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Ministry of Health Wellington arrest for protesting about suicide

Guerrilla protest  mission MOH re suicide, got arrested

Guerrilla protest mission MOH re suicide, got arrested

Big day protesting in Wellington yesterday had been chickening out for weeks about doing it – but mental health was getting worse and worse I just had to let of steam about what Ministry of Health staff were doing.

Their refitted building now includes a fancy new café and security system to keep out us citizens.  Had a good audience for my rage, around 40 people around the foyer, it was lunchtime, about 12.45.  A small group of around 5 women tried to calm me down and did all the usual bullshit about having a cup of coffee.  I was  having none of that shit, I only got 10 mins before police arrive, so I’m as loud as I can be.  Wanted the police arrive to me singing and they did – Human Sewage.

I bollocked the fuck out of everybody there, called them murderers, told them they were killing my kids friends – driving them to suicide.  Screaming at them, hysterical, but the volcano had to go off some time.  I’m just speaking for me and all those I know who are unnecessarily suffering in this neo-liberal shit hole.  I talked about all the people I know who have committed suicide.

The looks on their faces was one of either guilt or complete refusal to take any responsibility for suicide and abusive mental health services.

Refused to leave the building, refused to stop yelling at them about why I was there so was arrested for Disorderly Behaviour, appropriate considering I have a stress Disorder.  Was best out of there anyway, I wouldn’t have stopped and the swearing wouldn’t have either.  Police were nice – two of them I already knew – I have am definitely infamous in Wellington for protesting.

Didn’t’ have to spend any time in the cells, was out of police custody within an hour.  Cried from when I was put in the police car, snot everywhere, was revolting.  Officer told me it is now a requirement to have handcuffs – just like America (were his words, he was an old cop, he knew it was shit for someone like me and completely unnecessary.

Got really upset several times, started ticking and rocking, backed up into the corner, when they asked questions about my doctor – when I don’t have one and the last one I had didn’t believe a thing I said.  Told them I had Complex PTSD, Sgt was bit of a jerk, telling me not to go back there or do anything else that had police called or I would spend night in the cells – WHICH I HATE – and is an illegal threat – given I hadn’t broken the law under Bill of Rights.

Gotta have a laugh with them though, threw all the laws I know at him, not me who’s the criminal – they should be charging the people at Min of Health and ACC that were denying me care I was entitled to.  Told him to charge them under Sections 150A 151 155 157 of the Crimes Act.  He ignored me of course.  They know I’m right that’s why they’re nice to me and let me go.

Left, had a cup of tea at Library Café next door and went off chalking and to meet up with a friend.  Chalked my poem MOH at Maui’s Garden and a good quote about poverty being a crime.

Was interesting watch police dealing with me, obviously there has been a bit of a discussion about how to legally.  Only got the Pre Charge Warning and let go – under Disorderly Behaviour, Sgt repeated several times it was not to be under Wilful Trespass (which I am up on charges of).  Was also issued two more trespass notices from Ombudsman and Human Rights Commission – WTF - they’re not allowed to use Trespass law to stop me protesting.  I was reading the judgement by J Williams.

Apparently I’m trespassed from about 15 different places LOL – all places who are supposed to legally help me and don’t, or who have made public comments about poor people etc.  So much for freedom of speech in New Zealand – if artists are being arrested you know things are bad.

Big shout out to Wellington Police – no comparison to the several violent arseholes that work in the Wairarapa.  I mentioned that to the officers who arrested me, a woman and man (the woman had arrested me before, I remember her).  They were nice and agreed not all officers are good people, I told them Q Hoera was a violent arsehole.

Told the Sgt wouldn’t be long and there would be 100 people like me occupying and protesting in government and justice buildings.  He didn’t look happy, I said he should be cause I was a non-violent activist who respected police that respected me and my rights to be angry about what was happening to so many.

Going to be making a legal complaint about the number of trespass notices when its a violation of my civil and political rights.  Non-violent protest, even if it is offensive (eg swearing) is a right I have under Civil Society Activism.  If I can’t get my justice issues in front of a judge, as required under Magna Carta, then I HAVE EVERY RIGHT to speak truth to power of those hurting me – AS OFTEN AS I CHOOSE TO – without threat of intimidation.

 

Bob Jones sends police to intimidate disabled artist

Protest at Jones building, beggar in plastic bag

Protest at Jones building, beggar in plastic bag

So for sending the following letter and putting up this piece of art outside Bob Jones office I get a police visit with wilful trespass notice to my home to humiliate me.  Same Bob Jones who recently signed a public letter of NZ leaders demanding the right to freedom of speech – which appears he only wants applied to himself for saying hideously immoral and ignorant things about poorest disabled NZers – not to poor disabled artists and Civil Society Actors who challenge him.

http://www.stuff.co.nz/national/politics/91132233/prominent-kiwis-pen-open-letter-saying-free-speech-is-under-threat-in-nz-universities

Considering police are not allowed at my home according to Inspector Donna Coward as she knows all the visits last year had completely terrorised me and due to my stress disorder I shook for 2 hours after they were here.  Was disturbed by the fact he had more power than Inspector Coward on this occasion.  Will take great pleasure in doing several more of these artworks with his face on and putting them around other places in Wellington.  Sent him a photo of the picture, just so he knows what it looks like.  Will be sending a link to this website about what Jones did to all the other NZers who signed the letter – just so they know what he did.

He knows I’m poor so threatens me with a $2000 fine – as I had no intention of going to his office and would rather put another of these artworks at a different, much more public location, he hasn’t achieved the level of intimidation and oppression he had hoped for.  He has however proven he is weak, arrogant and an oppressor of freedom of speech of the most vulnerable he chooses to publicly denigrate.

Below is letter I hand delivered after reading this shitty news article   http://www.nzherald.co.nz/nz/news/article.cfm?c_id=1&objectid=11783845

25 January 2017

 Mr R Jones
Lambton Quay
WELLINGTON

 Dear Mr Jones,

 I was extremely shocked about your recent comments regarding beggars being criminalised.  You don’t appear to understand the situation for these people and an intelligent man should not cherish ignorance when dealing with such an important issue in such a public way.

 Did you realise that all of these people are disabled and cannot get reliable work because of their impairments – or safe/stable homes to live in?  In a radicalised capitalist society people who cannot work at maximum capacity are not employed or have intermittent employment which mostly pays minimum wage.  Many of these people are intelligent, unlike what you believe, meet me and you will find out, because I am one of them. 

 Do you accept there are disabled people in New Zealand?  Do you believe these people are receiving professional treatment care rehabilitation and welfare so they can live with dignity and do valuable work – I can assure you they are not. 

 I know too much about this subject to put it in this letter, what I do ask is an opportunity to discuss what I know – especially in the area of mental health – where extensive professional rehabilitation/care is not happening due to government corruption.  I haven’t met a street person yet who doesn’t have a history of abuse and I am yet to meet someone on long term unemployment that doesn’t have a disability or is caring for someone with one.  Also never met a disabled person who doesn’t want a decent job they capable of doing either. 

 I think you would find more interesting and challenging conversation if you interacted with some people outside your usual circles. In one of my politics lectures at Victoria 2002 (you were a guest speaker) you bemoaned the fact, that parties you attended with politicians and media had become very boring- I could never be accused of being boring, uninformed & not having a broad perspective. 

 I am assuming you believe in word of law and if people are entitled to care under ACC, mental health & welfare laws then they should be receiving it, especially if this care got them back to work & off the streets.

 You can see more about the laws being violated, solutions that should be in place (please refer to my rehabilitation model Fence At The Top Of The Cliff) and my own situation on my website www.jrmurphypoet.com – or twitter @jrmurphypoetry – I am also on facebook and youtube.  My phone number is 027 3040!!!.  I work full time as a Civil Society Activist in the area of mental health because of my desperation to return to work.  I don’t watch movies or read books all day and I don’t do drugs or drink to cope with the boredom, discrimination and persecution.

 I look forward to your reply and intend to start art installations outside your building about this issue if I don’t hear from you.

 Sincerely
 JR
Civil Society Activist

 

Wairarapa No 1 for Suicide in NZ and I know why

I been thinking about the biggest reason for Wairarapa driving so many to suicide and its the HEALTH AND DISABILITY COMMISSION.  Me and many other people I know have made complaints to them but you are never believed – because the discrimination and persecution of suicidal people is across all PLAYERS in their sick game, they just back each other up.

It is a fact Health and Disability Commission DO NOT get involved in any ‘ACCESS’ to services issues.  Phone and ask them if you want proof.  Tell them you or someone you know can’t get access to mental health services and they will tell you they can’t get involved.

In the Wairarapa I have been blacklisted by all those PLAYERS, as they are closely aligned and have regular meetings where they gossip about people challenging their incompetence, negligence and discrimination.  Over the past week protesting in Masterton I have met several people who are in the same situation – so although some people might get care – there are groups of people purposely denied services.

The head of the DHB and CEO tell board members that all complaints are dealt with by the Health and Disability Commission so they need not worry – but of course this is a lie.

I have made so many complaints to the DHB they blocked me from emailing years ago, I was telling the truth of course, but because Andrew Curtis-Cody is an intelligent psychopath who is an expert in manipulating people I was never believed.

I spent four years with a Health & Disability Advocate Louise Grant trying to get services, sending letters back and forth to Andrew Curtis-Cody, everything failed, I was refused care.  Louise agreed with me that I was being treated very badly and not professionally but under the government rules she is not allowed to take matters any further.  If the health professional refuses to admit what they have done then she can do nothing.  She is also NOT ALLOWED to forward the complaint to the Health and Disability Commission – so I had my HDC advocate completely supporting how badly I was being treated but the Commission refusing to get involved or find in my favour in any of the disputes (about 5 I think).

On one of my many police incarcerations for MY OWN WELFARE (all of which I was taken home distraught with no services) I had mental health staff around the ankles in the police station begging them for services, I was told to get up and not embarrass myself – that I knew there was no services and I shouldn’t go on like that.  So when I see that disgusting PR person Anna Cardno saying people should contact suicide services I am extremely angry – because I know there are no services – not for the likes of me anyway – and a group of other people who know their rights and ask for help.

The hatred of suicidal people is across the entire spectrum of PLAYERS in this region (it is an industry here).  Many police are the first line of vitriol, insults and discrimination - they love stripping you naked just to degrade you even further – mental health services love it too.  Most Police are violent and treat you like a violent criminal, you are handcuffed which really hurts – I suggest people on the Board ask to try some handcuffs to prove how much they hurt – especially when officers put them on really tight to punish you.

THE OTHER VERY IMPORTANT REASON IS THE HIGHEST RATE IN NZ FOR COMPULSORY TREATMENT ORDERS AND FORCED MEDICATING.

The vast majority of mental health workers in this region (that includes all those working in violence, addiction, suicide and mental health and especially Wairarapa doctors) are lazy incompetent unprofessional bigots.  They load people up on medication so they will sleep all day, they load people up on medication so they don’t have to ensure they have a safe place to live, enough food to eat and the basic necessities of life.  This medicating of people who become suicidal is of course directly related to the take-over of mental health care by corrupt immoral super rich drug companies.  Companies who people like Paul Collins and Isbister have shares in, more drugged up people more profit for them.

A counsellor once told me 20% of families are awesome with suicidal and abused people and will help them overcome their suffering.  80% are not – and many of this group will be the reason the person is suicidal – not that anybody wants to admit that and I am usually extremely abused for saying it – but I will anyway.  Then there are the families who just don’t know what to do, they rely on health professionals for information and yet are expected to heal the suicidal person themselves.  I compare it to a family being expected to perform an extensive operation on someone they love when they are not surgeons.

The government dumping of social problems like suicide, addiction and violence back on the communities who are victims of their horrendous abusive neo-liberal terrorist policies makes me sick to my stomach.  That so many people aren’t aware what is happening makes me very sad, I try and tell people, have for years but nobody will listen – nobody who votes National or Act or leads our communities wants to admit what is really going on.

WHAT NEEDS TO HAPPEN

WE NEED A POLICE INVESTIGATION AND PUBLIC INQUIRY INTO MENTAL HEALTH AND RELATED SERVICES IN THE WAIRARAPA.  We need an anonymous 0800 number set up so people who have been terrorised, degraded and abused by mental health PLAYERS can phone and be heard, have their complaints taken seriously.  Once the Wairarapa DHB and NZ find out what how bad the co-ordinated systemic abuse and discrimination is here I know people will be found criminally negligent under law.

So many appalling doctors, so many nasty police, so many mentally deranged people working in powerful positions in mental health services inflicting serious harm instead of helping those who beg for help.

Following this investigation professional rehabilitation services and facilities should be set up to provide professional care to suicidal, mentally injured and ill people.  This must address the serious housing issues and lack of APPROPRIATE residential care in the Wairarapa.  Neo-liberals always go on about jobs, we could be a centre for care of traumatised people, instead we drive these people out of the region because Wairarapa don’t like dealing with any RUBBISH they have.

THERE MUST NOT BE ANY MORE CONSULTATION WITH THE WIDER COMMUNITY

The government is using these consultations to pick out those suggestions they know will degrade and persecute suicidal people even more – not help them.  I had an excellent counsellor in Masterton who told me the situation here is appalling for so many people – especially women.  Why aren’t these health professionals being listened to?  Why are they trying to keep people alive when they know their situation is completely hopeless and NOBODY could deal with what some people in our society deal with – especially those with histories of abuse.

