What a day after 18 months of waiting apparently I’m not guilty of Wilful Trespass but am guilty of Graffiti – but I won’t be punished or sentenced unless I commit another crime – WHICH I DEFINITELY WILL BE.
So got to Lower Hutt court – which is 1 hour drive from home (please note: I can’t find a flatmate so rent is $260 & invalids benefit is $410) petrol cost $20. If I wanted to get the decision in Masterton I would have had to wait until March 2018 before the revolting corrupt fascist elitist VERY OLD judge was here again and I would have killed myself having to wait that long.
I was nervous of course, waiting outside court was a young man sitting on the low walls around the front area, with gardens full of cigarette butts. He offered me a cigarette a couple of times to deal with the stress – so I did. Big sign on the Lower Hutt court house said NO SMOKING – should have got a photo.
We talked about why I was there, he was 100% behind what I was doing and felt the same way about the government, inequality, justice, etc. Was nervous and needed to do something.
I went and did some chalking in front of the court house that said:
NZ law No 1
Westminster Statute the 1st
- common right be done to all rich as poor
NZ law No 2
No-one shall be destroyed and everyone shall have access to right and justice
We’re not shares to be traded
We’re not pawns in a game
We’re not doing OK
And we’re not the ones to blame
Then a comment about how if wealthy govt violate Laws 1 & 2 then poor people don’t have to abide by any laws wealthy govt makes.
While I was doing it a young officer came along and started asking me questions, telling me I had been in trouble before for chalking and that I shouldn’t be doing it. I told him it was all legal and I wasn’t going to stop, that I knew my rights, it was chalk. He asked me what it was all about – my response was – can’t you read. He kept annoying me and I got angry, I don’t have to answer his questions, told him politely several times to leave me alone, he didn’t so I started swearing at him. Got very heated and he threatened me with being arrested and put in prison – I think the prison threat was pretty funny. Came very close to being arrested BEFORE COURT.
Thankfully not far from us was the man I had just been talking to and a Dominion Post journalist. So I started raising my voice so they knew what was going on – there was no way I wanted to get arrested BEFORE COURT and NO WAY I was backing down when he was the one annoying me. The officer asked me why I was being loud, so I told him, to make sure that journalist over there hears what happens to disabled activists like me for writing statements and poetry about justice on the street (well actually it was on court property technically). Photos are on my facebook page /jrmurphypoetmusician
I finished my chalking while police officer phoned his boss and talked for quite a long time before he came back – with a vastly different attitude – I was just finishing. He asked me a really cool question about why I had said poor people dont have to follow the law if their Westminister & Magna Carta rights had been violated. Told him the story about 1200s when they were feuding and some people decided the fighting needed to stop, so they decided on a set of rules (LAWS) But there was NO WAY the peasants would agree to the rules if the rich didn’t have to – or were treated better.
Magna Carta also guaranteed above all else that govt wouldn’t destroy you and everybody would have access to right and justice. Which currently doesn’t happen and is why we have so much violence – previous intelligent humans knew some pretty cool and interesting things about human behaviour under persecution – go figure. I think man has become more stupid as we have evolved – or maybe its just those who lead us – groan.
Police officer also said he didn’t agree with what was happening to mentally ill people in the system. I said how good that was to hear and all peaceful revolutions succeeded when police refused to take up arms against CITIZENS. (Isn’t it a shame we don’t have this sort of news or discussion on mainstream media?)
While I was chalking my poem a young man came past on a skateboard – loved what I was doing. Said he was working homeless, things weren’t good, police had offered to lock him up in the cells for few nights if he needed somewhere to stay – they weren’t kidding, they actually were trying to help him. He had mental health issues as well.
I went back to sit down and another man arrived, he had a cool music box with him in a bag, big Maori/Samoan man. We started talking and I discovered he had Complex PTSD like me, he was up on charges of assaulting a police officer, resisting arrest etc. He was really worried (was expecting bracelet or prison for 3 mths) – the things he was describing about his behaviour were TYPICAL PTSD symptoms.
It was 9am, he said he didn’t have to be there until 2.30pm – I said he should keep busy, perhaps go down the river or to some big trees, that might help – it helped me in the past. He said if he left he didn’t think he would return, so i agreed with him about staying. He revealed to me – by the sounds of it all the talk about abused CYFS kids getting an inquiry had been triggering memories of his own abuse.
