the past.  He said if he left he didn’t think he would return, so i agreed with him about staying.  He revealed to me – by the sounds of it all the talk about abused CYFS kids getting an inquiry had been triggering memories of his own abuse.

He said people told him he shouldn’t bottle it up, but he couldn’t let it out either cause he couldn’t control it and someone would get hurt – oh boy do I know how that feels – probably not as violently as him but I know the feeling very well.  I assured him he was right about not wanting to talk about what happened if he was getting violent with it – I told him how I was protesting about professional care for abuse victims like him and me, and health care that would help us through dealing with really bad trauma.  it took only a few minutes and we were talking like long lost friends – that happens a lot with me when I come across people with Complex PTSD.  Cause I have studied it for so many years I understand it very well and understand people who have it – people who don’t have it DO NOT UNDERSTAND.

We talked about not letting people get to you, when some toxic triggering shit came towards you how to pretend in your minds eye you are dodging it, it flies right past and ends up in a basket behind you.  Especially useful for inconsiderate, degrading or abusive families you supposed to get help from.  He heard me swearing at officer as well & understood.  Officer came back past and I apologised for swearing at him – I never used to swear – but then I wasn’t a terrorised persecuted disabled abuse victim being denied health care, a job, a safe home and justice back then.

I reassured him everything would be OK now we had a Labour government & Kelvin Davis was in the media recently saying how he was going to help people who ended up in prison system – especially those with mental health issues.  I told him to make sure he reiterated his mental injury from his violent childhood in CYFS care from 5 yrs old.

He told me about a time when CYF worker had dogs lead around his neck, the lead was slipped under a closed door and the man was pulling it tight so J…. couldn’t breath.  Another child was yelling  at the man he was going blue but he said something abusive and ignored it.  J….. passed out and remembered coming too being dragged along the corridor.  He said a nice social worker at the CYFS home tried to stop and expose the violent abuse but was sacked instead.

(Just so people know, even though he said he didn’t want to talk about it, when you meet someone who understands sometimes a particuarly bad unresolved trauma will come up and next minute you are telling a complete stranger.)  Forcing this process when the person is not in a safe emotional environment – IS NOT GOOD, IS IN FACT DANGEROUS AND LIFE-THREATENING TO THE PERSON.  Getting drunk often brings it out in the worst way – avoiding alcohol helps but its not DEALING WITH it.

Was so cool to meet him and hopefully help him through his day/life – he didn’t have anybody supporting him either.  Made sure he knew me and lots of other people felt exactly like him and had same problems.  I’ve tried to start Stress Disorder Support Groups before but govt wouldn’t let me – I don’t reakon they want all disabled people like us together because we would validate the symptoms of our EXTREMELY DEBILITATING AND SOMETIMES TERRIFYING DISORDER and work out our government, police and justice system were purposely persecuting mentally injured and ill disabled people.

A Dominion Post journalist came along, he was there for my case, but I didn’t want to talk to him – told him I didn’t like journalists so he backed off – which was cool.  He talked to my lawyer by text to find out what was happening. Didn’t take any photos of my chalking or poetry of course.

Several random people took photos and video of my chalking – which is awesome – more uploads and shares the better – more empowered people will be.

Next person I met was a Maori guy who was representing himself in court, had done it a few times before – he hated the justice system, oppressors of the poor and Maori – he was really cool too and admired what I was doing.  Again I was talking to someone like I had known him for years after 5 mins.  He would have heard me going APESHIT at the judge when I was convicted – told him I was going to sing and I did.

Went into court and watched previous case – AGAIN a mental health case involving violence and a man with anxiety and depression (ie suicidal).  How many cases of mentally ill disabled people are in our courts at the moment?????  It is common knowledge two thirds of people in jail are disabled with mental health issues – same people National govt took away right to vote from – now why do you think that was?????

Check out rest of my page and ask yourself WHY we hearing nothing from our two disability commissioners, the Human Rights Commission, Law Commission, Ombudsman, Auditor-General, Mental Health Foundation, etc  They not saying anything because a radicalised terrorist aspect of neo-liberalism is the requirement people who are driven to violence by abuse, prolonged neglect and severe stress are completely discredited, denigrated & blamed for their disorder – not the people who abused them or govt/society that neglected them.

I didn’t sleep last night and I have just become very very tired RIGHT NOW – will finish off tomorrow.



Open Letter to Wairarapa DHB members & community

Havn’t checked following for spelling or anything, so first draft, but needed to get it posted for my sanity.  Now off to protest in Masterton for two hours about what these people are doing to so many of us.


