Category Archives: Emails & letters to politicians & others

Request Christopher Finlayson to allow prosecution for torture by ACC

 


From: JR
Sent: Wednesday, 8 March 2017 9:34 p.m.
To: c.finlayson@parliament.govt.nz
Subject: Request of Attorney-General to allow prosecution under Crimes of Torture Act 1988

Dear Mr Finlayson,

I have been advised in order to take a case of torture against ACC I am forced to get your agreement under law.

This is a formal request to allow me to take a private prosecution against ACC on the basis they have tortured me for the past 15 years by refusing to provide the PROFESSIONAL treatment care and rehabilitation I am entitled to under the IPRCA.  That in 2009 after 7 1/2 years of requesting these services I did begin to get a professional multi-disciplinary rehabilitation team of people and professional plan that was supposed to last 2 1/2 years but was illegally stopped after six months against the advice of all medical professionals and others involved in my care.

That although I have won two ACC reviews to have this care reinstated, ACC continue to tell me at regular intervals care is going to be reinstated then refuse to do it, which is extreme torture and makes me highly suicidal and unwell.  They also refuse to accept they have significantly harmed me as a consequence of their actions.  They violate government  disability directives, along with Human Rights and Bill of Rights acts by refusing to accommodate communication and other impairments I have related to my worsening stress disorder which prevents me from accessing any services or receiving other monetary entitlements, even when my disorder is life-threatening.

ACC do not use professional rehabilitation models and are therefore experimenting on me – it is illegal under Human Rights and Bill of Rights to experiment on people and I have complained about this multiple times.  I have been unable to get a civil legal aid lawyer in New Zealand, according to multiple lawyers there is nobody that does this type of law now – even though I know the Magna Carta ensures I do receive access to right and justice and the government is not allowed to destroy me – which they have.

I am currently under ACC for the sensitive claim, but receive no services, I have received limited and intermittent counselling since 2009 but no professional rehabilitation that resembles reinstatement of the care I had in 2009.   I have attempted multiple times to organise communication options with ACC but they refuse.  Currently they are refusing to allow me access to counsellor Jenny Kirby who I have asked to be a mediator in my case with ACC as I have been told by multiple advocates I need a lawyer and I cannot get a lawyer as I become highly suicidal having to recount my situation over and over again when the majority of lawyers are too busy to represent me.

I have made continual complaints to ACC which are ignored, I have the support of Dr Alan Doris psychiatrist, Jenny Kirby Counsellor, and Occupational Therapist Glenda van der ven Long.  Currently ACC are prosecuting me for Misuse of a Telephone for phoning them screaming for help when I was very unwell, begging them to reinstate my care as they continually say they will but then refuse.

This is extremely urgent and important as I desperately need to heal from my mental injury so I can return to work and be in a safe and stable home, with hope for the future.

​Can you please advise that you have received this email and when you will be responding to it.

Sincerely

JR

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I honestly believe he will ignore my request as I know how deeply corrupt/immoral/uncivilised he is and the extent of his radicalised neo-liberal terrorist beliefs that advance rich, disadvantage middle class and persecute people who cannot work at 100% productivity.

 

Health & Disability Commission – Terrorists of NZs disabled poor

Am currently formally retrieving information from multiple agencies for my upcoming court case, those who have refused to resolve or do anything about government health agencies refusing me professional treatment and rehabilitation or ensuring necessaries of life – ie a safe stable home to live in.

Thought I’d post the email I sent them today – HDC have already tried once to not provide the information by saying I hadn’t explained myself clearly – which I had.  Its one of the techniques they use to stop disabled people from progressing serious complaints – so watch out if you do use HDC, they will do anything they can to stop the process and make you feel stupid.

Sent: Sunday, 5 February 2017 9:53 a.m.
To: Margee Do
Subject: Re: OIA Request

Dear Ms Do,

Due to impairments related to my disorder I cannot go over the years of rejections Health & Disability Commission subjected me to, when I knew my rights, was being persecuted and denied professional health and rehabilitation models/services by multiple agencies.  However can I please have a letter from the Commissioner stating which organisations I complained about on what dates and that NONE of my complaints were ever resolved.

My HDC advocate from Nationwide HDS is sending me everything she did over the past decade to try and get me professional services without success and it will advance my legal case to have Health and Disability Commission confirm they refused to believe any of my valid and serious complaints even when Nationwide were unable to resolve them and was fully supportive of how badly I was being treated – but could do nothing without your backup.

I am also getting complaints I made to Human Right Commission, Tribunal, ACC, Salvation Army, Oasis Network, King Street Artworks, Wairarapa DHB, Ombudsman and Auditor-General that failed to uphold my rights or accept what was happening to me was a criminal violation of my human rights to professional health care.

It makes me unwell when I think those health care agencies supposed to help me persecute me instead and deny me care I am entitled to under law – but it makes me even more unwell when I know how corrupt cruel immoral and criminally negligent those who supposed to protect me from this are.  All those poor disabled abuse victims and mentally ill people in this country you are torturing (as defined by the Torture Suppression Act), who are living in misery, draining or harming those around them who also can’t cope, killing themselves or killing others – that is your fault, you people are murderers, cruel violent murderers.

My latest formal complaint is to the Privacy Commissioner, a second one about a mental health advocacy worker from Oasis.  Who told a woman I have just got to know that she couldn’t help me I was too unwell - I only wanted two things, for her to talk to police and get them to backoff (this was when things were bad and I was having nightmares they were coming to get me), she told me I should stop protesting/exercising my rights if I wanted this.  I also asked her to find and arrange for me to learn Maori weaving and Tukutuku and it ended up with her abusing me saying I was demanding too much of her.  The first complaint I made about her last year for violating my privacy and going to DHB mental health services when she said she wouldn’t and knew how I felt about them – she did and responded to me with an abusive text – was discredited and unresolved by Oasis etc.

You must know how many people like me you are rejecting (cause I hear horror story after horror story about dealings with your agency – everybody I know has given up and stopped making complaints of harm) how can you sleep at night knowing the suffering and death you cause in our society?

Sincerely

JR

Civil Society Actor

HUMAN SEWAGE


From: Margee Do <Margee.Do@hdc.org.nz>
Sent: Monday, 30 January 2017 11:38 a.m.
Subject: Re: OIA Request

Dear Ms Routhan

Thank you for your clarification. We will respond to your request in due course.

Sincerely

Margee Do ‐Legal Team Administrator
Office of the Health and Disability CommissionerPO Box 11934, Wellington 6142Level 11, TechnologyOne House, Wellington 6011
Ph: (04) 494 7900
Email: Margee.Do@hdc.org.nz


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(HAVE YOU NOTICED HOW HDC ARE TRYING TO USE THE LAW TO STOP PEOPLE MAKING PUBLIC WHAT THEY DO – OUR CORRUPT GOVT MADE THEM DO THAT – THEY WILL NEVER EVER SILENCE ME – AND IF THEY WANT TO TAKE ME TO COURT FOR MAKING THIS PUBLIC – BRING IT ON!)