When will the Whare Tapa Wha model be implemented, when will professional rehabilitation models be implemented and funded so they actually work?  When will all the promises government talks about actually transfer into professional health care and welfare?

NO 1 FOR SUICIDE

Because I am currently up on seven police charges (having been acquitted of 7 last year and had charges dropped on six others), misuse of a telephone for begging for help I am entitled to and not getting, 3 for graffiti for using a chalk pen to protest about discrimination on Carterton police station window, High Court and Appeal Court in Wellington, plus 3 of wilful trespass for speaking truth to power and protesting in/outside buildings who directly responsible for my situation.

I know I have repeated some things here, sorry about that, I just need to get these things out of my head because I can’t believe this is what is happening to me and so many others.  I just want the abuse, discrimination and blatant unprofessional incompetent treatment of suicidal people to stop.

 

Wairarapa Now No 1 in NZ for SUICIDE thanks to the following people


From: Jayne
Sent: Monday, 19 June 2017 4:48 a.m.
To: donna.howard@police.govt.nz
Subject: Wairarapa now No. 1 In New Zealand thanks to your efforts

Donna,

How proud you must be that Wairarapa is now No. 1 in New Zealand FOR SUICIDE.

Makes me highly suicidal reading this in the newspaper and knowing just what I have done over the past decade to fight for professional health care I am entitled to from ACC and mental health services.  To know the entire mental health system from doctors, NGOs, community leaders, police to head of mental health are all part of this nightmare of hell I protest about.

How proud you and your staff must be for the part you play in taking Wairarapa to No. 1.  For being part of persecuting me for begging for help I am entitled to, by prosecuting me for Misuse of a Telephone and graffiti and wilful trespass for legally protesting in a non-violent way because I’m not getting it and neither are hundreds of other people in this region.  For the worst of your officers, who have done their best to terrorise, discredit and degrade me and so  many others – the ones you refuse to let me confront about it.

How proud you must be that everything I am saying is true about not being able to get mental health services and yet you refuse to protect me by using your power under Crimes Act to stop it.

How many more funerals will I have to attend and sad people will I have to comfort who have had people they love suicide?  All the time knowing how I become so suicidal at times I sit on the side of my bed rocking backwards and forwards stopping myself from walking to the knife draw and ending it because I KNOW THERE IS NO HOPE OF HEALTH CARE OR JUSTICE I AM ENTITLED TO UNDER NZ LAW.

I will be sending a similar email to the multiple people and agencies I have told about abusive mental health care in Wairarapa (mostly due to psychopath Andrew Curtis-Cody) who have done absolutely nothing.  It will include:

Carterton Medical Centre, Dr Hunefelt

Masterton Medical, Dr Rob & the Dr Helman

Greytown Medical Centre

Health & Disability Commission

Nationwide Advocacy Services for HDC

Human Rights Commission

Human Rights Tribunal

Auditor-General

MP Alastair Scott & the previous National MP

MP Ron Marks

MP Georgina Beyer

MP Marama Fox

Wairarapa Labour party

Wariarapa National party

Wairarapa Green party

NZ First party

Multiple lawyers

Te Hauora

Pathways

Wairarapa DHB – who had me prosecuted for wilful trespass for legally protesting

Wairarapa DHB members for past decade, who have phoned and abused me for telling the truth, cause they refused to accept it

SF Wairarapa

Ombudsman’s office

Wairarapa Times Age

Wairarapa News

Wairarapa radio stations

Gary McPhee – Carterton mayor

John Booth - Carterton mayor

Adrienne Staples – Sth Wairarapa mayor

Lyn Patterson – Masterton Mayor

Bob Francis – Masterton mayor

Previous Inspector of Masterton Police

Police Headquarters – Mike Bush

Ministry of Health – John Crawshaw & Mr Enfield

All Ministers of Health for past 14 years

All Ministers of mental health for past 14 years

Gillian Moulton, DHB complaints

King Street Artworks – for trespassing me for writing poetry about how bad mental health services are

etc etc etc

I can’t name any more I’m starting to get triggered as I recall all the revolting rejections and abuse I have received for telling the truth about what is going on in this revolting region.  So much of this caused by the attempted gentrification and driving out of disabled poor abuse victims and mentally ill by removing so much housing by rich powerful elites (eg Trust House).

I am human sewage the DHB decided so, Bob Francis said do nothing, pretend we do not know.  Google my song Human Sewage – I can’t sing it now without breaking down since Sgt Hoera assaulted me – but that is of no consequence to you or those who control you is it!

I will be posting this email to my website as well – just so you know and please read other postings www.jrmurphypoet.com.  Did you watch Sunday programme last night – police painted as good guys of course – unlike the nasty element in Wairarapa police.

I hate you!

Jayne Routhan

Civil Society Actor

PERSECUTED WHISTLEBLOWER

HUMAN SEWAGE LIVING IN THE DARKLANDS

 

Wairarapa Suicide Prevention Campaign – LIES and MARKETING

Abuse, discrimination, psychological torture is just a phone call away at Wairarapa DHBs SUICIDE SHOW.

Anybody reading this DO NOT BELIEVE anything you see in our news media about how great mental health services are and how much help there is that is written by anybody within our DHB or current mental health providers – THEY LIE.  They’ve been saying the same thing for years and things only get worse because what I am saying is TRUE and what they are saying is A LIE.  (There is a small group of people who do get services, the least mentally ill/suicidal 50% and the top 3% while those of us in the 50-97% group GET SHAFTED, DISCRIMINATED AGAINST, HARMED, ABUSED, DISCREDITED AND TREATED LIKE HUMAN SEWAGE.

Someone has just shown me the Wairarapa News and my suicidality is off the scale after reading that pile of lies - after all the years I have begged for help and been refused.  Even police are told by mental health services that “lots of people have tried to help you Jayne, you just don’t want help.”  THAT IS NOT TRUE!!!!  But then that lie was started by Salvation Army staff ……… and that’s another story :-(   Wish I could show you my police file, they stopped putting all the times they were called out for welfare visits in it because it would embarrass the government.  My only criminal conviction is Wilful Trespass of Law Society for going there and refusing to leave until I got a lawyer to make them provide me professional health care I’m entitled to and stop the persecution for legally protesting.

Those phone numbers go nowhere, except to the drug abuse, discrimination and torture I describe above.  I’ve never been committed thank God, I know what awaits me after 15 years of begging for help after I was raped, the person was found not guilty and ACC started their psychological torture rather than providing the EXTENSIVE treatment and rehabilitation I was entitled to under the LAW – THAT I CAN READ. 10 years of protesting all over social media & getting story after story of the horrendous things that happen in the BIN.  Was told long time ago to NEVER EVER let them commit you Jayne, people who have will and intellect are the biggest target for mental health workers and professionals - only thing they want to do is BREAK YOU.  Nothing I have ever seen since being on this HIGHWAY OF HELL has suggested anything else than mental health services are abusive - especially to those who know the help they are entitled to and desperately need.  Then of course there was the NINE forced moves from homes due to landlords selling up to make a buck, or the violence of a flatmate, or poverty, or an abusive landlord.

A woman I know was put in Arohata for three months last year for being suicidal – I tried to help her but had to be very careful as suicidal people can drain me and make me even more suicidal – not to mention the ongoing untreated bulimia, inability to see a doctor to deal with my kidney problems, diabetes, etc, ticking, phobias, suicidality due to medical neglect and unsafe unstable housing, etc.

Andrew Curtis-Cody head of mental health, as I have said many times before is a mentally disturbed psychopath who is not appropriately qualified and the DHB love him because he abuses, degrades and rejects people to save money for them.

DHB had me dragged through court for months on wilful trespass charges  for legally protesting at Masterton hospital.  At the time my doctor was at Masterton Medical and I couldn’t even see her – though what was the point, when I couldn’t get ACC or mental health services I was entitled to BECAUSE MY MENTAL HEALTH she abused me and dumped me.  i DON’T WANT TO GO ON, I CAN’T STOP CRYING ——————  I almost threw myself in front of a car crossing the road to go to court – I was forced to represent myself and won – it was an horrendous experience.  Ask anybody at Masterton court about me – they are ashamed at way I’m being treated.

I was told by Michael Bott, Human Rights Lawyer,  I was entitled to compensation from DHB for what they did dragging me through court – the letter I received from the CEO was insulting, vicious and took absolutely no responsibility for what they did to me.  I couldn’t follow it up because I didn’t have any money, but Michael did get me off 7 other charges for legally protesting and then there were the six other times police dragged me through court and dropped charges just before trial.  Was arrested with a broken leg in a wheelchair outside Bowen House/Parliament in Wellington for protesting about that.

If you could see the CONTRACT Dr Hunefelt at Carterton Medical forced me to sign, you would understand – it says I am not allowed to say I’m suicidal – THAT IS MY DOCTOR!!!!!!!!!  I can’t even see her any more, I’m terrified of her, when I talked about mental health care she just ignored what I was saying and changed the subject – mental health and ACC had told her I was a time waster, attention seeker and they were never going to give me the services I was entitled to and had in 2009.  I can’t see another doctor either, I’ve had so many bad ones, who just reject and abuse you when they know there is no help for you – they turn on you.

I have won two ACC reviews in 2010 to have my rehabilitation reinstated from 2009, ACC tell me it will be reinstated then REFUSE TO DO IT AND THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO.  I can’t get a lawyer – ………………………………………………..

That article on suicide prevention will drive even more people to suicide because like me they all know how abusive services are.  After years of research and assessment of the situation I can assure you it is our cruel immoral government who are doing this – they sold out our mental health system to INTERNATIONAL DRUG COMPANIES – PLEASE READ MY SUICIDE PREVENTION SUBMISSION.

As for local media, I wrote Journalists are Maggots years ago to show my disgust in the lies they tell about mental health services and how services have been degraded to the point of marketing and those things they do provide are grossly inadequate, or abusive, AND DEFINITELY DON’T FOLLOW PROFESSIONAL REHABILTATION MODELS.

I have been blocked from emailing complaints to Wairarapa and Hutt Valley DHB for years – I asked Ron Mark to forward a complaint last year but he refused.  I could write a letter I suppose but I would self-harm and begging for help from these abusive, criminally negligent people, as I have done for over a decade.

They dragged me through court for protesting and local police were only too happy to oblige.

NOW I’M UP ON SEVEN CHARGES for screaming for health care I am entitled to – BECAUSE THE MEDICAL NEGLECT HAS MADE ME SUICIDAL – Misuse of a Telephone, 3 for graffiti on court buildings (USING A CHALK PEN) and police station for not being able to get police to prosecute ACC and mental health for illegally denying me care and a safe place to live – for harming me under Sections 150A 151 155 157 of Crimes Act.  Then listening to ACC and prosecuting me for misuse of a telephone, phoning them in the middle fo the night, I only allowed to phone their answerphone.  Two years ago my ACC case manager phoned and promised me my care would be reinstated – SHE LIED.  Been promised so many times – psychological torture is illegal in New Zealand.

……………………………….  Read my blog, that will tell you what is really going on.  Me and so many others know who bad it is but our media and leaders continue to deny what is going on.

Wairarapa community is of course reaping what it sows after 20 years of driving disabled, suicidal and poor out with no social housing and abusive mental health services.  While at the same time spending gross amounts of money on extravagant sports, arts and business promotion projects.  Trust House is full of National party voters & neo-liberal Labour people who completely agree with government not providing housing to disabled poor.

I have written many times and am in continuous contact with Wairarapa News and Wairarapa Times-Age through TWITTER, referring them to this website and telling them the truth of how bad it is for me and so many others – I AM DISCREDITED, DEGRADED AND IGNORED.

How many more people have to die before they listen to the FACTS I present – only reason I don’t act on the horrendous suicidal thoughts in my head that have me often rocking backwards and forwards on the side of my bed telling myself not to go to the knife draw and kill myself – is because I know that is what our cruel neo-liberal government want, that is what mental health and ACC want, that is what the leaders of our community want.  All this propaganda in the paper about how they care is just that propaganda!!!!!!!!!!!!  One day I hope all of you who never been suicidal get to experience the absolutely torture and terror of being suicidal of years on end is.  Along with all the you’ll be right, time waster, nutter, attention seeker, bludger comments you’ll get from your family, ‘friends’, journalists, politicians, & community leaders you’ll get.

I’m trespassed from King Street Artworks for writing poetry and doing art about how bad mental health services are.  I was trespassed for being upset about having my ‘political’ works censored from their annual exhibition because THEY WOULD LOSE THEIR FUNDING IF I WAS ALLOWED TO EXHIBIT IT.  You know a community is in serious decline when they persecute and censor their artists.  Please read through my books of poetry, that will show you what is truly happening in this neo-liberal nightmare of a country.

I make complaints to Health and Disability Commission, Human Rights, HDC Advocacy Services etc etc etc – all ignored.  Apparently you can’t believe anything a ‘MENTALLY ILL’ person says.  I actually have a traumatic stress disorders called Compounding Complex PTSD.  ACC call this a mental injury and have extensive rehabilitation and services they ILLEGALLY DENY people.  My mental injury does not make me stupid or a liar – in fact I have several reports saying I am intelligent, do not have a personality disorder and am not delusional.  That I had to get a report done for the courts saying I wasn’t delusional about the horrendous suffering and neglect I was being subjected to by ACC and mental health has to tell you something about how cruel immoral and corrupt our government are (National and Labour no different but the way).