 Sent to every Board Member and Wairarapa DHB CEO, HDC, HRC, HRRT, Ombudsman, Auditor-General, United Nations Human Rights Agency – also published on WordPress, facebook, twitter and youtube.

 For the first time in 15 years of begging for health care and justice I am entitled to under ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws I attended a DHB meeting.  It was as I had expected, a completely out of touch group of affluent people controlled by two corrupt immoral neo-liberal super rich government installed elitists.

 I became extremely distraught to the point of dry reaching when I was listening to Baily-Gibson talking about REAL PEOPLE STORIES of failures in our health system.  Not stories from the Wairarapa of course – not the story I sent him on his email system (that I don’t have a copy of) in November last year about abuse and criminal negligence in mental health services in the Wairarapa.

 Several people I have spoken to said Baily-Gibson is mentally disturbed, tells his patients when they come in how he has no time for any negativity, they must be positive about their situation – this is before they even speak.  I can imagine listening to people’s problems for decades would drive you mad. 

 I challenge Dr Baily-Gibson to print out my complaint about mental health services and present it to the DHB.  As a government employee he is subject to the Privacy Act and under the Privacy Act should release this email to me and the Board.


 The early comment, which I am sure was for my benefit, about complaints being dealt with by the HDC was the first insult.  I have made multiple complaints to this organisation with no result, I am never believed and health professionals always are. 

 I spent four years with a HDC advocate Louise Grant trying to get mental health care, please refer to the series of letters from Andrew Curtis-Cody over the matter.  I received no help and most letters that he wrote didn’t make sense – this hideous mentally disturbed psychopath that runs mental health services in Wairarapa can write nonsense in a letter and he is believed.  I write law and proven health models etc and I’m discredited, degraded, denied health care and persecuted by police for telling the truth.  (Another reason my response to what was being said was so extreme – I have never had a tick that bad before.)

 Even though the HDC advocate said I was being discriminated against and treated badly the Health and Disability Commission refused to investigate the matter.   I gave up making complaints to HDC years ago – they are the most corrupt justice agency in New Zealand.  I have done several protests inside and outside their building over the years and wrote two poems you can google that will tell you the story – HDC Threw Me In A Bin and 

 I am sure you will find Paul Collins knows the people who head HDC, it’s the same group of radicalised terrorist neo-liberals that ensure the persecution of all mentally ill people.  Please refer to my recent submission on the Suicide Prevention Strategy, that outlines why it is imperative for neo-liberals to deny professional mental health care and safe homes for disabled – especially violently abused men women and children.

 Of course I am speaking from the darklands and place of those who are denied services – there are a small few who are given help, in fact they appear to be lavished with it.  The more majority are rejected and driven even madder or to suicide, as in Wairarapa, the more health care is lavished on others – especially those with physical illness as a result of disease.  The extreme harm caused by government and leaders advancing rich and persecuting poor under neo-liberal terrorism of past 30 years is never dealt with or discussed.


 I could see most of the people on the board were uncomfortable by my presence, I hate crying and getting upset like that.  It was all I could for just over an hour to hold myself together and cry without sobbing and not tick without making a noise, at what I was listening to and witnessing.  The woman showed the biggest lack of empathy, I find that a lot, men are often supportive when I am so upset but woman DESPISE ME.  I know a lot about psychology and I know that is because women cannot accept government services they are told help people are actually terrorising and hurting people – they can’t accept it when it doesn’t happen to them.


I challenge all the elected board members to meet with me for an hour and listen to the songs and poetry I have written about just how abusive mental health services, NZ government, justice agencies and doctors truly are in this country.  Recorded of course.


NOTE: I will never ever go into a meeting with any health or justice agency without it being recorded – EVER.  That’s because people in these meetings lie and then deny it.  Just like the CEO yesterday was lying.

WAIRARAPA CEO  – Asti, Albie????

The body language of this hideous woman made me feel validated by what I was doing.  This woman sent me an extremely nasty letter when she first arrived in the job, when I asked for compensation after being terrorised by being dragged through court for months for legally protesting.  I was trespassed from Masterton Hospital for a legal protest I did, I almost threw myself in front of traffic when trying to cross the road to court, was highly suicidal and an old counsellor I had the number of will confirm it.  I phoned her while sitting waiting at court because I was so terrified I would do it when trying to cross the road back to my car.


I won the case, was forced to represent myself, not very well because I had been forced to pay back legal aid from a previous case and was so poor at the time (due to my abusive living situation) I couldn’t get a lawyer.  It was later discovered by Legal Aid Services that I shouldn’t have had to pay back any money, they refused to reimburse the $200 I had paid over the previous months of course.