To:        Margee Do <Margee.Do@hdc.org.nz>
Date:        30/01/2017 10:52 a.m.
Subject:        Re: OIA Request


Dear Ms Do,

Don’t know how I could be clearer on this matter, are you trying to avoid sending it – do you hope, due to my disability, that I won’t pursue this because that is the usual behaviour I get from agencies trying to hide something horrendous they have done to disabled people.

I want every piece of information and every complaint I have sent to your organisation since 2002, since I was raped and discovered ACC and the NZ government were persecuting and discriminating against mentally injured abused men women and children disabled by their abuse – along with every mentally ill person in New Zealand.  Denying them professional care, professional health and rehabilitation models, ensuring they became more unwell so drug companies could make more money and driving many to crime so they filled up the justice system.

One day the world is going to know what you people have done condoning this violent, torture, persecution of NZs most vulnerable people on the order of radicalised neo-liberal terrorists.

Jayne 


From: Margee Do <Margee.Do@hdc.org.nz>
Sent:
Monday, 30 January 2017 8:53 a.m.
To:
 
Subject:
OIA Request

 
Dear Ms Routhan

I am dealing with the request for information you have sent to this office on 9 January 2017, please can you kindly clarify the scope of your request. You have your requested for:


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      copy of my information
-        all the formal complaints

Did you just want a copy of the complaints you have sent to this Office?

We would appreciate your clarification on this matter on or before 1 Feb 2017.

Many thanks


Margee Do ‐
Legal Team Administrator
Office of the Health and Disability Commissioner

PO Box 11934, Wellington 6142Level 11, TechnologyOne House, Wellington 6011
Ph: (04) 494 7900
Email: Margee.Do@hdc.org.nz


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From:        
Jayne Routhan <jrouthan@hotmail.co.nz>
To:        
Health & Disability Commission <hdc@hdc.org.nz>
Date:        
19/01/2017 10:18 a.m.
Subject:        
Privacy Act request for a copy of my file


Dear Sir/Madam,

Under the Privacy Act can you please send me a copy of my information and all the formal complaints I have made to the Health and Disability Commission since approximately 2002 – they are required for a criminal case.  Can you please advise if I will receive this information in the next 20 working days as required by law.

Thank you

JR
Civil Society Activist
HUMAN SEWAGE
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Open letter to Paula Bennett MP – NZs most violent abuser of disabled poor

The radicalised disturbing deceit and denial coming from people like Paula Bennett,  who has spent the past 8 years passing law after law to oppress, destroy, degrade and persecute 10,000s of this country’s most disabled and vulnerable citizens is frightening.

With everything I have learnt over past 15 years about psychology, basic instinct, history and human behaviour it is apparent to me the leaders of our country (and most of the world) are in the grip of a mass psychosis similar to that which gripped NAZI Germany.  The question is how do I counter this insanity when the very people who are supposed to stop it, ie Human Rights Commission/Tribunal, lawyers, Ministry of Justice, Police etc are standing back pretending its not happening and there is nothing they can do.

Today all I can do is write and tell them what they are doing is immoral and illegal, what they are saying are lies and deluded, that they are killing people and creating unnecessary and generational suffering, discrimination, intolerance, violence, addiction and suicide.  So here was my email response to Paula Bennett – at least I feel some comfort knowing police are not allowed to come to my house any longer and the nightmares have stopped.

Yes, I am telling the truth, yes this is happening in New Zealand.


From: Jayne Routhan <jrouthan@hotmail.co.nz>
Sent: Friday, 9 December 2016 1:52 p.m.
To: paula.bennett@parliament.govt.nz
Subject: Every disabled poor person I know is petrified you will be Deput PM

Dear Ms Bennett,

I’m writing this just to make sure you know what you do to the poorest and most vulnerable 30% of people in this country, mostly disabled, is degrading torture that creates violence, addiction and suicide.  The news reports keep saying you believe yourself to care about New Zealanders – but I live this nightmare you have made much worse in past 8 years, I watch other people living this nightmare which hurts me even more.

Personally when I think of you and just how much you have destroyed my life, while you got everything handed to you on a plate when you were a young mother, I self-harm and become highly suicidal.  The thoughts that come into my head are ones of standing in front of you slitting my wrists and bleeding out - that’s what you want of course, me to commit suicide because I keep telling the truth about how corrupt and criminally negligent the government are after 30 yrs of neo-liberal terrorists (TErrorism Suppression Act definition) running our country into the ground and destroying our Kiwi culture.

You have ignored my pleas for health care and justice I am entitled to under ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and Bill of Rights laws for years – why?  You leave me rotting on welfare, destitute, marginalised and suicidal because you don’t want to provide the health care I am entitled to from ACC – so they have money to invest in business.  ACC is about investing in people who advance our country, I am an intelligent disabled person, I am an expert in stress disorders, constitution laws and many other topics because I live this nightmare and keep myself informed and educated.

I doubt you will get this email because I have realised any emails from people who are telling the truth about those being marginalised and persecuted by the NZ govt and many others are being censored.  I have been in business, the boss is supposed to take the complaints not workers at the bottom.

The idea of you being given more power is an obscenity to me – after what you have done to so many people – I still don’t have a safe house to live in – how could I NAtional sold off all the state houses in Carterton in order to gentrify the town and region.  Only thing that consoles me at the moment is prophecies in the bible that the earths destruction is coming and people like you who advance rich and powerful by persecuting poor and powerless will be removed from the earth.  Then people like myself can get on with creating a peaceful, co-operative, loving society where EVERYBODY has the necessaries of life – like a safe stable home to live in, enough food to eat and respectful human interaction if they choose – those things Abraham Maslow advised in his hierarchy of needs .  Not what you are doing now, to so many, to so many intelligent women, you are truly disturbed.

I could be such an asset to this country, especially in the area of professional rehabilitation for mentally injured abuse and trauma victims.  I could be an asset with my creativity, play writing, poetry and music – but instead you keep me oppressed and traumatised using police, ACC, mental health, NGOs and so many others.  All who tell you they do what the law says and I am a liar – which is not true – what possible reason would I have to lie?  One of the reasons I am suicidal is I don’t work, all I want is to get care I am entitled to and need so I can return to work, so I don’t have to live with suicidal & unsafe people and don’t have to face 40 years of suffering, poverty & homelessness until I am dead.

I don’t understand why you lie about what is happening for people like me?   I do understand why the people I beg for help from do it – mostly because they are paid by government and we all know mental health services are grossly underfunded to the point of criminal negligence and murder.

Sincerely

JR
Civil Society Actor
HUMAN SEWAGE

Anne Tolley MP – Either Corrupt or Seriously Deluded Regarding Abuse Victims

My response to Anne Tolley’s garbage about looking after people who were abused in state care – or anybody who suffered childhood abuse for that matter.

From: JR
Sent: Wednesday, 30 November 2016 9:16 a.m.
To: anne.tolley@parliament.govt.nz
Subject: You are either corrupt or seriously deluded

Your comments about abuse victims in state care – in fact ANY ABUSE VICTIMS – is absolute garbage.  I have been involved in this field for 15 years, all of that time screaming for the professional treatment care and rehabilitation I am entitled to from ACC and being mostly refused (or having it provided then illegally removed).  If I can’t get care I am entitled then no child is every going to.

