Yip, my flatmate has moved out unexpectedly and the rent here is $220 per week – I get $315 – so freaking out. I can’t move four times in one year – that’s fucking cruel. My mental health is…….. fragile.
Plus police organising my meeting with ACC are changing the rules and the woman has pulled out, wouldn’t even speak to me when I tried to phone her yesterday – fucking weird that was. So I’m getting very nervous about what is going to happen next week with Sgt Bradley who is sort of OK but seemed to completely ignore my emails the other day. Shit policemen are bossy, so used to getting their own way, that’s what they hate about me when I stand up to them and so NO.
I phoned Mike Bush’s office and left a message about why the person handling my case had changed and that I wanted a woman involved. The woman I spoke to was really nice and said she had things happen to her and understood my request. It was Mike Bush who ordered Paula Holt to be involved so I want to know what’s changed.
Also Brad is putting off meeting with me, although I have asked him several times, he ignores my question. He refuses to answer my question about if we have met before because I have had two run-ins with arsehole Hutt policemen. He also refuses to assure me the CATT team won’t be called and I won’t be arrested for anything that happens, ie if I start swearing and insulting the woman because of my tourettes. His other recent request is that we meet at the Lower Hutt police station which I didn’t want to do - it was supposed to be Wellington. I also don’t want to meet there because it would be the Hutt/Wairarapa DHB involved and I DON’T TRUST THEM AT ALL. Wellington mental health might be one step up from the Wairarapa sewer I live in.
Have made a complaint about my lawyer to the law society, which should be interesting, got really upset on the phone. Am so emotional, bulimia is really bad too, not bad enough though as I feel I am putting on weight – which makes me feel like shit. No eating disorder services for me though – fuck no – oh well when I have to pay the rent on my own I won’t be able to afford to eat.
Also went to another funeral on Wednesday for a guy I know who committed suicide. Was under mental health services, loaded up on some of the worst psychotropic drugs they have, and just started taking a new one. Gassed himself in his car under the Black Bridge near Greytown. Fucking mental health maggots. A few days later – before I knew about his involvement with mental health I chalked outside Pathways in Masterton. MENTAL HEALTH MAGGOTS PREY ON VULNERABLE ABUSE VICTIMS AND MENTALLY ILL. Two women came out and washed it off while I gave them shit, told them I would be back and keep doing it until something was done about the abusive appauling state of local mental health services. They did not look happy
I told those women they were not allowed to wash off my chalking, that was censorship under the NZ Bill of Rights as they were agents of the NZ government – they told me they could – Am thinking about testing this in court, because I’m a red tape whore and this is a red tape war. Need to keep as busy as I can on things or I’ll fall apart.
Really fucked off I’ve had my twitter account suspended – 2nd time in four years, ain’t too bad I suppose. Was giving Israle Dagg and NZ Rugby shit about promoting the National Party, poor men couldn’t handle it. Also gave the rower shit but I saw they started following me instead of having me suspended – now that’s balls I can admire – of course nothing to see cause I’m suspended.
I don’t like being censored so I phoned NZ Ruby and gave the poor guy shit for it, told him my situation, told him why I thought it was extremely inappropriate for the All Blacks to be promoting a right-wing political party, got really upset. He was stunned mostly, but held on the phone and said he would pass on my concerns so that showed some balls.
Am doing more on facebook, but missing my international links and links to politicians and media – they won’t be missing me I bet. Will focus on getting my YouTube news channel up and running, a friend is helping me pay for some gear, so that should be fun. I like what Vinny Eastwood is doing and going to pay for some comms advice etc. Why pay a university or tech, may as well pay a 3rd or 4th year student.
Got lots of other ideas for protests as well, planning to get arrested for another wilful trespass before Christmas but after I get off the previous three wilful trespass charges.
Also planning to organise a street protest over mental health services here – I can’t sit back and do nothing.