It was the DHB that forced police to prosecute me, they are the ones who demanded it.  I recall when I did it how insulting and offensive staff at Masterton Hospital were for my singing, painting and signs.  I have photos of the people who abused me if the Board want to see them – I don’t want to go into how bad it was in this document as I recall every trauma I become highly suicidal and very unwell.  If I was in a safe environment with mental health support I would but I am not.


One of the most insulting things was a woman leaning out of a second story window at the CSS building, yelling down at someone watching me singing and protesting.  JUST IGNORE IT!  This is the culture of hatred and discrimination me and 100s of other Wairarapa people disabled by mental health issues (often as a result of abuse) are subjected to on a regular basis.  It is this culture, that permeates the entire sector/industry and is reason Wairarapa now has the highest rate of suicide in New Zealand.


It was of course more proof to me women are at the heart of hatred against disabled distraught women who being terrorised by poverty, violence, discrimination, lack of health care for poor, etc created by neo-liberals who run our country.




As all of us in the darklands knows this isn’t a race issue at all – this is a class issue.  Reason Maori so high in statistics is they make up bigger proportion of working and disabled poor.  Baily-Gibson making comment about how most doctors are racists was biggest factor in setting off my tick dry reaching.  Doctors aren’t racist they’re bigots who hate the poor, unemployed and least fortunate govt purposely create – there isn’t a word for hating poor people who are suffering that I have found – I hope to create one in the future. 


In New Zealand 30 yrs of propaganda has ensured 95% of people despise anybody who is unemployed, irrelevant of the reason.  I know and could tell you multiple stories, even from my own family, about this.  I won’t, unless it is in person, because it will traumatise me too much and I won’t be able to go on.  Except for one story.


I was living in Wainuiomata a few years ago, moved over to try and get mental heatlh care and help out a very poor friend (who ended up becoming violent and stealing a lot of money from me).  I had a counsellor, was getting $200 less a week than I am getting now – rotting on invalids benefit – because in Wainuiomata they like to withhold as much money from disabled people as they can.  During my visit with the counsellor I was extremely distressed about the poverty and what was happening with abusive flatmate.  I was having to rely on a very public food bank being run from a community centre – was very humiliating.  Plus person I was living with was eating my food – she had anorexia and most just smoked cigarettes & drunk coffee, but when I moved in I was helping her and so she took advantage.  I had no help myself to stop it.

 So the counsellor is sitting across from me, seeing my extreme distress, knowing I was highly suicidal, self-harming, bulimic etc and says “I hate to ask this Jayne but do you have any Maori ancestry, if you do I can get you some help.”  I felt all the blood drain from my face and my heart sink even further into the depths of hell.  So there is help for Maori and now the government and DHB are going to provide even more – while any other race of people is denied care.  Also people who are criminals are given help, lots of money being put into their care – while their victims suffer and die.


 I just shared on my social media some of Paul Collins past, how any of the Board members can have any respect for such a person is beyond me.  The man is obviously seriously disturbed, he has been instrumental in the demise of our socialist caring Kiwi culture, he is driven purely by greed and power, money and accolades.  He is in fact the lowest form of life currently residing in New Zealand and should not be listened to at all.  The Board should rise up against him and everything he represents.  When National are driven out in September he will still be on the Board, still ensuring the persecution of 100s of Wairarapa disabled abused poor men women and children.

 Those on the Board who have any idea of what is going on in mental health care and for poor people should come out publicly against him and the National party appointed CEO – who is just as bad.  I watched the Board meeting, it was quite obvious these two people think themselves way above the other people there – you can tell they are part of the same neo-liberal elite who destroying people like myself and out entire society – from the poor up.


 Exposing of neo-liberal terrorist CULT ideologies is all over international news media, please can those on the Board do some research.  Chris Hedges has an excellent series on neo-liberalism in America, you will see the similarities to what has been done to New Zealand by this global terrorists (and yes they are terrorists of poor).

 Please refer to my website where I have outlined multiple violations of NZ and international law in regard to treatment care rehabilitation and justice for mentally injured abuse victims and mentally ill in our society. 

 It is particularly bad in Wairarapa due to our 20 year housing crisis – that local media refused to make public.  Where state housing was sold off and privatised, making this region the poorest for disabled people paying market rents and getting little relief from WINZ.  Trust House continue to buy pubs and fund extravagant sports/arts/business projects instead of buying houses for disabled and poor.