I talk to dozens of people who say exactly the same as me that the system is corrupt, abusive and psychological torture – it is those of us who do not have well functioning families that are the ones who suffer the most.  You are seriously deluded, your government and neo-liberal obsessed radical terrorist friends know the damage they have caused by not providing what mentally injured abuse victims are entitled to under ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws.

I have six people I know right now who are all suicidal and suffering, all abuse victims 3 women and 3 men.

You disgust me, watched you in the house yesterday, you’ve seen my chalking around Parliament, I’m sure you have seen all my complaints of harm by ACC and others.  I still don’t have a safe house to live in, still petrified my latest flatmate going to hang himself, he barely speaks, there’s something wrong with him – he didn’t like it I asked him to get rid of his dog who kept pooing inside.  I don’t want to live with mentally ill people, I don’t want to live with suicidal people, I don’t want to live with dangerous people who rip me off – even when they are supposed to be under care of NGO!

Why won’t you meet with me, I’ve asked you before – 1 hour and I’ll tell you how bad it is in Carterton.  But then Wairarapa is particularly bad because neo-liberals, mostly National Party, sold off all the state housing in order to gentrify this region – so your rich voter mates have somewhere safe to live.  There will never be anywhere safe while you allow the persecution of so many disabled mentally injured and ill people – you drive these people mad, they used to have state homes to go to, but you stopped all that.  You do realise intelligent people knew why safe stable housing was needed don’t you.  You are seriously disturbed, just like all the other neo-liberal extremist governments around the world who have spent past 30 years advancing rich business people, disadvantaging middle class and persecuting poor.  Driving decent jobs overseas to poor countries with few human rights, violating human rights of disabled people in New Zealand, denying disabled people like myself the necessities of life and leaving me to be harmed and further traumatised – to be marginalised and ostracised because of the situation I am in.

You are a liar, you are ignorant and you refuse to accept what your cruel immoral corrupt government are doing to an entire sector of society.  From my extensive study and research people with histories of abuse seem to be those who are being treated like human sewage – those who become violent particularly (which is an impairment related to their disability according to world experts).  These are the people ending up in jail, harming those around them, addicts and committing suicide.  Of course you love those who harm others and end up in jail, its the ones like me who self-harm and suffer for years rotting on welfare that you despise the most.  What you force police to do to people like me is seriously disturbed, check out my website for what’s happening there.  One day I’m going to get you sickos into a court room – no matter if you leave parliament, what you have done is a crime against humanity for abused and the most vulnerable people in this country.

You are an extremely sick woman – bet you don’t even get this email – that’s why you have staff so you don’t know this pain and suffering you are causing in our communities, for me and so many others.  I have referred you to my website previously, but here it is again, these are the laws, the solutions and the trauma you are causing.

​Sincerely

JR

Civil Society Actor

PERSECUTED WHISTLEBLOWER

HUMAN SEWAGE LIVING IN THE DARKLANDS

Email to John Key – I am an Activist NOT a Terrorist

Good day chalking in Wellington, John Key was out on a walk so I vented and bollocked the fk out of him – called him a fkn murderer stopping people getting mental health services, stopping people from having safe houses to live in, etc – was really hard for me as I was assaulted by his security officers last time.  Was threatened with arrest again by one of them but stood up to him, told me to leave the area, told him NO WAY, PUBLIC STREET AND I WASN’T MOVING AND I HAD EVERY RIGHT TO SWEAR AT HIM!   When I went into question time about an hour later, same officer escorted me and sat directly behind me – its quite amusing now cause I know I’m never going to do anything while in the house, CAUSE I’M AN ACTIVIST NOT A TERRORIST – never have been violent and never will.

Below is the email I sent to John Key in response to today, I like to reassure him, as I know he’s a frightened bully and a coward.


From:
Sent: Tuesday, 29 November 2016 8:58 p.m.
To: John Key
Subject: I am an activist not a terrorist

Hi John,

I swore at you again on the street today and got threatened with arrest by one of your security staff.  If you can’t handle the language of New Zealanders who are being persecuted by your violent, immoral, criminally negligent policies then you shouldn’t be in Parliament.  I’m a NON-VIOLENT activist, doesn’t stop me venting at you verbally and I never threaten harm, unlike your bullies threaten me – I just tell you what you are doing and that I don’t like it.

Reason I ‘lose it’ when I see you, is you have not been listening to me and 100,000s of other struggling New Zealanders – especially those of us who are disabled by abuse, trauma and neglect.  Not having a safe home to live in is abuse/trauma/neglect; not getting the health care I am legally entitled to from ACC etc so I can heal from the rape and return to work is abuse/trauma/neglect; not listening to what I know about the science behind violence, addiction, suicide and stress disorders is abuse/trauma/neglect; being told I am abusive when I politely tell my MP Alastair Schott how bad ‘the system’ is, is abuse/trauma/neglect; not listening to what I know people are entitled to under law & science is abuse/trauma/neglect; having me dragged through court repeatedly for legally protesting in a non-violent way is abuse/trauma/neglect – I could go on…………..

You were the one who stopped my ACC care illegally in 2009, you ordered ACC to dump 10,000s of claimants and you didn’t care how they did it either.  Of course I am angry with you A LOT of people are, but they don’t tell you and your supporters to their face, like I do.  I despise all people who vote National and if I get the opportunity I tell them that they are the ones who vote for the ongoing cruelty – although from watching the house today I’m not sure if your party are even mentally stable any longer.  Only time I cried today was when Nick Smith was going on about how great government have done with housing?  NOT ONE THING he said would help me get a safe house to live in in Wairarapa – as we don’t have state houses here and proceeds from Trust House (sick sick name) all go to extravagant sports and arts projects and business.  How do you expect a person with CPTSD to heal if they aren’t in a safe place – it is impossible?

This email gives John Key the authority to view my ACC, police, justice and medical file – I have nothing to hide, as I’m sure your security team will already know.  Speaking of them, they didn’t like it when I called them aholes as I was leaving the Parliament today, I realised later that was retaliation for the officer who threatened me when I swore at you in the street – which you deserved – please tell them that.

Lots of people don’t like you, but you’re not the worst in Parliament, Bill English, Nick Smith, Christopher Finlayson, Judith Collins, Anne Tolley, Paula Bennett, Simon Bridges and Amy Adams are.

Have you worked it out yet, 30 yrs of neo-liberal terrorists advancing rich, disadvantaging middle class, persecuting disabled poor, driving decent jobs overseas, cutting state housing, selling off public infrastructure, privatising everything possible and putting in hands of greedy immoral people, cutting health care and making welfare SO SO SO degrading has bought us to now and the seething angry resentful ignorant bigoted country we have become.  Trumped again.

Now if I could get the ACC care I am entitled to, or any other of those mental health services you go on about – that don’t actually work and aren’t actually there for disabled people like myself, then maybe I wouldn’t be so angry and ‘lose it’ when I see you.  Before I was raped and treated like human sewage by those agencies who were legally supposed to help me, I seldom swore and definitely not in public – you and your ignorant supporters have driven me to this.