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Sunday – TVNZ – Trouble In Mind

Was watching TV and saw the first adverts for latest Sunday programme on TVNZ which exposes police being used as mental health services, while they blocked me from their email & social media for BEGGING them to tell my story & protect me from persecution by police while I am denied mental health/ACC care.  Earlier in the night I had been listening to the radio and adverts by Wairarapa National MP Alastair Scott saying how much he enjoyed hearing peoples issues and helping them while he refused to see me or help me with what is happening to me.  Along with repeated adverts by Stopping Violence Services who have never replied to the desperate message I have left on their answerphone.

I had to write otherwise I will kill myself tonight – I couldn’t cry like I wanted to, had to hold back the wailing cry I want to do because I know I would never stop and this would also have meant I would kill myself.  You never really get used to being suicidal due to neglect by your own government and being illegally denied the health care and justice you know you are entitled under multiple NZ laws.

As my research has uncovered the PTSD I initially had after the rape has turned to Compounding Complex PTSD due to ongoing trauma & neglect.  CPTSD is extremely common in New Zealand but being misdiagnosed and covered up by govt & health professionals, as things like depression, personality disorder, bi-polar, attention seeking, lazy etc.  It wouldn’t have got to this if I had received the care I was entitled to but left untreated and added to by ongoing trauma due to lack of safe stable housing and being left disabled and vulnerable in our revolting community has left me a shell of my former self.

Sunday hurt the most when they do stories on OTHER PEOPLE regarding mental health but NEVER ME, never what I know, the laws being violated, never the persecution I am suffering at hands of corrupt police, who will do anything to protect what the government and justice agencies are doing to all disabled mentally injured abuse/trauma victims and mentally ill.  David Rutherford (Chief Human Rights Commissioner) was right in his comments on bullying that the people those being bullied go to for help and ignore you, cause more distress than the bullies themselves.

I begged Sunday for help, begged them, told them police were being used as mental health staff years ago – I was ignored, discredited and degraded for it.  There was no way my case was important enough or of interest to New Zealand public, no way exposing the FACT that people with mental health issues were suffering a gross miscarriage of justice after neo-liberals shut down vast majority of mental health facilities – not that many of these places weren’t houses of horror and torture for many of their residents.  I seldom watch the show because it triggers all the time I have begged them for help and been rejected.

Triggered by all the times I have begged politicians for help, including all Wairarapa MPs for past 15 years, all ACC ministers, all ministers of health, all prime ministers, any MP that ever made a comment on mental health, suicide or ACC – hundreds of them.  All sent letters and emails telling them that people with mental health issues were being persecuted and denied PROFESSIONAL health care and everybody was turning a blind eye to the persecution of an entire sector of society.

When you have studied the violence trauma and neglect industry you realise them psychologically torturing and rejecting you to save money, is done because of a bizarre neo-liberal cult-like belief that you should advance rich, disadvantage middle class and persecute those weak people in society if they can’t work or need help to work.

I cry and feel a waterfall of tears right behind my eyes, I get that often now, even when walking through town to get some exercise because I have been so unwell, become ‘frozen’ with trauma, havn’t thrown up enough (I am recognised as having bulimia but nothing is ever done about it, no matter how much I beg for help) and have put on a huge amount of weight that makes me feel BAD – really really BAD in so many ways.  In 2009 when I had some care, that was illegally taken by National government John Judge and Paula Rebstock, I had a gym membership with some amazing support from the instructors, co-ordinated by my very professional Occupational Therapist Glenda.

I was supposed to get this reinstated but ACC continue to refuse 7 years down the track.  I can’t think about how suicidal and dysfunctional I was after they dumped me, the 46 day hungerstrike and the lawyer who let me down so badly, took ACC to yet another review, which I won AND STILL I GOT ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.  This continual telling me I would get services then not providing them is why my mental health deteriorated and I now ‘go tourettes’ when badly triggered.

Thankfully I can keep the violence towards others under control with a lot of prayer and understanding of my disorder – I am sure soon the suicidal hell I suffer so often will take me. Why would I want to stay upon this earth if I can’t work and have to live in terror of homelessness, abusive flatmates and a cruel majority of my community in power who are unprepared to listen to what I know, say and experience.  Yes I have a lot of supporters but what can they do, they can’t get me a house, they can’t force ACC or mental health to provide me professional health care.  I don’t burden those I love or I they would be traumatised to and I’m not going to allow this to be passed to the next generation – like so many do out of ignorance and severe dysfunction.

From what I can see in the advertisement for Trouble in Mind they are going to get again cover up that under human rights and bill of rights laws our government is discriminating against and persecuting mentally injured and ill people.  As I said in my Suicide Prevention Strategy it is a neo-liberal obsession that professional treatment and rehabilitation models are kept out of mental health services so they can create as many jobs as possible from HUMAN SEWAGE like me.

I cry because I know this is done on purpose, because neo-liberal terrorists are doing it in other countries and just like other countries our corporate media – who make a lot of money out of social dysfunction – are not telling the entire story and not pointing out the gross miscarriage of justice going on here.

When I think of all the times I have begged for help with what I know – that I set up this website and all my social media for - have dedicated my life to – how many men women and children have suffered, killed themselves, become violent or addicts because of these corrupt, criminally negligent, seriously disturbed people in government who prefer to spend taxes on cuts to top tax rates, MASSIVE govt debt interest repayments, building refurbishments, Saudi farms, charity to other countries, etc  Nope getting distraught can’t keep telling this story, too many traumas come into my head and the suicidal hell becomes overwhelming.

Its late, I’m exhausted I’ll post this and maybe finish it later if I can – I hope and pray journalists at Sunday see it and contact me to tell my story, that they will ask why I am up on 7 criminal charges for screaming for help from ACC and using non-violent forms of protest to express my disgust and distress.

All those people they purposely killed, all those families they destroyed with their neo-liberal hatred, their corruption and violations of so many laws and everybody who was supposed to protect us sat back and condoned or participate in it.  Because they were told if government persecuted an entire sector of society that was OK – THAT IS NOT OK.

This is what happens when those with money and unbridled power go completely mad.

Auditor General Report into Mental Health must result in criminal prosecution

I was a victim of government crimes in mental health, I was illegally refused mental health care and was harmed when mentally ill people terrorised and victimised me after and when in the care of mental health services.

Wrote these two emails this morning to my current criminal lawyer (court next Tuesday) and head of police in Wairarapa.  So many years I have been screaming for help from our legal system – so many years suffering and my ‘normal’ life destroyed for a neo-liberal ideology that violates so many laws.

 

From: Jayne
Sent: Thursday, 1 June 2017 6:41 a.m.
To: donna.howard@police.govt.nz
Subject: Auditor-General Report into Mental Health

Donna,

I yet again ask police investigate my claims of harm under Sections 150A 151 155 157 of the Crimes Act after reading the latest Auditor General performance report into mental health that is dominating the news at the moment.  You could also refer to the scathing one of ACC in 2014, which I was interviewed for, that also proves what I am saying is true.

Police are there to uphold the law NO MATTER WHO IS BREAKING IT – in fact I believe if it is government breaking it they have even more responsibility to do it because they are so powerful and in control of so many fragile, unwell, vulnerable and disabled men women and children.

Please I am begging you, just like I have begged people before you and been ignored.  Ask Dr Alan Doris, Counsellor Jenny Kirby, WINZ case manager Tina Hemi if my health/behaviour has deteriorated – ASK ME I get better at hiding it from those I care about of course, because I don’t want to traumatise and upset them, but I know my mental health gets worse.  I can’t even see my doctor any longer after she refused to deal with me accessing ACC/mental health care – blaming me rather than them………  I live feeling terrified because I am sick with bladder/kidney issues I should have had investigated years ago, but couldn’t get the mental health care I needed in order to attend – just like I need it to now see the doctor.

How proud you must be that police got to the point of physically assaulting me for my protests – because they have been told a bunch of lies about me being able to access mental health care and refusing it.  What was happening is impairments that had developed because I could not get care then became a barrier to communication and services.  THAT IS NOT MY FAULT – that is their fault.  There is a way through this but they refuse to use it.

Woke up crying this morning, havn’t done that for a while, so so sad, the grief of knowing just how corrupt and criminally negligent successive governments have been in the area of mental health and providing professional health care and safe homes to live in for disabled people like myself.  All for a neo-liberal ideology that advances rich and persecutes disabled poor.

Like I chalk on the street – “Police do not swear an oath to the government, they swear an oath to the Queen, who is head of a church, that believes in a book, that DOES NOT SAY protect the rich and powerful while they persecute the poor and powerless.”

Please, I am not delusional – reports confirm that – I am intelligent and just want to work and get help to work, get help to be played for the plays, songs and poetry everybody says I have talent for.  There is so much I could have done and so much funding I could have accessed if I had had the required health care and professional rehabilitation.  These people have destroyed my life and denied me right and justice.  I just want to return to work, but I can’t while I’m living in such an unsafe and unstable home and HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO MENTAL HEALTH SERVICES.

I went to University and studied health disability and rehabilitation I know what the government ACC/MH are doing is illegal, I know they are experimenting on people, I know they are breaking the law, driving people to suicide, harming so many people.  I know police deal a lot with the consequences of criminally negligent politicians demanding government agencies deny people like me the treatment care rehabilitation and justice I am entitled to.  I can show you dozens of emails and letters to ministers and politicians begging for help.

I just want to heal and go back to work, I just want to be able to communicate properly with my family, even though I will never make up for the 15 years I have been alienated from them because of my disorder and no professional care.  I just want somewhere safe to live in my own community instead of feeling terrified at any time my landlord could decide to come back here and I would have nowhere to live.  I don’t want to live with people are who are mentally ill, taking advantage of me, who wouldn’t be if I had the health care I am entitled to and should have been reinstated by ACC in 2010.

Things with police would never have deteriorated like they did if I had the health care I was entitled to under ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws.  Only police taking a case against ACC and mental health in my case would even up the power imbalance people like Justice Winkleman point out in public lectures!  Please refer to the Law Society website.

NOTE: I will be posting this email to my website, so everybody knows I have begged for police to prosecute ACC/MH for years and been refused.  Police know how much my mental health has deteriorated over the years, police believed that psychopath Curtis-Cody and ignored me when I was telling the truth.

Kia kaha to us all.

JR

Civil Society Actor

PERSECUTED WHISTLEBLOWER

HUMAN SEWAGE LIVING IN TEH DARKLANDS

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From: Jayne
Sent: Thursday, 1 June 2017 6:19 a.m.
To: Susie Barnes
Subject: Latest Performance Audit of Mental Health by Auditor-General

Susie,

Woke up crying, havn’t done that for a while, still havn’t heard from you so don’t know what’s going on.

Did you see the news about Auditor-General report into mental health, more proof what I am saying is true.  Except in my case I couldn’t get mental health services and was terrorised and further harmed by several of their clients who I had ended up living with.  I can’t even tell you the situations because to recount them makes me to suicidal and want to self-harm.  Because I was begging for help through all those episodes and received nothing!

I was interviewed for the 2014 Auditor-General report into ACC which was extremely scathing of them and the way they treated their clients.  You should use that AS MORE PROOF what I am saying is true.  I was always way more terrified of mental health services and what they were capable of doing to me than ACC.  I was threatened on the street by Pathways staff during a chalk protest that I would be locked up under mental health act for telling the truth – I was terrified, could tell you details of that and prove that threat terrorised me.

I am going to write yet again to police and demand they take action over my complaints of harm by ACC and Mental Health under Sections 150A 151 155 157 of the Crimes Act.  Have you been able to find a lawyer who can protect and represent me to get my ACC care back and a professional rehabilitation plan, plus a safe stable home to live in.  Someone who can take a case of Human Rights abuse based on my disability, one of torture against the government for repeatedly making public statements that there is professional mental health care WHEN I KNOW THERE ARE NOT – NOT THAT I’VE BEEN ALLOWED TO ACCESS – because of course Andrew Curtis-Cody is a psychopath who makes sure I can’t.  A lawyer who can take a case against police for allowing ACC and mental health to deny me health care I am entitled to, put me in harmful situations, break the law in regard to disabled people like myself and then spend years dragging me through court for legally protesting, etc.

When I think of all the times police have arrested me when they shouldn’t have (I’m ok with the times they should have).  When I was held in the cells first time in my life for ‘trespassing on parliament grounds’ and I found out later there was already case law to say I could do it but someone from UPSTAIRS demanded that I be held – against the best judgement of the Sgt I was dealing with (cause I overhead the conversation).  A serious violation of separation of powers and our democracy perpetrated by senior police staff.  I was severely traumatised by that event and self-harmed in cells, still have pictures and still remember the morning before court rocking backwards and forwards on my bed for over an hour.  Then the other time ………………. I don’t want to remember that either because of how traumatised I was by it.

Then of course there are the times I’ve been violently arrested, assaulted with handcuffs…………………..

Sincerely

Jayne

Suicide Prevention Strategy 2017 Submission

Here is the link to the strategy which needs to be read in partnership with my submission – feel free to follow my lead and do your own submission – the more the better.