 It is illegal for a disabled person not to have access to state housing – I have never had state housing.  What Wairarapa leaders have done of course is an attempt at gentrifying and driving out all disabled, dysfunctional and poor since the 1984 neo-liberal reign of terror started.   They have done an excellent job, if I have to shift out of my current rental I don’t know where I will go – everybody I know in rentals are terrified about the future.  Which of course makes them drink & smoke even more to cope – or commit suicide.  Like Joes son, Ben, Chelsea, Jarrad, Glen………… and all those other people we all know when you live in the darklands.

 It makes my heart hurt when I think of all the people my 22 & 23 yr old children have known who killed themselves.  I’m 52, that didn’t happen when I was young – did it happen to anybody on the DHB?  These people have no hope, there is no hope, I know that, this advancing of rich and persecution of poor for profit is never going to stop – I’ve spent 15 years trying to get professional health care and justice for myself and others – I’m persecuted and terrorised by police for it.

 Police of course mostly being put in the middle of hatred of rich for poor who need mental health care and justice.  Most police are very nice to me because they are at the cliff face of what I am talking about regarding mental health (now it has been successfully criminalised by neo-liberal terrorists).  But some police officers hate and victimise me, makes them feel better I suppose, makes them feel better about how many disabled mentally ill people who either harm themselves or others they are told to persecute by our government.


 I am a Civil Society Actor / Activist as defined by the United Nations – I can’t get any health care or justice I am entitled to and UN refuses to protect me from police/justice agencies because they are ONLY a marketing organisation.  However I know the process, I can read, I don’t spend my days reading novels, watching movies, smoking and drinking, I spend it educating and empowering myself.  I know the laws I talk about, I can read, I was studying law before being hurt in a crime, I know my rights and I know my disorder – VERY WELL.

 I have reports from top NZ psychiatrists that say I am intelligent, do not have a personality disorder and am not delusional – unlike the people like Paul Collins and DHB CEO, who I know would not come through a mental health assessment with the same outcome as me.

 That I even have reports that say this shows just how corrupt neo-liberalism is.  All I have ever asked for is the ACC and professional mental health care I am entitled to under multiple New Zealand laws so I could return to study/work.  So could again have my own home, which I lost due to my mental injury, but know I never will.  All I have to look forward to is years of discrimination and victimisation by a series of flatmates in unstable unsafe living situations – because there are no state houses for human sewage like me.

 Please google my song HUMAN SEWAGE – I will change it from Bob Francis (who I despise) to Paul Collins.  The first line of the song is I AM HUMAN SEWAGE THE DHB DECIDED SO, PAUL COLLINS SAID DO NOTHING, PRETEND WE DO NOT KNOW.   Which is all the DHB has ever said.


 The reason suicide prevention has become so abusive towards people who are suicidal is because of families.  Many of them were instrumental in the suicide and neglect of the person and yet they get a voice in suicide prevention.  There is the odd affluent person who RECOVERS from suicide who gets a say as well, while the vast majority of us continue to be denied professional health care/models and persecuted by police.

 I am so traumatised by repeated police visits last year I have nightmares about them coming to get me.  There was supposed to be a deal with Ins Donna Coward that police aren’t allowed to come to my home but that is ignored by officers and I had another visit on Saturday after a six month reprieve.  I shook for 2 hours after it – its why I react so badly to nice police officers that DHB get in to terrorise me further just by wearing the uniform.

 Please again read my website and it will explain some of what has happened to me by nasty element in Wairarapa police.  I don’t hate the police of course, but I do want them to act on my repeated complaints of harm under Sections 150A 151 155 157 of Crimes Act.   Only reason they don’t of course is because they are corrupt at their highest levels, ask Paul Collins what he has to do with highly paid corrupt officials like Mike Bush?

 I can’t go on, what is the point, I write so many letters, so many submissions to select committees, so many emails begging for help I am entitled to, participate in so many meetings and NOTHING EVER CHANGES – THINGS ONLY EVER GET WORSE.  Which is why I am currently protesting the way I am – I know nothing ever works – its set up to fail, especially the justice system, especially the protection of disabled human sewage like me.

 All Andrew Curtis-Cody and other NGOs and groups who have discriminated against me and hurt me say is LOTS OF PEOPLE HAVE TRIED TO HELP YOU JAYNE – YOU JUST DONT’ WANT IT.   This is not true and a police investigation would prove it, I have had several health professional that know I am not being given services I am entitled to and worked very hard when I did have some in 2009.  But of course National terrorists got in, installed John Judge and Paula Rebstock in ACC and I had all my care illegally removed, I have won two reviews to have it reinstated and am still refused on a weekly basis.  I can’t get a lawyer to make them and ACC not subject to HDC or anything.