I chalked some things on the footpath outside Supreme court and across from Parliament for you.  A poem called You’re Cruel I’m Blamed (Google it, check out my website jrmurphypoet.com) was very apt after what your security officer said to me.  Plus I made comments about neo-liberals being terrorists and how the judiciary was participating in this cruelty and criminal negligence – that there were laws in this country that say you cannot advance rich at the same time as disadvantaging poor, you are not allowed to destroy people (like you have destroyed me) and everybody must have access to justice, which of course I don’t – unless I get charged with legally protesting, which I will get off AGAIN.  I can only imagine the amount of money I have cost since I was raped by a badly abused child who didn’t get help he was entitled to, would have been lots cheaper to provide me the treatment care and rehabilitation I am entitled to under ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws.  As you know from my website me and 1000s of others already know the solutions, YOU CHOOSE not to do them, sad when I know this could be an international business that could bring peace to so many countries.

I find it EXTREMELY offensive when you (and Nick Smith today) wear the white ribbon when you know you create 80% of this violence by traumatising and degrading people.  You refuse to provide professional and adequate mental health services and facilities, you refuse to provide safe housing (mentally ill have had housing issues for years – and majority of people in state houses were from troubled homes.)  You and your neo-liberal terrorist friends created this, then you make money out of it – ahhh THE VIOLENCE INDUSTRY.

One day you will realise just how much suffering and harm you caused so many people in this country, who did not deserve it.  When history looks back at your time as Prime Minister it will be in disgust at what you and your supporters/controllers did.  Karma

Sincerely

JR

Civil Society Actor

PERSECUTED WHISTLEBLOWER

HUMAN SEWAGE LIVING IN THE DARKLANDS

ACC & Paula Rebstock are Criminally Negligent and Corrupt – New Zealand 2016

Below yet another email begging to have my care reinstated and professional care/rehabilitation provided – I saw on social media a meeting called #integratedcare held in Wellington today, which is really Occupational Therapy (a method of rehabilitation that has been around for decades) and like I have repeatedly called Multi-disciplinary Approach to Rehabilitation which I studied at Massey University 7 years ago.

People are trying to say this is new – its not new – its what should have been happening – and mental health care (especially trauma care after abuse) should never have been excluded like it has been – thanks to corruption ignorance bigotry and general hatred of abuse victims.  If you read over ACC laws you will see good intelligent educated compassionate NORMAL people developed those rehabilitation requirements (based on Occupational Therapy), they are extensive (especially in the area of social rehabilitation) and detailed.  Just ACC doesn’t do it and nobody seems to give a shit that they are violating laws and harming people – which is a crime under NZ Crimes Act.

If you read over disability documents put out by the government you will see they promised integrated care, if you read over human rights, disabled rights, mental health documents they all say this is happening WHEN I KNOW IT IS NOT!  Because I have known what these people were talking about for 15 years and told thousands of people about it I am currently blocked from Ministry of Social Development, White Ribbon campaign, Human Rights Commission, Health and Disability Commission and so many others.  I am denied any care that even resembles an integrated care plan and police bully and threaten me for speaking out about this gross miscarriage of justice against me and 10,000s of others.

I feel disgusting at the moment, have put on so much weight on top of everything else.  Anyway the email.


From: Jayne
Sent: Wednesday, 23 November 2016 4:43 p.m.
To: Complaints ACC; ACC Complaints
Subject: I still havn’t heard from my counsellor about treatment & reinstatement of my rehabilitation

I am very unwell, suffering extreme psychological distress, bombarded with violent suicidal and self-harm thoughts over and over again.  My bulimia is bad, ticking is bad, I am trying to hide it from everybody as much as I can as I don’t want to be threatened, insulted, degraded, abused, forcibly drugged and incarcerated.  My living situation is unsafe and I am still very frightened.  I am still putting on a large amount of weight, I have tried to get help to do some exercise but the person let me down.  I have barely left my bed the past two days I am so unwell.

I have been waiting for many months to see the counsellor Jenny Kirby, she was supposed to phone me, you have not reinstated my rehabilitation similar to that I had in 2009, you have not done anything to ensure I am protected from harm and provided the health care I am entitled to.  You have ignored impairments related to my disability and refuse to support me to even get to Jenny Kirby.  You are violating ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws.  You are causing me to be discriminated against, driving me to suicide and dysfunction, ensuring I am isolated and marginalised in my community – and frightened to participate.  You have made me dependent instead of resilient and you think its a great joke because you saved that corrupt American Paula Rebstock money – but cost me my life and left no hope for my future.  Now I don’t own a home and will never recover from the past 15 years of discrimination, persecution, abuse and psychological torture.

I have noted on social media a large meeting on #integratedcare being held in Wellington today – this is the same as what I studied at University years ago about Multi-disciplinary approach to rehabilitation – which is what my care in 2009 was the beginnings of (that you illegally withdrew against all professional (and my) advice) - I told you that I wanted this type of professional rehabilitation, instead corrupt cruel immoral and criminal negligent people in ACC stopped it from happening.  Why?

Can you please advise Jenny Kirby when I will be receiving professional rehabilitation as required under law and this nightmare of hell will end, so I can get back to a normal life and work?

GOD PLEASE HELP ME.

JR

PERSECUTED WHISTLEBLOWER

HUMAN SEWAGE LIVING IN THE DARKLANDS

 

 

New Zealand Violence Industry run by ESTABLISHMENT liberals – SUPERU CORRUPT

I have come to HATE the word ABUSE, where ignorant passive-aggressive do-gooding liberals use it after they get a well deserved bollocking for condoning and perpetrating serious violence, suffering, discrimination and persecution in our communities.  They take children from their parents who ask for help they entitled to, get police to violently arrest people and prosecute them when disabled, allow justice agencies to ignore, reject and incarcerate people who are being denied professional treatment care and rehabilitation they entitled to, leave disabled abused men women and children to be harmed in the community, etc etc.

Check out the email I got today from SUPERU/Families Commission (who I have been writing to for years begging for help and telling them how bad things are – all ignored) and my response.

From: Events (SUPERU) <Events@superu.govt.nz>
Sent: Friday, 18 November 2016 6:53 a.m.
To: Jayne
Subject: Seminar: Responding to perpetrators of family violence

Dear Jayne,

Thank you for your interest in our upcoming seminar on family violence. Unfortunately, due to abusive comments made to our staff through emails, Facebook and Twitter, we are not able to accommodate you at the seminar. As hosts of the event, it is our role to make sure that both presenters and attendees are in a safe and supportive environment. We do not condone any aggressive or abusive behaviour, especially in a context where we are talking about how to prevent violence.

Regards,

The team at Superu

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From: Jayne
Sent: Friday, 18 November 2016 7:45 a.m.
To: Events (SUPERU)
Subject: Re: Seminar: Responding to perpetrators of family violence

So you monitor my social media (now I know you are aware of the political and government criminal negligence and corruption), then you would have read my website and know that the government is creating the majority of this violence by not providing abuse victims and traumatised people with stress disorders the PROFESSIONAL treatment care and rehabilitation they are entitled to under the New Zealand law.