Taken me all day to write and now I’m really unwell and freaking out – lucky me – kia kaha to anybody who is suicidal that going to write a submission.  Its hard but you’ve got to try.

http://www.health.govt.nz/publication/strategy-prevent-suicide-new-zealand-draft-public-consultation

Below is my submission – you don’t have to be as blunt and honest as I do – just tell your story and what you know to be true.  If you think there is threat of having your children taken or being forcibly incarcerated or drugged then take out all the truth about how unwell you are.  Maybe as part of your submission link it to this website/submission and say you support everything I am saying.

Kia kaha and aroha to us all

SUBMISSION ON SUICIDE PREVENTION STRATEGY 2017 by

jr murphy, Civil Society Actor (traumatic stress disorder, constitutional/health law and suicide prevention policy practice lay expert).

I am writing this submission even though I have absolutely no hope anything will change for the better in mental health, in fact I know it will only get worse as the noose tightens on those with mental health issues as a result of radicalised neo-liberal economic theories being imposed on NZ society.  The opportunity for business enterprises to exploit and profit from the trauma & psychological violence being perpetrated against us by rich elites for past 30 years advancing themselves, disadvantaging majority of the population and persecuting disabled poor will only continue.  I see no end to this until significant opportunities for jobs in manufacturing industries that provide necessities like clothing, food & shelter are returned to New Zealand.  Until this happens our corrupt abusive neo-liberal governments will continue to rely on social dysfunction to create 10,000s of jobs in justice, police, prisons, health and community welfare.

For 15 years since I was raped and introduced to the mental health, welfare, disability, ACC, abuse, violence industry I have had nothing but refusal of government organisations (including NGOs and churches) to provide the professional treatment care rehabilitation and justice I read about in multiple laws and in the bible (which our laws are based upon).  For experiencing this hypocrisy and marketing phenomena, being terrorised and driven to suicide and ever worsening dysfunction I have been labelled a liar, time waster, nutter, mentally ill, nut job, attention seeker, loser, lazy and worse.

To try and discredit the severe psychological torture me (and many others I have spoken to) experience – it was even required I undergo multiple 2 hours psychological assessments.  An excellent report by head of psychiatry at Wellington Justin Barry-Walsh confirmed I am intelligent, do not have a personality disorder and am not delusional in thinking what is happening to me is psychological torture, causing me significant harm and violating my rights through criminal neglect under NZ law.

Even with multiple excellent reports from top psychiatrists like Justin and Dr Alan Doris (now living in Australia sadly) & others like Jenny Kirby and Occupational Therapist Glenda van der ven Long I am to this day refused the professional care they recommend and I beg for.  I know I am entitled to it under ACC, health, disability, criminal (Sections 150A 151 155 157 Crimes Act), Imperial, Human Rights and Bill of Rights laws as I am intelligent and can read.  I was also studying law at Victoria when mentally injured but was unable to return without ACC care I was entitled to.  My decision to study law was a result of winning two cases as a lay person and realising I was very good at understanding law and legal argument.

Years of government, justice and academic corruption by radicalised neo-liberals has created a society and industry that perpetrates abuse, violence, crime, addiction and suicide.   Having studied disability and health at Massey University it is quite obvious what government and NGOs say they do and what they actually do is completely different.  Currently our government are experimenting on disabled people with mental health issues, which is highly illegal under NZ and international (United Nations) law.  Our government are NOT implementing professional rehabilitation or health models – if you are not providing professional health care then you are experimenting on people it is very simple.  Sadly our judiciary and justice system are corrupt and work hand in hand with those denying mentally injured and ill health care and rehabilitation so they can persecute these disabled people through the courts when they have psychotic episodes and/or being desperate with nothing to lose.  In fact the continual implementation of bottom of the cliff services drives many more to the bottom and at least in prison you have a safe and stable home with people around you.

 

 In the 1980s neo-liberal terrorists (yes I know what this word means and I know these people terrorise disabled poor with mental health issues) started shutting mental health facilities under the guise of Human Rights.  Although this was fed to us as an enlightened era of bringing mentally ill back into the community – it was merely an extreme austerity measure against some of the most vulnerable and fragile people in our society.  Thrown into a community that despised and feared them to cause havoc – which they did.  In fact a review of Hansards shows our extensive mental health system was created because the community was persecuting and not coping with mentally injured abuse victims and mentally ill (there is a difference, although mentally ill can have mental injury).

During one of my arrests an officer told me he had been a prison guard during the 1980s and as mental health facilities were emptied prison filled up.  Statistics reported today say 80% of people in prison have mental health issues.  Although governments since the 1980s knew dumping these people into the community and refusing them care was causing so much suffering and harm to society they did nothing to stop it.   All they did was blame their victims and create more victims – which was of course was imperative to their objective of creating jobs when there were no longer the ones available in manufacturing.  While this was all happening media and governments just kept saying over and over the violence addiction dysfunction and suicide created was the communities and individuals fault – instead of the true crime being perpetrated by radicalised neo-liberals.

I am thinking at this point I have repeated myself several times – which is very similar to the absolutely pathetic, unprofessional, rhetorical Suicide Prevention Strategy I have sitting beside me.  Just like all the other reports I read on disability, mental health, human rights, justice and more – all lies from my personal experience – and those of many people I meet while living in the darklands of this neo-liberal nightmare of a country.

 

Neo-liberal terrorists do this in every country they invade, its not just New Zealand, I get my information from reliable first hand accounts from people/organisations/news reports all around the world, mostly UK, Australia & USA.  Terrorising people to the point of violence, addiction and suicide is condoned/encouraged and those who suffer and speak out are discredited, abused and marginalised.  Which is why I am continuously in court for legal protests and begging for health care and justice I am entitled to.

 

It is extremely amusing to me that people think this Strategy document actually equates into anything meaningful to anybody – except of course lots of highly paid jobs – especially in law.  It should lead to professional treatment and rehabilitation for people with mental health issues – but it doesn’t. 

 

Once 80% of people have experienced the degrading nightmare of mental health services they are usually too terrified to return.  I have not heard of one positive mental health experience from any of the 1000s of people I have spoken to since 2002.  I currently spend around 4-8 hours a day on social media and collecting information about mental health – in all that time not one successful outcome.  I read about them in the paper but I have never actually met anyone, although one part of the strategy demands that media only print stories of the very few well supported and mildly ill people that recover – so that would explain why.

 

Suicide, violence etc are known internationally as ‘social dysfunction’ – it is also well known that New Zealands adoption of radical neo-liberal economic policies has caused highest growth in inequality in the world and biggest increase in social problems in OECD – for a country that is not technically AT WAR.  (In my opinion it is at war with its own people, where greedy immoral rich have been allowed to illegally persecute vulnerable disabled poor.)

 

As for the highly paid players in this gross miscarriage of justice and violation of human rights, it is a job and they have to keep it because they won’t get anything else.  This is what happens in a neo-liberal low wage economy – this is what governments want to happen and their refusal to accept the violent, immoral and criminal consequences of that proves what intelligent people have known for centuries.

 

In fact it is the basis of Westminster Law as pointed out by Judge Davidson in referring to Imperial Laws Application Act 1988.  Westminster Statute the 1st states: Common right be done to all rich as poor.  Which of course in the 11the century would have been the only way leaders would have got poor peasants to follow laws.  I even now contend in court that I do not have to follow NZ law because Westminster Statute is not being adhered to.  Although inequality is not a violation of human rights in itself – taking a country from one of equality to one of inequality by advancing rich and persecuting disabled poor is! 

 

The second law is the Magna Carta, another sham violated even more by 30 years of neo-liberal terrorism.  “No-one shall be destroyed and everyone shall have access to right and justice.”  Given I have been destroyed for over 15 years by being denied the health care and justice I am entitled to I know this law is being ignored.  Ask any criminal or civil legal aid lawyer if everybody has the right to justice and they will confirm people do not.

 

I also am well aware of the other laws I quote, I can read, I’m intelligent according to reports, I live this nightmare of hell and I talk to others around me suffering just the same – men women and children.  I often challenge leaders and public servants to having a 2 hour psychiatric assessment and coming out with the same outcomes as mine about their intelligence, psychological diagnosis and if they are in fact delusional. 

 

In the Wairarapa we have a seriously disturbed psychopath running mental health as acting head for over a decade.  Everybody knows he is mentally disturbed, I have had other hospital staff, police, lawyers, counsellors and multiple mentally ill people say the same thing.  I made complaints about Andrew Curtis-Cody and was insulted, ignored, discredited and degraded by DHB members, mental health staff, politicians and complaints organisations.  Wairarapa has the highest rate in New Zealand for compulsory treatment orders and forced psychotropic medication – the highest rate of psychotropic drug abuse in New Zealand and NOBODY can challenge this criminally negligent psychopath who is killing people.  I say it how it is and get persecuted by police and denied ALL HEALTH CARE.  As I write this I know those reading it won’t believe me, but I can assure you I DO NOT have a mental health issue that involves paranoia, delusions or lying – I just tell the truth based on what I see, know, study and experience.

 

I will go through the Stategy page by page to finish this submission and I have also attached links to multiple documents that show EXACTLY the type of services and rehabilitation models that should be applied and followed in New Zealand, especially those that cater to our unique Kiwi culture (eg Whare Tapa Wha).  In the strategy and in my dealings with mental health and those in authority the CULTURE of Pakeha New Zealanders who have been here for generations is not recognised.  Apparently only people from other countries or who are Maori or have brown skin have a culture. 

 

The culture of rich neo-liberal terrorist Pakeha is not my culture and I know from extensive study that New Zealand is in the grips of a class war, not a race war.  Because of the terror, homelessness, austerity & media bias against poor and massive stress and pressure put on middle class, racism is a natural result.  Again it is happening in every neo-liberal country and extensively covered by international news media – mainstream media of course don’t cover WHY people are becoming racist.

 

I know from my own studies of basic instinct and history that people having their resources stolen by foreigners, which has happened for thousands of years, will fight for their land, homes and enough food to eat.  It is in our DNA to hate outsiders/foreigners who take these things from us.  Neo-liberals have ignited in 100,000s of people their most basic instincts, due to constant job, housing and food insecurity.  Most poor disabled people like myself are forced to move at least every 2 years, move away from their neighbours, friends, support networks, family etc.  Then of course there is the cost of the constant moves due to neo-liberals ensuring housing was another form of income for the rich after driving 100,000s decent manufacturing jobs to poor countries with few human rights.

 

Now I will go through strategy and make comment on this horrendous, repetitive and grossly deceitful document.

 

DRAFT STRATEGY FOREWORD by John Crawshaw, criminal.  If I could get lawyer I am entitled to I would take a private prosecution against Mr Crawshaw.  My complaints to police about ACC and mental health staff such as John Crawshaw are discredited and ignored – they too are corrupt and refuse to act on Sections 150A 151 155 157 of the Crimes Act, which I know for a fact are being violated in my case and I have all the proof. 

 

Every police officer I have ever met while protesting agrees with my protests, they know what is going on, some are very nice to me, because often I am extremely distraught, but some see my weakness and degrade and persecute me further – to the point of violent assault last year.  I have multiple complaints with IPCA which are waiting to be actioned after I have been through court for the current 7 charges.  I have made formal complaints about head of IPCA David Carruthers who has allowed this victimisation and vindictive behaviour by some local police to continue and terrorise me.

 

It is quite obvious from news reports and ever increasing rates of psychotropic and illegal drug use and suicide that all suicide prevention strategies have been a failure, saying more needs to be done is the same thing elites have said for years, while they don’t apply the most basic health models.  In fact governments make welfare, housing and access to health care even more difficult for poor – just like all neo-liberal controlled societies.  Please refer to my website www.jrmuphypoet.com and song Oh Lord I Wish I Was Dead, which I wrote not long after the last round of neo-liberal austerity against poor on welfare (mostly disabled abuse victims from my research).  Almost exactly a year later John Tully was driven mad and shot two WINZ workers during a psychotic episode, after years of begging for help and being homeless etc.  The extreme and violent response by government has led to even more terrorised and violent people flipping out at WINZ offices – welfare has been made the most degrading hell on earth – mostly by Paula Bennett who had so much provided by the state she ended up as a very powerful politician.  It is extremely distressing that a woman such as this (and John Key who came from a State House) is instrumental in withdrawing and denying me the help I am entitled to and desperately need.  Not only that, she is instrumental in turning media and the majority of population against people like me.  I experience discrimination in my community almost every day, including friends and family.  Its one of the reasons I have become so isolated.

 

John Crawshaw is delusional if he believes there has been progress, there has only been worsening of conditions in my experience and the hundreds of people I know.

 

The idea that the community should work together to prevent suicide is corruption on a grand scale.  What Crawshaw is saying is neo-liberal terrorists created a society with high unemployment and ever increasing marginalising of poor by increasing costs in health, housing, food etc – which in turn causes unnecessary suffering, violence, addiction and suicide and our ‘community’ should fix the harm our government have caused (and they can only fix).

 

 We are all victims, whether perpetrators or victims of the violence inequality and neo-liberalism has caused.  Those in power have done an excellent job in just blaming their victims of course – irrelevant of the facts and science.