One last thing is the comments I have had from people while protesting recently about how doctors and other health professionals in mental health (and police) have told them after a suicide attempt that they should do a better job next time.  Dr Cherry told me when I first became suicidal years ago, after being denied care following rape, that if I was going to suicide to make sure I did a good job because doctors didn’t like cleaning up the mess that often resulted when they failed.  I assured him at the time I would.


I made a complaint about this to Carterton Medical I was ignored.  Currently I have a contract I was forced to sign by CMC saying I am not allowed to say I am suicidal.  I was forced to sign it under duress as I had a skin cancer at the time and they would not treat me unless I did.  My previous doctor Dr had left and the one I was supposed to have had an appalling reputation in community.  I had to have a Carterton doctor because I was so broke I couldn’t leave town.  I made a complaint to the HDC and HDC advocate, CDC refused to discuss the issues or acknowledge I am actually terrified of Dr Hunefelt.  I tried to talk about my mental health once, I became extremely distressed, she changed the subject at the end of what I said – as though I hadn’t even spoken.


I live terrified as I have other health issues and have constant kidney infections I try and deal with myself because I can’t see her.  So much for Anna Cardno’s marketing about talking about suicide and getting help – doctors are worse than community – or maybe that’s what Libertarian Anna wanted, that community deals with suicidal people government create?


I wish I could tell you all more, but this is getting disjointed and I want to talk to people to their face – so they can see my pain and hear what I know say and do.  I am not mentally ill so I don’t know what is happening to me isn’t discrimination and a gross miscarriage of justice.  I am not mentally ill and delusional about being persecuted.  I am mentally injured by severe trauma and years of neglect and trauma on trauma being left to fend for myself in this cruel and bigoted community.


FACT – you all need to stop pretending its not happening – I know its difficult, hell it makes me suicidal knowing what is truly going on in this country.  Knowing rich elites purposely withhold services to disabled and poor in order to advance rich and business.  Its difficult but if people like those on the Board of DHB don’t do it then things are going to continue.  We are already more violent and kill my young through suicide than any other neo-liberal OECD country.  That is because we harm those who less fortunate more than another other country.  Our leaders have NO COMPASSION, NO EMPATHY AND KEEP THEMSELVES IGNORANT.


I truly believe the reason NZ has highest rate of bowel cancer in the world is we don’t deal with SHT – I know a lot about the brain and its power over behaviour and the physical body.


Kia kaha to us all









Graffiti artist – REFUSE – New Zealand

Inspired by the Graffiti art exhibition in Tauranga and the BANKSY works I’ve been turning my poetry and words into pieces of visual art.  Chose the name ReFuse as my tag name, I like the multiple meanings.  Photos on my facebook page and twitter @jrmurphypoetry

Today I’m off to Wellington for a bit of guerrilla activism and a cap I pimped with graffiti, going to leave it somewhere interesting, take photos and post tonight.

I’m frightened PLEASE STOP New Zealand Police coming to my home

Have been trying since last week to get in front of a judge and beg him to stop NZ police coming to my home for bogus welfare visits – sent by people who are supposed to either provide me health care or justice (eg Ombudsman or Jonathan Coleman).

Was told by MOJ to turn up at court with my papers and I would see a judge, went there and not judge working that day, told to come back next day.  Went back and told there was no way I would see a judge but person would give my documents to a judge – they didn’t.  I can’t get a lawyer they all too busy, local Community Law refuse to do anything that helps people fight their own case and Citizens Advice Bureau – well every time they are mentioned I know I’m back at the beginning of the torture wheel of hell for disabled mentally injured abuse victims and Civil Society Activists – groan.

Here is the letter I wrote to the judge – I also included the UN Civil Society handbook, 4 emails with Police Complaints Authority about problems I’m having with police (a few nasty ones, most are OK) and 3 letters I have written over past 5 yrs begging them not to come to my home for welfare visits.

3 November 2016

 Presiding Judge
Masterton District Court

Dear Sir/Madam,

I am appealing to you to stop police coming to my home for welfare visits.  I have never threatened suicide or attempted it, I have never been under Mental Health Act or mental health.  I have Compounding Complex PTSD, which includes Suicidal Ideology, which is the worst hell on earth to cope with BUT I DO and have for years.

I do phone people in health, welfare and justice agencies begging for the treatment care rehabilitation and justice services I am entitled to under ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights.  I tell them how bad I feel and how I wish I was dead – which I do, because I can’t get the help I am entitled to in order to return to work – instead of providing those services or protecting me they phone the police.