Your marketing rhetoric equates to nothing but neglect, persecution and abuse in the community and it is quite obvious you condone this violence as it validates your self-righteous bigoted  ’establishment’ liberal political ideologies.  Ewww

It is criminally negligent arrogant ignorant liberal bigots like yourselves that created the American situation where Trump was elected – did you realise that.  You are the epitome of the Democratic establishment and completely out of touch with reality of what poverty and medical neglect of traumatised people is doing in our communities.  We have the worst family violence and teenage suicide statistics in the developed world BECAUSE of your organisation – that is how bad you are.  It still shocks me that you manage to find mental health workers who will validate your work – but then they’re just doing what they’re trained to do.

So many events I go to, the same lies, misinformation and liberal garbage over and over again while people around me suffer and die.  The reason I get so upset of course is because I have an untreated aggravated stress disorder – a disability – but ignorant people like yourselves refuse to acknowledge disability in any of the abused children you gloat you are supporting – when we all know you cause far more trauma than you ever resolve.

I find what you do highly offensive and the rhetoric and lies you espouse exactly the same – I just know how to verbalise it while 10,000s of disabled mentally injured abuse victims don’t.  I know the science and I know you are THE ESTABLISHMENT you create this nightmare of hell for abuse victims so there are jobs for yourselves – since our government drove 100,000s of jobs overseas, what else were people going to do.

I have been fighting this criminal negligence for many years now, watching ‘establishment’ agencies full of do-gooder liberals making things worse year after year – you know that – what I can’t understand is how you expect me not to use the language of my culture after this long.  Swearing of course is part of my disorder now, just as it is with many neglected traumatised people who have no safe homes to live in and beg for help.  From my personal research I see you have stepped up your American do-gooder liberal violent persecution and escalated taking disabled people’s children from them when they ask for help – just like you tried to with my children.  You must be very annoyed you can’t take my children from me as they have left home and are good people living in the community – who know little of my struggles because I would never ever traumatise them with the hell ACC, mental health, police, Human Rights Commission. Ombudsman, NZ government, etc and you cause me – something other disabled abuse victims don’t understand sadly.

Ignorant self-righteous teams of liberals cause 80% of the violence in this country, because you ignore the science and word of law that people are supposed to be receiving professional treatment and rehabilitation models, along with safe homes to live in and the necessaries of life Abraham Maslow outlines.  You can’t even name yourselves, you are ‘the establishment’ you are what the poor traumatised citizens in our modern world are fighting against.  Your team are suffering a mass psychosis bought on by abuse of power and ignorance – I understand when you see people being hurt you want to hurt those who are doing it – that’s what you do, even if you say something different.  From my extensive study into stress disorders and violence this is exactly what we should not do, this shows a complete lack of understanding of not only the science of violence but religious doctorine – do you know what that is – unconditional love and caring for the poor and less fortunate, which we no longer do after 30 years of radicalised neo-liberal terrorism.  Terrorists that advance the rich, disadvantage the middle class and persecute the disabled poor. (Please refer to the Terrorism Suppression Act which says you are not allowed to destroy infrastructure & cause harm to citizens, which cutting social housing & mental health facilities/services has done!).

You are the murderers, you are the abusers, you are the self-righteous mentally disturbed liberals who create this violence in others, you know disabled abuse victims are being denied the health care and justice they are entitled to by law and you condone it for your own selfish ignorant ends.  YOU ARE THE LIBERAL ESTABLISHMENT – you create the violent fascist right wing bigots New Zealand media are frightened of, you create the racists, the ableists, the bigots the haters.  You persecute some of the most vulnerable neglected people in our country and then you give yourselves accolades for it.  Your team of liberals is suffering a mass psychosis of delusions and HIGHLY destructive passive aggressive behaviour, which I am sure a professional psychological assessment by an appropriately qualified mental health professional would expose.  I have a professional assessment and am considered intelligent, not having a personality disorder and not delusional.

If you don’t listen to what I know and my solutions, if you don’t ensure disabled mentally injured men women and children are receiving what they are entitled to under ACC, health, disability, welfare, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws then you are corrupt and are personally responsible for the violence.

I live in a sick sick country in a sick sick world and it is self-righteous liberals like yourselves that have caused it.  Looking forward to next year’s election and the exposing of the crimes liberal mentally disturbed passive aggressives in ‘the establishment’ have perpetrated.

Sincerely

JR

Civil Society Actor

PERSECUTED WHISTLEBLOWER

HUMAN SEWAGE LIVING IN THE DARKLANDS

 

 

New Zealand Police Assault Day 2 & 3 Emails

 Mike (Masterton Police),

I have never done anything but be raped, hurt and beg for the care I needed and know I am entitled to.  I have never done a protest that wasn’t justified in a way that I know was reasonable in a civilised and just society.  I have never physically hurt anybody and never been hurt by a man until the rape & then police started hurting me for my protests.  I don’t understand, I know what the law says, I know ACC, mental health and the government aren’t following them, I know that is hurting disabled abuse victims like me and I don’t understand?  I don’t want to live this revolting life – if I can’t work I don’t want to live and yet your officers are saying this is my fault.

I’ve told you before my OT in 2009 and I had just started working on doing some role playing around going for a job interview – that’s the reason I can’t get a job.  After the abused child/man who raped me was found not guilty even when he admitted I was asleep when he started the assault my psychy couldn’t deal with it – its called overwhelming trauma.  So I became phobic of going for job interviews – I did try and do some things myself but everything failed because I got too stressed and couldn’t cope.

OH LORD I WISH I WAS DEAD – SHOT WITH A BULLET RIGHT THROUGH THE HEAD – Google it and you’ll see the rest of the lyrics – which according to your police officers are all lies and I’m offered heaps of care but refuse it. WTF.

Please don’t send them here again, I’m not going to kill myself but I know the next few days are going to be bad – really really bad.  My mother text me yesterday angry about me not going to my uncle’s funeral when everybody else was there.  Do you know how many family events I have not be able to go to since I was raped, the person found not guilty and ACC etc refused to provide me the treatment care and rehabilitation I am entitled to under law?  Did you know my family would never let me look after my nieces and nephews, yet they keep telling me how great my own children are.

Crying – wish I was dead, looking at the bruises and swelling on my hands from yesterday for chalking a swastika on the Carterton police station.  I would suggest you do some research into WWII and the creation of UN and human, civil and political rights – I have. :-( (((((

Sincerely

HUMAN SEWAGE

______________________________________________

From: JR
Sent: Sunday, 7 August 2016 10:55 a.m.
To: SUTTON, Michael
Subject: Don’t want to get officers into trouble & more pissed off with me – just want this hatred & resentment to stop :-(

Just want you and them to promise they won’t hurt me like that again – to realise what I do is just chalk and words – its non-violent and its real.  I don’t insult the police in my protests I beg them for help and challenge them for not upholding the law for everybody rich and poor.