 

Those government and non-government agencies who have been contributing to suicide policy over the past 30 years are getting paid to follow the government line and cover up what I am exposing in yet another government submission.  These people make light of how corrupt, abusive, unprofessional, immoral and incompetent the current mental health, welfare and justice system are because they get paid to – they are threatened with losing their funding or jobs if they tell the truth.  Groups who do speak out are shut down, their funding withdrawn and discredited by the government.  (Threats Alfred Ngaro made recently against Willie Jackson are happening in ACC and mental health services on a daily basis.)

 

Recently I was chalking outside Ministry of Health about how they were murderers and purposely causing suicide.  A staff member came out from the building and stood there in tears, telling me I was right.  She said she couldn’t say anything about how bad things were because of her employment contract.  Changes to employment contracts we all know were implemented by radicalised neo-liberals.

 

 They talk of views and advice in the development of this strategy but they never talk of professional multi-disciplinary rehabilitation or health models – which is what it should be about.  Imagine if we treated Cancer or heart disease the same as we treated mental health issues (especially traumatic stress disorders and neglect).

The people John Crawshaw refers to as participating in the Strategy are the very people who degrade, reject, discriminate against, insult, persecute and psychologically torture me and others every day.  Around 20% of these people know what is going on and do their best, the rest participate in this gross miscarriage of justice.  People turn on you when you can’t get help and are extremely desperate, they have to blame the person, if they didn’t they would have to admit those in power are cruel immoral and corrupt.

 

Most people working in suicide prevention know for a fact suicidal people are often in unsafe unstable living situations, with inadequate food and resources, no decent jobs and no appropriate or adequate mental health services they are entitled to by law.  Of course you are suicidal if you have no hope for the future – I have no hope for the future, my future will be one of continued moving, violent abusive flatmates who rip me off, continuous fear of homelessness and watching poor people around me suffer and die.  While I become more alienated from my family and those in my community who are doing OK.  That’s what its like living in the darklands of this neo-liberal nightmare of a country.

John Crawshaw is corrupt, incompetent, ignorant and delusional, he participates in driving people to suicide because he gets paid a lot of money to do so.  He is disliked by his staff – because I have spoken to them on several occasions.  He has phoned me at home 6pm one night saying I would receive services – I received none.  I have phoned him around 6 times in past 10 years, he just keeps saying there are services when I say there are none and I cannot access any that are there either.

This is the person writing a forward to a suicide prevention strategy when he is instrumental in denying people professional health/rehab models so they don’t suicide.  I have done multiple protests outside his office in Wellington, told people he was a murderer and a criminal – the response from those in Treasury (where his office is) was to put on their website how they worked for ALL New Zealanders – which of course those of us in the darklands knows is a complete lie.

The government don’t want to pay for the professional care disabled mentally injured abuse victims and mentally ill are entitled to by law.  They have purposely corrupted ACC so they had more money to spend on investment and shares – rather than adhere to their responsibilities under ACC and other laws.  Essentially suicidal abused men women and children are paying for investment in banks, foreign companies, dams etc.  What I am saying is true and can be verified by any extensive google search of news items, facts figures, reports etc.  I spend most of my day doing this because I am intelligent, like to keep busy and my brain occupied, don’t want to die and want to alleviate the unnecessary suffering I see all around me.

ABOUT THIS DRAFT STRATEGY

As blatant as it can be stated “suicidal behaviour is a sign of great distress” and yet everybody avoids the link between neo-liberal terrorist ideologies – that cause this suffering everywhere they go and the increase in suicide and severely traumatised men women and children.  I’m 52, we didn’t have this when I was young – although I do acknowledge some of the mental health facilities back then were highly abusive and full of poorly qualified and often mentally disturbed psychopaths (just like Andrew Curtis-Cody).

Human Rights Review Tribunal refused to take a case against ACC and mental health on my behalf because I WAS MENTALLY ILL – that medical neglect, illegal withdraw of essential services was the cause of my worsening mental health and suicidality was denied. I did get some professional help in 2009, was supposed to be for 2 ½ yrs, National got in and cut everything after 6 mths against the advice of all health professional I was working with – and my desperate pleas not too.  I don’t want to go into the damage removing my 12 hours per week care and multi-disciplinary team have caused as I will self harm and become highly suicidal – this is just another severe unresolved trauma that fuels my Compounding Complex PTSD.

 

I was extremely disturbed to see on Sunday TVNZ 28 May a young man Harry from Christchurch, who quite obviously had Complex PTSD with suicidal ideology was diagnosed as DEPRESSED.  Like calling someone depressed somehow makes everything OK when they kill themselves, or crawl under their beds and can’t come out for weeks at a time.  I have come to hold the opinion there is no such thing as depression – or perhaps it only relates to people who want to kill themselves for no good reason, I of course have every good reason and so did Harry. 

 

I can’t put here all the damage and alienation from family and community not receiving the health care I am entitled to has caused over the past 15 years.  One day I hope to list all the funerals and family events I have missed, all the people I have taken to airport for overseas holidays, all the events I have missed with friends due to poverty or disability, the relationships with my nieces and nephews that never flourished, etc etc.

The Strategy sets out a framework but it is never put into practice, as part of this submission I refer to my website www.jrmurphypoet.com, my rehabilitation model Fence At The Top Of The Cliff and business plan for Mental Injury Services.  I also refer to my Regional Rehabilitation Centres and Regional Mental Health Facilities postings – all services that should already be happening but are not.  My ex-counsellor told me there were several houses for abused women like me to heal around New Zealand prior to 1980s neo-liberal invasion of our country, they were all shut down by DHBs and government austerity in health sector.  Those that are left are highly reliant on psychotropic drugs, 80% of which are internationally condemned as being used to abuse suicidal and mentally ill people rather than help them.  It is well known that top government advisors (eg foreigner Mark Unsworth) were part of global network of drug companies that corrupted government by saying drugs are cheaper than professional health care, safe housing and adequate welfare in area of mental health – they are not.

The broader view those who wrote this strategy say they take is an extremely ignorant, narrow, bigoted and negligent view – they don’t see suicide as a social issue directly related to neo-liberal inequality and terrorism of poor by rich.  Yet international media and TED talks refer to New Zealands appalling social problems since neo-liberal ideologies were introduced.  (Not sure if I have repeated myself as many times as the strategy yet, but I must be getting close.)

 

 The mental health sector and our community are the most significant contributors to suicide in New Zealand.  The most ignorant bigots and worst discrimination I experience are at hands of health professionals and politicians who don’t do what all these strategies, reports and laws say they do.

My criticism of this pile of marketing rhetoric is also a criticism of the government working group and all those who have contributed to the strategy and ensuring the highest rate of suicide for our young in the OECD.   Highest rate of self-harm in women from last reports I saw.  Government neo-liberals cause and allow so much persecution of disabled mentally injured abuse victims and mentally ill is the reason these statistics are what they are.  I know it, most people I know are aware of it, while our leaders, mental health staff, justice staff, politicians and others being paid by the government are mostly in denial of it (except of course that lady who cried outside Ministry of health).  International law would suggest participating in the persecution of vulnerable minorities because you are ordered to by government is not a defence in crimes against people like myself.  When I think of the government employees who have ignored my please for health care and justice I am entitled to under law I am horrified and truly hope to hold these people to account in a high court of New Zealand.

TERMS USED – Here is a list of terms I use, that I made up several years ago, they come from the Oxford Dictionary I bought in first year law at Victoria, the year before I was raped sodomised and person who admitted it was found not guilty.

Oxford dictionary definitions that describe New Zealand leadership and human rights violations being perpetrated against disabled abused people on welfare.

Authoritarian = favouring or enforcing strict obedience to authority at the expense of personal freedom (tick)

Bully = a person who deliberately intimidates or persecutes those who are weaker (tick)

Corrupt = adj 1. Willing to act dishonestly in return for money or personal gain. (tick) evil or morally depraved (tick) 3. Rotten or putrid (tick) v. 1. Cause to become corrupt (tick) 2. Debase by making errors (tick) 3. Infect, contaminate (tick)

Cruelty = cruel behaviour or attitudes (tick) law – behaviour which causes physical or mental harm to another, whether intentional or not (tick)

Degrade = 1. Cause to suffer a severe loss of dignity or respect (tick) demean (tick) lower the character or quality of (tick)

Degrading = causing a loss of self-respect (tick) humiliating (tick)

Discriminate = 2. Make an unjust distinction in the treatment of different categories of people (tick), especially on the grounds of culture (tick), disability (tick) or age (tick)

Ill-treatment = act cruelly towards (tick)

Intimidate = frighten or overawe (tick)

Oppress = 1. Keep in subjection and hardship (tick) 2. Cause to feel distressed or anxious (tick)

Oppressive = 1. Harsh and authoritarian (tick) 2. Weighing heavily on the mind or spirits (tick)

Retribution = punishment inflicted in the spirit of moral outrage or personal vengeance (tick)

Persecute = 1. Subject to prolonged hostility and ill-treatment (tick) 2. Persistently harass or annoy (tick)

Subjection = 1. Cause or force to undergo (tick) 2. Bring under one’s control or jurisdiction, typically by force (tick)

Torment = severe physical or mental suffering (tick) – a cause of torment (tick) 1. Subject to torment (tick) 2. Annoy or tease unkindly (tick)

Torture = 1. The action or practice of inflicting severe pain as a punishment or a forcible means of persuasion (tick) 2. Great suffering or anxiety (tick) – subject to torture (tick)

Torturous = characterized by pain or suffering (tick)

Please also refer to professional terms used in rehabilitation and health, for example, impairment related to disability and how it is a legal requirement that these impairments be accommodated if possible.

CAUSES OF SUICIDAL BEHAVIOUR

SUICIDAL BEHAVIOUR DOES NOT AFFECT ANYONE and DOES DEPEND ON THEIR BACKGROUND AND LIFE EXPERIENCES.  It does have a single cause – loss of all hope.  It is caused by compounding unresolved trauma because the persons current environment does not allow for healing or acceptance.

Outlining why people become suicidal when we all know how government have spent the past 30 years worsening our living environments is extremely disturbing.  Governments refusing to provide homes for abused disabled and poor has created this, it is in this report and yet nothing is being done about it through the courts under violations of imperial, acc, health, disability, criminal, human rights and bill of rights laws. 

 

The justice system set up that is supposed to protect disabled and poor from excesses and persecution by rich and powerful have been grossly undermined and corrupted – that includes the United Nations avenues for justice.  According to Human Rights Tribunal staff the New Zealand public are well aware of the increasing human rights violations against disabled and poor and choose this, so there is nothing they can do.  Of course very few people know this persecution and gross miscarriage of justice is happening – those that do are criminals and those who do not know are ignorant most like it that way.  If New Zealanders knew what I did about how corrupt and criminally negligent our health and justice systems were in relation to disabled mentally injured abused men women and children THEY WOULD NOT ALLOW IT TO CONTINUE AND WOULD DEMAND THE PEOPLE DOING IT BE INVESTIGATED BY POLICE AND PROSECUTED IN A COURT OF LAW.

How suicidal behaviour can be prevented

Suicidal behaviour has one cause in New Zealand, negligence and corruption by government agencies and there is a single solution – to provide the professional treatment care rehabilitation and justice people are entitled to under multiple New Zealand laws.

What we do need is professional rehabilitation models applied and all the other things disabled people are entitled to.

 

What we don’t need around New Zealand is well meaning, poorly informed, uneducated, issue ridden, often mentally unwell people in the community providing treatment care rehabilitation and justice to disabled mentally injured and ill people.

 

Promising appropriate support while denying people professional support is extremely disturbed and psychopathic behaviour – something a person like Paula Rebstock is extremely good at and why she was employed, paid extreme amounts of money and was made a Dame by our government.

 

All current activities in the area of suicide prevention are aimed at rejecting and/or persecuting suicidal people.  Those who are suicidal for good reason are particularly despised and refused all services – I have been hung up on multiple times by telephone suicide help lines, as soon as they hear my situation the poorly qualified and often unwell people who man them hang up.  I find those numbers now on end of every news item on suicide to be extremely inappropriate and neo-liberal propaganda brainwashing people who aren’t suicidal into believing there are actually services for people – when I know there are not.  It is not a service when it is abusive, unprofessional and does not do what it says.

 

Having spent years being suicidal and discredited and abused for it I know there are no services.  I have seen it in so many other people as well and we see it in news reports all the time how people have been suicidal and attempted it and failed many times before they succeed.  It is also well documented that the people most least wanted as neighbours are mentally ill people.  We are happy with well functioning foreigners but not disabled New Zealanders driven to suicide and dysfunction by trauma, abuse and neglect.  And when those around them persecute them even more by beating them and their children, or they are driven to drugs, then they are despised, rejected and marginalised even further.  Ahhh living in the darklands of New Zealand, is a nightmare no person in a poor country would understand.  To be surrounded by wealth and happy people while you are suffering and destitute is a most bizarre and terrifying experience.

 

I see they have put a pretty model on Page 5, that actually means nothing, achieves nothing and I find pathetic, unprofessional and insulting.  On my solutions page at www.jrmurphypoet.com you will see my Fence At the Top of the Cliff, which is of course what needs to happen, is completely relevant and does what this entire report does not – its practical and based on professional Occupational Therapy rehabilitation and health models.