ACC and mental health services are not concerned about my dysfunction so why should police be?  I have overwhelming issues at the moment with an unsafe home, ACC continuing to refuse to reinstate my care from 2009 (even though I have won two reviews) and being extremely isolated in my community.  The threat of police coming to my home has led to me becoming highly stressed every time I hear a car in my street or a knock at my door as I think it is police coming to get me.  I am even having nightmares. (This has got much worse since I was assaulted by two policemen, early August, IPCA just told me they refuse to deal with it until April 2017.)

I know you can’t keep harassing someone in their home, its against the law.  I am a civil society activist, as defined by the United Nations, in the area of mental health for abuse victims, traumatised and mentally ill.  The system created by government allegedly to protect people like myself is being used in a punitive way and is harming me – I am begging you please make it stop. 

 With the latest charges police have given them to my current criminal lawyer and I would like this to continue.  I cannot get the Civil Legal Aid lawyer I desperately need, which is why I am representing myself today.  My lawyer is far to busy to do anything other than defend me on criminal charges, where I have pushed the boundaries of activism IN A NON-VIOLENT WAY, have screamed at ACC to have my care reinstated and tried to get my case of psychological torture and harm under Sectionsl 150A 151 155 and 157 of the crimes act in front of a judge.

 My interactions with police are mostly OK, however I learnt recently from two police officers I am despised for what I do and them having to come to my house repeatedly for welfare visits.  This is causing both police and me serious issues as some officers don’t handle impairments related to my disorder well and it just traumatises me further – the trauma compounds.  At the moment I am so overwhelmed I need at least one stress in my life to be removed and not freaking out that every car in the street is police coming to get me would significantly lower my stress levels so I can cope with other things.

 I have tried to trespass police, begged them to stop coming here, I havn’t killed myself yet and I don’t intend to while there is hope me and 10,000s of other mentally injured abuse victims will get the health care they are entitled to under law.  Them coming here is also a waste of their time and is deeply humiliating for me as my neighbours see what is happening and don’t understand the situation so I am marginalised even further.

 I accept if I commit a serious crime (my only conviction is wilful trespass of the Law Society for refusing to leave when they refused to get me a lawyer) then they could come here – but that is never going to happen because I am a good person.  I accept if I phone needing help that they can come here (I am in an unsafe living situation, scared my strange flatmate going to commit suicide), but please don’t let them just turn up for a welfare visit or something to do with my ongoing LEGAL protests.

 Please, I am sure police won’t mind at all if they are directed not to come to my home for welfare visits, I know the officers I deal with hate it, because usually I’m crying and really upset.  We all know how bad mental health care is, we all know how bad ACC can be – please stop ‘the system’ being used to hurt me when I protest about this gross miscarriage of justice, or tell the truth about how bad I feel.

 Please refer to my social media for more information in making your decision – facebook /jrmurphypoetmusician – twitter @jrmurphypoetry or youtube JR Murphy Poet.  I have nothing to hide.



Civil Society Activist


Human Rights in New Zealand – what is a Civil Society?

I have been avoiding beginning my response to the new book by Judy McGregor, Sylvia Bell and Margaret Wilson called Human Rights in New Zealand – Emerging Faultlines.  One of the hurdles was their book structure included in each chapter, the involvement of ‘Civil Society’.

I do not believe we have a civil society after the years of discrimination and failure of the Word of Law I have experienced.  So my first chapter will be dedicated to establishing what a Civil Society is and prove New Zealand is no longer operating in one.

It has also been necessary to start this at my local library on my website because my home computer no longer operates without an electrical cord and I become so traumatised and unwell when alone at home doing this it isn’t safe.  Being around people helps, even if they do not know what I am doing – although it does make me feel further alienated, marginalised and isolated at the same time.

You have to go to Wikipedia of course when you are looking for definitions  I was drawn to the root of the phrase – the Etymology

The term civil society goes back to Aristotle‘s phrase koinōnía politikḗ (κοινωνία πολιτική), occurring in his Politics, where it refers to a ‘community’, commensurate with the Greek city-state (polis) characterized by a shared set of norms and ethos, in which free citizens on an equal footing lived under the rule of law. The telos or end of civil society, thus defined, was common wellbeing (τὸ εὖ ζῆν tò eu zēn), in as man was defined as a ‘political (social) animal’ (ζῷον πολιτικόν zōon politikón).[5][6][7][8] Though the concept was mentioned in Roman writers, such as Cicero, it entered into Western political discourse following the translation of Aristotle’s works into Latin (societas civilis) by late medieval and early Renaissance writers such as William of Moerbeke and Leonardo Bruni, where it often referred to the ancient notion of a republic (res publica). With the rise of a distinction between monarchical autonomy and public law, the term then gained currency to denote the corporate estates (Ständestaat) of a feudal elite of land-holders as opposed to the powers exercised by the prince.[9] It had a long history in state theory, and was revived with particular force in recent times, in Eastern Europe, where dissidents such as Václav Havel employed it to denote the sphere of civic associations threatened by the intrusive holistic state-dominated regimes of Communist Eastern Europe.[10]