_____________________________________________________

From: JR
Sent: Monday, 8 August 2016 7:21 a.m.
To: SUTTON, Michael
Subject: Further to what happened on Friday

Mike,

Lost the plot yesterday about what happened on Friday, couldn’t stop crying, ended up at Emergency at the hospital because I didn’t have the money for the after hours doctor.

Went there to get all the bruises recorded, especially the ones on tops of my hands, recounting what happened caused a severe trauma reaction.  While waiting for the doctor alone ended up curled up in a ball (foetal position) in the corner of the assessment room, eyes closed and fingers in my ears as I couldn’t handle all the stimulation and it was only way I could calm myself.  Rocking sitting on the side of the bed wouldn’t do it.  Have to have a wall behind me – same position I ended up in at the police station in Masterton, after Alan had finished threatening me and giving me a hard time.

Doctor was a really nice Middle Eastern man – he knew exactly what was happening and was very nice to me – he was also upset when he realised it was the police that had caused this.  I’m sure when he came to New Zealand he thought he had left behind this sort of violent behaviour by those in authority over powerless citizens.

I am still in shock about what happened  – those two officers completely lost it, the Maori officer is a bully and I can’t imagine the damage he is doing in the community.  He was the one I made the complaint to about High Court Security – can you please ensure he is taken off that case immediately.

Also who instructed those other two officers to come to my house and try the Misuse of a Telephone charge again?  Those officers were not aware of Dr Alan Doris’ report about my behaviour – why not – you have a copy?  ACC and police cannot use the law to persecute a disabled person fighting for their rights to health care and justice.  Especially when they have been driven ‘mad’ with medical neglect and illegally denied health care they are entitled to.  The ticking I suffer from is related to the tourettes type disorder I have developed due to what ACC have done (or not done).  ACC have been told this by Dr Doris, they followed his advice and ignored all the swearing until I asked for a recording of ‘how unwell I had become’ under the Privacy Act.   When they thought I was going to take them to court they USED police and an insignificant minor charge to further persecute me by dragging me through court.   I have the email if you want to see it, my lawyer certainly will be.

I am also still in shock at all the things officers said about being offered care and refusing it – that’s not how it is at all.  If I had been given the professional care I am entitled to under ACC, health, disability, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws then I wouldn’t be in this situation would I.  If I had had my rehabilitation from 2009 reinstated as required by two ACC reviews then I wouldn’t have ZERO services, be highly suicidal/unwell and protesting with such passion – would I, this is my life we are talking about – this is what I am fighting for.  Pretty sure one thing you and others realise is I’M NOT STUPID – I have NO services, not even a counsellor because ACC refuse to accommodate impairments related to my disorder.  They create barriers to accessing anything, ask Jenny Kirby why I can’t see her at the moment.  They refuse to apply a professional rehabilitation model in relation to my care just choosing random disconnected ideas that I am unable (because of a deterioration of my mental injury) to act on, they know this, because I email them regularly, and they do nothing.  ACC are corrupt and criminals under Sections 150A 151 155 and 157 of the Crimes Act, plus Crimes of Torture Act – I know it and I’m sure you know it too.

Today is the last day for submissions on New Zealand’s adoption of the United Nations Optional Protocol on Rights of People with Disabilities.  ACClaim Otago are fighting to get this in place as it will mean disabled people like myself can make complaints to the United Nations when our government violate the Declaration on Disabled Rights.  Why do you think an organisation set up to fight ACC is doing this?  Because they know as well as I do ACC are corrupt and criminally negligent in their dealings with mentally injured people and others.

I would suggest to save me the trauma and you the embarrassment we have a meeting and sort this stuff out before greedy lawyers get dragged into it and we take up court time and taxpayers money trying to protect ACC when everybody knows how corrupt, negligent and cruel they are.  Police are there to uphold the law, not be used by corrupt, criminally negligent, abusive government agencies to BEAT ME BLACK WITH BLUE.

The power Bill of Rights and Human Rights laws give me seems to be extremely difficult for some of your officers to handle.  I am a disabled non-violent Civil Society Actor as defined by the United Nations – please read the UN documents that give me this status and understand the role people like me play in society.  Please also note the rights I have to be challenging and cause offence if the situation warrants it – which also justifies my behaviour towards ACC – even when I can’t stop myself from doing it.  I am sure the people who established these guidelines were well aware of human behaviour in the face of injustice, discrimination and tyranny.

Along with the above as defence I will be providing ‘religious/ethical/cultural’ evidence that people born in the Year of the Dragon (Taniwha) are prone to not handle stress well and the need to ‘breath fire’ when suffering or seeing injustice around them or they develop psychoses.  We are here to hold a mirror to society and have strong ethical and moral beliefs that drive us.

Not sure if I have told you but have been in contact with the OHCHR (Office of the High Commissioner for Human Rights – pacific region) in Fiji who protect NZers rights – what has just happened with police is just more proof International human, disabled, civil and political rights are NOT being upheld in New Zealand.  Chalking a swastika on a police station in chalk that is easily removed is hardly cause for physical assault, especially after the person has just experienced the type of discrimination, degradation and insults I had.

Will send the complaint to IPCA, just for their records, it is them refusing to follow up the other cruelty and intimidation of officers and use of the law against me that has caused this situation.  I AM NOT THE ENEMY, I AM NOT A CRIMINAL, I CARE PASSIONATELY ABOUT PEOPLE DISABLED BY MENTAL INJURY AND THE FACT THEY ARE NOT GETTING THE PROFESSIONAL CARE THEY ARE ENTITLED TO AND HURTING THEMSELVES AND OTHERS.

Kia kaha to us all.

JR

Civil Society Actor

HUMAN SEWAGE

 

New Zealand Police Assault Day 2 Emails

@police.govt.nz>
Sent: Saturday, 6 August 2016 7:25 a.m.
To: JR
Subject: Re: New Complaint of Unnecessarily Violent Arrest yesterday 5 August 2016 – Plus Privacy Act Request

Jayne
This is to acknowledge I have received and read your email.
I will notify our Professional Standards Office in Wellington who will initiate a complaint inquiry.
You are still entitled to make a separate complaint to the IPCA.
I will seek information and explanations from the staff involved.
I don’t believe we have cctv inside or outside the Carterton police station but will check this.  The area outside may be covered by Council cctv.
Mike

Sent from my iPhone

Mike,

Thank you – and thank you for getting back to me so quickly I dont’ feel as frightened when I know what is happening.  It does appear though that my previous complaints have caused a lot of resentment with some officers which is really sad.  I never make them to cause trouble, I make them because I know there are a lot of people, perhaps with stress disorders like mine, that can’t make them and how will officers understand who do it wrong.

I’m a good person Mike, I don’t hurt people they hurt me and the idea I have been offered ‘professional’ health care and rehabilitation and refused it is absolutely ludicrous.  Crying now – I don’t want to spend my life fighting for the care I am entitled to and need – for me and others – however because I am a good person and care more about other people than myself I don’t act on the suicidal hell in my head – I do my best to make a difference in the world using the knowledge I have acquired and the intelligence I was given.  I tried for so many years to heal myself, it didn’t work, my dysfunction got worse not better – of course that was severely aggravated by my unstable living situation – and since my kids left home unsafe living situations.