 

In the list give on Page 5 of areas that prevent suicidal behaviour I not that none are available to me or the majority of people I know.  I’m sure a few people must have access to these as the media like to put these people on TV as examples of their success – but they are very few and far between.  Most of the current organisations in these areas are choosing the least unwell and most supported people to help, rather than those in the worst cases – what I call the TOO HARD BASKET CASES, like myself.

 

From multiple discussions I can assure the readers of my submission that Maori and Pacific Island people treat their suicidal even worse than Pakeha – it is a result of neo-liberal radicalisation which isn’t race specific.  I won’t go into my assessment of why they are worse, that would take pages and scientific/psychological analysis that many reading this will not understand.  I do hope I get the opportunity in future to address this however and get Maori and Pacific people the professional treatment care and rehabilitation they are entitled to under the Whare Tapa Wha and other European? Rehabilitation models.  Models that are the opposite of neo-liberal terrorism.

 

 Years of changes to how suicidal people are treated by police have resulted in even more extreme persecution.  Suicidal people are stripped naked by police as part of their policy – a policy that was not scrutinised under Bill of Rights laws and continues to be used to degrade, intimidate and harass suicidal people.

 

Suicidal people are most dealt with by police and most of them treat suicidal people as murderers.  Recently on a TV programme about police dogs an officer went in search of a suicidal woman, he found her curled up beside a fence distraught and stood there for many minutes with his dog on a leash barking at her while backup arrived.  She was then handcuffed (which hurt) and put in police car.

 

I can’t recount all the appalling situations I have seen while in the cells after being arrested for protesting about mental health services – or I will become triggered and I’m struggling to get through this submission and intend to self-harm, binge and vomit when I am through.  Self-harm is the way you cope with ongoing persecution and criminal/medical neglect.  It is a completely normal response to severe trauma and criminal neglect, whether perpetrated by family, community or government.

 

Although being physically assaulted by police is difficult, being insulted, degraded and threatened with violence I think is worse.  Then of course when you make formal complaints you are discredited and denied justice because YOU ARE MENTALLY ILL AND THEREFORE AUTOMATICALLY TREATED AS A LIAR.

 

There is comment on Page 6 about social and justice sectors – these are currently being used to persecute people after years of neo-liberal terrorist austerity.  Access to justice is increasingly difficult as highlighted by the Law Society and Justice Winkelman in reports I have read.  That people like myself cannot get legal assistance, when we are disabled and mostly incapable of representing ourselves or defending ourselves legally is part of the neo-liberal terrorism of poor, that all countries experience.

 

What is being done doesn’t prevent suicide it perpetrates it.  I know for a fact Chelsea Brunton committed suicide due to her ongoing issues within the family court system – that is what she told her friends and that is why she walked out of the mental health unit (that of course weren’t helping her) and hung herself.  I am repeatedly dragged through the court system for my legal protests and screaming for ACC/health care I am entitled to, it has caused me significant harm and trauma.  I almost threw myself in front of vehicles while trying to cross the road to get to court when forced to defend myself on wilful trespass charges of Masterton hospital, for legally protesting.  My ex-counsellor will confirm what happened, because I phoned her and told her what had happened and she managed to get me through it so I didn’t commit suicide at that point. 

 

After winning my case I was told by a lawyer I could get compensation for what Wairarapa DHB had put me through, but only if I had money to pay him.  Letters do the DHB telling them what happened and asking for compensation were responded to with the most vile bigotry and hatred.

 

OUR APPROACH TO PREVENTING SUICIDAL BEHAVIOUR

Is in fact driving more and more people to violence, dysfunction, addiction and suicide – there are people within our government who know this is happening and allowing it – which is highly illegal of course.

Vision – lol using Maori phrases to tell lies about how we treat people in New Zealand looks good but it is extremely insulting to people like me who are being persecuted by other sectors of the government.

 

Reminds me of sitting in front of my WINZ case manager when I moved to Wainuiomata for a while to try and get help and work.  I had never been so broke and so traumatised by my living situation, I was begging for more money because I couldn’t live.  Behind her was an entire wall of this huge room (where everybody could see everybody else) with a mural of people on it saying Te Tangata Te Tangata Te Tangata.  When I asked the case manager if she could live on what I was getting she said no.

I looked over at the young woman with a baby on her knee also crying and distraught, being dealt with by another case manager.  The open offices are used to degrade you as much as possible so you won’t cry and upset staff.  You can hear everybody’s conversations, it is extremely humiliating.  She was saying how she didn’t have enough money to live and would have to go back to her abusive partner if she didn’t get it.

 

Pae Ora

Just because you give something a Maori name doesn’t make it better than the professional treatment care rehabilitation and justice people like me are entitled to under Westminister/European law.  My ancestors were just as caring of their people as Maori are of theirs.  Its not about culture its about the corruption of rich and powerful who HAVE ALWAYS ended up persecuting weak and poor.  That’s why we have Westminster Law – which Maori signed the Treaty of Waitangi in order to come under because they also believed in it.  Not realising of course those who administered Westminster Law were mostly corrupt and only applied it to the rich and used it against the poor.

I studied rehabilitation, was impressed with Whare Tapa Wha, have begged for this to be part of my current ACC rehabilitation – I have been ignored and refused all care instead.  I won two ACC reviews in 2010 saying my extensive care of 2009 was supposed to be reinstated, it is now 2017 and still ACC refuse – saying it is my fault I don’t have care.  Something that bizarre and they tell police and others I just don’t want help on a regular basis as well – yet when I have tried so many times in the past to access it I am refused and increasing phobias and impairments related to my lack of treatment and worsening stress disorder are completely ignored – even when I know under Human Rights and Bill of Rights laws they must be adhered to.

PURPOSE

The outcome of the previous strategy has been to increase suicide, dysfunction, violence and addiction according to news reports.  People who write these reports say it is to stop suicide but I know for a fact there are extremely corrupt, immoral and violently negligent people within our government and parliament who know exactly what these policies are doing to suicidal people.  I have made formal complaints of terrorism about these people to the appropriate authorities and been told they don’t deal with terrorism by government.  Yet another check on power that is being denied those of us who screaming for justice, welfare and health care we are entitled to under multiple laws.

 

Pathways to hell, created by our government and neo-liberal terrorist ideologies cannot be turned around by marketing, the likes of this document.  Saying in a document that government aren’t going to do this when they do is another insult and gross miscarriage of justice, it works for neo-liberal terrorists as an excellent form of propaganda as well.

 

Page 8 and another Maori phrase and pretty picture that means absolutely nothing and is not implemented in any way.

 

Legally this ‘framework’ suicide strategy is a legal document where the government promises to do what they say in it, but they don’t of course and any attempt to get ACC, mental health or the NZ government in front of a judge to challenge their lies is impossible.  Tony Ellis tried it last year re three men being tortured by mental heatlh services, he still has no decision made and its been months.  He had to take the extreme step of trying to prosecute the Attorney-General for refusing to allow the three men access to justice and protection of torture laws.  I myself have tried to take the government to court under torture and imperial laws, I was refused, saying I was misusing the law and being vindictive.  I was not misusing the law, I am a layperson and could not get a lawyer and I was telling the truth.

 

Since that time I have been assaulted by High Court security for going there and demanding a lawyer, which I cannot get for my civil/human rights and torture issues.  It is psychological torture to tell a person constantly they are going to receive health care, then refusing them same – and refusing them professional health care.

 

Page 8 is where the repetition starts to get extremely obvious, pathetic and insulting.

 

Building positive wellbeing – while successive governments have been creating ever increasing adversity – and the two biggest political parties to not intend to change that for the poorest people.  Labour won’t do it because it will cause unemployment if we help people the way they should be.

 

Neo-liberals destroy families, for 30 years they have been driving people who can’t find work to Australia and other countries – while leaving behind the poorest and the richest.  They weaken communities as those with everything they need, safe stable homes and jobs start attacking those without these things.  I know this because I speak about what is happening to me and so many others and I get discriminated against and attacked for it.

 

 To not have a safe stable home when you are a human being in a rich country is a gross violation of human rights and criminal law if you are disabled.  EVERY PERSON should have a right to stand upon this earth without it costing them money they don’t have and/or not given the opportunity to earn.  I have never met a disabled person who doesn’t want to work.

 

At a recent workshop I attended by Workbridge it was clear that people who have intermittent disabilities – like mental health, who the ones who can’t get work.  At a recent protest about Bob Jones outside his office his two staff’s first insult was get a job and the second you’re a nutter.  Please refer to my Regional Rehabilitation Centres & Regional Mental Health Facilities on my website.  These are what should be happening according to law and this strategy.

 

Supporting people in distress –

 

Should not be the responsibility of families friends and community, this causes significant trauma to all involved.  Suicidal people are required to have the professional treatment care and rehabilitation they are entitled to under multiple laws.  Dumping what our neo-liberal governments have created in social dysfunction on the communities they are harming is corruption and grossly irresponsible – criminal in fact.

 

I don’t want to go into how badly I am treated by people for being suicidal as it will trigger too much trauma and I have several pages to go in my submission.  Although much of the 25 pages are just repeats on the first 10 and mean absolutely nothing.

 

Support people after suicide attempt – OK I am going to have to recount one of my worst experiences, which I have still not dealt with – YIPPEE for me – as I stab my pen into my forearm to cope with the trauma I am going to be forced to relive (and parts I won’t be able to put in here are still coming into my mind which are horrendous and involve children).

 

So I had to leave the first address I moved to in Wainuiomata due to threats of violence and the woman putting knives around the house after she turned very nasty – she was a friend (badly abused and neglected child/woman).  I moved into board with two people who I knew had mental health issues but seemed OK.  Six weeks into my stay the woman attempted suicide by taking all her diabetes medication……………………………( I want to die I wish I was dead, I don’t want to tell these stories over and over again with no result)…………………………….. She was in intensive care in Wellington hospital for three days.  I spent my last $10 taking her mentally ill partner to the hospital to see her. 

I left to go stay with a friend back in Carterton, to try and deal with what had happened, I returned Friday of that week to find her at home.  I was shocked, mental health staff at Lower Hutt hospital had said she could return home, without any consultation with me – and it was well known I had mental health and suicide issues.  I tried to phone and made a complaint but it was ignored and I couldn’t get through to the people who had made this horrendously incompetent and irresponsible decision.

She came home with no services, no mental health worker turned up, she couldn’t see her psychiatrist for a month.  Me and Tom were supposed to care for her, she smoked cigarettes all day and overate, using her diabetes pen when she ate food she shouldn’t.  She became even more controlling of Tom and bossed him around all day.  He had been too scared to call the ambulance when she had attempted suicide as her family had told him they would beat him up if she tried again.

The same family dropped their young children to be babysat by her less than a week after her suicide attempt.  I was terrified for the kids, they were 4 & 6, she made them sit in front of the TV the entire time – they cried when their mother left them.  I tried to amuse them because I’m good with kids but the woman got angry with me.  I took them to the park once but she didn’t like it.  Those poor kids, that poor woman.  That is the support people get after they attempt suicide, this is what happens in the real world and it still does.

I have another person I got to know who was highly suicidal and Andrew Curtis-Cody was telling people she was an attention seeker and liar.  Police put her in prison for three months – not even her family knew where she was – they thought she was in a mental health unit but she was in Arohata – how many other women are sent to jail for being suicidal.  There has been no change to this, it is still happening, the people who read and write this report know it is and do absolutely nothing.  This woman comes from an abusive family and is forced to continue living with her disturbed parents because there is nowhere else to live.

 

Every time the authors of this report dump government responsibility for seriously ill suicidal people on their families I won’t make further comment – what is the point.   I would like to point out however that many of the people I know who are suicidal have abusive families, who somehow get more support and acknowledgement from government, society, community and others than those they have often driven to suicide.  My family were hopeless and often said revolting things to me about being a loser and not working when they said I could – having not ever read any of the psychiatric reports I had that said differently.  But really they were victims too.

 

In fact the plethora of help for friends and family of suicidal victims has become obscene – because these are the people that often let the victim down.  But of course the big picture of this is that neo-liberal terrorists in government perpetrate this dysfunction in society to create jobs – to replace manufacturing jobs we once had.  Along with the extensive welfare culture we once had, which wasn’t often needed because we had such a socially aware and supportive government and society.

As more suicidal support for community has been implemented the persecution, degradation, discrimination and marginalisation of suicidal people has vastly increased.  There are people who know what is happening and do nothing to stop it – the majority of course don’t realise the serious harm they are causing – these are mostly poorly qualified or informed mental health professionals (especially GPs) who get so much power in this industry, when they are the ones making money out of it.

 

The information systems government is developing is being used to persecute disabled, mentally injured abuse victims, mentally ill and suicidal even more than ever.  There is a current programme of denying mentally ill women/parents support services and stealing their children instead.  Often to put in the hands of abusive family members who then get paid for having them.   I know of several instances of this and it is destroying families.

 

I am still only at page 9 of the Strategy and up to page 37 of my submission.  It is getting more and more difficult every hour to keep going.  However I must, nothing will change if I don’t keep telling the truth over and over and over again.  This is my role as a United Nations Civil Society Actor – a role I am persecuted/degraded/discredited by police, justice, health providers, leaders and members of my community for doing.   Which of course is a serious violation of my civil and political rights, sadly the United Nations also refuse to believe what I am saying and I cannot get a lawyer or appropriate person to put together the proof of what is happening to me.