I am also drawn to the United Nations declarations on human disabled civil economic political etc rights, along with agreements about torture etc.  Their booklet on Civil Society and the role of Civil Society Actors has become important in establishing this definition.  I suppose it is particularly important when dealing with the violence issues I do as an activist in the area of mental health care for mentally injured abuse victims.  As expressions of violence have become so abhorant to our entire society at the same time as we create an environment that drives many traumatised people to violence.  It appears from my extensive study and observations violent people are the new JEW when comparing to the rise of the NAZIs and the resulting emergence of the United Nations as a vehicle of preventing violence and keeping the peace.

I have noted that no organisation government or non-government in fact advocate for or represent mentally injured or ill people who have violence as an impairment related to their disability.  Organisations related to mental health do not want to be associated with people who become violent as a result of their disorders.  I have heard it myself at a mental health art facility in Lower Hutt where it was expressed how many more violent and dangerous people attended the art workshop in Upper Hutt – that the people in Lower Hutt weren’t like that.

The most definitive proof of course are the numbers of mentally ill people in or going through our justice and prison system for violence offences.  It is estimated 70% of prison inmates have mental health issues and the majority of these have histories of their own abuse.

I myself have violence issues, uncontrollable rage that I manage by turning the violence on myself and vent verbally at those who are supposed to protect and care for me.  Not that I threaten them with harm myself, but I pass it over to spirit and tell them that they are going to get the violent karma they deserve with the passive/aggressive and physical violence they perpetrate against 10,000s of abused and traumatised mentally injured men women and children.  Because the government and people in the VIOLENCE/ABUSE INDUSTRY are now so corrupted/uncivilized they currently have me in court for Misuse of a Telephone for expressing my rage, hatred and desire for karma against ACC – the agency most responsible for my worsening mental health, poverty, unemployment etc.

Thankfully I have a senior psychiatrist I was allowed to see last year who understands what is happening to me and can express this as a mental health issue – not dissimilar to tourettes.  As I tick in times of severe stress and have other attributes of tourettes it is related in some way to this disorder – plus when I am ‘venting’ there is no way of stopping it, until it has run its course.  His testimony, along with Bill of Rights defence should get me acquitted of this charge and police deterred from attempting this sort of prosecution again.


Social Security Legislation Rewrite Act Submission, all punitive changes illegal!

If you are reading this and want to make a submission please follow the link below, last day today, every voice counts.  Below that is my submission if you would like some ideas.




Early last year I was doing some research for my own legal issues when I came across copies of the Social Security Act and noted with distress the long list of amendments to this piece of legislation.  Now I see the government have become ashamed of this list and want to tidy it up.  Perhaps so it isn’t obvious to future generations how the rich and powerful in New Zealand/the world persecuted the poorest sector of our society, using neo-liberal economic policies and radicalised political beliefs they knew were harmful. 

 It is common knowledge that neo-liberals deregulated the finance industry, removed tariffs and implemented GST, cut taxes to the rich, etc etc.  They created unemployment and a low wage economy, then went about creating propaganda that it was the fault of the unemployed for their situation.

 I am an active protester in the area of mental health services for mentally injured abuse victims and mentally ill.  I am being persecuted through the justice and health system for legally protesting and not treated with impunity as required by the United Nations, as a civil society actor.  In the work that I do, which includes a significant amount of law I have been introduced to Imperial Laws.  Firstly Westminster Statute 1st, Common right be done to all, rich as poor and Secondly Magna Carta, No man shall be destroyed and every man shall have access to right and justice.

 It is quite obvious from the number of changes to the Social Securities Act that were designed to degrade and intimidate that these changes are supposed to be punitive against poor people.  At the same time we pass laws that advance rich people like those passed to advance The Hobbit and Hollywood multinationals.  This IS NOT COMMON RIGHT BEING DONE TO ALL – this is rich being advanced and poor disadvantaged.

 Throughout history mankind have shown they cannot control their love of money and power, to the detriment of society, that is why we have laws.  That is why we live in a civilized society and democracy, in an effort to control this propensity for abuse of power and strong attacking weak.  This is no longer happening, those with money and power have created extreme suffering, that is leading to social issues, violence, addiction, suicide, etc.  Their radicalised political belief that those who don’t work are bludgers and a drain on society is immoral and an act of discrimination in my culture.