I think I’ve worked out where the corruption in ACC and mental health is – its not only about being denied services – its more about being denied a professional treatment and rehabilitation process.  Also the doctors who have backed up ACC and mental health I barely knew and were not qualified to make comment.  The people who were are Dr Alan Doris, Jenny Kirby, Glenda van der ven Long (Occupational Therapist) and mental health worker Donna – those people I worked with, they were professional and used a professional process.  Particularly the OT, they will tell you how hard I worked to overcome my phobias created by the sexual abuse, not guilty verdict and ongoing neglect and trauma.  They were all opposed to ACC removing my care in 2009.

Also ACC offering me care at Ashburn Hall, which I begged for years ago but was refused, in isolation to a comprehensive rehabilitation programme in my community – based on the Whare Tapa Wha model is not professional and never going to work.  I can barely leave town, couldn’t go to my uncle’s funeral (which I am very upset about) and recently went to visit my daughter and sister in Whakatane which was the first time since I was raped, I have chosen to go away, rather than been expected to by a friend or relative.  ACC knew I had serious issues with getting to Dunedin, they are supposed to accommodate those – they refused, the woman they have got as my case manager is not a health professional, she doesn’t know the law and she doesn’t follow professional processes – especially in the area of disability (refer the NZ Disability Strategy which I am currently making a submission on).

I’m going on sorry.

Jayne

 

New Zealand Police Assault Complaint Not Dealt With

Been protesting outside Masterton Police Station again today :-( Two officers came out after about an hour to check on my sign, which was directed at the Inspector leading Wairarapa police which said “DONNA COWARD STOP ignoring police assault of disabled abuse victim”.  One who spoke to me was a nicer one I know but I couldn’t even reply, just froze, tried not to cry, shake or cower from them, had my head hanging down and focused on my breathing until they left.

Also had several people come up to me and supported what I was doing, told me a few stories as well about those officers who are arseholes – who give all of them a bad name.  Couldn’t talk much as didn’t want to cry.

I realise people don’t believe the police would assault a woman so I decided to post the emails I sent following the assault begging for it to be sorted out because I had become very frightened of all police and the thought of coming to my home again was giving me nightmares.  I am not an unreasonable person, all I want is an apology and promise from the two who assaulted me that they would never hurt me like that again.

Police Complaints Authority (IPCA) are involved and have contacted me recently and said they refuse to deal with the assault until April 2017, after my charges of Misuse of A Telephone and Graffiti are heard.  Legally the assault has nothing to do with the charges, IPCA are extremely vindictive people just like police they investigate, they are delaying this because they know it causes me significant distress and hoping I will commit suicide.

This is the first email I sent – to one of the head people at Masterton Police who was supposed to be looking out for me after I was violently arrested and humiliated Xmas Eve 2 years ago – when police hid the complaint I made and had to apologise about the violent arrest & humiliation.

EMAIL TO MASTERTON POLICE
New Complaint of Unnecessarily Violent Arrest yesterday 5 August 2016 – Plus Privacy Act Request

Mike,

I want to throw up writing this to you, but I know that’s what I have to do – I will contact Complaints in Wellington on Monday so I can get another email to send this too as not sure if I can trust you to do anything.

What happened yesterday is as much a result of the two previous complaints I have made about inappropriate cruel behaviour of police officers not being dealt with – as it is with discrimination on the basis of my disability and trying to stand up for my rights.

Firstly, under the Privacy Act and as part of this complaint can I please request a copy of the CCTV footage from inside & outside Carterton Police Station between 1.45pm and 2.45 pm, when I went there to make a complaint about two police threatening me at my home over Misuse of a Telephone complaints ACC was making.

I arrived to make a complaint about police turning up at my house yet again threatening me with misuse of a telephone, when only a matter of weeks ago charges were dropped, my lawyer gave me a list of reasons – one being the Alan Doris report detailing my tourettes/insulting/swearing stuff.  According to your staff it was because the person died.  For at least 10 mins I got every cliché in the book, including the lie that people had tried to help me but me but I refuse care.  Comments about me being mentally ill which is why I protest all the time and make this my job.  Derogatory comments about how I take police to court when I know my rights have been violated.

I was so upset that Alan, who I thought understood as he had been so nice to me in the past, actually thought the same as ALL the other officers about me being a time waster, liar, etc etc.  It is getting difficult to remember what they said as my brain rejects discrimination and that sort of hatred and ignorance – its just too painful and causes me to become highly suicidal – why would anybody want to live in this hell hole country with a stress disorder and reliant on abusive unprofessional mental health services.

I left the station very upset at many of the things that had been said – but at least I know what is being said – I just never understood why you refused to protect me under the Crimes Act, now I do.  The only way peaceful way I could react to what I had just been subjected to was go back to my car, get my chalk pen, go back to the station and chalk a swastika and CORRUPT on the front window.  I didn’t think oh this is going to get me arrested, or oh I’m going to be violently hurt by those police, I just do it – I know it is not against the law to protest in this way.  Bill of Rights law and the right to protest has a measure of reasonableness and what is justified in a civil society.  What happened next was out of all proportion to what I did.

The Maori policeman – same one who reluctantly took my complaint against High Court Security last week – came out grabbed me and proceeded to assault me and throw me on the ground.  I was freaking out, I never resist arrest and yet this man was really hurting me, he was digging his fingers into the tops of my hands so I was screaming, my hands are all bruised and sore.  He also grabbed my ear and twisted it, along with my left arm being twisted and thrown to the ground.  I have a bad bruise up the inside of my right arm, I think caused by the chalk pen somehow – when I showed them the bruise they kept saying it wasn’t them it had been there for ages – it was really strange.  I can appreciate they didn’t realise what they had done but to vehemently deny it was.  Alan was also part of assaulting me, I remember him with his knee on me on the ground.  I’m sure the CCTV footage will show you what happened.

I was tightly handcuffed, which cut into my wrist really badly so by the time I got to Masterton station my hand was blue and tingling – its now 4am and I havn’t been able to sleep and the bruise on my right wrist and hand are really sore.

I was put in the police car and taken to Masterton, Alan talked the whole way, his words dripping with sarcasm and obvious hatred, it was very distressing.  Every question about why I couldn’t get care I answered or explained but he refused to believe anything I said – I’m mentally ill after all – he just got nastier and more insulting.  Threatened me with finding out just how nasty he could be if I didn’t co-operate fully or said anything to defend myself.  Said something about pulling the victim card.

I mentioned there are several other things happening in my life at the moment that are causing me huge stress, particularly my flatmate who has a dog and been breaking things but not repairing or replacing him – he is very strange and I need him to leave but as usual I can’t say anything because my disorder kicks in and my mouth just won’t say the words.  Alan just became angry with me about it.  I also mentioned my uncle had died and all my family were in Nelson for the funeral but I couldn’t go mostly because I couldn’t trust my flatmate, plus the cost and the fact I am so fragile at the moment and it is not safe to be around my family – they insuilt me for not working.  I find being away from home very difficult – I find being at home very difficult when I get continuous visits from police for whatever reason.