 

TURNING THE SHARED VISION INTO ACTION

 

My website solutions page shows what should be done and is not, my website shows all the currently laws being violated to ensure this vision is not turned into action.  ACC and Paula Rebstock are leaders in stopping disabled mentally injured abused men women and children from getting extensive rehabilitation and care they are entitled to under law.  It is a sick sick organisation and those who control care for abuse victims are worse than any perpetrator of the abuse they have suffered.

 

Again government organisations controlled by neo-liberal terrorists who fundamentally believe all health & social issues should be funded and controlled by charity are behind this continued obsession with community being responsible to the horrendous harm their cult ideologies are causing.

How we need to work –

 

Government need to provide professional rehabilitation models, human living environments (ie safe stable housing in community person identifies/comes from) – ACTIVITIES doesn’t even make sense.  I can assure you NO SUICIDAL PERSON EVER GOES TO A suicide prevention ACTIVITY.  In fact marketing and activities government and community currently do make me even more suicidal and self-harm, they are so hypocritical and just lies – there are no professional services for majority of us and that’s a fact.  Neither is their safe stable housing or enough money to live rotting on welfare with dignity.  The assault on human dignity of disabled and poor by neo-liberal terrorists in our society is leading cause of suicide, violence, addiction and murder from my extensive study.

 

Bringing up the Treaty is offensive – this is not a race issue it is a class issue.  Maori suffered most at hands of neo-liberal terrorism because they were biggest part of poor working class.  They also have not adapted well to the new jobs we are supposed to do slaving for rich people, in call centres, making lattes, in welfare, health etc – rather than doing meaningful manufacturing work that was interesting and had a strong communal aspect.

 

Maori just being treated same as Pakeha in regard to suicide, which is of course Article III of the treaty.  In fact from personal experience Maori get more services, because a counsellor I had in Wainuiomata sat across from me in an extremely distraught state and said she hoped I wasn’t offended if she asked if I had any Maori heritage because she could get me some help if I did.  I didn’t – my spiritual beliefs and connection to the earth aren’t counted because I am fourth generation English immigrant.

 

Areas we need to work on.

 

The idea that mental health care is evidence based makes me want to be sick – that is not true, we used to have safe stable homes for people, jobs and enough money to live with dignity on welfare when disabled – that has been taken away over the past 30 years.  

 

The corruption by extremely wealthy drug companies has been a terrible and harmful experiment, where human contact and methods of support that worked were taken away in favour of medication.  There is a world wide backlash on the abuse of psychotropic drugs – which although helpful to some people are extremely detrimental and cause suicide in others.  They are about as damaging as phone counselling by people who hang up when they realise your living situation is extremely traumatising and there is nothing they can do about that.

 

Area that needs to be worked on is justice for people disabled by abuse, trauma and mental illness.  So they can take cases against our government and NGOs in the way they are experimenting on people and not applying professional treatment and rehabilitation models.

 

On page 10 I found the comment about how charities were going to fund this extremely inappropriate.  Again this is a neo-liberal cult ideology that has no basis in fact and causes extreme poverty and huge gaps in service provision.  The government and community currently cause the suicide this strategy says it is trying to prevent and here they are saying the same people should fix what they create and what government choose to do to people.

 

Charity and religious organisations SHOULD NEVER EVER be involved in professional care of mentally ill people EVER.  Churches are the worst exploiters of mentally injured and ill, making them work for free or be rejected if they don’t.  I don’t want to go into how badly Salvation Army and churches have treated me, but it has caused huge problems in my community with the gossip and lies they spread.  I have tried to address and resolve the issues because they are one related to the Privacy Act but they refuse to do it and I can’t get a lawyer to help me – I am so traumatised by what was done.  I would have had a safe home to live in if the Salvation Army worker hadn’t lied about her contact with me and told a great aunt of mine who then refused me one of the dozens of homes she had.  She’s dead now and her estate is managed by her family who always despised me and don’t want to know about my struggles – because I JUST DON’T WANT HELP apparently.  I couldn’t afford their huge rents now anyway.

 

Targeted activities of groups might suicide is a joke – I am suicidal regularly, I self harm, bulimic, etc etc etc – I GET NO SERVICES.  I’m told I should have services, but when I try to access them I’m rejected over and over again.  This of course is psychological torture, which people like Andrew Curtis-Cody and those at ACC who are refusing to reinstate my care really enjoy on some depraved level.

 

As we all know prisons are now mental health facilities after neo-liberals drove so many out of mental health facilities and shut them down.  That of course is persecution of people on the basis of their disability – but justice agencies and judiciary in New Zealand refuse to address this gross miscarriage of justice.  With all the bottom of the cliff services, every day I see on Corrections twitter feed the services criminals are getting, while me and other victims get NOTHING or worse.  Another gross miscarriage of justice and insult to victims of violent crimes.

 

 I see worthless suicidal abused men women & children who have white skin colour are again going to be excluded from any new funding or services – YIPPEE for us.  But then as services are abusive I feel sorry for those who are going to be subjected to them – or maybe they will get the help and homes they should have.  But for me and others it will be more suffering and more suicide.

 

This obsession with money and targeting, when all people should have the health care they are entitled to is sickening and has done absolutely nothing to improve services.  It just makes it worse for those who aren’t targeted.

 

Tailoring activities – should read, applying professional rehabilitation models using a multi-disciplinary team of health professionals and community organisations.  Obviously nobody who participated in the writing of this strategy has any idea what Occupational Therapy is and how it works.

 

Our corrupt government tried to use OTs in WINZ to provide services but they failed because the people were completely overwhelmed and could do nothing about unsafe living situations, homelessness and complex needs that needed addressing.  Now they have got an Australian company to provide some services to mentally ill people to get them back to work through some sort of social share scheme – which of course will not work either.  I contacted this organisation recently and the person couldn’t even tell me the rehabilitation model they were using – because they aren’t using one.

 

Another point to make is most people are terrified of mental health services – as I am.  They are more powerful than police and can persecute you without restraint using medication.  They can lock you up for as long as they like without legal recourse – I trust police more than mental health services and that’s saying something (after being assaulted and victimised by police).

 

The group of CYFS kids are being denied the extensive treatment care and rehabilitation they are entitled to under ACC.  Corrupt neo-liberals in government have pushed this onto Social Workers in CYFS, which is extremely inappropriate and not legal.  Social workers should be part of a multi-disciplinary team but not be doing counselling, psychology work or anything like that, they should just arrange housing, welfare etc.  This is the most major failure and abuse of the current experimental system.

 

I cant go into the stories I have heard of first hand accounts of what is happening to mentally ill people being persecuted in the justice system and jails – it is too traumatising for me.  But I hope to one day have a voice in this area and get these disabled people out of prisons and into the homes and treatment they are entitled to under law.

 

Page 12, all just rhetoric and repeat, means absolutely nothing.  The corrupt and ignorant training of health providers is the biggest cause of suicide in this country – as we see from all the people who committing suicide inside mental health and justice facilities.

 

People are being trained to harm not help people, they are trained to drug people and ignore the fact their living situations are a significant cause of their suicidality.

 

I bet more help will come for families who are often instrumental in the suicide of someone – that’s the easiest thing to do.

 

REPEAT REPEAT REPEAT

 

Saying the same thing over and over again doesn’t make it right, or professional, or valid.  Repeating the same thing over and over again doesn’t make it work, when it obviously isn’t working.

 

Please don’t do more marketing and tell more lies about people being depressed when it is in fact severe trauma they are suffering as a result of neo-liberal terrorism of poorest by richest and all that goes with that.  Building social awareness is creating more bigotry and hatred not less – I know, I live that nightmare every day.

 

Marketing campaigns make me want to smash my TV and keep me at home in bed on days like White Ribbon day or I flip out at the gross hypocrisy of government propaganda around this issue.  Just because you marketing that there are services and help doesn’t mean you actually do it – this is what is happening in other neo-liberal countries as well.  Governments are underfunding services they say they provide, violating laws and nobody does anything to stop it.  People like me try and end up being shafted and persecuted by police and justice agencies for legally protesting.

 

Any attempt I make a discussing suicide in the community is met with abuse and police intimidation – which of course violates my civil and political rights and proves yet again we no longer live in a democracy – which follows word of law.

 

I was gobsmacked when I saw it is part of the strategy to control New Zealand media and demand they only do stories of people who are not very unwell and overcome suicidal behaviour.  While as I know from all my begging media to tell my story and how bad the mental health system is, that they adhere to this government demand and censor what I know, do, say and what is happening to me.  Google my Journalists are Maggots poem, it sets out what I know to be true about New Zealand mainstream corporate media.

 

They block me at any opportunity when I tell them what they and other neo-liberals are doing is driving people to suicide violence addiction and murder.

 

I tried to talk to some people after Chelsea’s suicide couple of weeks ago, the conversation caused me more trauma.  Apparently as soon as a person has decided to suicide there is no stopping them, so there is nothing we can do.  This from a woman with a house, job, home, husband and everything she could possibly want in her life – and so do her kids.   Unlike what Chelsea had, comments that she was always an emotional girl didn’t help me one bit.  Being a sensitive, kind, loving child or person shouldn’t be an excuse for driving someone to suicide or not helping them.  These people are valued by society in other ways, but not by our current leaders and majority of population.

 

Someone on social media said recently how suicidal people were just weak.  My reply was, do you think a car accident, illness, rape or repeated violence makes a person strong?  Given 20% of poorest NZers experience 80% of the crime according to statistics it is reasonable to assume these people are becoming more and more traumatised.  Stress disorders becoming compounding when there is no space or place to heal in between traumas.  Please google Compounding Complex PTSD.  Many people I meet on social media don’t even realise they have CPTSD as our corrupt ignorant poorly trained neo-liberal mental health community like to call people’s dysfunction all sorts of other things.  This makes their dysfunction of their own making and those in power think it absolves them of responsibility.

 

 They talk about health literacy, I have been studying stress disorders, disability, law, human rights etc etc full time (mostly 7 days a week) for years.  I went to university and studied health, disability and rehabilitation where I learnt all the language.  It made me more suicidal when I realised even more acutely that mentally injured abuse victims and mentally ill were being left out of the disability definition.  That there are significant areas of health care people like myself are excluded from on the basis of discrimination and the type of disability they have.  When I challenged human rights organisations about this I was told government were allowed to because they did it to all people with mental health issues.

Talking about suicide in schools just traumatises children and creates more stigma, a child who has had a well balanced upbringing with little trauma will never understand a suicidal child – because you never contemplate suicide and don’t know how others can.  I had never contemplated suicide until 2 years after the rape when I had suffered such severe medical neglect and discrimination/abuse by ACC, government, health providers, family and friends.

People who suffer childhood abuse often do not understand life without being suicidal – I do because I wasn’t raped and traumatised until I was in my 30s.  I know the difference between functional and dysfunctional, that is why I fight so hard to expose this gross miscarriage of justice.  How can you have a health and welfare system that is abusive towards the most vulnerable desperate and often deserving people in our society.  When you have a physical injury or acceptable health issue like Cancer or heart disease you are not insulted, degraded and harmed when receiving or asking for health care you are entitled to – like you are in trauma and other mental health issues.

 

Page 17 REPEAT REPEAT REPEAT

Still blaming families and society for social problems caused by rampant and abusive neo-liberal economic and social ideologies. 

Councils are some of the worst, Carterton council are interesting, they charge such high rents for public space no poor or disabled person could afford to hire them to have meetings.  They are building another community house but I don’t know why because they have now sold off all social housing and rich city people and foreigners are moving to Carterton therefore driving disabled and poor out of the community. 

 

It is extremely bizarre watching the flashing community sign talking about food bank being open 11.30-12pm weekdays when nobody I know would use those people.  I was humiliated and degraded so badly when I asked for some food a few years ago I would never ever go back ever.  I don’t want to go into details as I become traumatised, I did try and make a complaint and get it sorted but the local Mayor John Booth and others refused to listen to anything I had to say and just ignored my complaints.

 

Regarding bullying please google my poem I’m Being Bullied – JR Murphy.  Apparently you can only bully children not adults and of course no government or social agency would bully anybody – very sad people think this way.  The significant amount of bullying I have been subjected to has significantly increased my suicidal thoughts because I can’t get away from it – unless I live under my bed and don’t come out.  You only need to see my police file and my only criminal conviction at 52 is wilful trespass of the Law Society for going there and refusing to leave until I got a lawyer to stop ACC and NZ government agencies from persecuting me and denying me professional health care and welfare I am entitled to by law.

 

CHURCHES SHOULD NOT BE INVOLVED IN PROVIDING MENTAL HEALTH SERVICES – AND SHOULD ONLY BE INVOLVED IF SUICIDAL PERSON IS SUPPORTED BY OCCUPATIONAL THERAPIST OR MENTAL HEALTH WORKER – until it is established that the church is safe.  It is a sad fact that many churches harbour sexual abusers, in New Zealand most of these organisations were not investigated or prosecuted for it like other countries.  Most likely that has something to do with our community leaders being involved with churches – Bill English is a strict Catholic from all accounts.  And for anybody who knows the bible proof that the devil is in charge in these last days.