He said people told him he shouldn’t bottle it up, but he couldn’t let it out either cause he couldn’t control it and someone would get hurt – oh boy do I know how that feels – probably not as violently as him but I know the feeling very well. I assured him he was right about not wanting to talk about what happened if he was getting violent with it – I told him how I was protesting about professional care for abuse victims like him and me, and health care that would help us through dealing with really bad trauma. it took only a few minutes and we were talking like long lost friends – that happens a lot with me when I come across people with Complex PTSD. Cause I have studied it for so many years I understand it very well and understand people who have it – people who don’t have it DO NOT UNDERSTAND.
We talked about not letting people get to you, when some toxic triggering shit came towards you how to pretend in your minds eye you are dodging it, it flies right past and ends up in a basket behind you. Especially useful for inconsiderate, degrading or abusive families you supposed to get help from. He heard me swearing at officer as well & understood. Officer came back past and I apologised for swearing at him – I never used to swear – but then I wasn’t a terrorised persecuted disabled abuse victim being denied health care, a job, a safe home and justice back then.
I reassured him everything would be OK now we had a Labour government & Kelvin Davis was in the media recently saying how he was going to help people who ended up in prison system – especially those with mental health issues. I told him to make sure he reiterated his mental injury from his violent childhood in CYFS care from 5 yrs old.
He told me about a time when CYF worker had dogs lead around his neck, the lead was slipped under a closed door and the man was pulling it tight so J…. couldn’t breath. Another child was yelling at the man he was going blue but he said something abusive and ignored it. J….. passed out and remembered coming too being dragged along the corridor. He said a nice social worker at the CYFS home tried to stop and expose the violent abuse but was sacked instead.
(Just so people know, even though he said he didn’t want to talk about it, when you meet someone who understands sometimes a particuarly bad unresolved trauma will come up and next minute you are telling a complete stranger.) Forcing this process when the person is not in a safe emotional environment – IS NOT GOOD, IS IN FACT DANGEROUS AND LIFE-THREATENING TO THE PERSON. Getting drunk often brings it out in the worst way – avoiding alcohol helps but its not DEALING WITH it.
Was so cool to meet him and hopefully help him through his day/life – he didn’t have anybody supporting him either. Made sure he knew me and lots of other people felt exactly like him and had same problems. I’ve tried to start Stress Disorder Support Groups before but govt wouldn’t let me – I don’t reakon they want all disabled people like us together because we would validate the symptoms of our EXTREMELY DEBILITATING AND SOMETIMES TERRIFYING DISORDER and work out our government, police and justice system were purposely persecuting mentally injured and ill disabled people.
A Dominion Post journalist came along, he was there for my case, but I didn’t want to talk to him – told him I didn’t like journalists so he backed off – which was cool. He talked to my lawyer by text to find out what was happening. Didn’t take any photos of my chalking or poetry of course.
Several random people took photos and video of my chalking – which is awesome – more uploads and shares the better – more empowered people will be.
Next person I met was a Maori guy who was representing himself in court, had done it a few times before – he hated the justice system, oppressors of the poor and Maori – he was really cool too and admired what I was doing. Again I was talking to someone like I had known him for years after 5 mins. He would have heard me going APESHIT at the judge when I was convicted – told him I was going to sing and I did.
Went into court and watched previous case – AGAIN a mental health case involving violence and a man with anxiety and depression (ie suicidal). How many cases of mentally ill disabled people are in our courts at the moment????? It is common knowledge two thirds of people in jail are disabled with mental health issues – same people National govt took away right to vote from – now why do you think that was?????
Check out rest of my page and ask yourself WHY we hearing nothing from our two disability commissioners, the Human Rights Commission, Law Commission, Ombudsman, Auditor-General, Mental Health Foundation, etc They not saying anything because a radicalised terrorist aspect of neo-liberalism is the requirement people who are driven to violence by abuse, prolonged neglect and severe stress are completely discredited, denigrated & blamed for their disorder – not the people who abused them or govt/society that neglected them.
I didn’t sleep last night and I have just become very very tired RIGHT NOW – will finish off tomorrow.