When at Masterton police station I started to go into survival mode and curl up in a ball rocking backwards and forwards – I asked for a woman officer and was refused.  After what happened in Wellington last week I’m starting to freak out about being around men bullying and standing over me.  I ended up curled up in a ball in the cell or rocking backwards and forwards to try and calm myself.  I was so cold as I had gone into shock.  I asked for a doctor as my arm was really hurting and I thought it might have been some clot as a result of the handcuffs, the pain was shooting all the way up my am to my chest.  The ambulance was called and it was another man who said the bruising was from a blunt instrument and offered me pain relief, which I refused.

He left and CATT team turned up, I started swearing at them – as I do – and they left, why anybody would expect me to deal with the man who has rejected me from mental health services for over a decade is beyond my comprehension.  The stories people have told me about that man and he still has credibility and a job – even though it is only ACTING head of mental health for the past decade.

While I was waiting I became very cold, I had only just got over the flu and shock had set in, I asked for a blanket repeatedly but was refused.

I asked for a lawyer because Alan said he was going to keep me in the cells for as long as he chose and I was really frightened – I know you can’t hold someone with mental health issues longer than six hours, which is why I asked for a lawyer.  He bought me in a laminated piece of paper with the names on it – I knew my last lawyer Susie  was away and I don’t know any of the others so I said he could choose anybody.  I also told him I only wanted a lawyer because he was going to make me stay in the cells.   I thought Alan went away to call a lawyer but he didn’t.

He came back and said I would have to sign for my things and then leave the building.  I completely freaked out, apparently I was to catch a bus back to Carterton in the pouring rain – it wasn’t the rain that freaked me out – I can’t catch buses when I’m a mess like I was.  That’s the reason I havn’t been able to see the counsellor because ACC refuse to pay for a taxi, I can’t drive myself because I become too upset when going to counselling and I can’t catch a bus either.  People would see me crying, I would be completely humiliated, I wouldn’t even know how or where to catch it from as I become quite disoriented when that traumatised.  I ended up curled up in a ball in the corner under the counter with my hands over my ears mostly, rocking, repeating over and over I can’t catch a bus, I can’t catch a bus.  He just got angrier with me, threatened me with being forcibly removed from HIS station and went away to get others to help him.  I was so scared I just curled up in an even tighter ball in the corner.

At one point I said something about how scared I was after they assaulted me – he got really angry at that and told me he had not done anything of the sort and there was no way he was going to give me a ride anywhere after accusing him of it.  I explained that I thought it was mostly the other officer that did it, caused the bruising, but I didn’t really know, because he was involved in what happened outside Carterton Police station but I don’t remember what part he played.  I just remember being hurt for no reason and trying to do everything to make them both stop - ie being completely passive and silent and defending myself by curling up in a ball.

I’m going to be sick.

All those horrible things they said come back to me in flashbacks which make me really unwell.  Like their comments about me making a career out of protesting etc – if I had the care I am entitled to I wouldn’t be protesting.  I make it my job because I am so unwell and I don’t want to die, I want my care back so I can heal and return to work.  What person would choose to live in poverty with no job and a future of homelessness and dysfunction.  I have a report saying I’m intelligent, without the care I need I will die and suffer for the rest of my life – I’m only 51 of course I fight for what I am entitled to.  Also it keeps my mind occupied – I’m not the sort of person that reads fiction all day, watches movies and spends there days asleep, wandering around, drugged or drunk – like most mentally ill people rotting on welfare that I know.

I also have a skin cancer that has returned and am worried about it because last time I had the money to have it removed, this time I have to rely on health system and it will take months – it has already taken four weeks just to get on the waiting list.

Alan eventually offered me the option of going to get my car across from police station in Carterton, which I agreed to – my car is my safe place when I am away from home and I thought I would be OK to drive home.  While waiting for him in the reception of the police station, I was so so cold, I was frightened of all the people around me and cowered when someone came out from inside the building.  I sat there mostly rocking backwards and forwards with my hands over my ears.  I remember becoming really distressed, sobbing and crying, whimpering that I wanted to go home, please I just want to go home, please I just want to go home.

I was arrested around 2pm and got home around 6.30pm.  I’m exhausted and tried to sleep but it only lasted 2 hours and I woke up crying because my hand/wrist was aching and I can’t believe what happened – all this for begging for the care I am entitled to under ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws.   Last week I couldn’t sleep on my right side because of the bruising from High Court Security and this week its my left.  I have won two ACC reviews and still they refuse to reinstate my care – they offer me things knowing I can’t act on them because I am now so unwell.  I have the support of Dr Doris and Jenny Kirby, plus I am sure all those people who worked with me in 2009 when I did have the beginnings of a professional rehabilitation plan.

If you think like those two officers think about me being offered heaps of professional care etc and refusing – then you are very very wrong.  I can explain everything and I am sure these two would back up what I am saying about the ‘phobias’ after everything that has happened.

I am tired now, its 5am and I think my flu is returning after being so cold yesterday and so traumatised, I’ll see if I can sleep.

Please make this stop I am begging you, please uphold the law, I just want to get better and go back to work so I don’t have to live with people who take advantage of me and steal from me – or attempt suicide.

Please make this stop – I am begging you – I’m going to be contacting the United Nations about what is going on.  There are rules and laws, you just can’t treat a disabled woman like this – especially one who knows her rights and is non-violent.

Please note also my screaming at ACC is not a threat of harm, it is more a warning about what spirit is going to do to them if they don’t provide the treatment care and rehabilitation for people mentally injured by abuse and trauma.  When I am so unwell because of being denied care I am entitled to all I can do is hope and pray what happened to me, at the hands of a badly abused child that never got the ACC care he was entitled to, happens to them – as they are the ones causing this nightmare.  As you know I go tourettes on it I am so angry and frustrated – I never used to swear   I also know the science of trauma and I know the more we dont’ help people, the more people traumatised around them and it just gets bigger and bigger – which is why our prison population is exploding.

I just want me and others to get the care I know we are entitled to – and the safe homes to live in, which we are also entitled to.

God please help me -

God please help you, I know those officers probably didn’t mean to hurt me like they did, something came over them, it was really scary – they just lost all reason.  Its weird, its like they are trying to cover up guilt, or attack something that they know is wrong but also they know is weak.  Its like they’re attacking all vulnerable people like me – yes vulnerable, or more correctly fragile, they’re attacking all poor people or disadvantaged people because they want to believe everything they see on TV and the media about how great NZ is – when it is not.

Please help me, there are so many angry people in the Wairarapa and around New Zealand I just know things are going to blow – even worse than they have so far this year – I can feel it all around me – people are so angry and tired of struggling while the very richest make life better for themselves and harder for everybody else.

Can you please advise you have received this complaint and the Privacy Act request and about how long it will take to be investigated and dealt with – please also tell me if you are going to do nothing, rather than me being ignored.

Sincerely

JR
Civil Society Actor
HUMAN SEWAGE