 

Churches exploit desperate people and demand they provide care to others when they themselves need help.  I’ve had it happen and watched it happen, then when you can’t live up to their demands they discredit and gossip about you in the community – causing you even more trauma and discrimination.  I hope to one day have the opportunity to get what has happened to me exposed in media and put before a judge in order for them to be punished for what they have done to me.

 

Strengthen systems will involve even more persecution by police and justice agencies at the hands of systems that are based on experimental and abusive ideologies of neo-liberals and right wing extremists.  Nothing referred to on page 18 actually happens – even though the previous Strategy said the same thing – things have only got worse, much worse.

 

Also using people who are mentally ill and issue ridden to try and support vulnerable unwell suicidal people is extremely inappropriate and abusive.  Would you be happy with your heart surgeon performing an operation when you knew he could drop dead at any moment from heart failure?

 

Peer support only works if the peers are well healed and stable people – most are not, most have serious unresolved issues.  Many have extensive support systems and trying to support people who don’t just makes them hate the suicidal person.  I recall one of the many meetings I went to where mental health services were explaining their services – which of course I had no access to.  There were around 80 people in the room, when I asked the woman beside me why nobody was question the people up the front she said most of us are NGOs we can’t say anything.  Those NGOs had bought their favourite well supported clients with them and they weren’t saying anything either.  When I spoke up about just how bad services were I was abused across the room by a mentally ill man, telling me I was a liar and everybody was very nice.  It was extremely disturbing and those people who were up the front of that meeting are still running Wairarapa mental health today and killing people, persecuting people, etc.

 

When you go to a decent doctor or health professional about being suicidal or having a life-threatening stress disorder usually initially they are very nice and do their best to help.  Once they realise how much support you need and how it is not available, plus the abusive situation you are living in they then turn on you.  I don’t want to say more than that as I have had so many appalling situations happening with GPs particularly.  Currently I am unable to see the GP, who is one of the most insulting, degrading and bigoted women I have ever met.  I didn’t have a choice, my previous doctor left and ————-  no I can’t tell details.  But I can say I have other serious health issues, including my mental health and I cannot see a doctor.  The doctor, ACC mental health and the government know this, they know I need my mental health/ACC care reinstated so I have a support worker to come with me to medical appointments but they refuse to reinstate.  I  made complaints about discrimination by the current doctor and was discredited and ignored.  My Health and Disability Commission advocate has tried repeatedly to get me help to no avail.  My complaints to the HDC are ignored and I am discredited for telling the truth.

 

I cannot see anything different but the repeated rhetoric and lies in the rest of the Strategy and I can’t take any more repeating what I know in response to this appalling piece of propaganda and marketing so I will end my submission.

 

Please refer to the following documents on my website.  If you require me to send these by email please advise and I will hunt them out in the bowels of my hard drive.  These documents are to form part of my submission.

 

Last by not least what a waste of a day, off to self-harm to cope, it will take me days to get over this, having to bring up so much of the discrimination and corruption I see and have seen.  I truly hope and pray with all my heart those harming me and others and causing this nightmare of hell that is driving people to suicide get the punishment and karma they deserve.

 

http://www.jrmurphypoet.com/rehabilitation-business-plan/

 

This has rehabilitation models, Whare Tapa Wha, Te Whariki, business plans and other essential information that needs to be part of this submission.

 

http://www.jrmurphypoet.com/nz-laws-requiring-treatment-care-rehabilitation-of-abuse-victims/

 

This page proves what I am saying about the laws being violated and the extent of corruption and criminal neglect by our legislature, executive and judiciary in the area of mental health.  We do not live in a democracy with a separation of powers and under word of law, of that I am entirely sure.

I hope you all rot in hell for what you have allowed and continue to perpetrate against disabled abused men women and children, suicidal and mentally ill.

 

30 May 2017

 

 

 

Note if you phone police about my truthful comments about suicide they will only phone me, because they are not allowed to come to my house any longer as I had become so traumatised by their constant invasions of my home.  I was having nightmares and checking every time I heard a car in the street it got so bad.  Anyway that is another story – police should not be my enemy, I am a single disabled woman I need there protection not to be terrified of them.

 

 

 

I am too traumatised to proof read what I have written and need to send it, so I apologise for any grammatical or spelling errors, please don’t let them detract from the facts and ideas I have presented.

 

I was wrong & so was Mike King – WE NEED AN OCCUPATIONAL THERAPIST

I was thinking last night that in fact I don’t agree with Mike King saying the promises in the Suicide Prevention Strategy aren’t quantifiable.  All that needs to happen is a good Occupational Therapist – like my old one Glenda, to make up a plan.  I’ll have a go in next few days.

That’s really what an occupation therapist does, looks first at the outcomes the person and government want, then work backwards from their to ensure it happens using professional rehabilitation models.  I studied them at university, I know they exist.

I also know by not using a professional rehabilitation model they are experimenting on people – and that is illegal under Human Rights Act and International law.  I’ve written to ACC telling them this and saying I do not agree with being experimented on and to provide me professional rehabilitation immediately.  Was ignored of course.

 

Begging for Care, Mike King is right, its all bullshit when comes to suicide

My lawyer asked for this as evidence in my upcoming court case for misuse of telephone for begging for help and legally protesting - its more proof what Mike King is saying is true and that our government are corrupt and not doing what any of their mental health documents promise.  People at the top say one thing, people at the cliff face do exactly the opposite!

Restoration of  Care – JR

 Any services I receive must follow professional treatment and rehabilitation models which are based on the Whare Tapa Wha and Te Whariki cultural models.  Along with the Fence At The Top Of The Cliff rehabilitation model (Appendix A).

 The refusal to follow these models in my case is the cause of my most severe dysfunctional behaviours and why I have been unable to work or participate in my community as I did before my mental injury.

 My other requirement of any treatment or rehabilitation is they be ‘medication free’, which I have said for the past 15 years.  This is a fundamental religious and ethical belief of mine and I will not compromise on it, nor do I have to according to human rights law.  My rehabilitation plan in 2009 was based on this and I had the full support of Dr Doris. 

 My top priority is to get my own psychiatrist, in 15 years I have never had any long term access to one – considering how many police welfare visits I have had, and visits from the CATT team – along with how suicidal I have been at multiple times I should have.  Complex PTSD is what I have (not what Dr Doris has said) it is a very dangerous disorder and the majority of people do commit suicide according to American reports I have read.  (I am on social media doing research regularly and keep myself well informed in the area of treatment for PTSD.)

 I thought Dr Doris was my psychiatrist after care was given to me in 2009, but when I tried to see him 5 months into my rehabilitation to discuss residential care for six weeks as PART of my rehabilitation I wasn’t allowed to.  Apparently he had only been employed to do a one off report.  He was not consulted when ACC withdrew all my care – saying my mental health issues were a consequence of a personality disorder and not a disorder as a result of the rape.  This was overturned following two ACC reviews in 2010/2011– but still ACC refuse to reinstate my care and its 2017.

 Dr Doris was not consulted when ACC withdrew my care and none of my health professionals or others in the community I worked with agreed with what they were doing.  My Occupational Therapist Glenda van der ven Long even phoned the Minister of Health about the situation – knowing how suicidal and dysfunctional I would be as a result of the sudden and complete withdrawal of such an extensive multi-disciplinary rehabilitation team.

 When I met Dr Doris again at another assessment in Wellington ACC demanded I do after winning the first review, he said he thought he was my psychiatrist and wondered why he had not heard what was going on.  I was very distraught when he told me this because I had also thought the same and had tried to contact him but ACC wouldn’t let me.

 In ANY treatment or rehabilitation model – with a person who has a life-threatening condition – there would be a specialist – why have I never had one of those?  Other assessments have either lead to rejection and misdiagnosis, ie DHB mental health services psychiatrist and nurses.  Or been done for the court to establish my ability to understand proceedings during a criminal case (of me protesting) – an insult.

 I will only accept a psychiatrist recommended by Dr Alan Doris (who now works in Australia) or Dr Mason Drury as these men follow the cultural health models I have referred to above.  While studying rehabilitation and health at Massey University several years ago I came across Dr Drury’s work (I didn’t finish my studies as I became very unwell due to my disorder – something I intend to rectify as part of my rehabilitation).

 The Te Whariki model I studied when doing education papers as a Playcentre mother.  I completely identified with its principles and could see how these would easily adapt to all areas of education, including tertiary.  Under the Principles of ACC legislation the objective is to return the person as close as possible to their pre-injury state – in 15 years ACC have never adhered to this basic principle of the law.  I have tried on many occasions – they have not been supported and my file will show my repeated requests for education support to return to university.

 There is much more to my education story that I will not go into here, it upsets me too much.  I love university, love being there, learning, sharing, love being around intelligent people.

 I want to see Jenny Kirby Counsellor and arrange for her to go with me to the new psychiatrist – as I trust her (trust is extremely important in any relationship I have). 

 Due to the way ACC cut my care in 2009 I want a legal agreement signed that they will NOT withdraw any of my care without the agreement of my psychiatrist and Occupational Therapist.  I cannot participate fully in the rehabilitation process if I believe they are going to illegally withdraw care at any time as they did before – that was cruel and was like being thrown out of a six story building, causing me considerable harm, distress, suicidal ideology, police contact and so much suffering and dysfunction (when I still had my kids at home).

 Once these three things happen I am extremely concerned for my welfare as I don’t know how my psychy is going to respond to getting care I have so desperately needed and begged for for so long.  Contingency plans need to be sorted during our first meeting IF I become extremely unwell at this time.  I have been told so many times my care would be reinstated or provided and it has not, it is an extreme trigger for me – anything to do with hope of getting help I need to get back to work and a safe stable home is.

 NEXT PHASE

 Reinstate a suitable local mental health Occupational Therapist as should have been done for years but ACC said there was nobody available – or who would do it.

 From there I need a full medical as I have several physical health issues that have not been dealt with for several years because my mental health had become so severe.  My ability to communicate with doctors and other health providers was significantly impaired – especially if I had lost trust in the person, or had been degraded by them.  Recently I was forced to go for a test at a free clinic in Wellington because my Carterton doctor refused to allow me to see the nurse?  More than three years ago I was told I have to have tests regarding my kidney/bladder issues, when I said I couldn’t go because my mental health was too bad and needed a mental health worker (like what I am supposed to have under ACC) to go with me – as I don’t have any friends of family who can go or understand my disorder – I was ignored by nurse and multiple doctors.  So my kidney issues have got much worse, I am in pain all the time, often have bladder infections, feel sick a lot, told the doctor but she just ignores the fact I can’t go because of my disability.  she has been told by local mental health services that I’m a time-waster and liar and not to listen to anything I say.

 My weight has become another burden and my OT (or mental health worker) supported attendance at a gym would be reinstated (this is community care I had in 2009, which was very important to me & many aspects of my social rehabilitation).  I have been told other people in the community get mental health worker supported gym attendance but not me as an ACC claimant – which I find extremely distressing.  I believe I am now so fat I am getting diabetes, I often feel sick and thirsty all the time, I can’t see doctor about it because of how badly she has treated me in the past.  I would rather die than go to another doctor as it would have to be outside the region and I just can’t afford it.

 I would have a mental health worker for a determined number of hours every week, this person should act as a social worker as well to sort out my living arrangements – which are not condusive to a safe place to heal from my mental injury.  If you don’t feel safe in your home and are in constant fear of being forced to move you cannot rehabilitate.  Provision of safe stable housing for disabled people is also a part of the ACC, welfare, disability and human rights laws.  I have had to move 9 times since I was raped, because of unsafe situations or poverty, 4 x in a 12 month period, it is now an extreme trigger for me and makes me very unwell (eg highly suicidal & bulimic).

 Due to the impacts of my stress disorder there is one thing that happens to you that is a positive – you become highly creative.  Medically what happens is you have far greater blood flow to your right (creative) brain and out of your left.  As I was trespassed from King Street Artworks for doing political art and being upset about being censored I have been unable to get help to realise many of my creative projects.  I am considered a talented poet, I write songs and plays but communication and organisational impairments related to my disorder prevent me from realising my full potential.  It is a cause of great distress that I cannot do this myself but I have tried and failed so many times I cannot do it any longer without considerable distress and becoming highly suicidal when I fail yet again.

 I am also a graffiti artist, painter, sculptor and crafts person.

 Due to all my study over the past 15 years I also consider myself a lay-expert in the area of traumatic stress disorders, related law and human rights.  Being able to work in this area as well would be an important goal in my rehabilitation – no point wasting all that valuable knowledge.  This is important when the government are going to be putting more money into SOCIAL INVESTMENT – which is what my rehabilitation/care is all about.  And my greatest concern is it will mean more people being putting under Mental Health Act and forcibly drugged to keep them quiet, rather than healing them.

 Before I was hurt I was very involved in my community, part of several clubs, eg Toastmasters, holding many positions including President.  This must be a part of my rehabilitation that I can participate in these things again.  I have become more and more reclusive following situations where I have been put in danger, traumatised or discriminated against.

 Until I can get back to work I am never going to be accepted by majority of my community or my family.

 The care I am describing above should have been provided 15 years ago according to ACC law and it would have been able to be much less, but so long without it has damaged me so much more it will take a long time to recover.  This of course is illegal under the Crimes Act, you are not allowed to omit care and the person be harmed because of it.  But maybe when I am well I can address the hell I have been subjected to by those who were supposed to help me.