 These same people who don’t work are not given the opportunity as cuts to funding for professional treatment care and rehabilitation mean there is no support.  ACC and mental health do not use professional rehabilitation models, I know this for a fact, I studied this topic at Massey University.  All the talk about people with disabilities being in work, are just not a reality in a neo-liberal capitalist society.  Jobs need to be created for disabled people to use their talents, within their capabilities and create value in society.  So many disabled people with so much talent – especially with people who have mental health issues, many highly intelligent and being left to rot.

 The focus on work is offensive, while ACC, mental health and others ensure people are not treated, protected, cared for and rehabilitated as required under the IPRCA.  Also as required under Health, Disability, Criminal, Human Rights and Bill of Rights Acts.

 Again I would point out it is the fact that at the same time as resources were being taken from the most vulnerable and poorest people, those who were the richest were increasing their wealth according to data.

 I will say it simply – you are not allowed to use the law to advance the rich and persecute the poor – people must be advanced, or not, in a common way.  As I know in my case this is happening I understand the law to be interpreted that I no longer have to respect or adhere to the law under the Westminster System.

 The consolidation of this Act is immoral and illegal.  I am also quite sure the government will bring something more degrading in for beneficiaries, even though they say they are not going to – they always do – it is modern day oppression of mostly disabled citizens.

 That people in power, with access to scientific evidence about the social dysfunction etc poverty and inequality create, continue to harm vulnerable minorities makes me want to be ill.  It is a gross miscarriage of justice that is somehow being legitimised by the media and all neo-liberals and worst of all by our justice agencies.  We have Criminal Laws and Bill of Rights Act that few people can use to protect themselves against cruel immoral radicalised political terrorists who work for government organisations.  Under the Terrorism Suppression Act, what neo-liberals have done over the past 30 years constitutes terrorism, especially in the area of destroying mental health infrastructure and causing serious harm to a significant targeted group of the population. 

 I also have Christian beliefs and know it is EVIL to advance and protect the rich and powerful, while they degrade, disenfranchise and persecute the vulnerable poor.  Westminster Law is based on Christianity, so is our monarchy and I expect to have New Zealand’s cultural, religious and ethical beliefs respected and acknowledged in this debate/law change.

 Now I have pointed out rich people can’t use the law to harm poor people I expect there will be a police and GCSB investigation – perhaps a Royal Commission of Inquiry.  That this bill will not progress and there will be urgent legislation enacted to remove any parts of the Social Security Act implemented since Rogernomics/neo-liberalism that has harmed the poorest of citizens.  That of course would involve a return to welfare and housing conditions prior to Ruth Richardson.

 All these punitive laws that were made are illegal and we must (now we understand what has happened and how it happened) strike them down and return to the law prior.  The poorest New Zealanders must be advanced in common right as rich people were, to do anything else is uncivilized and against Westminster Law and democracy.

 I wish to speak to my submission in person.

 June 2016


ACC Ministers deny responsibility for Corporation persecuting claimants

After being told by Nikki Kaye’s office and the Speakers office that a police complaint is all I can do about ministers lying about professional care for abuse victims and mentally ill – that is just what I did.

Sent: Friday, 10 June 2016 2:13 p.m.
To: SUTTON, Michael
Subject: Complaint of harm by ACC under Sections 150A 151 155 and 157 of Crimes Act

This is yet another formal police complaint against ACC, Sarah Jones and others? who have again refused to accommodate impairments related to my disability and refused me access to health care – this time the counsellor.  I have the support of the counsellor but she is unable to do anything to stop it.

I just phoned the Minister for ACC’s office and was put through to the Associate Minister (Goldsmiths) office, there I was told by DAVE Goldsmith is the person to contact about individual cases of ACC illegally denying care and yet because ACC is a crown entity that the minister cannot get involved.  I was told to make a complaint to the police, which this is and of course you know I have made several complaints but been ignored.

I don’t understand why police and ACC ministers refuse to provide abused men women and children the treatment care and rehabilitation they are entitled to under NZ law.  They are harming disabled people and those with the power to act are refusing to.

I don’t understand why the police are allowing the government to deny people like me health care we are entitled to and when people commit suicide and harm those around them the police take no action against these immoral corrupt criminally negligent people.

Just making sure police are formally notified so when I finally do get justice I can prove you did nothing while people were dying and the government were purposely denying health care they were legally required to provide.

God please help me, I don’t want to live if I can’t work and I don’t want to live knowing the police don’t uphold the law if the people who are breaking it are the government ie ACC and others.